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第1章

TO

EDWARDLANCELOTSANDERSON

AUTHOR’SNOTE

"AnOutcastoftheIslands"ismysecondnovelintheabsolutesenseoftheword;secondinconception,secondinexecution,secondasitwereinitsessence。Therewasnohesitation,half-formedplan,vagueidea,orthevaguestreverieofanythingelsebetweenitand"Almayer’sFolly。"TheonlydoubtIsufferedfrom,afterthepublicationof"Almayer’sFolly,"waswhetherI

shouldwriteanotherlineforprint。Thosedays,nowgrownsodim,hadtheirpoignantmoments。NeitherinmymindnorinmyhearthadIthengivenupthesea。IntruthIwasclingingtoitdesperately,allthemoredesperatelybecause,againstmywill,I

couldnothelpfeelingthattherewassomethingchangedinmyrelationtoit。"Almayer’sFolly,"hadbeenfinishedanddonewith。Themooditselfwasgone。Butithadleftthememoryofanexperiencethat,bothinthoughtandemotionwasunconnectedwiththesea,andIsupposethatpartofmymoralbeingwhichisrootedinconsistencywasbadlyshaken。Iwasavictimofcontrarystresseswhichproducedastateofimmobility。Igavemyselfuptoindolence。SinceitwasimpossibleformetofacebothwaysIhadelectedtofacenothing。Thediscoveryofnewvaluesinlifeisaverychaoticexperience;thereisatremendousamountofjostlingandconfusionandamomentaryfeelingofdarkness。Iletmyspiritfloatsupineoverthatchaos。

AphraseofEdwardGarnett’sis,asamatteroffact,responsibleforthisbook。ThefirstofthefriendsImadeformyselfbymypenitwasbutnaturalthatheshouldbetherecipient,atthattime,ofmyconfidences。Oneeveningwhenwehaddinedtogetherandhehadlistenedtotheaccountofmyperplexities(Ifearhemusthavebeengrowingalittletiredofthem)hepointedoutthattherewasnoneedtodeterminemyfutureabsolutely。Thenheadded:"Youhavethestyle,youhavethetemperament;whynotwriteanother?"Ibelievethatasfarasonemanmaywishtoinfluenceanotherman’slifeEdwardGarnetthadagreatdesirethatIshouldgoonwriting。Atthattime,andImaysay,everafterwards,hewasalwaysverypatientandgentlewithme。Whatstrikesmemosthoweverinthephrasequotedabovewhichwasofferedtomeinatoneofdetachmentisnotitsgentlenessbutitseffectivewisdom。Hadhesaid,"Whynotgoonwriting,"itisveryprobablehewouldhavescaredmeawayfrompenandinkforever;buttherewasnothingeithertofrightenoneorarouseone’santagonisminthemeresuggestionto"writeanother。"Andthusadeadpointintherevolutionofmyaffairswasinsidiouslygotover。Theword"another"didit。Atabouteleveno’clockofaniceLondonnight,EdwardandIwalkedalonginterminablestreetstalkingofmanythings,andIrememberthatongettinghomeIsatdownandwroteabouthalfapageof"AnOutcastoftheIslands"beforeIslept。Thiswascommittingmyselfdefinitely,Iwon’tsaytoanotherlife,buttoanotherbook。ThereisapparentlysomethinginmycharacterwhichwillnotallowmetoabandonforgoodanypieceofworkIhavebegun。Ihavelaidasidemanybeginnings。Ihavelaidthemasidewithsorrow,withdisgust,withrage,withmelancholyandevenwithself-contempt;

butevenattheworstIhadanuneasyconsciousnessthatIwouldhavetogobacktothem。

"AnOutcastoftheIslands"belongstothosenovelsofminethatwereneverlaidaside;andthoughitbroughtmethequalificationof"exoticwriter"Idon’tthinkthechargewasatalljustified。

ForthelifeofmeIdon’tseethatthereistheslightestexoticspiritintheconceptionorstyleofthatnovel。ItiscertainlythemostTROPICALofmyeasterntales。ThemerescenerygotagreatholdonmeasIwenton,perhapsbecause(Imayjustaswellconfessthat)thestoryitselfwasneververynearmyheart。

Itengagedmyimaginationmuchmorethanmyaffection。AstomyfeelingforWillemsitwasbuttheregardonecannothelphavingforone’sowncreation。ObviouslyIcouldnotbeindifferenttoamanonwhoseheadIhadbroughtsomuchevilsimplybyimagininghimsuchasheappearsinthenovel——andthat,too,onaveryslightfoundation。

ThemanwhosuggestedWillemstomewasnotparticularlyinterestinginhimself。Myinterestwasarousedbyhisdependentposition,hisstrange,dubiousstatusofamistrusted,disliked,worn-outEuropeanlivingonthereluctanttolerationofthatSettlementhiddenintheheartoftheforest-land,upthatsombrestreamwhichourshipwastheonlywhitemen’sshiptovisit。

Withhishollow,clean-shavedcheeks,aheavygreymoustacheandeyeswithoutanyexpressionwhatever,cladalwaysinaspotlesssleepingsuitmuchbe-froggedinfront,whichlefthisleanneckwhollyuncovered,andwithhisbarefeetinapairofstrawslippers,hewanderedsilentlyamongstthehousesindaylight,almostasdumbasananimalandapparentlymuchmorehomeless。I

don’tknowwhathedidwithhimselfatnight。Hemusthavehadaplace,ahut,apalm-leafshed,somesortofhovelwherehekepthisrazorandhischangeofsleepingsuits。Anairoffutilemysteryhungoverhim,somethingnotexactlydarkbutobviouslyugly。TheonlydefinitestatementIcouldextractfromanybodywasthatitwashewhohad"broughttheArabsintotheriver。"

Thatmusthavehappenedmanyyearsbefore。Buthowdidhebringthemintotheriver?Hecouldhardlyhavedoneitinhisarmslikealotofkittens。IknewthatAlmayerfoundedthechronologyofallhismisfortunesonthedateofthatfatefuladvent;andyettheveryfirsttimewedinedwithAlmayertherewasWillemssittingattablewithusinthemanneroftheskeletonatthefeast,obviouslyshunnedbyeverybody,neveraddressedbyanyone,andforallrecognitionofhisexistencegettingnowandthenfromAlmayeravenomousglancewhichI

observedwithgreatsurprise。InthecourseofthewholeeveningheventuredonesingleremarkwhichIdidn’tcatchbecausehisarticulationwasimperfect,asofamanwhohadforgottenhowtospeak。Iwastheonlypersonwhoseemedawareofthesound。

Willemssubsided。Presentlyheretired,pointedlyunnoticed——intotheforestmaybe?Itsimmensitywasthere,withinthreehundredyardsoftheverandah,readytoswallowupanything。Almayerconversingwithmycaptaindidnotstoptalkingwhileheglaredangrilyattheretreatingback。Didn’tthatfellowbringtheArabsintotheriver!NeverthelessWillemsturnedupnextmorningonAlmayer’sverandah。FromthebridgeofthesteamerIcouldseeplainlythesetwo,breakfastingtogether,teteateteand,Isuppose,indeadsilence,onewithhisairofbeingnolongerinterestedinthisworldandtheotherraisinghiseyesnowandthenwithintensedislike。

