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Mypartialitydoesnotblindme;hecertainlyisnotsohandsomeasWilloughby——butatthesametime,thereissomethingmuchmorepleasinginhiscountenance——

Therewasalwaysasomething,——ifyouremember,——inWilloughby’seyesattimes,whichIdidnotlike。”

ElinorcouldNOTrememberit;——buthermother,withoutwaitingforherassent,continued,“Andhismanners,theColonel’smannersarenotonlymorepleasingtomethanWilloughby’severwere,buttheyareofakindIwellknowtobemoresolidlyattachingtoMarianne。Theirgentleness,theirgenuineattentiontootherpeople,andtheirmanlyunstudiedsimplicityismuchmoreaccordantwithherrealdisposition,thantheliveliness——oftenartificial,andoftenill-timedoftheother。Iamverysuremyself,thathadWilloughbyturnedoutasreallyamiable,ashehasprovedhimselfthecontrary,MariannewouldyetneverhavebeensohappywithHIM,asshewillbewithColonelBrandon。”

Shepaused——Herdaughtercouldnotquiteagreewithher,butherdissentwasnotheard,andthereforegavenooffence。

“AtDelaford,shewillbewithinaneasydistanceofme,“

addedMrs。Dashwood,“evenifIremainatBarton;andinallprobability,——forIhearitisalargevillage,——indeedtherecertainlyMUSTbesomesmallhouseorcottagecloseby,thatwouldsuitusquiteaswellasourpresentsituation。”

PoorElinor!——herewasanewschemeforgettinghertoDelaford!——butherspiritwasstubborn。

“Hisfortunetoo!——foratmytimeoflifeyouknow,everybodycaresaboutTHAT;——andthoughIneitherknownordesiretoknow,whatitreallyis,Iamsureitmustbeagoodone。”

Heretheywereinterruptedbytheentranceofathirdperson,andElinorwithdrewtothinkitalloverinprivate,towishsuccesstoherfriend,andyetinwishingit,tofeelapangforWilloughby。

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CHAPTER46

Marianne’sillness,thoughweakeninginitskind,hadnotbeenlongenoughtomakeherrecoveryslow;

andwithyouth,naturalstrength,andhermother’spresenceinaid,itproceededsosmoothlyastoenablehertoremove,withinfourdaysafterthearrivalofthelatter,intoMrs。Palmer’sdressing-room。Whenthere,atherownparticularrequest,forshewasimpatienttopourforthherthankstohimforfetchinghermother,ColonelBrandonwasinvitedtovisither。

Hisemotiononenteringtheroom,inseeingheralteredlooks,andinreceivingthepalehandwhichsheimmediatelyheldouttohim,wassuch,as,inElinor’sconjecture,mustarisefromsomethingmorethanhisaffectionforMarianne,ortheconsciousnessofitsbeingknowntoothers;

andshesoondiscoveredinhismelancholyeyeandvaryingcomplexionashelookedathersister,theprobablerecurrenceofmanypastscenesofmiserytohismind,broughtbackbythatresemblancebetweenMarianneandElizaalreadyacknowledged,andnowstrengthenedbytheholloweye,thesicklyskin,thepostureofrecliningweakness,andthewarmacknowledgmentofpeculiarobligation。

Mrs。Dashwood,notlesswatchfulofwhatpassedthanherdaughter,butwithamindverydifferentlyinfluenced,andthereforewatchingtoverydifferenteffect,sawnothingintheColonel’sbehaviourbutwhatarosefromthemostsimpleandself-evidentsensations,whileintheactionsandwordsofMarianneshepersuadedherselftothinkthatsomethingmorethangratitudealreadydawned。

Attheendofanotherdayortwo,Mariannegrowingvisiblystrongereverytwelvehours,Mrs。Dashwood,urgedequallybyherownandherdaughter’swishes,begantotalkofremovingtoBarton。OnHERmeasuresdependedthoseofhertwofriends;Mrs。JenningscouldnotquitClevelandduringtheDashwoods’stay;andColonelBrandonwassoonbrought,bytheirunitedrequest,toconsiderhisownabodethereasequallydeterminate,ifnotequallyindispensable。AthisandMrs。Jennings’sunitedrequestinreturn,Mrs。Dashwoodwasprevailedontoaccepttheuseofhiscarriageonherjourneyback,forthebetteraccommodationofhersickchild;andtheColonel,atthejointinvitationofMrs。DashwoodandMrs。Jennings,whoseactivegood-naturemadeherfriendlyandhospitableforotherpeopleaswellasherself,engagedwithpleasuretoredeemitbyavisitatthecottage,inthecourseofafewweeks。

Thedayofseparationanddeparturearrived;

andMarianne,aftertakingsoparticularandlengthenedaleaveofMrs。Jennings,onesoearnestlygrateful,sofullofrespectandkindwishesasseemedduetoherownheartfromasecretacknowledgmentofpastinattention,andbiddingColonelBrandonfarewellwithacordialityofafriend,wascarefullyassistedbyhimintothecarriage,ofwhichheseemedanxiousthatsheshouldengrossatleasthalf。

Mrs。DashwoodandElinorthenfollowed,andtheotherswereleftbythemselves,totalkofthetravellers,andfeeltheirowndullness,tillMrs。Jenningswassummonedtoherchaisetotakecomfortinthegossipofhermaidforthelossofhertwoyoungcompanions;andColonelBrandonimmediatelyafterwardstookhissolitarywaytoDelaford。

TheDashwoodsweretwodaysontheroad,andMarianneboreherjourneyonboth,withoutessentialfatigue。

Everythingthatthemostzealousaffection,themostsolicitouscarecoulddotorenderhercomfortable,wastheofficeofeachwatchfulcompanion,andeachfoundtheirrewardinherbodilyease,andhercalmnessofspirits。ToElinor,theobservationofthelatterwasparticularlygrateful。She,whohadseenherweekafterweeksoconstantlysuffering,oppressedbyanguishofheartwhichshehadneithercouragetospeakof,norfortitudetoconceal,nowsawwithajoy,whichnoothercouldequallyshare,anapparentcomposureofmind,which,inbeingtheresultasshetrustedofseriousreflection,musteventuallyleadhertocontentmentandcheerfulness。

AstheyapproachedBarton,indeed,andenteredonscenesofwhicheveryfieldandeverytreebroughtsomepeculiar,somepainfulrecollection,shegrewsilentandthoughtful,andturningawayherfacefromtheirnotice,satearnestlygazingthroughthewindow。Buthere,Elinorcouldneitherwondernorblame;andwhenshesaw,assheassistedMariannefromthecarriage,thatshehadbeencrying,shesawonlyanemotiontoonaturalinitselftoraiseanythinglesstenderthanpity,andinitsunobtrusivenessentitledtopraise。Inthewholeofhersubsequentmanner,shetracedthedirectionofamindawakenedtoreasonableexertion;fornosoonerhadtheyenteredtheircommonsitting-room,thanMarianneturnedhereyesarounditwithalookofresolutefirmness,asifdeterminedatoncetoaccustomherselftothesightofeveryobjectwithwhichtheremembranceofWilloughbycouldbeconnected——Shesaidlittle,buteverysentenceaimedatcheerfulness,andthoughasighsometimesescapedher,itneverpassedawaywithouttheatonementofasmile。

Afterdinnershewouldtryherpiano-forte。Shewenttoit;

butthemusiconwhichhereyefirstrestedwasanopera,procuredforherbyWilloughby,containingsomeoftheirfavouriteduets,andbearingonitsoutwardleafherownnameinhishand-writing——Thatwouldnotdo——Sheshookherhead,putthemusicaside,andafterrunningoverthekeysforaminute,complainedoffeeblenessinherfingers,andclosedtheinstrumentagain;declaringhoweverwithfirmnessasshedidso,thatsheshouldinfuturepracticemuch。

Thenextmorningproducednoabatementinthesehappysymptoms。Onthecontrary,withamindandbodyalikestrengthenedbyrest,shelookedandspokewithmoregenuinespirit,anticipatingthepleasureofMargaret’sreturn,andtalkingofthedearfamilypartywhichwouldthenberestored,oftheirmutualpursuitsandcheerfulsociety,astheonlyhappinessworthawish。

“Whentheweatherissettled,andIhaverecoveredmystrength,“saidshe,“wewilltakelongwalkstogethereveryday。Wewillwalktothefarmattheedgeofthedown,andseehowthechildrengoon;wewillwalktoSirJohn’snewplantationsatBartonCross,andtheAbbeyland;

andwewilloftengotheoldruinsofthePriory,andtrytotraceitsfoundationsasfaraswearetoldtheyoncereached。Iknowweshallbehappy。Iknowthesummerwillpasshappilyaway。Imeannevertobelaterinrisingthansix,andfromthattimetilldinnerIshalldivideeverymomentbetweenmusicandreading。

Ihaveformedmyplan,andamdeterminedtoenteronacourseofseriousstudy。Ourownlibraryistoowellknowntome,toberesortedtoforanythingbeyondmereamusement。

ButtherearemanyworkswellworthreadingatthePark;

andthereareothersofmoremodernproductionwhichI

knowIcanborrowofColonelBrandon。Byreadingonlysixhoursa-day,Ishallgaininthecourseofatwelve-monthagreatdealofinstructionwhichInowfeelmyselftowant。”

Elinorhonouredherforaplanwhichoriginatedsonoblyasthis;thoughsmilingtoseethesameeagerfancywhichhadbeenleadinghertotheextremeoflanguidindolenceandselfishrepining,nowatworkinintroducingexcessintoaschemeofsuchrationalemploymentandvirtuousself-control。HersmilehoweverchangedtoasighwhensherememberedthatpromisetoWilloughbywasyetunfulfilled,andfearedshehadthattocommunicatewhichmightagainunsettlethemindofMarianne,andruinatleastforatimethisfairprospectofbusytranquillity。Willingthereforetodelaytheevilhour,sheresolvedtowaittillhersister’shealthweremoresecure,beforesheappointedit。

Buttheresolutionwasmadeonlytobebroken。

Mariannehadbeentwoorthreedaysathome,beforetheweatherwasfineenoughforaninvalidlikeherselftoventureout。Butatlastasoft,genialmorningappeared;

suchasmighttemptthedaughter’swishesandthemother’sconfidence;andMarianne,leaningonElinor’sarm,wasauthorisedtowalkaslongasshecouldwithoutfatigue,inthelanebeforethehouse。

