投诉 阅读记录

第13章

"Iwonderifmotherwillaskmewhatitmeans?"thoughtPearl。

Justthen,sheheardhermother’svoice,andflittingalongaslightlyasoneofthelittlesea—birds,appearedbeforeHesterPrynne,dancing,laughing,andpointingherfingertotheornamentuponherbosom。

"MylittlePearl,"saidHester,afteramoment’ssilence,"thegreenletter,andonthychildishbosom,hasnopurport。Butdostthouknow,mychild,whatthislettermeanswhichthymotherisdoomedtowear?"

"Yes,mother,"saidthechild。"ItisthegreatletterA。Thouhasttaughtmeinthehorn—book。"

Hesterlookedsteadilyintoherlittleface;but,thoughtherewasthatsingularexpressionwhichshehadsooftenremarkedinherblackeyes,shecouldnotsatisfyherselfwhetherPearlreallyattachedanymeaningtothesymbol。Shefeltamorbiddesiretoascertainthepoint。

"Dostthouknow,child,whereforethymotherwearsthisletter?"

"TrulydoI!"answeredPearl,lookingbrightlyintohermother’sface。"Itisforthesamereasonthattheministerkeepshishandoverhisheart!"

"Andwhatreasonisthat?"askedHester,halfsmilingattheabsurdincongruityofthechild’sobservation;but,onsecondthoughts,turningpale。"Whathasthelettertodowithanyheart,savemine?"

"Nay,mother,IhavetoldallIknow,"saidPearl,moreseriouslythanshewaswonttospeak。"Askyonderoldmanwhomthouhastbeentalkingwith!Itmaybehecantell。Butingoodearnestnow,motherdear,whatdoesthisscarletlettermean?—andwhydostthouwearitonthybosom?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"

Shetookhermother’shandinbothherown,andgazedintohereyeswithanearnestnessthatwasseldomseeninherwildandcapriciouscharacter。ThethoughtoccurredtoHester,thatthechildmightreallybeseekingtoapproachherwithchildlikeconfidence,anddoingwhatshecould,andasintelligentlyassheknewhow,toestablishameeting—pointofsympathy。ItshowedPearlinanunwontedaspect。Heretofore,themother,whilelovingherchildwiththeintensityofasoulaffection,hadschooledherselftohopeforlittleotherreturnthanthewaywardnessofanAprilbreeze;whichspendsitstimeinairysport,andhasitsgustsofinexplicablepassion,andispetulantinitsbestofmoods,andchillsoftenerthancaressesyou,whenyoutakeittoyourbosom;inrequitalofwhichmisdemeanours,itwillsometimes,ofitsownvaguepurpose,kissyourcheekwithakindofdoubtfultenderness,andplaygentlywithyourhair,andthenbegoneaboutitsotheridlebusiness,leavingadreamypleasureatyourheart。Andthis,moreover,wasamother’sestimateofthechild’sdisposition。Anyotherobservermighthaveseenfewbutunamiabletraits,andhavegiventhemafardarkercolouring。ButnowtheideacamestronglyintoHester’smind,thatPearl,withherremarkableprecocityandacuteness,mightalreadyhaveapproachedtheagewhenshecouldbemadeafriend,andentrustedwithasmuchofhermother’ssorrowsascouldbeimparted,withoutirreverenceeithertotheparentorthechild。InthelittlechaosofPearl’scharacter,theremightbeseenemerging—andcouldhavebeen,fromtheveryfirst—thesteadfastprinciplesofanunflinchingcourage—anuncontrollablewill—asturdypride,whichmightbedisciplinedintoself—respect—andabitterscornofmanythings,which,whenexamined,mightbefoundtohavethetaintoffalsehoodinthem。Shepossessedaffections,too,thoughhithertoacridanddisagreeable,asaretherichestflavoursofunripefruit。

Withallthesesterlingattributes,thoughtHester,theevilwhichsheinheritedfromhermothermustbegreatindeed,ifanoblewomandonotgrowoutofthiselfishchild。

