投诉 阅读记录

第1章

IHAVEattainedmyideal:Iamaroadmender,somesaystonebreaker。Bothtitlesarecorrect,buttheoneismorepregnantthantheother。AlldayIsitbytheroadsideonastretchofgrassunderahighhedgeofsaplingsandatangleoftraveller"sjoy,woodbine,sweetbrier,andlateroses。Oppositemeisawhitegate,seldomused,ifonemayjudgefromthetrailofhoneysucklegrowingtranquillyalongit:IknownowthatwheneverandwhereverIdiemysoulwillpassoutthroughthiswhitegate;

andthen,thankGod,Ishallnothaveneedtoundothattrail。

Inouryouthwediscussedouridealsfreely:Iwonderhowmanybesidemyselfhaveattained,orwouldunderstandmyattaining。

Afterall,whatdoweaskoflife,hereorindeedhereafter,butleavetoserve,tolive,tocommunewithourfellowmenandwithourselves;andfromthelapofearthtolookupintothefaceofGod?AllthesegiftsaremineasIsitbythewindingwhiteroadandservethefootstepsofmyfellows。Thereisnoroominmylifeforavariceoranxiety;Iwhoserveatthealtarliveofthealtar:

Ilacknothingbuthavenothingover;andwhenthewinteroflifecomesIshalljointhecompanyofwearyoldmenwhositonthesunnysideoftheworkhousewallandwaitforthetendermerciesofGod。

Justnowitisthesummerofthings;thereislifeandmusiceverywhere-inthestonesthemselves,andIliveto-daybeatingouttherhythmicalhammer-songofTheRing。Thereisrealphysicaljoyintheriseandswingofthearm,inthejarofafairstroke,thesplitandscatterofthequartz:Iamlearningtobeambidextrous,forwhyshouldEsausellhisbirthrightwhenthereisenoughforboth?Thentherest-hourcomes,bringingtheluxuriousacheoftiredbutnotwearylimbs;andIlieoutstretchedandrenewmystrength,sometimeswithmyfacedeep-nestledinthecoolgreengrass,sometimesonmybacklookingupintotheblueskywhichnowisemanwouldwishtofathom。

Thebirdshavenofearofme;amInotalsoofthebrownbrethreninmysoberfustianlivery?Theysharemymeals-atleastthelittledun-coatedFranciscansdo;theblackbirdsandthrushescarenotawhitforsuchsimplefoodascrumbs,butwithlegswellapartandclawstensewithpurchasetheydisinterpoorbrotherworm,havingfirstmockedhimwithsoundofrain。Therobinthatlivesbythegateregardsmyheapofstonesassubjecttohisspecialinspection。Hesitsatopandpractisesthetrillofhissummersonguntilitshrillsaboveandthroughthemetallicclangofmystrokes;andwhenIpausehecockshistail,withahumoroustwinkleofhisroundeyewhichmeans-"What!shirking,bigbrother?"-andIfall,ashamed,tomymendingofroads。

Theotherday,asIlaywithmyfaceinthegrass,Iheardagentlerustle,andraisedmyheadtofindahedge-snakewatchingmefearless,unwinking。Istretchedoutmyhand,pickeditupunresisting,andputitinmycoatlikethehusbandmanofold。Washesoill-rewarded,Iwonder,withthekissthatrevealssecrets?

MysnakesleptinpeacewhileIhammeredawaywithanoddquickeningofheartasIthoughthowtome,astoMelampus,hadcomethemessenger-hadcome,buttoearsdeafenedbycenturiesofmisrule,blindness,andoppression;sothat,withallmylonging,I

amshutoutofthewondrousworldwherewalkedMelampusandtheSaint。Tomethereisnosuggestionofevilinthelittlesilentcreatures,harmless,ordeadlyonlywiththeDeathwhichisLife。

Thebeastswhoturnuponus,asarulemaulandtearunreflectingly;withthesnakethereistheswift,silentstrike,thetiny,tinywound,thensleepandaforgetting。

Mybrownfriend,withitsmessageunspoken,slidawayintothegrassatsundowntotellitstaleinunstoppedears;andI,mytaskdone,wenthomeacrossthefieldstothesolitarycottagewhereI

lodge。Itisoldanddecrepit-tworooms,withaquasi-atticoverthemreachedbyaladderfromthekitchenandreachedonlybyme。