Thesisterssetoutatapace,slowasthefeeblenessofMarianneinanexercisehithertountriedsinceherillnessrequired;——andtheyhadadvancedonlysofarbeyondthehouseastoadmitafullviewofthehill,theimportanthillbehind,whenpausingwithhereyesturnedtowardsit,Mariannecalmlysaid,“There,exactlythere,“——pointingwithonehand,“onthatprojectingmound,——thereIfell;andthereI

firstsawWilloughby。”

Hervoicesunkwiththeword,butpresentlyrevivingsheadded,“IamthankfultofindthatIcanlookwithsolittlepainonthespot!——shallweevertalkonthatsubject,Elinor?”——

hesitatinglyitwassaid——“Orwillitbewrong?——Icantalkofitnow,Ihope,asIoughttodo。”——

Elinortenderlyinvitedhertobeopen。

“Asforregret,“saidMarianne,“Ihavedonewiththat,asfarasHEisconcerned。Idonotmeantotalktoyouofwhatmyfeelingshavebeenforhim,butwhattheyareNOW——Atpresent,ifIcouldbesatisfiedononepoint,ifIcouldbeallowedtothinkthathewasnotALWAYS

actingapart,notALWAYSdeceivingme;——butaboveall,ifIcouldbeassuredthatheneverwassoVERYwickedasmyfearshavesometimesfanciedhim,sincethestoryofthatunfortunategirl“——

Shestopt。Elinorjoyfullytreasuredherwordsassheanswered,“Ifyoucouldbeassuredofthat,youthinkyoushouldbeeasy。”

“Yes。Mypeaceofmindisdoublyinvolvedinit;——

fornotonlyisithorribletosuspectaperson,whohasbeenwhatHEhasbeentoME,ofsuchdesigns,——butwhatmustitmakemeappeartomyself?——Whatinasituationlikemine,butamostshamefullyunguardedaffectioncouldexposemeto“——

“Howthen,“askedhersister,“wouldyouaccountforhisbehaviour?”

“Iwouldsupposehim,——Oh,howgladlywouldIsupposehim,onlyfickle,very,veryfickle。”

Elinorsaidnomore。Shewasdebatingwithinherselfontheeligibilityofbeginningherstorydirectly,orpostponingittillMariannewereinstrongerhealth;——

andtheycreptonforafewminutesinsilence。

“Iamnotwishinghimtoomuchgood,“saidMarianneatlastwithasigh,“whenIwishhissecretreflectionsmaybenomoreunpleasantthanmyown。Hewillsufferenoughinthem。”

“Doyoucompareyourconductwithhis?”

“No。Icompareitwithwhatitoughttohavebeen;

Icompareitwithyours。”

“Oursituationshavebornelittleresemblance。”

“Theyhavebornemorethanourconduct——Donot,mydearestElinor,letyourkindnessdefendwhatIknowyourjudgmentmustcensure。Myillnesshasmademethink——

Ithasgivenmeleisureandcalmnessforseriousrecollection。

LongbeforeIwasenoughrecoveredtotalk,Iwasperfectlyabletoreflect。Iconsideredthepast:Isawinmyownbehaviour,sincethebeginningofouracquaintancewithhimlastautumn,nothingbutaseriesofimprudencetowardsmyself,andwantofkindnesstoothers。

Isawthatmyownfeelingshadpreparedmysufferings,andthatmywantoffortitudeunderthemhadalmostledmetothegrave。Myillness,Iwellknew,hadbeenentirelybroughtonbymyselfbysuchnegligenceofmyownhealth,asIhadfeltevenatthetimetobewrong。

HadIdied,——itwouldhavebeenself-destruction。I

didnotknowmydangertillthedangerwasremoved;

butwithsuchfeelingsasthesereflectionsgaveme,Iwonderatmyrecovery,——wonderthattheveryeagernessofmydesiretolive,tohavetimeforatonementtomyGod,andtoyouall,didnotkillmeatonce。HadIdied,——

inwhatpeculiarmiseryshouldIhaveleftyou,mynurse,myfriend,mysister!——You,whohadseenallthefretfulselfishnessofmylatterdays;whohadknownallthemurmuringsofmyheart!——HowshouldIhavelivedinYOUR

remembrance!——Mymothertoo!Howcouldyouhaveconsoledher!——Icannotexpressmyownabhorrenceofmyself。

WheneverIlookedtowardsthepast,Isawsomedutyneglected,orsomefailingindulged。Everybodyseemedinjuredbyme。

Thekindness,theunceasingkindnessofMrs。Jennings,Ihadrepaidwithungratefulcontempt。TotheMiddletons,tothePalmers,theSteeles,toeverycommonacquaintanceeven,Ihadbeeninsolentandunjust;withahearthardenedagainsttheirmerits,andatemperirritatedbytheirveryattention——ToJohn,toFanny,——yes,eventothem,littleastheydeserve,Ihadgivenlessthantheirdue。

Butyou,——youaboveall,abovemymother,hadbeenwrongedbyme。I,andonlyI,knewyourheartanditssorrows;

yettowhatdiditinfluenceme?——nottoanycompassionthatcouldbenefityouormyself——Yourexamplewasbeforeme;buttowhatavail?——WasImoreconsiderateofyouandyourcomfort?,DidIimitateyourforbearance,orlessenyourrestraints,bytakinganypartinthoseofficesofgeneralcomplaisanceorparticulargratitudewhichyouhadhithertobeenlefttodischargealone?——No;——

notlesswhenIknewyoutobeunhappy,thanwhenI

hadbelievedyouatease,didIturnawayfromeveryexertionofdutyorfriendship;scarcelyallowingsorrowtoexistbutwithme,regrettingonlyTHATheartwhichhaddesertedandwrongedme,andleavingyou,fororI

professedanunboundedaffection,tobemiserableformysake。”

Hereceasedtherapidflowofherself-reprovingspirit;

andElinor,impatienttosoothe,thoughtoohonesttoflatter,gaveherinstantlythatpraiseandsupportwhichherfranknessandhercontritionsowelldeserved。

Mariannepressedherhandandreplied,“Youareverygood——Thefuturemustbemyproof。

Ihavelaiddownmyplan,andifIamcapableofadheringtoit——myfeelingsshallbegovernedandmytemperimproved。

Theyshallnolongerworryothers,nortorturemyself。

Ishallnowlivesolelyformyfamily。You,mymother,andMargaret,musthenceforthbealltheworldtome;

youwillsharemyaffectionsentirelybetweenyou。

>Fromyou,frommyhome,Ishallneveragainhavethesmallestincitementtomove;andifIdomixinothersociety,itwillbeonlytoshewthatmyspiritishumbled,myheartamended,andthatIcanpractisethecivilities,thelesserdutiesoflife,withgentlenessandforbearance。

AsforWilloughby——tosaythatIshallsoonorthatIshalleverforgethim,wouldbeidle。Hisremembrancecanbeovercomebynochangeofcircumstancesoropinions。Butitshallberegulated,itshallbecheckedbyreligion,byreason,byconstantemployment。”

Shepaused——andaddedinalowvoice,“IfI

couldbutknowHISheart,everythingwouldbecomeeasy。”

Elinor,whohadnowbeenforsometimereflectingontheproprietyorimproprietyofspeedilyhazardinghernarration,withoutfeelingatallnearerdecisionthanatfirst,heardthis;andperceivingthatasreflectiondidnothing,resolutionmustdoall,soonfoundherselfleadingtothefact。

Shemanagedtherecital,asshehoped,withaddress;

preparedheranxiouslistenerwithcaution;relatedsimplyandhonestlythechiefpointsonwhichWilloughbygroundedhisapology;didjusticetohisrepentance,andsoftenedonlyhisprotestationsofpresentregard。

Mariannesaidnotaword——Shetrembled,hereyeswerefixedontheground,andherlipsbecamewhiterthanevensicknesshadleftthem。Athousandinquiriessprungupfromherheart,butshedarednoturgeone。

Shecaughteverysyllablewithpantingeagerness;herhand,unknowinglytoherself,closelypressedhersister’s,andtearscoveredhercheeks。

Elinor,dreadingherbeingtired,ledhertowardshome;

andtilltheyreachedthedoorofthecottage,easilyconjecturingwhathercuriositymustbethoughnoquestionwassufferedtospeakit,talkedofnothingbutWilloughby,andtheirconversationtogether;

andwascarefullyminuteineveryparticularofspeechandlook,whereminutenesscouldbesafelyindulged。

Assoonastheyenteredthehouse,Mariannewithakissofgratitudeandthesetwowordsjustarticulatethroughhertears,“Tellmama,“withdrewfromhersisterandwalkedslowlyupstairs。Elinorwouldnotattempttodisturbasolitudesoreasonableaswhatshenowsought;

andwithamindanxiouslypre-arrangingitsresult,andaresolutionofrevivingthesubjectagain,shouldMariannefailtodoit,sheturnedintotheparlourtofulfillherpartinginjunction。

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CHAPTER47

Mrs。Dashwooddidnothearunmovedthevindicationofherformerfavourite。Sherejoicedinhisbeingclearedfromsomepartofhisimputedguilt;——shewassorryforhim;——shewishedhimhappy。Butthefeelingsofthepastcouldnotberecalled——Nothingcouldrestorehimwithafaithunbroken——acharacterunblemished,toMarianne。Nothingcoulddoawaytheknowledgeofwhatthelatterhadsufferedthroughhismeans,norremovetheguiltofhisconducttowardsEliza。

Nothingcouldreplacehim,therefore,inherformeresteem,norinjuretheinterestsofColonelBrandon。

HadMrs。Dashwood,likeherdaughter,heardWilloughby’sstoryfromhimself——hadshewitnessedhisdistress,andbeenundertheinfluenceofhiscountenanceandhismanner,itisprobablethathercompassionwouldhavebeengreater。ButitwasneitherinElinor’spower,norinherwish,torousesuchfeelingsinanother,byherretailedexplanation,ashadatfirstbeencalledforthinherself。Reflectionhadgivencalmnesstoherjudgment,andsoberedherownopinionofWilloughby’sdeserts;——

shewished,therefore,todeclareonlythesimpletruth,andlayopensuchfactsaswerereallyduetohischaracter,withoutanyembellishmentoftendernesstoleadthefancyastray。

