投诉 阅读记录

第7章

CHAPTER26。

IFSHEHADDISTURBEDherniece"stemper-shebeganfromthismomentforwardtotalkagooddealaboutCatherine"stemper,anarticlewhichuptothattimehadneverbeenmentionedinconnectionwithourheroine-Catherinehadopportunityonthemorrowtorecoverherserenity。Mrs。PennimanhadgivenheramessagefromMorrisTownsendtotheeffectthathewouldcomeandwelcomeherhomeonthedayafterherarrival。Hecameintheafternoon;but,asmaybeimagined,hewasnotonthisoccasionmadefreeofDoctorSloper"sstudy。Hehadbeencomingandgoing,forthepastyear,socomfortablyandirresponsibly,thathehadacertainsenseofbeingwrongedbyfindinghimselfremindedthathemustnowlimithishorizontothefrontparlor,whichwasCatherine"sparticularprovince。

"Iamverygladyouhavecomeback,"hesaid。"Itmakesmeveryhappytoseeyouagain。"Andhelookedather,smiling,fromheadtofoot,thoughitdidnotappearafterwardthatheagreedwithMrs。

Penniman(who,womanlike,wentmoreintodetails,inthinkingherembellished)。

ToCatherineheappearedresplendent;itwassometimebeforeshecouldbelieveagainthatthisbeautifulyoungmanwasherownexclusiveproperty。Theyhadagreatdealofcharacteristiclovers"

talk-asoftexchangeofinquiriesandassurances。InthesemattersMorrishadanexcellentgrace,whichflungapicturesqueinterestevenovertheaccountofhisdebutinthecommissionbusiness-asubjectastowhichhiscompanionearnestlyquestionedhim。Fromtimetotimehegotupfromthesofawheretheysattogether,andwalkedabouttheroom;afterwhichhecameback,smilingandpassinghishandthroughhishair。Hewasunquiet,aswasnaturalinayoungmanwhohasjustbeenreunitedtoalong-absentmistress,andCatherinemadethereflectionthatshehadneverseenhimsoexcited。Itgaveherpleasure,somehow,tonotethisfact。Heaskedherquestionsabouthertravels,tosomeofwhichshewasunabletoreply,forshehadforgottenthenamesofplacesandtheorderofherfather"sjourney。

Butforthemomentshewassohappy,soliftedupbythebeliefthathertroublesatlastwereover,thatsheforgottobeashamedofhermeageranswers。Itseemedtohernowthatshecouldmarryhimwithouttheremnantofascruple,orasingletremorsavethosethatbelongedtojoy。Withoutwaitingforhimtoask,shetoldhimthatherfatherhadcomebackinexactlythesamestateofmind-thathehadnotyieldedaninch。

"Wemustnotexpectitnow,"shesaid,"andwemustdowithoutit。"

Morrissatlookingandsmiling。"Mypoor,deargirl!"heexclaimed。

"Youmustn"tpityme,"saidCatherine。"Idon"tminditnow;Iamusedtoit。"

Morriscontinuedtosmile,andthenhegotupandwalkedaboutagain。"Youhadbetterletmetryhim。"

"Trytobringhimover?Youwouldonlymakehimworse,"Catherineanswered,resolutely。

"YousaythatbecauseImanageditsobadlybefore。ButIshouldmanageitdifferentlynow。Iammuchwiser;Ihavehadayeartothinkofit。Ihavemoretact。"

"Isthatwhatyouhavebeenthinkingofforayear?"

"Muchofthetime。Yousee,theideasticksinmycrop。Idon"tliketobebeaten。"

"Howareyoubeatenifwemarry?"

"OfcourseIamnotbeatenonthemainissue;butIam,don"tyousee,onalltherestofit-onthequestionofmyreputation,ofmyrelationswithyourfather,ofmyrelationswithmyownchildren,ifweshouldhaveany。"

"Weshallhaveenoughforourchildren;weshallhaveenoughforeverything。Don"tyouexpecttosucceedinbusiness?"

