投诉 阅读记录

第5章

Wehadafamouslaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!

MrDedalusturnedtohiswifeandinterjectedinhisnaturalvoice:——

Showsyouthespiritinwhichtheytaketheboysthere。O,ajesuitforyourlife,fordiplomacy!

Hereassumedtheprovincial"svoiceandrepeated:——

ItoldthemallatdinneraboutitandFatherDolanandIandallofuswehadaheartylaughtogetheroverit。Ha!Ha!Ha!

ThenightoftheWhitsuntideplayhadcomeandStephenfromthewindowofthedressing-roomlookedoutonthesmallgrass-plotacrosswhichlinesofChineselanternswerestretched。Hewatchedthevisitorscomedownthestepsfromthehouseandpassintothetheatre。Stewardsineveningdress,oldBelvedereans,loiteredingroupsabouttheentrancetothetheatreandusheredinthevisitorswithCeremony。Underthesuddenglowofalanternhecouldrecognizethesmilingfaceofapriest。

TheBlessedSacramenthadbeenremovedfromthetabernacleandthefirstbencheshadbeendrivenbacksoastoleavethedaisofthealtarandthespacebeforeitfree。AgainstthewallsstoodcompaniesofbarbellsandIndianclubs;thedumbbellswerepiledinonecorner:andinthemidstofcountlesshillocksofgymnasiumshoesandsweatersandsingletsinuntidybrownparcelstherestoodthestoutleather-jacketedvaultinghorsewaitingitsturntobecarrieduponthestageandsetinthemiddleofthewinningteamattheendofthegymnasticdisplay。

Stephen,thoughindeferencetohisreputationforessaywritinghehadbeenelectedsecretarytothegymnasium,hadhadnopartinthefirstsectionoftheprogrammebutintheplaywhichformedthesecondsectionhehadthechiefpart,thatofafarcicalpedagogue。HehadbeencastforitonaccountofhisstatureandgravemannersforhewasnowattheendofhissecondyearatBelvedereandinnumbertwo。

Ascoreoftheyoungerboysinwhiteknickersandsingletscamepatteringdownfromthestage,throughthevestryandtothechapel。Thevestryandchapelwerepeopledwitheagermastersandboys。Theplumpbaldsergeantmajorwastestingwithhisfootthespringboardofthevaultinghorse。

Theleanyoungmaninalongovercoat,whowastogiveaspecialdisplayofintricateclubswinging,stoodnearwatchingwithinterest,hissilver-coatedclubspeepingoutofhisdeepside-pockets。Thehollowrattleofthewoodendumbbellswasheardasanotherteammadereadytogouponthestage:andinanothermomenttheexcitedprefectwashustlingtheboysthroughthevestrylikeaflockofgeese,flappingthewingsofhissoutanenervouslyandcryingtothelaggardstomakehaste。AlittletroopofNeapolitanpeasantswerepractisingtheirstepsattheendofthechapel,somecirclingtheirarmsabovetheirheads,someswayingtheirbasketsofpapervioletsandcurtsying。Inadarkcornerofthechapelatthegospelsideofthealtarastoutoldladykneltamidhercopiousblackskirts。Whenshestoodupapink-dressedfigure,wearingacurlygoldenwigandanold-fashionedstrawsunbonnet,withblackpencilledeyebrowsandcheeksdelicatelyrougedandpowdered,wasdiscovered。Alowmurmurofcuriosityranroundthechapelatthediscoveryofthisgirlishfigure。Oneoftheprefects,smilingandnoddinghishead,approachedthedarkcornerand,havingbowedtothestoutoldlady,saidpleasantly:——

Isthisabeautifulyoungladyoradollthatyouhavehere,MrsTallon?

Then,bendingdowntopeeratthesmilingpaintedfaceundertheleafofthebonnet,heexclaimed:——

No!UponmywordIbelieveit"slittleBertieTallonafterall!