Intheevening,whentheywereallthreetogether,Mariannebeganvoluntarilytospeakofhimagain;——

butthatitwasnotwithoutaneffort,therestless,unquietthoughtfulnessinwhichshehadbeenforsometimepreviouslysitting——herrisingcolour,asshespoke,——

andherunsteadyvoice,plainlyshewed。

“Iwishtoassureyouboth,“saidshe,“thatIseeeverything——asyoucandesiremetodo。”

Mrs。Dashwoodwouldhaveinterruptedherinstantlywithsoothingtenderness,hadnotElinor,whoreallywishedtohearhersister’sunbiasedopinion,byaneagersign,engagedhersilence。Marianneslowlycontinued——

“Itisagreatrelieftome——whatElinortoldmethismorning——IhavenowheardexactlywhatI

wishedtohear。”——Forsomemomentshervoicewaslost;

butrecoveringherself,sheadded,andwithgreatercalmnessthanbefore——“Iamnowperfectlysatisfied,Iwishfornochange。Inevercouldhavebeenhappywithhim,afterknowing,assoonerorlaterImusthaveknown,allthis——Ishouldhavehadnoconfidence,noesteem。Nothingcouldhavedoneitawaytomyfeelings。”

“Iknowit——Iknowit,“criedhermother。

“Happywithamanoflibertinepractices!——Withonewhosoinjuredthepeaceofthedearestofourfriends,andthebestofmen!——No——myMariannehasnotahearttobemadehappywithsuchaman!——Herconscience,hersensitivecounscience,wouldhavefeltallthattheconscienceofherhusbandoughttohavefelt。”

Mariannesighed,andrepeated,“Iwishfornochange。”

“Youconsiderthematter,“saidElinor,“exactlyasagoodmindandasoundunderstandingmustconsiderit;

andIdaresayyouperceive,aswellasmyself,notonlyinthis,butinmanyothercircumstances,reasonenoughtobeconvincedthatyourmarriagemusthaveinvolvedyouinmanycertaintroublesanddisappointments,inwhichyouwouldhavebeenpoorlysupportedbyanaffection,onhisside,muchlesscertain。Hadyoumarried,youmusthavebeenalwayspoor。Hisexpensivenessisacknowledgedevenbyhimself,andhiswholeconductdeclaresthatself-denialisawordhardlyunderstoodbyhim。

Hisdemandsandyourinexperiencetogether,onasmall,verysmallincome,musthavebroughtondistresseswhichwouldnotbetheLESSgrievoustoyou,fromhavingbeenentirelyunknownandunthoughtofbefore。YOURsenseofhonourandhonestywouldhaveledyou,Iknow,whenawareofyoursituation,toattemptalltheeconomythatwouldappeartoyoupossible:and,perhaps,aslongasyourfrugalityretrenchedonlyonyourowncomfort,youmighthavebeensufferedtopracticeit,butbeyondthat——

andhowlittlecouldtheutmostofyoursinglemanagementdotostoptheruinwhichhadbegunbeforeyourmarriage?——

BeyondTHAT,hadyouendeavoured,howeverreasonably,toabridgeHISenjoyments,isitnottobefeared,thatinsteadofprevailingonfeelingssoselfishtoconsenttoit,youwouldhavelessenedyourowninfluenceonhisheart,andmadehimregrettheconnectionwhichhadinvolvedhiminsuchdifficulties?”

Marianne’slipsquivered,andsherepeatedtheword“Selfish?”inatonethatimplied——“doyoureallythinkhimselfish?”

“Thewholeofhisbehaviour,“repliedElinor,“fromthebeginningtotheendoftheaffair,hasbeengroundedonselfishness。Itwasselfishnesswhichfirstmadehimsportwithyouraffections;whichafterwards,whenhisownwereengaged,madehimdelaytheconfessionofit,andwhichfinallycarriedhimfromBarton。

Hisownenjoyment,orhisownease,was,ineveryparticular,hisrulingprinciple。”

“Itisverytrue。MYhappinessneverwashisobject。”

“Atpresent,“continuedElinor,“heregretswhathehasdone。Andwhydoesheregretit?——Becausehefindsithasnotansweredtowardshimself。Ithasnotmadehimhappy。Hiscircumstancesarenowunembarrassed——hesuffersfromnoevilofthatkind;andhethinksonlythathehasmarriedawomanofalessamiabletemperthanyourself。Butdoesitfollowthathadhemarriedyou,hewouldhavebeenhappy?——Theinconvenienceswouldhavebeendifferent。Hewouldthenhavesufferedunderthepecuniarydistresseswhich,becausetheyareremoved,henowreckonsasnothing。Hewouldhavehadawifeofwhosetemperhecouldmakenocomplaint,buthewouldhavebeenalwaysnecessitous——alwayspoor;andprobablywouldsoonhavelearnedtoranktheinnumerablecomfortsofaclearestateandgoodincomeasoffarmoreimportance,eventodomestichappiness,thanthemeretemperofawife。”

“Ihavenotadoubtofit,“saidMarianne;

“andI

havenothingtoregret——nothingbutmyownfolly。”

“Rathersayyourmother’simprudence,mychild,“

saidMrs。Dashwood;“SHEmustbeanswerable。”

Mariannewouldnotletherproceed;——andElinor,satisfiedthateachfelttheirownerror,wishedtoavoidanysurveyofthepastthatmightweakenhersister’sspirits;she,therefore,pursuingthefirstsubject,immediatelycontinued,“Oneobservationmay,Ithink,befairlydrawnfromthewholeofthestory——thatallWilloughby’sdifficultieshavearisenfromthefirstoffenceagainstvirtue,inhisbehaviourtoElizaWilliams。Thatcrimehasbeentheoriginofeverylesserone,andofallhispresentdiscontents。”

Marianneassentedmostfeelinglytotheremark;

andhermotherwasledbyittoanenumerationofColonelBrandon’sinjuriesandmerits,warmasfriendshipanddesigncouldunitedlydictate。Herdaughterdidnotlook,however,asifmuchofitwereheardbyher。

Elinor,accordingtoherexpectation,sawonthetwoorthreefollowingdays,thatMariannedidnotcontinuetogainstrengthasshehaddone;butwhileherresolutionwasunsubdued,andshestilltriedtoappearcheerfulandeasy,hersistercouldsafelytrusttotheeffectoftimeuponherhealth。

Margaretreturned,andthefamilywereagainallrestoredtoeachother,againquietlysettledatthecottage;

andifnotpursuingtheirusualstudieswithquitesomuchvigouraswhentheyfirstcametoBarton,atleastplanningavigorousprosecutionoftheminfuture。

ElinorgrewimpatientforsometidingsofEdward。

ShehadheardnothingofhimsinceherleavingLondon,nothingnewofhisplans,nothingcertainevenofhispresentabode。Somelettershadpassedbetweenherandherbrother,inconsequenceofMarianne’sillness;

andinthefirstofJohn’s,therehadbeenthissentence:——

“WeknownothingofourunfortunateEdward,andcanmakenoenquiriesonsoprohibitedasubject,butconcludehimtobestillatOxford;“whichwasalltheintelligenceofEdwardaffordedherbythecorrespondence,forhisnamewasnotevenmentionedinanyofthesucceedingletters。

Shewasnotdoomed,however,tobelonginignoranceofhismeasures。

Theirman-servanthadbeensentonemorningtoExeteronbusiness;andwhen,ashewaitedattable,hehadsatisfiedtheinquiriesofhismistressastotheeventofhiserrand,thiswashisvoluntarycommunication——

“Isupposeyouknow,ma’am,thatMr。Ferrarsismarried。”

Mariannegaveaviolentstart,fixedhereyesuponElinor,sawherturningpale,andfellbackinherchairinhysterics。Mrs。Dashwood,whoseeyes,assheansweredtheservant’sinquiry,hadintuitivelytakenthesamedirection,wasshockedtoperceivebyElinor’scountenancehowmuchshereallysuffered,andamomentafterwards,alikedistressedbyMarianne’ssituation,knewnotonwhichchildtobestowherprincipalattention。

Theservant,whosawonlythatMissMariannewastakenill,hadsenseenoughtocalloneofthemaids,who,withMrs。Dashwood’sassistance,supportedherintotheotherroom。Bythattime,Mariannewasratherbetter,andhermotherleavinghertothecareofMargaretandthemaid,returnedtoElinor,who,thoughstillmuchdisordered,hadsofarrecoveredtheuseofherreasonandvoiceastobejustbeginninganinquiryofThomas,astothesourceofhisintelligence。Mrs。Dashwoodimmediatelytookallthattroubleonherself;andElinorhadthebenefitoftheinformationwithouttheexertionofseekingit。

“WhotoldyouthatMr。Ferrarswasmarried,Thomas?”

“IseeMr。Ferrarsmyself,ma’am,thismorninginExeter,andhisladytoo,MissSteeleaswas。TheywasstoppinginachaiseatthedooroftheNewLondonInn,asIwenttherewithamessagefromSallyattheParktoherbrother,whoisoneofthepost-boys。IhappenedtolookupasIwentbythechaise,andsoIseedirectlyitwastheyoungestMissSteele;soItookoffmyhat,andsheknewmeandcalledtome,andinquiredafteryou,ma’am,andtheyoungladies,especiallyMissMarianne,andbidmeIshouldgivehercomplimentsandMr。Ferrars’s,theirbestcomplimentsandservice,andhowsorrytheywastheyhadnottimetocomeonandseeyou,buttheywasinagreathurrytogoforwards,fortheywasgoingfurtherdownforalittlewhile,buthowsever,whentheycomeback,they’dmakesuretocomeandseeyou。”

“Butdidshetellyoushewasmarried,Thomas?”

“Yes,ma’am。Shesmiled,andsaidhowshehadchangedhernamesinceshewasintheseparts。

Shewasalwaysaveryaffableandfree-spokenyounglady,andverycivilbehaved。So,Imadefreetowishherjoy。”

“WasMr。Ferrarsinthecarriagewithher?”

