第1章
ITisnearlyeightyearssincethisbookwasfirstpublished。Ipresentit,unaltered,intheCheapEdition;andsuchofmyopinionsasitexpresses,arequiteunalteredtoo。
MyreadershaveopportunitiesofjudgingforthemselveswhethertheinfluencesandtendencieswhichIdistrustinAmerica,haveanyexistencenotinmyimagination。Theycanexamineforthemselveswhethertherehasbeenanythinginthepubliccareerofthatcountryduringthesepasteightyears,orwhetherthereisanythinginitspresentposition,athomeorabroad,whichsuggeststhatthoseinfluencesandtendenciesreallydoexist。Astheyfindthefact,theywilljudgeme。Iftheydiscernanyevidencesofwrong-
goinginanydirectionthatIhaveindicated,theywillacknowledgethatIhadreasoninwhatIwrote。Iftheydiscernnosuchthing,theywillconsidermealtogethermistaken。
Prejudiced,IneverhavebeenotherwisethaninfavouroftheUnitedStates。Novisitorcaneverhavesetfootonthoseshores,withastrongerfaithintheRepublicthanIhad,whenIlandedinAmerica。
Ipurposelyabstainfromextendingtheseobservationstoanylength。Ihavenothingtodefend,ortoexplainaway。Thetruthisthetruth;andneitherchildishabsurdities,norunscrupulouscontradictions,canmakeitotherwise。Theearthwouldstillmoveroundthesun,thoughthewholeCatholicChurchsaidNo。
IhavemanyfriendsinAmerica,andfeelagratefulinterestinthecountry。Torepresentmeasviewingitwithill-nature,animosity,orpartisanship,ismerelytodoaveryfoolishthing,whichisalwaysaveryeasyone;andwhichIhavedisregardedforeightyears,andcoulddisregardforeightymore。
MYreadershaveopportunitiesofjudgingforthemselveswhethertheinfluencesandtendencieswhichIdistrustedinAmerica,had,atthattime,anyexistencebutinmyimagination。Theycanexamineforthemselveswhethertherehasbeenanythinginthepubliccareerofthatcountrysince,athomeorabroad,whichsuggeststhatthoseinfluencesandtendenciesreallydidexist。Astheyfindthefact,theywilljudgeme。Iftheydiscernanyevidencesofwrong-going,inanydirectionthatIhaveindicated,theywillacknowledgethatIhadreasoninwhatIwrote。Iftheydiscernnosuchindications,theywillconsidermealtogethermistaken-butnotwilfully。
Prejudiced,Iamnot,andneverhavebeen,otherwisethaninfavouroftheUnitedStates。IhavemanyfriendsinAmerica,Ifeelagratefulinterestinthecountry,Ihopeandbelieveitwillsuccessfullyworkoutaproblemofthehighestimportancetothewholehumanrace。TorepresentmeasviewingAMERICAwithill-
nature,coldness,oranimosity,ismerelytodoaveryfoolishthing:whichisalwaysaveryeasyone。
CHAPTERI-GOINGAWAY
ISHALLneverforgettheone-fourthseriousandthree-fourthscomicalastonishment,withwhich,onthemorningofthethirdofJanuaryeighteen-hundred-and-forty-two,Iopenedthedoorof,andputmyheadinto,a"state-room"onboardtheBritanniasteam-
packet,twelvehundredtonsburthenperregister,boundforHalifaxandBoston,andcarryingHerMajesty"smails。
Thatthisstate-roomhadbeenspeciallyengagedfor"CharlesDickens,Esquire,andLady,"wasrenderedsufficientlycleareventomyscaredintellectbyaverysmallmanuscript,announcingthefact,whichwaspinnedonaveryflatquilt,coveringaverythinmattress,spreadlikeasurgicalplasteronamostinaccessibleshelf。