"Brilliantly,andweshallcertainlybeverycomfortable。Butitisn"tofthemerematerialcomfortIspeak;itisofthemoralcomfort,"saidMorris,"oftheintellectualsatisfaction。"

"Ihavegreatmoralcomfortnow,"Catherinedeclared,verysimply。

"Ofcourseyouhave。Butwithmeitisdifferent。Ihavestakedmyprideonprovingtoyourfatherthatheiswrong,andnowthatIamattheheadofaflourishingbusiness,Icandealwithhimasanequal,I

haveacapitalplan-doletmegoathim!"

Hestoodbeforeherwithhisbrightface,hisjauntyair,hishandsinhispockets;andshegotup,withhereyesrestingonhisown。"Pleasedon"t,Morris;pleasedon"t,"shesaid;andtherewasacertainmild,sadfirmnessinhertonewhichheheardforthefirsttime。"Wemustasknofavorsofhim-wemustasknothingmore。Hewon"trelent,andnothinggoodwillcomeofit。Iknowitnow-I

haveaverygoodreason。"

"Andpraywhatisyourreason?"

Shehesitatedtobringitout,butatlastitcame。"Heisnotveryfondofme。"

"Oh,bother!"criedMorris,angrily。

"Iwouldn"tsaysuchathingwithoutbeingsure。Isawit,Ifeltit,inEngland,justbeforehecameaway。Hetalkedtomeonenight-

thelastnight-andthenitcameoverme。Youcantellwhenapersonfeelsthatway。Iwouldn"taccusehimifhehadn"tmademefeelthatway。Idon"taccusehim;Ijusttellyouthatthat"showitis。Hecan"thelpit;wecan"tgovernouraffections。DoIgovernmine?

Mightn"thesaythattome?It"sbecauseheissofondofmymother,whomwelostsolongago。Shewasbeautiful,andvery,verybrilliant;

heisalwaysthinkingofher。Iamnotatalllikeher;AuntPennimanhastoldmethat。Ofcourseitisn"tmyfault;butneitherisithisfault。AllImeanis,it"strue;andit"sastrongerreason,forhisneverbeingreconciledthansimplyhisdislikeforyou。"

"Simply"?"criedMorris,withalaugh。"Iammuchobligedforthat。"

"Idon"tmindabouthisdislikingyounow;Imindeverythingless。I

feeldifferently;Ifeelseparatedfrommyfather。"

"Uponmyword,"saidMorris,"youareaqueerfamily。"

"Don"tsaythat-don"tsayanythingunkind,"thegirlentreated。

"Youmustbeverykindtomenow,because,Morris,because"-andshehesitatedamoment-"becauseIhavedoneagreatdealforyou。"

"Oh,Iknowthat,mydear。"

Shehadspokenuptothismomentwithoutvehemenceoroutwardsignofemotion,gently,reasoningly,onlytryingtoexplain。Butheremotionhadbeenineffectuallysmothered,anditbetrayeditselfatlastinthetremblingofhervoice。"Itisagreatthingtobeseparatedlikethatfromyourfather,whenyouhaveworshippedhimbefore。Ithasmademeveryunhappy;oritwouldhavemademesoifIdidn"tloveyou。Youcantellwhenapersonspeakstoyouasif-

asif-"

"Asifwhat?"

"Asiftheydespisedyou!"saidCatherine,passionately。"Hespokethatwaythenightbeforewesailed。Itwasn"tmuch,butitwasenough,andIthoughtofitonthevoyageallthetime。ThenImadeupmymind。Iwillneveraskhimforanythingagain,orexpectanythingfromhim。Itwouldnotbenaturalnow。Wemustbeveryhappytogether,andwemustnotseemtodependuponhisforgiveness。And,Morris,Morris,youmustneverdespiseme!"

Thiswasaneasypromisetomake,andMorrismadeitwithfineeffect。Butforthemomentheundertooknothingmoreonerous。

CHAPTER27。

THEDOCTORofcourse,onhisreturn,hadagooddealoftalkwithhissisters。HewasatnogreatpainstonarratehistravelsortocommunicatehisimpressionsofdistantlandstoMrs。Penniman,uponwhomhecontentedhimselfwithbestowingamementoofhisenviableexperienceintheshapeofavelvetgown。Butheconversedwithheratsomelengthaboutmattersnearerhome,andlostnotimeinassuringherthathewasstillaninflexiblefather。