“Yes,ma’am,Ijustseehimleaningbackinit,buthedidnotlookup;——heneverwasagentlemanmuchfortalking。”

Elinor’sheartcouldeasilyaccountforhisnotputtinghimselfforward;andMrs。Dashwoodprobablyfoundthesameexplanation。

“Wastherenooneelseinthecarriage?”

“No,ma’am,onlytheytwo。”

“Doyouknowwheretheycamefrom?”

“Theycomestraightfromtown,asMissLucy——

Mrs。Ferrarstoldme。”

“Andaretheygoingfartherwestward?”

“Yes,ma’am——butnottobidelong。Theywillsoonbebackagain,andthenthey’dbesureandcallhere。”

Mrs。Dashwoodnowlookedatherdaughter;

butElinorknewbetterthantoexpectthem。

SherecognisedthewholeofLucyinthemessage,andwasveryconfidentthatEdwardwouldnevercomenearthem。

Sheobservedinalowvoice,tohermother,thattheywereprobablygoingdowntoMr。Pratt’s,nearPlymouth。

Thomas’sintelligenceseemedover。Elinorlookedasifshewishedtohearmore。

“Didyouseethemoff,beforeyoucameaway?”

“No,ma’am——thehorseswerejustcomingout,butI

couldnotbideanylonger;Iwasafraidofbeinglate。”

“DidMrs。Ferrarslookwell?”

“Yes,ma’am,shesaidhowshewasverywell;

andtomymindshewasalwaysaveryhandsomeyounglady——andsheseemedvastlycontented。”

Mrs。Dashwoodcouldthinkofnootherquestion,andThomasandthetablecloth,nowalikeneedless,weresoonafterwardsdismissed。Mariannehadalreadysenttosay,thatsheshouldeatnothingmore。Mrs。Dashwood’sandElinor’sappetiteswereequallylost,andMargaretmightthinkherselfverywelloff,thatwithsomuchuneasinessasbothhersistershadlatelyexperienced,somuchreasonastheyhadoftenhadtobecarelessoftheirmeals,shehadneverbeenobligedtogowithoutherdinnerbefore。

Whenthedessertandthewinewerearranged,andMrs。DashwoodandElinorwereleftbythemselves,theyremainedlongtogetherinasimilarityofthoughtfulnessandsilence。Mrs。Dashwoodfearedtohazardanyremark,andventurednottoofferconsolation。ShenowfoundthatshehaderredinrelyingonElinor’srepresentationofherself;andjustlyconcludedthateverythinghadbeenexpresslysoftenedatthetime,tospareherfromanincreaseofunhappiness,sufferingasshethenhadsufferedforMarianne。Shefoundthatshehadbeenmisledbythecareful,theconsiderateattentionofherdaughter,tothinktheattachment,whichonceshehadsowellunderstood,muchslighterinreality,thanshehadbeenwonttobelieve,orthanitwasnowprovedtobe。Shefearedthatunderthispersuasionshehadbeenunjust,inattentive,nay,almostunkind,toherElinor;——

thatMarianne’saffliction,becausemoreacknowledged,moreimmediatelybeforeher,hadtoomuchengrossedhertenderness,andledherawaytoforgetthatinElinorshemighthaveadaughtersufferingalmostasmuch,certainlywithlessself-provocation,andgreaterfortitude。

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Elinornowfoundthedifferencebetweentheexpectationofanunpleasantevent,howevercertainthemindmaybetoldtoconsiderit,andcertaintyitself。Shenowfound,thatinspiteofherself,shehadalwaysadmittedahope,whileEdwardremainedsingle,thatsomethingwouldoccurtopreventhismarryingLucy;thatsomeresolutionofhisown,somemediationoffriends,orsomemoreeligibleopportunityofestablishmentforthelady,wouldarisetoassistthehappinessofall。Buthewasnowmarried;

andshecondemnedherheartforthelurkingflattery,whichsomuchheightenedthepainoftheintelligence。

Thatheshouldbemarriedsoon,before(assheimagined)

hecouldbeinorders,andconsequentlybeforehecouldbeinpossessionoftheliving,surprisedheralittleatfirst。ButshesoonsawhowlikelyitwasthatLucy,inherself-providentcare,inherhastetosecurehim,shouldoverlookeverythingbuttheriskofdelay。

Theyweremarried,marriedintown,andnowhasteningdowntoheruncle’s。WhathadEdwardfeltonbeingwithinfourmilesfromBarton,onseeinghermother’sservant,onhearingLucy’smessage!

Theywouldsoon,shesupposed,besettledatDelaford——Delaford,——thatplaceinwhichsomuchconspiredtogiveheraninterest;whichshewishedtobeacquaintedwith,andyetdesiredtoavoid。

Shesawtheminaninstantintheirparsonage-house;sawinLucy,theactive,contrivingmanager,unitingatonceadesireofsmartappearancewiththeutmostfrugality,andashamedtobesuspectedofhalfhereconomicalpractices;——

pursuingherowninterestineverythought,courtingthefavourofColonelBrandon,ofMrs。Jennings,andofeverywealthyfriend。InEdward——sheknewnotwhatshesaw,norwhatshewishedtosee;——happyorunhappy,——nothingpleasedher;sheturnedawayherheadfromeverysketchofhim。

ElinorflatteredherselfthatsomeoneoftheirconnectionsinLondonwouldwritetothemtoannouncetheevent,andgivefartherparticulars,——butdayafterdaypassedoff,andbroughtnoletter,notidings。

Thoughuncertainthatanyoneweretoblame,shefoundfaultwitheveryabsentfriend。Theywereallthoughtlessorindolent。

“WhendoyouwritetoColonelBrandon,ma’am?”

wasaninquirywhichsprungfromtheimpatienceofhermindtohavesomethinggoingon。

“Iwrotetohim,mylove,lastweek,andratherexpecttosee,thantohearfromhimagain。Iearnestlypressedhiscomingtous,andshouldnotbesurprisedtoseehimwalkintodayortomorrow,oranyday。”

Thiswasgainingsomething,somethingtolookforwardto。

ColonelBrandonmusthavesomeinformationtogive。

Scarcelyhadshesodeterminedit,whenthefigureofamanonhorsebackdrewhereyestothewindow。

Hestoptattheirgate。Itwasagentleman,itwasColonelBrandonhimself。Nowshecouldhearmore;

andshetrembledinexpectationofit。But——itwasNOTColonelBrandon——neitherhisair——norhisheight。

Wereitpossible,shemustsayitmustbeEdward。

Shelookedagain。Hehadjustdismounted;——shecouldnotbemistaken,——itWASEdward。Shemovedawayandsatdown。

“HecomesfromMr。Pratt’spurposelytoseeus。IWILLbecalm;IWILLbemistressofmyself。”

Inamomentsheperceivedthattheotherswerelikewiseawareofthemistake。ShesawhermotherandMariannechangecolour;sawthemlookatherself,andwhisperafewsentencestoeachother。Shewouldhavegiventheworldtobeabletospeak——andtomakethemunderstandthatshehopednocoolness,noslight,wouldappearintheirbehaviourtohim;——butshehadnoutterance,andwasobligedtoleavealltotheirowndiscretion。

Notasyllablepassedaloud。Theyallwaitedinsilencefortheappearanceoftheirvisitor。

Hisfootstepswereheardalongthegravelpath;inamomenthewasinthepassage,andinanotherhewasbeforethem。

Hiscountenance,asheenteredtheroom,wasnottoohappy,evenforElinor。Hiscomplexionwaswhitewithagitation,andhelookedasiffearfulofhisreception,andconsciousthathemeritednokindone。

Mrs。Dashwood,however,conforming,asshetrusted,tothewishesofthatdaughter,bywhomshethenmeantinthewarmthofherhearttobeguidedineverything,metwithalookofforcedcomplacency,gavehimherhand,andwishedhimjoy。

Hecoloured,andstammeredoutanunintelligiblereply。

Elinor’slipshadmovedwithhermother’s,and,whenthemomentofactionwasover,shewishedthatshehadshakenhandswithhimtoo。Butitwasthentoolate,andwithacountenancemeaningtobeopen,shesatdownagainandtalkedoftheweather。

Mariannehadretreatedasmuchaspossibleoutofsight,toconcealherdistress;andMargaret,understandingsomepart,butnotthewholeofthecase,thoughtitincumbentonhertobedignified,andthereforetookaseatasfarfromhimasshecould,andmaintainedastrictsilence。

WhenElinorhadceasedtorejoiceinthedrynessoftheseason,averyawfulpausetookplace。ItwasputanendtobyMrs。Dashwood,whofeltobligedtohopethathehadleftMrs。Ferrarsverywell。Inahurriedmanner,herepliedintheaffirmative。

Anotherpause。

Elinorresolvingtoexertherself,thoughfearingthesoundofherownvoice,nowsaid,“IsMrs。FerrarsatLongstaple?”