Pearl’sinevitabletendencytohoverabouttheenigmaofthescarletletterseemedaninnatequalityofherbeing。Fromtheearliestepochofherconsciouslife,shehadentereduponthisasherappointedmission。HesterhadoftenfanciedthatProvidencehadadesignofjusticeandretribution,inendowingthechildwiththismarkedpropensity;butnever,untilnow,hadshebethoughtherselftoask,whether,linkedwiththatdesign,theremightnotlikewisebeapurposeofmercyandbeneficence。IflittlePearlwereentertainedwithfaithandtrust,asaspiritmessengernolessthananearthlychild,mightitnotbehererrandtosootheawaythesorrowthatlaycoldinhermother’sheart,andconverteditintoatomb?—

andtohelphertoovercomethepassion,oncesowild,andevenyetneitherdeadnorasleep,butonlyimprisonedwithinthesametomb—likeheart?

SuchweresomeofthethoughtsthatnowstirredinHester’smind,withasmuchvivacityofimpressionasiftheyhadactuallybeenwhisperedintoherear。AndtherewaslittlePearl,allthiswhile,holdinghermother’shandinbothherown,andturningherfaceupward,whilesheputthesesearchingquestions,once,andagain,andstillathirdtime。

"Whatdoesthelettermean,mother?—andwhydostthouwearit?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"

"WhatshallIsay?"thoughtHestertoherself。"No!Ifthisbethepriceofthechild’ssympathy,Icannotpayit。"

Thenshespokealoud。

"SillyPearl,"saidshe,"whatquestionsarethese?Therearemanythingsinthisworldthatachildmustnotaskabout。WhatknowIoftheminister’sheart?Andasforthescarletletter,Iwearitforthesakeofitsgoldthread。"

Inallthesevenbygoneyears,HesterPrynnehadneverbeforebeenfalsetothesymbolonherbosom。Itmaybethatitwasthetalismanofasternandsevere,butyetaguardianspirit,whonowforsookher;

asrecognisingthat,inspiteofhisstrictwatchoverherheart,somenewevilhadcreptintoit,orsomeoldonehadneverbeenexpelled。

AsforlittlePearl,theearnestnesssoonpassedoutofherface。

Butthechilddidnotseefittoletthematterdrop。Twoorthreetimes,ashermotherandshewenthomeward,andasoftenatsuppertime,andwhileHesterwasputtinghertobed,andonceaftersheseemedtobefairlyasleep,Pearllookedup,withmischiefgleaminginherblackeyes。

"Mother,"saidshe,"whatdoesthescarletlettermean?"

Andthenextmorning,thefirstindicationthechildgaveofbeingawakewasbypoppingupherheadfromthepillow,andmakingthatotherinquiry,whichshehadsounaccountablyconnectedwithherinvestigationsaboutthescarletletter—

"Mother!—mother!—whydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"

"Holdthytongue,naughtychild!"answeredhermother,withanasperitythatshehadneverpermittedtoherselfbefore。"Donotteaseme;elseIshallshuttheeintothedarkcloset!"

XVI。

AFORESTWALK。

HESTERPRYNNEremainedconstantinherresolvetomakeknowntoMr。Dimmesdale,atwhateverriskofpresentpainorulteriorconsequences,thetruecharacterofthemanwhohadcreptintohisintimacy。Forseveraldays,however,shevainlysoughtanopportunityofaddressinghiminsomeofthemeditativewalkswhichsheknewhimtobeinthehabitoftaking,alongtheshoresofthepeninsula,oronthewoodedhillsoftheneighbouringcountry。Therewouldhavebeennoscandal,indeed,norperiltotheholywhitenessoftheclergyman’sgoodfame,hadshevisitedhiminhisownstudy;wheremanyapenitent,erenow,hadconfessedsinsofperhapsasdeepadyeastheonebetokenedbythescarletletter。But,partlythatshedreadedthesecretorundisguisedinterferenceofoldRogerChillingworth,andpartlythatherconsciousheartimputedsuspicionwherenonecouldhavebeenfelt,andpartlythatboththeministerandshewouldneedthewholewideworldtobreathein,whiletheytalkedtogether—forallthesereasons,Hesterneverthoughofmeetinghiminanynarrowerprivacythanbeneaththeopensky。