Stephenathispostbythewindowheardtheoldladyandthepriestlaughtogetherandheardtheboys"murmursofadmirationbehindhimastheypassedforwardtoseethelittleboywhohadtodancethesunbonnetdancebyhimself。Amovementofimpatienceescapedhim。Helettheedgeoftheblindfalland,steppingdownfromthebenchonwhichhehadbeenstanding,walkedoutofthechapel。

Hepassedoutoftheschoolhouseandhaltedundertheshedthatflankedthegarden。Fromthetheatreoppositecamethemufflednoiseoftheaudienceandsuddenbrazenclashesofthesoldiers"band。Thelightspreadupwardsfromtheglassroofmakingthetheatreseemafestiveark,anchoredamongthehulksofhouses,herfrailcablesoflanternsloopinghertohermoorings。

Asidedoorofthetheatreopenedsuddenlyandashaftoflightflewacrossthegrassplots。Asuddenburstofmusicissuedfromtheark,thepreludeofawaltz:andwhenthesidedoorclosedagainthelistenercouldhearthefaintrhythmofthemusic。Thesentimentoftheopeningbars,theirlanguorandsupplemovement,evokedtheincommunicableemotionwhichhadbeenthecauseofallhisday"sunrestandofhisimpatientmovementofamomentbefore。Hisunrestissuedfromhimlikeawaveofsound:andonthetideofflowingmusicthearkwasjourneying,trailinghercablesoflanternsinherwake。Thenanoiselikedwarfartillerybrokethemovement。

Itwastheclappingthatgreetedtheentryofthedumbbellteamonthestage。

Atthefarendoftheshednearthestreetaspeckofpinklightshowedinthedarknessandashewalkedtowardsithebecameawareofafaintaromaticodour。Twoboyswerestandingintheshelterofadoorway,smoking,andbeforehereachedthemhehadrecognisedHeronbyhisvoice——

HerecomesthenobleDedalus!criedahighthroatyvoice。Welcometoourtrustyfriend!

ThiswelcomeendedinasoftpealofmirthlesslaughterasHeronsalaamedandthenbegantopokethegroundwithhiscane——

HereIam,saidStephen,haltingandglancingfromHerontohisfriend。

Thelatterwasastrangertohimbutinthedarkness,bytheaidoftheglowingcigarettetips,hecouldmakeoutapaledandyishfaceoverwhichasmilewastravellingslowly,atallovercoatedfigureandahardhat。Herondidnottroublehimselfaboutanintroductionbutsaidinstead:——

IwasjusttellingmyfriendWalliswhatalarkitwouldbetonightifyoutookofftherectorinthepartoftheschoolmaster。Itwouldbearippinggoodjoke。

HeronmadeapoorattempttoimitateforhisfriendWallistherector"spedanticbassandthen,laughingathisfailure,askedStephentodoit——

Goon,Dedalus,heurged,youcantakehimoffrippingly。Hethatwillnothearthechurchalethimbetotheeaastheheathenaandthepublicana。

TheimitationwaspreventedbyamildexpressionofangerfromWallisinwhosemouthpiecethecigarettehadbecometootightlywedged——

Damnthisblanketyblankholder,hesaid,takingitfromhismouthandsmilingandfrowninguponittolerantly。It"salwaysgettingstucklikethat。Doyouuseaholder?——

Idon"tsmoke,answeredStephen——

No,saidHeron,Dedalusisamodelyouth。Hedoesn"tsmokeandhedoesn"tgotobazaarsandhedoesn"tflirtandhedoesn"tdamnanythingordamnall。

Stephenshookhisheadandsmiledinhisrival"sflushedandmobileface,beakedlikeabird"s。HehadoftenthoughtitstrangethatVincentHeronhadabird"sfaceaswellasabird"sname。Ashockofpalehairlayontheforeheadlikearuffledcrest:theforeheadwasnarrowandbonyandathinhookednosestoodoutbetweentheclose-setprominenteyeswhichwerelightandinexpressive。Therivalswereschoolfriends。Theysattogetherinclass,knelttogetherinthechapel,talkedtogetherafterbeadsovertheirlunches。Asthefellowsinnumberonewereundistinguisheddullards,StephenandHeronhadbeenduringtheyearthevirtualheadsoftheschool。