“AtLongstaple!”hereplied,withanairofsurprise——

“No,mymotherisintown。”

“Imeant,“saidElinor,takingupsomeworkfromthetable,“toinquireforMrs。EDWARDFerrars。”

Shedarednotlookup;——buthermotherandMariannebothturnedtheireyesonhim。Hecoloured,seemedperplexed,lookeddoubtingly,and,aftersomehesitation,said,——

“Perhapsyoumean——mybrother——youmeanMrs——Mrs。

ROBERTFerrars。”

“Mrs。RobertFerrars!”——wasrepeatedbyMarianneandhermotherinanaccentoftheutmostamazement;——andthoughElinorcouldnotspeak,evenHEReyeswerefixedonhimwiththesameimpatientwonder。Herosefromhisseat,andwalkedtothewindow,apparentlyfromnotknowingwhattodo;tookupapairofscissorsthatlaythere,andwhilespoilingboththemandtheirsheathbycuttingthelattertopiecesashespoke,said,inahurriedvoice,“Perhapsyoudonotknow——youmaynothaveheardthatmybrotherislatelymarriedto——totheyoungest——toMissLucySteele。”

HiswordswereechoedwithunspeakableastonishmentbyallbutElinor,whosatwithherheadleaningoverherwork,inastateofsuchagitationasmadeherhardlyknowwhereshewas。

“Yes,“saidhe,“theyweremarriedlastweek,andarenowatDawlish。”

Elinorcouldsititnolonger。Shealmostranoutoftheroom,andassoonasthedoorwasclosed,burstintotearsofjoy,whichatfirstshethoughtwouldnevercease。Edward,whohadtillthenlookedanywhere,ratherthanather,sawherhurryaway,andperhapssaw——

orevenheard,heremotion;forimmediatelyafterwardshefellintoareverie,whichnoremarks,noinquiries,noaffectionateaddressofMrs。Dashwoodcouldpenetrate,andatlast,withoutsayingaword,quittedtheroom,andwalkedouttowardsthevillage——leavingtheothersinthegreatestastonishmentandperplexityonachangeinhissituation,sowonderfulandsosudden;——aperplexitywhichtheyhadnomeansoflesseningbutbytheirownconjectures。

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Unaccountable,however,asthecircumstancesofhisreleasemightappeartothewholefamily,itwascertainthatEdwardwasfree;andtowhatpurposethatfreedomwouldbeemployedwaseasilypre-determinedbyall;——forafterexperiencingtheblessingsofONEimprudentengagement,contractedwithouthismother’sconsent,ashehadalreadydoneformorethanfouryears,nothinglesscouldbeexpectedofhiminthefailureofTHAT,thantheimmediatecontractionofanother。

HiserrandatBarton,infact,wasasimpleone。

ItwasonlytoaskElinortomarryhim;——andconsideringthathewasnotaltogetherinexperiencedinsuchaquestion,itmightbestrangethatheshouldfeelsouncomfortableinthepresentcaseashereallydid,somuchinneedofencouragementandfreshair。

Howsoonhehadwalkedhimselfintotheproperresolution,however,howsoonanopportunityofexercisingitoccurred,inwhatmannerheexpressedhimself,andhowhewasreceived,neednotbeparticularlytold。

Thisonlyneedbesaid;——thatwhentheyallsatdowntotableatfouro’clock,aboutthreehoursafterhisarrival,hehadsecuredhislady,engagedhermother’sconsent,andwasnotonlyintherapturousprofessionofthelover,but,intherealityofreasonandtruth,oneofthehappiestofmen。Hissituationindeedwasmorethancommonlyjoyful。Hehadmorethantheordinarytriumphofacceptedlovetoswellhisheart,andraisehisspirits。Hewasreleasedwithoutanyreproachtohimself,fromanentanglementwhichhadlongformedhismisery,fromawomanwhomhehadlongceasedtolove;——

andelevatedatoncetothatsecuritywithanother,whichhemusthavethoughtofalmostwithdespair,assoonashehadlearnttoconsideritwithdesire。

Hewasbrought,notfromdoubtorsuspense,butfrommiserytohappiness;——andthechangewasopenlyspokeninsuchagenuine,flowing,gratefulcheerfulness,ashisfriendshadneverwitnessedinhimbefore。

HisheartwasnowopentoElinor,allitsweaknesses,allitserrorsconfessed,andhisfirstboyishattachmenttoLucytreatedwithallthephilosophicdignityoftwenty-four。

“Itwasafoolish,idleinclinationonmyside,“

saidhe,“theconsequenceofignoranceoftheworld——

andwantofemployment。HadmybrothergivenmesomeactiveprofessionwhenIwasremovedateighteenfromthecareofMr。Pratt,Ithink——nay,Iamsure,itwouldneverhavehappened;forthoughIleftLongstaplewithwhatIthought,atthetime,amostunconquerablepreferenceforhisniece,yethadIthenhadanypursuit,anyobjecttoengagemytimeandkeepmeatadistancefromherforafewmonths,Ishouldverysoonhaveoutgrownthefanciedattachment,especiallybymixingmorewiththeworld,asinsuchcaseImusthavedone。

Butinsteadofhavinganythingtodo,insteadofhavinganyprofessionchosenforme,orbeingallowedtochuseanymyself,Ireturnedhometobecompletelyidle;andforthefirsttwelvemonthafterwardsIhadnoteventhenominalemployment,whichbelongingtotheuniversitywouldhavegivenme;

forIwasnotenteredatOxfordtillIwasnineteen。

Ihadthereforenothingintheworldtodo,buttofancymyselfinlove;andasmymotherdidnotmakemyhomeineveryrespectcomfortable,asIhadnofriend,nocompanioninmybrother,anddislikednewacquaintance,itwasnotunnaturalformetobeveryoftenatLongstaple,whereIalwaysfeltmyselfathome,andwasalwayssureofawelcome;andaccordinglyIspentthegreatestpartofmytimetherefromeighteentonineteen:Lucyappearedeverythingthatwasamiableandobliging。Shewasprettytoo——atleastIthoughtsoTHEN;andIhadseensolittleofotherwomen,thatIcouldmakenocomparisons,andseenodefects。Consideringeverything,therefore,Ihope,foolishasourengagementwas,foolishasithassinceineverywaybeenproved,itwasnotatthetimeanunnaturaloraninexcusablepieceoffolly。”

ThechangewhichafewhourshadwroughtinthemindsandthehappinessoftheDashwoods,wassuch——sogreat——aspromisedthemall,thesatisfactionofasleeplessnight。

Mrs。Dashwood,toohappytobecomfortable,knewnothowtoloveEdward,norpraiseElinorenough,howtobeenoughthankfulforhisreleasewithoutwoundinghisdelicacy,norhowatoncetogivethemleisureforunrestrainedconversationtogether,andyetenjoy,asshewished,thesightandsocietyofboth。

MariannecouldspeakHERhappinessonlybytears。

Comparisonswouldoccur——regretswouldarise;——andherjoy,thoughsincereasherloveforhersister,wasofakindtogiveherneitherspiritsnorlanguage。

ButElinor——howareHERfeelingstobedescribed?——FromthemomentoflearningthatLucywasmarriedtoanother,thatEdwardwasfree,tothemomentofhisjustifyingthehopeswhichhadsoinstantlyfollowed,shewaseverythingbyturnsbuttranquil。Butwhenthesecondmomenthadpassed,whenshefoundeverydoubt,everysolicituderemoved,comparedhersituationwithwhatsolatelyithadbeen,——sawhimhonourablyreleasedfromhisformerengagement,sawhiminstantlyprofitingbytherelease,toaddressherselfanddeclareanaffectionastender,asconstantasshehadeversupposedittobe,——shewasoppressed,shewasovercomebyherownfelicity;——

andhappilydisposedasisthehumanmindtobeeasilyfamiliarizedwithanychangeforthebetter,itrequiredseveralhourstogivesedatenesstoherspirits,oranydegreeoftranquillitytoherheart。

Edwardwasnowfixedatthecottageatleastforaweek;——forwhateverotherclaimsmightbemadeonhim,itwasimpossiblethatlessthanaweekshouldbegivenuptotheenjoymentofElinor’scompany,orsufficetosayhalfthatwastobesaidofthepast,thepresent,andthefuture;——forthoughaveryfewhoursspentinthehardlaborofincessanttalkingwilldespatchmoresubjectsthancanreallybeincommonbetweenanytworationalcreatures,yetwithloversitisdifferent。

BetweenTHEMnosubjectisfinished,nocommunicationisevenmade,tillithasbeenmadeatleasttwentytimesover。

Lucy’smarriage,theunceasingandreasonablewonderamongthemall,formedofcourseoneoftheearliestdiscussionsofthelovers;——andElinor’sparticularknowledgeofeachpartymadeitappeartoherineveryview,asoneofthemostextraordinaryandunaccountablecircumstancesshehadeverheard。Howtheycouldbethrowntogether,andbywhatattractionRobertcouldbedrawnontomarryagirl,ofwhosebeautyshehadherselfheardhimspeakwithoutanyadmiration,——agirltooalreadyengagedtohisbrother,andonwhoseaccountthatbrotherhadbeenthrownoffbyhisfamily——itwasbeyondhercomprehensiontomakeout。Toherownheartitwasadelightfulaffair,toherimaginationitwasevenaridiculousone,buttoherreason,herjudgment,itwascompletelyapuzzle。

Edwardcouldonlyattemptanexplanationbysupposing,that,perhaps,atfirstaccidentallymeeting,thevanityoftheonehadbeensoworkedonbytheflatteryoftheother,astoleadbydegreestoalltherest。

ElinorrememberedwhatRoberthadtoldherinHarleyStreet,ofhisopinionofwhathisownmediationinhisbrother’saffairsmighthavedone,ifappliedtointime。

SherepeatedittoEdward。

“THATwasexactlylikeRobert,“——washisimmediateobservation——“AndTHAT,“hepresentlyadded,“mightperhapsbeinHISheadwhentheacquaintancebetweenthemfirstbegan。AndLucyperhapsatfirstmightthinkonlyofprocuringhisgoodofficesinmyfavour。

Otherdesignsmightafterwardarise。”

Howlongithadbeencarryingonbetweenthem,however,hewasequallyatalosswithherselftomakeout;

foratOxford,wherehehadremainedforchoiceeversincehisquittingLondon,hehadhadnomeansofhearingofherbutfromherself,andherletterstotheverylastwereneitherlessfrequent,norlessaffectionatethanusual。

Notthesmallestsuspicion,therefore,hadeveroccurredtopreparehimforwhatfollowed;——andwhenatlastitburstonhiminaletterfromLucyherself,hehadbeenforsometime,hebelieved,halfstupifiedbetweenthewonder,thehorror,andthejoyofsuchadeliverance。

HeputtheletterintoElinor’shands。

“DEARSIR,“BeingverysureIhavelonglostyouraffections,Ihavethoughtmyselfatlibertytobestowmyownonanother,andhavenodoubtofbeingashappywithhimasIonceusedtothinkImightbewithyou;

butIscorntoacceptahandwhiletheheartwasanother’s。Sincerelywishyouhappyinyourchoice,anditshallnotbemyfaultifwearenotalwaysgoodfriends,asournearrelationshipnowmakesproper。IcansafelysayIoweyounoill-will,andamsureyouwillbetoogeneroustodousanyilloffices。Yourbrotherhasgainedmyaffectionsentirely,andaswecouldnotlivewithoutoneanother,wearejustreturnedfromthealtar,andarenowonourwaytoDawlishforafewweeks,whichplaceyourdearbrotherhasgreatcuriositytosee,butthoughtIwouldfirsttroubleyouwiththesefewlines,andshallalwaysremain,“Yoursincerewell-wisher,friend,andsister,“LUCYFERRARS。

