第7章
So,aftermuchdiscussion,itwasdecidedthatsheshouldhaveherwayinallthingsandthefamilycontentthemselveswithapplaudingfromthefront。
"We"llblisterourhandseverymanofus,andcarryyouhomeinachariotandfourseeifwedon"t,youperverseprimadonna!"threatenedSteve,notatallsatisfiedwiththesimplicityoftheaffair。
"AchariotandtwowillbeveryacceptableassoonasI"mdone。Ishallbequitesteadytillmypartisallover,andthenImayfeelalittleupset,soI"dliketogetawaybeforetheconfusionbegins。Indeed,Idon"tmeantobeperverse,butyouareallsokindtome,myheartisfullwheneverIthinkofit,andthatwouldn"tdoifI"mtosing,"saidPhebe,droppingoneofthetearsonthelittlefrillshewasmaking。
"Nodiamondcouldhaveadorneditbetter,"Archiethoughtashewatcheditshinethereforamoment,andfeltlikeshakingStevefordaringtopatthedarkheadwithanencouraging"Allright。I"llbeonhandandwhiskyouawaywhiletherestaresplittingtheirgloves。Nofearofyourbreakingdown。Ifyoufeeltheleastbitlikeit,though,justlookatmeandI"llglareatyouandshakemyfist,sincekindnessupsetsyou。"
"Iwishyouwould,becauseoneofmyballadsisrathertouchingandIalwayswanttocrywhenIsingit。Thesightofyoutryingtoglarewillmakemewanttolaughandthatwillsteadymenicely,sositinfront,please,readytoslipoutwhenIcomeoffthelasttime。"
"Dependuponme!"Andthelittlemandeparted,takinggreatcredittohimselfforhisinfluenceovertall,handsomePhebe。
Ifhehadknownwhatwasgoingoninthemindofthesilentyounggentlemanbehindthenewspaper,Stevewouldhavebeenmuchastonished,forArchie,thoughapparentlyengrossedbybusiness,wasfathomsdeepinlovebythistime。NoonesuspectedthisbutRose,forhedidhiswooingwithhiseyes,andonlyPhebeknewhoweloquenttheycouldbe。Hehaddiscoveredwhatthematterwaslongagohadmademanyattemptstoreasonhimselfoutofit,but,findingitahopelesstask,hadgivenuptryingandlethimselfdriftdeliciously。Theknowledgethatthefamilywouldnotapproveonlyseemedtoaddardortohisloveandstrengthtohispurpose,forthesameenergyandpersistencewhichhebroughttobusinesswentintoeverythinghedid,andhavingoncemadeuphismindtomarryPhebe,nothingcouldchangethisplanexceptawordfromher。
Hewatchedandwaitedforthreemonths,sothathemightnotbeaccusedofprecipitation,thoughitdidnottakehimonetodecidethatthiswasthewomantomakehimhappy。Hersteadfastnature,quiet,busyways,andthereservedpowerandpassionbetrayedsometimesbyaflashoftheblackeyes,aquiverofthefirmlips,suitedArchie,whopossessedmanyofthesameattributeshimself。Theobscurityofherbirthandisolationofherlot,whichwouldhavedeterredsomelovers,notonlyappealedtohiskindlyheart,buttouchedthehiddenromancewhichranlikeaveinofgoldthroughhisstrongcommonsenseandmadepractical,steady—goingArchieapoetwhenhefellinlove。IfUncleMachadguessedwhatdreamsandfancieswentonintheheadbentoverhisledgers,andwhatemotionswerefermentinginthebosomofhisstaid"right—handman,"hewouldhavetappedhisforeheadandsuggestedalunaticasylum。TheboysthoughtArchiehadsobereddowntoosoon。Hismotherbegantofearthattheairofthecountingroomdidnotsuithim,andDr。Alecwasdeludedintothebeliefthatthefellowreallybeganto"thinkofRose,"hecamesooftenintheevening,seemingquitecontenttositbesideherworktableandsniptapeordrawpatternswhiletheychatted。
Nooneobservedthat,thoughhetalkedtoRoseontheseoccasions,helookedatPhebe,inherlowchaircloseby,busybutsilent,forshealwaystriedtoeffaceherselfwhenRosewasnearandoftenmournedthatshewastoobigtokeepoutofsight。Nomatterwhathetalkedabout,Archiealwayssawtheglossyblackbraidsontheothersideofthetable,thedamaskcheekcurvingdownintothefirmwhitethroat,andthedarklashes,liftednowandthen,showingeyessodeepandsofthedarednotlookintothemlong。Eventheswiftneedlecharmedhim,thelittlebroochwhichroseandfellwithherquietbreath,theplainworkshedid,andthetidywayshegatheredherbitsofthreadintoatinybag。Heseldomspoketoher;nevertouchedherbasket,thoughheravagedRose"sifhewantedstringorscissors;