Itwastheywhowentuptotherectortogethertoaskforafreedayortogetafellowoff——

Obytheway,saidHeronsuddenly,Isawyourgovernorgoingin。

ThesmilewanedonStephen"sface。Anyallusionmadetohisfatherbyafelloworbyamasterputhiscalmtoroutinamoment。HewaitedintimoroussilencetohearwhatHeronmightsaynext。Heron,however,nudgedhimexpressivelywithhiselbowandsaid:——

You"reaslydog——

Whyso?saidStephen——

You"dthinkbutterwouldn"tmeltinyourmouthsaidHeron。ButI"mafraidyou"reaslydog——

MightIaskyouwhatyouaretalkingabout?saidStephenurbanely——

Indeedyoumight,answeredHeron。Wesawher,Wallis,didn"twe?

Anddeucedlyprettysheistoo。Andinquisitive!AndwhatpartdoesStephentake,MrDedalus?AndwillStephennotsing,MrDedalus?YourgovernorwasstaringatherthroughthateyeglassofhisforallhewasworthsothatIthinktheoldmanhasfoundyououttoo。Iwouldn"tcareabit,byJove。She"sripping,isn"tshe,Wallis?——

Nothalfbad,answeredWallisquietlyasheplacedhisholderoncemoreinacornerofhismouth。

AshaftofmomentaryangerflewthroughStephen"smindattheseindelicateallusionsinthehearingofastranger。Forhimtherewasnothingamusinginagirl"sinterestandregard。Alldayhehadthoughtofnothingbuttheirleave-takingonthestepsofthetramatHarold"sCross,thestreamofmoodyemotionsithadmadetocoursethroughhimandthepoemhehadwrittenaboutit。Alldayhehadimaginedanewmeetingwithherforheknewthatshewastocometotheplay。Theoldrestlessmoodinesshadagainfilledhisbreastasithaddoneonthenightoftheparty,buthadnotfoundanoutletinverse。Thegrowthandknowledgeoftwoyearsofboyhoodstoodbetweenthenandnow,forbiddingsuchanoutlet:andalldaythestreamofgloomytendernesswithinhimhadstartedforthandreturneduponitselfindarkcoursesandeddies,wearyinghimintheenduntilthepleasantryoftheprefectandthepaintedlittleboyhaddrawnfromhimamovementofimpatience——

Soyoumayaswelladmit,Heronwenton,thatwe"vefairlyfoundyououtthistime。Youcan"tplaythesaintonmeanymore,that"sonesurefive。

Asoftpealofmirthlesslaughterescapedfromhislipsand,bendingdownasbefore,hestruckStephenlightlyacrossthecalfofthelegwithhiscane,asifinjestingreproof。

Stephen"smomentofangerhadalreadypassed。Hewasneitherflatterednorconfused,butsimplywishedthebantertoend。Hescarcelyresentedwhathadseemedtohimasillyindelicatenessforheknewthattheadventureinhismindstoodinnodangerfromthesewords:andhisfacemirroredhisrival"sfalsesmile——

Admit!repeatedHeron,strikinghimagainwithhiscaneacrossthecalfoftheleg。

Thestrokewasplayfulbutnotsolightlygivenasthefirstonehadbeen。Stephenfelttheskintingleandglowslightlyandalmostpainlessly;

and,bowingsubmissively,asiftomeethiscompanion"sjestingmood,begantorecitetheConfiteor。Theepisodeendedwell,forbothHeronandWallislaughedindulgentlyattheirreverence。

TheconfessioncameonlyfromStephen"slipsand,whiletheyspokethewords,asuddenmemoryhadcarriedhimtoanotherscenecalledup,asifbymagic,atthemomentwhenhehadnotedthefaintcrueldimplesatthecornersofHeron"ssmilinglipsandhadfeltthefamiliarstrokeofthecaneagainsthiscalfandhadheardthefamiliarwordofadmonition:——

