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andthenhesaidwhathehadtosayonthesubjectofRoscoeandSibyl,hisopinionmeeting,asheexpected,awarmlyhostilereception。ButtheresultofthisconversationwasthatbytelephoniccommandRoscoeawaitedhisfather,anhourlater,inthelibraryattheNewHouse。
"Gurneysaysyourwife"sabletotravel,"Sheridansaidbrusquely,ashecamein。
"Yes。"Roscoeoccupiedadeepchairandsatinthedejectedattitudewhichhadbecomehishabit。"Yes,sheis。"
"Edithhadtoleavetown,andsoSibylthinksshe"llhaveto,too!"
"Oh,Iwouldn"tputitthatway,"Roscoeprotested,drearily。
"No,IhearYOUwouldn"t!"Therewasabittergibeinthefather"svoice,andheadded:"It"sagoodthingshe"sgoin"abroad——ifshe"llstaythere。I
shouldn"tthinkanyofuswantherhereanymore——youleastofall!"
"It"snouseyourtalkingthatway,"saidRoscoe。"Youwon"tdoanygood。"
"Well,whenareyoucomin"backtoyouroffice?"Sheridanusedabrisker,kindertone。"Threeweekssinceyoushowedupthereatall。Whenyougoin"
tobereadytocutoutwhiskeyandalltheresto"thefoolishnessandstartinagain?Yououghttobeabletomakeupforaloto"losttimeandaloto"
spiltmilkwhenthatwomantakesherselfouto"thewayandletsyouandalltherestofusalone。"
"It"snouse,father,Itellyou。IknowwhatGurneywasgoingtosaytoyou。
I"mnotgoingbacktotheoffice。I"mDONE!"
"Waitaminutebeforeyoutalkthatway!"Sheridanbeganhissentry—goupanddowntheroom。"Isupposeyouknowit"stakentwoprettygoodmenaboutsixteenhoursadaytosetthingsstraightandget"emrunnin"rightagain,downinyouroffice?"
"Theymustbegoodmen。"Roscoenoddedindifferently。"IthoughtIwasdoingabouteightmen"swork。I"mgladyoufoundtwothatcouldhandleit。"
"Lookhere!IfIworkedyouitwasforyourowngood。Thereareplentymendriveharder"nIdo,and——"
"Yes。Therearesomethatbreakdownalltheothermenthatworkwith"em。
Theyeitherdie,orgocrazy,orhavetoquit,andarenousetherestoftheirlives。Thelast"smycase,Iguess——"complicatedbydomesticdifficulties"!"
"Yousetthereandtellmeyougiveup?"Sheridan"svoiceshook,andsodidthegesticulatinghandwhichheextendedappealinglytowardthedespondentfigure。"Don"tdoit,Roscoe!Don"tsayit!Sayyou"llcomedownthereagainandbeaman!Thiswomanain"tgoin"totroubleyouanymore。Theworkain"tgoin"tohurtyouifyouhaven"tgothertoworryyou,andyoucangetshuto"thisnastywhiskey—guzzlin";itain"tfastenedonyouyet。Don"tsay——"
"It"snouseonearth,"Roscoemumbled。"Nouseonearth。"
"Lookhere!Ifyouwantanothermonth"svacation——"
"IknowGurneytoldyou,sowhat"stheusetalkingabout"vacations"?"
"Gurney!"Sheridanvociferatedthenamesavagely。"It"sGurney,Gurney,Gurney!AlwaysGurney!Idon"tknowwhattheworld"scomin"towitheverybodyrunnin"aroundsquealin","Thedoctorsaysthis,"and,"Thedoctorsaysthat"!Itmakesmesick!How"sthiscountryexpecttogetitsWorkdoneifGurneyandalltheotheroldnanny—goatskeepupthisblattin"——"Oh,oh!
Don"tliftthatsticko"wood;you"llruinyourNERVES!"Sohesaysyougot"nervousexhaustioninducedbyoverworkandemotionalstrain。"TheyalwaysgottosticktheWorkiniftheyseeachance!Ireckonyoudidhavethe"emotionalstrain,"andthat"sall"sthematterwithyou。You"llbeoveritsoon"sthiswoman"sgone,andWork"stheverythingtomakeyouquitfrettin"
abouther。"
"DidGurneytellyouIwasfittowork?"