veryrarelyventuredtobringhersomecuriousorprettythingwhenshipscameinfromChinaonlysatandthoughtofher,imaginedthatthiswashisparlor,thisherworktable,andtheytwosittingtherealoneahappymanandwife。
Atthisstageofthelittleeveningdramahewouldbeconsciousofsuchastrongdesiretodosomethingrashthathetookrefugeinanewformofintoxicationandproposedmusic,sometimessoabruptlythatRosewouldpauseinthemiddleofasentenceandlookathim,surprisedtomeetacuriouslyexcitedlookintheusuallycoolgrayeyes。
ThenPhebe,foldingupherwork,wouldgotothepiano,asifgladtofindaventfortheinnerlifewhichsheseemedtohavenopowerofexpressingexceptinsong。Rosewouldfollowtoaccompanyher,andArchie,movingtoacertainshadycornerwhencehecouldseePhebe"sfaceasshesang,wouldgivehimselfuptounmitigatedraptureforhalfanhour。Phebeneversangsowellasatsuchtimes,forthekindlyatmospherewaslikesunshinetoabird,criticismswerefewandgentle,praisesheartyandabundant,andshepouredouthersoulasfreelyasaspringgushesupwhenitshiddensourceisfull。
InmomentssuchasthesePhebewasbeautifulwiththebeautythatmakesaman"seyebrightenwithhonestadmirationandfillshisheartwithasenseofwomanlynobilityandsweetness。Littlewonder,then,thatthechiefspectatorofthisagreeabletableaugrewnightlymoreenamored,andwhiletheeldersweredeepinwhist,theyoungpeoplewereplayingthatstillmoreabsorbinggameinwhichheartsarealwaystrumps。
Rose,havingDummyforapartner,soondiscoveredthefactandlatelyhadbeguntofeelasshefanciedWallmusthavedonewhenPyramuswooedThisbethroughitschinks。Shewasalittlestartledatfirst,thenamused,thenanxious,thenheartilyinterested,aseverywomanisinsuchaffairs,andwillinglycontinuedtobeamedium,thoughsometimesshequitetingledwiththeelectricitywhichseemedtopervadetheair。Shesaidnothing,waitingforPhebetospeak,butPhebewassilent,seemingtodoubtthetruthtilldoubtbecameimpossible,thentoshrinkasifsuddenlyconsciousofwrongdoingandseizeeverypossiblepretextforabsentingherselffromthe"girls"corner,"astheprettyrecesswascalled。
Theconcertplanaffordedexcellentopportunitiesfordoingthis,andeveningaftereveningsheslippedawaytopracticehersongsupstairswhileArchiesatstaringdisconsolatelyattheneglectedworkbasketandmutepiano。Rosepitiedhimandlongedtosayawordofcomfort,butfeltshyhewassuchareservedfellowsolefthimtoconducthisquietwooinginhisownway,feelingthatthecrisiswouldsoonarrive。
Shewassureofthisasshesatbesidehimontheeveningoftheconcert,forwhiletherestofthefamilynoddedandsmiled,chattedandlaughedingreatspirits,Archiewasasmuteasafishandsatwithhisarmstightlyfolded,asiftokeepinanyunrulyemotionswhichmightattempttoescape。
Heneverlookedattheprogram,butRoseknewwhenPhebe"sturncamebythequickbreathhedrewandtheintentlook,soabsentbefore,thatcameintohiseyes。
Butherownexcitementpreventedmuchnoticeofhis,forRosewasinaflutterofhopeandfear,sympathyanddelight,aboutPhebeandhersuccess。
Thehousewascrowded;theaudiencesufficientlymixedtomakethegeneralopinionimpartial;andthestagefulloflittleorphanswithshiningfaces,amosteffectivereminderoftheobjectinview。