"IhavenodoubtyouhaveseenagreatdealofMr。Townsend,anddoneyourbesttoconsolehimforCatherine"sabsence,"hesaid。"I

don"taskyouandyouneedn"tdenyit。Iwouldn"tputthequestiontoyoufortheworld,andexposeyoutotheinconvenienceofhavingto-a-excogitateananswer。Noonehasbetrayedyou,andtherehasbeennospyuponyourproceedings。Elizabethhastoldnotales,andhasnevermentionedyouexcepttopraiseyourgoodlooksandgoodspirits。Thethingissimplyaninferenceofmyown-aninduction,asthephilosopherssay。Itseemstomelikelythatyouwouldhaveofferedanasylumtoaninterestingsufferer。Mr。Townsendhasbeenagooddealinthehouse;thereissomethinginthehousethattellsmeso。Wedoctors,youknow,endbyacquiringfineperceptions,anditisimpresseduponmysensoriumthathehassatinthesechairs,inaveryeasyattitude,andwarmedhimselfatthatfire。Idon"tgrudgehimthecomfortofit;itistheonlyonehewilleverenjoyatmyexpense。Itseemslikely,indeed,thatIshallbeabletoeconomizeathisown。Idon"tknowwhatyoumayhavesaidtohim,orwhatyoumaysayhereafter;butIshouldlikeyoutoknowthatifyouhaveencouragedhimtobelievethathewillgainanythingbyhangingon,orthatIhavebudgedahairbreadthfromthepositionItookupayearago,youhaveplayedhimatrickforwhichhemayexactreparation。

I"mnotsurethathemaynotbringasuitagainstyou。Ofcourseyouhavedoneitconscientiously;youhavemadeyourselfbelievethatI

canbetiredout。Thisisthemostbaselesshallucinationthatevervisitedthebrainofagenialoptimist。Iamnotintheleasttired;I

amasfreshaswhenIstarted;Iamgoodforfiftyyearsyet。

Catherineappearsnottohavebudgedanincheither;sheisequallyfresh;soweareaboutwherewewerebefore。This,however,youknowaswellasI。WhatIwishissimplytogiveyounoticeofmyownstateofmind。Takeittoheart,dearLavinia。Bewareofthejustresentmentofadeludedfortunehunter!"

"Ican"tsayIexpectedit,"saidMrs。Penniman。"AndIhadasortoffoolishhopethatyouwouldcomehomewithoutthatodiousironicaltonewithwhichyoutreatthemostsacredsubjects。"

"Don"tundervalueirony;itisoftenofgreatuse。Itisnot,however,alwaysnecessary,andIwillshowyouhowgracefullyIcanlayitaside。IshouldliketoknowwhetheryouthinkMorrisTownsendwillhangon?"

"Iwillansweryouwithyourownweapons,"saidMrs。Penniman。

"Youhadbetterwaitandsee。"

"Doyoucallsuchaspeechasthatoneofmyownweapons?Ineversaidanythingsorough。"

"Hewillhangonlongenoughtomakeyouveryuncomfortable,then。"

"MydearLavinia,"exclaimedthedoctor,"doyoucallthatirony?

Icallitpugilism。"

Mrs。Penniman,however,inspiteofherpugilism,wasagooddealfrightened,andshetookcounselofherfears。Herbrothermeanwhiletookcounsel,withmanyreservations,ofMrs。Almond,towhomhewasnolessgenerousthantoLavinia,andagooddealmorecommunicative。

"Isupposeshehashadhimthereallthewhile,"hesaid。"Imustlookintothestateofmywine。Youneedn"tmindtellingmenow;I

havealreadysaidallImeantosaytoheronthesubject。"

"Ibelievehewasinthehouseagooddeal,"Mrs。Almondanswered。

"ButyoumustadmitthatyourleavingLaviniaquitealonewasagreatchangeforher,andthatitwasnaturalsheshouldwantsomesociety。"

"Idoadmitthat,andthatiswhyIshallmakenorowaboutthewine;IshallsetitdownascompensationtoLavinia。Sheiscapableoftellingmethatshedrankitallherself。Thinkoftheinconceivablebadtaste,inthecircumstances,ofthatfellowmakingfreewiththehouse-orcomingthereatall!Ifthatdoesn"tdescribehim,heisindescribable。"

