第3章
ThatbridgeledAnne’sdancingfeetupoverawoodedhillbeyond,whereperpetualtwilightreignedunderthestraight,thick-growingfirsandspruces;theonlyflowersthereweremyriadsofdelicate"Junebells,"thoseshyestandsweetestofwoodlandblooms,andafewpale,aerialstarflowers,likethespiritsoflastyear’sblossoms。
Gossamersglimmeredlikethreadsofsilveramongthetreesandthefirboughsandtasselsseemedtoutterfriendlyspeech。
Alltheserapturedvoyagesofexplorationweremadeintheoddhalfhourswhichshewasallowedforplay,andAnnetalkedMatthewandMarillahalfdeafoverherdiscoveries。
NotthatMatthewcomplained,tobesure;helistenedtoitallwithawordlesssmileofenjoymentonhisface;
Marillapermittedthe"chatter"untilshefoundherselfbecomingtoointerestedinit,whereuponshealwayspromptlyquenchedAnnebyacurtcommandtoholdhertongue。
AnnewasoutintheorchardwhenMrs。Rachelcame,wanderingatherownsweetwillthroughthelush,tremu-
lousgrassessplashedwithruddyeveningsunshine;sothatgoodladyhadanexcellentchancetotalkherillnessfullyover,describingeveryacheandpulsebeatwithsuchevidentenjoymentthatMarillathoughtevengrippemustbringitscompensations。WhendetailswereexhaustedMrs。Rachelintroducedtherealreasonofhercall。
"I’vebeenhearingsomesurprisingthingsaboutyouandMatthew。"
"Idon’tsupposeyouareanymoresurprisedthanIammyself,"
saidMarilla。"I’mgettingovermysurprisenow。"
"Itwastoobadtherewassuchamistake,"saidMrs。
Rachelsympathetically。"Couldn’tyouhavesentherback?"
"Isupposewecould,butwedecidednotto。Matthewtookafancytoher。AndImustsayIlikehermyself——
althoughIadmitshehasherfaults。Thehouseseemsadifferentplacealready。She’sarealbrightlittlething。"
Marillasaidmorethanshehadintendedtosaywhenshebegan,forshereaddisapprovalinMrs。Rachel’sexpression。
"It’sagreatresponsibilityyou’vetakenonyourself,"
saidthatladygloomily,"especiallywhenyou’veneverhadanyexperiencewithchildren。Youdon’tknowmuchaboutherorherrealdisposition,Isuppose,andthere’snoguessinghowachildlikethatwillturnout。ButIdon’twanttodiscourageyouI’msure,Marilla。"
"I’mnotfeelingdiscouraged,"wasMarilla’sdryresponse。
"whenImakeupmymindtodoathingitstaysmadeup。
Isupposeyou’dliketoseeAnne。I’llcallherin。"
Annecamerunninginpresently,herfacesparklingwiththedelightofherorchardrovings;but,abashedatfindingthedelightherselfintheunexpectedpresenceofastranger,shehaltedconfusedlyinsidethedoor。Shecertainlywasanodd-lookinglittlecreatureintheshorttightwinceydressshehadwornfromtheasylum,belowwhichherthinlegsseemedungracefullylong。Herfrecklesweremorenumerousandobtrusivethanever;thewindhadruffledherhatlesshairintoover-brilliantdisorder;ithadneverlookedredderthanatthatmoment。
"Well,theydidn’tpickyouforyourlooks,that’ssureandcertain,"wasMrs。RachelLynde’semphaticcomment。
Mrs。Rachelwasoneofthosedelightfulandpopularpeoplewhopridethemselvesonspeakingtheirmindwithoutfearorfavor。"She’sterribleskinnyandhomely,Marilla。
Comehere,child,andletmehavealookatyou。Lawfulheart,didanyoneeverseesuchfreckles?Andhairasredascarrots!Comehere,child,Isay。"
Anne"camethere,"butnotexactlyasMrs。Rachelexpected。WithoneboundshecrossedthekitchenfloorandstoodbeforeMrs。Rachel,herfacescarletwithanger,herlipsquivering,andherwholeslenderformtremblingfromheadtofoot。
"Ihateyou,"shecriedinachokedvoice,stampingherfootonthefloor。"Ihateyou——Ihateyou——Ihateyou——"
alouderstampwitheachassertionofhatred。"Howdareyoucallmeskinnyandugly?HowdareyousayI’mfreckledandredheaded?Youarearude,impolite,unfeelingwoman!"
"Anne!"exclaimedMarillainconsternation。
ButAnnecontinuedtofaceMrs。Rachelundauntedly,headup,eyesblazing,handsclenched,passionateindignationexhalingfromherlikeanatmosphere。
"Howdareyousaysuchthingsaboutme?"sherepeatedvehemently。"Howwouldyouliketohavesuchthingssaidaboutyou?Howwouldyouliketobetoldthatyouarefatandclumsyandprobablyhadn’tasparkofimaginationinyou?Idon’tcareifIdohurtyourfeelingsbysayingso!
IhopeIhurtthem。YouhavehurtmineworsethantheywereeverhurtbeforeevenbyMrs。Thomas’intoxicatedhusband。AndI’llNEVERforgiveyouforit,never,never!"
Stamp!Stamp!
"Didanybodyeverseesuchatemper!"exclaimedthehorrifiedMrs。Rachel。
"AnnegotoyourroomandstaythereuntilIcomeup,"
saidMarilla,recoveringherpowersofspeechwithdifficulty。
Anne,burstingintotears,rushedtothehalldoor,slammedituntilthetinsontheporchwalloutsiderattledinsympathy,andfledthroughthehallandupthestairslikeawhirlwind。Asubduedslamabovetoldthatthedooroftheeastgablehadbeenshutwithequalvehemence。
"Well,Idon’tenvyyouyourjobbringingTHATup,Marilla,"saidMrs。Rachelwithunspeakablesolemnity。
Marillaopenedherlipstosaysheknewnotwhatofapologyordeprecation。Whatshedidsaywasasurprisetoherselfthenandeverafterwards。
"Youshouldn’thavetwittedheraboutherlooks,Rachel。"
"MarillaCuthbert,youdon’tmeantosaythatyouareupholdingherinsuchaterribledisplayoftemperaswe’vejustseen?"demandedMrs。Rachelindignantly。
"No,"saidMarillaslowly,"I’mnottryingtoexcuseher。She’sbeenverynaughtyandI’llhavetogiveheratalkingtoaboutit。Butwemustmakeallowancesforher。She’sneverbeentaughtwhatisright。AndyouWEREtoohardonher,Rachel。"
Marillacouldnothelptackingonthatlastsentence,althoughshewasagainsurprisedatherselffordoingit。
Mrs。Rachelgotupwithanairofoffendeddignity。
"Well,IseethatI’llhavetobeverycarefulwhatIsayafterthis,Marilla,sincethefinefeelingsoforphans,broughtfromgoodnessknowswhere,havetobeconsideredbeforeanythingelse。Oh,no,I’mnotvexed——don’tworryyourself。I’mtoosorryforyoutoleaveanyroomforangerinmymind。You’llhaveyourowntroubleswiththatchild。
Butifyou’lltakemyadvice——whichIsupposeyouwon’tdo,althoughI’vebroughtuptenchildrenandburiedtwo——you’lldothat`talkingto’youmentionwithafair-
sizedbirchswitch。IshouldthinkTHATwouldbethemosteffectivelanguageforthatkindofachild。HertempermatchesherhairIguess。Well,goodevening,Marilla。
Ihopeyou’llcomedowntoseemeoftenasusual。Butyoucan’texpectmetovisithereagaininahurry,ifI’mliabletobeflownatandinsultedinsuchafashion。
It’ssomethingnewinMYexperience。"
WhereatMrs。Rachelsweptoutandaway——ifafatwomanwhoalwayswaddledCOULDbesaidtosweepaway——andMarillawithaverysolemnfacebetookherselftotheeastgable。
Onthewayupstairsshepondereduneasilyastowhatsheoughttodo。Shefeltnolittledismayoverthescenethathadjustbeenenacted。HowunfortunatethatAnneshouldhavedisplayedsuchtemperbeforeMrs。RachelLynde,ofallpeople!ThenMarillasuddenlybecameawareofanuncomfortableandrebukingconsciousnessthatshefeltmorehumiliationoverthisthansorrowoverthediscoveryofsuchaseriousdefectinAnne’sdisposition。
Andhowwasshetopunishher?Theamiablesuggestionofthebirchswitch——totheefficiencyofwhichallofMrs。
Rachel’sownchildrencouldhavebornesmartingtestimony——
didnotappealtoMarilla。Shedidnotbelieveshecouldwhipachild。No,someothermethodofpunishmentmustbefoundtobringAnnetoaproperrealizationoftheenormityofheroffense。
MarillafoundAnnefacedownwardonherbed,cryingbitterly,quiteobliviousofmuddybootsonacleancounterpane。
"Anne,"shesaidnotungently。
Noanswer。
"Anne,"withgreaterseverity,"getoffthatbedthisminuteandlistentowhatIhavetosaytoyou。"
Annesquirmedoffthebedandsatrigidlyonachairbesideit,herfaceswollenandtear-stainedandhereyesfixedstubbornlyonthefloor。
"Thisisanicewayforyoutobehave。Anne!Aren’tyouashamedofyourself?"