Itisfurnishedwiththeluxuriesoflife,atrucklebed,table,chair,andhugeearthenwarepanwhichIfillfromtheice-coldwellatthebackofthecottage。MorningandnightIservewiththeGibeonites,theircursemyblessing,asnodoubtitwastheirswhentheirheartswerepurgedbyservice。MorningandnightIsenddownthemoss-grownbucketwithitsurgentmessagefromadryanddustyworld;thechaintightensthroughmyhandastheliquidtreasurerespondstothemessenger,andthenwithcreakandjangle-thewelcomeoflabouringearth-thebucketslowlynearsthetopanddispersesthetreasureinthewaitingvessels。TheGibeoniteswereservantsinthehouseofGod,ministersofthesacramentofserviceevenastheHighPriesthimself;andI,sharingtheirhighofficeofservitude,thankGodthatthegroundwasaccursedformysake,forsurelythatcursewasthewombofallunbornblessing。

TheoldwidowwithwhomIlodgehasbeendeafforthelasttwentyyears。Shespeaksinthestrainedhighvoicewhichprotestsagainstherowninfirmity,andhereyeshavethepatheticlookofthosewhosearchinsilence。Formanyyearsshelivedalonewithherson,wholabouredonthefarmtwomilesaway。Hemethisdeathrescuingacarthorsefromitsburningstable;andthefarmergavethecottagerentfreeandaweeklyhalf-crownforlifetothepooroldwomanwhosedearestterrorwastheworkhouse。Withmyshillingaweekrent,andsharingofsupplies,weliveinthelinesofcomfort。Ofdeathshehasnofears,forinthelongchestinthekitchenlieawebofcoarsewhitelinen,twopenniescoveredwiththesametokeepdowntiredeyelids,decentwhitestockings,andawhitecottonsun-bonnet-adecorousdeath-suittruly-andenoughmoneyinthelittlebagforself-respectingburial。Thefarmerburiedhisservanthandsomely-goodman,heknewtheloveofreticentgrieffora"kind"burial-andonedayHarry"smotheristoliebesidehiminthelittlechurchyardwhichhasbeenacornfield,andmaysomedaybeoneagain。

CHAPTERII

ONSundaysmyfeettakeeverthesameway。Firstmytempleservice,andthenfivemilestrampoverthetender,dewyfields,withtheirineffableearthysmell,untilIreachthelittlechurchatthefootofthegrey-greendown。Here,everySunday,ayoungpriestfromaneighbouringvillagesaysMassforthetinyhamlet,whereallareveryoldorveryyoung-fortheheydayoflifehasnopartunderthelongshadowofthehills,butisawayatseaorinservice。ThereisabeautifulseemlinessintheextremeyouthofthepriestwhoservestheseagedchildrenofGod。Hebendstocommunicatethemwiththereverenttendernessofason,andreadswiththecarefulintonationoffar-seeinglove。Totheoldpeopleheisthesonoftheiroldage,God-senttoguidetheirtotteringfootstepsalongthehighwayoffoolishwayfarers;andhe,withhisyouthandstrength,wishesnobettertask。Serviceended,wegreeteachotherfriendly-formenshouldnotbestrangeintheacreofGod;andIpassthroughthelittlehamletandoutanduponthegreydownbeyond。Here,atthelastgate,Ipauseforbreakfast;

andthenupandonwithquickeningpulse,andevergreenmemoryofthewearywar-wornGreekswhobrokeranktogreetthegreatblueMother-waythatledtohome。Istandonthesummithatless,thewindinmyhair,thesmackofsaltonmycheek,allroundmerollingstretchesofcloud-shadoweddown,nosoundbuttheshrillmournofthepeewitandthegatheringofthesea。

Thehourspass,theshadowslengthen,thesheep-bellsclang;andI

lieinmynicheunderthestuntedhawthornwatchingthetoandfroofthesea,andAEolusshepherdinghiswhitesheepacrosstheblue。

