第5章
Wehadafamouslaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!
MrDedalusturnedtohiswifeandinterjectedinhisnaturalvoice:——
Showsyouthespiritinwhichtheytaketheboysthere。O,ajesuitforyourlife,fordiplomacy!
Hereassumedtheprovincial"svoiceandrepeated:——
ItoldthemallatdinneraboutitandFatherDolanandIandallofuswehadaheartylaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!
ThenightoftheWhitsuntideplayhadcomeandStephenfromthewindowofthedressing-roomlookedoutonthesmallgrass-plotacrosswhichlinesofChineselanternswerestretched。Hewatchedthevisitorscomedownthestepsfromthehouseandpassintothetheatre。Stewardsineveningdress,oldBelvedereans,loiteredingroupsabouttheentrancetothetheatreandusheredinthevisitorswithCeremony。Underthesuddenglowofalanternhecouldrecognizethesmilingfaceofapriest。
TheBlessedSacramenthadbeenremovedfromthetabernacleandthefirstbencheshadbeendrivenbacksoastoleavethedaisofthealtarandthespacebeforeitfree。AgainstthewallsstoodcompaniesofbarbellsandIndianclubs;thedumbbellswerepiledinonecorner:andinthemidstofcountlesshillocksofgymnasiumshoesandsweatersandsingletsinuntidybrownparcelstherestoodthestoutleather-jacketedvaultinghorsewaitingitsturntobecarrieduponthestageandsetinthemiddleofthewinningteamattheendofthegymnasticdisplay。
Stephen,thoughindeferencetohisreputationforessaywritinghehadbeenelectedsecretarytothegymnasium,hadhadnopartinthefirstsectionoftheprogrammebutintheplaywhichformedthesecondsectionhehadthechiefpart,thatofafarcicalpedagogue。HehadbeencastforitonaccountofhisstatureandgravemannersforhewasnowattheendofhissecondyearatBelvedereandinnumbertwo。
Ascoreoftheyoungerboysinwhiteknickersandsingletscamepatteringdownfromthestage,throughthevestryandtothechapel。Thevestryandchapelwerepeopledwitheagermastersandboys。Theplumpbaldsergeantmajorwastestingwithhisfootthespringboardofthevaultinghorse。
Theleanyoungmaninalongovercoat,whowastogiveaspecialdisplayofintricateclubswinging,stoodnearwatchingwithinterest,hissilver-coatedclubspeepingoutofhisdeepside-pockets。Thehollowrattleofthewoodendumbbellswasheardasanotherteammadereadytogouponthestage:andinanothermomenttheexcitedprefectwashustlingtheboysthroughthevestrylikeaflockofgeese,flappingthewingsofhissoutanenervouslyandcryingtothelaggardstomakehaste。AlittletroopofNeapolitanpeasantswerepractisingtheirstepsattheendofthechapel,somecirclingtheirarmsabovetheirheads,someswayingtheirbasketsofpapervioletsandcurtsying。Inadarkcornerofthechapelatthegospelsideofthealtarastoutoldladykneltamidhercopiousblackskirts。Whenshestoodupapink-dressedfigure,wearingacurlygoldenwigandanold-fashionedstrawsunbonnet,withblackpencilledeyebrowsandcheeksdelicatelyrougedandpowdered,wasdiscovered。Alowmurmurofcuriosityranroundthechapelatthediscoveryofthisgirlishfigure。Oneoftheprefects,smilingandnoddinghishead,approachedthedarkcornerand,havingbowedtothestoutoldlady,saidpleasantly:——
Isthisabeautifulyoungladyoradollthatyouhavehere,MrsTallon?
Then,bendingdowntopeeratthesmilingpaintedfaceundertheleafofthebonnet,heexclaimed:——
No!UponmywordIbelieveit"slittleBertieTallonafterall!