Atlast,whileattendinginasick—chamber,whithertheReverendMr。

Dimmesdalehadbeensummonedtomakeaprayer,shelearntthathehadgone,thedaybefore,tovisittheApostleEliot,amonghisIndianconverts。Hewouldprobablyreturn,byacertainhour,intheafternoonofthemorrow。Betimes,therefore,thenextday,HestertooklittlePearl—whowasnecessarilythecompanionofallhermother’sexpeditions,howeverinconvenientherpresence—andsetforth。

Theroad,afterthetwowayfarershadcrossedfromthepeninsulatothemainland,wasnootherthanafootpath。Itstraggledonwardintothemysteryoftheprimevalforest。Thishemmeditinsonarrowly,andstoodsoblackanddenseoneitherside,anddisclosedsuchimperfectglimpsesoftheskyabove,that,toHester’smind,itimagednotamissthemoralwildernessinwhichshehadsolongbeenwandering。Thedaywaschillandsombre。Overheadwasagreyexpanseofcloud,slightlystirred,however,byabreeze;sothatagleamofflickeringsunshinemightnowandthenbeseenatitssolitaryplayalongthepath。Thisflittingcheerfulnesswasalwaysatthefartherextremityofsomelongvistathroughtheforest。Thesportivesunlight—feeblysportive,atbest,inthepredominantpensivenessofthedayandscene—withdrewitselfastheycamenigh,andleftthespotswhereithaddancedthedrearier,becausetheyhadhopedtofindthembright。

"Mother,"saidlittlePearl,"thesunshinedoesnotloveyou。Itrunsawayandhidesitself,becauseitisafraidofsomethingonyourbosom。Now,see!Thereitis,playing,agoodwayoff。Standyouhere,andletmerunandcatchit。Iambutachild。Itwillnotfleefromme;forIwearnothingonmybosomyet!"

"Noreverwill,mychild,Ihope,"saidHester。

"Andwhynot,mother?"askedPearl,stoppingshortjustatthebeginningofherrace。"Willnotitcomeofitsownaccord,whenI

amawomangrown?"

"Runaway,child,"answeredhermother,"andcatchthesunshine!

Itwillsoonbegone。"

Pearlsetforth,atagreatpace,and,asHestersmiledtoperceive,didactuallycatchthesunshine,andstoodlaughinginthemidstofit,allbrightenedbyitssplendour,andscintillatingwiththevivacityexcitedbyrapidmotion。Thelightlingeredaboutthelonelychild,asifgladofsuchaplaymate,untilhermotherhaddrawnalmostnighenoughtostepintothemagiccircletoo。

"Itwillgonow,"saidPearl,shakingherhead。

"See!"answeredHester,smiling。"NowIcanstretchoutmyhand,andgraspsomeofit。"

Assheattemptedtodoso,thesunshinevanished;or,tojudgefromthebrightexpressionthatwasdancingonPearl’sfeatures,hermothercouldhavefanciedthatthechildhadabsorbeditintoherself,andwouldgiveitforthagain,withagleamaboutherpath,astheyshouldplungeintosomegloomiershade。TherewasnootherattributethatsomuchimpressedherwithasenseofnewanduntransmittedvigourinPearl’snature,asthisnever—failingvivacityofspirits;

shehadnotthediseaseofsadness,whichalmostallchildren,intheselatterdays,inherit,withthescrofula,fromthetroublesoftheirancestors。Perhapsthistoowasadisease,andbutthereflexofthewildenergywithwhichHesterhadfoughtagainsthersorrows,beforePearl’sbirth。Itwascertainlyadoubtfulcharm,impartingahard,metalliclustretothechild’scharacter。Shewanted—whatsomepeoplewantthroughoutlife—agriefthatshoulddeeplytouchher,andthushumaniseandmakehercapableofsympathy。ButtherewastimeenoughyetforlittlePearl。