Ilovetheseawithitsimpenetrablefathoms,itswashandundertow,andraspofshinglesuckedanew。IloveitforitssecretdeadintheCavernsofPeace,ofwhichaccountmustbegivenwhenthebooksareopenedandearthandheavenhavefledaway。Yetinmylovethereisaparadox,forasIwatchtherestless,ineffectivewavesIthinkofthemeasureless,reflectivedepthsofthestillandsilentSeaofGlass,ofthedead,smallandgreat,richorpoor,withtheworkswhichfollowthem,andoftheVoiceasthevoiceofmanywaters,whenthemultitudeofonemindrendsheavenwithalleluia:andIliesostillthatIalmostfeelthekissofWhitePeaceonmymouth。Laterstill,whentheflareofthesinkingsunhasdiedawayandthestarsriseoutofaveilofpurplecloud,Itakemywayhome,downtheslopes,throughthehamlet,andacrossmilesofsleepingfields;overwhichnighthasthrownhershiftingwebofmist-hometothelittleattic,thedeep,coolwell,thekindlywrinkledfacewithitslisteningeyes-

peaceinmyheartandthankfulnessfortherhythmoftheroad。

Mondaybringsthejoyofwork,secondonlytotheSabbathofrest,andIsettletomyheapbythewhitegate。SoonIhearthedistantstampofhorsehoofs,heraldingthegrindandrollofthewheelswhichreachesmelater-aheavyflour-waggonwithateamoffourgreatgentlehorses,gaywithbrasstrappingsandscarletear-caps。

Onthetopofthecraftilypiledsacksliesthewhite-cladwaggoner,apinkinhismouthwhichhemumblesmeditatively,andthereinsloopedovertheinactivewhip-whyshouldhedriveawillingteamthatknowsthejourneyandrespondsasstrenuouslytoacheerychirrupastothewell-directedlash?Wegreetandpassthetimeofday,andashemountstherisehecallsbackawarningofcomingrain。Iamalreadywhitewithdustashewithflour,sacramentaldust,theoutwardandvisiblesignofthestirandbeatoftheheartoflabouringlife。

Nexttopassdowntheroadisananxiousruffledhen,herspeckledbreastastirwithmaternaltroubles。Shewalksdelicately,liftingherfeethighandglancingfurtivelyfromsidetosidewithcomblowdressed。Thesightofman,theheartlessegg-collector,fromwhosehauntsshehasfled,wringsfromherastartledcluck,andshemakesforthewhitegate,climbsthrough,anddisappears。I

knowherfeelingstoowelltointrude。Manytimesalreadyhasshehiddenherself,amassedfourorfiveprecioustreasures,broodingoverthemwithanxioushope;andthen,afterabriefdesertiontoseekthenecessaryfood,shehasreturnedtofindhereffortsatconcealmentvain,hertreasuresgone。Atlast,withthecourageofdespairshehasresolvedtobravetheterrorsoftheunknownandseekahauntbeyondthetyrannyofman。Iwillwatchoverherfromafar,andwhenhermother-hopeisfulfilledIwillmarshalherandherbroodbacktothefarmwhereshebelongs;forwhatendIcarenottothink,itisofthemysterywhichliesattheheartofthings;andweareallGod"sbeasts,saysStAugustine。

Hereismystone-song,aparaphraseoftheTreasureMotif。

[Musicscorewhichcannotbereproduced。ItisF#dottedcrotchet,F#quaver,F#quaver,F#dottedcrotchet,Dcrotchet,Ecrotchet。

Thisbaristhenrepeatedoncemore。]

WhatawonderfulworkWagnerhasdoneforhumanityintranslatingthetoiloflifeintothereadablescriptofmusic!Forthosewhoseekthetaleofotherworldshismagicissilent;butearth-

travailunderhiswandbecomesinstinctwithrhythmicsongtoanaccompanimentoftheelements,andtheblareandcrashofthebottomlesspititself。ThePilgrim"sMarchisthesadsoundoffootsoremen;theSanGraalthetremulousyearningofservitudeforricher,deeperbondage。Theyellow,thirstyflameslickupthewillingsacrifice,thewaterwailsthesecretoftheriverandthesea;thebirdsandbeasts,theshepherdwithhispipe,theundergroundlifeinrocksandcaverns,allcrytheirmessagetothisnineteenth-centurytoiling,labouringworld-andtomeasI

mendmyroad。

TwotrampscomeandflingthemselvesbymeasIeatmynoondaymeal。Theone,red-eyed,furtive,liesonhissidewithrestless,clutchinghandsthattearandtwistandtorturethelivinggrass,whilehislipsmutterincoherently。Theothersitsstooped,bare-