"Shutup!"Sheridanbellowed。"I"msosicko"thatman"snameIfeellikeshootin"anybodythatsaysittome!"Hefumedandchafed,swearingindistinctly,thencameandstoodbeforehisson。"Lookhere;doyouthinkyou"redoin"thesquarethingbyme?Doyou?Howmuchyouworth?"
"I"vegotbetweensevenandeightthousandayearclear,ofmyown,outsidethesalary。ThatmuchisminewhetherIworkornot。"
"Itis?Youcould"apulleditoutwithoutme,Isupposeyouthink,atyourage?"
"No。Butit"smine,andit"senough。"
"MyLord!It"saboutwhataCongressmangets,andyouwanttoquitthere!I
supposeyouthinkyou"llgettherestwhenIkickthebucket,andallyouhavetodoislaybackandwait!Youletmetellyourighthere,you"llneverseeonecentofit。Yougoouto"businessnow,andwhatwouldyouknowabouthandlin"itfiveortenortwentyyearsfromnow?BecauseIintendtoSTAY
herealittlewhileyet,myboy!They"deithergetitawayfromyouoryou"dsellforanickelandletitbesplitupand——"Hewhirledabout,marchedtotheotherendoftheroom,andstoodsilentamoment。Thenhesaid,solomnly:
"Listen。Ifyougooutnow,youleavemeinthelurch,withnothin"onGod"sgreenearthtodependonbutyourbrother——andyouknowwhatheis。I"vedependedonyouforitALLsinceJimdied。Nowyou"velistenedtothatdam"
doctor,andhesaysmaybeyouwon"teverbeasgoodamanasyouwere,andthatcertainlyyouwon"tbeforayearorso——probablymore。Now,that"sallalie。Mendon"tbreakdownthatwayatyourage。LookatME!AndItellyou,youcanshakethisthingoff。AllyouneedisalittleGET—upandalittlegumption。Mendon"tgoawayforYEARSandthencomebackintoMOVING
businesseslikeours——theylosethestrings。Andifyoucould,Iwon"tletyou——ifyoulaydownonmenow,Iwon"t——andthat"sbecauseifyoulaydownyouproveyouain"tthemanIthoughtyouwere。"Heclearedhisthroatandfinishedquietly:"Roscoe,willyoutakeamonth"svacationandcomebackandgotoit?"
"No,"saidRoscoe,listlessly。"I"mthrough。"
"Allright,"saidSheridan。Hepickeduptheeveningpaperfromatable,wenttoachairbythefireandsatdown,hisbacktohisson。"Good—by。"
Roscoerose,hisheadhanging,buttherewasadullreliefinhiseyes。"BestIcando,"hemuttered,seemingabouttodepart,yetlingering。"Ifigureitoutagooddeallikethis,"hesaid。"Ididn"tKNOWmyjobwasanystrain,andImanagedallright,butfromwhatGur——fromwhatIhear,Iwasjustuptothelimitofmynervesfromoverwork,andthe——thetroubleathomewastheextrastrainthat"sfixedmethewayIam。Itriedtobrace,soIcouldstandtheworkandthetroubletoo,onwhiskey——andthatputthefinishtome!