Admit。

Itwastowardsthecloseofhisfirstterminthecollegewhenhewasinnumbersix。Hissensitivenaturewasstillsmartingunderthelashesofanundivinedandsqualidwayoflife。HissoulwasstilldisquietedandcastdownbythedullphenomenonofDublin。Hehademergedfromatwoyears"spellofreverytofindhimselfinthemidstofanewscene,everyeventandfigureofwhichaffectedhimintimately,disheartenedhimoralluredand,whetheralluringordisheartening,filledhimalwayswithunrestandbitterthoughts。Alltheleisurewhichhisschoollifelefthimwaspassedinthecompanyofsubversivewriterswhosejibesandviolenceofspeechsetupafermentinhisbrainbeforetheypassedoutofitintohiscrudewritings。

TheessaywasforhimthechieflabourofhisweekandeveryTuesday,ashemarchedfromhometotheschool,hereadhisfateintheincidentsoftheway,pittinghimselfagainstsomefigureaheadofhimandquickeninghispacetooutstripitbeforeacertaingoalwasreachedorplantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthepathwayandtellinghimselfthathewouldbefirstandnotfirstintheweeklyessay。

OnacertainTuesdaythecourseofhistriumphswasrudelybroken。MrTate,theEnglishmaster,pointedhisfingerathimandsaidbluntly:——

Thisfellowhasheresyinhisessay。

Ahushfellontheclass。MrTatedidnotbreakitbutdugwithhishandbetweenhisthighswhilehisheavilystarchedlinencreakedabouthisneckandwrists。Stephendidnotlookup。Itwasarawspringmorningandhiseyeswerestillsmartingandweak。Hewasconsciousoffailureandofdetection,ofthesqualorofhisownmindandhome,andfeltagainsthisnecktherawedgeofhisturnedandjaggedcollar。

AshortloudlaughfromMrTatesettheclassmoreatease——

Perhapsyoudidn"tknowthat,hesaid——

Where?askedStephen。

MrTatewithdrewhisdelvinghandandspreadouttheessay——

Here。It"sabouttheCreatorandthesoul。RrmrrmrrmAh!withoutapossibilityofeverapproachingnearer。That"sheresy。

Stephenmurmured:——

Imeantwithoutapossibilityofeverreaching。

ItwasasubmissionandMrTate,appeased,foldeduptheessayandpasseditacrosstohim,saying:——

OAh!everreaching。That"sanotherstory。

Buttheclasswasnotsosoonappeased。Thoughnobodyspoketohimoftheaffairafterclasshecouldfeelabouthimavaguegeneralmalignantjoy。

AfewnightsafterthispublicchidinghewaswalkingwithaletteralongtheDrumcondraRoadwhenheheardavoicecry:——

Halt!

Heturnedandsawthreeboysofhisownclasscomingtowardshiminthedusk。ItwasHeronwhohadcalledoutand,ashemarchedforwardbetweenhistwoattendants,heclefttheairbeforehimwithathincaneintimetotheirsteps。Boland,hisfriend,marchedbesidehim,alargegrinonhisface,whileNashcameonafewstepsbehind,blowingfromthepaceandwagginghisgreatredhead。

AssoonastheboyshadturnedintoClonliffeRoadtogethertheybegantospeakaboutbooksandwriters,sayingwhatbookstheywerereadingandhowmanybookstherewereintheirfathers"bookcasesathome。StephenlistenedtotheminsomewondermentforBolandwasthedunceandNashtheidleroftheclass。Infact,aftersometalkabouttheirfavouritewriters,NashdeclaredforCaptainMarryatwho,hesaid,wasthegreatestwriter——

Fudge!saidHeron。AskDedalus。Whoisthegreatestwriter,Dedalus?