ItwasclearthatinthosedaysWillemslivedonAlmayer’scharity。YetonreturningtwomonthslatertoSambirIheardthathehadgoneonanexpeditionuptheriverinchargeofasteam-launchbelongingtotheArabs,tomakesomediscoveryorother。OnaccountofthestrangereluctancethateveryonemanifestedtotalkaboutWillemsitwasimpossibleformetogetattherightsofthattransaction。Moreover,Iwasanewcomer,theyoungestofthecompany,and,Isuspect,notjudgedquitefitasyetforafullconfidence。Iwasnotmuchconcernedaboutthatexclusion。ThefaintsuggestionofplotsandmysteriespertainingtoallmatterstouchingAlmayer’saffairsamusedmevastly。Almayerwasobviouslyverymuchaffected。IbelievehemissedWillemsimmensely。Heworeanairofsinisterpreoccupationandtalkedconfidentiallywithmycaptain。Icouldcatchonlysnatchesofmumbledsentences。ThenonemorningasI

camealongthedecktotakemyplaceatthebreakfasttableAlmayercheckedhimselfinhislow-toneddiscourse。Mycaptain’sfacewasperfectlyimpenetrable。TherewasamomentofprofoundsilenceandthenasifunabletocontainhimselfAlmayerburstoutinaloudvicioustone:

"Onething’scertain;ifhefindsanythingworthhavinguptheretheywillpoisonhimlikeadog。"

Disconnectedthoughitwas,thatphrase,asfoodforthought,wasdistinctlyworthhearing。WelefttheriverthreedaysafterwardsandIneverreturnedtoSambir;butwhateverhappenedtotheprotagonistofmyWillemsnobodycandenythatIhaverecordedforhimalesssqualidfate。

J。C。

1919。

PARTI

ANOUTCASTOFTHEISLANDS

CHAPTERONE

Whenhesteppedoffthestraightandnarrowpathofhispeculiarhonesty,itwaswithaninwardassertionofunflinchingresolvetofallbackagainintothemonotonousbutsafestrideofvirtueassoonashislittleexcursionintothewaysidequagmireshadproducedthedesiredeffect。Itwasgoingtobeashortepisode——asentenceinbrackets,sotospeak——intheflowingtaleofhislife:athingofnomoment,tobedoneunwillingly,yetneatly,andtobequicklyforgotten。Heimaginedthathecouldgoonafterwardslookingatthesunshine,enjoyingtheshade,breathingintheperfumeofflowersinthesmallgardenbeforehishouse。Hefanciedthatnothingwouldbechanged,thathewouldbeableasheretoforetotyrannizegood-humouredlyoverhishalf-castewife,tonoticewithtendercontempthispaleyellowchild,topatronizeloftilyhisdark-skinnedbrother-in-law,wholovedpinknecktiesandworepatent-leatherbootsonhislittlefeet,andwassohumblebeforethewhitehusbandoftheluckysister。Thosewerethedelightsofhislife,andhewasunabletoconceivethatthemoralsignificanceofanyactofhiscouldinterferewiththeverynatureofthings,coulddimthelightofthesun,coulddestroytheperfumeoftheflowers,thesubmissionofhiswife,thesmileofhischild,theawe-struckrespectofLeonarddaSouzaandofalltheDaSouzafamily。Thatfamily’sadmirationwasthegreatluxuryofhislife。Itroundedandcompletedhisexistenceinaperpetualassuranceofunquestionablesuperiority。Helovedtobreathethecoarseincensetheyofferedbeforetheshrineofthesuccessfulwhiteman;themanthathaddonethemthehonourtomarrytheirdaughter,sister,cousin;therisingmansuretoclimbveryhigh;

theconfidentialclerkofHudig&Co。Theywereanumerousandanuncleancrowd,livinginruinedbamboohouses,surroundedbyneglectedcompounds,ontheoutskirtsofMacassar。Hekeptthematarm’slengthandevenfurtheroff,perhaps,havingnoillusionsastotheirworth。Theywereahalf-caste,lazylot,andhesawthemastheywere——ragged,lean,unwashed,undersizedmenofvariousages,shufflingaboutaimlesslyinslippers;

motionlessoldwomenwholookedlikemonstrousbagsofpinkcalicostuffedwithshapelesslumpsoffat,anddepositedaskewupondecayingrattanchairsinshadycornersofdustyverandahs;

youngwomen,slimandyellow,big-eyed,long-haired,movinglanguidlyamongstthedirtandrubbishoftheirdwellingsasifeverysteptheytookwasgoingtobetheirverylast。Heheardtheirshrillquarrellings,thesquallingoftheirchildren,thegruntingoftheirpigs;hesmelttheodoursoftheheapsofgarbageintheircourtyards:andhewasgreatlydisgusted。Buthefedandclothedthatshabbymultitude;thosedegeneratedescendantsofPortugueseconquerors;hewastheirprovidence;hekeptthemsinginghispraisesinthemidstoftheirlaziness,oftheirdirt,oftheirimmenseandhopelesssqualor:andhewasgreatlydelighted。Theywantedmuch,buthecouldgivethemalltheywantedwithoutruininghimself。Inexchangehehadtheirsilentfear,theirloquaciouslove,theirnoisyveneration。Itisafinethingtobeaprovidence,andtobetoldsooneverydayofone’slife。Itgivesoneafeelingofenormouslyremotesuperiority,andWillemsrevelledinit。Hedidnotanalyzethestateofhismind,butprobablyhisgreatestdelightlayintheunexpressedbutintimateconvictionthat,shouldheclosehishand,allthoseadmiringhumanbeingswouldstarve。Hismunificencehaddemoralizedthem。Aneasytask。SincehedescendedamongstthemandmarriedJoannatheyhadlostthelittleaptitudeandstrengthforworktheymighthavehadtoputforthunderthestressofextremenecessity。Theylivednowbythegraceofhiswill。Thiswaspower。Willemslovedit。

Inanother,andperhapsalowerplane,hisdaysdidnotwantfortheirlesscomplexbutmoreobviouspleasures。Helikedthesimplegamesofskill——billiards;alsogamesnotsosimple,andcallingforquiteanotherkindofskill——poker。Hehadbeentheaptestpupilofasteady-eyed,sententiousAmerican,whohaddriftedmysteriouslyintoMacassarfromthewastesofthePacific,and,afterknockingaboutforatimeintheeddiesoftownlife,haddriftedoutenigmaticallyintothesunnysolitudesoftheIndianOcean。ThememoryoftheCalifornianstrangerwasperpetuatedinthegameofpoker——whichbecamepopularinthecapitalofCelebesfromthattime——andinapowerfulcocktail,therecipeforwhichistransmitted——intheKwang-tungdialect——fromheadboytoheadboyoftheChineseservantsintheSundaHoteleventothisday。Willemswasaconnoisseurinthedrinkandanadeptatthegame。Ofthoseaccomplishmentshewasmoderatelyproud。OftheconfidencereposedinhimbyHudig——themaster——hewasboastfullyandobtrusivelyproud。Thisarosefromhisgreatbenevolence,andfromanexaltedsenseofhisdutytohimselfandtheworldatlarge。Heexperiencedthatirresistibleimpulsetoimpartinformationwhichisinseparablefromgrossignorance。Thereisalwayssomeonethingwhichtheignorantmanknows,andthatthingistheonlythingworthknowing;itfillstheignorantman’suniverse。Willemsknewallabouthimself。Onthedaywhen,withmanymisgivings,heranawayfromaDutchEast-IndiamaninSamarangroads,hehadcommencedthatstudyofhimself,ofhisownways,ofhisownabilities,ofthosefate-compellingqualitiesofhiswhichledhimtowardthatlucrativepositionwhichhenowfilled。Beingofamodestanddiffidentnature,hissuccessesamazed,almostfrightenedhim,andended——ashegotoverthesucceedingshocksofsurprise——bymakinghimferociouslyconceited。Hebelievedinhisgeniusandinhisknowledgeoftheworld。Othersshouldknowofitalso;