I——I"mnothittingitashardasIwasforawhile,andIreckonprettysoon,ifIcangettofeelingalittlemoreenergy,Ibettertrytoquitentirely——I
don"tknow。I"mallin——andthedoctorsaysso。IthoughtIwasrunningalongfineuptoafewmonthsago,butallthetimeIwasreadytobust,anddidn"tknowit。Now,then,Idon"twantyoutoblameSibyl,andifIwereyouIwouldn"tspeakofheras"thatwoman,"becauseshe"syourdaughter—in—lawandgoingtostaythatway。Shedidn"tdoanythingwicked。Itwasashocktome,andIdon"tdenyit,tofindwhatshehaddone——encouragingthatfellowtohangaroundherafterhebegantryingtoflirtwithher,andlosingherheadoverhimthewayshedid。Idon"tdenyitwasashockandthatit"llalwaysbeahurtinsideofmeI"llnevergetover。Butitwasmyfault;Ididn"tunderstandawoman"snature。"PoorRoscoespokeinthemostprofoundanddesolateearnest。"Awomancravessociety,andgaiety,andmeetingattractivepeople,andtraveling。Well,Ican"tgivehertheotherthings,butIcangiveherthetraveling——realtraveling,notjustgoingtoAtlanticCityorNewOrleans,thewayshehas,two,threetimes。Awomanhastohavesomethinginherlifebesidesabusinessman。Andthat"sALLIwas。IneverunderstoodtillIheardhertalkingwhenshewassosick,andIbelieveifyou"dheardherthenyouwouldn"tspeaksohard—heartedlyabouther;IbelieveyoumighthaveforgivenherlikeIhave。That"sall。Inevercaredanythingforanygirlbutherinmylife,butIwassobusywithbusinessIputitaheadofher。IneverTHOUGHTabouther,Iwassobusythinkingbusiness。Well,thisiswhereit"sbroughtusto——andnowwhenyoutalkabout"business"tomeI
feelthewayyoudowhenanybodytalksaboutGurneytoyou。Theword"business"makesmedizzy——itmakesmehonestlysickatthestomach。I
believeifIhadtogodown—townandstepinsidethatofficedoorI"dfalldownonthefloor,deathlysick。Youtalkabouta"month"svacation"——andI
getjustassick。I"mrattled——Ican"tplan——Ihaven"tgotanyplans——can"tmakeany,excepttotakemygirlandgetjustasfarawayfromthatofficeasIcan——andstay。We"regoingtoJapanfirst,andifwe——"
Hisfatherrustledthepaper。"Isaidgood—by,Roscoe。"
"Good—by,"saidRoscoe,listlessly。
Sheridanwaiteduntilheheardthesoundoftheouterdoorclosing;thenheroseandpushedatinydisksetinthewall。Jacksonappeared。
"HasBibbsgothomefromwork?"
"Mist"Bibbs?No,suh。"
"TellhimIwanttoseehim,soonashecomes。"
"Yessuh。"
Sheridanreturnedtohischairandfixedhisattentionfiercelyuponthenewspaper。Hefounditdifficulttopursuetheitemsbeyondtheirexplanatoryrubrics——therewasnothingunusualorstartlingtoconcentratehisattention:
"MotormanPutsBlameonBrakes。ThreeKilledwhenCarSlides。"
"BurglarsMakeBigHaul。""BoardWorksApproveBigCar—lineExtension。""Hold—upMenInjureTwo。ManFoundinAlley,SkullFractured。""SickeningStoryToldinDivorceCourt。""PlanNewEighteen—storyStructure。""School—girlMeetsDeathunderAutomobile。""NegroCutsThree。OneDead。""LifeCrushedOut。
ThirdElevatorAccidentinSameBuildingCausesActionbyCoroner。""DeclareMilitiawillbeMenace。PolishSocietiesProtesttoGovernorinChurchRiotingCase。""Short$3,500inAccounts,TrustedManKillsSelfwithDrug。""FoundFrozen。
FamilyWithoutFoodorFuel。BabyDeadwhenParentsReturnHomefromSeekingWork。""MinisterReturnedfromTripAbroadLecturesonBigFutureofOurCity。SeesBigImprovementduringShortAbsence。SaysNoEuropeanCityHoldsCandle。"
(Sheridannoddedapprovinglyhere。)
Bibbscamethroughthehallwhistling,andenteredtheroombriskly。"Well,father,didyouwantme?"
"Yes。Sitdown。"Sheridangotup,andBibbstookaseatbythefire,holdingouthishandstothecracklingblaze,foritwascoldoutdoors。
"Icamewithinsevenoftheshoprecordto—day,"hesaid。"Ihandledmorestripsthandanyotherworkmanhasanydaythismonth。Thenearesttomeissixteenbehind。"
"There!"exclaimedhisfather,greatlypleased。"What"dItellyou?I"dliketohearGurneyhintagainthatIwasn"trightinsendingyouthere——Iwouldjustliketohearhim!Andyou——ain"tyouashamedofmakin"suchafussaboutit?Ain"tyou?"
"Ididn"tgoatitintherightspirittheothertime,"Bibbssaid,smilingbrightly,hisfaceruddyinthecheerfulfirelight。"Ididn"tknowthedifferenceitmeanttolikeathing。"
"Well,IguessI"veprettythoroughlyvindicatedmyjudgement。IguessI
HAVE!Isaidtheshop"dbegoodforyou,anditwas。Isaiditwouldn"thurtyou,andithasn"t。It"sbeenjustexactlywhatIsaiditwouldbe。
Ain"tthatso?"