Stephenathispostbythewindowheardtheoldladyandthepriestlaughtogetherandheardtheboys"murmursofadmirationbehindhimastheypassedforwardtoseethelittleboywhohadtodancethesunbonnetdancebyhimself。Amovementofimpatienceescapedhim。Helettheedgeoftheblindfalland,steppingdownfromthebenchonwhichhehadbeenstanding,walkedoutofthechapel。
Hepassedoutoftheschoolhouseandhaltedundertheshedthatflankedthegarden。Fromthetheatreoppositecamethemufflednoiseoftheaudienceandsuddenbrazenclashesofthesoldiers"band。Thelightspreadupwardsfromtheglassroofmakingthetheatreseemafestiveark,anchoredamongthehulksofhouses,herfrailcablesoflanternsloopinghertohermoorings。
Asidedoorofthetheatreopenedsuddenlyandashaftoflightflewacrossthegrassplots。Asuddenburstofmusicissuedfromtheark,thepreludeofawaltz:andwhenthesidedoorclosedagainthelistenercouldhearthefaintrhythmofthemusic。Thesentimentoftheopeningbars,theirlanguorandsupplemovement,evokedtheincommunicableemotionwhichhadbeenthecauseofallhisday"sunrestandofhisimpatientmovementofamomentbefore。Hisunrestissuedfromhimlikeawaveofsound:andonthetideofflowingmusicthearkwasjourneying,trailinghercablesoflanternsinherwake。Thenanoiselikedwarfartillerybrokethemovement。
Itwastheclappingthatgreetedtheentryofthedumbbellteamonthestage。
Atthefarendoftheshednearthestreetaspeckofpinklightshowedinthedarknessandashewalkedtowardsithebecameawareofafaintaromaticodour。Twoboyswerestandingintheshelterofadoorway,smoking,andbeforehereachedthemhehadrecognisedHeronbyhisvoice——
HerecomesthenobleDedalus!criedahighthroatyvoice。Welcometoourtrustyfriend!
ThiswelcomeendedinasoftpealofmirthlesslaughterasHeronsalaamedandthenbegantopokethegroundwithhiscane——
HereIam,saidStephen,haltingandglancingfromHerontohisfriend。
Thelatterwasastrangertohimbutinthedarkness,bytheaidoftheglowingcigarettetips,hecouldmakeoutapaledandyishfaceoverwhichasmilewastravellingslowly,atallovercoatedfigureandahardhat。Herondidnottroublehimselfaboutanintroductionbutsaidinstead:——
IwasjusttellingmyfriendWalliswhatalarkitwouldbetonightifyoutookofftherectorinthepartoftheschoolmaster。Itwouldbearippinggoodjoke。
HeronmadeapoorattempttoimitateforhisfriendWallistherector"spedanticbassandthen,laughingathisfailure,askedStephentodoit——
Goon,Dedalus,heurged,youcantakehimoffrippingly。Hethatwillnothearthechurchalethimbetotheeaastheheathenaandthepublicana。
TheimitationwaspreventedbyamildexpressionofangerfromWallisinwhosemouthpiecethecigarettehadbecometootightlywedged——
Damnthisblanketyblankholder,hesaid,takingitfromhismouthandsmilingandfrowninguponittolerantly。It"salwaysgettingstucklikethat。Doyouuseaholder?——
Idon"tsmoke,answeredStephen——
No,saidHeron,Dedalusisamodelyouth。Hedoesn"tsmokeandhedoesn"tgotobazaarsandhedoesn"tflirtandhedoesn"tdamnanythingordamnall。
Stephenshookhisheadandsmiledinhisrival"sflushedandmobileface,beakedlikeabird"s。HehadoftenthoughtitstrangethatVincentHeronhadabird"sfaceaswellasabird"sname。Ashockofpalehairlayontheforeheadlikearuffledcrest:theforeheadwasnarrowandbonyandathinhookednosestoodoutbetweentheclose-setprominenteyeswhichwerelightandinexpressive。Therivalswereschoolfriends。Theysattogetherinclass,knelttogetherinthechapel,talkedtogetherafterbeadsovertheirlunches。Asthefellowsinnumberonewereundistinguisheddullards,StephenandHeronhadbeenduringtheyearthevirtualheadsoftheschool。
Itwastheywhowentuptotherectortogethertoaskforafreedayortogetafellowoff——
Obytheway,saidHeronsuddenly,Isawyourgovernorgoingin。
ThesmilewanedonStephen"sface。Anyallusionmadetohisfatherbyafelloworbyamasterputhiscalmtoroutinamoment。HewaitedintimoroussilencetohearwhatHeronmightsaynext。Heron,however,nudgedhimexpressivelywithhiselbowandsaid:——
You"reaslydog——
Whyso?saidStephen——
You"dthinkbutterwouldn"tmeltinyourmouthsaidHeron。ButI"mafraidyou"reaslydog——
MightIaskyouwhatyouaretalkingabout?saidStephenurbanely——
Indeedyoumight,answeredHeron。Wesawher,Wallis,didn"twe?