“Ihaveburntallyourletters,andwillreturnyourpicturethefirstopportunity。Pleasetodestroymyscrawls——buttheringwithmyhairyouareverywelcometokeep。”

Elinorreadandreturneditwithoutanycomment。

“Iwillnotaskyouropinionofitasacomposition,“

saidEdward——“ForworldswouldnotIhavehadaletterofhersseenbyYOUinformerdays——Inasisteritisbadenough,butinawife!——howIhaveblushedoverthepagesofherwriting!——andIbelieveImaysaythatsincethefirsthalfyearofourfoolish——business——thisistheonlyletterIeverreceivedfromher,ofwhichthesubstancemademeanyamendsforthedefectofthestyle。”

“Howeveritmayhavecomeabout,“saidElinor,afterapause,——“theyarecertainlymarried。Andyourmotherhasbroughtonherselfamostappropriatepunishment。

TheindependenceshesettledonRobert,throughresentmentagainstyou,hasputitinhispowertomakehisownchoice;

andshehasactuallybeenbribingonesonwithathousanda-year,todotheverydeedwhichshedisinheritedtheotherforintendingtodo。Shewillhardlybelesshurt,Isuppose,byRobert’smarryingLucy,thanshewouldhavebeenbyyourmarryingher。”

“Shewillbemorehurtbyit,forRobertalwayswasherfavourite——Shewillbemorehurtbyit,andonthesameprinciplewillforgivehimmuchsooner。”

Inwhatstatetheaffairstoodatpresentbetweenthem,Edwardknewnot,fornocommunicationwithanyofhisfamilyhadyetbeenattemptedbyhim。HehadquittedOxfordwithinfourandtwentyhoursafterLucy’sletterarrived,andwithonlyoneobjectbeforehim,thenearestroadtoBarton,hadhadnoleisuretoformanyschemeofconduct,withwhichthatroaddidnotholdthemostintimateconnection。

HecoulddonothingtillhewereassuredofhisfatewithMissDashwood;andbyhisrapidityinseekingTHATfate,itistobesupposed,inspiteofthejealousywithwhichhehadoncethoughtofColonelBrandon,inspiteofthemodestywithwhichheratedhisowndeserts,andthepolitenesswithwhichhetalkedofhisdoubts,hedidnot,uponthewhole,expectaverycruelreception。

Itwashisbusiness,however,tosaythatheDID,andhesaiditveryprettily。Whathemightsayonthesubjectatwelvemonthafter,mustbereferredtotheimaginationofhusbandsandwives。

ThatLucyhadcertainlymeanttodeceive,togooffwithaflourishofmaliceagainsthiminhermessagebyThomas,wasperfectlycleartoElinor;andEdwardhimself,nowthoroughlyenlightenedonhercharacter,hadnoscrupleinbelievinghercapableoftheutmostmeannessofwantonill-nature。Thoughhiseyeshadbeenlongopened,evenbeforehisacquaintancewithElinorbegan,toherignoranceandawantofliberalityinsomeofheropinions——

theyhadbeenequallyimputed,byhim,toherwantofeducation;andtillherlastletterreachedhim,hehadalwaysbelievedhertobeawell-disposed,good-heartedgirl,andthoroughlyattachedtohimself。

Nothingbutsuchapersuasioncouldhavepreventedhisputtinganendtoanengagement,which,longbeforethediscoveryofitlaidhimopentohismother’sanger,hadbeenacontinualsourceofdisquietandregrettohim。

“Ithoughtitmyduty,“saidhe,“independentofmyfeelings,togivehertheoptionofcontinuingtheengagementornot,whenIwasrenouncedbymymother,andstoodtoallappearancewithoutafriendintheworldtoassistme。

Insuchasituationasthat,wherethereseemednothingtotempttheavariceorthevanityofanylivingcreature,howcouldIsuppose,whenshesoearnestly,sowarmlyinsistedonsharingmyfate,whateveritmightbe,thatanythingbutthemostdisinterestedaffectionwasherinducement?

Andevennow,Icannotcomprehendonwhatmotivesheacted,orwhatfanciedadvantageitcouldbetoher,tobefetteredtoamanforwhomshehadnotthesmallestregard,andwhohadonlytwothousandpoundsintheworld。

ShecouldnotforeseethatColonelBrandonwouldgivemealiving。”

“No;butshemightsupposethatsomethingwouldoccurinyourfavour;thatyourownfamilymightintimerelent。

Andatanyrate,shelostnothingbycontinuingtheengagement,forshehasprovedthatitfetteredneitherherinclinationnorheractions。Theconnectionwascertainlyarespectableone,andprobablygainedherconsiderationamongherfriends;and,ifnothingmoreadvantageousoccurred,itwouldbebetterforhertomarryYOUthanbesingle。”

Edwardwas,ofcourse,immediatelyconvincedthatnothingcouldhavebeenmorenaturalthanLucy’sconduct,normoreself-evidentthanthemotiveofit。

Elinorscoldedhim,harshlyasladiesalwaysscoldtheimprudencewhichcomplimentsthemselves,forhavingspentsomuchtimewiththematNorland,whenhemusthavefelthisowninconstancy。

“Yourbehaviourwascertainlyverywrong,“

saidshe;

“because——tosaynothingofmyownconviction,ourrelationswereallledawaybyittofancyandexpectWHAT,asyouwereTHENsituated,couldneverbe。”

Hecouldonlypleadanignoranceofhisownheart,andamistakenconfidenceintheforceofhisengagement。

“Iwassimpleenoughtothink,thatbecausemyFAITH

wasplightedtoanother,therecouldbenodangerinmybeingwithyou;andthattheconsciousnessofmyengagementwastokeepmyheartassafeandsacredasmyhonour。IfeltthatIadmiredyou,butItoldmyselfitwasonlyfriendship;

andtillIbegantomakecomparisonsbetweenyourselfandLucy,IdidnotknowhowfarIwasgot。Afterthat,Isuppose,IWASwronginremainingsomuchinSussex,andtheargumentswithwhichIreconciledmyselftotheexpediencyofit,werenobetterthanthese:——Thedangerismyown;Iamdoingnoinjurytoanybodybutmyself。”

Elinorsmiled,andshookherhead。

EdwardheardwithpleasureofColonelBrandon’sbeingexpectedattheCottage,ashereallywishednotonlytobebetteracquaintedwithhim,buttohaveanopportunityofconvincinghimthathenolongerresentedhisgivinghimthelivingofDelaford——“Which,atpresent,“

saidhe,“afterthankssoungraciouslydeliveredasminewereontheoccasion,hemustthinkIhaveneverforgivenhimforoffering。”

NOWhefeltastonishedhimselfthathehadneveryetbeentotheplace。Butsolittleinteresthadbetakeninthematter,thatheowedallhisknowledgeofthehouse,garden,andglebe,extentoftheparish,conditionoftheland,andrateofthetithes,toElinorherself,whohadheardsomuchofitfromColonelBrandon,andhearditwithsomuchattention,astobeentirelymistressofthesubject。

Onequestionafterthisonlyremainedundecided,betweenthem,onedifficultyonlywastobeovercome。

Theywerebroughttogetherbymutualaffection,withthewarmestapprobationoftheirrealfriends;

theirintimateknowledgeofeachotherseemedtomaketheirhappinesscertain——andtheyonlywantedsomethingtoliveupon。Edwardhadtwothousandpounds,andElinorone,which,withDelafordliving,wasallthattheycouldcalltheirown;foritwasimpossiblethatMrs。Dashwoodshouldadvanceanything;andtheywereneitherofthemquiteenoughinlovetothinkthatthreehundredandfiftypoundsa-yearwouldsupplythemwiththecomfortsoflife。

Edwardwasnotentirelywithouthopesofsomefavourablechangeinhismothertowardshim;andonTHAT

herestedfortheresidueoftheirincome。ButElinorhadnosuchdependence;forsinceEdwardwouldstillbeunabletomarryMissMorton,andhischusingherselfhadbeenspokenofinMrs。Ferrars’sflatteringlanguageasonlyalesserevilthanhischusingLucySteele,shefearedthatRobert’soffencewouldservenootherpurposethantoenrichFanny。

AboutfourdaysafterEdward’sarrivalColonelBrandonappeared,tocompleteMrs。Dashwood’ssatisfaction,andtogiveherthedignityofhaving,forthefirsttimesinceherlivingatBarton,morecompanywithherthanherhousewouldhold。Edwardwasallowedtoretaintheprivilegeoffirstcomer,andColonelBrandonthereforewalkedeverynighttohisoldquartersatthePark;

fromwhenceheusuallyreturnedinthemorning,earlyenoughtointerruptthelovers’firsttete-a-tetebeforebreakfast。

Athreeweeks’residenceatDelaford,where,inhiseveninghoursatleast,hehadlittletodobuttocalculatethedisproportionbetweenthirty-sixandseventeen,broughthimtoBartoninatemperofmindwhichneededalltheimprovementinMarianne’slooks,allthekindnessofherwelcome,andalltheencouragementofhermother’slanguage,tomakeitcheerful。

Amongsuchfriends,however,andsuchflattery,hedidrevive。

NorumourofLucy’smarriagehadyetreachedhim:——heknewnothingofwhathadpassed;andthefirsthoursofhisvisitwereconsequentlyspentinhearingandinwondering。

EverythingwasexplainedtohimbyMrs。Dashwood,andhefoundfreshreasontorejoiceinwhathehaddoneforMr。Ferrars,sinceeventuallyitpromotedtheinterestofElinor。

Itwouldbeneedlesstosay,thatthegentlemenadvancedinthegoodopinionofeachother,astheyadvancedineachother’sacquaintance,foritcouldnotbeotherwise。

Theirresemblanceingoodprinciplesandgoodsense,indispositionandmannerofthinking,wouldprobablyhavebeensufficienttounitetheminfriendship,withoutanyotherattraction;buttheirbeinginlovewithtwosisters,andtwosistersfondofeachother,madethatmutualregardinevitableandimmediate,whichmightotherwisehavewaitedtheeffectoftimeandjudgment。