"Lookslikeit!"Bibbsagreed,gaily。
"Well,I"dliketoknowanyplaceIbeenwrong,firstandlast!Insteado"
hurtingyou,it"sbeenthemakin"ofyou——physically。You"reagoodinchtaller"nwhatIam,andyou"dbeabiggermanthanwhatIamifyou"dgetsomefleshonyourbones;andyouAREgettin"alittle。Physically,it"sstartedyououttobethehuskiestoneo"thewholefamily。Now,then,mentally——that"sdifferent。Idon"tsayitunkindly,Bibbs,butyougottodosomethingforyourselfmentally,justlikewhat"sbegunphysically。AndI"mgoin"tohelpyou。"
Sheridandecidedtositdownagain。Hebroughthischairclosetohisson"s,and,leaningover,tappedBibbs"skneeconfidentially。"Igotplansforyou,Bibbs,"hesaid。
Bibbsinstantlylookedthoroughlyalarmed。Hedrewback。"I——I"mallrightnow,father。"
"Listen。"Sheridansettledhimselfinhischair,andspokeinthetoneofareasonablemanreasoning。"Listenhere,Bibbs。Ihadanotherblowto—day,anditwasahardoneandrightintheface,thoughIHAVEbeenexpectin"itsomelittletimeback。Well,it"sgottobemet。NowI"llbefrankwithyou。
AsIsaidaminuteago,mentallyIcouldn"tevercalledyouexactlystrong。
Youbeenalittleweakbothways,mostofyourlife。NotbutwhatIthinkyouGOTamentality,ifyou"dlearntouseit。Yougotwill—power,I"llsaythatforyou。Ineverknewboyormanthatcouldbestubborner——neveroneinmylife!Now,then,you"veshowedyoucouldlearntorunthatmachinebestofanymanintheshop,innotimeatall。Thatlookstomelikeyoucouldlearntodootherthings。Idon"tdenybutwhatit"sanencouragin"sign。Idon"tdenythat,atall。Well,thathelpsmetothinkthecaseain"tsohopelessasitlooks。You"reallIgottomeetthisblowwith,butmaybeyouain"taspoormaterialasIthought。Yourtellin"meaboutcomin"withinsevenstripsoftheshop"srecordto—daylookstomelikeencouragin"informationbroughtinatjustabouttherighttime。Now,then,I"mgoin"togiveyouaraise。I
wantedtosendyoustraightonupthroughtheshops——ayearortwo,maybe——
butIcan"tdoit。IlostJim,andnowI"velostRoscoe。He"squit。He"slaiddownonme。Ifheevercomesbackatall,he"llbealongtimepickin"
upthestrings,and,anyway,heain"tthemanIthoughthewas。Ican"tcountonhim。IgottohaveSOMEBODYIKNOWIcancounton。AndI"mdowntothis:
you"remylastchance。Bibbs,Igottolearnyoutousewhatbrainsyougotandseeifwecan"tdevelop"emalittle。Whoknows?AndI"mgoin"toputmytimeinonit。I"mgoin"totakeyourightdown—townwithME,andIwon"tbehardonyouifyou"realittleslowatfirst。AndI"mgoin"todothebigthingforyou。I"mgoin"tomakeyoufeelyougottodothebigthingforme,inreturn。I"vevindicatedmypolicywithyouabouttheshop,andnowI"mgoin"toturnrightaroundandswingyou"wayoveraheadofwheretheotherboysstarted,andI"mgoin"tomakeanappealtoyourambitionthat"llmakeyoudizzy!"Hetappedhissononthekneeagain。"Bibbs,I"mgoin"tostartyouoffthisway:I"mgoin"tomakeyouadirectorinthePumpWorksCompany;
I"mgoin"tomakeyouvice—presidentoftheRealtyCompanyandavice—presidentoftheTrustCompany!"
Bibbsjumpedtohisfeet,blanched。"Ohno!"hecried。
Sheridantookhisdismaytobetheexcitementofsuddenjoy。"Yes,sir!Andthere"ssomeprettyfatlittlesalariesgoeswiththosevice—presidencies,andapincho"stockinthePumpCompanywiththedirectorship。YouthoughtIwasprettymeanabouttheshop——oh,Iknowyoudid!——butyouseetheoldmancanplayitbothways。Andsorightnow,theminuteyou"vebeguntomakegoodthewayIwantedyouto,Idealfromthenewdeck。AndI"llkeeponhandin"itoutbiggerandbiggereverytimeyoushowmeyou"rebigenoughtoplaythehandIdealyou。I"mstartin"youwithaprettybigone,myboy!"