"Hisplanistogetwhathecan。Laviniawillhavesupportedhimayear,"saidMrs。Almond。"It"ssomuchgained。"

"Shewillhavetosupporthimfortherestofhislife,then,"criedthedoctor,"butwithoutwine,astheysayatthetablesd"hote。"

"Catherinetellsmehehassetupabusiness,andismakingagreatdealofmoney。"

Thedoctorstared。"Shehasnottoldmethat-andLaviniadidn"tdeign。Ah!"hecried,"Catherinehasgivenmeup。Notthatitmatters,forallthatthebusinessamountsto。"

"ShehasnotgivenupMr。Townsend,"saidMrs。Almond。"Isawthatinthefirsthalf-minute。Shehascomehomeexactlythesame。"

"Exactlythesame;notagrainmoreintelligent。Shedidn"tnoticeastickorastoneallthewhilewewereaway-notapicturenoraview,notastatuenoracathedral。"

"Howcouldshenotice?Shehadotherthingstothinkof;theyareneverforaninstantoutofhermind。Shetouchesmeverymuch。"

"Shewouldtouchmeifshedidn"tirritateme。That"stheeffectshehasuponmenow。Ihavetriedeverythinguponher;Ireallyhavebeenquitemerciless。Butitisofnousewhatever;sheisabsolutelyglued。Ihavepassed,inconsequence,intotheexasperatedstage。AtfirstIhadagooddealofacertaingenialcuriosityaboutit;Iwantedtoseeifshereallywouldstick。But,goodLord,one"scuriosityissatisfied!Iseesheiscapableofit,andnowshecanletgo。"

"Shewillneverletgo,"saidMrs。Almond。

"Takecare,oryouwillexasperatemetoo。Ifshedoesn"tletgo,shewillbeshakenoff-senttumblingintothedust。That"sanicepositionformydaughter。Shecan"tseethatifyouaregoingtobepushed,youhadbetterjump。Andthenshewillcomplainofherbruises。"

"Shewillnevercomplain,"saidMrs。Almond。

"ThatIshallobjecttoevenmore。ButthedeucewillbethatI

can"tpreventanything。"

"Ifsheistohaveafall,"saidMrs。Almond,withagentlelaugh,"wemustspreadasmanycarpetsaswecan。"Andshecarriedoutthisideabyshowingagreatdealofmotherlykindnesstothegirl。

Mrs。PennimanimmediatelywrotetoMorrisTownsend。Theintimacybetweenthesetwowasbythistimeconsummate,butImustcontentmyselfwithnotingbutafewofitsfeatures。Mrs。Penniman"sownshareinitwasasingularsentiment,whichmighthavebeenmisinterpreted,butwhichinitselfwasnotdiscreditabletothepoorlady。Itwasaromanticinterestinthisattractiveandunfortunateyoungman,andyetitwasnotsuchaninterestasCatherinemighthavebeenjealousof。Mrs。Pennimanhadnotaparticleofjealousyofherniece。Forherself,shefeltasifshewereMorris"smotherorsister-amotherorsisterofanemotionaltemperament-andshehadanabsorbingdesiretomakehimcomfortableandhappy。Shehadstriventodosoduringtheyearthatherbrotherleftheranopenfield,andhereffortshadbeenattendedwiththesuccessthathasbeenpointedout。Shehadneverhadachildofherown,andCatherine,whomshehaddoneherbesttoinvestwiththeimportancethatwouldnaturallybelongtoayouthfulPenniman,hadonlypartlyrewardedherzeal。Catherine,asanobjectofaffectionandsolicitude,hadneverhadthatpicturesquecharmwhich(asitseemedtoher)wouldhavebeenanaturalattributeofherownprogeny。

EventhematernalpassioninMrs。Pennimanwouldhavebeenromanticandfactitious,andCatherinewasnotconstitutedtoinspirearomanticpassion。Mrs。Pennimanwasasfondofherasever,butshehadgrowntofeelthatwithCatherineshelackedopportunity。