Stephennotedthemockeryinthequestionandsaid:——

Ofprosedoyoumean?——

Yes——

Newman,Ithink——

IsitCardinalNewman?askedBoland——

Yes,answeredStephen。

ThegrinbroadenedonNash"sfreckledfaceasheturnedtoStephenandsaid:——

AnddoyoulikeCardinalNewman,Dedalus?——

O,manysaythatNewmanhasthebestprosestyle,Heronsaidtotheothertwoinexplanation,ofcoursehe"snotapoet——

Andwhoisthebestpoet,Heron?askedBoland——

LordTennyson,ofcourse,answeredHeron——

O,yes,LordTennyson,saidNash。Wehaveallhispoetryathomeinabook。

AtthisStephenforgotthesilentvowshehadbeenmakingandburstout:——

Tennysonapoet!Why,he"sonlyarhymester!——

O,getout!saidHeron。EveryoneknowsthatTennysonisthegreatestpoet——

Andwhodoyouthinkisthegreatestpoet?askedBoland,nudginghisneighbour——

Byron,ofcourse,answeredStephen。

Herongavetheleadandallthreejoinedinascornfullaugh——

Whatareyoulaughingat?askedStephen——

You,saidHeron。Byronthegreatestpoet!He"sonlyapoetforuneducatedpeople——

Hemustbeafinepoet!saidBoland——

Youmaykeepyourmouthshut,saidStephen,turningonhimboldly。

Allyouknowaboutpoetryiswhatyouwroteupontheslatesintheyardandweregoingtobesenttotheloftfor。

Boland,infact,wassaidtohavewrittenontheslatesintheyardacoupletaboutaclassmateofhiswhooftenrodehomefromthecollegeonapony:AsTysonwasridingintoJerusalemHefellandhurthisAlecKafoozelum。ThisthrustputthetwolieutenantstosilencebutHeronwenton:——

InanycaseByronwasahereticandimmoraltoo——

Idon"tcarewhathewas,criedStephenhotly——

Youdon"tcarewhetherhewasahereticornot?saidNash——

Whatdoyouknowaboutit?shoutedStephen。Youneverreadalineofanythinginyourlifeexceptatrans,orBolandeither——

IknowthatByronwasabadman,saidBoland——

Here,catchholdofthisheretic,Heroncalledout。InamomentStephenwasaprisoner——

Tatemadeyoubuckuptheotherday,Heronwenton,abouttheheresyinyouressay——

I"lltellhimtomorrow,saidBoland——

Willyou?saidStephen。You"dbeafraidtoopenyourlips——

Afraid?——

Ay。Afraidofyourlife——

Behaveyourself!criedHeron,cuttingatStephen"slegswithhiscane。

Itwasthesignalfortheironset。NashpinionedhisarmsbehindwhileBolandseizedalongcabbagestumpwhichwaslyinginthegutter。StrugglingandkickingunderthecutsofthecaneandtheblowsoftheknottystumpStephenwasbornebackagainstabarbedwirefence——

AdmitthatByronwasnogood——

No——

Admit——

No——

Admit——

No。No。

Atlastafterafuryofplungeshewrenchedhimselffree。HistormentorssetofftowardsJones"sRoad,laughingandjeeringathim,whilehe,halfblindedwithtears,stumbledon,clenchinghisfistsmadlyandsobbing。

WhilehewasstillrepeatingtheConfiteoramidtheindulgentlaughterofhishearersandwhilethescenesofthatmalignantepisodewerestillpassingsharplyandswiftlybeforehismindhewonderedwhyheborenomalicenowtothosewhohadtormentedhim。Hehadnotforgottenawhitoftheircowardiceandcrueltybutthememoryofitcalledforthnoangerfromhim。Allthedescriptionsoffierceloveandhatredwhichhehadmetinbookshadseemedtohimthereforeunreal。EventhatnightashestumbledhomewardsalongJones"sRoadhehadfeltthatsomepowerwasdivestinghimofthatsudden-wovenangeraseasilyasafruitisdivestedofitssoftripepeel。

Heremainedstandingwithhistwocompanionsattheendoftheshedlisteningidlytotheirtalkortotheburstsofapplauseinthetheatre。

Shewassittingthereamongtheothersperhapswaitingforhimtoappear。

Hetriedtorecallherappearancebutcouldnot。Hecouldrememberonlythatshehadwornashawlaboutherheadlikeacowlandthatherdarkeyeshadinvitedandunnervedhim。Hewonderedhadhebeeninherthoughtsasshehadbeeninhis。Theninthedarkandunseenbytheothertwoherestedthetipsofthefingersofonehanduponthepalmoftheotherhand,scarcelytouchingitlightly。Butthepressureofherfingershadbeenlighterandsteadier:andsuddenlythememoryoftheirtouchtraversedhisbrainandbodylikeaninvisiblewave。

