第7章
Hewasdisconcertedsomewhatbyherwhite,stillface,thebiglightvioleteyesrestingonhimstonily。Shehadnotutteredasound。Shefacedhim,steadyingherselfonthecornerofthepianowithoneextendedhand。Theotherwentonrubbingwithmechanicalpersistencytheplacehislipshadtouched。
"What’sthetrouble?"hesaid,offended。"Startledyou?Lookhere:don’tletushaveanyofthatnonsense。Youdon’tmeantosayakissfrightensyousomuchasallthat……Iknowbetter……Idon’tmeantobeleftoutinthecold。"
Hehadbeengazingintoherfacewithsuchstrainedintentnessthathecouldnolongerseeitdistinctly。Everythingroundhimwasrathermisty。Heforgottheoverturnedstool,caughthisfootagainstit,andlurchedforwardslightly,sayinginaningratiatingtone:
"I’mnotbadfun,really。Youtryafewkissestobeginwith—"
Hesaidnomore,becausehisheadreceivedaterrificconcussion,accompaniedbyanexplosivesound。Freyahadswungherround,strongarmwithsuchforcethattheimpactofheropenpalmonhisflatcheekturnedhimhalfround。Utteringafaint,hoarseyell,thelieutenantclappedbothhishandstotheleftsideofhisface,whichhadtakenonsuddenlyaduskybrick—redtinge。Freya,veryerect,hervioleteyesdarkened,herpalmstilltinglingfromtheblow,asortofrestraineddeterminedsmileshowingatinygleamofherwhiteteeth,heardherfather’srapid,heavytreadonthepathbelowtheverandah。Herexpressionlostitspugnacityandbecamesincerelyconcerned。Shewassorryforherfather。Shestoopedquicklytopickupthemusic—stool,asifanxioustoobliteratethetraces……Butthatwasnogood。Shehadresumedherattitude,onehandrestinglightlyonthepiano,beforeoldNelsongotuptothetopofthestairs。
Poorfather!Howfurioushewillbe—howupset!Andafterwards,whattremors,whatunhappiness!Whyhadshenotbeenopenwithhimfromthefirst?Hisround,innocentstareofamazementcuthertothequick。Buthewasnotlookingather。HisstarewasdirectedtoHeemskirk,who,withhisbacktohimandwithhishandsstilluptohisface,washissingcursesthroughhisteeth,and(shesawhiminprofile)glaringatherbalefullywithoneblack,evileye。
"What’sthematter?"askedoldNelson,verymuchbewildered。
Shedidnotanswerhim。ShethoughtofJasperonthedeckofthebrig,gazingupatthelightedbungalow,andshefeltfrightened。
Itwasamercythatoneofthematleastwasonboardoutoftheway。Sheonlywishedhewereahundredmilesoff。Andyetshewasnotcertainthatshedid。HadJasperbeenmysteriouslymovedthatmomenttoreappearontheverandahshewouldhavethrownherconsistency,herfirmness,herself—possession,tothewinds,andflownintohisarms。
"Whatisit?Whatisit?"insistedtheunsuspectingNelson,gettingquiteexcited。"Onlythisminuteyouwereplayingatune,and—"
Freya,unabletospeakinherapprehensionofwhatwascoming(shewasalsofascinatedbythatblack,evil,glaringeye),onlynoddedslightlyatthelieutenant,asmuchastosay:"Justlookathim!"
"Why,yes!"exclaimedoldNelson。"Isee。Whatonearth—"
MeantimehehadcautiouslyapproachedHeemskirk,who,burstingintoincoherentimprecations,wasstampingwithbothfeetwherehestood。Theindignityoftheblow,therageofbaffledpurpose,theridiculeoftheexposure,andtheimpossibilityofrevengemaddenedhimtoapointwhenhesimplyfelthemusthowlwithfury。
"Oh,oh,oh!"hehowled,stampingacrosstheverandahasthoughhemeanttodrivehisfootthroughthefloorateverystep。
"Why,ishisfacehurt?"askedtheastoundedoldNelson。Thetruthdawnedsuddenlyuponhisinnocentmind。"Dearme!"hecried,enlightened。"Getsomebrandy,quick,Freya……Youaresubjecttoit,lieutenant?Fiendish,eh?Iknow,Iknow!Usedtogocrazyallofasuddenmyselfinthetime……Andthelittlebottleoflaudanumfromthemedicine—chest,too,Freya。Looksharp……Don’tyouseehe’sgotatoothache?"
And,indeed,whatotherexplanationcouldhavepresenteditselftotheguilelessoldNelson,beholdingthischeeknursedwithbothhands,thesewildglances,thesestampings,thisdistractedswayingofthebody?Itwouldhavedemandedapreternaturalacutenesstohituponthetruecause。Freyahadnotmoved。ShewatchedHeemskirk’ssavagelyinquiring,blackstaredirectedstealthilyuponherself。"Aha,youwouldliketobeletoff!"shesaidtoherself。Shelookedathimunflinchingly,thinkingitout。Thetemptationofmakinganendofitallwithoutfurthertroublewasirresistible。Shegaveanalmostimperceptiblenodofassent,andglidedaway。
"Hurryupthatbrandy!"oldNelsonshouted,asshedisappearedinthepassage。
HeemskirkrelievedhisdeeperfeelingsbyasuddenstringofcursesinDutchandEnglishwhichhesentafterher。Heravedtohisheart’scontent,flingingtoandfrotheverandahandkickingchairsoutofhisway;whileNelson(orNielsen),whosesympathywasprofoundlystirredbytheseevidencesofagonisingpain,hoveredroundhisdear(anddreaded)lieutenant,fussinglikeanoldhen。
"Dearme,dearme!Isitsobad?Iknowwellwhatitis。Iusedtofrightenmypoorwifesometimes。Doyougetitoftenlikethis,lieutenant?"
Heemskirkshoulderedhimviciouslyoutofhisway,withashort,insanelaugh。Buthisstaggeringhosttookitingoodpart;amanbesidehimselfwithexcruciatingtoothacheisnotresponsible。
"Gointomyroom,lieutenant,"hesuggestedurgently。"Throwyourselfonmybed。Wewillgetsomethingtoeaseyouinaminute。"
Heseizedthepoorsuffererbythearmandforcedhimgentlyonwardstotheverybed,onwhichHeemskirk,inarenewedaccessofrage,flunghimselfdownwithsuchforcethathereboundedfromthemattresstotheheightofquiteafoot。
"Dearme!"exclaimedthescaredNelson,andincontinentlyranofftohurryupthebrandyandthelaudanum,veryangrythatsolittlealacritywasshowninrelievingthetorturesofhispreciousguest。
Intheendhegotthesethingshimself。
Halfanhourlaterhestoodintheinnerpassageofthehouse,surprisedbyfaint,spasmodicsoundsofamysteriousnature,betweenlaughterandsobs。Hefrowned;thenwentstraighttowardshisdaughter’sroomandknockedatthedoor。
Freya,hergloriousfairhairframingherwhitefaceandripplingdownadark—bluedressing—gown,openeditpartly。
Thelightintheroomwasdim。Antonia,crouchinginacorner,rockedherselfbackwardsandforwards,utteringfeeblemoans。OldNelsonhadnotmuchexperienceinvariouskindsoffemininelaughter,buthewascertaintherehadbeenlaughterthere。
"Veryunfeeling,veryunfeeling!"hesaid,withweightydispleasure。"Whatistheresoamusinginamanbeinginpain?I
shouldhavethoughtawoman—ayounggirl—"
"Hewassofunny,"murmuredFreya,whoseeyesglistenedstrangelyinthesemi—obscurityofthepassage。"Andthen,youknow,Idon’tlikehim,"sheadded,inanunsteadyvoice。
"Funny!"repeatedoldNelson,amazedatthisevidenceofcallousnessinonesoyoung。"Youdon’tlikehim!Doyoumeantosaythat,becauseyoudon’tlikehim,you—Why,it’ssimplycruel!
Don’tyouknowit’sabouttheworstsortofpainthereis?Dogshavebeenknowntogomadwithit。"
"Hecertainlyseemedtohavegonemad,"Freyasaidwithaneffort,asifshewerestrugglingwithsomehiddenfeeling。
Butherfatherwaslaunched。
"Andyouknowhowheis。Henoticeseverything。Heisafellowtotakeoffencefortheleastlittlething—regularDutchman—andI
wanttokeepfriendlywithhim。It’slikethis,mygirl:ifthatrajahofoursweretodosomethingsilly—andyouknowheisasulky,rebelliousbeggar—andtheauthoritiestookintotheirheadsthatmyinfluenceoverhimwasn’tgood,youwouldfindyourselfwithoutaroofoveryourhead—"
Shecried:"Whatnonsense,father!"inanotveryassuredtone,anddiscoveredthathewasangry,angryenoughtoachieveirony;
yes,oldNelson(orNielsen),irony!Justagleamofit。
"Oh,ofcourse,ifyouhavemeansofyourown—amansion,aplantationthatIknownothingof—"Buthewasnotcapableofsustainedirony。"Itellyoutheywouldbundlemeoutofhere,"hewhisperedforcibly;"withoutcompensation,ofcourse。IknowtheseDutch。Andthelieutenant’sjustthefellowtostartthetroublegoing。Hehastheearofinfluentialofficials。Iwouldn’toffendhimforanything—foranything—onnoconsiderationwhatever……Whatdidyousay?"