Thelettersfromtown,whichafewdaysbeforewouldhavemadeeverynerveinElinor’sbodythrillwithtransport,nowarrivedtobereadwithlessemotionthatmirth。

Mrs。Jenningswrotetotellthewonderfultale,toventherhonestindignationagainstthejiltinggirl,andpourforthhercompassiontowardspoorMr。Edward,who,shewassure,hadquitedotedupontheworthlesshussy,andwasnow,byallaccounts,almostbroken-hearted,atOxford——

“Idothink,“shecontinued,“nothingwasevercarriedonsosly;foritwasbuttwodaysbeforeLucycalledandsatacoupleofhourswithme。Notasoulsuspectedanythingofthematter,notevenNancy,who,poorsoul!

camecryingtomethedayafter,inagreatfrightforfearofMrs。Ferrars,aswellasnotknowinghowtogettoPlymouth;forLucyitseemsborrowedallhermoneybeforeshewentofftobemarried,onpurposewesupposetomakeashowwith,andpoorNancyhadnotsevenshillingsintheworld;——soIwasverygladtogiveherfiveguineastotakeherdowntoExeter,whereshethinksofstayingthreeorfourweekswithMrs。Burgess,inhopes,asItellher,tofallinwiththeDoctoragain。

AndImustsaythatLucy’scrossnessnottotakethemalongwiththeminthechaiseisworsethanall。

PoorMr。Edward!Icannotgethimoutofmyhead,butyoumustsendforhimtoBarton,andMissMariannemusttrytocomforthim。”

Mr。Dashwood’sstrainsweremoresolemn。

Mrs。Ferrarswasthemostunfortunateofwomen——poorFannyhadsufferedagoniesofsensibility——andheconsideredtheexistenceofeach,undersuchablow,withgratefulwonder。Robert’soffencewasunpardonable,butLucy’swasinfinitelyworse。NeitherofthemwereeveragaintobementionedtoMrs。Ferrars;andeven,ifshemighthereafterbeinducedtoforgiveherson,hiswifeshouldneverbeacknowledgedasherdaughter,norbepermittedtoappearinherpresence。Thesecrecywithwhicheverythinghadbeencarriedonbetweenthem,wasrationallytreatedasenormouslyheighteningthecrime,because,hadanysuspicionofitoccurredtotheothers,propermeasureswouldhavebeentakentopreventthemarriage;andhecalledonElinortojoinwithhiminregrettingthatLucy’sengagementwithEdwardhadnotratherbeenfulfilled,thanthatsheshouldthusbethemeansofspreadingmiseryfartherinthefamily——

Hethuscontinued:

“Mrs。FerrarshasneveryetmentionedEdward’sname,whichdoesnotsurpriseus;but,toourgreatastonishment,notalinehasbeenreceivedfromhimontheoccasion。

Perhaps,however,heiskeptsilentbyhisfearofoffending,andIshall,therefore,givehimahint,byalinetoOxford,thathissisterandIboththinkaletterofpropersubmissionfromhim,addressedperhapstoFanny,andbyhershewntohermother,mightnotbetakenamiss;

forweallknowthetendernessofMrs。Ferrars’sheart,andthatshewishesfornothingsomuchastobeongoodtermswithherchildren。”

ThisparagraphwasofsomeimportancetotheprospectsandconductofEdward。Itdeterminedhimtoattemptareconciliation,thoughnotexactlyinthemannerpointedoutbytheirbrotherandsister。

“Aletterofpropersubmission!”repeatedhe;

“wouldtheyhavemebegmymother’spardonforRobert’singratitudetoHER,andbreachofhonourtoME?——Icanmakenosubmission——Iamgrownneitherhumblenorpenitentbywhathaspassed——Iamgrownveryhappy;

butthatwouldnotinterest——IknowofnosubmissionthatISproperformetomake。”

“Youmaycertainlyasktobeforgiven,“saidElinor,“becauseyouhaveoffended;——andIshouldthinkyoumightNOWventuresofarastoprofesssomeconcernforhavingeverformedtheengagementwhichdrewonyouyourmother’sanger。”

Heagreedthathemight。

“Andwhenshehasforgivenyou,perhapsalittlehumilitymaybeconvenientwhileacknowledgingasecondengagement,almostasimprudentinHEReyesasthefirst。”

Hehadnothingtourgeagainstit,butstillresistedtheideaofaletterofpropersubmission;

andtherefore,tomakeiteasiertohim,ashedeclaredamuchgreaterwillingnesstomakemeanconcessionsbywordofmouththanonpaper,itwasresolvedthat,insteadofwritingtoFanny,heshouldgotoLondon,andpersonallyintreathergoodofficesinhisfavour——

“AndiftheyreallyDOinterestthemselves,“saidMarianne,inhernewcharacterofcandour,“inbringingaboutareconciliation,IshallthinkthatevenJohnandFannyarenotentirelywithoutmerit。”

AfteravisitonColonelBrandon’ssideofonlythreeorfourdays,thetwogentlemenquittedBartontogether——

TheyweretogoimmediatelytoDelaford,thatEdwardmighthavesomepersonalknowledgeofhisfuturehome,andassisthispatronandfriendindecidingonwhatimprovementswereneededtoit;andfromthence,afterstayingthereacoupleofnights,hewastoproceedonhisjourneytotown。

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CHAPTER50

AfteraproperresistanceonthepartofMrs。

Ferrars,justsoviolentandsosteadyastopreserveherfromthatreproachwhichshealwaysseemedfearfulofincurring,thereproachofbeingtooamiable,Edwardwasadmittedtoherpresence,andpronouncedtobeagainherson。

Herfamilyhadoflatebeenexceedinglyfluctuating。

Formanyyearsofherlifeshehadhadtwosons;

butthecrimeandannihilationofEdwardafewweeksago,hadrobbedherofone;thesimilarannihilationofRoberthadleftherforafortnightwithoutany;andnow,bytheresuscitationofEdward,shehadoneagain。

Inspiteofhisbeingallowedoncemoretolive,however,hedidnotfeelthecontinuanceofhisexistencesecure,tillhehadrevealedhispresentengagement;

forthepublicationofthatcircumstance,hefeared,mightgiveasuddenturntohisconstitution,andcarryhimoffasrapidlyasbefore。Withapprehensivecautionthereforeitwasrevealed,andhewaslistenedtowithunexpectedcalmness。Mrs。FerrarsatfirstreasonablyendeavouredtodissuadehimfrommarryingMissDashwood,byeveryargumentinherpower;——toldhim,thatinMissMortonhewouldhaveawomanofhigherrankandlargerfortune;——

andenforcedtheassertion,byobservingthatMissMortonwasthedaughterofanoblemanwiththirtythousandpounds,whileMissDashwoodwasonlythedaughterofaprivategentlemanwithnomorethanTHREE;butwhenshefoundthat,thoughperfectlyadmittingthetruthofherrepresentation,hewasbynomeansinclinedtobeguidedbyit,shejudgeditwisest,fromtheexperienceofthepast,tosubmit——andtherefore,aftersuchanungraciousdelayassheowedtoherowndignity,andasservedtopreventeverysuspicionofgood-will,sheissuedherdecreeofconsenttothemarriageofEdwardandElinor。

Whatshewouldengagetodotowardsaugmentingtheirincomewasnexttobeconsidered;andhereitplainlyappeared,thatthoughEdwardwasnowheronlyson,hewasbynomeanshereldest;forwhileRobertwasinevitablyendowedwithathousandpoundsa-year,notthesmallestobjectionwasmadeagainstEdward’stakingordersforthesakeoftwohundredandfiftyattheutmost;

norwasanythingpromisedeitherforthepresentorinfuture,beyondthetenthousandpounds,whichhadbeengivenwithFanny。

Itwasasmuch,however,aswasdesired,andmorethanwasexpected,byEdwardandElinor;

andMrs。Ferrarsherself,byhershufflingexcuses,seemedtheonlypersonsurprisedathernotgivingmore。

Withanincomequitesufficienttotheirwantsthussecuredtothem,theyhadnothingtowaitforafterEdwardwasinpossessionoftheliving,butthereadinessofthehouse,towhichColonelBrandon,withaneagerdesirefortheaccommodationofElinor,wasmakingconsiderableimprovements;andafterwaitingsometimefortheircompletion,afterexperiencing,asusual,athousanddisappointmentsanddelaysfromtheunaccountabledilatorinessoftheworkmen,Elinor,asusual,brokethroughthefirstpositiveresolutionofnotmarryingtilleverythingwasready,andtheceremonytookplaceinBartonchurchearlyintheautumn。

ThefirstmonthaftertheirmarriagewasspentwiththeirfriendattheMansion-house;fromwhencetheycouldsuperintendtheprogressoftheParsonage,anddirecteverythingastheylikedonthespot;——

couldchusepapers,projectshrubberies,andinventasweep。

Mrs。Jennings’sprophecies,thoughratherjumbledtogether,werechieflyfulfilled;forshewasabletovisitEdwardandhiswifeintheirParsonagebyMichaelmas,andshefoundinElinorandherhusband,asshereallybelieved,oneofthehappiestcouplesintheworld。Theyhadinfactnothingtowishfor,butthemarriageofColonelBrandonandMarianne,andratherbetterpasturagefortheircows。

Theywerevisitedontheirfirstsettlingbyalmostalltheirrelationsandfriends。Mrs。Ferrarscametoinspectthehappinesswhichshewasalmostashamedofhavingauthorised;andeventheDashwoodswereattheexpenseofajourneyfromSussextodothemhonour。

“IwillnotsaythatIamdisappointed,mydearsister,“

saidJohn,astheywerewalkingtogetheronemorningbeforethegatesofDelafordHouse,“THATwouldbesayingtoomuch,forcertainlyyouhavebeenoneofthemostfortunateyoungwomenintheworld,asitis。But,Iconfess,itwouldgivemegreatpleasuretocallColonelBrandonbrother。