Aboycametowardsthem,runningalongundertheshed。Hewasexcitedandbreathless——

O,Dedalus,hecried,Doyleisinagreatbakeaboutyou。You"retogoinatonceandgetdressedfortheplay。Hurryup,youbetter——

He"scomingnow,saidHerontothemessengerwithahaughtydrawl,whenhewantsto。

TheboyturnedtoHeronandrepeated:——

ButDoyleisinanawfulbake——

WillyoutellDoylewithmybestcomplimentsthatIdamnedhiseyes?

answeredHeron——

Well,Imustgonow,saidStephen,whocaredlittleforsuchpointsofhonour——

Iwouldn"t,saidHeron,damnmeifIwould。That"snowaytosendforoneoftheseniorboys。Inabake,indeed!Ithinkit"squiteenoughthatyou"retakingapartinhisballyoldplay。

ThisspiritofquarrelsomecomradeshipwhichhehadobservedlatelyinhisrivalhadnotseducedStephenfromhishabitsofquietobedience。

Hemistrustedtheturbulenceanddoubtedthesincerityofsuchcomradeshipwhichseemedtohimasorryanticipationofmanhood。Thequestionofhonourhereraisedwas,likeallsuchquestions,trivialtohim。Whilehismindhadbeenpursuingitsintangiblephantomsandturninginirresolutionfromsuchpursuithehadheardabouthimtheconstantvoicesofhisfatherandofhismasters,urginghimtobeagentlemanaboveallthingsandurginghimtobeagoodcatholicaboveallthings。Thesevoiceshadnowcometobehollow-soundinginhisears。Whenthegymnasiumhadbeenopenedhehadheardanothervoiceurginghimtobestrongandmanlyandhealthyandwhenthemovementtowardsnationalrevivalhadbeguntobefeltinthecollegeyetanothervoicehadbiddenhimbetruetohiscountryandhelptoraiseupherlanguageandtradition。Intheprofaneworld,asheforesaw,aworldlyvoicewouldbidhimraiseuphisfather"sfallenstatebyhislaboursand,meanwhile,thevoiceofhisschoolcomradesurgedhimtobeadecentfellow,toshieldothersfromblameortobegthemoffandtodohisbesttogetfreedaysfortheschool。Anditwasthedinofallthesehollow-soundingvoicesthatmadehimhaltirresolutelyinthepursuitofphantoms。Hegavethemearonlyforatimebuthewashappyonlywhenhewasfarfromthem,beyondtheircall,aloneorinthecompanyofphantasmalcomrades。

Inthevestryaplumpfresh-facedjesuitandanelderlyman,inshabbyblueclothes,weredabblinginacaseofpaintsandchalks。Theboyswhohadbeenpaintedwalkedaboutorstoodstillawkwardly,touchingtheirfacesinagingerlyfashionwiththeirfurtivefingertips。Inthemiddleofthevestryayoungjesuit,whowasthenonavisittothecollege,stoodrockinghimselfrhythmicallyfromthetipsofhistoestohisheelsandbackagain,hishandsthrustwellforwardintohisside-pockets。Hissmallheadsetoffwithglossyredcurlsandhisnewlyshavenfaceagreedwellwiththespotlessdecencyofhissoutaneandwithhisspotlessshoes。

Ashewatchedthisswayingformandtriedtoreadforhimselfthelegendofthepriest"smockingsmiletherecameintoStephen"smemoryasayingwhichhehadheardfromhisfatherbeforehehadbeensenttoClongowes,thatyoucouldalwaystellajesuitbythestyleofhisclothes。Atthesamemomenthethoughthesawalikenessbetweenhisfather"smindandthatofthissmilingwell-dressedpriest:andhewasawareofsomedesecrationofthepriest"sofficeorofthevestryitselfwhosesilencewasnowroutedbyloudtalkandjokinganditsairpungentwiththesmellsofthegas-jetsandthegrease。