Itwasonlyaninarticulateexclamation。Ifsheeverhadahalf—
formedintentionoftellinghimeverythingshehadgivenitupnow。
Itwasimpossible,bothoutofregardforhisdignityandforthepeaceofhispoormind。
"Idon’tcareforhimmyselfverymuch,"oldNelson’ssubduedundertoneconfessedinasigh。"He’seasiernow,"hewenton,afterasilence。"I’vegivenhimupmybedforthenight。Ishallsleeponmyverandah,inthehammock。No;Ican’tsayIlikehimeither,butfromthattolaughatamanbecausehe’sdrivencrazywithpainisalongway。You’vesurprisedme,Freya。Thatsideofhisfaceisquiteflushed。"
Hershouldersshookconvulsivelyunderhishands,whichhelaidonherpaternally。Hisstraggly,wirymoustachebrushedherforeheadinagood—nightkiss。Sheclosedthedoor,andwentawayfromittothemiddleoftheroombeforesheallowedherselfatired—outsortoflaugh,withoutbuoyancy。
"Flushed!Alittleflushed!"sherepeatedtoherself。"Ihopeso,indeed!Alittle—"
Hereyelasheswerewet。Antonia,inhercorner,moanedandgiggled,anditwasimpossibletotellwherethemoansendedandthegigglesbegan。
Themistressandthemaidhadbeensomewhathysterical,forFreya,onfleeingintoherroom,hadfoundAntoniathere,andhadtoldhereverything。
"Ihaveavengedyou,mygirl,"sheexclaimed。
Andthentheyhadlaughinglycriedandcryinglylaughedwithadmonitions—"Ssh,notsoloud!Bequiet!"ononepart,andinterludesof"Iamsofrightened……He’sanevilman,"ontheother。
AntoniawasverymuchafraidofHeemskirk。Shewasafraidofhimbecauseofhispersonalappearance:becauseofhiseyesandhiseyebrows,andhismouthandhisnoseandhislimbs。Nothingcouldbemorerational。Andshethoughthimanevilman,because,tohereyes,helookedevil。Nogroundforanopinioncouldbesounder。
Inthedimnessoftheroom,withonlyanightlightburningattheheadofFreya’sbed,thecameristacreptoutofhercornertocrouchatthefeetofhermistress,supplicatinginwhispers:
"There’sthebrig。CaptainAllen。Letusrunawayatonce—oh,letusrunaway!Iamsofrightened。Letus!Letus!"
"I!Runaway!"thoughtFreyatoherself,withoutlookingdownatthescaredgirl。"Never。"
Boththeresolutemistressunderthemosquito—netandthefrightenedmaidlyingcurleduponamatatthefootofthebeddidnotsleepverywellthatnight。ThepersonthatdidnotsleepatallwasLieutenantHeemskirk。Helayonhisbackstaringvindictivelyinthedarkness。Inflamingimagesandhumiliatingreflectionssucceededeachotherinhismind,keepingup,augmentinghisanger。Aprettytalethistogetabout!Butitmustnotbeallowedtogetabout。Theoutragehadtobeswallowedinsilence。Aprettyaffair!Fooled,ledon,andstruckbythegirl—andprobablyfooledbythefather,too。Butno。Nielsenwasbutanothervictimofthatshamelesshussy,thatbrazenminx,thatsly,laughing,kissing,lying……
"No;hedidnotdeceivemeonpurpose,"thoughtthetormentedlieutenant。"ButIshouldliketopayhimoff,allthesame,forbeingsuchanimbecile—"
Well,someday,perhaps。Onethinghewasfirmlyresolvedon:hehadmadeuphismindtostealearlyoutofthehouse。Hedidnotthinkhecouldfacethegirlwithoutgoingoutofhismindwithfury。
"Fireandperdition!Tenthousanddevils!Ishallchokeherebeforethemorning!"hemutteredtohimself,lyingrigidonhisbackonoldNelson’sbed,hisbreastheavingforair。
Hearoseatdaylightandstartedcautiouslytoopenthedoor。
Faintsoundsinthepassagealarmedhim,andremainingconcealedhesawFreyacomingout。Thisunexpectedsightdeprivedhimofallpowertomoveawayfromthecrackofthedoor。Itwasthenarrowestcrackpossible,butcommandingtheviewoftheendoftheverandah。Freyamadeforthatendhastilytowatchthebrigpassingthepoint。Sheworeherdarkdressing—gown;herfeetwerebare,because,havingfallenasleeptowardsthemorning,sheranoutheadlonginherfearofbeingtoolate。Heemskirkhadneverseenherlookinglikethis,withherhairdrawnbacksmoothlytotheshapeofherhead,andhanginginoneheavy,fairtressdownherback,andwiththatairofextremeyouth,intensity,andeagerness。Andatfirsthewasamazed,andthenhegnashedhisteeth。Hecouldnotfaceheratall。Hemutteredacurse,andkeptstillbehindthedoor。
Withalow,deep—breathed"Ah!"whenshefirstsawthebrigalreadyunderway,shereachedforNelson’slongglassreposingonbracketshighupthewall。Thewidesleeveofthedressing—gownslippedback,uncoveringherwhitearmasfarastheshoulder。Heemskirkgrippingthedoor—handle,asiftocrushit,feltlikeamanjustrisentohisfeetfromadrinkingbout。
AndFreyaknewthathewaswatchingher。Sheknew。Shehadseenthedoormoveasshecameoutofthepassage。Shewasawareofhiseyesbeingonher,withscornfulbitterness,withtriumphantcontempt。
"Youarethere,"shethought,levellingthelongglass。"Oh,well,lookon,then!"
Thegreenisletsappearedlikeblackshadows,theashenseawassmoothasglass,theclearrobeofthecolourlessdawn,inwhicheventhebrigappearedshadowy,hadahemoflightintheeast。
DirectlyFreyahadmadeoutJasperondeck,withhisownlongglassdirectedtothebungalow,shelaidhersdownandraisedbothherbeautifulwhitearmsaboveherhead。Inthatattitudeofsupremecryshestoodstill,glowingwiththeconsciousnessofJasper’sadorationgoingouttoherfigureheldinthefieldofhisglassawaythere,andwarmed,too,bythefeelingofevilpassion,theburning,covetouseyesoftheother,fastenedonherback。Inthefervourofherlove,inthecapriceofhermind,andwiththatmysteriousknowledgeofmasculinenaturewomenseemtobebornto,shethought:
"Youarelookingon—youwill—youmust!Thenyoushallseesomething。"
Shebroughtbothherhandstoherlips,thenflungthemout,sendingakissoverthesea,asifshewantedtothrowherheartalongwithitonthedeckofthebrig。Herfacewasrosy,hereyesshone。Herrepeated,passionategestureseemedtoflingkissesbythehundredagainandagainandagain,whiletheslowlyascendingsunbroughtthegloryofcolourtotheworld,turningtheisletsgreen,theseablue,thebrigbelowherwhite—dazzlinglywhiteinthespreadofherwings—withtheredensignstreaminglikeatinyflamefromthepeak。
Andeachtimeshemurmuredwitharisinginflexion:
"Takethis—andthis—andthis—"tillsuddenlyherarmsfell。
Shehadseentheensigndippedinresponse,andnextmomentthepointbelowhidthehullofthebrigfromherview。Thensheturnedawayfromthebalustrade,and,passingslowlybeforethedoorofherfather’sroomwithhereyelidslowered,andanenigmaticexpressiononherface,shedisappearedbehindthecurtain。
Butinsteadofgoingalongthepassage,sheremainedconcealedandverystillontheothersidetowatchwhatwouldhappen。Forsometimethebroad,furnishedverandahremainedempty。ThenthedoorofoldNelson’sroomcameopensuddenly,andHeemskirkstaggeredout。Hishairwasrumpled,hiseyesbloodshot,hisunshavenfacelookedverydark。Hegazedwildlyabout,sawhiscaponatable,snatcheditup,andmadeforthestairsquietly,butwithastrange,totteringgait,likethelasteffortofwaningstrength。
Shortlyafterhisheadhadsunkbelowthelevelofthefloor,Freyacameoutfrombehindthecurtain,withcompressed,scheminglips,andnosoftnessatallinherluminouseyes。Hecouldnotbeallowedtosneakoffscotfree。Never—never!Shewasexcited,shetingledallover,shehadtastedblood!Hemustbemadetounderstandthatshehadbeenawareofhavingbeenwatched;hemustknowthathehadbeenseenslinkingoffshamefully。Buttoruntothefrontrailandshoutafterhimwouldhavebeenchildish,crude—undignified。Andtoshout—what?Whatword?Whatphrase?No;
itwasimpossible。Thenhow?……Shefrowned,discoveredit,dashedatthepiano,whichhadstoodopenallnight,andmadetherosewoodmonstergrowlsavageryinanirritatedbass。Shestruckchordsasiffiringshotsafterthatstraddling,broadfigureinamplewhitetrousersandadarkuniformjacketwithgoldshoulder—
straps,andthenshepursuedhimwiththesamethingshehadplayedtheeveningbefore—amodern,fiercepieceoflovemusicwhichhadbeentriedmorethanonceagainstthethunderstormsofthegroup。
Sheaccentuateditsrhythmwithtriumphantmalice,soabsorbedinherpurposethatshedidnotnoticethepresenceofherfather,who,wearinganoldthreadbareulsterofacheckpatternoverhissleepingsuit,hadrunoutfromthebackverandahtoinquirethereasonofthisuntimelyperformance。Hestaredather。
"Whatonearth?……Freya!"Hisvoicewasnearlydrownedbythepiano。"What’sbecomeofthelieutenant?"heshouted。
Shelookedupathimasifhersoulwerelostinhermusic,withunseeingeyes。
"Gone。"
"Wha—a—t?……Where?"