Hispropertyhere,hisplace,hishouse,everythingisinsuchrespectableandexcellentcondition!——andhiswoods!——I

havenotseensuchtimberanywhereinDorsetshire,asthereisnowstandinginDelafordHanger!——Andthough,perhaps,Mariannemaynotseemexactlythepersontoattracthim——

yetIthinkitwouldaltogetherbeadvisableforyoutohavethemnowfrequentlystayingwithyou,forasColonelBrandonseemsagreatdealathome,nobodycantellwhatmayhappen——for,whenpeoplearemuchthrowntogether,andseelittleofanybodyelse——anditwillalwaysbeinyourpowertosetherofftoadvantage,andsoforth;——

inshort,youmayaswellgiveherachance——Youunderstandme。”——

ButthoughMrs。FerrarsDIDcometoseethem,andalwaystreatedthemwiththemake-believeofdecentaffection,theywereneverinsultedbyherrealfavourandpreference。

THATwasduetothefollyofRobert,andthecunningofhiswife;anditwasearnedbythembeforemanymonthshadpassedaway。Theselfishsagacityofthelatter,whichhadatfirstdrawnRobertintothescrape,wastheprincipalinstrumentofhisdeliverancefromit;

forherrespectfulhumility,assiduousattentions,andendlessflatteries,assoonasthesmallestopeningwasgivenfortheirexercise,reconciledMrs。Ferrarstohischoice,andre-establishedhimcompletelyinherfavour。

ThewholeofLucy’sbehaviourintheaffair,andtheprosperitywhichcrownedit,therefore,maybeheldforthasamostencouraginginstanceofwhatanearnest,anunceasingattentiontoself-interest,howeveritsprogressmaybeapparentlyobstructed,willdoinsecuringeveryadvantageoffortune,withnoothersacrificethanthatoftimeandconscience。WhenRobertfirstsoughtheracquaintance,andprivatelyvisitedherinBartlett’sBuildings,itwasonlywiththeviewimputedtohimbyhisbrother。

Hemerelymeanttopersuadehertogiveuptheengagement;

andastherecouldbenothingtoovercomebuttheaffectionofboth,henaturallyexpectedthatoneortwointerviewswouldsettlethematter。Inthatpoint,however,andthatonly,heerred;——forthoughLucysoongavehimhopesthathiseloquencewouldconvinceherinTIME,anothervisit,anotherconversation,wasalwayswantedtoproducethisconviction。Somedoubtsalwayslingeredinhermindwhentheyparted,whichcouldonlyberemovedbyanotherhalfhour’sdiscoursewithhimself。

Hisattendancewasbythismeanssecured,andtherestfollowedincourse。InsteadoftalkingofEdward,theycamegraduallytotalkonlyofRobert,——asubjectonwhichhehadalwaysmoretosaythanonanyother,andinwhichshesoonbetrayedaninterestevenequaltohisown;andinshort,itbecamespeedilyevidenttoboth,thathehadentirelysupplantedhisbrother。

Hewasproudofhisconquest,proudoftrickingEdward,andveryproudofmarryingprivatelywithouthismother’sconsent。Whatimmediatelyfollowedisknown。

TheypassedsomemonthsingreathappinessatDawlish;

forshehadmanyrelationsandoldacquaintancestocut——andhedrewseveralplansformagnificentcottages;——

andfromthencereturningtotown,procuredtheforgivenessofMrs。Ferrars,bythesimpleexpedientofaskingit,which,atLucy’sinstigation,wasadopted。Theforgiveness,atfirst,indeed,aswasreasonable,comprehendedonlyRobert;

andLucy,whohadowedhismothernodutyandthereforecouldhavetransgressednone,stillremainedsomeweekslongerunpardoned。Butperseveranceinhumilityofconductandmessages,inself-condemnationforRobert’soffence,andgratitudefortheunkindnessshewastreatedwith,procuredherintimethehaughtynoticewhichovercameherbyitsgraciousness,andledsoonafterwards,byrapiddegrees,tothehigheststateofaffectionandinfluence。

LucybecameasnecessarytoMrs。Ferrars,aseitherRobertorFanny;andwhileEdwardwasnevercordiallyforgivenforhavingonceintendedtomarryher,andElinor,thoughsuperiortoherinfortuneandbirth,wasspokenofasanintruder,SHEwasineverythingconsidered,andalwaysopenlyacknowledged,tobeafavouritechild。

Theysettledintown,receivedveryliberalassistancefromMrs。Ferrars,wereonthebesttermsimaginablewiththeDashwoods;andsettingasidethejealousiesandill-willcontinuallysubsistingbetweenFannyandLucy,inwhichtheirhusbandsofcoursetookapart,aswellasthefrequentdomesticdisagreementsbetweenRobertandLucythemselves,nothingcouldexceedtheharmonyinwhichtheyalllivedtogether。

WhatEdwardhaddonetoforfeittherightofeldestson,mighthavepuzzledmanypeopletofindout;andwhatRoberthaddonetosucceedtoit,mighthavepuzzledthemstillmore。Itwasanarrangement,however,justifiedinitseffects,ifnotinitscause;fornothingeverappearedinRobert’sstyleoflivingoroftalkingtogiveasuspicionofhisregrettingtheextentofhisincome,aseitherleavinghisbrothertoolittle,orbringinghimselftoomuch;——andifEdwardmightbejudgedfromthereadydischargeofhisdutiesineveryparticular,fromanincreasingattachmenttohiswifeandhishome,andfromtheregularcheerfulnessofhisspirits,hemightbesupposednolesscontentedwithhislot,nolessfreefromeverywishofanexchange。

Elinor’smarriagedividedheraslittlefromherfamilyascouldwellbecontrived,withoutrenderingthecottageatBartonentirelyuseless,forhermotherandsistersspentmuchmorethanhalftheirtimewithher。

Mrs。DashwoodwasactingonmotivesofpolicyaswellaspleasureinthefrequencyofhervisitsatDelaford;

forherwishofbringingMarianneandColonelBrandontogetherwashardlylessearnest,thoughrathermoreliberalthanwhatJohnhadexpressed。Itwasnowherdarlingobject。

Preciousaswasthecompanyofherdaughtertoher,shedesirednothingsomuchastogiveupitsconstantenjoymenttohervaluedfriend;andtoseeMariannesettledatthemansion-housewasequallythewishofEdwardandElinor。

Theyeachfelthissorrows,andtheirownobligations,andMarianne,bygeneralconsent,wastobetherewardofall。

Withsuchaconfederacyagainsther——withaknowledgesointimateofhisgoodness——withaconvictionofhisfondattachmenttoherself,whichatlast,thoughlongafteritwasobservabletoeverybodyelse——burstonher——whatcouldshedo?

MarianneDashwoodwasborntoanextraordinaryfate。

Shewasborntodiscoverthefalsehoodofherownopinions,andtocounteract,byherconduct,hermostfavouritemaxims。

Shewasborntoovercomeanaffectionformedsolateinlifeasatseventeen,andwithnosentimentsuperiortostrongesteemandlivelyfriendship,voluntarilytogiveherhandtoanother!——andTHATother,amanwhohadsufferednolessthanherselfundertheeventofaformerattachment,whom,twoyearsbefore,shehadconsideredtoooldtobemarried,——andwhostillsoughttheconstitutionalsafeguardofaflannelwaistcoat!

Butsoitwas。Insteadoffallingasacrificetoanirresistiblepassion,asonceshehadfondlyflatteredherselfwithexpecting,——insteadofremainingevenforeverwithhermother,andfindingheronlypleasuresinretirementandstudy,asafterwardsinhermorecalmandsoberjudgmentshehaddeterminedon,——

shefoundherselfatnineteen,submittingtonewattachments,enteringonnewduties,placedinanewhome,awife,themistressofafamily,andthepatronessofavillage。

ColonelBrandonwasnowashappy,asallthosewhobestlovedhim,believedhedeservedtobe;——inMariannehewasconsoledforeverypastaffliction;——herregardandhersocietyrestoredhismindtoanimation,andhisspiritstocheerfulness;andthatMariannefoundherownhappinessinforminghis,wasequallythepersuasionanddelightofeachobservingfriend。Mariannecouldneverlovebyhalves;andherwholeheartbecame,intime,asmuchdevotedtoherhusband,asithadoncebeentoWilloughby。

Willoughbycouldnothearofhermarriagewithoutapang;andhispunishmentwassoonafterwardscompleteinthevoluntaryforgivenessofMrs。Smith,who,bystatinghismarriagewithawomanofcharacter,asthesourceofherclemency,gavehimreasonforbelievingthathadhebehavedwithhonourtowardsMarianne,hemightatoncehavebeenhappyandrich。Thathisrepentanceofmisconduct,whichthusbroughtitsownpunishment,wassincere,neednotbedoubted;——northathelongthoughtofColonelBrandonwithenvy,andofMariannewithregret。Butthathewasforeverinconsolable,thathefledfromsociety,orcontractedanhabitualgloomoftemper,ordiedofabrokenheart,mustnotbedependedon——forhedidneither。

Helivedtoexert,andfrequentlytoenjoyhimself。

Hiswifewasnotalwaysoutofhumour,norhishomealwaysuncomfortable;andinhisbreedofhorsesanddogs,andinsportingofeverykind,hefoundnoinconsiderabledegreeofdomesticfelicity。

ForMarianne,however——inspiteofhisincivilityinsurvivingherloss——healwaysretainedthatdecidedregardwhichinterestedhimineverythingthatbefellher,andmadeherhissecretstandardofperfectioninwoman;——

andmanyarisingbeautywouldbeslightedbyhiminafter-daysasbearingnocomparisonwithMrs。Brandon。

Mrs。Dashwoodwasprudentenoughtoremainatthecottage,withoutattemptingaremovaltoDelaford;andfortunatelyforSirJohnandMrs。Jennings,whenMariannewastakenfromthem,Margarethadreachedanagehighlysuitablefordancing,andnotveryineligibleforbeingsupposedtohavealover。

BetweenBartonandDelaford,therewasthatconstantcommunicationwhichstrongfamilyaffectionwouldnaturallydictate;——andamongthemeritsandthehappinessofElinorandMarianne,letitnotberankedastheleastconsiderable,thatthoughsisters,andlivingalmostwithinsightofeachother,theycouldlivewithoutdisagreementbetweenthemselves,orproducingcoolnessbetweentheirhusbands。

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