"Littledears,hownicetheylook!""Poorthings,soyoungtobefatherlessandmotherless。""Itwillbeadisgracetothecityifthosegirlsarenottakenpropercareof。""Subscriptionsarealwaysinorder,youknow,andprettyMissCampbellwillgiveyouhersweetestsmileifyouhandherahandsomecheck。""I"veheardthisPhebeMoore,andshereallyhasadeliciousvoicesuchapityshewon"tfitherselfforopera!""Onlysingsthreetimestonight;that"smodest,I"msure,whenshe"sthechiefattraction,sowemustgiveheranencoreaftertheItalianpiece。""Theorphansleadoff,Isee。Stopyourearsifyoulike,butdon"tfailtoapplaudortheladieswillneverforgiveyou。"
Chatofthissortwentonbrisklywhilefanswaved,programsrustled,andushersflewaboutdistractedly,tillanimportantgentlemanappeared,madehisbow,skippedupontheleader"sstand,andwithawaveofhisbatoncausedageneraluprisingofwhitepinaforesastheorphansledoffwiththatmuch—enduringmelody"America"inshrillsmallvoices,butwithcreditableattentiontotimeandtune。Pityandpatriotismproducedagenerousroundofapplause,andthelittlegirlssatdown,beamingwithinnocentsatisfaction。
Aninstrumentalpiecefollowed,andthenayouthfulgentleman,withhishairinpicturesqueconfusion,andwhathisfriendscalleda"musicalbrow,"boundedupthestepsand,clutchingarollofmusicwithapairoftightlyglovedhands,proceedtoinformtheaudience,inahuskytenorvoice,that"Itwasalovelyviolet。"
Whatelsethesongcontainedinthewayofsenseorsentimentitwasimpossibletodiscoverasthethreepagesofmusicappearedtoconsistofvariationsuponthatoneline,endingwithaprolongedquaverwhichflushedthemusicalbrowandlefttheyouthquitebreathlesswhenhemadehisbow。
"Nowshe"scoming!Oh,Uncle,myheartbeatsasifitweremyself!"
whisperedRose,clutchingDr。Alec"sarmwithalittlegaspasthepianowasrolledforward,theleader"sstandpushedback,andalleyesturnedtowardtheanteroomdoor。
SheforgottoglanceatArchie,anditwasaswellperhaps,forhisheartwasthumpingalmostaudiblyashewaitedforhisPhebe。Notfromtheanteroom,butoutamongthechildren,whereshehadsatunseenintheshadowoftheorgan,camestatelyPhebeinherwine—coloreddress,withnoornamentbutherfinehairandawhitefloweratherthroat。Verypale,butquitecomposed,apparently,forshesteppedslowlythroughthenarrowlaneofupturnedfaces,holdingbackherskirtslesttheyshouldrudelybrushagainstsomelittlehead。Straighttothefrontshewent,bowedhastily,and,withagesturetotheaccompanist,stoodwaitingtobegin,hereyesfixedonthegreatgiltclockattheoppositeendofthehall。
Theyneverwanderedfromthatpointwhileshesang,butassheendedtheydroppedforaninstantonaneager,girlishcountenancebendingfromafrontseat;then,withherhastylittlebow,shewentquicklybackamongthechildren,whoclappedandnoddedasshepassed,wellpleasedwiththeballadshehadsung。
Everyonecourteouslyfollowedtheirexample,buttherewasnoenthusiasm,anditwasevidentthatPhebehadnotproducedaparticularlyfavorableimpression。
"Neversangsobadlyinherlife,"mutteredCharlieirefully。
"Shewasfrightened,poorthing。Givehertime,givehertime,"saidUncleMackindly。
"Iknowshewas,andIglaredlikeagorgon,butsheneverlookedatme,"addedSteve,smoothinghisglovesandhisbrowsatthesametime。
"Thatfirstsongwasthehardest,andshegotthroughmuchbetterthanIexpected,"putinDr。Alec,boundnottoshowthedisappointmenthefelt。
"Don"tbetroubled。Phebehascourageenoughforanything,andshe"llastonishyoubeforetheevening"sover,"prophesiedMacwithunabatedconfidence,forheknewsomethingtherestdidnot。
Rosesaidnothing,butundercoverofherburnousgaveArchie"shandasympatheticsqueeze,forhisarmswereunfoldednow,asifthestrainwasover,andonelayonhiskneewhilewiththeotherhewipedhishotforeheadwithanairofrelief。
FriendsaboutthemmurmuredcomplimentaryfibsandaffectedgreatdelightandsurpriseatMissMoore"s"charmingstyle,""exquisitesimplicity,"