"ButIdon"t——Idon"t——Idon"twantit!"Bibbsstammered。
"What"dyousay?"Sheridanthoughthehadnotheardaright。
"Idon"twantit,father。Ithankyou——Idothankyou——"
Sheridanlookedperplexed。"What"sthematterwithyou?Didn"tyouunderstandwhatIwastellin"you?"
"Yes。"
"Yousure?Ireckonyoudidn"t。Ioffered——"
"Iknow,Iknow!ButIcan"ttakeit。"
"What"sthematterwithyou?"Sheridanwashalfamazed,halfsuspicious。
"Yourheadfeelfunny?"
"I"veneverbeenquitesosaneinmylife,"saidBibbs,"asIhavelately。AndI"vegotjustwhatIwant。I"mlivingexactlytherightlife。I"mearningmydailybread,andI"mhappyindoingit。Mywagesareenough。Idon"twantanymoremoney,andIdon"tdeserveany——"
"Damnation!"Sheridansprangup。"You"veturnedSocialist!Youbeenlisteningtothosefellowsdownthere,andyou——"
"No,sir。Ithinkthere"sagreatdealinwhattheysay,butthatisn"tit。"
Sheridantriedtorestrainhisgrowingfury,andsucceededpartially。"Thenwhatisit?What"sthematter?"
"Nothing,"hesonreturned,nervously。"Nothing——exceptthatI"mcontent。I
don"twanttochangeanything。"
"Whynot?"
Bibbshadtheincrediblefollytotrytoexplain。"I"lltellyou,father,ifIcan。Iknowitmaybehardtounderstand——"
"Yes,Ithinkitmaybe,"saidSheridan,grimly。"WhatyousayusuallyisaLITTLEthatway。Goon!"
Perturbedanddistressed,Bibbsroseinstinctively;hefelthimselfateverypossibledisadvantage。Hewasasleeperclingingtoadream——aroughhandstretchedtoshakehimandwakenhim。Hewenttoatableandmadevaguedrawingsuponitwithafinger,andashespokehekepthiseyeslowered。
"Youweren"taltogetherrightabouttheshop——thatis,inonewayyouweren"t,father。"Heglancedupapprehensively。Sheridanstoodfacinghim,expressionless,andmadenoattempttointerrupt。"That"sdifficulttoexplain,"Bibbscontinued,loweringhiseyesagain,tofollowthetracingsofhisfinger。"I——IbelievetheshopmighthavedoneformethistimeifI
hadn"t——ifsomethinghadn"thelpedmeto——oh,notonlytobearit,buttobehappyinit。Well,IAMhappyinit。IwanttogoonjustasIam。AndofallthingsonearththatIdon"twant,Idon"twanttoliveabusinesslife——I
don"twanttobedrawnintoit。Idon"tthinkitISliving——andnowIAM
living。Ihavethehealthfultoil——andIcanthink。InbusinessasimportantasyoursIcouldn"tthinkanythingbutbusiness。Idon"t——Idon"tthinkmakingmoneyisworthwhile。"
"Goon,"saidSheridan,curtly,asBibbspausedtimidly。
"Ithasn"tseemedtogetanywhere,thatIcansee,"saidBibbs。"Youthinkthiscityisrichandpowerful——butwhat"stheuseofitsbeingrichandpowerful?Theydon"tteachthechildrenanymoreintheschoolsbecausethecityisrichandpowerful。Theyteachthemmorethantheyusedtobecausesomepeople——notrichandpowerfulpeople——havethoughtthethoughtstoteachthechildren。Andyetwhenyou"vebeenreadingthepaperI"veheardyouobjectingtothechildrenbeingtaughtanythingexceptwhatwouldhelpthemtomakemoney。Yousaiditwaswastingthetaxes。Youwantthemtaughttomakealiving,butnottolive。WhenIwasalittleboythiswasn"tanuglytown;
nowit"shideous。What"stheuseofbeingbigjusttobehideous?ImeanI
don"tthinkallthishasmeantreallygoingahead——it"sjustbeengettingbiggeranddirtierandnoisier。Wasn"tthewholecountryhappierandinmanywayswiserwhenitwassmallerandcleanerandquieterandkinder?IknowyouthinkI"manutterfool,father,but,afterall,though,aren"tbusinessandpoliticsjustthehousekeepingpartoflife?Andwouldn"tyoudespiseawomanthatnotonlymadeherhousekeepingherambition,butdiditsonoisilyanddirtilythatthewholeneighborhoodwasinacontinualturmoiloverit?Andsupposedshetalkedandthoughtaboutherhousekeepingallthetime,andwasalwayshavingadditionsbuilttoherhousewhenshecouldn"tkeepcleanwhatshealreadyhad;andsuppose,withitall,shemadethehousealtogetherunpeacefulandunlivable——"
"Justoneminute!"Sheridaninterrupted,adding,withterriblecourtesy,"Ifyouwillpermitme?Haveyoueverbeenrightaboutanything?"