Anddeucedlyprettysheistoo。Andinquisitive!AndwhatpartdoesStephentake,MrDedalus?AndwillStephennotsing,MrDedalus?YourgovernorwasstaringatherthroughthateyeglassofhisforallhewasworthsothatIthinktheoldmanhasfoundyououttoo。Iwouldn"tcareabit,byJove。She"sripping,isn"tshe,Wallis?——
Nothalfbad,answeredWallisquietlyasheplacedhisholderoncemoreinacornerofhismouth。
AshaftofmomentaryangerflewthroughStephen"smindattheseindelicateallusionsinthehearingofastranger。Forhimtherewasnothingamusinginagirl"sinterestandregard。Alldayhehadthoughtofnothingbuttheirleave-takingonthestepsofthetramatHarold"sCross,thestreamofmoodyemotionsithadmadetocoursethroughhimandthepoemhehadwrittenaboutit。Alldayhehadimaginedanewmeetingwithherforheknewthatshewastocometotheplay。Theoldrestlessmoodinesshadagainfilledhisbreastasithaddoneonthenightoftheparty,buthadnotfoundanoutletinverse。Thegrowthandknowledgeoftwoyearsofboyhoodstoodbetweenthenandnow,forbiddingsuchanoutlet:andalldaythestreamofgloomytendernesswithinhimhadstartedforthandreturneduponitselfindarkcoursesandeddies,wearyinghimintheenduntilthepleasantryoftheprefectandthepaintedlittleboyhaddrawnfromhimamovementofimpatience——
Soyoumayaswelladmit,Heronwenton,thatwe"vefairlyfoundyououtthistime。Youcan"tplaythesaintonmeanymore,that"sonesurefive。
Asoftpealofmirthlesslaughterescapedfromhislipsand,bendingdownasbefore,hestruckStephenlightlyacrossthecalfofthelegwithhiscane,asifinjestingreproof。
Stephen"smomentofangerhadalreadypassed。Hewasneitherflatterednorconfused,butsimplywishedthebantertoend。Hescarcelyresentedwhathadseemedtohimasillyindelicatenessforheknewthattheadventureinhismindstoodinnodangerfromthesewords:andhisfacemirroredhisrival"sfalsesmile——
Admit!repeatedHeron,strikinghimagainwithhiscaneacrossthecalfoftheleg。
Thestrokewasplayfulbutnotsolightlygivenasthefirstonehadbeen。Stephenfelttheskintingleandglowslightlyandalmostpainlessly;
and,bowingsubmissively,asiftomeethiscompanion"sjestingmood,begantorecitetheConfiteor。Theepisodeendedwell,forbothHeronandWallislaughedindulgentlyattheirreverence。
TheconfessioncameonlyfromStephen"slipsand,whiletheyspokethewords,asuddenmemoryhadcarriedhimtoanotherscenecalledup,asifbymagic,atthemomentwhenhehadnotedthefaintcrueldimplesatthecornersofHeron"ssmilinglipsandhadfeltthefamiliarstrokeofthecaneagainsthiscalfandhadheardthefamiliarwordofadmonition:——
Admit。