Sentimentallyspeaking,therefore,shehad(thoughshehadnotdisinheritedherniece)adoptedMorrisTownsend,whogaveheropportunityinabundance。Shewouldhavebeenveryhappytohaveahandsomeandtyrannicalson,andwouldhavetakenanextremeinterestinhisloveaffairs。ThiswasthelightinwhichshehadcometoregardMorris,whohadconciliatedheratfirst,andmadehisimpressionbyhisdelicateandcalculateddeference-asortofexhibitiontowhichMrs。Pennimanwasparticularlysensitive。Hehadlargelyabatedhisdeferenceafterward,forheeconomizedhisresources,buttheimpressionwasmade,andtheyoungman"sverybrutalitycametohaveasortoffilialvalue。IfMrs。Pennimanhadhadason,shewouldprobablyhavebeenafraidofhim,andatthisstageofournarrativeshewascertainlyafraidofMorrisTownsend。

ThiswasoneoftheresultsofhisdomesticationinWashingtonSquare。

Hetookhiseasewithher-as,forthatmatter,hewouldcertainlyhavedonewithhisownmother。

CHAPTER28。

THELETTERwasawordofwarning;itinformedhimthatthedoctorhadcomehomemoreimpracticablethanever。ShemighthavereflectedthatCatherinewouldsupplyhimwithalltheinformationheneededonthispoint;butweknowthatMrs。Penniman"sreflectionswererarelyjust;and,moreover,shefeltthatitwasnotforhertodependonwhatCatherinemightdo。Ihavesaidthatheryoungfriendtookhiseasewithher,anditisanillustrationofthefactthathemadenoanswertoherletter。Hetooknoteofitamply;buthelightedhiscigarwithit,andhewaited,intranquilconfidencethatheshouldreceiveanother。"Hisstateofmindreallyfreezesmyblood,"Mrs。

Pennimanhadwritten,alludingtoherbrother;anditwouldhaveseemedthatuponthisstatementshecouldhardlyimprove。

Nevertheless,shewroteagain,expressingherselfwiththeaidofadifferentfigure。"Hishatredofyouburnswithaluridflame-theflamethatneverdies,"shewrote。"Butitdoesn"tlightupthedarknessofyourfuture。Ifmyaffectioncoulddoso,alltheyearsofyourlifewouldbeaneternalsunshine。IcanextractnothingfromC。;

sheissoterriblysecretive,likeherfather。Sheseemstoexpecttobemarriedverysoon,andhasevidentlymadepreparationsinEurope-quantitiesofclothing,tenpairsofshoes,etc。Mydearfriend,youcannotsetupinmarriedlifesimplywithafewpairsofshoes,canyou?Tellmewhatyouthinkofthis。Iamintenselyanxioustoseeyou,Ihavesomuchtosay。Imissyoudreadfully;thehouseseemssoemptywithoutyou。Whatisthenewsdowntown?Isthebusinessextending?Thatdearlittlebusiness。Ithinkit"ssobraveofyou!

Couldn"tIcometoyouroffice-justforthreeminutes?Imightpassforacustomer-isthatwhatyoucallthem?Imightcomeintobuysomething-somesharesorsomerailroadthings。Tellmewhatyouthinkofthatplan。Iwouldcarryalittlereticule,likeawomanofthepeople。"

Inspiteofthesuggestionaboutthereticule,Morrisappearedtothinkpoorlyoftheplan,forhegaveMrs。Pennimannoencouragementwhatevertovisithisoffice,whichhehadalreadyrepresentedtoherasaplacepeculiarlyandunnaturallydifficulttofind。Butasshepersistedindesiringaninterview-uptothelast,aftermonthsofintimatecolloquy,shecalledthesemeetings"interviews"-sheagreedthattheyshouldtakeawalktogether,andwasevenkindenoughtoleavehisofficeforthispurposeduringthehoursatwhichbusinessmighthavebeensupposedtobeliveliest。Itwasnosurprisetohim,whentheymetatastreetcorner,inaregionofemptylotsandundevelopedpavements(Mrs。Pennimanbeingattiredasmuchaspossiblelikea"womanofthepeople"),tofindthat,inspiteofherurgency,whatshechieflyhadtoconveytohimwastheassuranceofhersympathy。Ofsuchassurances,however,hehadalreadyavoluminouscollection,anditwouldnothavebeenworthhiswhiletoforsakeafruitfulavocationmerelytohearMrs。Pennimansay,forthethousandthtime,thatshehadmadehiscauseherown。Morrishadsomethingofhisowntosay。Itwasnotaneasythingtobringout,andwhileheturneditover,thedifficultymadehimacrimonious。