fortheirowngoodandforhisgreaterglory。Allthosefriendlymenwhoslappedhimonthebackandgreetedhimnoisilyshouldhavethebenefitofhisexample。Forthathemusttalk。Hetalkedtothemconscientiously。Intheafternoonheexpoundedhistheoryofsuccessoverthelittletables,dippingnowandthenhismoustacheinthecrushediceofthecocktails;intheeveninghewouldoftenholdforth,cueinhand,toayounglisteneracrossthebilliardtable。Thebilliardballsstoodstillasiflisteningalso,underthevividbrillianceoftheshadedoillampshunglowoverthecloth;whileawayintheshadowsofthebigroomtheChinamanmarkerwouldleanwearilyagainstthewall,theblankmaskofhisfacelookingpaleunderthemahoganymarking-board;hiseyelidsdroppedinthedrowsyfatigueoflatehoursandinthebuzzingmonotonyoftheunintelligiblestreamofwordspouredoutbythewhiteman。Inasuddenpauseofthetalkthegamewouldrecommencewithasharpclickandgoonforatimeintheflowingsoftwhirrandthesubduedthudsastheballsrolledzig-zaggingtowardstheinevitablysuccessfulcannon。

Throughthebigwindowsandtheopendoorsthesaltdampnessofthesea,thevaguesmellofmouldandflowersfromthegardenofthehoteldriftedinandmingledwiththeodouroflampoil,growingheavierasthenightadvanced。Theplayers’headsdivedintothelightastheybentdownforthestroke,springingbackagainsmartlyintothegreenishgloomofbroadlamp-shades;theclocktickedmethodically;theunmovedChinamancontinuouslyrepeatedthescoreinalifelessvoice,likeabigtalkingdoll——andWillemswouldwinthegame。Witharemarkthatitwasgettinglate,andthathewasamarriedman,hewouldsayapatronizinggood-nightandstepoutintothelong,emptystreet。

Atthathouritswhitedustwaslikeadazzlingstreakofmoonlightwheretheeyesoughtreposeinthedimmergleamofrareoillamps。Willemswalkedhomewards,followingthelineofwallsovertoppedbytheluxuriantvegetationofthefrontgardens。Thehousesrightandleftwerehiddenbehindtheblackmassesoffloweringshrubs。Willemshadthestreettohimself。Hewouldwalkinthemiddle,hisshadowglidingobsequiouslybeforehim。

Helookeddownonitcomplacently。Theshadowofasuccessfulman!Hewouldbeslightlydizzywiththecocktailsandwiththeintoxicationofhisownglory。Asheoftentoldpeople,hecameeastfourteenyearsago——acabinboy。Asmallboy。Hisshadowmusthavebeenverysmallatthattime;hethoughtwithasmilethathewasnotawarethenhehadanything——evenashadow——whichhedaredcallhisown。AndnowhewaslookingattheshadowoftheconfidentialclerkofHudig&Co。goinghome。Howglorious!

Howgoodwaslifeforthosethatwereonthewinningside!Hehadwonthegameoflife;alsothegameofbilliards。Hewalkedfaster,jinglinghiswinnings,andthinkingofthewhitestonedaysthathadmarkedthepathofhisexistence。HethoughtofthetriptoLombokforponies——thatfirstimportanttransactionconfidedtohimbyHudig;thenhereviewedthemoreimportantaffairs:thequietdealinopium;theillegaltrafficingunpowder;thegreataffairofsmuggledfirearms,thedifficultbusinessoftheRajahofGoak。Hecarriedthatlastthroughbysheerpluck;hehadbeardedthesavageoldrulerinhiscouncilroom;hehadbribedhimwithagiltglasscoach,which,rumoursaid,wasusedasahen-coopnow;hehadover-persuadedhim;hehadbestedhimineveryway。Thatwasthewaytogeton。Hedisapprovedoftheelementarydishonestythatdipsthehandinthecash-box,butonecouldevadethelawsandpushtheprinciplesoftradetotheirfurthestconsequences。Somecallthatcheating。Thosearethefools,theweak,thecontemptible。

Thewise,thestrong,therespected,havenoscruples。Wheretherearescruplestherecanbenopower。Onthattexthepreachedoftentotheyoungmen。Itwashisdoctrine,andhe,himself,wasashiningexampleofitstruth。

Nightafternighthewenthomethus,afteradayoftoilandpleasure,drunkwiththesoundofhisownvoicecelebratinghisownprosperity。Onhisthirtiethbirthdayhewenthomethus。Hehadspentingoodcompanyanice,noisyevening,and,ashewalkedalongtheemptystreet,thefeelingofhisowngreatnessgrewuponhim,liftedhimabovethewhitedustoftheroad,andfilledhimwithexultationandregrets。Hehadnotdonehimselfjusticeoverthereinthehotel,hehadnottalkedenoughabouthimself,hehadnotimpressedhishearersenough。Nevermind。

Someothertime。Nowhewouldgohomeandmakehiswifegetupandlistentohim。Whyshouldshenotgetup?——andmixacocktailforhim——andlistenpatiently。Justso。Sheshall。IfhewantedhecouldmakealltheDaSouzafamilygetup。Hehadonlytosayawordandtheywouldallcomeandsitsilentlyintheirnightvestmentsonthehard,coldgroundofhiscompoundandlisten,aslongashewishedtogoonexplainingtothemfromthetopofthestairs,howgreatandgoodhewas。Theywould。

However,hiswifewoulddo——forto-night。

Hiswife!Hewincedinwardly。Adismalwomanwithstartledeyesanddolorouslydroopingmouth,thatwouldlistentohiminpainedwonderandmutestillness。Shewasusedtothosenight-discoursesnow。Shehadrebelledonce——atthebeginning。Onlyonce。Now,whilehesprawledinthelongchairanddrankandtalked,shewouldstandatthefurtherendofthetable,herhandsrestingontheedge,herfrightenedeyeswatchinghislips,withoutasound,withoutastir,hardlybreathing,tillhedismissedherwithacontemptuous:"Gotobed,dummy。"Shewoulddrawalongbreaththenandtrailoutoftheroom,relievedbutunmoved。Nothingcouldstartleher,makeherscoldormakehercry。Shedidnotcomplain,shedidnotrebel。Thatfirstdifferenceoftheirswasdecisive。Toodecisive,thoughtWillems,discontentedly。Ithadfrightenedthesouloutofherbodyapparently。Adismalwoman!