and"undoubtedtalent。"Butstrangersfreelycriticized,andRosewassoindignantatsomeoftheirremarks,shecouldnotlistentoanythingonthestage,thoughafineoverturewasplayed,amanwitharemarkablebassvoicegrowledandroaredmelodiously,andtheorphanssangalivelyairwithachorusof"Tra,la,la,"whichwasagreatrelieftolittletonguesunusedtolongsilence。
"I"veoftenheardthatwomen"stongueswerehunginthemiddleandwentatbothendsnowI"msureofit,"whisperedCharlie,tryingtocheerherupbypointingoutthecomicaleffectofsomeseventy—fiveopenmouthsineachofwhichtheunrulymemberwaswaggingbriskly。
Roselaughedandlethimfanher,leaningfromhisseatbehindwiththedevotedairhealwaysassumedinpublic,butherwoundedfeelingswerenotsoothedandshecontinuedtofrownatthestoutmanontheleftwhohaddaredtosaywithashrugandaglanceatPhebe"snextpiece,"ThatyoungwomancannomoresingthisItalianthingthanshecanfly,andtheyoughtnottoletherattemptit。"
Phebedid,however,andsuddenlychangedthestoutman"sopinionbysingingitgrandly,fortheconsciousnessofherfirstfailureprickedherprideandspurredhertodoherbestwiththecalmsortofdeterminationwhichconquersfear,firesambition,andchangesdefeattosuccess。ShelookedsteadilyatRosenow,ortheflushed,intentfacebesideher,andthrowingallhersoulintothetask,lethervoiceringoutlikeasilverclarion,fillingthegreathallandsettingthehearers"blooda—tinglewiththeexultingstrain。
ThatsettledPhebe"sfateasacantatrice。Theapplausewasgenuineandspontaneousthistimeandbrokeoutagainandagainwiththegenerousdesiretoatoneforformercoldness。Butshewouldnotreturn,andtheshadowofthegreatorganseemedtohaveswallowedherup,fornoeyecouldfindher,nopleasantclamorwinherback。
"NowIcandiecontent,"saidRose,beamingwithheartfeltsatisfactionwhileArchielookedsteadfastlyathisprogram,tryingtokeephisfaceinorder,andtherestofthefamilyassumedatriumphantair,asiftheyhadneverdoubtedfromthefirst。
"Verywell,indeed,"saidthestoutmanwithanapprovingnod。"Quitepromisingforabeginner。Shouldn"twonderifintimetheymadeasecondCaryorKelloggofher。"
"Nowyou"llforgivehim,won"tyou?"murmuredCharlieinhiscousin"sear。
"Yes,andI"dliketopathimonthehead。Buttakewarningandneverjudgebyfirstappearancesagain,"whisperedRose,atpeacenowwithallmankind。
Phebe"slastsongwasanotherballad;shemeanttodevotehertalenttothatmuchneglectedbutalwaysattractivebranchofherart。Itwasagreatsurprise,therefore,toallbutonepersoninthehallwhen,insteadofsinging"AuldRobinGrey,"sheplacedherselfatthepiano,and,withasmilingglanceoverhershoulderatthechildren,brokeoutintheoldbirdsongwhichfirstwonRose。Butthechirping,twittering,andcooingwerenowtheburdentothreeversesofacharminglittlesong,fullofspringtimeandtheawakeninglifethatmakesitlovely。Aripplingaccompanimentflowedthroughitall,andaburstofdelightedlaughterfromthechildrenfilledupthefirstpausewithafittinganswertothevoicesthatseemedcallingtothemfromthevernalwoods。
Itwasverybeautiful,andnoveltylentitscharmtothesurprise,forartandnatureworkedaprettymiracleandthecleverimitation,firstheardfromakitchenhearth,nowbecamethefavoriteinacrowdedconcertroom。Phebewasquiteherselfagain;colorinthecheeksnow;eyesthatwanderedsmilingtoandfro;andlipsthatsangasgailyandfarmoresweetlythanwhenshekepttimetoherblithemusicwithascrubbingbrush。
Thissongwasevidentlyintendedforthechildren,andtheyappreciatedthekindlythought,forasPhebewentbackamongthem,theyclappedecstatically,flappedtheirpinafores,andsomecaughtherbytheskirtswithaudiblerequeststo"Doitagain,please;doitagain。"