Sheshookherheadslightly,andwentonplayinglouderthanbefore。OldNelson’sinnocentlyanxiousgazestartingfromtheopendoorofhisroom,exploredthewholeplacehighandlow,asifthelieutenantweresomethingsmallwhichmighthavebeencrawlingonthefloororclingingtoawall。Butashrillwhistlecomingsomewherefrombelowpiercedtheamplevolumeofsoundrollingoutofthepianoingreat,vibratingwaves。Thelieutenantwasdownatthecove,whistlingfortheboattocomeandtakehimofftohisship。Andheseemedtobeinaterrifichurry,too,forhewhistledagainalmostdirectly,waitedforamoment,andthensentoutalong,interminable,shrillcallasdistressfultohearasthoughhehadshriekedwithoutdrawingbreath。Freyaceasedplayingsuddenly。
"Goingonboard,"saidoldNelson,perturbedbytheevent。"Whatcouldhavemadehimclearoutsoearly?Queerchap。Devilishlytouchy,too!Ishouldn’twonderifitwasyourconductlastnightthathurthisfeelings?Inoticedyou,Freya。Youaswellaslaughedinhisface,whilehewassufferingagoniesfromneuralgia。
Itisn’tthewaytogetyourselfliked。He’soffendedwithyou。"
Freya’shandsnowreposedpassiveonthekeys;shebowedherfairhead,feelingasuddendiscontent,anervouslassitude,asthoughshehadpassedthroughsomeexhaustingcrisis。OldNelson(orNielsen),lookingaggrieved,wasrevolvingmattersofpolicyinhisbaldhead。
"Ithinkitwouldberightformetogoonboardjusttoinquire,sometimethismorning,"hedeclaredfussily。"Whydon’ttheybringmemymorningtea?Doyouhear,Freya?Youhaveastonishedme,Imustsay。Ididn’tthinkayounggirlcouldbesounfeeling。
Andthelieutenantthinkshimselfafriendofours,too!What?
No?Well,hecallshimselfafriend,andthat’ssomethingtoapersoninmyposition。Certainly!Oh,yes,Imustgoonboard。"
"Mustyou?"murmuredFreyalistlessly;thenadded,inherthought:
"Poorman!"
CHAPTERV
Inrespectofthenextsevenweeks,allthatisnecessarytosayis,first,thatoldNelson(orNielsen)failedinpayinghispoliticcall。TheNeptungunboatofH。M。theKingoftheNetherlands,commandedbyanoutragedandinfuriatedlieutenant,leftthecoveatanunexpectedlyearlyhour。WhenFreya’sfathercamedowntotheshore,afterseeinghispreciouscropoftobaccospreadoutproperlyinthesun,shewasalreadysteamingroundthepoint。OldNelsonregrettedthecircumstanceformanydays。
"Now,Idon’tknowinwhatdispositionthemanwentaway,"helamentedtohisharddaughter。Hewasamazedatherhardness。Hewasalmostfrightenedbyherindifference。
Next,itmustberecordedthatthesamedaythegunboatNeptun,steeringeast,passedthebrigBonitobecalmedinsightofCarimata,withherheadtotheeastward,too。Hercaptain,JasperAllen,givinghimselfupconsciouslytoatender,possessivereverieofhisFreya,didnotgetoutofhislongchaironthepooptolookattheNeptunwhichpassedsoclosethatthesmokebelchingoutsuddenlyfromhershortblackfunnelrolledbetweenthemastsoftheBonito,obscuringforamomentthesunlitwhitenessofhersails,consecratedtotheserviceoflove。Jasperdidnoteventurnhisheadforaglance。ButHeemskirk,onthebridge,hadgazedlongandearnestlyatthebrigfromthedistance,grippinghardthebrassrailinfrontofhim,till,thetwoshipsclosing,helostallconfidenceinhimself,andretreatingtothechartroom,pulledthedoortowithacrash。There,hisbrowsknitted,hismouthdrawnononesideinsardonicmeditation,hesatthroughmanystillhours—asortofPrometheusinthebondsofunholydesire,havinghisveryvitalstornbythebeakandclawsofhumiliatedpassion。
Thatspeciesoffowlisnottobeshooedoffaseasilyasachicken。Fooled,cheated,deceived,ledon,outraged,mockedat—
beakandclaws!Asinisterbird!ThelieutenanthadnomindtobecomethetalkoftheArchipelago,asthenavalofficerwhohadhadhisfaceslappedbyagirl。Wasitpossiblethatshereallylovedthatrascallytrader?Hetriednottothink,but,worsethanthoughts,definiteimpressionsbesethiminhisretreat。Hesawher—avisionplain,closeto,detailed,plastic,coloured,lightedup—hesawherhangingroundtheneckofthatfellow。Andheshuthiseyes,onlytodiscoverthatthiswasnoremedy。Thenapianobegantoplaynearby,veryplainly;andheputhisfingerstohisearswithnobettereffect。Itwasnottobeborne—notinsolitude。Heboltedoutofthechartroom,andtalkedofindifferentthingssomewhatwildlywiththeofficerofthewatchonthebridge,tothemockingaccompanimentofaghostlypiano。
ThelastthingtoberecordedisthatLieutenantHeemskirkinsteadofpursuinghiscoursetowardsTernate,wherehewasexpected,wentoutofhiswaytocallatMakassar,wherenoonewaslookingforhisarrival。Oncethere,hegavecertainexplanationsandlaidacertainproposalbeforethegovernor,orsomeotherauthority,andobtainedpermissiontodowhathethoughtfitinthesematters。
ThereupontheNeptun,givingupTernatealtogether,steamednorthinviewofthemountainouscoastofCelebes,andthencrossingthebroadstraitstookupherstationonthelowcoastofvirginforests,inviolateandmute,inwatersphosphorescentatnight;
deepblueindaytimewithgleaminggreenpatchesoverthesubmergedreefs。FordaystheNeptuncouldbeseenmovingsmoothlyupanddownthesombrefaceoftheshore,orhangingaboutwithawatchfulairnearthesilverybreaksofbroadestuaries,underthegreatluminousskyneversoftened,neverveiled,andfloodingtheearthwiththeeverlastingsunshineofthetropics—thatsunshinewhich,initsunbrokensplendour,oppressesthesoulwithaninexpressiblemelancholymoreintimate,morepenetrating,moreprofoundthanthegreysadnessofthenorthernmists。
ThetradingbrigBonitoappearedglidingroundasombreforest—cladpointoflandonthesilveryestuaryofagreatriver。Thebreathofairthatgavehermotionwouldnothaveflutteredtheflameofatorch。Shestoleoutintotheopenfrombehindaveilofunstirringleaves,mysteriouslysilent,ghostlywhite,andsolemnlystealthyinherimperceptibleprogress;andJasper,hiselbowinthemainrigging,andhisheadleaningagainsthishand,thoughtofFreya。Everythingintheworldremindedhimofher。ThebeautyofthelovedwomanexistsinthebeautiesofNature。Theswellingoutlinesofthehills,thecurvesofacoast,thefreesinuositiesofariverarelesssuavethantheharmoniouslinesofherbody,andwhenshemoves,glidinglightly,thegraceofherprogresssuggeststhepowerofoccultforceswhichrulethefascinatingaspectsofthevisibleworld。
Dependentonthingsasallmenare,Jasperlovedhisvessel—thehouseofhisdreams。HelenttohersomethingofFreya’ssoul。
Herdeckwasthefootholdoftheirlove。Thepossessionofhisbrigappeasedhispassioninasoothingcertitudeofhappinessalreadyconquered。
Thefullmoonwassomewayup,perfectandserene,floatinginairascalmandlimpidastheglanceofFreya’seyes。Therewasnotasoundinthebrig。
"Heresheshallstand,bymyside,oneveningslikethis,"hethought,withrapture。
Anditwasatthatmoment,inthispeace,inthisserenity,underthefull,benigngazeofthemoonpropitioustolovers,onaseawithoutawrinkle,underaskywithoutacloud,asifallNaturehadassumeditsmostclementmoodinaspiritofmockery,thatthegunboatNeptun,detachingherselffromthedarkcoastunderwhichshehadbeenlyinginvisible,steamedouttointerceptthetradingbrigBonitostandingouttosea。
Directlythegunboathadbeenmadeoutemergingfromherambush,Schultz,ofthefascinatingvoice,hadgivensignsofstrangeagitation。Allthatday,eversinceleavingtheMalaytownuptheriver,hehadshownahaggardface,goingabouthisdutieslikeamanwithsomethingweighingonhismind。Jasperhadnoticedit,butthemate,turningaway,asthoughhehadnotlikedbeinglookedat,hadmutteredshamefacedlyofaheadacheandatouchoffever。
Hemusthavehaditverybadlywhen,dodgingbehindhiscaptainhewonderedaloud:"Whatcanthatfellowwantwithus?"……Anakedmanstandinginafreezingblastandtryingnottoshivercouldnothavespokenwithamoreharshlyuncertainintonation。Butitmighthavebeenfever—acoldfit。
"Hewantstomakehimselfdisagreeable,simply,"saidJasper,withperfectgoodhumour。"Hehastrieditonmebefore。However,weshallsoonsee。"
And,indeed,beforelongthetwovesselslayabreastwithineasyhail。Thebrig,withherfinelinesandherwhitesails,lookedvaporousandsylph—likeinthemoonlight。Thegunboat,short,squat,withherstumpydarksparsnakedlikedeadtrees,raisedagainsttheluminousskyofthatresplendentnight,threwaheavyshadowonthelaneofwaterbetweenthetwoships。
Freyahauntedthembothlikeanubiquitousspirit,andasifsheweretheonlywomanintheworld。Jasperrememberedherearnestrecommendationtobeguardedandcautiousinallhisactsandwordswhilehewasawayfromher。Inthisquiteunforeseenencounterhefeltonhiseartheverybreathofthesehurriedadmonitionscustomarytothelastmomentoftheirpartings,heardthehalf—
jestingfinalwhisperofthe"Mind,kid,I’dneverforgiveyou!"