Butthatthiswasthestate-roomconcerningwhichCharlesDickens,Esquire,andLady,hadhelddailyandnightlyconferencesforatleastfourmonthspreceding:thatthiscouldbyanypossibilitybethatsmallsnugchamberoftheimagination,whichCharlesDickens,Esquire,withthespiritofprophecystronguponhim,hadalwaysforetoldwouldcontainatleastonelittlesofa,andwhichhislady,withamodestyetmostmagnificentsenseofitslimiteddimensions,hadfromthefirstopinedwouldnotholdmorethantwoenormousportmanteausinsomeoddcorneroutofsight(portmanteauswhichcouldnownomorebegotinatthedoor,nottosaystowedaway,thanagiraffecouldbepersuadedorforcedintoaflower-pot):thatthisutterlyimpracticable,thoroughlyhopeless,andprofoundlypreposterousbox,hadtheremotestreferenceto,orconnectionwith,thosechasteandpretty,nottosaygorgeouslittlebowers,sketchedbyamasterlyhand,inthehighlyvarnishedlithographicplanhangingupintheagent"scounting-houseinthecityofLondon:thatthisroomofstate,inshort,couldbeanythingbutapleasantfictionandcheerfuljestofthecaptain"s,inventedandputinpracticeforthebetterrelishandenjoymentoftherealstate-roompresentlytobedisclosed:-theseweretruthswhichIreallycouldnot,forthemoment,bringmymindatalltobearuponorcomprehend。AndIsatdownuponakindofhorsehairslab,orperch,ofwhichthereweretwowithin;andlooked,withoutanyexpressionofcountenancewhatever,atsomefriendswhohadcomeonboardwithus,andwhowerecrushingtheirfacesintoallmannerofshapesbyendeavouringtosqueezethemthroughthesmalldoorway。
Wehadexperiencedaprettysmartshockbeforecomingbelow,which,butthatwewerethemostsanguinepeopleliving,mighthavepreparedusfortheworst。TheimaginativeartisttowhomIhavealreadymadeallusion,hasdepictedinthesamegreatwork,achamberofalmostinterminableperspective,furnished,asMr。
Robinswouldsay,inastyleofmorethanEasternsplendour,andfilled(butnotinconvenientlyso)withgroupsofladiesandgentlemen,intheveryhigheststateofenjoymentandvivacity。
Beforedescendingintothebowelsoftheship,wehadpassedfromthedeckintoalongnarrowapartment,notunlikeagigantichearsewithwindowsinthesides;havingattheupperendamelancholystove,atwhichthreeorfourchillystewardswerewarmingtheirhands;whileoneitherside,extendingdownitswholedrearylength,wasalong,longtable,overeachofwhicharack,fixedtothelowroof,andstuckfullofdrinking-glassesandcruet-stands,hinteddismallyatrollingseasandheavyweather。Ihadnotatthattimeseentheidealpresentmentofthischamberwhichhassincegratifiedmesomuch,butIobservedthatoneofourfriendswhohadmadethearrangementsforourvoyage,turnedpaleonentering,retreatedonthefriendbehindhim。,smotehisforeheadinvoluntarily,andsaidbelowhisbreath,"Impossible!itcannotbe!"orwordstothateffect。Herecoveredhimselfhoweverbyagreateffort,andafterapreparatorycoughortwo,cried,withaghastlysmilewhichisstillbeforeme,lookingatthesametimeroundthewalls,"Ha!thebreakfast-room,steward-eh?"Weallforesawwhattheanswermustbe:weknewtheagonyhesuffered。
HehadoftenspokenofTHESALOON;hadtakeninandliveduponthepictorialidea;hadusuallygivenustounderstand,athome,thattoformajustconceptionofit,itwouldbenecessarytomultiplythesizeandfurnitureofanordinarydrawing-roombyseven,andthenfallshortofthereality。Whenthemaninreplyavowedthetruth;theblunt,remorseless,nakedtruth;"Thisisthesaloon,sir"-heactuallyreeledbeneaththeblow。
Inpersonswhoweresosoontopart,andinterposebetweentheirelsedailycommunicationtheformidablebarrierofmanythousandmilesofstormyspace,andwhowereforthatreasonanxioustocastnoothercloud,noteventhepassingshadowofamoment"sdisappointmentordiscomfiture,upontheshortintervalofhappycompanionshipthatyetremainedtothem-inpersonssosituated,thenaturaltransitionfromthesefirstsurpriseswasobviouslyintopealsofheartylaughter,andIcanreportthatI,forone,beingstillseatedupontheslaborperchbeforementioned,roaredoutrightuntilthevesselrangagain。Thus,inlessthantwominutesaftercominguponitforthefirsttime,weallbycommonconsentagreedthatthisstate-roomwasthepleasantestandmostfacetiousandcapitalcontrivancepossible;andthattohavehaditoneinchlarger,wouldhavebeenquiteadisagreeableanddeplorablestateofthings。Andwiththis;andwithshowinghow,-