"Come,mychild!"saidHester,lookingaboutherfromthespotwherePearlhadstoodstillinthesunshine。"Wewillsitdownalittlewaywithinthewood,andrestourselves。"

"Iamnotaweary,mother,"repliedthelittlegirl。"Butyoumaysitdown,ifyouwilltellmeastorymeanwhile。"

"Astory,child!"saidHester。"Andaboutwhat?"

"Oh,astoryabouttheBlackMan,"answeredPearl,takingholdofhermother’sgown,andlookingup,halfearnestly,halfmischievously,intoherface。"Howhehauntsthisforest,andcarriesabookwithhim—abig,heavybook,withironclasps;andhowthisuglyBlackManoffershisbookandanironpentoeverybodythatmeetshimhereamongthetrees;andtheyaretowritetheirnameswiththeirownblood。Andthenhesetshismarkontheirbosoms!DidstthouevermeettheBlackMan,mother?"

"Andwhotoldyouthisstory,Pearl?"askedhermother,recognisingacommonsuperstitionoftheperiod。

"Itwastheolddameinthechimney—corner,atthehousewhereyouwatchedlastnight,"saidthechild。"Butshefanciedmeasleepwhileshewastalkingofit。Shesaidthatathousandandathousandpeoplehadmethimhere,andhadwritteninhisbook,andhavehismarkonthem。Andthatugly—temperedlady,oldMistressHibbins,wasone。And,mother,theolddamesaidthatthisscarletletterwastheBlackMan’smarkonthee,andthatitglowslikearedflamewhenthoumeetesthimatmidnight,hereinthedarkwood。Isittrue,mother?

Anddostthougotomeethiminthenight—time?"

"Didstthoueverawake,andfindthymothergone?"askedHester。

"NotthatIremember,"saidthechild。"Ifthoufearesttoleavemeinourcottage,thoumightesttakemealongwiththee。Iwouldverygladlygo!But,mother,tellmenow!IstheresuchaBlackMan?Anddidstthouevermeethim?Andisthishismark?"

"WiltthouletmebeatpeaceifIoncetellthee?"askedhermother。

"Yes,ifthoutellestmeall,"answeredPearl。

"OnceinmylifeImettheBlackMan!"saidhermother。"Thisscarletletterishismark!"

Thusconversing,theyenteredsufficientlydeepintothewoodtosecurethemselvesfromtheobservationofanycasualpassengeralongtheforesttrack。Heretheysatdownonaluxuriantheapofmoss;

which,atsomeepochoftheprecedingcentury,hadbeenagiganticpine,withitsrootsandtrunkinthedarksomeshade,anditsheadaloftintheupperatmosphere。Itwasalittledellwheretheyhadseatedthemselves,withaleaf—strewnbankrisinggentlyoneitherside,andabrookflowingthroughthemidst,overabedoffallenanddrownedleaves。Thetreesimpendingoverithadflungdowngreatbranches,fromtimetotime,whichchokedupthecurrent,andcompelledittoformeddiesandblackdepthsatsomepoints;while,initsswifterandlivelierpassages,thereappearedachannel—wayofpebbles,andbrown,sparklingsand。Lettingtheeyesfollowalongthecourseofthestream,theycouldcatchthereflectedlightfromitswater,atsomeshortdistancewithintheforest,butsoonlostalltracesofitamidthebewildermentoftree—trunksandunderbrush,andhereandthereahugerockcoveredoverwithgreylichens。Allthesegianttreesandbouldersofgraniteseemedintentonmakingamysteryofthecourseofthissmallbrook;fearing,perhaps,that,withitsnever—ceasingloquacity,itshouldwhispertalesoutoftheheartoftheoldforestwhenceitflowed,ormirroritsrevelationsonthesmoothsurfaceofapool。Continually,indeed,asitstoleonward,thestreamletkeptupababble,kind,quiet,soothing,butmelancholy,likethevoiceofayoungchildthatwasspendingitsinfancywithoutplayfulness,andknewnothowtobemerryamongsadacquaintanceandeventsofsombrehue。

"Obrook!Ofoolishandtiresomelittlebrook!"criedPearl,afterlisteningawhiletoitstalk。"Whyartthousosad?Pluckupaspirit,anddonotbeallthetimesighingandmurmuring!"