withaquickpressureonhisarm,whichheansweredbyaquiet,confidentsmile。Heemskirkwashauntedinanotherfashion。Therewerenowhispersinit;itwasmorelikevisions。Hesawthatgirlhangingroundtheneckofalowvagabond—thatvagabond,thevagabondwhohadjustansweredhishail。Hesawherstealingbare—
footedacrossaverandahwithgreat,clear,wide—open,eagereyestolookatabrig—thatbrig。Ifshehadshrieked,scolded,callednames!……Butshehadsimplytriumphedoverhim。Thatwasall。Ledon(hefirmlybelievedit),fooled,deceived,outraged,struck,mockedat……Beakandclaws!Thetwomen,sodifferentlyhauntedbyFreyaoftheSevenIsles,werenotequallymatched。
Intheintensestillness,asofsleep,whichhadfallenuponthetwovessels,inaworldthatitselfseemedbutadelicatedream,aboatpulledbyJavanesesailorscrossingthedarklaneofwatercamealongsidethebrig。Thewhitewarrantofficerinher,perhapsthegunner,climbedaboard。Hewasashortman,witharotundstomachandawheezyvoice。Hisimmovablefatfacelookedlifelessinthemoonlight,andhewalkedwithhisthickarmshangingawayfromhisbodyasthoughhehadbeenstuffed。Hiscunninglittleeyesglitteredlikebitsofmica。HeconveyedtoJasper,inbrokenEnglish,arequesttocomeonboardtheNeptun。
Jasperhadnotexpectedanythingsounusual。Butafterashortreflectionhedecidedtoshowneitherannoyance,norevensurprise。
Theriverfromwhichhehadcomehadbeenpoliticallydisturbedforacoupleofyears,andhewasawarethathisvisitstherewerelookeduponwithsomesuspicion。Buthedidnotmindmuchthedispleasureoftheauthorities,soterrifyingtooldNelson。Hepreparedtoleavethebrig,andSchultzfollowedhimtotherailasiftosaysomething,butintheendstoodbyinsilence。Jaspergettingovertheside,noticedhisghastlyface。Theeyesofthemanwhohadfoundsalvationinthebrigfromtheeffectsofhispeculiarpsychologylookedathimwithadumb,beseechingexpression。
"What’sthematter?"Jasperasked。
"Iwonderhowthiswillend?"saidheofthebeautifulvoice,whichhadevenfascinatedthesteadyFreyaherself。Butwherewasitscharmingtimbrenow?Thesewordshadsoundedlikearaven’scroak。
"Youareill,"saidJasperpositively。
"IwishIweredead!"wasthestartlingstatementutteredbySchultztalkingtohimselfintheextremityofsomemysterioustrouble。Jaspergavehimakeenglance,butthiswasnotthetimetoinvestigatethemorbidoutbreakofafeverishman。Hedidnotlookasthoughhewereactuallydelirious,andthatforthemomentmustsuffice。Schultzmadeadartforward。
"Thatfellowmeansharm!"hesaiddesperately。"Hemeansharmtoyou,CaptainAllen。Ifeelit,andI—"
Hechokedwithinexplicableemotion。
"Allright,Schultz。Iwon’tgivehimanopening。"Jaspercuthimshortandswunghimselfintotheboat。
OnboardtheNeptunHeemskirk,standingstraddle—legsinthefloodofmoonlight,hisinkyshadowfallingrightacrossthequarter—
deck,madenosignathisapproach,butsecretlyhefeltsomethingliketheheaveoftheseainhischestatthesightofthatman。
Jasperwaitedbeforehiminsilence。
Broughtfacetofaceindirectpersonalcontact,theyfellatonceintothemanneroftheircasualmeetingsinoldNelson’sbungalow。
Theyignoredeachother’sexistence—Heemskirkmoodily;Jasper,withaperfectlycolourlessquietness。
"What’sgoingoninthatriveryou’vejustcomeoutof?"askedthelieutenantstraightaway。
"Iknownothingofthetroubles,ifyoumeanthat,"Jasperanswered。"I’velandedtherehalfacargoofrice,forwhichIgotnothinginexchange,andwentaway。There’snotradetherenow,buttheywouldhavebeenstarvinginanotherweek—ifIhadn’tturnedup。"
"Meddling!Englishmeddling!Andsupposetherascalsdon’tdeserveanythingbetterthantostarve,eh?"
"Therearewomenandchildrenthere,youknow,"observedJasper,inhiseventone。
"Oh,yes!WhenanEnglishmantalksofwomenandchildren,youmaybesurethere’ssomethingfishyaboutthebusiness。Yourdoingswillhavetobeinvestigated。"
Theyspokeinturn,asthoughtheyhadbeendisembodiedspirits—
merevoicesinemptyair;fortheylookedateachotherasiftherehadbeennothingthere,or,atmost,withasmuchrecognitionasonegivestoaninanimateobject,andnomore。Butnowasilencefell。Heemskirkhadthought,allatonce:"Shewilltellhimallaboutit。Shewilltellhimwhileshehangsroundhisnecklaughing。"AndthesuddendesiretoannihilateJasperonthespotalmostdeprivedhimofhissensesbyitsvehemence。Helostthepowerofspeech,ofvision。Foramomentheabsolutelycouldn’tseeJasper。Butheheardhiminquiring,asoftheworldatlarge:
"AmI,then,toconcludethatthebrigisdetained?"
Heemskirkmadearecoveryinaflushofmalignantsatisfaction。
"Sheis。IamgoingtotakehertoMakassarintow。"
"Thecourtswillhavetodecideonthelegalityofthis,"saidJasper,awarethatthematterwasbecomingserious,butwithassumedindifference。
"Oh,yes,thecourts!Certainly。Andastoyou,Ishallkeepyouonboardhere。"
Jasper’sdismayatbeingpartedfromhisshipwasbetrayedbyastonyimmobility。Itlastedbutaninstant。Thenheturnedawayandhailedthebrig。Mr。Schultzanswered:
"Yes,sir。"
"Getreadytoreceiveatow—ropefromthegunboat!WearegoingtobetakentoMakassar。"
"GoodGod!What’sthatfor,sir?"cameananxiouscryfaintly。
"Kindness,Isuppose,"Jasper,ironical,shoutedwithgreatdeliberation。"Wemighthavebeen—becalmedinhere—fordays。
Andhospitality。Iaminvitedtostay—onboardhere。"
Theanswertothisinformationwasaloudejaculationofdistress。
Jasperthoughtanxiously:"Why,thefellow’snerve’sgonetopieces;"andwithanawkwarduneasinessofanewsort,lookedintentlyatthebrig。Thethoughtthathewaspartedfromher—
forthefirsttimesincetheycametogether—shooktheapparentlycarelessfortitudeofhischaractertoitsveryfoundations,whichweredeep。AllthattimeneitherHeemskirknorevenhisinkyshadowhadstirredintheleast。
"Iamgoingtosendaboat’screwandanofficeronboardyourvessel,"heannouncedtonooneinparticular。Jasper,tearinghimselfawayfromtheabsorbedcontemplationofthebrig,turnedround,and,withoutpassion,almostwithoutexpressioninhisvoice,enteredhisprotestagainstthewholeoftheproceedings。
Whathewasthinkingofwasthedelay。Hecountedthedays。
Makassarwasactuallyonhisway;andtobetowedtherereallysavedtime。Ontheotherhand,therewouldbesomevexingformalitiestogothrough。Butthethingwastooabsurd。"Thebeetle’sgonemad,"hethought。"I’llbereleasedatonce。Andifnot,Mesmanmustenterintoabondforme。"MesmanwasaDutchmerchantwithwhomJasperhadhadmanydealings,aconsiderablepersoninMakassar。
"Youprotest?H’m!"Heemskirkmuttered,andforalittlelongerremainedmotionless,hislegsplantedwellapart,andhisheadloweredasthoughhewerestudyinghisowncomical,deeply—splitshadow。Thenhemadeasigntotherotundgunner,whohadkeptathand,motionless,likeavilely—stuffedspecimenofafatman,withalifelessfaceandglitteringlittleeyes。Thefellowapproached,andstoodatattention。
"Youwillboardthebrigwithaboat’screw!"
"Ya,mynherr!"
"Youwillhaveoneofyourmentosteerherallthetime,"wentonHeemskirk,givinghisordersinEnglish,apparentlyforJasper’sedification。"Youhear?"
"Ya,mynherr。"
"Youwillremainondeckandinchargeallthetime。"
"Ya,mynherr。"
Jasperfeltasif,togetherwiththecommandofthebrig,hisveryheartwerebeingtakenoutofhisbreast。Heemskirkasked,withachangeoftone:
"Whatweaponshaveyouonboard?"
AtonetimealltheshipstradingintheChinaSeashadalicencetocarryacertainquantityoffirearmsforpurposesofdefence。
Jasperanswered:
"Eighteenrifleswiththeirbayonets,whichwereonboardwhenI
boughther,fouryearsago。Theyhavebeendeclared。"
"Wherearetheykept?"
"Fore—cabin。Matehasthekey。"
"Youwilltakepossessionofthem,"saidHeemskirktothegunner。
"Ya,mynherr。"
"Whatisthisfor?Whatdoyoumeantoimply?"criedoutJasper;
thenbithislip。"It’smonstrous!"hemuttered。
Heemskirkraisedforamomentaheavy,asifsuffering,glance。
"Youmaygo,"hesaidtohisgunner。Thefatmansaluted,anddeparted。
Duringthenextthirtyhoursthesteadytowingwasinterruptedonce。Atasignalfromthebrig,madebywavingaflagontheforecastle,thegunboatwasstopped。Thebadly—stuffedspecimenofawarrant—officer,gettingintohisboat,arrivedonboardtheNeptunandhurriedstraightintohiscommander’scabin,hisexcitementatsomethinghehadtocommunicatebeingbetrayedbytheblinkingofhissmalleyes。Thesetwowereclosetedtogetherforsometime,whileJasperatthetaffrailtriedtomakeoutifanythingoutofthecommonhadoccurredonboardthebrig。
Butnothingseemedtobeamissonboard。However,hekeptalook—
outforthegunner;and,thoughhehadavoidedspeakingtoanybodysincehehadfinishedwithHeemskirk,hestoppedthatmanwhenhecameoutondeckagaintoaskhowhismatewas。
"HewasfeelingnotverywellwhenIleft,"heexplained。
Thefatwarrant—officer,holdinghimselfasthoughtheeffortofcarryinghisbigstomachinfrontofhimdemandedarigidcarriage,understoodwithdifficulty。Notasingleoneofhisfeaturesshowedtheslightestanimation,buthislittleeyesblinkedrapidlyatlast。
"Oh,ya!Themate。Ya,ya!Heisverywell。But,meinGott,heisoneveryfunnyman!"