byverynearlyclosingthedoor,andtwininginandoutlikeserpents,andbycountingthelittlewashingslabasstanding-room,-wecouldmanagetoinsinuatefourpeopleintoit,allatonetime;andentreatingeachothertoobservehowveryairyitwas(indock),andhowtherewasabeautifulport-holewhichcouldbekeptopenallday(weatherpermitting),andhowtherewasquitealargebull"s-eyejustoverthelooking-glasswhichwouldrendershavingaperfectlyeasyanddelightfulprocess(whentheshipdidn"trolltoomuch);wearrived,atlast,attheunanimousconclusionthatitwasratherspaciousthanotherwise:thoughIdoverilybelievethat,deductingthetwoberths,oneabovetheother,thanwhichnothingsmallerforsleepinginwasevermadeexceptcoffins,itwasnobiggerthanoneofthosehackneycabrioletswhichhavethedoorbehind,andshoottheirfaresout,likesacksofcoals,uponthepavement。
Havingsettledthispointtotheperfectsatisfactionofallparties,concernedandunconcerned,wesatdownroundthefireintheladies"cabin-justtotrytheeffect。Itwasratherdark,certainly;butsomebodysaid,"ofcourseitwouldbelight,atsea,"apropositiontowhichweallassented;echoing"ofcourse,ofcourse;"thoughitwouldbeexceedinglydifficulttosaywhywethoughtso。Iremember,too,whenwehaddiscoveredandexhaustedanothertopicofconsolationinthecircumstanceofthisladies"
cabinadjoiningourstate-room,andtheconsequentlyimmensefeasibilityofsittingthereatalltimesandseasons,andhadfallenintoamomentarysilence,leaningourfacesonourhandsandlookingatthefire,oneofourpartysaid,withthesolemnairofamanwhohadmadeadiscovery,"Whatarelishmulledclaretwillhavedownhere!"whichappearedtostrikeusallmostforcibly;asthoughthereweresomethingspicyandhigh-flavouredincabins,whichessentiallyimprovedthatcomposition,andrendereditquiteincapableofperfectionanywhereelse。
Therewasastewardess,too,activelyengagedinproducingcleansheetsandtable-clothsfromtheveryentrailsofthesofas,andfromunexpectedlockers,ofsuchartfulmechanism,thatitmadeone"sheadachetoseethemopenedoneafteranother,andrendereditquiteadistractingcircumstancetofollowherproceedings,andtofindthateverynookandcornerandindividualpieceoffurniturewassomethingelsebesideswhatitpretendedtobe,andwasameretrapanddeceptionandplaceofsecretstowage,whoseostensiblepurposewasitsleastusefulone。
GodblessthatstewardessforherpiouslyfraudulentaccountofJanuaryvoyages!Godblessherforherclearrecollectionofthecompanionpassageoflastyear,whennobodywasill,andeverybodydancingfrommorningtonight,anditwas"arun"oftwelvedays,andapieceofthepurestfrolic,anddelight,andjollity!AllhappinessbewithherforherbrightfaceandherpleasantScotchtongue,whichhadsoundsofoldHomeinitformyfellow-traveller;
andforherpredictionsoffairwindsandfineweather(allwrong,orIshouldn"tbehalfsofondofher);andforthetenthousandsmallfragmentsofgenuinewomanlytact,bywhich,withoutpiecingthemelaboratelytogether,andpatchingthemupintoshapeandformandcaseandpointedapplication,sheneverthelessdidplainlyshowthatallyoungmothersononesideoftheAtlanticwerenearandcloseathandtotheirlittlechildrenleftupontheother;andthatwhatseemedtotheuninitiatedaseriousjourney,was,tothosewhowereinthesecret,amerefrolic,tobesungaboutandwhistledat!Lightbeherheart,andgayhermerryeyes,foryears!