ButPhebeshookherheadandvanished,foritwasgettinglateforsuchsmallpeople,severalofwhom"laysweetlyslumberingthere"tillrousedbytheclamorroundthem。Theelders,however,werenottobedeniedandapplaudedpersistently,especiallyAuntPlenty,whoseizedUncleMac"scaneandpoundedwithitasvigorouslyas"Mrs。Nubbles"attheplay。
"Nevermindyourgloves,Steve;keepituptillshecomes,"criedCharlie,enjoyingthefunlikeaboywhileJamielosthisheadwithexcitementand,standingup,called"Phebe!Phebe!"inspiteofhismother"sattemptstosilencehim。
Eventhestoutmanclapped,andRosecouldonlylaughdelightedlyassheturnedtolookatArchie,whoseemedtohavelethimselflooseatlastandwasstampingwithadoggedenergyfunnytosee。
SoPhebehadtocome,andstoodtheremeeklybowing,withamovedlookonherfacethatshowedhowgladandgratefulshewas,tillasuddenhushcame;then,asifinspiredbythememoryofthecausethatbroughtherthere,shelookeddownintotheseaoffriendlyfacesbeforeher,withnotraceoffearinherown,andsangthesongthatneverwillgrowold。
Thatwentstraighttotheheartsofthosewhoheardher,fortherewassomethinginexpressiblytouchinginthesightofthissweet—voicedwomansingingofhomeforthelittlecreatureswhowerehomeless,andPhebemadehertunefulpleairresistiblebyanalmostinvoluntarygestureofthehandswhichhadhunglooselyclaspedbeforehertill,withthelastechoofthebelovedword,theyfellapartandwerehalfoutstretched,asifpleadingtobefilled。
Itwasthetouchofnaturethatworkswonders,foritmadefullpursessuddenlyweighheavilyinpocketsslowtoopen,broughttearstoeyesunusedtoweep,andcausedthatgroupofred—gownedgirlstogrowverypatheticinthesightoffathersandmotherswhohadleftlittledaughterssafeasleepathome。ThiswasevidentfromthestillnessthatremainedunbrokenforaninstantafterPhebeended;andbeforepeoplecouldgetridoftheirhandkerchiefsshewouldhavebeengoneifthesuddenappearanceofamiteinapinafore,climbingupthestairsfromtheanteroomwithagreatbouquetgraspedinbothhands,hadnotarrestedher。
Upcamethelittlecreature,intentonperformingthemissionforwhichrichbribesofsugarplumshadbeenpromised,andtrottingbravelyacrossthestage,sheheldupthelovelynosegay,sayinginherbabyvoice,"Disforyou,ma"am。"Then,startledbythesuddenoutburstofapplause,shehidherfaceinPhebe"sgownandbegantosobwithfright。
AnawkwardminuteforpoorPhebe,butsheshowedunexpectedpresenceofmindandleftbehindheraprettypictureoftheoldestandyoungestorphanasshewentquicklydownthestep,smilingoverthegreatbouquetwiththebabyonherarm。
Nobodymindedtheclosingpiece,forpeoplebegantogo,sleepychildrentobecarriedoff,andwhispersgrewintoabuzzofconversation。InthegeneralconfusionRoselookedtoseeifStevehadrememberedhispromisetohelpPhebeslipawaybeforetherushbegan。No,therehewasputtingonKitty"scloak,quiteoblivioustoanyotherduty。TurningtoaskArchietohurryout,Rosefoundthathehadalreadyvanished,leavinghisglovesbehindhim。
"Haveyoulostanything?"askedDr。Alec,catchingaglimpseofherface。
"No,sir,I"vefoundsomething,"shewhisperedback,givinghimtheglovestopocketalongwithherfanandglass,addinghastilyastheconcertended,"Please,Uncle,tellthemallnottocomewithus。Phebehashadenoughexcitementandoughttorest。"
Rose"swordwaslawtothefamilyinallthingsconcerningPhebe。Sowordwaspassedthatthereweretobenocongratulationsuntiltomorrow,andDr。Alecgothispartyoffassoonaspossible。Butallthewayhome,whileheandAuntPlentywereprophesyingabrilliantfutureforthesinger,Rosesatrejoicingoverthehappypresentofthewoman。ShewassurethatArchiehadspokenandimaginedthewholescenewithfemininedelighthowtenderlyhehadaskedthemomentousquestion,howgratefullyPhebehadgiventhedesiredreply,andnowhowbothwereenjoyingthatdelicioushourwhichRosehadbeengiventounderstandnevercamebutonce。Suchapitytoshortenit,shethought,andbeggedheruncletogohomethelongestwaythenightwassomild,themoonlightsoclear,andherselfsoinneedoffreshairaftertheexcitementoftheevening。