Jaspercouldgetnoexplanationofthatremark,becausetheDutchmangotintotheboathurriedly,andwentbackonboardthebrig。Butheconsoledhimselfwiththethoughtthatverysoonallthisunpleasantandratherabsurdexperiencewouldbeover。TheroadsteadofMakassarwasinsightalready。Heemskirkpassedbyhimgoingonthebridge。ForthefirsttimethelieutenantlookedatJasperwithmarkedintention;andthestrangerollofhiseyeswassofunny—ithadbeenlongagreedbyJasperandFreyathatthelieutenantwasfunny—soecstaticallygratified,asthoughhewererollingatastymorselonhistongue,thatJaspercouldnothelpabroadsmile。Andthenheturnedtohisbrigagain。
Toseeher,hischerishedpossession,animatedbysomethingofhisFreya’ssoul,theonlyfootholdoftwolivesonthewideearth,thesecurityofhispassion,thecompanionofadventure,thepowertosnatchthecalm,adorableFreyatohisbreast,andcarryherofftotheendoftheworld;toseethisbeautifulthingembodyingworthilyhisprideandhislove,toseehercaptiveattheendofatow—ropewasnotindeedapleasantexperience。Ithadsomethingnightmarishinit,as,forinstance,thedreamofawildsea—birdloadedwithchains。
Yetwhatelsecouldhewanttolookat?Herbeautywouldsometimescometohisheartwiththeforceofaspell,sothathewouldforgetwherehewas。And,besides,thatsenseofsuperioritywhichthecertitudeofbeinglovedgivestoayoungman,thatillusionofbeingsetabovetheFatesbyatenderlookinawoman’seyes,helpedhim,thefirstshockover,togothroughtheseexperienceswithanamusedself—confidence。ForwhatevilcouldtouchtheelectofFreya?
Itwasnowafternoon,thesunbeingbehindthetwovesselsastheyheadedfortheharbour。"Thebeetle’slittlejokeshallsoonbeover,"thoughtJasper,withoutanygreatanimosity。Asaseamanwellacquaintedwiththatpartoftheworld,acasualglancewasenoughtotellhimwhatwasbeingdone。"Hallo,"hethought,"heisgoingthroughSpermondePassage。WeshallberoundingTamissareefpresently。"Andagainhereturnedtothecontemplationofhisbrig,thatmain—stayofhismaterialandemotionalexistencewhichwouldbesooninhishandsagain。Onasea,calmlikeamillpond,aheavysmoothrippleundulatedandstreamedawayfromherbows,forthepowerfulNeptunwastowingatgreatspeed,asifforawager。TheDutchgunnerappearedontheforecastleoftheBonito,andwithhimacoupleofmen。Theystoodlookingatthecoast,andJasperlosthimselfinaloverliketrance。
Thedeep—tonedblastofthegunboat’ssteam—whistlemadehimshudderbyitsunexpectedness。Slowlyhelookedabout。Swiftaslightningheleapedfromwherehestood,boundingforwardalongthedeck。
"YouwillbeonTamissareef!"heyelled。
HighuponthebridgeHeemskirklookedbackoverhisshoulderheavily;twoseamenwerespinningthewheelround,andtheNeptunwasalreadyswingingrapidlyawayfromtheedgeofthepalewateroverthedanger。Ha!justintime。Jasperturnedaboutinstantlytowatchhisbrig;and,evenbeforeherealisedthat—inobedience,itappears,toHeemskirk’sordersgivenbeforehandtothegunner—thetow—ropehadbeenletgoattheblastofthewhistle,beforehehadtimetocryoutortomovealimb,hesawhercastadriftandshootingacrossthegunboat’ssternwiththeimpetusofherspeed。Hefollowedherfine,glidingformwitheyesgrowingbigwithincredulity,wildwithhorror。Thecriesonboardofhercametohimonlyasadreadfulandconfusedmurmurthroughtheloudthumpingofbloodinhisears,whilesheheldon。Sheranuprightinaterribledisplayofhergiftofspeed,withanincomparableairoflifeandgrace。Sheranontillthesmoothlevelofwaterinfrontofherbowsseemedtosinkdownsuddenlyasifsuckedaway;and,withastrange,violenttremorofhermast—
headsshestopped,inclinedherloftysparsalittle,andlaystill。Shelaystillonthereef,whiletheNeptun,fetchingawidecircle,continuedatfullspeedupSpermondePassage,headingforthetown。Shelaystill,perfectlystill,withsomethingill—
omenedandunnaturalinherattitude。Inaninstantthesubtlemelancholyofthingstouchedbydecayhadfallenonherinthesunshine;shewasbutaspeckinthebrilliantemptinessofspace,alreadylonely,alreadydesolate。
"Holdhim!"yelledavoicefromthebridge。
Jasperhadstartedtoruntohisbrigwithaheadlongimpulse,asamandashesforwardtopullawaywithhishandsaliving,breathing,lovedcreaturefromthebrinkofdestruction。"Holdhim!Sticktohim!"vociferatedthelieutenantatthetopofthebridge—ladder,whileJasperstruggledmadlywithoutaword,onlyhisheademergingfromtheheavingcrowdoftheNeptun’sseamen,whohadflungthemselvesuponhimobediently。"Hold—Iwouldnothavethatfellowdrownhimselfforanythingnow!"
Jasperceasedstruggling。
Onebyonetheyletgoofhim;theyfellbackgraduallyfartherandfarther,inattentivesilence,leavinghimstandingunsupportedinawidened,clearspace,asiftogivehimplentyofroomtofallafterthestruggle。Hedidnotevenswayperceptibly。Halfanhourlater,whentheNeptunanchoredinfrontofthetown,hehadnotstirredyet,hadmovedneitherheadnorlimbasmuchasahair’sbreadth。Directlytherumbleofthegunboat’scablehadceased,Heemskirkcamedownheavilyfromthebridge。
"Callasampan"hesaid,inagloomytone,ashepassedthesentryatthegangway,andthenmovedonslowlytowardsthespotwhereJasper,theobjectofmanyawedglances,stoodlookingatthedeck,asiflostinabrownstudy。Heemskirkcameupclose,andstaredathimthoughtfully,withhisfingersoverhislips。Herehewas,thefavouredvagabond,theonlymantowhomthatinfernalgirlwaslikelytotellthestory。Buthewouldnotfinditfunny。ThestoryhowLieutenantHeemskirk—No,hewouldnotlaughatit。Helookedasthoughhewouldneverlaughatanythinginhislife。
SuddenlyJasperlookedup。Hiseyes,withoutanyotherexpressionbutbewilderment,metthoseofHeemskirk,observantandsombre。
"Goneonthereef!"hesaid,inalow,astoundedtone。"On—the—
reef!"herepeatedstilllower,andasifattendinginwardlytothebirthofsomeawfulandamazingsensation。
"Ontheverytopofhigh—water,springtides,"Heemskirkstruckin,withavindictive,exultingviolencewhichflashedandexpired。Hepaused,asifweary,fixinguponJasperhisarroganteyes,overwhichsecretdisenchantment,theunavoidableshadowofallpassion,seemedtopasslikeasaddeningcloud。"Ontheverytop,"herepeated,rousinghimselfinfiercereactiontosnatchhislacedcapoffhisheadwithahorizontal,derisiveflourishtowardsthegangway。"Andnowyoumaygoashoretothecourts,youdamnedEnglishman!"hesaid。
CHAPTERVI
TheaffairofthebrigBonitowasboundtocauseasensationinMakassar,theprettiest,andperhapsthecleanest—lookingofallthetownsintheIslands;whichhoweverknowsfewoccasionsforexcitement。The"front,"withitsspecialpopulation,wassoonawarethatsomethinghadhappened。Asteamertowingasailingvesselhadbeenobservedfarouttoseaforsometime,andwhenthesteamercameinalone,leavingtheotheroutside,attentionwasaroused。Whywasthat?Hermastsonlycouldbeseen—withfurledsails—remaininginthesameplacetothesouthward。AndsoontherumourranallalongthecrowdedseashorestreetthattherewasashiponTamissareef。Thatcrowdinterpretedtheappearancecorrectly。Itscausewasbeyondtheirpenetration,forwhocouldassociateagirlninehundredmilesawaywiththestrandingofashiponTamissareef,orlookfortheremotefiliationofthateventinthepsychologyofatleastthreepeople,evenifoneofthem,LieutenantHeemskirk,wasatthatverymomentpassingamongstthemonhiswaytomakehisverbalreport?