Thestate-roomhadgrownprettyfast;butbythistimeithadexpandedintosomethingquitebulky,andalmostboastedabay-
windowtoviewtheseafrom。Sowewentupondeckagaininhighspirits;andthere,everythingwasinsuchastateofbustleandactivepreparation,thatthebloodquickeneditspace,andwhirledthroughone"sveinsonthatclearfrostymorningwithinvoluntarymirthfulness。Foreverygallantshipwasridingslowlyupanddown,andeverylittleboatwassplashingnoisilyinthewater;andknotsofpeoplestooduponthewharf,gazingwithakindof"dreaddelight"onthefar-famedfastAmericansteamer;andonepartyofmenwere"takinginthemilk,"or,inotherwords,gettingthecowonboard;andanotherwerefillingtheicehousestotheverythroatwithfreshprovisions;withbutchers"-meatandgarden-stuff,palesucking-pigs,calves"headsinscores,beef,veal,andpork,andpoultryoutofallproportion;andotherswerecoilingropesandbusywithoakumyarns;andotherswereloweringheavypackagesintothehold;andthepurser"sheadwasbarelyvisibleasitloomedinastate,ofexquisiteperplexityfromthemidstofavastpileofpassengers"luggage;andthereseemedtobenothinggoingonanywhere,oruppermostinthemindofanybody,butpreparationsforthismightyvoyage。This,withthebrightcoldsun,thebracingair,thecrisply-curlingwater,thethinwhitecrustofmorningiceuponthedeckswhichcrackledwithasharpandcheerfulsoundbeneaththelightesttread,wasirresistible。Andwhen,againupontheshore,weturnedandsawfromthevessel"smasthernamesignalledinflagsofjoyouscolours,andflutteringbytheirsidethebeautifulAmericanbannerwithitsstarsandstripes,-thelongthreethousandmilesandmore,and,longerstill,thesixwholemonthsofabsence,sodwindledandfaded,thattheshiphadgoneoutandcomehomeagain,anditwasbroadspringalreadyintheCoburgDockatLiverpool。
Ihavenotinquiredamongmymedicalacquaintance,whetherTurtle,andcoldPunch,withHock,Champagne,andClaret,andalltheslightetceterausuallyincludedinanunlimitedorderforagooddinner-especiallywhenitislefttotheliberalconstructionofmyfaultlessfriend,Mr。Radley,oftheAdelphiHotel-arepeculiarlycalculatedtosufferasea-change;orwhetheraplainmutton-chop,andaglassortwoofsherry,wouldbelesslikelyofconversionintoforeignanddisconcertingmaterial。Myownopinionis,thatwhetheroneisdiscreetorindiscreetintheseparticulars,ontheeveofasea-voyage,isamatteroflittleconsequence;andthat,touseacommonphrase,"itcomestoverymuchthesamethingintheend。"Bethisasitmay,Iknowthatthedinnerofthatdaywasundeniablyperfect;thatitcomprehendedalltheseitems,andagreatmanymore;andthatwealldidamplejusticetoit。AndIknowtoo,that,batingacertaintacitavoidanceofanyallusiontoto-morrow;suchasmaybesupposedtoprevailbetweendelicate-mindedturnkeys,andasensitiveprisonerwhoistobehangednextmorning;wegotonverywell,and,allthingsconsidered,weremerryenough。
Whenthemorning-THEmorning-came,andwemetatbreakfast,itwascurioustoseehoweagerweallweretopreventamoment"spauseintheconversation,andhowastoundinglygayeverybodywas:
theforcedspiritsofeachmemberofthelittlepartyhavingasmuchlikenesstohisnaturalmirth,ashot-housepeasatfiveguineasthequart,resembleinflavourthegrowthofthedews,andair,andrainofHeaven。Butasoneo"clock,thehourforgoingaboard,drewnear,thisvolubilitydwindledawaybylittleandlittle,despitethemostperseveringeffortstothecontrary,untilatlast,thematterbeingnowquitedesperate,wethrewoffalldisguise;openlyspeculateduponwhereweshouldbethistimeto-
morrow,thistimenextday,andsoforth;andentrustedavastnumberofmessagestothosewhointendedreturningtotownthatnight,whichweretobedeliveredathomeandelsewherewithoutfail,withintheveryshortestpossiblespaceoftimeafterthearrivaloftherailwaytrainatEustonSquare。Andcommissionsandremembrancesdosocrowdupononeatsuchatime,thatwewerestillbusiedwiththisemploymentwhenwefoundourselvesfused,asitwere,intoadenseconglomerationofpassengersandpassengers"
friendsandpassengers"luggage,alljumbledtogetheronthedeckofasmallsteamboat,andpantingandsnortingofftothepacket,whichhadworkedoutofdockyesterdayafternoonandwasnowlyingathermooringsintheriver。
Andtheresheis!alleyesareturnedtowhereshelies,dimlydiscerniblethroughthegatheringfogoftheearlywinterafternoon;everyfingerispointedinthesamedirection;andmurmursofinterestandadmiration-as"Howbeautifulshelooks!"