Itwastowardsthecloseofhisfirstterminthecollegewhenhewasinnumbersix。Hissensitivenaturewasstillsmartingunderthelashesofanundivinedandsqualidwayoflife。HissoulwasstilldisquietedandcastdownbythedullphenomenonofDublin。Hehademergedfromatwoyears"spellofreverytofindhimselfinthemidstofanewscene,everyeventandfigureofwhichaffectedhimintimately,disheartenedhimoralluredand,whetheralluringordisheartening,filledhimalwayswithunrestandbitterthoughts。Alltheleisurewhichhisschoollifelefthimwaspassedinthecompanyofsubversivewriterswhosejibesandviolenceofspeechsetupafermentinhisbrainbeforetheypassedoutofitintohiscrudewritings。
TheessaywasforhimthechieflabourofhisweekandeveryTuesday,ashemarchedfromhometotheschool,hereadhisfateintheincidentsoftheway,pittinghimselfagainstsomefigureaheadofhimandquickeninghispacetooutstripitbeforeacertaingoalwasreachedorplantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthepathwayandtellinghimselfthathewouldbefirstandnotfirstintheweeklyessay。
OnacertainTuesdaythecourseofhistriumphswasrudelybroken。MrTate,theEnglishmaster,pointedhisfingerathimandsaidbluntly:——
Thisfellowhasheresyinhisessay。
Ahushfellontheclass。MrTatedidnotbreakitbutdugwithhishandbetweenhisthighswhilehisheavilystarchedlinencreakedabouthisneckandwrists。Stephendidnotlookup。Itwasarawspringmorningandhiseyeswerestillsmartingandweak。Hewasconsciousoffailureandofdetection,ofthesqualorofhisownmindandhome,andfeltagainsthisnecktherawedgeofhisturnedandjaggedcollar。
AshortloudlaughfromMrTatesettheclassmoreatease——
Perhapsyoudidn"tknowthat,hesaid——
Where?askedStephen。
MrTatewithdrewhisdelvinghandandspreadouttheessay——
Here。It"sabouttheCreatorandthesoul。RrmrrmrrmAh!withoutapossibilityofeverapproachingnearer。That"sheresy。
Stephenmurmured:——
Imeantwithoutapossibilityofeverreaching。
ItwasasubmissionandMrTate,appeased,foldeduptheessayandpasseditacrosstohim,saying:——
OAh!everreaching。That"sanotherstory。
Buttheclasswasnotsosoonappeased。Thoughnobodyspoketohimoftheaffairafterclasshecouldfeelabouthimavaguegeneralmalignantjoy。
AfewnightsafterthispublicchidinghewaswalkingwithaletteralongtheDrumcondraRoadwhenheheardavoicecry:——
Halt!
Heturnedandsawthreeboysofhisownclasscomingtowardshiminthedusk。ItwasHeronwhohadcalledoutand,ashemarchedforwardbetweenhistwoattendants,heclefttheairbeforehimwithathincaneintimetotheirsteps。Boland,hisfriend,marchedbesidehim,alargegrinonhisface,whileNashcameonafewstepsbehind,blowingfromthepaceandwagginghisgreatredhead。
AssoonastheboyshadturnedintoClonliffeRoadtogethertheybegantospeakaboutbooksandwriters,sayingwhatbookstheywerereadingandhowmanybookstherewereintheirfathers"bookcasesathome。StephenlistenedtotheminsomewondermentforBolandwasthedunceandNashtheidleroftheclass。Infact,aftersometalkabouttheirfavouritewriters,NashdeclaredforCaptainMarryatwho,hesaid,wasthegreatestwriter——
Fudge!saidHeron。AskDedalus。Whoisthegreatestwriter,Dedalus?