footed,legswideapart,hisfacegrey,almostasgreyashisstubblybeard;anditisnotlongsinceDeathlookedhimintheeyes。Hetellsmequerulouslyofatwohundredmilestrampsinceearlyspring,ofsearchforwork,casualjobswithmorekicksthanhalfpence,andabriefbutblissfulsojourninahospitalbed,fromwhichhewasdismissedwithsentencepasseduponhim。Forhimself,heisdeterminedtodieontheroadunderahedge,whereamancanseeandbreathe。Hisanxietyisallforhisfellow;HEhassaidhewill"doforaman";hewantsto"swing,"togetoutofhis"dog"slife。"Iwatchhimashelies,thisIshmaelandwould-beLamech。

Ignorance,hunger,terror,theexhaustionofpastgenerations,havedonetheirwork。Themanismad,andwouldkillhisfellowman。

Presentlywepart,andthetwogo,doggedandfootsore,downtheroadwhichistoleadthemintothegreatsilence。

CHAPTERIII

YESTERDAYwasadayofencounters。

First,earlyinthemorning,ayounggirlcamedowntheroadonabicycle。Herdressguardwasloose,andshestoppedtoaskforapieceofstring。WhenIhadtieditforhershelookedatme,atmyworndustyclothesandburntface;andthenshetookaNiphetosrosefromherbeltandlaiditshylyinmydirtydisfiguredpalm。

Ibaredmyhead,andstoodhatinhandlookingafterherassherodeawayupthehill。ThenItookmytreasureandputitinanestofcooldewygrassunderthehedge。ECCEANCILLADOMINI。

Mynextvisitorwasafellow-workeronhiswaytoajobatthecross-roads。Hestoodgazingmeditativelyatmyheapofstones。

"Owlong"aveyerbinatthisjobthaty"ereinsuchahurry?"

Istayedmyhammertoanswer-"Fourmonths。"

"Seenbetterdays?"

"Never,"Isaidemphatically,andpunctuatedtheremarkwithastonesplitneatlyinfour。

Themansurveyedmeinsilenceforamoment;thenhesaidslowly,"Meantersayyerlikecrackin"theseblamedstonestofill"olessomeotherfool"smade?"

Inodded。

"Well,thatbeatseverything。Now,I"AVEseenbetterdays;workedinabigbreweryovernearMaidstone-atownthat,andsomethingdoing;andnow,"ereIam,"ammeringme"eartoutontheseblastedstonesforabito"breadandapipeo"baccyonceaweek-itain"tgoodenough。"Hepulledablackenedclayfromhispocketandbeganslowlyfillingitwithranktobacco;thenhelititcarefullybehindhisbatteredhat,putthespentmatchbackinhispocket,rosetohisfeet,hitchedhisbraces,and,withasilentnodtome,wentontohisjob。

Whydowegivethesetiredchildren,whosemindsmoveslowly,whoseeyesareholdenthattheycannotreadtheBook,whoseheartsarefullofsoreresentmentagainsttheyknownotwhat,suchworkasthistodo-hammeringtheirheartsoutforabitofbread?Allthepathosofunreasoninglabourringsinthesefewwords。Wefitthecollaronunwillingnecks;andwhentheirserviceisoverwebidthemgooutfree;butwebreakthegoodMosaiclawandsendthemawayempty。Whatwonderthereissolittlewillingservice,sofewearsreadytobethrustthroughagainstthemaster"sdoor。

Theswiftstrideofcivilisationisleavingbehindindividualeffort,andturningmanintotheDaemonofamachine。Toandfroinfrontofthelongloom,liftingaleverateitherend,paceshewhooncewithpainstakingintelligencedrovetheshuttle。THENhetastedthejoyofcompletedwork,thatwhichhiseyehadlookedupon,andhishandshadhandled;nowhisworkisaslittlefinishedasthewebofPenelope。Oncethereapergraspedthegoldencornstems,andwithdexteroussweepofsicklesetfreethetreasureoftheearth。Oncethecreaturesofthefieldwereknowntohim,andhiseyecaughttheflareofscarletandblueasthefrailpoppiesandsturdycorn-cockleslaiddowntheirbeautyathisfeet;nowhesitssereneonJuggernaut"scar,itsguidingDaemon,andthefieldissilenttohim。