"Howtrimsheis!"-areheardoneveryside。Eventhelazygentlemanwithhishatononesideandhishandsinhispockets,whohasdispensedsomuchconsolationbyinquiringwithayawnofanothergentlemanwhetherheis"goingacross"-asifitwereaferry-evenhecondescendstolookthatway,andnodhishead,aswhoshouldsay,"NomistakeaboutTHAT:"andnoteventhesageLordBurleighinhisnod,includedhalfsomuchasthislazygentlemanofmightwhohasmadethepassage(aseverybodyonboardhasfoundoutalready;it"simpossibletosayhow)thirteentimeswithoutasingleaccident!Thereisanotherpassengerverymuchwrapped-up,whohasbeenfrowneddownbytherest,andmorallytrampleduponandcrushed,forpresumingtoinquirewithatimidinteresthowlongitissincethepoorPresidentwentdown。Heisstandingclosetothelazygentleman,andsayswithafaintsmilethathebelievesSheisaverystrongShip;towhichthelazygentleman,lookingfirstinhisquestioner"seyeandthenveryhardinthewind"s,answersunexpectedlyandominously,thatSheneedbe。Uponthisthelazygentlemaninstantlyfallsverylowinthepopularestimation,andthepassengers,withlooksofdefiance,whispertoeachotherthatheisanass,andanimpostor,andclearlydon"tknowanythingatallaboutit。
Butwearemadefastalongsidethepacket,whosehugeredfunnelissmokingbravely,givingrichpromiseofseriousintentions。
Packing-cases,portmanteaus,carpet-bags,andboxes,arealreadypassedfromhandtohand,andhauledonboardwithbreathlessrapidity。Theofficers,smartlydressed,areatthegangwayhandingthepassengersuptheside,andhurryingthemen。Infiveminutes"time,thelittlesteamerisutterlydeserted,andthepacketisbesetandover-runbyitslatefreight,whoinstantlypervadethewholeship,andaretobemetwithbythedozenineverynookandcorner:swarmingdownbelowwiththeirownbaggage,andstumblingoverotherpeople"s;disposingthemselvescomfortablyinwrongcabins,andcreatingamosthorribleconfusionbyhavingtoturnoutagain;madlybentuponopeninglockeddoors,andonforcingapassageintoallkindsofout-of-the-wayplaceswherethereisnothoroughfare;sendingwildstewards,withelfinhair,toandfrouponthebreezydecksonunintelligibleerrands,impossibleofexecution:andinshort,creatingthemostextraordinaryandbewilderingtumult。Inthemidstofallthis,thelazygentleman,whoseemstohavenoluggageofanykind-notsomuchasafriend,even-loungesupanddownthehurricanedeck,coollypuffingacigar;and,asthisunconcerneddemeanouragainexaltshimintheopinionofthosewhohaveleisuretoobservehisproceedings,everytimehelooksupatthemasts,ordownatthedecks,orovertheside,theylooktheretoo,aswonderingwhetherheseesanythingwronganywhere,andhopingthat,incaseheshould,hewillhavethegoodnesstomentionit。
Whathavewehere?Thecaptain"sboat!andyonderthecaptainhimself。Now,byallourhopesandwishes,theverymanheoughttobe!Awell-made,tight-built,dapperlittlefellow;witharuddyface,whichisaletterofinvitationtoshakehimbybothhandsatonce;andwithaclear,bluehonesteye,thatitdoesonegoodtoseeone"ssparklingimagein。"Ringthebell!""Ding,ding,ding!"theverybellisinahurry。"Nowfortheshore-
who"sfortheshore?"-"Thesegentlemen,Iamsorrytosay。"Theyareaway,andneversaid,Goodb"ye。Ahnowtheywaveitfromthelittleboat。"Goodb"ye!Goodb"ye!"Threecheersfromthem;
threemorefromus;threemorefromthem:andtheyaregone。