"IthoughtyouwouldwanttorushintoPhebe"sarmstheinstantshegotdone,"saidAuntPlenty,innocentlywonderingatthewhimsgirlstookintotheirheads。
"SoIshouldifIconsultedmyownwishes,butasPhebeaskedtobeletaloneIwanttogratifyher,"answeredRose,makingthebestexcuseshecould。
"Alittlepiqued,"thoughtthedoctor,fancyingheunderstoodthecase。
Astheoldlady"srheumatismforbadetheirdrivingabouttillmidnight,homewasreachedmuchtoosoon,Rosethought,andtrippedawaytowarntheloverstheinstantsheenteredthehouse。Butstudy,parlor,andboudoirwereempty;and,whenJaneappearedwithcakeandwine,shereportedthat"MissPhebewentrightupstairsandwishedtobeexcused,please,beingverytired。"
"Thatisn"tatalllikePhebeIhopesheisn"till,"beganAuntPlenty,sittingdowntotoastherfeet。
"Shemaybealittlehysterical,forsheisaproudthingandrepressesheremotionsaslongasshecan。I"llstepupandseeifshedoesn"tneedasoothingdraftofsomesort。"AndDr。Alecthrewoffhiscoatashespoke。
"No,no,she"sonlytired。I"llrunuptohershewon"tmindmeandI"llreportifanythingisamiss。"
AwaywentRose,quitetremblingwithsuspense,butPhebe"sdoorwasshut,nolightshoneunderneath,andnosoundcamefromtheroomwithin。
Shetappedandreceivingnoanswer,wentontoherownchamber,thinkingtoherself:"Lovealwaysmakespeoplequeer,I"veheard,soIsupposetheysettleditallinthecarriageandthedearthingranawaytothinkaboutherhappinessalone。I"llnotdisturbher。Why,Phebe!"saidRose,surprised,for,enteringherroom,therewasthecantatrice,busyaboutthenightlyservicesshealwaysrenderedherlittlemistress。
"I"mwaitingforyou,dear。Wherehaveyoubeensolong?"askedPhebe,pokingthefireasifanxioustogetsomecolorintocheeksthatwereunnaturallypale。
TheinstantshespokeRoseknewthatsomethingwaswrong,andaglanceatherfaceconfirmedthefear。Itwaslikeadashofcoldwaterandquenchedherhappyfanciesinamoment;butbeingadelicate—mindedgirl,sherespectedPhebe"smoodandaskednoquestions,madenocomments,andleftherfriendtospeakorbesilentasshechose。
"IwassoexcitedIwouldtakeaturninthemoonlighttocalmmynerves。
Oh,dearestPhebe,Iamsoglad,soproud,sofullofwonderatyourcourageandskillandsweetwaysaltogetherthatIcannothalftellyouhowIloveandhonoryou!"shecried,kissingthewhitecheekswithsuchtenderwarmththeycouldnothelpglowingfaintlyasPhebeheldherlittlemistressclose,surethatnothingcoulddisturbthisinnocentaffection。
"Itisallyourwork,dear,becausebutforyouImightstillbescrubbingfloorsandhardlydaretodreamofanythinglikethis,"shesaidinheroldgratefulway,butinhervoicetherewasathrillofsomethingdeeperthangratitude,andatthelasttwowordsherheadwentupwithagestureofsoftprideasifithadbeennewlycrowned。
Roseheardandsawandguessedatthemeaningofbothtoneandgesture,feelingthatherPhebedeservedboththesinger"slaurelandthebride"smyrtlewreath。Butsheonlylookedup,sayingverywistfully:"Thenithasbeenahappynightforyouaswellasforus。"
"Thehappiestofmylife,andthehardest,"answeredPhebebrieflyasshelookedawayfromthequestioningeyes。
"Youshouldhaveletuscomenearerandhelpyouthrough。I"mafraidyouareveryproud,myJennyLind。"
"Ihavetobe,forsometimesIfeelasifIhadnothingelsetokeepmeup。"Shestoppedshortthere,fearingthathervoicewouldprovetraitorousifshewenton。Inamomentsheaskedinatonethatwasalmosthard:"YouthinkIdidwelltonight?"