"Shehadn’tanyrighttocallmeuglyandredheaded,"
retortedAnne,evasiveanddefiant。
"Youhadn’tanyrighttoflyintosuchafuryandtalkthewayyoudidtoher,Anne。Iwasashamedofyou——
thoroughlyashamedofyou。IwantedyoutobehavenicelytoMrs。Lynde,andinsteadofthatyouhavedisgracedme。
I’msureIdon’tknowwhyyoushouldloseyourtemperlikethatjustbecauseMrs。Lyndesaidyouwereredhairedandhomely。Yousayityourselfoftenenough。"
"Oh,butthere’ssuchadifferencebetweensayingathingyourselfandhearingotherpeoplesayit,"wailedAnne。"Youmayknowathingisso,butyoucan’thelphopingotherpeopledon’tquitethinkitis。IsupposeyouthinkIhaveanawfultemper,butIcouldn’thelpit。
Whenshesaidthosethingssomethingjustroserightupinmeandchokedme。IHADtoflyoutather。"
"Well,youmadeafineexhibitionofyourselfImustsay。
Mrs。Lyndewillhaveanicestorytotellaboutyoueverywhere——andshe’lltellit,too。Itwasadreadfulthingforyoutoloseyourtemperlikethat,Anne。"
"Justimaginehowyouwouldfeelifsomebodytoldyoutoyourfacethatyouwereskinnyandugly,"pleadedAnnetearfully。
AnoldremembrancesuddenlyroseupbeforeMarilla。
Shehadbeenaverysmallchildwhenshehadheardoneauntsayofhertoanother,"Whatapitysheissuchadark,homelylittlething。"Marillawaseverydayoffiftybeforethestinghadgoneoutofthatmemory。
"Idon’tsaythatIthinkMrs。Lyndewasexactlyrightinsayingwhatshedidtoyou,Anne,"sheadmittedinasoftertone。"Rachelistoooutspoken。Butthatisnoexcuseforsuchbehavioronyourpart。Shewasastrangerandanelderlypersonandmyvisitor——allthreeverygoodreasonswhyyoushouldhavebeenrespectfultoher。Youwererudeandsaucyand"——Marillahadasavinginspirationofpunishment——"youmustgotoherandtellheryouareverysorryforyourbadtemperandaskhertoforgiveyou。"
"Icanneverdothat,"saidAnnedeterminedlyanddarkly。
"Youcanpunishmeinanywayyoulike,Marilla。Youcanshutmeupinadark,dampdungeoninhabitedbysnakesandtoadsandfeedmeonlyonbreadandwaterandIshallnotcomplain。ButIcannotaskMrs。Lyndetoforgiveme。"
"We’renotinthehabitofshuttingpeopleupindarkdampdungeons,"saidMarilladrily,"especiallyasthey’reratherscarceinAvonlea。ButapologizetoMrs。Lyndeyoumustandshallandyou’llstayhereinyourroomuntilyoucantellmeyou’rewillingtodoit。"
"Ishallhavetostayhereforeverthen,"saidAnnemournfully,"becauseIcan’ttellMrs。LyndeI’msorryI
saidthosethingstoher。HowcanI?I’mNOTsorry。I’msorryI’vevexedyou;butI’mGLADItoldherjustwhatIdid。
Itwasagreatsatisfaction。Ican’tsayI’msorrywhenI’mnot,canI?Ican’tevenIMAGINEI’msorry。"
"Perhapsyourimaginationwillbeinbetterworkingorderbythemorning,"saidMarilla,risingtodepart。
"You’llhavethenighttothinkoveryourconductinandcometoabetterframeofmind。YousaidyouwouldtrytobeaverygoodgirlifwekeptyouatGreenGables,butImustsayithasn’tseemedverymuchlikeitthisevening。"
LeavingthisParthianshafttorankleinAnne’sstormybosom,Marilladescendedtothekitchen,grievouslytroubledinmindandvexedinsoul。ShewasasangrywithherselfaswithAnne,because,wheneversherecalledMrs。
Rachel’sdumbfoundedcountenanceherlipstwitchedwithamusementandshefeltamostreprehensibledesiretolaugh。
CHAPTERX
Anne’sApologyMarillasaidnothingtoMatthewabouttheaffairthatevening;butwhenAnneprovedstillrefractorythenextmorninganexplanationhadtobemadetoaccountforherabsencefromthebreakfasttable。MarillatoldMatthewthewholestory,takingpainstoimpresshimwithaduesenseoftheenormityofAnne’sbehavior。
"It’sagoodthingRachelLyndegotacallingdown;she’sameddlesomeoldgossip,"wasMatthew’sconsolatoryrejoinder。
"MatthewCuthbert,I’mastonishedatyou。YouknowthatAnne’sbehaviorwasdreadful,andyetyoutakeherpart!
Isupposeyou’llbesayingnextthingthatsheoughtn’ttobepunishedatall!"
"Wellnow——no——notexactly,"saidMatthewuneasily。I
reckonsheoughttobepunishedalittle。Butdon’tbetoohardonher,Marilla。Recollectshehasn’teverhadanyonetoteachherright。You’re——you’regoingtogivehersomethingtoeat,aren’tyou?"
"Whendidyoueverhearofmestarvingpeopleintogoodbehavior?"demandedMarillaindignantly。"She’llhavehermealsregular,andI’llcarrythemuptohermyself。
Butshe’llstayupthereuntilshe’swillingtoapologizetoMrs。Lynde,andthat’sfinal,Matthew。"
Breakfast,dinner,andsupperwereverysilentmeals——forAnnestillremainedobdurate。AftereachmealMarillacarriedawell-filledtraytotheeastgableandbroughtitdownlateronnotnoticeablydepleted。Mattheweyeditslastdescentwithatroubledeye。HadAnneeatenanythingatall?
WhenMarillawentoutthateveningtobringthecowsfromthebackpasture,Matthew,whohadbeenhangingaboutthebarnsandwatching,slippedintothehousewiththeairofaburglarandcreptupstairs。AsageneralthingMatthewgravitatedbetweenthekitchenandthelittlebedroomoffthehallwhereheslept;onceinawhileheventureduncomfortablyintotheparlororsittingroomwhentheministercametotea。ButhehadneverbeenupstairsinhisownhousesincethespringhehelpedMarillapaperthesparebedroom,andthatwasfouryearsago。
Hetiptoedalongthehallandstoodforseveralminutesoutsidethedooroftheeastgablebeforehesummonedcouragetotaponitwithhisfingersandthenopenthedoortopeepin。
Annewassittingontheyellowchairbythewindowgazingmournfullyoutintothegarden。Verysmallandunhappyshelooked,andMatthew’sheartsmotehim。
Hesoftlyclosedthedoorandtiptoedovertoher。
"Anne,"hewhispered,asifafraidofbeingoverheard,"howareyoumakingit,Anne?"