Toandfro,toandfro,toandfroagainahundredtimes!Thiswaitingforthelatestmail-bagsisworsethanall。Ifwecouldhavegoneoffinthemidstofthatlastburst,weshouldhavestartedtriumphantly:buttoliehere,twohoursandmoreinthedampfog,neitherstayingathomenorgoingabroad,islettingonegraduallydownintotheverydepthsofdulnessandlowspirits。A
speckinthemist,atlast!That"ssomething。Itistheboatwewaitfor!That"smoretothepurpose。Thecaptainappearsonthepaddle-boxwithhisspeakingtrumpet;theofficerstaketheirstations;allhandsareonthealert;theflagginghopesofthepassengersrevive;thecookspauseintheirsavourywork,andlookoutwithfacesfullofinterest。Theboatcomesalongside;thebagsaredraggedinanyhow,andflungdownforthemomentanywhere。
Threecheersmore:andasthefirstoneringsuponourears,thevesselthrobslikeastronggiantthathasjustreceivedthebreathoflife;thetwogreatwheelsturnfiercelyroundforthefirsttime;andthenobleship,withwindandtideastern,breaksproudlythroughthelashedandroamingwater。
CHAPTERII-THEPASSAGEOUT
WEalldinedtogetherthatday;andaratherformidablepartywewere:nofewerthaneighty-sixstrong。Thevesselbeingprettydeepinthewater,withallhercoalsonboardandsomanypassengers,andtheweatherbeingcalmandquiet,therewasbutlittlemotion;sothatbeforethedinnerwashalfover,eventhosepassengerswhoweremostdistrustfulofthemselvespluckedupamazingly;andthosewhointhemorninghadreturnedtotheuniversalquestion,"Areyouagoodsailor?"averydecidednegative,noweitherparriedtheinquirywiththeevasivereply,"Oh!IsupposeI"mnoworsethananybodyelse;"or,recklessofallmoralobligations,answeredboldly"Yes:"andwithsomeirritationtoo,asthoughtheywouldadd,"IshouldliketoknowwhatyouseeinME,sir,particularly,tojustifysuspicion!"
Notwithstandingthishightoneofcourageandconfidence,Icouldnotbutobservethatveryfewremainedlongovertheirwine;andthateverybodyhadanunusualloveoftheopenair;andthatthefavouriteandmostcovetedseatswereinvariablythosenearesttothedoor。Thetea-table,too,wasbynomeansaswellattendedasthedinner-table;andtherewaslesswhist-playingthanmighthavebeenexpected。Still,withtheexceptionofonelady,whohadretiredwithsomeprecipitationatdinner-time,immediatelyafterbeingassistedtothefinestcutofaveryyellowboiledlegofmuttonwithverygreencapers,therewerenoinvalidsasyet;andwalking,andsmoking,anddrinkingofbrandy-and-water(butalwaysintheopenair),wentonwithunabatedspirit,untileleveno"clockorthereabouts,when"turningin"-nosailorofsevenhours"experiencetalksofgoingtobed-becametheorderofthenight。Theperpetualtrampofboot-heelsonthedecksgaveplacetoaheavysilence,andthewholehumanfreightwasstowedawaybelow,exceptingaveryfewstragglers,likemyself,whowereprobably,likeme,afraidtogothere。
Tooneunaccustomedtosuchscenes,thisisaverystrikingtimeonshipboard。Afterwards,andwhenitsnoveltyhadlongwornoff,itneverceasedtohaveapeculiarinterestandcharmforme。Thegloomthroughwhichthegreatblackmassholdsitsdirectandcertaincourse;therushingwater,plainlyheard,butdimlyseen;
thebroad,white,glisteningtrack,thatfollowsinthevessel"swake;themenonthelook-outforward,whowouldbescarcelyvisibleagainstthedarksky,butfortheirblottingoutsomescoreofglisteningstars;thehelmsmanatthewheel,withtheilluminatedcardbeforehim,shining,aspeckoflightamidstthedarkness,likesomethingsentientandofDivineintelligence;themelancholysighingofthewindthroughblock,andrope,andchain;