Butthebrook,inthecourseofitslittlelifetimeamongtheforest—trees,hadgonethroughsosolemnanexperiencethatitcouldnothelptalkingaboutit,andseemedtohavenothingelsetosay。

Pearlresembledthebrookinasmuchasthecurrentofherlifegushedfromawell—springasmysterious,andhadflowedthroughscenesshadowedasheavilywithgloom。But,unlikethelittlestream,shedancedandsparkled,andprattledairilyalonghercourse。

"Whatdoesthissadlittlebrooksay,mother?"inquiredshe。

"Ifthouhadstasorrowofthineown,thebrookmighttelltheeofit,"answeredhermother,"evenasitistellingmeofmine!Butnow,Pearl,Ihearafootstepalongthepath,andthenoiseofoneputtingasidethebranches。Iwouldhavetheebetakethyselftoplay,andleavemetospeakwithhimthatcomesyonder。"

"IsittheBlackMan?"askedPearl。

"Wiltthougoandplay,child?"repeatedhermother。"Butdonotstrayfarintothewood。Andtakeheedthatthoucomeatmyfirstcall。"

"Yes,mother,"answeredPearl。"ButifitbetheBlackMan,wiltthounotletmestayamoment,andlookathim,withhisbigbookunderhisarm?"

"Go,sillychild!"saidhermotherimpatiently。"ItisnoBlackMan!

Thoucanstseehimnow,throughthetrees。Itistheminister!"

"Andsoitis!"saidthechild。"And,mother,hehashishandoverhisheart!Isitbecause,whentheministerwrotehisnameinthebook,theBlackMansethismarkinthatplace?Butwhydoeshenotwearitoutsidehisbosom,asthoudost,mother?"

"Gonow,child,andthoushaltteasemeasthouwiltanothertime,"criedHesterPrynne。"Butdonotstrayfar。Keepwherethoucansthearthebabbleofthebrook。"

Thechildwentsingingaway,followingupthecurrentofthebrook,andstrivingtomingleamorelightsomecadencewithitsmelancholyvoice。Butthelittlestreamwouldnotbecomforted,andstillkepttellingitsunintelligiblesecretofsomeverymournfulmysterythathadhappened—ormakingapropheticlamentationaboutsomethingthatwasyettohappen—withinthevergeofthedismalforest。SoPearl,whohadenoughofshadowinherownlittlelife,chosetobreakoffallacquaintancewiththisrepiningbrook。Shesetherself,therefore,togatheringvioletsandwood—anemones,andsomescarletcolumbinesthatshefoundgrowinginthecrevicesofahighrock。

Whenherelf—childhaddeparted,HesterPrynnemadeasteportwotowardsthetrackthatledthroughtheforest,butstillremainedunderthedeepshadowofthetrees。Shebeheldtheministeradvancingalongthepath,entirelyalone,andleaningonastaffwhichhehadcutbythewayside。Helookedhaggardandfeeble,andbetrayedanervelessdespondencyinhisair,whichhadneversoremarkablycharacterisedhiminhiswalksaboutthesettlement,norinanyothersituationwherehedeemedhimselfliabletonotice。Hereitwaswoefullyvisible,inthisintenseseclusionoftheforest,whichofitselfwouldhavebeenaheavytrialtothespirits。Therewasalistlessnessinhisgait;asifhesawnoreasonfortakingonestepfarther,norfeltanydesiretodoso,butwouldhavebeenglad,couldhebegladofanything,toflinghimselfdownattherootofthenearesttree,andlietherepassive,forevermore。Theleavesmightbestrewhim,andthesoilgraduallyaccumulateandformalittlehillockoverhisframe,nomatterwhethertherewerelifeinitorno。Deathwastoodefiniteanobjecttobewishedfor,oravoided。