Annesmiledwanly。
"Prettywell。Iimagineagooddeal,andthathelpstopassthetime。Ofcourse,it’sratherlonesome。Butthen,Imayaswellgetusedtothat。"
Annesmiledagain,bravelyfacingthelongyearsofsolitaryimprisonmentbeforeher。
Matthewrecollectedthathemustsaywhathehadcometosaywithoutlossoftime,lestMarillareturnprematurely。
"Wellnow,Anne,don’tyouthinkyou’dbetterdoitandhaveitoverwith?"hewhispered。"It’llhavetobedonesoonerorlater,youknow,forMarilla’sadreadfuldeter-
minedwoman——dreadfuldetermined,Anne。Doitrightoff,Isay,andhaveitover。"
"DoyoumeanapologizetoMrs。Lynde?"
"Yes——apologize——that’stheveryword,"saidMattheweagerly。
"Justsmoothitoversotospeak。That’swhatIwastryingtogetat。"
"IsupposeIcoulddoittoobligeyou,"saidAnnethoughtfully。"ItwouldbetrueenoughtosayIamsorry,becauseIAMsorrynow。Iwasn’tabitsorrylastnight。
Iwasmadclearthrough,andIstayedmadallnight。IknowIdidbecauseIwokeupthreetimesandIwasjustfuriouseverytime。Butthismorningitwasover。Iwasn’tinatemperanymore——anditleftadreadfulsortofgoneness,too。Ifeltsoashamedofmyself。ButIjustcouldn’tthinkofgoingandtellingMrs。Lyndeso。Itwouldbesohumili-
ating。ImadeupmymindI’dstayshutuphereforeverratherthandothat。Butstill——I’ddoanythingforyou——ifyoureallywantmeto——"
"Wellnow,ofcourseIdo。It’sterriblelonesomedownstairswithoutyou。Justgoandsmooththingsover——
that’sagoodgirl。"
"Verywell,"saidAnneresignedly。"I’lltellMarillaassoonasshecomesinI’verepented。"
"That’sright——that’sright,Anne。Butdon’ttellMarillaI
saidanythingaboutit。ShemightthinkIwasputtingmyoarinandIpromisednottodothat。"
"Wildhorseswon’tdragthesecretfromme,"promisedAnnesolemnly。"Howwouldwildhorsesdragasecretfromapersonanyhow?"
ButMatthewwasgone,scaredathisownsuccess。HefledhastilytotheremotestcornerofthehorsepasturelestMarillashouldsuspectwhathehadbeenupto。Marillaherself,uponherreturntothehouse,wasagreeablysurprisedtohearaplaintivevoicecalling,"Marilla"overthebanisters。
"Well?"shesaid,goingintothehall。
"I’msorryIlostmytemperandsaidrudethings,andI’mwillingtogoandtellMrs。Lyndeso。"
"Verywell。"Marilla’scrispnessgavenosignofherrelief。ShehadbeenwonderingwhatunderthecanopysheshoulddoifAnnedidnotgivein。"I’lltakeyoudownaftermilking。"
Accordingly,aftermilking,beholdMarillaandAnnewalkingdownthelane,theformererectandtriumphant,thelatterdroopinganddejected。ButhalfwaydownAnne’sdejectionvanishedasifbyenchantment。Sheliftedherheadandsteppedlightlyalong,hereyesfixedonthesunsetskyandanairofsubduedexhilarationabouther。
Marillabeheldthechangedisapprovingly。ThiswasnomeekpenitentsuchasitbehoovedhertotakeintothepresenceoftheoffendedMrs。Lynde。
"Whatareyouthinkingof,Anne?"sheaskedsharply。
"I’mimaginingoutwhatImustsaytoMrs。Lynde,"
answeredAnnedreamily。
Thiswassatisfactory——orshouldhavebeenso。ButMarillacouldnotridherselfofthenotionthatsomethinginherschemeofpunishmentwasgoingaskew。Annehadnobusinesstolooksoraptandradiant。
RaptandradiantAnnecontinueduntiltheywereintheverypresenceofMrs。Lynde,whowassittingknittingbyherkitchenwindow。Thentheradiancevanished。Mournfulpenitenceappearedoneveryfeature。BeforeawordwasspokenAnnesuddenlywentdownonherkneesbeforetheastonishedMrs。Rachelandheldoutherhandsbeseechingly。
"Oh,Mrs。Lynde,Iamsoextremelysorry,"shesaidwithaquiverinhervoice。"Icouldneverexpressallmysorrow,no,notifIusedupawholedictionary。Youmustjustimagineit。Ibehavedterriblytoyou——andI’vedisgracedthedearfriends,MatthewandMarilla,whohaveletmestayatGreenGablesalthoughI’mnotaboy。
I’madreadfullywickedandungratefulgirl,andIdeservetobepunishedandcastoutbyrespectablepeopleforever。
Itwasverywickedofmetoflyintoatemperbecauseyoutoldmethetruth。ItWASthetruth;everywordyousaidwastrue。MyhairisredandI’mfreckledandskinnyandugly。WhatIsaidtoyouwastrue,too,butIshouldn’thavesaidit。Oh,Mrs。Lynde,please,please,forgiveme。
Ifyourefuseitwillbealifelongsorrowonapoorlittleorphangirlwouldyou,evenifshehadadreadfultemper?
Oh,Iamsureyouwouldn’t。Pleasesayyouforgiveme,Mrs。Lynde。"
Anneclaspedherhandstogether,bowedherhead,andwaitedforthewordofjudgment。
Therewasnomistakinghersincerity——itbreathedineverytoneofhervoice。BothMarillaandMrs。Lynderecognizeditsunmistakablering。Buttheformerunder-
stoodindismaythatAnnewasactuallyenjoyinghervalleyofhumiliation——wasrevelinginthethoroughnessofherabasement。Wherewasthewholesomepunishmentuponwhichshe,Marilla,hadplumedherself?Annehadturneditintoaspeciesofpositivepleasure。
GoodMrs。Lynde,notbeingoverburdenedwithperception,didnotseethis。SheonlyperceivedthatAnnehadmadeaverythoroughapologyandallresentmentvanishedfromherkindly,ifsomewhatofficious,heart。
"There,there,getup,child,"shesaidheartily。"OfcourseIforgiveyou。IguessIwasalittletoohardonyou,anyway。ButI’msuchanoutspokenperson。Youjustmustn’tmindme,that’swhat。Itcan’tbedeniedyourhairisterriblered;butIknewagirlonce——wenttoschoolwithher,infact——whosehairwaseverymiteasredasyourswhenshewasyoung,butwhenshegrewupitdarkenedtoarealhandsomeauburn。Iwouldn’tbeamitesurprisedifyoursdid,too——notamite。"
"Oh,Mrs。Lynde!"Annedrewalongbreathassherosetoherfeet。"Youhavegivenmeahope。Ishallalwaysfeelthatyouareabenefactor。Oh,IcouldendureanythingifI
onlythoughtmyhairwouldbeahandsomeauburnwhenI
grewup。Itwouldbesomucheasiertobegoodifone’shairwasahandsomeauburn,don’tyouthink?AndnowmayIgooutintoyourgardenandsitonthatbenchundertheapple-treeswhileyouandMarillaaretalking?Thereissomuchmorescopeforimaginationoutthere。"
"Laws,yes,runalong,child。AndyoucanpickabouquetofthemwhiteJuneliliesoverinthecornerifyoulike。"
AsthedoorclosedbehindAnneMrs。Lyndegotbrisklyuptolightalamp。
"She’sarealoddlittlething。Takethischair,Marilla;
it’seasierthantheoneyou’vegot;Ijustkeepthatforthehiredboytositon。Yes,shecertainlyisanoddchild,butthereissomethingkindoftakingaboutherafterall。
Idon’tfeelsosurprisedatyouandMatthewkeepingherasIdid——norsosorryforyou,either。Shemayturnoutallright。Ofcourse,shehasaqueerwayofexpressingherself——
alittletoo——well,tookindofforcible,youknow;butshe’lllikelygetoverthatnowthatshe’scometoliveamongcivilizedfolks。Andthen,hertemper’sprettyquick,I
guess;butthere’sonecomfort,achildthathasaquicktemper,justblazeupandcooldown,ain’tneverlikelytobeslyordeceitful。Preservemefromaslychild,that’swhat。Onthewhole,Marilla,Ikindoflikeher。"
WhenMarillawenthomeAnnecameoutofthefragranttwilightoftheorchardwithasheafofwhitenarcissiinherhands。
"Iapologizedprettywell,didn’tI?"shesaidproudlyastheywentdownthelane。"IthoughtsinceIhadtodoitImightaswelldoitthoroughly。"
"Youdiditthoroughly,allrightenough,"wasMarilla’scomment。Marillawasdismayedatfindingherselfinclinedtolaughovertherecollection。ShehadalsoanuneasyfeelingthatsheoughttoscoldAnneforapologizingsowell;
butthen,thatwasridiculous!Shecompromisedwithherconsciencebysayingseverely:
"Ihopeyouwon’thaveoccasiontomakemanymoresuchapologies。Ihopeyou’lltrytocontrolyourtempernow,Anne。"
"Thatwouldn’tbesohardifpeoplewouldn’ttwitmeaboutmylooks,"saidAnnewithasigh。"Idon’tgetcrossaboutotherthings;butI’mSOtiredofbeingtwittedaboutmyhairanditjustmakesmeboilrightover。DoyousupposemyhairwillreallybeahandsomeauburnwhenIgrowup?"