Adamn’dbusinessaltogether!Whatthedevildidhewanttogoandsaddlehimself……Ah!Well!hewantedahome,andthematchseemedtopleaseHudig,andHudiggavehimthebungalow,thatflower-boweredhousetowhichhewaswendinghiswayinthecoolmoonlight。AndhehadtheworshipoftheDaSouzatribe。A

manofhisstampcouldcarryoffanything,doanything,aspiretoanything。InanotherfiveyearsthosewhitepeoplewhoattendedtheSundaycard-partiesoftheGovernorwouldaccepthim——half-castewifeandall!Hooray!Hesawhisshadowdartforwardandwaveahat,asbigasarumbarrel,attheendofanarmseveralyardslong……Whoshoutedhooray?……Hesmiledshamefacedlytohimself,and,pushinghishandsdeepintohispockets,walkedfasterwithasuddenlygraveface。

Behindhim——totheleft——acigarendglowedinthegatewayofMr。

Vinck’sfrontyard。Leaningagainstoneofthebrickpillars,Mr。Vinck,thecashierofHudig&Co。,smokedthelastcherootoftheevening。AmongsttheshadowsofthetrimmedbushesMrs。

Vinckcrunchedslowly,withmeasuredsteps,thegravelofthecircularpathbeforethehouse。

"There’sWillemsgoinghomeonfoot——anddrunkIfancy,"saidMr。

Vinckoverhisshoulder。"Isawhimjumpandwavehishat。"

Thecrunchingofthegravelstopped。

"Horridman,"saidMrs。Vinck,calmly。"Ihaveheardhebeatshiswife。"

"Ohno,mydear,no,"mutteredabsentlyMr。Vinck,withavaguegesture。TheaspectofWillemsasawife-beaterpresentedtohimnointerest。Howwomendomisjudge!IfWillemswantedtotorturehiswifehewouldhaverecoursetolessprimitivemethods。Mr。VinckknewWillemswell,andbelievedhimtobeveryable,verysmart——objectionablyso。Ashetookthelastquickdrawsatthestumpofhischeroot,Mr。VinckreflectedthattheconfidenceaccordedbyHudigtoWillemswasopen,underthecircumstances,toloyalcriticismfromHudig’scashier。

"Heisbecomingdangerous;heknowstoomuch。Hewillhavetobegotridof,"saidMr。Vinckaloud。ButMrs。Vinckhadgoneinalready,andaftershakinghisheadhethrewawayhischerootandfollowedherslowly。

Willemswalkedonhomewardweavingthesplendidwebofhisfuture。Theroadtogreatnesslayplainlybeforehiseyes,straightandshining,withoutanyobstaclethathecouldsee。Hehadsteppedoffthepathofhonesty,asheunderstoodit,buthewouldsoonregainit,nevertoleaveitanymore!Itwasaverysmallmatter。Hewouldsoonputitrightagain。Meantimehisdutywasnottobefoundout,andhetrustedinhisskill,inhisluck,inhiswell-establishedreputationthatwoulddisarmsuspicionifanybodydaredtosuspect。Butnobodywoulddare!

True,hewasconsciousofaslightdeterioration。HehadappropriatedtemporarilysomeofHudig’smoney。Adeplorablenecessity。Buthejudgedhimselfwiththeindulgencethatshouldbeextendedtotheweaknessesofgenius。Hewouldmakereparationandallwouldbeasbefore;nobodywouldbetheloserforit,andhewouldgoonuncheckedtowardthebrilliantgoalofhisambition。

Hudig’spartner!

Beforegoingupthestepsofhishousehestoodforawhile,hisfeetwellapart,chininhand,contemplatingmentallyHudig’sfuturepartner。Agloriousoccupation。Hesawhimquitesafe;

solidasthehills;deep——deepasanabyss;discreetasthegrave。

CHAPTERTWO

Thesea,perhapsbecauseofitssaltness,roughenstheoutsidebutkeepssweetthekernelofitsservants’soul。Theoldsea;

theseaofmanyyearsago,whoseservantsweredevotedslavesandwentfromyouthtoageortoasuddengravewithoutneedingtoopenthebookoflife,becausetheycouldlookateternityreflectedontheelementthatgavethelifeanddealtthedeath。

Likeabeautifulandunscrupulouswoman,theseaofthepastwasgloriousinitssmiles,irresistibleinitsanger,capricious,enticing,illogical,irresponsible;athingtolove,athingtofear。Itcastaspell,itgavejoy,itlulledgentlyintoboundlessfaith;thenwithquickandcauselessangeritkilled。

Butitscrueltywasredeemedbythecharmofitsinscrutablemystery,bytheimmensityofitspromise,bythesupremewitcheryofitspossiblefavour。Strongmenwithchildlikeheartswerefaithfultoit,werecontenttolivebyitsgrace——todiebyitswill。ThatwastheseabeforethetimewhentheFrenchmindsettheEgyptianmuscleinmotionandproducedadismalbutprofitableditch。Thenagreatpallofsmokesentoutbycountlesssteam-boatswasspreadovertherestlessmirroroftheInfinite。Thehandoftheengineertoredowntheveiloftheterriblebeautyinorderthatgreedyandfaithlesslandlubbersmightpocketdividends。Themysterywasdestroyed。Likeallmysteries,itlivedonlyintheheartsofitsworshippers。Theheartschanged;themenchanged。Theoncelovinganddevotedservantswentoutarmedwithfireandiron,andconqueringthefearoftheirownheartsbecameacalculatingcrowdofcoldandexactingmasters。Theseaofthepastwasanincomparablybeautifulmistress,withinscrutableface,withcruelandpromisingeyes。Theseaofto-dayisaused-updrudge,wrinkledanddefacedbythechurned-upwakesofbrutalpropellers,robbedoftheenslavingcharmofitsvastness,strippedofitsbeauty,ofitsmysteryandofitspromise。

TomLingardwasamaster,alover,aservantofthesea。Theseatookhimyoung,fashionedhimbodyandsoul;gavehimhisfierceaspect,hisloudvoice,hisfearlesseyes,hisstupidlyguilelessheart。Generouslyitgavehimhisabsurdfaithinhimself,hisuniversalloveofcreation,hiswideindulgence,hiscontemptuousseverity,hisstraightforwardsimplicityofmotiveandhonestyofaim。Havingmadehimwhathewas,womanlike,theseaservedhimhumblyandlethimbaskunharmedinthesunshineofitsterriblyuncertainfavour。TomLingardgrewrichontheseaandbythesea。Heloveditwiththeardentaffectionofalover,hemadelightofitwiththeassuranceofperfectmastery,hefeareditwiththewisefearofabraveman,andhetooklibertieswithitasaspoiledchildmightdowithapaternalandgood-naturedogre。Hewasgratefultoit,withthegratitudeofanhonestheart。Hisgreatestpridelayinhisprofoundconvictionofitsfaithfulness——inthedeepsenseofhisunerringknowledgeofitstreachery。

ThelittlebrigFlashwastheinstrumentofLingard’sfortune。

Theycamenorthtogether——bothyoung——outofanAustralianport,andafteraveryfewyearstherewasnotawhitemanintheislands,fromPalembangtoTernate,fromOmbawatoPalawan,thatdidnotknowCaptainTomandhisluckycraft。Hewaslikedforhisrecklessgenerosity,forhisunswervinghonesty,andatfirstwasalittlefearedonaccountofhisviolenttemper。Verysoon,however,theyfoundhimout,andthewordwentroundthatCaptainTom’sfurywaslessdangerousthanmanyaman’ssmile。Heprosperedgreatly。Afterhisfirst——andsuccessful——fightwiththesearobbers,whenherescued,asrumourhadit,theyachtofsomebigwigfromhome,somewheredownCarimataway,hisgreatpopularitybegan。Asyearswentonitgrewapace。Alwaysvisitingout-of-the-wayplacesofthatpartoftheworld,alwaysinsearchofnewmarketsforhiscargoes——notsomuchforprofitasforthepleasureoffindingthem——hesoonbecameknowntotheMalays,andbyhissuccessfulrecklessnessinseveralencounterswithpirates,establishedtheterrorofhisname。Thosewhitemenwithwhomhehadbusiness,andwhonaturallywereonthelook-outforhisweaknesses,couldeasilyseethatitwasenoughtogivehimhisMalaytitletoflatterhimgreatly。Sowhentherewasanythingtobegainedbyit,andsometimesoutofpureandunprofitablegoodnature,theywoulddroptheceremonious"CaptainLingard"andaddresshimhalfseriouslyasRajahLaut——theKingoftheSea。