No;themindsonthe"front"werenotcompetentforthatsortofinvestigation,butmanyhandsthere—brownhands,yellowhands,whitehands—wereraisedtoshadetheeyesgazingouttosea。Therumourspreadquickly。Chineseshopkeeperscametotheirdoors,morethanonewhitemerchant,even,rosefromhisdesktogotothewindow。Afterall,ashiponTamissawasnotaneverydayoccurrence。Andpresentlytherumourtookamoredefiniteshape。
AnEnglishtrader—detainedonsuspicionatseabytheNeptun—
Heemskirkwastowinghimintotestacase,andbysomestrangeaccident—
Lateronthenamecameout。"TheBonito—what!Impossible!Yes—yes,theBonito。Look!Youcanseefromhere;onlytwomasts。
It’sabrig。Didn’tthinkthatmanwouldeverlethimselfbecaught。Heemskirk’sprettysmart,too。Theysayshe’sfittedoutinhercabinlikeagentleman’syacht。ThatAllenisasortofgentlemantoo。Anextravagantbeggar。"
AyoungmanenteredsmartlyMessrs。MesmanBrothers’officeonthe"front,"bubblingwithsomefurtherinformation。
"Oh,yes;that’stheBonitoforcertain!Butyoudon’tknowthestoryI’veheardjustnow。Thefellowmusthavebeenfeedingthatriverwithfirearmsforthelastyearortwo。Well,itseemshehasgrownsorecklessfromlongimpunitythathehasactuallydaredtoselltheveryship’sriflesthistime。It’safact。Theriflesarenotonboard。Whatimpudence!Only,hedidn’tknowthattherewasoneofourwarshipsonthecoast。ButthoseEnglishmenaresoimpudentthatperhapshethoughtthatnothingwouldbedonetohimforit。Ourcourtsdoletoffthesefellowstoooften,onsomemiserableexcuseorother。But,atanyrate,there’sanendofthefamousBonito。Ihavejustheardintheharbour—officethatshemusthavegoneonattheverytopofhigh—water;andsheisinballast,too。Nohumanpower,theythink,canmoveherfromwheresheis。Ionlyhopeitisso。ItwouldbefinetohavethenotoriousBonitostuckupthereasawarningtoothers。"
Mr。J。Mesman,acolonial—bornDutchman,akind,paternaloldfellow,withaclean—shaven,quiet,handsomefade,andaheadoffineiron—greyhaircurlingalittleonhiscollar,didnotsayawordindefenceofJasperandtheBonito。Herosefromhisarm—
chairsuddenly。Hisfacewasvisiblytroubled。Ithadsohappenedthatonce,fromabusinesstalkofwaysandmeans,islandtrade,moneymatters,andsoon,JasperhadbeenledtoopenhimselftohimonthesubjectofFreya;andtheexcellentman,whohadknownoldNelsonyearsbeforeandevenrememberedsomethingofFreya,wasmuchastonishedandamusedbytheunfoldingofthetale。
"Well,well,well!Nelson!Yes;ofcourse。Averyhonestsortofman。Andalittlechildwithveryfairhair。Oh,yes!Ihaveadistinctrecollection。Andsoshehasgrownintosuchafinegirl,soverydetermined,sovery—"Andhelaughedalmostboisterously。"Mind,whenyouhavehappilyelopedwithyourfuturewife,CaptainAllen,youmustcomealongthisway,andweshallwelcomeherhere。Alittlefair—headedchild!Iremember。I
remember。"
Itwasthatknowledgewhichhadbroughttroubletohisfaceatthefirstnewsofthewreck。Hetookuphishat。
"Whereareyougoing,Mr。Mesman?"
"IamgoingtolookforAllen。Ithinkhemustbeashore。Doesanybodyknow?"
Nooneofthosepresentknew。AndMr。Mesmanwentoutonthe"front"tomakeinquiries。
Theotherpartofthetown,thepartnearthechurchandthefort,gotitsinformationinanotherway。ThefirstthingdisclosedtoitwasJasperhimself,walkingrapidly,asthoughhewerepursued。
And,asamatteroffact,aChinaman,obviouslyasampanman,wasfollowinghimatthesameheadlongpace。Suddenly,whilepassingOrangeHouse,Jasperswervedandwentin,or,rather,rushedin,startlingGomez,thehotelclerk,verymuch。ButaChinamanbeginningtomakeanunseemlynoiseatthedoorclaimedtheimmediateattentionofGomez。Hisgrievancewasthatthewhitemanwhomhehadbroughtonshorefromthegunboathadnotpaidhimhisboat—fare。Hehadpursuedhimsofar,askingforitalltheway。
Butthewhitemanhadtakennonoticewhateverofhisjustclaim。
Gomezsatisfiedthecooliewithafewcoppers,andthenwenttolookforJasper,whomheknewverywell。Hefoundhimstandingstifflybyalittleroundtable。Attheotherendoftheverandahafewmensittingtherehadstoppedtalking,andwerelookingathiminsilence。Twobilliard—players,withcuesintheirhands,hadcometothedoorofthebilliard—roomandstared,too。
OnGomezcominguptohim,Jasperraisedonehandtopointathisownthroat。Gomeznotedthesomewhatsoiledstateofhiswhiteclothes,thentookonelookathisface,andfledawaytoorderthedrinkforwhichJasperseemedtobeasking。
Wherehewantedtogo—orwhatpurpose—wherehe,perhaps,onlyimaginedhimselftobegoing,whenasuddenimpulseorthesightofafamiliarplacehadmadehimturnintoOrangeHouse—itisimpossibletosay。Hewassteadyinghimselflightlywiththetipsofhisfingersonthelittletable。Therewereonthatverandahtwomenwhomheknewwellpersonally,buthisgazeroamingincessantlyasthoughhewerelookingforawayofescape,passedandrepassedoverthemwithoutasignofrecognition。They,ontheirside,lookingathim,doubtedtheevidenceoftheirowneyes。
Itwasnotthathisfacewasdistorted。Onthecontrary,itwasstill,itwasset。Butitsexpression,somehow,wasunrecognisable。Canthatbehim?theywonderedwithawe。
Inhisheadtherewasawildchaosofclearthoughts。Perfectlyclear。Itwasthisclearnesswhichwassoterribleinconjunctionwiththeutterinabilitytolayholdofanysingleoneofthemall。
Hewassayingtohimself,ortothem:"Steady,steady。"AChinaboyappearedbeforehimwithaglassonatray。Hepouredthedrinkdownhisthroat,andrushedout。Hisdisappearanceremovedthespellofwonderfromthebeholders。Oneofthemenjumpedupandmovedquicklytothatsideoftheverandahfromwhichalmostthewholeoftheroadsteadcouldbeseen。AttheverymomentwhenJasper,issuingfromthedooroftheOrangeHouse,waspassingunderhiminthestreetbelow,hecriedtotheothersexcitedly:
"ThatwasAllenrightenough!Butwhereishisbrig?"
Jasperheardthesewordswithextraordinaryloudness。Theheavensrangwiththem,asifcallinghimtoaccount;forthoseweretheverywordsFreyawouldhavetouse。Itwasanannihilatingquestion;itstruckhisconsciousnesslikeathunderboltandbroughtasuddennightuponthechaosofhisthoughtsevenashewalked。Hedidnotcheckhispace。Hewentoninthedarknessforanotherthreestrides,andthenfell。
ThegoodMesmanhadtopushonasfarasthehospitalbeforehefoundhim。Thedoctortheretalkedofaslightheatstroke。
Nothingverymuch。Outinthreedays……Itmustbeadmittedthatthedoctorwasright。Inthreedays,JasperAllencameoutofthehospitalandbecamevisibletothetown—veryvisibleindeed—
andremainedsoforquitealongtime;longenoughtobecomealmostoneofthesightsoftheplace;longenoughtobecomedisregardedatlast;longenoughforthetaleofhishauntingvisibilitytoberememberedintheislandstothisday。
Thetalkonthe"front"andJasper’sappearanceintheOrangeHousestandatthebeginningofthefamousBonitocase,andgiveaviewofitstwoaspects—thepracticalandthepsychological。Thecaseforthecourtsandthecaseforcompassion;thatlastterriblyevidentandyetobscure。
Ithas,youmustunderstand,remainedobscureevenforthatfriendofminewhowrotemethelettermentionedintheveryfirstlinesofthisnarrative。HewasoneofthoseinMr。Mesman’soffice,andaccompaniedthatgentlemaninhissearchforJasper。Hisletterdescribedtomethetwoaspectsandsomeoftheepisodesofthecase。Heemskirk’sattitudewasthatofdeepthankfulnessfornothavinglosthisownship,andthatwasall。HazeoverthelandwashisexplanationofhavinggotsoclosetoTamissareef。Hesavedhisship,andfortheresthedidnotcare。Astothefatgunner,hedeposedsimplythathethoughtatthetimethathewasactingforthebestbylettinggothetow—rope,butadmittedthathewasgreatlyconfusedbythesuddennessoftheemergency。
Asamatteroffact,hehadactedonverypreciseinstructionsfromHeemskirk,towhomthroughseveralyears’servicetogetherintheEasthehadbecomeasortofdevotedhenchman。WhatwasmostamazinginthedetentionoftheBonitowashisstoryhow,proceedingtotakepossessionofthefirearmsasordered,hediscoveredthattherewerenofirearmsonboard。Allhefoundinthefore—cabinwasanemptyrackforthepropernumberofeighteenrifles,butoftheriflesthemselvesneverasingleoneanywhereintheship。Themateofthebrig,wholookedratherillandbehavedexcitedly,asthoughhewereperhapsalunatic,wantedhimtobelievethatCaptainAllenknewnothingofthis;thatitwashe,themate,whohadrecentlysoldtheseriflesinthedeadofnighttoacertainpersonuptheriver。Inproofofthisstoryheproducedabagofsilverdollarsandpresseditonhis,thegunner’s,acceptance。Then,suddenlyflingingitdownonthedeck,hebeathisownheadwithbothhisfistsandstartedheapingshockingcursesuponhisownsoulforanungratefulwretchnotfittolive。