"Youshouldn’tthinksomuchaboutyourlooks,Anne。I’mafraidyouareaveryvainlittlegirl。"
"HowcanIbevainwhenIknowI’mhomely?"protestedAnne。"Iloveprettythings;andIhatetolookintheglassandseesomethingthatisn’tpretty。Itmakesmefeelsosorrowful——justasIfeelwhenIlookatanyuglything。Ipityitbecauseitisn’tbeautiful。"
"Handsomeisashandsomedoes,"quotedMarilla。
"I’vehadthatsaidtomebefore,butIhavemydoubtsaboutit,"remarkedskepticalAnne,sniffingathernarcissi。
"Oh,aren’ttheseflowerssweet!ItwaslovelyofMrs。
Lyndetogivethemtome。IhavenohardfeelingsagainstMrs。Lyndenow。Itgivesyoualovely,comfortablefeelingtoapologizeandbeforgiven,doesn’tit?Aren’tthestarsbrighttonight?Ifyoucouldliveinastar,whichonewouldyoupick?I’dlikethatlovelyclearbigoneawayoverthereabovethatdarkhill。"
"Anne,doholdyourtongue。"saidMarilla,thoroughlywornouttryingtofollowthegyrationsofAnne’sthoughts。
Annesaidnomoreuntiltheyturnedintotheirownlane。
Alittlegypsywindcamedownittomeetthem,ladenwiththespicyperfumeofyoungdew-wetferns。FarupintheshadowsacheerfullightgleamedoutthroughthetreesfromthekitchenatGreenGables。AnnesuddenlycameclosetoMarillaandslippedherhandintotheolderwoman’shardpalm。
"It’slovelytobegoinghomeandknowit’shome,"shesaid。
"IloveGreenGablesalready,andIneverlovedanyplacebefore。
Noplaceeverseemedlikehome。Oh,Marilla,I’msohappy。
Icouldprayrightnowandnotfinditabithard。"
SomethingwarmandpleasantwelledupinMarilla’sheartattouchofthatthinlittlehandinherown——athrobofthematernityshehadmissed,perhaps。Itsveryunaccustomednessandsweetnessdisturbedher。Shehastenedtorestorehersensationstotheirnormalcalmbyinculcatingamoral。
"Ifyou’llbeagoodgirlyou’llalwaysbehappy,Anne。
Andyoushouldneverfindithardtosayyourprayers。"
"Sayingone’sprayersisn’texactlythesamethingaspraying,"
saidAnnemeditatively。"ButI’mgoingtoimaginethatI’mthewindthatisblowingupthereinthosetreetops。WhenI
gettiredofthetreesI’llimagineI’mgentlywavingdownhereintheferns——andthenI’llflyovertoMrs。Lynde’sgardenandsettheflowersdancing——andthenI’llgowithonegreatswoopoverthecloverfield——andthenI’llblowovertheLakeofShiningWatersandrippleitallupintolittlesparklingwaves。
Oh,there’ssomuchscopeforimaginationinawind!SoI’llnottalkanymorejustnow,Marilla。"
"Thanksbetogoodnessforthat,"breathedMarillaindevoutrelief。
CHAPTERXI
Anne’sImpressionsofSunday-School"Well,howdoyoulikethem?"saidMarilla。
Annewasstandinginthegableroom,lookingsolemnlyatthreenewdressesspreadoutonthebed。OnewasofsnuffycoloredginghamwhichMarillahadbeentemptedtobuyfromapeddlertheprecedingsummerbecauseitlookedsoserviceable;onewasofblack-and-whitecheckeredsateenwhichshehadpickedupatabargaincounterinthewinter;andonewasastiffprintofanuglyblueshadewhichshehadpurchasedthatweekataCarmodystore。
Shehadmadethemupherself,andtheywereallmadealike——plainskirtsfulledtightlytoplainwaists,withsleevesasplainaswaistandskirtandtightassleevescouldbe。
"I’llimaginethatIlikethem,"saidAnnesoberly。
"Idon’twantyoutoimagineit,"saidMarilla,offended。
"Oh,Icanseeyoudon’tlikethedresses!Whatisthematterwiththem?Aren’ttheyneatandcleanandnew?"
"Yes。"
"Thenwhydon’tyoulikethem?"