ToHester’seye,theReverendMr。Dimmesdaleexhibitednosymptomofpositiveandvivacioussuffering,exceptthat,aslittlePearlhadremarked,hekepthishandoverhisheart。

XVII。

THEPASTORANDHISPARISHIONER。

SLOWLYastheministerwalked,hehadalmostgoneby,beforeHesterPrynnecouldgathervoiceenoughtoattracthisobservation。Atlength,shesucceeded。

"ArthurDimmesdale!"shesaid,faintlyatfirst;thenlouder,buthoarsely:"ArthurDimmesdale!"

"Whospeaks?"answeredtheminister。

Gatheringhimselfquicklyup,hestoodmoreerect,likeamantakenbysurpriseinamoodtowhichhewasreluctanttohavewitnesses。Throwinghiseyesanxiouslyinthedirectionofthevoice,heindistinctlybeheldaformunderthetrees,cladingarmentsso,sombre,andsolittlerelievedfromthegreytwilightintowhichthecloudedskyandtheheavyfoliagehaddarkenedthenoontide,thatheknewnotwhetheritwereawomanorashadow。Itmaybe,thathispathwaythroughlifewashauntedthus,byaspectrethathadstolenoutfromamonghisthoughts。

Hemadeastepnigher,anddiscoveredthescarletletter。

"Hester!HesterPrynne!"saidhe。"Isitthou?Artthouinlife?"

"Evenso!"sheanswered。"Insuchlifeashasbeenminethesesevenyearspast!Andthou,ArthurDimmesdale,dostthouyetlive?"

Itwasnowonderthattheythusquestionedoneanother’sactualandbodilyexistence,andevendoubtedoftheirown。Sostrangelydidtheymeet,inthedimwood,thatitwaslikethefirstencounter,intheworldbeyondthegrave,oftwospiritswhohadbeenintimatelyconnectedintheirformerlife,butnowstoodcoldlyshuddering,inmutualdread;asnotyetfamiliarwiththeirstate,norwontedtothecompanionshipofdisembodiedbeings。Eachaghost,andawe—strickenattheotherghost!Theywereawe—strickenlikewiseatthemselves;becausethecrisisflungbacktothemtheirconsciousness,andrevealedtoeachheartitshistoryandexperience,aslifeneverdoes,exceptatsuchbreathlessepochs。Thesoulbehelditsfeaturesinthemirrorofthepassingmoment。Itwaswithfear,andtremulously,and,asitwere,byaslow,reluctantnecessity,thatArthurDimmesdaleputforthhishand,chillasdeath,andtouchedthechillhandofHesterPrynne。Thegrasp,coldasitwas,tookawaywhatwasdreariestintheinterview。Theynowfeltthemselves,atleast,inhabitantsofthesamesphere。

Withoutawordmorespoken—neitherhenorsheassumingtheguidance,butwithanunexpressedconsent—theyglidedbackintotheshadowofthewoods,whenceHesterhademerged,andsatdownontheheapofmosswheresheandPearlhadbeforebeensitting。Whentheyfoundvoicetospeak,itwas,atfirst,onlytoutterremarksandinquiriessuchasanytwoacquaintancesmighthavemade,aboutthegloomysky,thethreateningstorm,and,next,thehealthofeach。Thustheywentonward,notboldly,butstepbystep,intothethemesthatwerebroodingdeepestintheirhearts。Solongestrangedbyfateandcircumstances,theyneededsomethingslightandcasualtorunbefore,andthrowopenthedoorsofintercourse,sothattheirrealthoughtsmightbeledacrossthethreshold。

Afterawhile,theministerfixedhiseyesonHesterPrynne’s。

"Hester,"saidhe,"hastthoufoundpeace?"