"Theyallthinkso,andweresodelightedtheywantedtocomeinabodyandtellyouso,butIsentthemhomebecauseIknewyou"dbetiredout。
PerhapsIoughtnottohavedoneitandyou"dratherhavehadacrowdaboutyouthanjustme?"
"Itwasthekindestthingyoueverdid,andwhatcouldIlikebetterthan"justyou,"mydarling?"
Phebeseldomcalledherthat,andwhenshedidherheartwasinthelittleword,makingitsotenderthatRosethoughtitthesweetestintheworld,nexttoUncleAlec"s"mylittlegirl。"Nowitwasalmostpassionate,andPhebe"sfacegrewrathertragicalasshelookeddownatRose。Itwasimpossibletoseemunconsciousanylonger,andRosesaid,caressingPhebe"scheek,whichburnedwithafeverishcolornow:"Thendon"tshutmeoutifyouhaveatrouble,butletmeshareitasIletyoushareallmine。"
"Iwill!Littlemistress,I"vegottogoaway,soonereventhanweplanned。"
"Why,Phebe?"
"BecauseArchielovesme。"
"That"stheveryreasonyoushouldstayandmakehimhappy。"
"Notifitcauseddissensioninthefamily,andyouknowitwould。"
Roseopenedherlipstodenythisimpetuously,butcheckedherselfandansweredhonestly:"UncleandIwouldbeheartilyglad,andI"msureAuntJessienevercouldobjectifyoulovedArchieashedoesyou。"
"Shehasotherhopes,Ithink,andkindassheis,itwouldbeadisappointmentifhebroughtmehome。Sheisright,theyallare,andIaloneamtoblame。IshouldhavegonelongagoIknewIshould,butitwassopleasant,Icouldn"tbeartogoawayalone。"
"Ikeptyou,andIamtoblameifanyone,butindeed,dearPhebe,I
cannotseewhyyoushouldcareevenifAuntMyracroaksandAuntClaraexclaimsorAuntJanemakesdisagreeableremarks。Behappy,andnevermindthem,"criedRose,somuchexcitedbyallthisthatshefeltthespiritofrevoltriseupwithinherandwasreadytodefyeventhatawe—inspiringinstitution"thefamily"forherfriend"ssake。
ButPhebeshookherheadwithasadsmileandanswered,stillwiththehardtoneinhervoiceasifforcingbackallemotionthatshemightseeherdutyclearly:"Youcoulddothat,butInevercan。Answermethis,Rose,andanswertrulyasyouloveme。Ifyouhadbeentakenintoahouse,afriendless,penniless,forlorngirl,andforyearsbeenheapedwithbenefits,trusted,taught,loved,andmade,oh,sohappy!couldyouthinkitrighttostealawaysomethingthatthesegoodpeoplevaluedverymuch?Tohavethemfeelthatyouhadbeenungrateful,haddeceivedthem,andmeanttothrustyourselfintoahighplacenotfitforyouwhentheyhadbeengenerouslyhelpingyouinotherways,farmorethanyoudeserved。
Couldyouthensayasyoudonow,"Behappy,andnevermindthem"?"