"They’re——they’renot——pretty,"saidAnnereluctantly。
"Pretty!"Marillasniffed。"Ididn’ttroublemyheadaboutgettingprettydressesforyou。Idon’tbelieveinpamperingvanity,Anne,I’lltellyouthatrightoff。Thosedressesaregood,sensible,serviceabledresses,withoutanyfrillsorfurbelowsaboutthem,andthey’reallyou’llgetthissummer。Thebrownginghamandtheblueprintwilldoyouforschoolwhenyoubegintogo。ThesateenisforchurchandSundayschool。I’llexpectyoutokeepthemneatandcleanandnottotearthem。Ishouldthinkyou’dbegratefultogetmostanythingafterthoseskimpywinceythingsyou’vebeenwearing。"
"Oh,IAMgrateful,"protestedAnne。"ButI’dbeeversomuchgratefullerif——ifyou’dmadejustoneofthemwithpuffedsleeves。Puffedsleevesaresofashionablenow。
Itwouldgivemesuchathrill,Marilla,justtowearadresswithpuffedsleeves。"
"Well,you’llhavetodowithoutyourthrill。Ihadn’tanymaterialtowasteonpuffedsleeves。Ithinktheyareridiculous-lookingthingsanyhow。Iprefertheplain,sensibleones。"
"ButI’dratherlookridiculouswheneverybodyelsedoesthanplainandsensibleallbymyself,"persistedAnnemournfully。
"Trustyouforthat!Well,hangthosedressescarefullyupinyourcloset,andthensitdownandlearntheSundayschoollesson。IgotaquarterlyfromMr。Bellforyouandyou’llgotoSundayschooltomorrow,"saidMarilla,disap-
pearingdownstairsinhighdudgeon。
Anneclaspedherhandsandlookedatthedresses。
"Ididhopetherewouldbeawhiteonewithpuffedsleeves,"shewhispereddisconsolately。"Iprayedforone,butIdidn’tmuchexpectitonthataccount。Ididn’tsupposeGodwouldhavetimetobotheraboutalittleorphangirl’sdress。IknewI’djusthavetodependonMarillaforit。Well,fortunatelyIcanimaginethatoneofthemisofsnow-whitemuslinwithlovelylacefrillsandthree-puffedsleeves。"
ThenextmorningwarningsofasickheadachepreventedMarillafromgoingtoSunday-schoolwithAnne。
"You’llhavetogodownandcallforMrs。Lynde,Anne。"
shesaid。"She’llseethatyougetintotherightclass。
Now,mindyoubehaveyourselfproperly。StaytopreachingafterwardsandaskMrs。Lyndetoshowyouourpew。Here’sacentforcollection。Don’tstareatpeopleanddon’tfidget。
Ishallexpectyoutotellmethetextwhenyoucomehome。"
Annestartedoffirreproachable,arrayedinthestiffblack-
and-whitesateen,which,whiledecentasregardslengthandcertainlynotopentothechargeofskimpiness,contrivedtoemphasizeeverycornerandangleofherthinfigure。
Herhatwasalittle,flat,glossy,newsailor,theextremeplainnessofwhichhadlikewisemuchdisappointedAnne,whohadpermittedherselfsecretvisionsofribbonandflowers。Thelatter,however,weresuppliedbeforeAnnereachedthemainroad,forbeingconfrontedhalfwaydownthelanewithagoldenfrenzyofwind-stirredbuttercupsandagloryofwildroses,Annepromptlyandliberallygarlandedherhatwithaheavywreathofthem。WhateverotherpeoplemighthavethoughtoftheresultitsatisfiedAnne,andshetrippedgailydowntheroad,holdingherruddyheadwithitsdecorationofpinkandyellowveryproudly。
WhenshehadreachedMrs。Lynde’shouseshefoundthatladygone。Nothingdaunted,Anneproceededonwardtothechurchalone。Intheporchshefoundacrowdoflittlegirls,allmoreorlessgailyattiredinwhitesandbluesandpinks,andallstaringwithcuriouseyesatthisstrangerintheirmidst,withherextraordinaryheadadornment。AvonlealittlegirlshadalreadyheardqueerstoriesaboutAnne。
Mrs。Lyndesaidshehadanawfultemper;JerryBuote,thehiredboyatGreenGables,saidshetalkedallthetimetoherselfortothetreesandflowerslikeacrazygirl。
Theylookedatherandwhisperedtoeachotherbehindtheirquarterlies。Nobodymadeanyfriendlyadvances,thenorlateronwhentheopeningexerciseswereoverandAnnefoundherselfinMissRogerson’sclass。
MissRogersonwasamiddle-agedladywhohadtaughtaSunday-schoolclassfortwentyyears。Hermethodofteachingwastoasktheprintedquestionsfromthequarterlyandlooksternlyoveritsedgeattheparticularlittlegirlshethoughtoughttoanswerthequestion。ShelookedveryoftenatAnne,andAnne,thankstoMarilla’sdrilling,answeredpromptly;butitmaybequestionedifsheunderstoodverymuchabouteitherquestionoranswer。
ShedidnotthinkshelikedMissRogerson,andshefeltverymiserable;everyotherlittlegirlintheclasshadpuffedsleeves。Annefeltthatlifewasreallynotworthlivingwithoutpuffedsleeves。
"Well,howdidyoulikeSundayschool?"MarillawantedtoknowwhenAnnecamehome。Herwreathhavingfaded,Annehaddiscardeditinthelane,soMarillawassparedtheknowledgeofthatforatime。
"Ididn’tlikeitabit。Itwashorrid。"
"AnneShirley!"saidMarillarebukingly。
Annesatdownontherockerwithalongsigh,kissedoneofBonny’sleaves,andwavedherhandtoablossomingfuchsia。
"TheymighthavebeenlonesomewhileIwasaway,"sheexplained。"AndnowabouttheSundayschool。Ibehavedwell,justasyoutoldme。Mrs。Lyndewasgone,butI
wentrightonmyself。Iwentintothechurch,withalotofotherlittlegirls,andIsatinthecornerofapewbythewindowwhiletheopeningexerciseswenton。Mr。Bellmadeanawfullylongprayer。IwouldhavebeendreadfullytiredbeforehegotthroughifIhadn’tbeensittingbythatwindow。ButitlookedrightoutontheLakeofShiningWaters,soIjustgazedatthatandimaginedallsortsofsplendidthings。"
"Youshouldn’thavedoneanythingofthesort。YoushouldhavelistenedtoMr。Bell。"
"Buthewasn’ttalkingtome,"protestedAnne。"HewastalkingtoGodandhedidn’tseemtobeverymuchinter-
estedinit,either。IthinkhethoughtGodwastoofaroffthough。Therewaslongrowofwhitebircheshangingoverthelakeandthesunshinefelldownthroughthem,’way,’waydown,deepintothewater。Oh,Marilla,itwaslikeabeautifuldream!ItgavemeathrillandIjustsaid,`Thankyouforit,God,’twoorthreetimes。"
"Notoutloud,Ihope,"saidMarillaanxiously。
"Oh,no,justundermybreath。Well,Mr。BelldidgetthroughatlastandtheytoldmetogointotheclassroomwithMissRogerson’sclass。Therewerenineothergirlsinit。
Theyallhadpuffedsleeves。Itriedtoimagineminewerepuffed,too,butIcouldn’t。Whycouldn’tI?ItwasaseasyascouldbetoimaginetheywerepuffedwhenIwasaloneintheeastgable,butitwasawfullyhardthereamongtheotherswhohadreallytrulypuffs。"
"Youshouldn’thavebeenthinkingaboutyoursleevesinSundayschool。Youshouldhavebeenattendingtothelesson。
Ihopeyouknewit。"
"Oh,yes;andIansweredalotofquestions。MissRogersonaskedeversomany。Idon’tthinkitwasfairforhertodoalltheasking。TherewerelotsIwantedtoaskher,butIdidn’tliketobecauseIdidn’tthinkshewasakindredspirit。Thenalltheotherlittlegirlsrecitedaparaphrase。
SheaskedmeifIknewany。ItoldherIdidn’t,butIcouldrecite,`TheDogatHisMaster’sGrave’ifsheliked。
That’sintheThirdRoyalReader。Itisn’tareallytrulyreligiouspieceofpoetry,butit’ssosadandmelancholythatitmightaswellbe。Shesaiditwouldn’tdoandshetoldmetolearnthenineteenthparaphrasefornextSunday。
Ireaditoverinchurchafterwardsandit’ssplendid。Therearetwolinesinparticularthatjustthrillme。
"`QuickastheslaughteredsquadronsfellInMidian’sevilday。’
Idon’tknowwhat`squadrons’meansnor`Midian,’either,butitsoundsSOtragical。IcanhardlywaituntilnextSundaytoreciteit。I’llpracticeitalltheweek。AfterSundayschoolIaskedMissRogerson——becauseMrs。Lyndewastoofaraway——toshowmeyourpew。IsatjustasstillasIcouldandthetextwasRevelations,thirdchapter,secondandthirdverses。Itwasaverylongtext。IfIwasaministerI’dpicktheshort,snappyones。Thesermonwasawfullylong,too。Isupposetheministerhadtomatchittothetext。Ididn’tthinkhewasabitinteresting。Thetroublewithhimseemstobethathehasn’tenoughimagination。
Ididn’tlistentohimverymuch。IjustletmythoughtsrunandIthoughtofthemostsurprisingthings。"
Marillafelthelplesslythatallthisshouldbesternlyreproved,butshewashamperedbytheundeniablefactthatsomeofthethingsAnnehadsaid,especiallyabouttheminister’ssermonsandMr。Bell’sprayers,werewhatsheherselfhadreallythoughtdeepdowninherheartforyears,buthadnevergivenexpressionto。Italmostseemedtoherthatthosesecret,unuttered,criticalthoughtshadsuddenlytakenvisibleandaccusingshapeandforminthepersonofthisoutspokenmorselofneglectedhumanity。
CHAPTERXII
ASolemnVowandPromiseItwasnotuntilthenextFridaythatMarillaheardthestoryoftheflower-wreathedhat。ShecamehomefromMrs。Lynde’sandcalledAnnetoaccount。
"Anne,Mrs。RachelsaysyouwenttochurchlastSundaywithyourhatriggedoutridiculouswithrosesandbuttercups。Whatonearthputyouuptosuchacaper?