Shesmileddrearily,lookingdownuponherbosom。

"Hastthou?"sheasked。

"None!—nothingbutdespair!"heanswered。"WhatelsecouldIlookfor,beingwhatIam,andleadingsuchalifeasmine?WereIanatheist—amandevoidofconscience—awretchwithcoarseandbrutalinstincts—Imighthavefoundpeace,longerenow。Nay,Inevershouldhavelostit!But,asmattersstandwithmysoul,whateverofgoodcapacitythereoriginallywasinme,allofGod’sgiftsthatwerethechoicesthavebecometheministersofspiritualtorment。Hester,I

ammostmiserable。"

"Thepeoplereverencethee,"saidHester。"Andsurelythouworkestgoodamongthem!Doththisbringtheenocomfort?"

"Moremisery,Hester!—onlythemoremisery!"answeredtheclergyman,withabittersmile。"AsconcernsthegoodwhichImayappeartodo,Ihavenofaithinit。Itmustneedsbeadelusion。Whatcanaruinedsoul,likemine,effecttowardstheredemptionofothersouls?—orapollutedsoul,towardstheirpurification?Andasforthepeople’sreverence,wouldthatitwereturnedtoscornandhatred!

Canstthoudeemit,Hester,aconsolation,thatImuststandupinmypulpit,andmeetsomanyeyesturnedupwardtomyface,asifthelightofheavenwerebeamingfromit!—mustseemyflockhungryforthetruth,andlisteningtomywordsasifatongueofPentecostwerespeaking!—andthenlookinward,anddiscerntheblackrealityofwhattheyidolise?Ihavelaughed,inbitternessandagonyofheart,atthecontrastbetweenwhatIseemandwhatIam!AndSatanlaughsatit!"

"Youwrongyourselfinthis,"saidHestergently。"Youhavedeeplyandsorelyrepented。Yoursinisleftbehindyou,inthedayslongpast。Yourpresentlifeisnotlessholy,inverytruth,thanitseemsinpeople’seyes。Istherenorealityinthepenitencethussealedandwitnessedbygoodworks?Andwhereforeshoulditnotbringyoupeace?"

"No,Hester,no!"repliedtheclergyman。"Thereisnosubstanceinit!Itiscoldanddead,andcandonothingforme!Ofpenance,Ihavehadenough!Ofpenitence,therehasbeennone!Else,Ishouldlongagohavethrownoffthesegarmentsofmockholiness,andhaveshownmyselftomankindastheywillseemeatthejudgment—seat。Happyareyou,Hester,thatwearthescarletletteropenlyuponyourbosom!Mineburnsinsecret!Thoulittleknowestwhatareliefitis,afterthetormentofasevenyears’cheat,tolookintoaneyethatrecognisesmeforwhatIam!HadIonefriend—orwereitmyworstenemy!—towhom,whensickenedwiththepraisesofallothermen,Icoulddailybetakemyself,andbeknownasthevilestofallsinners,methinksmysoulmightkeepitselfalivethereby。Eventhusmuchoftruthwouldsaveme!But,now,itisallfalsehood!—allemptiness!—alldeath!"

HesterPrynnelookedintohisface,buthesitatedtospeak。Yet,utteringhislong—restrainedemotionssovehementlyashedid,hiswordshereofferedhertheverypointofcircumstancesinwhichtointerposewhatshecametosay。Sheconqueredherfears,andspoke。

"Suchafriendasthouhastevennowwishedfor,"saidshe,"withwhomtoweepoverthysin,thouhasinme,thepartnerofit!"Againshehesitated,butbroughtoutthewordswithaneffort,"Thouhastlonghadsuchanenemy,anddwellestwithhim,underthesameroof!"

Theministerstartedtohisfeet,gaspingforbreath,andclutchingathisheart,asifhewouldhavetornitoutofhisbosom。

"Ha!Whatsayestthou!"criedhe。"Anenemy!Andundermineownroof!Whatmeanyou?"

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