thegleamingforthoflightfromeverycrevice,nook,andtinypieceofglassaboutthedecks,asthoughtheshipwerefilledwithfireinhiding,readytoburstthroughanyoutlet,wildwithitsresistlesspowerofdeathandruin。Atfirst,too,andevenwhenthehour,andalltheobjectsitexalts,havecometobefamiliar,itisdifficult,aloneandthoughtful,toholdthemtotheirpropershapesandforms。Theychangewiththewanderingfancy;assumethesemblanceofthingsleftfaraway;putonthewell-rememberedaspectoffavouriteplacesdearlyloved;andevenpeoplethemwithshadows。Streets,houses,rooms;figuressoliketheirusualoccupants,thattheyhavestartledmebytheirreality,whichfarexceeded,asitseemedtome,allpowerofminetoconjureuptheabsent;have,manyandmanyatime,atsuchanhour,grownsuddenlyoutofobjectswithwhosereallook,anduse,andpurpose,Iwasaswellacquaintedaswithmyowntwohands。
Myowntwohands,andfeetlikewise,beingverycold,however,onthisparticularoccasion,Icreptbelowatmidnight。Itwasnotexactlycomfortablebelow。Itwasdecidedlyclose;anditwasimpossibletobeunconsciousofthepresenceofthatextraordinarycompoundofstrangesmells,whichistobefoundnowherebutonboardship,andwhichissuchasubtleperfumethatitseemstoenterateveryporeoftheskin,andwhisperofthehold。Twopassengers"wives(oneofthemmyown)layalreadyinsilentagoniesonthesofa;andonelady"smaid(MYlady"s)wasamerebundleonthefloor,execratingherdestiny,andpoundinghercurl-
papersamongthestrayboxes。Everythingslopedthewrongway:
whichinitselfwasanaggravationscarcelytobeborne。Ihadleftthedooropen,amomentbefore,inthebosomofagentledeclivity,and,whenIturnedtoshutit,itwasonthesummitofaloftyeminence。Noweveryplankandtimbercreaked,asiftheshipweremadeofwicker-work;andnowcrackled,likeanenormousfireofthedriestpossibletwigs。Therewasnothingforitbutbed;soIwenttobed。
Itwasprettymuchthesameforthenexttwodays,withatolerablyfairwindanddryweather。Ireadinbed(buttothishourIdon"tknowwhat)agooddeal;andreeledondeckalittle;drankcoldbrandy-and-waterwithanunspeakabledisgust,andatehardbiscuitperseveringly:notill,butgoingtobe。
Itisthethirdmorning。Iamawakenedoutofmysleepbyadismalshriekfrommywife,whodemandstoknowwhetherthere"sanydanger。Irousemyself,andlookoutofbed。Thewater-jugisplungingandleapinglikealivelydolphin;allthesmallerarticlesareafloat,exceptmyshoes,whicharestrandedonacarpet-bag,highanddry,likeacoupleofcoal-barges。SuddenlyI
seethemspringintotheair,andbeholdthelooking-glass,whichisnailedtothewall,stickingfastupontheceiling。Atthesametimethedoorentirelydisappears,andanewoneisopenedinthefloor。ThenIbegintocomprehendthatthestate-roomisstandingonitshead。
Beforeitispossibletomakeanyarrangementatallcompatiblewiththisnovelstateofthings,theshiprights。Beforeonecansay"ThankHeaven!"shewrongsagain。BeforeonecancrysheIS
wrong,sheseemstohavestartedforward,andtobeacreatureactuallyrunningofitsownaccord,withbrokenkneesandfailinglegs,througheveryvarietyofholeandpitfall,andstumblingconstantly。Beforeonecansomuchaswonder,shetakesahighleapintotheair。Beforeshehaswelldonethat,shetakesadeepdiveintothewater。Beforeshehasgainedthesurface,shethrowsasummerset。Theinstantsheisonherlegs,sherushesbackward。