"Idon"tquite——"
"Iaskthesimplequestion:Haveyoueverbeenrightaboutanythingwhateverinthecourseofyourlife?Haveyoueverbeenrightuponanysubjectorquestionyou"vethoughtaboutandtalkedabout?Canyoumentiononesingletimewhenyouwereprovedtoberight?"
Hewasflourishingthebandagedhandashespoke,butBibbssaidonly,"IfI"vealwaysbeenwrongbefore,surelythere"smorechancethatI"mrightaboutthis。Itseemsreasonabletosupposesomethingwouldbeduetobringupmyaverage。"
"Yes,Ithoughtyouwouldn"tseethepoint。Andthere"sanotheryouprobablycouldn"tsee,butI"lltakethelibertytomentionit。Youbeenbalkin"allyourlife。PrettymucheverythingIeverwantedyoutodo,you"dletoutSOME
kindofaholler,likeyouarenow——andyetIcan"tseemtorememberoncewhenyoudidn"thavetolaydownanddowhatIsaid。Butgoonwithyourremarksaboutourcityandthebusinessofthiscountry。Goon!"
"Idon"twanttobeapartofit,"saidBibbs,withunwonteddecision。"I
wanttokeeptomyself,andI"mdoingitnow。Icouldn"t,ifIwentdowntherewithyou。I"dbeswallowedintoit。Idon"tcareformoneyenoughtto——"
"No,"hisfatherinterrupted,stilldangerouslyquiet。"You"veneverhadtoearnaliving。Anybodycouldtellthatbywhatyousay。Now,letmeremindyou:you"resleepin"inaprettygoodbed;you"reeatin"prettyfairfood;
you"rewearin"prettyfineclothes。Justsupposeoneo"thesenoisyhousekeepers——me,forinstance——decidedtoletyoudoyourownhousekeepin"。
MayIaskwhatyourpropositionwouldbe?"
"I"mearningninedollarsaweek,"saidBibbs,sturdily。"It"senough。I
shouldn"tmindatall。"
"Who"spayin"youthatninedollarsaweek?"
"Mywork!"Bibbsanswered。"AndI"vedonesowellonthatclipping—machineI
believeIcouldworkuptofifteenoreventwentyaweekatanotherjob。I
couldbeafairplumberinafewmonths,I"msure。I"dratherhaveatradethanbeinbusiness——Ishould,infinitely!"
"Youbettersetaboutlearnin"oneprettydam"quick!"ButSheridanstruggledwithhistemperandagainwaspartiallysuccessfulincontrollingit。"YoubetterlearnatradeoverSunday,becauseyou"reeithergoin"downwithmetomyofficeMondaymorning——or——youcangotoplumbing!"
"Allright,"saidBibbs,gently。"Icangetalong。"
Sheridanraisedhishandssardonically,asinprayer。"OGod,"hesaid,"thisboywascrazyenoughbeforehebegantoearnhisninedollarsaweek,andnowhismoney"sgonetohishead!Can"tYoudonothin"forhim?"Thenheflunghishandsapart,palmsoutward,inafuriousgestureofdismissal。"Getouto"thisroom!Yougotaskullthat"sthicker"nawhale"sthigh—bone,butit"scrackedspangallthewayacross!Youhatedthemachine—shopsobadwhenI
sentyouthere,youwentandstayedsickforovertwoyears——andnow,whenI
offertotakeyououtofitandgiveyouthemint,youhollerfortheshoplikeacalfforitsmammy!You"recracked!Oh,butIgotafinelayouthere!