PhebeheldRosebytheshouldersnowandsearchedherfacesokeenlythattheothershrankalittle,fortheblackeyeswerefulloffireandtherewassomethingalmostgrandaboutthisgirlwhoseemedsuddenlytohavebecomeawoman。Therewasnoneedforwordstoanswerthequestionsoswiftlyasked,forRoseputherselfinPhebe"splaceinthedrawingofabreath,andherownpridemadehertruthfullyreply:"NoIcouldnot!"
"Iknewyou"dsaythat,andhelpmedomyduty。"AndallthecoldnessmeltedoutofPhebe"smannerasshehuggedherlittlemistressclose,feelingthecomfortofsympathyeventhroughthebluntsincerityofRose"swords。
"IwillifIknowhow。Now,comeandtellmeallaboutit。"And,seatingherselfinthegreatchairwhichhadoftenheldthemboth,Rosestretchedoutherhandsasifgladandreadytogivehelpofanysort。
ButPhebewouldnottakeheraccustomedplace,for,asifcomingtoconfession,shekneltdownupontherugand,leaningonthearmofthechair,toldherlovestoryinthesimplestwords。
"Ineverthoughthecaredformeuntilalittlewhileago。Ifancieditwasyou,andevenwhenIknewhelikedtohearmesingIsupposeditwasbecauseyouhelped,andsoIdidmybestandwasgladyouweretobeahappygirl。Buthiseyestoldthetruth。ThenIsawwhatIhadbeendoingandwasfrightened。Hedidnotspeak,soIbelieved,whatisquitetrue,thathefeltIwasnotafitwifeforhimandwouldneveraskme。ItwasrightIwasgladofit,yetIwasproudand,thoughIdidnotaskorhopeforanything,IdidwanthimtoseethatIrespectedmyself,rememberedmyduty,andcoulddorightaswellashe。Ikeptaway。IplannedtogoassoonaspossibleandresolvedthatatthisconcertIwoulddosowell,heshouldnotbeashamedofpoorPhebeandheronegift。"
"Itwasthisthatmadeyousostrange,then,preferringtogoaloneandrefusingeverylittlefavoratourhands?"askedRose,feelingverysurenowaboutthestateofPhebe"sheart。
"Yes,Iwantedtodoeverythingmyselfandnotoweonejotofmysuccess,ifIhadany,toeventhedearestfriendI"vegot。Itwasbadandfoolishofme,andIwaspunishedbythefirstdreadfulfailure。Iwassofrightened,Rose!Mybreathwasallgone,myeyessodizzyIcouldhardlysee,andthatgreatcrowdoffacesseemedsonear,Idarednotlook。IfithadnotbeenfortheclockInevershouldhavegottenthrough,andwhenIdid,notknowingintheleasthowI"dsung,onelookatyourdistressedfacetoldmeI"dfailed。"
"ButIsmiled,PhebeindeedIdidassweetlyasIcould,forIwassureitwasonlyfright,"protestedRoseeagerly。
"Soyoudid,butthesmilewasfullofpity,notofpride,asIwantedittobe,andIrushedintoadarkplacebehindtheorgan,feelingreadytokillmyself。HowangryandmiserableIwas!Isetmyteeth,clenchedmyhands,andvowedthatIwoulddowellnexttimeorneversinganothernote。Iwasquitedesperatewhenmyturncame,andfeltasifIcoulddoalmostanything,forIrememberedthathewasthere。I"mnotsurehowitwas,butitseemedasifIwasallvoice,forIletmyselfgo,tryingtoforgeteverythingexceptthattwopeoplemustnotbedisappointed,thoughIdiedwhenthesongwasdone。"
"Oh,Phebe,itwassplendid!Inearlycried,Iwassoproudandgladtoseeyoudoyourselfjusticeatlast。"
"Andhe?"whisperedPhebe,withherfacehalfhiddenonthearmofthechair。
"Saidnotaword,butIsawhislipstrembleandhiseyesshineandIknewhewasthehappiestcreaturethere,becauseIwassurehedidthinkyoufittobehiswifeanddidmeantospeakverysoon。"
Phebemadenoanswerforamoment,seemingtoforgetthesmallsuccessinthegreateronewhichfollowedandtocomforthersoreheartwiththeknowledgethatRosewasright。