Apretty-lookingobjectyoumusthavebeen!"
"Oh。Iknowpinkandyellowaren’tbecomingtome,"beganAnne。
"Becomingfiddlesticks!Itwasputtingflowersonyourhatatall,nomatterwhatcolortheywere,thatwasridiculous。Youarethemostaggravatingchild!"
"Idon’tseewhyit’sanymoreridiculoustowearflowersonyourhatthanonyourdress,"protestedAnne。"Lotsoflittlegirlstherehadbouquetspinnedontheirdresses。
What’sthedifference?"
Marillawasnottobedrawnfromthesafeconcreteintodubiouspathsoftheabstract。
"Don’tanswermebacklikethat,Anne。Itwasverysillyofyoutodosuchathing。Neverletmecatchyouatsuchatrickagain。Mrs。Rachelsaysshethoughtshewouldsinkthroughthefloorwhenshecomeinallriggedoutlikethat。Shecouldn’tgetnearenoughtotellyoutotakethemofftillitwastoolate。Shesayspeopletalkedaboutitsomethingdreadful。OfcoursetheywouldthinkIhadnobettersensethantoletyougodeckedoutlikethat。"
"Oh,I’msosorry,"saidAnne,tearswellingintohereyes。
"Ineverthoughtyou’dmind。TherosesandbuttercupsweresosweetandprettyIthoughtthey’dlooklovelyonmyhat。Lotsofthelittlegirlshadartificialflowersontheirhats。I’mafraidI’mgoingtobeadreadfultrialtoyou。Maybeyou’dbettersendmebacktotheasylum。
Thatwouldbeterrible;Idon’tthinkIcouldendureit;
mostlikelyIwouldgointoconsumption;I’msothinasitis,yousee。Butthatwouldbebetterthanbeingatrialtoyou。"
"Nonsense,"saidMarilla,vexedatherselfforhavingmadethechildcry。"Idon’twanttosendyoubacktotheasylum,I’msure。AllIwantisthatyoushouldbehavelikeotherlittlegirlsandnotmakeyourselfridiculous。Don’tcryanymore。I’vegotsomenewsforyou。DianaBarrycamehomethisafternoon。I’mgoinguptoseeifIcanborrowaskirtpatternfromMrs。Barry,andifyoulikeyoucancomewithmeandgetacquaintedwithDiana。"
Annerosetoherfeet,withclaspedhands,thetearsstillglisteningonhercheeks;thedishtowelshehadbeenhemmingslippedunheededtothefloor。
"Oh,Marilla,I’mfrightened——nowthatithascomeI’mactuallyfrightened。Whatifsheshouldn’tlikeme!Itwouldbethemosttragicaldisappointmentofmylife。"
"Now,don’tgetintoafluster。AndIdowishyouwouldn’tusesuchlongwords。Itsoundssofunnyinalittlegirl。
IguessDiana’lllikeyouwellenough。It’shermotheryou’vegottoreckonwith。Ifshedoesn’tlikeyouitwon’tmatterhowmuchDianadoes。IfshehasheardaboutyouroutbursttoMrs。LyndeandgoingtochurchwithbuttercupsroundyourhatIdon’tknowwhatshe’llthinkofyou。Youmustbepoliteandwellbehaved,anddon’tmakeanyofyourstartlingspeeches。Forpity’ssake,ifthechildisn’tactuallytrembling!"
AnneWAStrembling。Herfacewaspaleandtense。
"Oh,Marilla,you’dbeexcited,too,ifyouweregoingtomeetalittlegirlyouhopedtobeyourbosomfriendandwhosemothermightn’tlikeyou,"shesaidasshehastenedtogetherhat。
TheywentovertoOrchardSlopebytheshortcutacrossthebrookandupthefirryhillgrove。Mrs。BarrycametothekitchendoorinanswertoMarilla’sknock。Shewasatallblack-eyed,black-hairedwoman,withaveryresolutemouth。Shehadthereputationofbeingverystrictwithherchildren。
"Howdoyoudo,Marilla?"shesaidcordially。"Comein。
Andthisisthelittlegirlyouhaveadopted,Isuppose?"
"Yes,thisisAnneShirley,"saidMarilla。
"SpelledwithanE,"gaspedAnne,who,tremulousandexcitedasshewas,wasdeterminedthereshouldbenomisunderstandingonthatimportantpoint。
Mrs。Barry,nothearingornotcomprehending,merelyshookhandsandsaidkindly:
"Howareyou?"
"Iamwellinbodyalthoughconsiderablerumpledupinspirit,thankyouma’am,"saidAnnegravely。ThenasidetoMarillainanaudiblewhisper,"Therewasn’tanythingstartlinginthat,wasthere,Marilla?"
Dianawassittingonthesofa,readingabookwhichshedroppedwhenthecallersentered。Shewasaveryprettylittlegirl,withhermother’sblackeyesandhair,androsycheeks,andthemerryexpressionwhichwasherinheritancefromherfather。
"ThisismylittlegirlDiana,"saidMrs。Barry。"Diana,youmighttakeAnneoutintothegardenandshowheryourflowers。Itwillbebetterforyouthanstrainingyoureyesoverthatbook。Shereadsentirelytoomuch——"thistoMarillaasthelittlegirlswentout——"andIcan’tpreventher,forherfatheraidsandabetsher。She’salwaysporingoverabook。I’mgladshehastheprospectofaplaymate——
perhapsitwilltakehermoreout-of-doors。"
Outsideinthegarden,whichwasfullofmellowsunsetlightstreamingthroughthedarkoldfirstothewestofit,stoodAnneandDiana,gazingbashfullyateachotheroveraclumpofgorgeoustigerlilies。
TheBarrygardenwasabowerywildernessofflowerswhichwouldhavedelightedAnne’sheartatanytimelessfraughtwithdestiny。Itwasencircledbyhugeoldwillowsandtallfirs,beneathwhichflourishedflowersthatlovedtheshade。Prim,right-angledpathsneatlyborderedwithclamshells,intersecteditlikemoistredribbonsandinthebedsbetweenold-fashionedflowersranriot。Therewererosybleeding-heartsandgreatsplendidcrimsonpeonies;
white,fragrantnarcissiandthorny,sweetScotchroses;
pinkandblueandwhitecolumbinesandlilac-tintedBouncingBets;clumpsofsouthernwoodandribbongrassandmint;
purpleAdam-and-Eve,daffodils,andmassesofsweetcloverwhitewithitsdelicate,fragrant,featherysprays;
scarletlightningthatshotitsfierylancesoverprimwhitemusk-flowers;agardenitwaswheresunshinelingeredandbeeshummed,andwinds,beguiledintoloitering,purredandrustled。
"Oh,Diana,"saidAnneatlast,claspingherhandsandspeakingalmostinawhisper,"oh,doyouthinkyoucanlikemealittle——enoughtobemybosomfriend?"
Dianalaughed。Dianaalwayslaughedbeforeshespoke。
"Why,Iguessso,"shesaidfrankly。"I’mawfullygladyou’vecometoliveatGreenGables。Itwillbejollytohavesomebodytoplaywith。Thereisn’tanyothergirlwholivesnearenoughtoplaywith,andI’venosistersbigenough。"
"Willyousweartobemyfriendforeverandever?"demandedAnneeagerly。
Dianalookedshocked。
"Whyit’sdreadfullywickedtoswear,"shesaidrebukingly。
"Ohno,notmykindofswearing。Therearetwokinds,youknow。"
"Ineverheardofbutonekind,"saidDianadoubtfully。
"Therereallyisanother。Oh,itisn’twickedatall。Itjustmeansvowingandpromisingsolemnly。"
"Well,Idon’tminddoingthat,"agreedDiana,relieved。
"Howdoyoudoit?"