Stephennotedthemockeryinthequestionandsaid:——
Ofprosedoyoumean?——
Yes——
Newman,Ithink——
IsitCardinalNewman?askedBoland——
Yes,answeredStephen。
ThegrinbroadenedonNash"sfreckledfaceasheturnedtoStephenandsaid:——
AnddoyoulikeCardinalNewman,Dedalus?——
O,manysaythatNewmanhasthebestprosestyle,Heronsaidtotheothertwoinexplanation,ofcoursehe"snotapoet——
Andwhoisthebestpoet,Heron?askedBoland——
LordTennyson,ofcourse,answeredHeron——
O,yes,LordTennyson,saidNash。Wehaveallhispoetryathomeinabook。
AtthisStephenforgotthesilentvowshehadbeenmakingandburstout:——
Tennysonapoet!Why,he"sonlyarhymester!——
O,getout!saidHeron。EveryoneknowsthatTennysonisthegreatestpoet——
Andwhodoyouthinkisthegreatestpoet?askedBoland,nudginghisneighbour——
Byron,ofcourse,answeredStephen。
Herongavetheleadandallthreejoinedinascornfullaugh——
Whatareyoulaughingat?askedStephen——
You,saidHeron。Byronthegreatestpoet!He"sonlyapoetforuneducatedpeople——
Hemustbeafinepoet!saidBoland——
Youmaykeepyourmouthshut,saidStephen,turningonhimboldly。
Allyouknowaboutpoetryiswhatyouwroteupontheslatesintheyardandweregoingtobesenttotheloftfor。
Boland,infact,wassaidtohavewrittenontheslatesintheyardacoupletaboutaclassmateofhiswhooftenrodehomefromthecollegeonapony:AsTysonwasridingintoJerusalemHefellandhurthisAlecKafoozelum。ThisthrustputthetwolieutenantstosilencebutHeronwenton:——
InanycaseByronwasahereticandimmoraltoo——
Idon"tcarewhathewas,criedStephenhotly——
Youdon"tcarewhetherhewasahereticornot?saidNash——
Whatdoyouknowaboutit?shoutedStephen。Youneverreadalineofanythinginyourlifeexceptatrans,orBolandeither——
IknowthatByronwasabadman,saidBoland——
Here,catchholdofthisheretic,Heroncalledout。InamomentStephenwasaprisoner——
Tatemadeyoubuckuptheotherday,Heronwenton,abouttheheresyinyouressay——
I"lltellhimtomorrow,saidBoland——
Willyou?saidStephen。You"dbeafraidtoopenyourlips——
Afraid?——
Ay。Afraidofyourlife——
Behaveyourself!criedHeron,cuttingatStephen"slegswithhiscane。
Itwasthesignalfortheironset。NashpinionedhisarmsbehindwhileBolandseizedalongcabbagestumpwhichwaslyinginthegutter。StrugglingandkickingunderthecutsofthecaneandtheblowsoftheknottystumpStephenwasbornebackagainstabarbedwirefence——
AdmitthatByronwasnogood——
No——
Admit——
No——
Admit——
No。No。
Atlastafterafuryofplungeshewrenchedhimselffree。HistormentorssetofftowardsJones"sRoad,laughingandjeeringathim,whilehe,halfblindedwithtears,stumbledon,clenchinghisfistsmadlyandsobbing。
WhilehewasstillrepeatingtheConfiteoramidtheindulgentlaughterofhishearersandwhilethescenesofthatmalignantepisodewerestillpassingsharplyandswiftlybeforehismindhewonderedwhyheborenomalicenowtothosewhohadtormentedhim。Hehadnotforgottenawhitoftheircowardiceandcrueltybutthememoryofitcalledforthnoangerfromhim。Allthedescriptionsoffierceloveandhatredwhichhehadmetinbookshadseemedtohimthereforeunreal。EventhatnightashestumbledhomewardsalongJones"sRoadhehadfeltthatsomepowerwasdivestinghimofthatsudden-wovenangeraseasilyasafruitisdivestedofitssoftripepeel。
Heremainedstandingwithhistwocompanionsattheendoftheshedlisteningidlytotheirtalkortotheburstsofapplauseinthetheatre。
Shewassittingthereamongtheothersperhapswaitingforhimtoappear。
Hetriedtorecallherappearancebutcouldnot。Hecouldrememberonlythatshehadwornashawlaboutherheadlikeacowlandthatherdarkeyeshadinvitedandunnervedhim。Hewonderedhadhebeeninherthoughtsasshehadbeeninhis。Theninthedarkandunseenbytheothertwoherestedthetipsofthefingersofonehanduponthepalmoftheotherhand,scarcelytouchingitlightly。Butthepressureofherfingershadbeenlighterandsteadier:andsuddenlythememoryoftheirtouchtraversedhisbrainandbodylikeaninvisiblewave。
Aboycametowardsthem,runningalongundertheshed。Hewasexcitedandbreathless——
O,Dedalus,hecried,Doyleisinagreatbakeaboutyou。You"retogoinatonceandgetdressedfortheplay。Hurryup,youbetter——
He"scomingnow,saidHerontothemessengerwithahaughtydrawl,whenhewantsto。
TheboyturnedtoHeronandrepeated:——
ButDoyleisinanawfulbake——
WillyoutellDoylewithmybestcomplimentsthatIdamnedhiseyes?