Allthisthegunnerreportedatoncetohiscommandingofficer。
WhatHeemskirkintendedbytakinguponhimselftodetaintheBonitoitisdifficulttosay,exceptthathemeanttobringsometroubleintothelifeofthemanfavouredbyFreya。HehadbeenlookingatJasperwithadesiretostrikethatmanofkissesandembracestotheearth。Thequestionwas:Howcouldhedoitwithoutgivinghimselfaway?Butthereportofthegunnercreatedaseriouscaseenough。YetAllenhadfriends—andwhocouldtellwhetherhewouldn’tsomehowsucceedinwrigglingoutofit?Theideaofsimplytowingthebrigsomuchcompromisedontothereefcametohimwhilehewaslisteningtothefatgunnerinhiscabin。Therewasbutlittleriskofbeingdisapprovednow。Anditshouldbemadetoappearanaccident。
Goingoutondeckhehadgloateduponhisunconsciousvictimwithsuchasinisterrollofhiseyes,suchaqueerlypursedmouth,thatJaspercouldnothelpsmiling。Andthelieutenanthadgoneonthebridge,sayingtohimself:
"Youwait!Ishallspoilthetasteofthosesweetkissesforyou。
WhenyouhearofLieutenantHeemskirkinthefuturethatnamewon’tbringasmileonyourlips,Iswear。Youaredeliveredintomyhands。"
Andthispossibilityhadcomeaboutwithoutanyplanning,onecouldalmostsaynaturally,asifeventshadmysteriouslyshapedthemselvestofitthepurposesofadarkpassion。ThemostastuteschemingcouldnothaveservedHeemskirkbetter。Itwasgiventohimtotasteatranscendental,anincredibleperfectionofvengeance;tostrikeadeadlyblowintothathatedperson’sheart,andtowatchhimafterwardswalkingaboutwiththedaggerinhisbreast。
ForthatiswhatthestateofJasperamountedto。Hemoved,acted,weary—eyed,keen—faced,lankandrestless,withbrusquemovementsandfiercegestures;hetalkedincessantlyinafrenziedandfatiguedvoice,butwithinhimselfheknewthatnothingwouldevergivehimbackthebrig,justasnothingcanhealapiercedheart。
Hissoul,keptquietinthestressoflovebytheunflinchingFreya’sinfluence,waslikeastillbutoverwoundstring。Theshockhadstarteditvibrating,andthestringhadsnapped。Hehadwaitedfortwoyearsinaperfectlyintoxicatedconfidenceforadaythatnowwouldnevercometoamandisarmedforlifebythelossofthebrig,and,itseemedtohim,madeunfitforlovetowhichhehadnofootholdtooffer。
Dayafterdayhewouldtraversethelengthofthetown,followthecoast,and,reachingthepointoflandoppositethatpartofthereefonwhichhisbriglaystranded,looksteadilyacrossthewateratherbelovedform,oncethehomeofanexultinghope,andnow,inherinclined,desolatedimmobility,toweringabovethelonelysea—
horizon,asymbolofdespair。
Thecrewhadleftherinduecourseinherownboatswhichdirectlytheyreachedthetownweresequestratedbytheharbourauthorities。
Thevessel,too,wassequestratedpendingproceedings;butthesesameauthoritiesdidnottakethetroubletosetaguardonboard。
For,indeed,whatcouldmoveherfromthere?Nothing,unlessamiracle;nothing,unlessJasper’seyes,fastenedonhertenselyforhourstogether,asthoughhehopedbythemerepowerofvisiontodrawhertohisbreast。
Allthisstory,readinmyfriend’sverychattyletter,dismayedmenotalittle。ButitwasreallyappallingtoreadhisrelationofhowSchultz,themate,wentabouteverywhereaffirmingwithdesperatepertinacitythatitwashealonewhohadsoldtherifles。
"Istolethem,"heprotested。Ofcourse,noonewouldbelievehim。
Myfriendhimselfdidnotbelievehim,thoughhe,ofcourse,admiredthisself—sacrifice。Butagoodmanypeoplethoughtitwasgoingtoofartomakeoneselfoutathiefforthesakeofafriend。
Only,itwassuchanobviouslie,too,thatitdidnotmatter,perhaps。
I,who,inviewofSchultz’spsychology,knewhowtruethatmustbe,admitthatIwasappalled。Sothiswashowaperfidiousdestinytookadvantageofagenerousimpulse!AndIfeltasthoughIwereanaccompliceinthisperfidy,sinceIdidtoacertainextentencourageJasper。YetIhadwarnedhimaswell。
"Themanseemedtohavegonecrazyonthispoint,"wrotemyfriend。
"HewenttoMesmanwithhisstory。Hesaysthatsomerascallywhitemanlivingamongstthenativesupthatrivermadehimdrunkwithsomeginoneevening,andthenjeeredathimforneverhavinganymoney。Thenhe,protestingtousthathewasanhonestmanandmustbebelieved,describedhimselfasbeingathiefwheneverhetookadroptoomuch,andtoldusthathewentonboardandpassedtheriflesonebyonewithouttheslightestcompunctiontoacanoewhichcamealongsidethatnight,receivingtendollarsapieceforthem。
"Nextdayhewasillwithshameandgrief,buthadnotthecouragetoconfesshislapsetohisbenefactor。Whenthegunboatstoppedthebrighefeltreadytodiewiththeapprehensionoftheconsequences,andwouldhavediedhappily,ifhecouldhavebeenabletobringtheriflesbackbythesacrificeofhislife。HesaidnothingtoJasper,hopingthatthebrigwouldbereleasedpresently。Whenitturnedoutotherwiseandhiscaptainwasdetainedonboardthegunboat,hewasreadytocommitsuicidefromdespair;onlyhethoughtithisdutytoliveinordertoletthetruthbeknown。’Iamanhonestman!Iamanhonestman!’herepeated,inavoicethatbroughttearstooureyes。’YoumustbelievemewhenItellyouthatIamathief—avile,low,cunning,sneakingthiefassoonasI’vehadaglassortwo。TakemesomewherewhereImaytellthetruthonoath。’
"WhenwehadatlastconvincedhimthathisstorycouldbeofnousetoJasper—forwhatDutchcourt,havingoncegotholdofanEnglishtrader,wouldacceptsuchanexplanation;and,indeed,how,when,wherecouldonehopetofindproofsofsuchatale?—hemadeasiftotearhishairinhandfuls,but,calmingdown,said:
’Good—bye,then,gentlemen,’andwentoutoftheroomsocrushedthatheseemedhardlyabletoputonefootbeforetheother。Thatverynighthecommittedsuicidebycuttinghisthroatinthehouseofahalf—castewithwhomhehadbeenlodgingsincehecameashorefromthewreck。"
Thatthroat,Ithoughtwithashudder,whichcouldproducethetender,persuasive,manly,butfascinatingvoicewhichhadarousedJasper’sreadycompassionandhadsecuredFreya’ssympathy!Whocouldeverhavesupposedsuchanendinstorefortheimpossible,gentleSchultz,withhisidiosyncrasyofnaivepilfering,soabsurdlystraightforwardthat,eveninthepeoplewhohadsufferedfromit,itarousednothingmorethanasortofamusedexasperation?Hewasreallyimpossible。Hislotevidentlyshouldhavebeenahalf—starved,mysterious,butbynomeanstragicexistenceasamild—eyed,inoffensivebeachcomberonthefringeofnativelife。Thereareoccasionswhentheironyoffate,whichsomepeopleprofesstodiscoverintheworkingoutofourlives,wearstheaspectofcrudeandsavagejesting。
IshookmyheadoverthemanesofSchultz,andwentonwithmyfriend’sletter。Ittoldmehowthebrigonthereef,lootedbythenativesfromthecoastvillages,acquiredgraduallythelamentableaspect,thegreyghastlinessofawreck;whileJasper,fadingdailyintoamereshadowofaman,strodebrusquelyallalongthe"front"withhorriblylivelyeyesandafaint,fixedsmileonhislips,tospendthedayonalonelyspitofsandlookingeagerlyather,asthoughhehadexpectedsomeshapeonboardtoriseupandmakesomesortofsigntohimoverthedecayingbulwarks。TheMesmansweretakingcareofhimasfarasitwaspossible。TheBonitocasehadbeenreferredtoBatavia,wherenodoubtitwouldfadeawayinafogofofficialpapers……Itwasheartrendingtoreadallthis。Thatactiveandzealousofficer,LieutenantHeemskirk,hisairofsullen,darkly—painedself—importancenotlightenedbytheapprovalofhisactionconveyedtohimunofficially,hadgoneontotakeuphisstationintheMoluccas……
Then,attheendofthebulky,kindly—meantepistle,dealingwiththeislandnewsofhalfayearatleast,myfriendwrote:"A
coupleofmonthsagooldNelsonturneduphere,arrivingbythemail—boatfromJava。CametoseeMesman,itseems。Arathermysteriousvisit,andextraordinarilyshort,aftercomingallthatway。HestayedjustfourdaysattheOrangeHouse,withapparentlynothinginparticulartodo,andthencaughtthesouth—goingsteamerfortheStraits。IrememberpeoplesayingatonetimethatAllenwasrathersweetonoldNelson’sdaughter,thegirlthatwasbroughtupbyMrs。HarleyandthenwenttolivewithhimattheSevenIslesgroup。SurelyyourememberoldNelson—"
RememberoldNelson!Rather!