"Wemustjoinhands——so,"saidAnnegravely。"Itoughttobeoverrunningwater。We’lljustimaginethispathisrunningwater。I’llrepeattheoathfirst。Isolemnlysweartobefaithfultomybosomfriend,DianaBarry,aslongasthesunandmoonshallendure。Nowyousayitandputmynamein。"
Dianarepeatedthe"oath"withalaughforeandaft。Thenshesaid:
"You’reaqueergirl,Anne。Iheardbeforethatyouwerequeer。ButIbelieveI’mgoingtolikeyourealwell。"
WhenMarillaandAnnewenthomeDianawentwiththemasforasthelogbridge。Thetwolittlegirlswalkedwiththeirarmsabouteachother。Atthebrooktheypartedwithmanypromisestospendthenextafternoontogether。
"Well,didyoufindDianaakindredspirit?"askedMarillaastheywentupthroughthegardenofGreenGables。
"Ohyes,"sighedAnne,blissfullyunconsciousofanysarcasmonMarilla’spart。"OhMarilla,I’mthehappiestgirlonPrinceEdwardIslandthisverymoment。IassureyouI’llsaymyprayerswitharightgood-willtonight。
DianaandIaregoingtobuildaplayhouseinMr。WilliamBell’sbirchgrovetomorrow。CanIhavethosebrokenpiecesofchinathatareoutinthewoodshed?Diana’sbirthdayisinFebruaryandmineisinMarch。Don’tyouthinkthatisaverystrangecoincidence?Dianaisgoingtolendmeabooktoread。Shesaysit’sperfectlysplendidandtremendouslyexciting。She’sgoingtoshowmeaplacebackinthewoodswherericeliliesgrow。Don’tyouthinkDianahasgotverysoulfuleyes?IwishIhadsoulfuleyes。Dianaisgoingtoteachmetosingasongcalled`NellyintheHazelDell。’She’sgoingtogivemeapicturetoputupinmyroom;it’saperfectlybeautifulpicture,shesays——alovelyladyinapalebluesilkdress。
Asewing-machineagentgaveittoher。IwishIhadsomethingtogiveDiana。I’maninchtallerthanDiana,butsheiseversomuchfatter;shesaysshe’dliketobethinbecauseit’ssomuchmoregraceful,butI’mafraidsheonlysaidittosoothemyfeelings。We’regoingtotheshoresomedaytogathershells。
WehaveagreedtocallthespringdownbythelogbridgetheDryad’sBubble。Isn’tthataperfectlyelegantname?Ireadastoryonceaboutaspringcalledthat。Adryadissortofagrown-upfairy,Ithink。"
"Well,allIhopeisyouwon’ttalkDianatodeath,"saidMarilla。"Butrememberthisinallyourplanning,Anne。
You’renotgoingtoplayallthetimenormostofit。You’llhaveyourworktodoandit’llhavetobedonefirst。"
Anne’scupofhappinesswasfull,andMatthewcausedittooverflow。HehadjustgothomefromatriptothestoreatCarmody,andhesheepishlyproducedasmallparcelfromhispocketandhandedittoAnne,withadeprecatorylookatMarilla。
"Iheardyousayyoulikedchocolatesweeties,soIgotyousome,"hesaid。
"Humph,"sniffedMarilla。"It’llruinherteethandstomach。
There,there,child,don’tlooksodismal。Youcaneatthose,sinceMatthewhasgoneandgotthem。He’dbetterhavebroughtyoupeppermints。They’rewholesomer。Don’tsickenyourselfeatingallthematoncenow。"
"Oh,no,indeed,Iwon’t,"saidAnneeagerly。"I’lljusteatonetonight,Marilla。AndIcangiveDianahalfofthem,can’tI?TheotherhalfwilltastetwiceassweettomeifIgivesometoher。It’sdelightfultothinkIhavesomethingtogiveher。"
"Iwillsayitforthechild,"saidMarillawhenAnnehadgonetohergable,"sheisn’tstingy。I’mglad,forofallfaultsIdeteststinginessinachild。Dearme,it’sonlythreeweekssinceshecame,anditseemsasifshe’dbeenherealways。Ican’timaginetheplacewithouther。Now,don’tbelookingItold-you-so,Matthew。That’sbadenoughinawoman,butitisn’ttobeenduredinaman。I’mperfectlywillingtoownupthatI’mgladIconsentedtokeepthechildandthatI’mgettingfondofher,butdon’tyourubitin,MatthewCuthbert。"
CHAPTERXIII
TheDelightsofAnticipation"It’stimeAnnewasintodohersewing,"saidMarilla,glancingattheclockandthenoutintotheyellowAugustafternoonwhereeverythingdrowsedintheheat。"ShestayedplayingwithDianamorethanhalfanhourmore’nIgaveherleaveto;andnowshe’sperchedoutthereonthewoodpiletalkingtoMatthew,nineteentothedozen,whensheknowsperfectlywellsheoughttobeatherwork。Andofcoursehe’slisteningtoherlikeaperfectninny。
Ineversawsuchaninfatuatedman。Themoreshetalksandtheodderthethingsshesays,themorehe’sdelightedevidently。
AnneShirley,youcomerightinherethisminute,doyouhearme!"
AseriesofstaccatotapsonthewestwindowbroughtAnneflyinginfromtheyard,eyesshining,cheeksfaintlyflushedwithpink,unbraidedhairstreamingbehindherinatorrentofbrightness。
"Oh,Marilla,"sheexclaimedbreathlessly,"there’sgoingtobeaSunday-schoolpicnicnextweek——inMr。HarmonAndrews’sfield,rightnearthelakeofShiningWaters。AndMrs。SuperintendentBellandMrs。RachelLyndearegoingtomakeicecream——thinkofit,Marilla——ICECREAM!And,oh,Marilla,canIgotoit?"
"Justlookattheclock,ifyouplease,Anne。WhattimedidI
tellyoutocomein?"
"Twoo’clock——butisn’titsplendidaboutthepicnic,Marilla?
PleasecanIgo?Oh,I’veneverbeentoapicnic——I’vedreamedofpicnics,butI’venever——"
"Yes,Itoldyoutocomeattwoo’clock。Andit’saquartertothree。I’dliketoknowwhyyoudidn’tobeyme,Anne。"
"Why,Imeantto,Marilla,asmuchascouldbe。ButyouhavenoideahowfascinatingIdlewildis。Andthen,ofcourse,IhadtotellMatthewaboutthepicnic。Matthewissuchasympatheticlistener。PleasecanIgo?"