answeredHeron——
Well,Imustgonow,saidStephen,whocaredlittleforsuchpointsofhonour——
Iwouldn"t,saidHeron,damnmeifIwould。That"snowaytosendforoneoftheseniorboys。Inabake,indeed!Ithinkit"squiteenoughthatyou"retakingapartinhisballyoldplay。
ThisspiritofquarrelsomecomradeshipwhichhehadobservedlatelyinhisrivalhadnotseducedStephenfromhishabitsofquietobedience。
Hemistrustedtheturbulenceanddoubtedthesincerityofsuchcomradeshipwhichseemedtohimasorryanticipationofmanhood。Thequestionofhonourhereraisedwas,likeallsuchquestions,trivialtohim。Whilehismindhadbeenpursuingitsintangiblephantomsandturninginirresolutionfromsuchpursuithehadheardabouthimtheconstantvoicesofhisfatherandofhismasters,urginghimtobeagentlemanaboveallthingsandurginghimtobeagoodcatholicaboveallthings。Thesevoiceshadnowcometobehollow-soundinginhisears。Whenthegymnasiumhadbeenopenedhehadheardanothervoiceurginghimtobestrongandmanlyandhealthyandwhenthemovementtowardsnationalrevivalhadbeguntobefeltinthecollegeyetanothervoicehadbiddenhimbetruetohiscountryandhelptoraiseupherlanguageandtradition。Intheprofaneworld,asheforesaw,aworldlyvoicewouldbidhimraiseuphisfather"sfallenstatebyhislaboursand,meanwhile,thevoiceofhisschoolcomradesurgedhimtobeadecentfellow,toshieldothersfromblameortobegthemoffandtodohisbesttogetfreedaysfortheschool。Anditwasthedinofallthesehollow-soundingvoicesthatmadehimhaltirresolutelyinthepursuitofphantoms。Hegavethemearonlyforatimebuthewashappyonlywhenhewasfarfromthem,beyondtheircall,aloneorinthecompanyofphantasmalcomrades。
Inthevestryaplumpfresh-facedjesuitandanelderlyman,inshabbyblueclothes,weredabblinginacaseofpaintsandchalks。Theboyswhohadbeenpaintedwalkedaboutorstoodstillawkwardly,touchingtheirfacesinagingerlyfashionwiththeirfurtivefingertips。Inthemiddleofthevestryayoungjesuit,whowasthenonavisittothecollege,stoodrockinghimselfrhythmicallyfromthetipsofhistoestohisheelsandbackagain,hishandsthrustwellforwardintohisside-pockets。Hissmallheadsetoffwithglossyredcurlsandhisnewlyshavenfaceagreedwellwiththespotlessdecencyofhissoutaneandwithhisspotlessshoes。
Ashewatchedthisswayingformandtriedtoreadforhimselfthelegendofthepriest"smockingsmiletherecameintoStephen"smemoryasayingwhichhehadheardfromhisfatherbeforehehadbeensenttoClongowes,thatyoucouldalwaystellajesuitbythestyleofhisclothes。Atthesamemomenthethoughthesawalikenessbetweenhisfather"smindandthatofthissmilingwell-dressedpriest:andhewasawareofsomedesecrationofthepriest"sofficeorofthevestryitselfwhosesilencewasnowroutedbyloudtalkandjokinganditsairpungentwiththesmellsofthegas-jetsandthegrease。