TheletterwentontoinformmefurtherthatoldNelson,atleast,rememberedme,sincesometimeafterhisflyingvisittoMakassarhehadwrittentotheMesmansaskingformyaddressinLondon。
ThatoldNelson(orNielsen),thenoteofwhosepersonalitywasaprofound,echolessirresponsivenesstoeverythingaroundhim,shouldwishtowrite,orfindanythingtowriteabouttoanybody,wasinitselfacausefornosmallwonder。Andtome,ofallpeople!Iwaitedwithuneasyimpatienceforwhateverdisclosurecouldcomefromthatnaturallybenightedintelligence,butmyimpatiencehadtimetowearoutbeforemyeyesbeheldoldNelson’strembling,painfully—formedhandwriting,senileandchildishatthesametime,onanenvelopebearingapennystampandthepostalmarkoftheNottingHilloffice。Idelayedopeningitinordertopaythetributeofastonishmentduetotheeventbyflingingmyhandsabovemyhead。SohehadcomehometoEngland,tobedefinitelyNelson;orelsewasonhiswayhometoDenmark,wherehewouldrevertforevertohisoriginalNielsen!ButoldNelson(orNielsen)outofthetropicsseemedunthinkable。Andyethewasthere,askingmetocall。
Hisaddresswasataboarding—houseinoneofthoseBayswatersquares,onceofleisure,whichnowadaysarereducedtoearningtheirliving。Somebodyhadrecommendedhimthere。IstartedtocallonhimononeofthoseJanuarydaysinLondon,oneofthosewintrydayscomposedofthefourdevilishelements,cold,wet,mud,andgrime,combinedwithaparticularstickinessofatmospherethatclingslikeanuncleangarmenttoone’sverysoul。YetonapproachinghisabodeIsaw,likeaflickerfarbehindthesoiledveilofthefourelements,thewearisomeandsplendidglitterofablueseawiththeSevenIsletslikeminutespecksswimminginmyeye,thehighredroofofthebungalowcrowningtheverysmallestofthemall。Thisvisualreminiscencewasprofoundlydisturbing。
Iknockedatthedoorwithafalteringhand。
OldNelson(orNielsen)gotupfromthetableatwhichhewassittingwithashabbypocket—bookfullofpapersbeforehim。Hetookoffhisspectaclesbeforeshakinghands。Foramomentneitherofussaidaword;then,noticingmelookingroundsomewhatexpectantly,hemurmuredsomewords,ofwhichIcaughtonly"daughter"and"HongKong,"casthiseyesdown,andsighed。
Hismoustache,stickingallwaysout,asofyore,wasquitewhitenow。Hisoldcheeksweresoftlyrounded,withsomecolourinthem;
strangelyenough,thatsomethingchildlikealwaysnoticeableinthegeneralcontourofhisphysiognomyhadbecomemuchmoremarked。
Likehishandwriting,helookedchildishandsenile。Heshowedhisagemostinhisunintelligentlyfurrowed,anxiousforeheadandinhisround,innocenteyes,whichappearedtomeweakandblinkingandwatery;orwasitthattheywerefulloftears?……
TodiscoveroldNelsonfullyinformeduponanymatterwhateverwasanewexperience。Andafterthefirstawkwardnesshadwornoffhetalkedfreely,with,nowandthen,aquestiontostarthimgoingwheneverhelapsedintosilence,whichhewoulddosuddenly,claspinghishandsonhiswaistcoatinanattitudewhichwouldrecalltometheeastverandah,whereheusedtosittalkingquietlyandpuffingouthischeeksinwhatseemednowold,veryolddays。Hetalkedinareasonablesomewhatanxioustone。
"No,no。Wedidnotknowanythingforweeks。Outofthewaylikethat,wecouldn’t,ofcourse。NomailservicetotheSevenIsles。
ButonedayIranovertoBankainmybigsailing—boattoseewhethertherewereanyletters,andsawaDutchpaper。Butitlookedonlylikeabitofmarinenews:EnglishbrigBonitogoneashoreoutsideMakassarroads。Thatwasall。Itookthepaperhomewithmeandshowedittoher。’Iwillneverforgivehim!’shecrieswithheroldspirit。’Mydear,’Isaid,’youareasensiblegirl。Thebestmanmayloseaship。Butwhataboutyourhealth?’
Iwasbeginningtobefrightenedatherlooks。ShewouldnotletmetalkevenofgoingtoSingaporebefore。But,really,suchasensiblegirlcouldn’tkeeponobjectingforever。’Dowhatyoulike,papa,’shesays。Ratherajob,that。Hadtocatchasteameratsea,butIgotheroverallright。There,doctors,ofcourse。
Fever。Anaemia。Puthertobed。Twoorthreewomenverykindtoher。Naturallyinourpapersthewholestorycameoutbeforelong。
Shereadsittotheend,lyingonthecouch;thenhandsthenewspaperbacktome,whispers’Heemskirk,’andgoesoffintoafaint。"
Heblinkedatmeforquitealongtime,hiseyesrunningfulloftearsagain。
"Nextday,"hebegan,withoutanyemotioninhisvoice,"shefeltstronger,andwehadalongtalk。Shetoldmeeverything。"
HereoldNelson,withhiseyescastdown,gavemethewholestoryoftheHeemskirkepisodeinFreya’swords;thenwentoninhisratherjerkyutterance,andlookingupinnocently:
"’Mydear,’Isaid,’youhavebehavedinthemainlikeasensiblegirl。’’Ihavebeenhorrid,’shecries,’andheisbreakinghisheartoverthere。’Well,shewastoosensiblenottoseeshewasn’tinastatetotravel。ButIwent。Shetoldmetogo。Shewasbeinglookedafterverywell。Anaemia。Gettingbetter,theysaid。"
Hepaused。
"Youdidseehim?"Imurmured。
"Oh,yes;Ididseehim,"hestartedagain,talkinginthatreasonablevoiceasthoughhewerearguingapoint。"Ididseehim。Icameuponhim。Eyessunkaninchintohishead;nothingbutskinonthebonesofhisface,askeletonindirtywhiteclothes。That’swhathelookedlike。HowFreya……Butsheneverdid—notreally。Hewassittingthere,theonlylivethingformilesalongthatcoast,onadrift—logwashedupontheshore。
Theyhadclippedhishairinthehospital,andithadnotgrownagain。Hestared,holdinghischininhishand,andwithnothingontheseabetweenhimandtheskybutthatwreck。WhenIcameuptohimhejustmovedhisheadabit。’Isthatyou,oldman?’sayshe—likethat。
"IfyouhadseenhimyouwouldhaveunderstoodatoncehowimpossibleitwasforFreyatohaveeverlovedthatman。Well,well。Idon’tsay。Shemighthave—something。Shewaslonely,youknow。Butreallytogoawaywithhim!Never!Madness。Shewastoosensible……Ibegantoreproachhimgently。Andbyandbyheturnsonme。’Writetoyou!Whatabout?Cometoher!Whatwith?IfIhadbeenamanIwouldhavecarriedheroff,butshemadeachild,ahappychild,ofme。TellherthatthedaytheonlythingIhadbelongingtomeintheworldperishedonthisreefI
discoveredthatIhadnopoweroverher……Hasshecomeherewithyou?’heshouts,blazingatmesuddenlywithhisholloweyes。I
shookmyhead。Comewithme,indeed!Anaemia!’Aha!Yousee?
Goaway,then,oldman,andleavemealoneherewiththatghost,’
hesays,jerkinghisheadatthewreckofhisbrig。
"Mad!Itwasgettingdusk。Ididnotcaretostopanylongerallbymyselfwiththatmaninthatlonelyplace。IwasnotgoingtotellhimofFreya’sillness。Anaemia!Whatwasthegood?Mad!
Andwhatsortofhusbandwouldhehavemade,anyhow,forasensiblegirllikeFreya?Why,evenmylittlepropertyIcouldnothaveleftthem。TheDutchauthoritieswouldneverhaveallowedanEnglishmantosettlethere。Itwasnotsoldthen。MymanMahmat,youknow,waslookingafteritforme。LateronIletitgoforatenthofitsvaluetoaDutchhalf—caste。Butnevermind。Itwasnothingtomethen。Yes;Iwentawayfromhim。Icaughtthereturnmail—boat。ItoldeverythingtoFreya。’He’smad,’Isaid;
’and,mydear,theonlythinghelovedwashisbrig。’
"’Perhaps,’shesaystoherself,lookingstraightaway—hereyeswerenearlyashollowashis—’perhapsitistrue。Yes!Iwouldneverallowhimanypoweroverme。’"
OldNelsonpaused。Isatfascinated,andfeelingalittlecoldinthatroomwithablazingfire。
"Soyousee,"hecontinued,"sheneverreallycaredforhim。Muchtoosensible。ItookherawaytoHongKong。Changeofclimate,theysaid。Oh,thesedoctors!MyGod!Wintertime!Therecametendaysofcoldmistsandwindandrain。Pneumonia。Butlookhere!Wetalkedalottogether。Daysandevenings。Whoelsehadshe?……Shetalkedalottome,myowngirl。Sometimesshewouldlaughalittle。Lookatmeandlaughalittle—"
Ishuddered。Helookedupvaguely,withachildish,puzzledmoodiness。
"Shewouldsay:’Ididnotreallymeantobeabaddaughtertoyou,papa。’AndIwouldsay:’Ofcourse,mydear。Youcouldnothavemeantit。’Shewouldliequietandthensay:’Iwonder?’
Andsometimes,’I’vebeenreallyacoward,’shewouldtellme。Youknow,sickpeopletheysaythings。Andsoshewouldsaytoo:
’I’vebeenconceited,headstrong,capricious。Isoughtmyowngratification。Iwasselfishorafraid。’……Butsickpeople,youknow,theysayanything。Andonce,afterlyingsilentalmostallday,shesaid:’Yes;perhaps,whenthedaycameIwouldnothavegone。Perhaps!Idon’tknow,’shecried。’Drawthecurtain,papa。Shuttheseaout。Itreproachesmewithmyfolly。’"Hegaspedandpaused。
"Soyousee,"hewentoninamurmur。"Veryill,veryillindeed。
Pneumonia。Verysudden。"Hepointedhisfingeratthecarpet,whilethethoughtofthepoorgirl,vanquishedinherstrugglewiththreemen’sabsurdities,andcomingatlasttodoubtherownself,heldmeinaveryanguishofpity。
"Youseeyourself,"hebeganagaininadowncastmanner。"Shecouldnothavereally……Shementionedyouseveraltimes。Goodfriend。Sensibleman。SoIwantedtotellyoumyself—letyouknowthetruth。Afellowlikethat!Howcoulditbe?Shewaslonely。Andperhapsforawhile……Merenothing。TherecouldneverhavebeenaquestionofloveformyFreya—suchasensiblegirl—"
"Man!"Icried,risinguponhimwrathfully,"don’tyouseethatshediedofit?"
Hegotuptoo。"No!no!"hestammered,asifangry。"Thedoctors!
Pneumonia。Lowstate。Theinflammationofthe……Theytoldme。
Pneu—"
Hedidnotfinishtheword。Itendedinasob。Heflunghisarmsoutinagestureofdespair,givinguphisghastlypretencewithalow,heartrendingcry:
"AndIthoughtthatshewassosensible!"