Hecarriedthenamebravelyonhisbroadshoulders。HehadcarrieditmanyyearsalreadywhentheboyWillemsranbarefootedonthedeckoftheshipKosmopolietIV。inSamarangroads,lookingwithinnocenteyesonthestrangeshoreandobjurgatinghisimmediatesurroundingswithblasphemouslips,whilehischildishbrainworkedupontheheroicideaofrunningaway。FromthepoopoftheFlashLingardsawintheearlymorningtheDutchshipgetlumberinglyunderweigh,boundfortheeasternports。

Verylateintheeveningofthesamedayhestoodonthequayofthelandingcanal,readytogoonboardofhisbrig。Thenightwasstarryandclear;thelittlecustom-housebuildingwasshutup,andasthegharrythatbroughthimdowndisappearedupthelongavenueofdustytreesleadingtothetown,Lingardthoughthimselfaloneonthequay。Herouseduphissleepingboat-crewandstoodwaitingforthemtogetready,whenhefeltatugathiscoatandathinvoicesaid,verydistinctly——

"Englishcaptain。"

Lingardturnedroundquickly,andwhatseemedtobeaveryleanboyjumpedbackwithcommendableactivity。

"Whoareyou?Wheredoyouspringfrom?"askedLingard,instartledsurprise。

Fromasafedistancetheboypointedtowardacargolightermooredtothequay。

"Beenhidingthere,haveyou?"saidLingard。"Well,whatdoyouwant?Speakout,confoundyou。Youdidnotcomeheretoscaremetodeath,forfun,didyou?"

TheboytriedtoexplaininimperfectEnglish,butverysoonLingardinterruptedhim。

"Isee,"heexclaimed,"youranawayfromthebigshipthatsailedthismorning。Well,whydon’tyougotoyourcountrymenhere?"

"Shipgoneonlyalittleway——toSourabaya。Makemegobacktotheship,"explainedtheboy。

"Bestthingforyou,"affirmedLingardwithconviction。

"No,"retortedtheboy;"mewantstophere;notwantgohome。

Getmoneyhere;homenogood。"

"Thisbeatsallmygoinga-fishing,"commentedtheastonishedLingard。"It’smoneyyouwant?Well!well!Andyouwerenotafraidtorunaway,youbagofbones,you!"

Theboyintimatedthathewasfrightenedofnothingbutofbeingsentbacktotheship。Lingardlookedathiminmeditativesilence。

"Comecloser,"hesaidatlast。Hetooktheboybythechin,andturninguphisfacegavehimasearchinglook。"Howoldareyou?"

"Seventeen。"

"There’snotmuchofyouforseventeen。Areyouhungry?"

"Alittle。"

"Willyoucomewithme,inthatbrigthere?"

Theboymovedwithoutawordtowardstheboatandscrambledintothebows。

"Knowshisplace,"mutteredLingardtohimselfashesteppedheavilyintothesternsheetsandtookuptheyokelines。"Givewaythere。"

TheMalayboatcrewlaybacktogether,andthegigsprangawayfromthequayheadingtowardsthebrig’sridinglight。

SuchwasthebeginningofWillems’career。

LingardlearnedinhalfanhourallthattherewasofWillems’

commonplacestory。Fatheroutdoorclerkofsomeship-brokerinRotterdam;motherdead。Theboyquickinlearning,butidleinschool。Thestraitenedcircumstancesinthehousefilledwithsmallbrothersandsisters,sufficientlyclothedandfedbutotherwiserunningwild,whilethedisconsolatewidowertrampedaboutalldayinashabbyovercoatandimperfectbootsonthemuddyquays,andintheeveningpilotedwearilythehalf-intoxicatedforeignskippersamongsttheplacesofcheapdelights,returninghomelate,sickwithtoomuchsmokinganddrinking——forcompany’ssake——withthesemen,whoexpectedsuchattentionsinthewayofbusiness。Thentheofferofthegood-naturedcaptainofKosmopolietIV。,whowaspleasedtodosomethingforthepatientandobligingfellow;youngWillems’

greatjoy,hisstillgreaterdisappointmentwiththeseathatlookedsocharmingfromafar,butprovedsohardandexactingoncloseracquaintance——andthenthisrunningawaybyasuddenimpulse。Theboywashopelesslyatvariancewiththespiritofthesea。Hehadaninstinctivecontemptforthehonestsimplicityofthatworkwhichledtonothinghecaredfor。

Lingardsoonfoundthisout。HeofferedtosendhimhomeinanEnglishship,buttheboybeggedhardtobepermittedtoremain。

Hewroteabeautifulhand,becamesoonperfectinEnglish,wasquickatfigures;andLingardmadehimusefulinthatway。Ashegrewolderhistradinginstinctsdevelopedthemselvesastonishingly,andLingardlefthimoftentotradeinoneislandoranotherwhilehe,himself,madeanintermediatetriptosomeout-of-the-wayplace。OnWillemsexpressingawishtothateffect,LingardlethimenterHudig’sservice。Hefeltalittlesoreatthatabandonmentbecausehehadattachedhimself,inaway,tohisprotege。Stillhewasproudofhim,andspokeupforhimloyally。Atfirstitwas,"Smartboythat——nevermakeaseamanthough。"ThenwhenWillemswashelpinginthetradinghereferredtohimas"thatcleveryoungfellow。"LaterwhenWillemsbecametheconfidentialagentofHudig,employedinmanyadelicateaffair,thesimple-heartedoldseamanwouldpointanadmiringfingerathisbackandwhispertowhoeverstoodnearatthemoment,"Long-headedchapthat;deucedlong-headedchap。

Lookathim。ConfidentialmanofoldHudig。Ipickedhimupinaditch,youmaysay,likeastarvedcat。Skinandbone。’PonmywordIdid。AndnowheknowsmorethanIdoaboutislandtrading。Fact。Iamnotjoking。MorethanIdo,"hewouldrepeat,seriously,withinnocentprideinhishonesteyes。

FromthesafeelevationofhiscommercialsuccessesWillemspatronizedLingard。Hehadalikingforhisbenefactor,notunmixedwithsomedisdainforthecrudedirectnessoftheoldfellow’smethodsofconduct。Therewere,however,certainsidesofLingard’scharacterforwhichWillemsfeltaqualifiedrespect。ThetalkativeseamanknewhowtobesilentoncertainmattersthattoWillemswereveryinteresting。Besides,Lingardwasrich,andthatinitselfwasenoughtocompelWillems’

unwillingadmiration。InhisconfidentialchatswithHudig,WillemsgenerallyalludedtothebenevolentEnglishmanasthe"luckyoldfool"inaverydistincttoneofvexation;Hudigwouldgruntanunqualifiedassent,andthenthetwowouldlookateachotherinasuddenimmobilityofpupilsfixedbyastareofunexpressedthought。

"Youcan’tfindoutwherehegetsallthatindia-rubber,heyWillems?"Hudigwouldaskatlast,turningawayandbendingoverthepapersonhisdesk。

"No,Mr。Hudig。Notyet。ButIamtrying,"wasWillems’

invariablereply,deliveredwitharingofregretfuldeprecation。

"Try!Alwaystry!Youmaytry!Youthinkyourselfcleverperhaps,"rumbledonHudig,withoutlookingup。"Ihavebeentradingwithhimtwenty——thirtyyearsnow。Theoldfox。AndI

havetried。Bah!"