Whilehisforeheadwasbeingwrinkledandhisjawspaintedblackandbluebytheelderlyman,helisteneddistractedlytothevoiceoftheplumpyoungjesuitwhichbadehimspeakupandmakehispointsclearly。HecouldhearthebandplayingTheLilyofKillarneyandknewthatinafewmomentsthecurtainwouldgoup。Hefeltnostagefrightbutthethoughtoftheparthehadtoplayhumiliatedhim。Aremembranceofsomeofhislinesmadeasuddenflushrisetohispaintedcheeks。Hesawherseriousalluringeyeswatchinghimfromamongtheaudienceandtheirimageatoncesweptawayhisscruples,leavinghiswillcompact。Anothernatureseemedtohavebeenlenthim:theinfectionoftheexcitementandyouthabouthimenteredintoandtransformedhismoodymistrustfulness。Foroneraremomentheseemedtobeclothedintherealapparelofboyhood:and,ashestoodinthewingsamongtheotherplayers,hesharedthecommonmirthamidwhichthedropscenewashauledupwardsbytwoable-bodiedpriestswithviolentjerksandallawry。

Afewmomentsafterhefoundhimselfonthestageamidthegarishgasandthedimscenery,actingbeforetheinnumerablefacesofthevoid。Itsurprisedhimtoseethattheplaywhichhehadknownatrehearsalsforadisjointedlifelessthinghadsuddenlyassumedalifeofitsown。Itseemednowtoplayitself,heandhisfellowactorsaidingitwiththeirparts。Whenthecurtainfellonthelastsceneheheardthevoidfilledwithapplauseand,throughariftinasidescene,sawthesimplebodybeforewhichhehadactedmagicallydeformed,thevoidoffacesbreakingatallpointsandfallingasunderintobusygroups。

Heleftthestagequicklyandridhimselfofhismummeryandpassedoutthroughthechapelintothecollegegarden。Nowthattheplaywasoverhisnervescriedforsomefurtheradventure。Hehurriedonwardsasiftoovertakeit。Thedoorsofthetheatrewereallopenandtheaudiencehademptiedout。Onthelineswhichhehadfanciedthemooringsofanarkafewlanternsswunginthenightbreeze,flickeringcheerlessly。Hemountedthestepsfromthegardeninhaste,eagerthatsomepreyshouldnoteludehim,andforcedhiswaythroughthecrowdinthehallandpastthetwojesuitswhostoodwatchingtheexodusandbowingandshakinghandswiththevisitors。Hepushedonwardnervously,feigningastillgreaterhasteandfaintlyconsciousofthesmilesandstaresandnudgeswhichhispowderedheadleftinitswake。

Whenhecameoutonthestepshesawhisfamilywaitingfor"himatthefirstlamp。Inaglancehenotedthateveryfigureofthegroupwasfamiliarandrandownthestepsangrily——

IhavetoleaveamessagedowninGeorge"sStreet,hesaidtohisfatherquickly。I"llbehomeafteryou。

Withoutwaitingforhisfather"squestionsheranacrosstheroadandbegantowalkatbreakneckspeeddownthehill。Hehardlyknewwherehewaswalking。Prideandhopeanddesirelikecrushedherbsinhisheartsentupvapoursof,maddeningincensebeforetheeyesofhismind。Hestrodedownthehillamidthetumultofsudden-risenvapoursofwoundedprideandfallenhopeandbaffleddesire。Theystreamedupwardsbeforehisanguishedeyesindenseandmaddeningfumesandpassedawayabovehimtillatlasttheairwasclearandcoldagain。

Afilmstillveiledhiseyesbuttheyburnednolonger。Apower,akintothatwhichhadoftenmadeangerorresentmentfallfromhim,broughthisstepstorest。Hestoodstillandgazedupatthesombreporchofthemorgueandfromthattothedarkcobbledlanewayatitsside。HesawthewordLottsonthewallofthelaneandbreathedslowlytherankheavyair。

Thatishorsepissandrottedstraw,hethought。Itisagoododourtobreathe。Itwillcalmmyheart。Myheartisquitecalmnow。Iwillgoback。