Whilehisforeheadwasbeingwrinkledandhisjawspaintedblackandbluebytheelderlyman,helisteneddistractedlytothevoiceoftheplumpyoungjesuitwhichbadehimspeakupandmakehispointsclearly。HecouldhearthebandplayingTheLilyofKillarneyandknewthatinafewmomentsthecurtainwouldgoup。Hefeltnostagefrightbutthethoughtoftheparthehadtoplayhumiliatedhim。Aremembranceofsomeofhislinesmadeasuddenflushrisetohispaintedcheeks。Hesawherseriousalluringeyeswatchinghimfromamongtheaudienceandtheirimageatoncesweptawayhisscruples,leavinghiswillcompact。Anothernatureseemedtohavebeenlenthim:theinfectionoftheexcitementandyouthabouthimenteredintoandtransformedhismoodymistrustfulness。Foroneraremomentheseemedtobeclothedintherealapparelofboyhood:and,ashestoodinthewingsamongtheotherplayers,hesharedthecommonmirthamidwhichthedropscenewashauledupwardsbytwoable-bodiedpriestswithviolentjerksandallawry。
Afewmomentsafterhefoundhimselfonthestageamidthegarishgasandthedimscenery,actingbeforetheinnumerablefacesofthevoid。Itsurprisedhimtoseethattheplaywhichhehadknownatrehearsalsforadisjointedlifelessthinghadsuddenlyassumedalifeofitsown。Itseemednowtoplayitself,heandhisfellowactorsaidingitwiththeirparts。Whenthecurtainfellonthelastsceneheheardthevoidfilledwithapplauseand,throughariftinasidescene,sawthesimplebodybeforewhichhehadactedmagicallydeformed,thevoidoffacesbreakingatallpointsandfallingasunderintobusygroups。
Heleftthestagequicklyandridhimselfofhismummeryandpassedoutthroughthechapelintothecollegegarden。Nowthattheplaywasoverhisnervescriedforsomefurtheradventure。Hehurriedonwardsasiftoovertakeit。Thedoorsofthetheatrewereallopenandtheaudiencehademptiedout。Onthelineswhichhehadfanciedthemooringsofanarkafewlanternsswunginthenightbreeze,flickeringcheerlessly。Hemountedthestepsfromthegardeninhaste,eagerthatsomepreyshouldnoteludehim,andforcedhiswaythroughthecrowdinthehallandpastthetwojesuitswhostoodwatchingtheexodusandbowingandshakinghandswiththevisitors。Hepushedonwardnervously,feigningastillgreaterhasteandfaintlyconsciousofthesmilesandstaresandnudgeswhichhispowderedheadleftinitswake。
Whenhecameoutonthestepshesawhisfamilywaitingfor"himatthefirstlamp。Inaglancehenotedthateveryfigureofthegroupwasfamiliarandrandownthestepsangrily——
IhavetoleaveamessagedowninGeorge"sStreet,hesaidtohisfatherquickly。I"llbehomeafteryou。
Withoutwaitingforhisfather"squestionsheranacrosstheroadandbegantowalkatbreakneckspeeddownthehill。Hehardlyknewwherehewaswalking。Prideandhopeanddesirelikecrushedherbsinhisheartsentupvapoursof,maddeningincensebeforetheeyesofhismind。Hestrodedownthehillamidthetumultofsudden-risenvapoursofwoundedprideandfallenhopeandbaffleddesire。Theystreamedupwardsbeforehisanguishedeyesindenseandmaddeningfumesandpassedawayabovehimtillatlasttheairwasclearandcoldagain。
Afilmstillveiledhiseyesbuttheyburnednolonger。Apower,akintothatwhichhadoftenmadeangerorresentmentfallfromhim,broughthisstepstorest。Hestoodstillandgazedupatthesombreporchofthemorgueandfromthattothedarkcobbledlanewayatitsside。HesawthewordLottsonthewallofthelaneandbreathedslowlytherankheavyair。
Thatishorsepissandrottedstraw,hethought。Itisagoododourtobreathe。Itwillcalmmyheart。Myheartisquitecalmnow。Iwillgoback。