Hestretchedoutashort,podgylegandcontemplatedthebareinstepandthegrassslipperhangingbythetoes。"Youcan’tmakehimdrunk?"hewouldadd,afterapauseofstertorousbreathing。

"No,Mr。Hudig,Ican’treally,"protestedWillems,earnestly。

"Well,don’ttry。Iknowhim。Don’ttry,"advisedthemaster,and,bendingagainoverhisdesk,hisstaringbloodshoteyesclosetothepaper,hewouldgoontracinglaboriouslywithhisthickfingerstheslimunsteadylettersofhiscorrespondence,whileWillemswaitedrespectfullyforhisfurthergoodpleasurebeforeasking,withgreatdeference——

"Anyorders,Mr。Hudig?"

"Hm!yes。GotoBun-Hinyourselfandseethedollarsofthatpaymentcountedandpacked,andhavethemputonboardthemail-boatforTernate。She’sdueherethisafternoon。"

"Yes,Mr。Hudig。"

"And,lookhere。Iftheboatislate,leavethecaseinBun-Hin’sgodowntillto-morrow。Sealitup。Eightsealsasusual。Don’ttakeitawaytilltheboatishere。"

"No,Mr。Hudig。"

"Anddon’tforgetabouttheseopiumcases。It’sforto-night。

Usemyownboatmen。TransshipthemfromtheCarolinetotheArabbarque,"wentonthemasterinhishoarseundertone。"Anddon’tyoucometomewithanotherstoryofacasedroppedoverboardlikelasttime,"headded,withsuddenferocity,lookingupathisconfidentialclerk。

"No,Mr。Hudig。Iwilltakecare。"

"That’sall。Tellthatpigasyougooutthatifhedoesn’tmakethepunkahgoalittlebetterIwillbreakeveryboneinhisbody,"finishedupHudig,wipinghispurplefacewitharedsilkhandkerchiefnearlyasbigasacounterpane。

NoiselesslyWillemswentout,shuttingcarefullybehindhimthelittlegreendoorthroughwhichhepassedtothewarehouse。

Hudig,peninhand,listenedtohimbullyingthepunkahboywithprofaneviolence,bornofunboundedzealforthemaster’scomfort,beforehereturnedtohiswritingamidtherustlingofpapersflutteringinthewindsentdownbythepunkahthatwavedinwidesweepsabovehishead。

WillemswouldnodfamiliarlytoMr。Vinck,whohadhisdeskclosetothelittledooroftheprivateoffice,andmarchdownthewarehousewithanimportantair。Mr。Vinck——extremedislikelurkingineverywrinkleofhisgentlemanlycountenance——wouldfollowwithhiseyesthewhitefigureflittinginthegloomamongstthepilesofbalesandcasestillitpassedoutthroughthebigarchwayintotheglareofthestreet。

CHAPTERTHREE

TheopportunityandthetemptationweretoomuchforWillems,andunderthepressureofsuddennecessityheabusedthattrustwhichwashispride,theperpetualsignofhisclevernessandaloadtooheavyforhimtocarry。Arunofbadluckatcards,thefailureofasmallspeculationundertakenonhisownaccount,anunexpecteddemandformoneyfromoneoranothermemberoftheDaSouzafamily——andalmostbeforehewaswellawareofithewasoffthepathofhispeculiarhonesty。Itwassuchafaintandill-definedtrackthatittookhimsometimetofindouthowfarhehadstrayedamongstthebramblesofthedangerouswildernesshehadbeenskirtingforsomanyyears,withoutanyotherguidethanhisownconvenienceandthatdoctrineofsuccesswhichhehadfoundforhimselfinthebookoflife——inthoseinterestingchaptersthattheDevilhasbeenpermittedtowriteinit,totestthesharpnessofmen’seyesightandthesteadfastnessoftheirhearts。Foroneshort,darkandsolitarymomenthewasdismayed,buthehadthatcouragethatwillnotscaleheights,yetwillwadebravelythroughthemud——iftherebenootherroad。

Heappliedhimselftothetaskofrestitution,anddevotedhimselftothedutyofnotbeingfoundout。Onhisthirtiethbirthdayhehadalmostaccomplishedthetask——andthedutyhadbeenfaithfullyandcleverlyperformed。Hesawhimselfsafe。

Againhecouldlookhopefullytowardsthegoalofhislegitimateambition。Nobodywoulddaretosuspecthim,andinafewdaystherewouldbenothingtosuspect。Hewaselated。Hedidnotknowthathisprosperityhadtouchedthenitshigh-watermark,andthatthetidewasalreadyontheturn。

Twodaysafterwardsheknew。Mr。Vinck,hearingtherattleofthedoor-handle,jumpedupfromhisdesk——wherehehadbeentremulouslylisteningtotheloudvoicesintheprivateoffice——andburiedhisfaceinthebigsafewithnervoushaste。

ForthelasttimeWillemspassedthroughthelittlegreendoorleadingtoHudig’ssanctum,which,duringthepasthalf-hour,mighthavebeentaken——fromthefiendishnoisewithin——forthecavernofsomewildbeast。Willems’troubledeyestookinthequickimpressionofmenandthingsashecameoutfromtheplaceofhishumiliation。Hesawthescaredexpressionofthepunkahboy;theChinamentellerssittingontheirheelswithunmovablefacesturnedupblanklytowardshimwhiletheirarrestedhandshoveredoverthelittlepilesofbrightguildersrangedonthefloor;Mr。Vinck’sshoulder-bladeswiththefleshyrimsoftworedearsabove。Hesawthelongavenueofgincasesstretchingfromwherehestoodtothearcheddoorwaybeyondwhichhewouldbeabletobreatheperhaps。Athinrope’sendlayacrosshispathandhesawitdistinctly,yetstumbledheavilyoveritasifithadbeenabarofiron。Thenhefoundhimselfinthestreetatlast,butcouldnotfindairenoughtofillhislungs。Hewalkedtowardshishome,gasping。

AsthesoundofHudig’sinsultsthatlingeredinhisearsgrewfainterbythelapseoftime,thefeelingofshamewasreplacedslowlybyapassionofangeragainsthimselfandstillmoreagainstthestupidconcourseofcircumstancesthathaddrivenhimintohisidioticindiscretion。Idioticindiscretion;thatishowhedefinedhisguilttohimself。Couldtherebeanythingworsefromthepointofviewofhisundeniablecleverness?Whatafatalaberrationofanacutemind!Hedidnotrecognizehimselfthere。Hemusthavebeenmad。That’sit。Asuddengustofmadness。Andnowtheworkoflongyearswasdestroyedutterly。

Whatwouldbecomeofhim?