StephenwasonceagainseatedbesidehisfatherinthecornerofarailwaycarriageatKingsbridge。HewastravellingwithhisfatherbythenightmailtoCork。AsthetrainsteamedoutofthestationherecalledhischildishwonderofyearsbeforeandeveryeventofhisfirstdayatClongowes。Buthefeltnowondernow。Hesawthedarkeninglandsslippingawaypasthim,thesilenttelegraph-polespassinghiswindowswiftlyeveryfourseconds,thelittleglimmeringstations,mannedbyafewsilentsentries,flungbythemailbehindherandtwinklingforamomentinthedarknesslikefierygrainsflungbackwardsbyarunner。

Helistenedwithoutsympathytohisfather"sevocationofCorkandofscenesofhisyouth,atalebrokenbysighsordraughtsfromhispocketflaskwhenevertheimageofsomedeadfriendappearedinitorwhenevertheevokerrememberedsuddenlythepurposeofhisactualvisit。Stephenheardbutcouldfeelnopity。TheimagesofthedeadwereallstrangerstohimsavethatofuncleCharles,animagewhichhadlatelybeenfadingoutofmemory。Heknew,however,thathisfather"spropertywasgoingtobesoldbyauction,andinthemannerofhisowndispossessionhefelttheworldgivethelierudelytohisphantasy。

AtMaryboroughhefellasleep。WhenheawokethetrainhadpassedoutofMallowandhisfatherwasstretchedasleepontheotherseat。Thecoldlightofthedawnlayoverthecountry,overtheunpeopledfieldsandtheclosedcottages。Theterrorofsleepfascinatedhismindashewatchedthesilentcountryorheardfromtimetotimehisfather"sdeepbreathorsuddensleepymovement。Theneighbourhoodofunseensleepersfilledhimwithstrangedread,asthoughtheycouldharmhim,andheprayedthatthedaymightcomequickly。Hisprayer,addressedneithertoGodnorsaint,beganwithashiver,asthechillymorningbreezecreptthroughthechinkofthecarriagedoortohisfeet,andendedinatrailoffoolishwordswhichhemadetofittheinsistentrhythmofthetrain;andsilently,atintervalsoffourseconds,thetelegraph-polesheldthegallopingnotesofthemusicbetweenpunctualbars。Thisfuriousmusicallayedhisdreadand,leaningagainstthewindowledge,helethiseyelidscloseagain。

TheydroveinajingleacrossCorkwhileitwasstillearlymorningandStephenfinishedhissleepinabedroomoftheVictoriaHotel。Thebrightwarmsunlightwasstreamingthroughthewindowandhecouldhearthedinoftraffic。Hisfatherwasstandingbeforethedressing-table,examininghishairandfaceandmoustachewithgreatcare,craninghisneckacrossthewater-juganddrawingitbacksidewaystoseethebetter。

Whilehedidsohesangsoftlytohimselfwithquaintaccentandphrasing:`"TisyouthandfollyMakesyoungmenmarry,Sohere,mylove,I"llNolongerstay。

Whatcan"tbecured,sure,Mustbeinjured,sure,SoI"llgotoAmerikay。

`Myloveshe"shandsome,Myloveshe"sbony:

She"slikegoodwhiskyWhenitisnew;

Butwhen"tisoldAndgrowingcoldItfadesanddieslikeThemountaindew。"Theconsciousnessofthewarmsunnycityoutsidehiswindowandthetendertremorswithwhichhisfather"svoicefestoonedthestrangesadhappyair,droveoffallthemistsofthenight"sillhumourfromStephen"sbrain。

Hegotupquicklytodressand,whenthesonghadended,said:——

That"smuchprettierthananyofyourothercome-all-yous——

Doyouthinkso?askedMrDedalus——

Ilikeit,saidStephen——

It"saprettyoldair,saidMrDedalus,twirlingthepointsofhismoustache。Ah,butyoushouldhaveheardMickLacysingit!PoorMickLacy!

Hehadlittleturnsforit,gracenotesthatheusedtoputinthatIhaven"tgot。Thatwastheboywhocouldsingacome-all-you,ifyoulike。

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