Aswiththewebandthegrainsowiththewoodandstoneinthetreasure-houseofourneeds。ThegroundwasaccursedFOROURSAKE

thatinthesweatofourbrowwemighteatbread。Nowthemanyliveinthebrain-sweatofthefew;anditmustbeso,foraslittleasgreatKingCnutcouldstaytheseauntilithadreachedtheappointedplace,solittlecanweraiseabarriertothewaveofprogress,andsay,"Thusfarandnofurthershaltthoucome。"

Whatthen?Thisatleast;ifweliveinanageofmechanismletusseetoitthatwearearaceofintelligentmechanics;andifmanistobetheDaemonofamachinelethimknowthesettingoftheknives,theriseofthepiston,thepartthateachwheelandrodplaysintheeconomyofthewhole,thepartthathehimselfplays,co-operatingwithit。Then,whenhehaslivedandservedintelligently,letusgivehimofourflocksandofourfloorthathemaylearntorestinthelengtheningshadowsuntilheiscalledtohisworkabove。

SoIsat,hammeringoutmythoughts,andwiththemtheconvictionthatstonebreakingshouldbeallottedtominorpoetsorvagrantchildrenofnaturelikemyself,nevertosuchtiredfolkasmypoormateatthecross-roadsandhisfellows。

Atnoon,whenIstoppedformymeal,thesunwasbakingthehardwhiteroadinapitilessglare。Severalwaggonsandcartspassed,thehorsessweatingandstraining,withdrooping,fly-tormentedears。Themenforthemostpartnoddedslumberouslyontheshaft,seekingthelittleshelterthecartafforded;butoneshuffledinthewhitedust,withanoccasionalchirrupandfriendlypressureonthetiredhorse"sneck。

Thenanoldwomanandasmallchildappearedinsight,bothwithenormoussun-bonnetsandcarryingbaskets。Astheycameupwithmethewomanstoppedandsweptherfacewithherhand,whilethechild,depositingthebasketinthedustwithgreatcare,wipedherlittlestickyfingersonherpinafore。Thentheshadyhedgebeckonedthemandtheycameandsatdownnearme。Thewomanlookedaboutseventy,tall,angular,dauntless,goodforanothertenyearsofhardwork。Thelittlemaid-heronlygrandchild,shetoldme-

wasjustfour,herfatherawaysoldiering,andthemotherdiedinchildbed,soforfouryearsthechildhadknownnootherguardianorplaymatethantheoldwoman。Shewasnottheleastshy,buthadthestrangeself-possessionwhichcomesfromassociatingwithonewhohastravelledfaronlife"sjourney。

"Icouldn"tleaveheraloneinthehouse,"saidhergrandmother,"andshewouldn"tleavethekittenforfearitshouldbelonesome"-

withahumorous,tenderglanceatthechild-"butit"salongtrampintheheatforthelittleone,andwe"veanothermiletogo。"

"Willyouletherbideheretillyoucomeback?"Isaid。"She"llbeallrightbyme。"

Theoldladyhesitated。

"Will"eestaybyhim,dearie?"shesaid。

Thesmallchildnodded,drewfromherminiaturepocketapieceofsweetstuff,extractedfromthebasketasmallblackcat,andsettledinfortheafternoon。Hergrandmotherrose,tookherbasket,and,withanodand"Thank"eekindly,mister,"wentoffdowntheroad。

Iwentbacktomyworkalittledepressed-whyhadInotwhitehair?-forafewminuteshadshownmethatIwasnotoldenoughforthechilddespitemyfortyyears。Shewasquitehappywiththelittleblackcat,whichlayinthesmalllapblinkingitsyelloweyesatthesun;andpresentlyanoldmancameby,lameandbent,withgnarledtwistedhands,leaningheavilyonhisstick。

Hegreetedmeinahigh,pipingvoice,limpedacrosstothechild,andsatdown。"Yourlittlemaid,mister?"hesaid。

Iexplained。

"Ah,"hesaid,"I"veleftalittledarlin"likethisat"ome。It"s"ardonusoldfolkswhenwe"reonetoomany;butthelittlemouthsmustbefilled,andmyson,"esaid"edidn"tseetheycouldkeepmeonthearf-crown,withanotherchildontheway;soI"mtrampingtoN-,totheHouse;butit"sa"ardpinch,leavin"thelittleones。"

Ilookedathim-atypicalcountryman,withwhitehair,mildblueeyes,andarosy,childish,unwrinkledface。

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