Beforehecouldanswerthatquestionhefoundhimselfinthegardenbeforehishouse,Hudig’sweddinggift。Helookedatitwithavaguesurprisetofinditthere。Hispastwassoutterlygonefromhimthatthedwellingwhichbelongedtoitappearedtohimincongruousstandingthereintact,neat,andcheerfulinthesunshineofthehotafternoon。Thehousewasaprettylittlestructurealldoorsandwindows,surroundedonallsidesbythedeepverandahsupportedonslendercolumnsclothedinthegreenfoliageofcreepers,whichalsofringedtheoverhangingeavesofthehigh-pitchedroof。Slowly,Willemsmountedthedozenstepsthatledtotheverandah。Hepausedateverystep。Hemusttellhiswife。Hefeltfrightenedattheprospect,andhisalarmdismayedhim。Frightenedtofaceher!Nothingcouldgivehimabettermeasureofthegreatnessofthechangearoundhim,andinhim。Anotherman——andanotherlifewiththefaithinhimselfgone。Hecouldnotbeworthmuchifhewasafraidtofacethatwoman。

Hedarednotenterthehousethroughtheopendoorofthedining-room,butstoodirresolutebythelittlework-tablewheretrailedawhitepieceofcalico,withaneedlestuckinit,asiftheworkhadbeenlefthurriedly。Thepink-crestedcockatoostarted,onhisappearance,intoclumsyactivityandbegantoclimblaboriouslyupanddownhisperch,calling"Joanna"withindistinctloudnessandapersistentscreechthatprolongedthelastsyllableofthenameasifinapealofinsanelaughter。

Thescreeninthedoorwaymovedgentlyonceortwiceinthebreeze,andeachtimeWillemsstartedslightly,expectinghiswife,butheneverliftedhiseyes,althoughstraininghisearsforthesoundofherfootsteps。Graduallyhelosthimselfinhisthoughts,intheendlessspeculationastothemannerinwhichshewouldreceivehisnews——andhisorders。Inthispreoccupationhealmostforgotthefearofherpresence。Nodoubtshewillcry,shewilllament,shewillbehelplessandfrightenedandpassiveasever。Andhewouldhavetodragthatlimpweightonandonthroughthedarknessofaspoiledlife。

Horrible!Ofcoursehecouldnotabandonherandthechildtocertainmiseryorpossiblestarvation。ThewifeandthechildofWillems。Willemsthesuccessful,thesmart;Willemstheconf……Pah!AndwhatwasWillemsnow?Willemsthe……Hestrangledthehalf-bornthought,andclearedhisthroattostifleagroan。Ah!Won’ttheytalkto-nightinthebilliard-room——hisworld,wherehehadbeenfirst——allthosementowhomhehadbeensosuperciliouslycondescending。Won’ttheytalkwithsurprise,andaffectedregret,andgravefaces,andwisenods。Someofthemowedhimmoney,butheneverpressedanybody。Nothe。

Willems,theprinceofgoodfellows,theycalledhim。Andnowtheywillrejoice,nodoubt,athisdownfall。Acrowdofimbeciles。Inhisabasementhewasyetawareofhissuperiorityoverthosefellows,whoweremerelyhonestorsimplynotfoundoutyet。Acrowdofimbeciles!Heshookhisfistattheevokedimageofhisfriends,andthestartledparrotfluttereditswingsandshriekedindesperatefright。

InashortglanceupwardsWillemssawhiswifecomeroundthecornerofthehouse。Heloweredhiseyelidsquickly,andwaitedsilentlytillshecamenearandstoodontheothersideofthelittletable。Hewouldnotlookatherface,buthecouldseethereddressing-gownheknewsowell。Shetrailedthroughlifeinthatreddressing-gown,withitsrowofdirtybluebowsdownthefront,stained,andhookedonawry;atornflounceatthebottomfollowingherlikeasnakeasshemovedlanguidlyabout,withherhairnegligentlycaughtup,andatangledwispstragglinguntidilydownherback。Hisgazetravelledupwardsfrombowtobow,noticingthosethathungonlybyathread,butitdidnotgobeyondherchin。Helookedatherleanthroat,attheobtrusivecollarbonevisibleinthedisarrayoftheupperpartofherattire。Hesawthethinarmandthebonyhandclaspingthechildshecarried,andhefeltanimmensedistasteforthoseencumbrancesofhislife。Hewaitedforhertosaysomething,butashefelthereyesrestonhiminunbrokensilencehesighedandbegantospeak。

Itwasahardtask。Hespokeslowly,lingeringamongstthememoriesofthisearlylifeinhisreluctancetoconfessthatthiswastheendofitandthebeginningofalesssplendidexistence。Inhisconvictionofhavingmadeherhappinessinthefullsatisfactionofallmaterialwantsheneverdoubtedforamomentthatshewasreadytokeephimcompanyonnomatterhowhardandstonyaroad。Hewasnotelatedbythiscertitude。HehadmarriedhertopleaseHudig,andthegreatnessofhissacrificeoughttohavemadeherhappywithoutanyfurtherexertiononhispart。ShehadyearsofgloryasWillems’wife,andyearsofcomfort,ofloyalcare,andofsuchtendernessasshedeserved。Hehadguardedhercarefullyfromanybodilyhurt;

andofanyothersufferinghehadnoconception。Theassertionofhissuperioritywasonlyanotherbenefitconferredonher。

Allthiswasamatterofcourse,buthetoldherallthissoastobringvividlybeforeherthegreatnessofherloss。Shewassodullofunderstandingthatshewouldnotgraspitelse。Andnowitwasatanend。Theywouldhavetogo。Leavethishouse,leavethisisland,gofarawaywherehewasunknown。TotheEnglishStrait-Settlementsperhaps。Hewouldfindanopeningthereforhisabilities——andjustermentodealwiththanoldHudig。Helaughedbitterly。

"YouhavethemoneyIleftathomethismorning,Joanna?"heasked。"Wewillwantitallnow。"

Ashespokethosewordshethoughthewasafinefellow。Nothingnewthat。Still,hesurpassedtherehisownexpectations。Hangitall,therearesacredthingsinlife,afterall。Themarriagetiewasoneofthem,andhewasnotthemantobreakit。Thesolidityofhisprinciplescausedhimgreatsatisfaction,buthedidnotcaretolookathiswife,forallthat。Hewaitedforhertospeak。Thenhewouldhavetoconsoleher;tellhernottobeacryingfool;togetreadytogo。Gowhere?How?When?Heshookhishead。Theymustleaveatonce;thatwastheprincipalthing。Hefeltasuddenneedtohurryuphisdeparture。

"Well,Joanna,"hesaid,alittleimpatiently——"don’tstandthereinatrance。Doyouhear?Wemust……"

Helookedupathiswife,andwhateverhewasgoingtoaddremainedunspoken。Shewasstaringathimwithherbig,slantingeyes,thatseemedtohimtwicetheirnaturalsize。Thechild,itsdirtylittlefacepressedtoitsmother’sshoulder,wassleepingpeacefully。Thedeepsilenceofthehousewasnotbroken,butratheraccentuated,bythelowmutterofthecockatoo,nowverystillonitsperch。AsWillemswaslookingatJoannaherupperlipwasdrawnupononeside,givingtohermelancholyfaceaviciousexpressionaltogethernewtohisexperience。Hesteppedbackinhissurprise。

"Oh!Yougreatman!"shesaiddistinctly,butinavoicethatwashardlyaboveawhisper。

Thosewords,andstillmorehertone,stunnedhimasifsomebodyhadfiredagunclosetohisear。Hestaredbackatherstupidly。

"Oh!yougreatman!"sherepeatedslowly,glancingrightandleftasifmeditatingasuddenescape。"AndyouthinkthatIamgoingtostarvewithyou。Youarenobodynow。YouthinkmymammaandLeonardwouldletmegoaway?Andwithyou!Withyou,"sherepeatedscornfully,raisinghervoice,whichwokeupthechildandcausedittowhimperfeebly。

"Joanna!"exclaimedWillems。

"Donotspeaktome。IhaveheardwhatIhavewaitedforalltheseyears。Youarelessthandirt,youthathavewipedyourfeetonme。Ihavewaitedforthis。Iamnotafraidnow。Idonotwantyou;donotcomenearme。Ah-h!"shescreamedshrilly,asheheldouthishandinanentreatinggesture——"Ah!Keepoffme!Keepoffme!Keepoff!"