"You’llhavetolearntoresistthefascinationofIdlewhatever-
you-call-it。WhenItellyoutocomeinatacertaintimeI
meanthattimeandnothalfanhourlater。Andyouneedn’tstoptodiscoursewithsympatheticlistenersonyourway,either。
Asforthepicnic,ofcourseyoucango。You’reaSunday-schoolscholar,andit’snotlikelyI’drefusetoletyougowhenalltheotherlittlegirlsaregoing。"
"But——but,"falteredAnne,"Dianasaysthateverybodymusttakeabasketofthingstoeat。Ican’tcook,asyouknow,Marilla,and——and——Idon’tmindgoingtoapicnicwithoutpuffedsleevessomuch,butI’dfeelterriblyhumiliatedifIhadtogowithoutabasket。It’sbeenpreyingonmymindeversinceDianatoldme。"
"Well,itneedn’tpreyanylonger。I’llbakeyouabasket。"
"Oh,youdeargoodMarilla。Oh,youaresokindtome。Oh,I’msomuchobligedtoyou。"
Gettingthroughwithher"ohs"AnnecastherselfintoMarilla’sarmsandrapturouslykissedhersallowcheek。ItwasthefirsttimeinherwholelifethatchildishlipshadvoluntarilytouchedMarilla’sface。Againthatsuddensensationofstartlingsweetnessthrilledher。ShewassecretlyvastlypleasedatAnne’simpulsivecaress,whichwasprobablythereasonwhyshesaidbrusquely:
"There,there,nevermindyourkissingnonsense。I’dsoonerseeyoudoingstrictlyasyou’retold。Asforcooking,Imeantobegingivingyoulessonsinthatsomeofthesedays。Butyou’resofeatherbrained,Anne,I’vebeenwaitingtoseeifyou’dsoberdownalittleandlearntobesteadybeforeIbegin。You’vegottokeepyourwitsaboutyouincookingandnotstopinthemiddleofthingstoletyourthoughtsroveallovercreation。Now,getoutyourpatchworkandhaveyoursquaredonebeforeteatime。"
"IdoNOTlikepatchwork,"saidAnnedolefully,huntingoutherworkbasketandsittingdownbeforealittleheapofredandwhitediamondswithasigh。"Ithinksomekindsofsewingwouldbenice;butthere’snoscopeforimaginationinpatchwork。It’sjustonelittleseamafteranotherandyouneverseemtobegettinganywhere。ButofcourseI’dratherbeAnneofGreenGablessewingpatchworkthanAnneofanyotherplacewithnothingtodobutplay。IwishtimewentasquicksewingpatchesasitdoeswhenI’mplayingwithDiana,though。Oh,wedohavesucheleganttimes,Marilla。Ihavetofurnishmostoftheimagination,butI’mwellabletodothat。Dianaissimplyperfectineveryotherway。YouknowthatlittlepieceoflandacrossthebrookthatrunsupbetweenourfarmandMr。Barry’s。
ItbelongstoMr。WilliamBell,andrightinthecornerthereisalittleringofwhitebirchtrees——themostromanticspot,Marilla。DianaandIhaveourplayhousethere。WecallitIdlewild。Isn’tthatapoeticalname?Iassureyouittookmesometimetothinkitout。IstayedawakenearlyawholenightbeforeIinventedit。Then,justasIwasdroppingofftosleep,itcamelikeaninspiration。DianawasENRAPTUREDwhensheheardit。Wehavegotourhousefixedupelegantly。Youmustcomeandseeit,Marilla——won’tyou?Wehavegreatbigstones,allcoveredwithmoss,forseats,andboardsfromtreetotreeforshelves。Andwehaveallourdishesonthem。Ofcourse,they’reallbrokenbutit’stheeasiestthingintheworldtoimaginethattheyarewhole。There’sapieceofaplatewithasprayofredandyellowivyonitthatisespeciallybeautiful。Wekeepitintheparlorandwehavethefairyglassthere,too。Thefairyglassisaslovelyasadream。Dianafounditoutinthewoodsbehindtheirchickenhouse。It’sallfullofrainbows——justlittleyoungrainbowsthathaven’tgrownbigyet——andDiana’smothertoldheritwasbrokenoffahanginglamptheyoncehad。Butit’snicetoimaginethefairieslostitonenightwhentheyhadaball,sowecallitthefairyglass。
Matthewisgoingtomakeusatable。Oh,wehavenamedthatlittleroundpooloverinMr。Barry’sfieldWillowmere。IgotthatnameoutofthebookDianalentme。Thatwasathrillingbook,Marilla。Theheroinehadfivelovers。I’dbesatisfiedwithone,wouldn’tyou?Shewasveryhandsomeandshewentthroughgreattribulations。Shecouldfaintaseasyasanything。
I’dlovetobeabletofaint,wouldn’tyou,Marilla?It’ssoromantic。ButI’mreallyveryhealthyforallI’msothin。
IbelieveI’mgettingfatter,though。Don’tyouthinkIam?
IlookatmyelbowseverymorningwhenIgetuptoseeifanydimplesarecoming。Dianaishavinganewdressmadewithelbowsleeves。Sheisgoingtowearittothepicnic。Oh,IdohopeitwillbefinenextWednesday。Idon’tfeelthatIcouldendurethedisappointmentifanythinghappenedtopreventmefromgettingtothepicnic。IsupposeI’dlivethroughit,butI’mcertainitwouldbealifelongsorrow。Itwouldn’tmatterifI
gottoahundredpicnicsinafteryears;theywouldn’tmakeupformissingthisone。They’regoingtohaveboatsontheLakeofShiningWaters——andicecream,asItoldyou。Ihavenevertastedicecream。Dianatriedtoexplainwhatitwaslike,butI
guessicecreamisoneofthosethingsthatarebeyondimagination。"
"Anne,youhavetalkedevenonfortenminutesbytheclock,"
saidMarilla。"Now,justforcuriosity’ssake,seeifyoucanholdyourtongueforthesamelengthoftime。"
Anneheldhertongueasdesired。Butfortherestoftheweekshetalkedpicnicandthoughtpicnicanddreamedpicnic。OnSaturdayitrainedandsheworkedherselfupintosuchafranticstatelestitshouldkeeponraininguntilandoverWednesdaythatMarillamadehersewanextrapatchworksquarebywayofsteadyinghernerves。
OnSundayAnneconfidedtoMarillaonthewayhomefromchurchthatshegrewactuallycoldalloverwithexcitementwhentheministerannouncedthepicnicfromthepulpit。
"Suchathrillaswentupanddownmyback,Marilla!Idon’tthinkI’deverreallybelieveduntilthenthattherewashonestlygoingtobeapicnic。Icouldn’thelpfearingI’donlyimaginedit。
Butwhenaministersaysathinginthepulpityoujusthavetobelieveit。"
"Yousetyourhearttoomuchonthings,Anne,"saidMarilla,withasigh。"I’mafraidthere’llbeagreatmanydisappointmentsinstoreforyouthroughlife。"
"Oh,Marilla,lookingforwardtothingsishalfthepleasureofthem,"exclaimedAnne。"Youmayn’tgetthethingsthemselves;
butnothingcanpreventyoufromhavingthefunoflookingforwardtothem。Mrs。Lyndesays,`Blessedaretheywhoexpectnothingfortheyshallnotbedisappointed。’ButIthinkitwouldbeworsetoexpectnothingthantobedisappointed。"
Marillaworeheramethystbroochtochurchthatdayasusual。
Marillaalwaysworeheramethystbroochtochurch。Shewouldhavethoughtitrathersacrilegioustoleaveitoff——asbadasforgettingherBibleorhercollectiondime。ThatamethystbroochwasMarilla’smosttreasuredpossession。AseafaringunclehadgivenittohermotherwhointurnhadbequeathedittoMarilla。Itwasanold-fashionedoval,containingabraidofhermother’shair,surroundedbyaborderofveryfineamethysts。
Marillaknewtoolittleaboutpreciousstonestorealizehowfinetheamethystsactuallywere;butshethoughtthemverybeautifulandwasalwayspleasantlyconsciousoftheirvioletshimmeratherthroat,abovehergoodbrownsatindress,evenalthoughshecouldnotseeit。
Annehadbeensmittenwithdelightedadmirationwhenshefirstsawthatbrooch。
"Oh,Marilla,it’saperfectlyelegantbrooch。Idon’tknowhowyoucanpayattentiontothesermonortheprayerswhenyouhaveiton。Icouldn’t,Iknow。Ithinkamethystsarejustsweet。
TheyarewhatIusedtothinkdiamondswerelike。Longago,beforeIhadeverseenadiamond,IreadaboutthemandItriedtoimaginewhattheywouldbelike。Ithoughttheywouldbelovelyglimmeringpurplestones。WhenIsawarealdiamondinalady’sringonedayIwassodisappointedIcried。Ofcourse,itwasverylovelybutitwasn’tmyideaofadiamond。Willyouletmeholdthebroochforoneminute,Marilla?Doyouthinkamethystscanbethesoulsofgoodviolets?"