StephenwasonceagainseatedbesidehisfatherinthecornerofarailwaycarriageatKingsbridge。HewastravellingwithhisfatherbythenightmailtoCork。AsthetrainsteamedoutofthestationherecalledhischildishwonderofyearsbeforeandeveryeventofhisfirstdayatClongowes。Buthefeltnowondernow。Hesawthedarkeninglandsslippingawaypasthim,thesilenttelegraph-polespassinghiswindowswiftlyeveryfourseconds,thelittleglimmeringstations,mannedbyafewsilentsentries,flungbythemailbehindherandtwinklingforamomentinthedarknesslikefierygrainsflungbackwardsbyarunner。
Helistenedwithoutsympathytohisfather"sevocationofCorkandofscenesofhisyouth,atalebrokenbysighsordraughtsfromhispocketflaskwhenevertheimageofsomedeadfriendappearedinitorwhenevertheevokerrememberedsuddenlythepurposeofhisactualvisit。Stephenheardbutcouldfeelnopity。TheimagesofthedeadwereallstrangerstohimsavethatofuncleCharles,animagewhichhadlatelybeenfadingoutofmemory。Heknew,however,thathisfather"spropertywasgoingtobesoldbyauction,andinthemannerofhisowndispossessionhefelttheworldgivethelierudelytohisphantasy。
AtMaryboroughhefellasleep。WhenheawokethetrainhadpassedoutofMallowandhisfatherwasstretchedasleepontheotherseat。Thecoldlightofthedawnlayoverthecountry,overtheunpeopledfieldsandtheclosedcottages。Theterrorofsleepfascinatedhismindashewatchedthesilentcountryorheardfromtimetotimehisfather"sdeepbreathorsuddensleepymovement。Theneighbourhoodofunseensleepersfilledhimwithstrangedread,asthoughtheycouldharmhim,andheprayedthatthedaymightcomequickly。Hisprayer,addressedneithertoGodnorsaint,beganwithashiver,asthechillymorningbreezecreptthroughthechinkofthecarriagedoortohisfeet,andendedinatrailoffoolishwordswhichhemadetofittheinsistentrhythmofthetrain;andsilently,atintervalsoffourseconds,thetelegraph-polesheldthegallopingnotesofthemusicbetweenpunctualbars。Thisfuriousmusicallayedhisdreadand,leaningagainstthewindowledge,helethiseyelidscloseagain。
TheydroveinajingleacrossCorkwhileitwasstillearlymorningandStephenfinishedhissleepinabedroomoftheVictoriaHotel。Thebrightwarmsunlightwasstreamingthroughthewindowandhecouldhearthedinoftraffic。Hisfatherwasstandingbeforethedressing-table,examininghishairandfaceandmoustachewithgreatcare,craninghisneckacrossthewater-juganddrawingitbacksidewaystoseethebetter。
Whilehedidsohesangsoftlytohimselfwithquaintaccentandphrasing:`"TisyouthandfollyMakesyoungmenmarry,Sohere,mylove,I"llNolongerstay。
Whatcan"tbecured,sure,Mustbeinjured,sure,SoI"llgotoAmerikay。
`Myloveshe"shandsome,Myloveshe"sbony:
She"slikegoodwhiskyWhenitisnew;
Butwhen"tisoldAndgrowingcoldItfadesanddieslikeThemountaindew。"Theconsciousnessofthewarmsunnycityoutsidehiswindowandthetendertremorswithwhichhisfather"svoicefestoonedthestrangesadhappyair,droveoffallthemistsofthenight"sillhumourfromStephen"sbrain。
Hegotupquicklytodressand,whenthesonghadended,said:——
That"smuchprettierthananyofyourothercome-all-yous——
Doyouthinkso?askedMrDedalus——
Ilikeit,saidStephen——
It"saprettyoldair,saidMrDedalus,twirlingthepointsofhismoustache。Ah,butyoushouldhaveheardMickLacysingit!PoorMickLacy!
Hehadlittleturnsforit,gracenotesthatheusedtoputinthatIhaven"tgot。Thatwastheboywhocouldsingacome-all-you,ifyoulike。