Andsoshegoesonstaggering,heaving,wrestling,leaping,diving,jumping,pitching,throbbing,rolling,androcking:andgoingthroughallthesemovements,sometimesbyturns,andsometimesaltogether:untilonefeelsdisposedtoroarformercy。
Astewardpasses。"Steward!""Sir?""WhatISthematter?whatDO
youcallthis?""Ratheraheavyseaon,sir,andahead-wind。"
Ahead-wind!Imagineahumanfaceuponthevessel"sprow,withfifteenthousandSamsonsinonebentupondrivingherback,andhittingherexactlybetweentheeyeswheneversheattemptstoadvanceaninch。Imaginetheshipherself,witheverypulseandarteryofherhugebodyswollenandburstingunderthismaltreatment,sworntogoonordie。Imaginethewindhowling,thesearoaring,therainbeating:allinfuriousarrayagainsther。
Picturetheskybothdarkandwild,andtheclouds,infearfulsympathywiththewaves,makinganotheroceanintheair。Addtoallthis,theclatteringondeckanddownbelow;thetreadofhurriedfeet;theloudhoarseshoutsofseamen;thegurglinginandoutofwaterthroughthescuppers;with,everynowandthen,thestrikingofaheavyseaupontheplanksabove,withthedeep,dead,heavysoundofthunderheardwithinavault;-andthereisthehead-windofthatJanuarymorning。
Isaynothingofwhatmaybecalledthedomesticnoisesoftheship:suchasthebreakingofglassandcrockery,thetumblingdownofstewards,thegambols,overhead,ofloosecasksandtruantdozensofbottledporter,andtheveryremarkableandfarfromexhilaratingsoundsraisedintheirvariousstate-roomsbytheseventypassengerswhoweretooilltogetuptobreakfast。Isaynothingofthem:foralthoughIlaylisteningtothisconcertforthreeorfourdays,Idon"tthinkIhearditformorethanaquarterofaminute,attheexpirationofwhichterm,Ilaydownagain,excessivelysea-sick。
Notsea-sick,beitunderstood,intheordinaryacceptationoftheterm:IwishIhadbeen:butinaformwhichIhaveneverseenorhearddescribed,thoughIhavenodoubtitisverycommon。Ilaythere,allthedaylong,quitecoollyandcontentedly;withnosenseofweariness,withnodesiretogetup,orgetbetter,ortaketheair;withnocuriosity,orcare,orregret,ofanysortordegree,savingthatIthinkIcanremember,inthisuniversalindifference,havingakindoflazyjoy-offiendishdelight,ifanythingsolethargiccanbedignifiedwiththetitle-inthefactofmywifebeingtooilltotalktome。IfImaybeallowedtoillustratemystateofmindbysuchanexample,IshouldsaythatI
wasexactlyintheconditionoftheelderMr。Willet,aftertheincursionoftheriotersintohisbaratChigwell。Nothingwouldhavesurprisedme。If,inthemomentaryilluminationofanyrayofintelligencethatmayhavecomeuponmeinthewayofthoughtsofHome,agoblinpostman,withascarletcoatandbell,hadcomeintothatlittlekennelbeforeme,broadawakeinbroadday,and,apologisingforbeingdampthroughwalkinginthesea,hadhandedmealetterdirectedtomyself,infamiliarcharacters,IamcertainIshouldnothavefeltoneatomofastonishment:Ishouldhavebeenperfectlysatisfied。IfNeptunehimselfhadwalkedin,withatoastedsharkonhistrident,Ishouldhavelookedupontheeventasoneoftheverycommonesteverydayoccurrences。
Once-once-Ifoundmyselfondeck。Idon"tknowhowIgotthere,orwhatpossessedmetogothere,butthereIwas;andcompletelydressedtoo,withahugepea-coaton,andapairofbootssuchasnoweakmaninhissensescouldeverhavegotinto。