Shebackedaway,lookingathimwitheyesbothangryandfrightened。Willemsstaredmotionless,indumbamazementatthemysteryofangerandrevoltintheheadofhiswife。Why?Whathadheeverdonetoher?Thiswasthedayofinjusticeindeed。

FirstHudig——andnowhiswife。Hefeltaterroratthishatethathadlivedstealthilysonearhimforyears。Hetriedtospeak,butsheshriekedagain,anditwaslikeaneedlethroughhisheart。Againheraisedhishand。

"Help!"calledMrs。Willems,inapiercingvoice。"Help!"

"Bequiet!Youfool!"shoutedWillems,tryingtodrownthenoiseofhiswifeandchildinhisownangryaccentsandrattlingviolentlythelittlezinctableinhisexasperation。

Fromunderthehouse,wheretherewerebathroomsandatoolcloset,appearedLeonard,arustyironbarinhishand。Hecalledthreateninglyfromthebottomofthestairs。

"Donothurther,Mr。Willems。Youareasavage。Notatalllikewe,whites。"

"Youtoo!"saidthebewilderedWillems。"Ihaven’ttouchedher。

Isthisamadhouse?"Hemovedtowardsthestairs,andLeonarddroppedthebarwithaclangandmadeforthegateofthecompound。Willemsturnedbacktohiswife。

"Soyouexpectedthis,"hesaid。"Itisaconspiracy。Who’sthatsobbingandgroaningintheroom?Somemoreofyourpreciousfamily。Hey?"

Shewasmorecalmnow,andputtinghastilythecryingchildinthebigchairwalkedtowardshimwithsuddenfearlessness。

"Mymother,"shesaid,"mymotherwhocametodefendmefromyou——manfromnowhere;avagabond!"

"Youdidnotcallmeavagabondwhenyouhungroundmyneck——beforeweweremarried,"saidWillems,contemptuously。

"YoutookgoodcarethatIshouldnothangroundyourneckafterwewere,"sheanswered,clenchingherhands,andputtingherfaceclosetohis。"YouboastedwhileIsufferedandsaidnothing。

Whathasbecomeofyourgreatness;ofourgreatness——youwerealwaysspeakingabout?NowIamgoingtoliveonthecharityofyourmaster。Yes。Thatistrue。HesentLeonardtotellmeso。

Andyouwillgoandboastsomewhereelse,andstarve。So!Ah!

Icanbreathenow!Thishouseismine。"

"Enough!"saidWillems,slowly,withanarrestinggesture。

Sheleapedback,thefrightagaininhereyes,snatchedupthechild,pressedittoherbreast,and,fallingintoachair,drummedinsanelywithherheelsontheresoundingflooroftheverandah。

"Ishallgo,"saidWillems,steadily。"Ithankyou。Forthefirsttimeinyourlifeyoumakemehappy。Youwereastoneroundmyneck;youunderstand。Ididnotmeantotellyouthataslongasyoulived,butyoumademe——now。BeforeIpassthisgateyoushallbegonefrommymind。Youmadeitveryeasy。I

thankyou。"

Heturnedandwentdownthestepswithoutgivingheraglance,whileshesatuprightandquiet,withwide-openeyes,thechildcryingquerulouslyinherarms。AtthegatehecamesuddenlyuponLeonard,whohadbeendodgingaboutthereandfailedtogetoutofthewayintime。

"Donotbebrutal,Mr。Willems,"saidLeonard,hurriedly。"Itisunbecomingbetweenwhitemenwithallthosenativeslookingon。"

Leonard’slegstrembledverymuch,andhisvoicewaveredbetweenhighandlowtoneswithoutanyattemptatcontrolonhispart。

"Restrainyourimproperviolence,"hewentonmumblingrapidly。

"Iamarespectablemanofverygoodfamily,whileyou……itisregrettable……theyallsayso……"

"What?"thunderedWillems。Hefeltasuddenimpulseofmadanger,andbeforeheknewwhathadhappenedhewaslookingatLeonarddaSouzarollinginthedustathisfeet。Hesteppedoverhisprostratebrother-in-lawandtoreblindlydownthestreet,everybodymakingwayforthefranticwhiteman。

Whenhecametohimselfhewasbeyondtheoutskirtsofthetown,stumblingonthehardandcrackedearthofreapedricefields。

Howdidhegetthere?Itwasdark。Hemustgetback。Ashewalkedtowardsthetownslowly,hismindreviewedtheeventsofthedayandhefeltasenseofbitterloneliness。Hiswifehadturnedhimoutofhisownhouse。Hehadassaultedbrutallyhisbrother-in-law,amemberoftheDaSouzafamily——ofthatbandofhisworshippers。Hedid。Well,no!Itwassomeotherman。

Anothermanwascomingback。Amanwithoutapast,withoutafuture,yetfullofpainandshameandanger。Hestoppedandlookedround。Adogortwoglidedacrosstheemptystreetandrushedpasthimwithafrightenedsnarl。HewasnowinthemidstoftheMalayquarterwhosebamboohouses,hiddenintheverdureoftheirlittlegardens,weredarkandsilent。Men,womenandchildrensleptinthere。Humanbeings。Wouldheeversleep,andwhere?Hefeltasifhewastheoutcastofallmankind,andashelookedhopelesslyround,beforeresuminghiswearymarch,itseemedtohimthattheworldwasbigger,thenightmorevastandmoreblack;buthewentondoggedlywithhisheaddownasifpushinghiswaythroughsomethickbrambles。Thensuddenlyhefeltplanksunderhisfeetand,lookingup,sawtheredlightattheendofthejetty。Hewalkedquitetotheendandstoodleaningagainstthepost,underthelamp,lookingattheroadsteadwheretwovesselsatanchorswayedtheirslenderriggingamongstthestars。Theendofthejetty;andhereinonestepmoretheendoflife;theendofeverything。Betterso。

Whatelsecouldhedo?Nothingevercomesback。Hesawitclearly。Therespectandadmirationofthemall,theoldhabitsandoldaffectionsfinishedabruptlyintheclearperceptionofthecauseofhisdisgrace。Hesawallthis;andforatimehecameoutofhimself,outofhisselfishness——outoftheconstantpreoccupationofhisinterestsandhisdesires——outofthetempleofselfandtheconcentrationofpersonalthought。

Histhoughtsnowwanderedhome。Standinginthetepidstillnessofastarrytropicalnighthefeltthebreathofthebittereastwind,hesawthehighandnarrowfrontsoftallhousesunderthegloomofacloudedsky;andonmuddyquayshesawtheshabby,high-shoulderedfigure——thepatient,fadedfaceofthewearymanearningbreadforthechildrenthatwaitedforhiminadingyhome。Itwasmiserable,miserable。Butitwouldnevercomeback。WhatwasthereincommonbetweenthosethingsandWillemstheclever,Willemsthesuccessful。Hehadcuthimselfadriftfromthathomemanyyearsago。Betterforhimthen。Betterforthemnow。Allthiswasgone,nevertocomebackagain;andsuddenlyheshivered,seeinghimselfaloneinthepresenceofunknownandterribledangers。

Forthefirsttimeinhislifehefeltafraidofthefuture,becausehehadlosthisfaith,thefaithinhisownsuccess。Andhehaddestroyeditfoolishlywithhisownhands!

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