Onesondied,onequit,andone"saloon!Theloon"sallIgotleft!H。P。
Ellersly"swifehadacrazybrother,andtheyundertooktokeephimatthehouse。Firstmorninghewastherehewalkedstraightthoughaten—dollarplate—glasswindowoutintotheyard。Hesays,"Oh,lookattheprettydandelion!"That"swhatyou"redoin"!Youwanttospendyourlifesayin","Oh,lookattheprettydandelion!"andyoudon"tcareatinker"sdam"whatyoubust!Well,mister,loonornoloon,crackedandcrazyorwhateveryouare,I"lltakeyouwithmeMondaymorning,andI"llworkyouandlearnyou——yes,andI"lllamyou,ifIgotto——untilI"vemadesomethingoutofyouthat"sfittobecalledabusinessman!I"llkeepatyouwhileI"mabletostand,andifIhavetolaydowntodieI"llbewhisperin"atyoutilltheygettheembalmin"—fluidintome!Nowgoon,anddon"tletmehearfromyouagaintillyoucancomeandtellmeyou"vewakedup,youpoor,pitiful,dandelion—pickin"SLEEP—WALKER!"
Bibbsgavehimaqueerlook。Therewassomethinglikereproachinit,foronce;buttherewasmorethanthat——heseemedtobestartledbyhisfather"slastword。
Therewassleetthatevening,withawhoppingwind,butneitherthisstormnorthatotherwhichsoimminentlythreatenedhimheldplaceintheconsciousnessofBibbsSheridanwhenhecameoncemoretothepresenceofMary。Allwasrightinhisworldhashesatwithher,readingMauriceMaeterlinck"sAlladineandPalomides。Thesorrowfullightofthegas—jetmighthavebeenMaymorningsunshineflashingamberandrosethroughtheglowingwindowsoftheSainte—Chapelle,itwassobrightforBibbs。Andwhilethezinc—eaterheldouttobringhimsuchgoldennightsasthese,alltheking"shorsesandalltheking"smenmightnotservetobreakthespell。
Bibbsreadslowly,butinareasonablemanner,asifheweretalking;andMary,lookingathimsteadilyfrombeneathhercurvedfingers,appearedtodiscovernofault。Ithadgrowntobeherhabittolookathimwhenevertherewasanopportunity。Itmaybesaid,intruth,thatwhiletheyweretogether,anditwaslight,shelookedathimallthetime。
WhenhecametotheendofAlladineandPalomidestheyweresilentalittlewhile,consideringtogether;thenheturnedbackthepagesandsaid:"There"ssomethingIwanttoreadover。This:
YouwouldthinkIthrewawindowopenonthedawn……Shehasasoulthatcanbeseenaroundher——thattakesyouinitsarmslikeanailingchildandwithoutsayinganythingtoyouconsolesyouforeverything……Ishallneverunderstanditall。Idonotknowhowitcanallbe,butmykneesbendinspiteofmewhenIspeakofit……
Hestoppedandlookedather。
"Youboy!"saidMary,notveryclearly。
"Ohyes,"hereturned。"Butit"strue——especiallymyknees!"
"Youboy!"shemurmuredagain,blushingcharmingly。"Youmightreadanotherlineover。ThefirsttimeIeversawyou,Bibbs,youwerelookingintoamirror。Doitagain。Butyouneedn"treadit——Icangiveittoyou:"A
littleGreekslavethatcamefromtheheartofArcady!"
"I!I"moneofthehandsatthePumpWorks——andgoingtostayone,unlessI
havetodecidetostudyplumbing。"
"No。"Sheshookherhead。"Youloveandwantwhat"sbeautifulanddelicateandserene;it"sreallyartthatyouwantinyourlife,andhavealwayswanted。Youseemedtome,fromthefirst,themostwistfulpersonIhadeverknown,andthat"swhatyouwerewistfulfor。"
Bibbslookeddoubtfulandmorewistfulthanever;butafteramomentortwothematterseemedtoclarifyitselftohim。"Why,no,"hesaid;"Iwantedsomethingelsemorethanthat。Iwantedyou。"