"Ohyes,Iknowperfectlythathecombinesthepropertiesofalumpoficeandared-hotcoal,"heobserved。"Catherinehasmadeitthoroughlyclear,andyouhavetoldmesotillIamsickofit。Youneedn"ttellmeagain;Iamperfectlysatisfied。HewillnevergiveusaPenny;Iregardthatasmathematicallyproved。"

Mrs。Pennimanatthispointhadaninspiration。

"Couldn"tyoubringalawsuitagainsthim?"Shewonderedthatthissimpleexpedienthadneveroccurredtoherbefore。

"Iwillbringalawsuitagainstyou,"saidMorris,"ifyouaskmeanymoresuchaggravatingquestions。Amanshouldknowwhenheisbeaten,"headded,inamoment。"Imustgiveherup!"

Mrs。Pennimanreceivedthisdeclarationinsilence,thoughitmadeherheartbeatalittle。Itfoundherbynomeansunprepared,forshehadaccustomedherselftothethoughtthat,ifMorrisshoulddecidedlynotbeabletogetherbrother"smoney,itwouldnotdoforhimtomarryCatherinewithoutit。"Itwouldnotdo,"wasavaguewayofputtingthething;butMrs。Penniman"snaturalaffectioncompletedtheidea,which,thoughithadnotasyetbeensocrudelyexpressedbetweenthemasintheformthatMorrishadjustgivenit,hadneverthelessbeenimpliedsooften,incertaineasyintervalsoftalk,ashesatstretchinghislegsinthedoctor"swell-stuffedarmchairs,thatshehadgrownfirsttoregarditwithanemotionwhichsheflatteredherselfwasphilosophic,andthentohaveasecrettendernessforit。Thefactthatshekepthertendernesssecretproves,ofcourse,thatshewasashamedofit;butshemanagedtoblinkhershamebyremindingherselfthatshewas,afterall,theofficialprotectorofherniece"smarriage。Herlogicwouldscarcelyhavepassedmusterwiththedoctor。Inthefirstplace,Morrismustgetthemoney,andshewouldhelphimtoit。Inthesecond,itwasplainitwouldnevercometohim,anditwouldbeagrievouspityheshouldmarrywithoutit-ayoungmanwhomightsoeasilyfindsomethingbetter。Afterherbrotherhaddeliveredhimself,onhisreturnfromEurope,ofthatincisivelittleaddressthathasbeenquoted,Morris"scauseseemedsohopelessthatMrs。Pennimanfixedherattentionexclusivelyuponthelatterbranchofherargument。IfMorrishadbeenherson,shewouldcertainlyhavesacrificedCatherinetoasuperiorconceptionofhisfuture;andtobereadytodoso,asthecasestood,wasthereforeevenafinerdegreeofdevotion。Nevertheless,itcheekedherbreathalittletohavethesacrificialknife,asitwere,suddenlythrustintoherhand。

Morriswalkedalongamoment,andthenherepeated,harshly,"Imustgiveherup!"

"IthinkIunderstandyou,"saidMrs。Penniman,gently。

"Icertainlysayitdistinctlyenough-brutallyandvulgarlyenough。"

Hewasashamedofhimself,andhisshamewasuncomfortable;andashewasextremelyintolerantofdiscomfort,hefeltviciousandcruel。Hewantedtoabusesomebody,andhebegan,cautiously-forhewasalwayscautious-withhimself。

"Couldn"tyoutakeherdownalittle?"heasked。

"Takeherdown?"

"Prepareher-tryandeasemeoff。"

Mrs。Pennimanstopped,lookingathimverysolemnly。

"MypoorMorris,doyouknowhowmuchshelovesyou?"

"No,Idon"t。Idon"twanttoknow。Ihavealwaystriedtokeepfromknowing。Itwouldbetoopainful。"

"Shewillsuffermuch,"saidMrs。Penniman。

"Youmustconsoleher。Ifyouareasgoodafriendtomeasyoupretendtobe,youwillmanageit。"

Mrs。Pennimanshookherheadsadly。

"Youtalkofmy"pretending"tolikeyou;butIcan"tpretendtohateyou。IcanonlytellherIthinkveryhighlyofyou;andhowwillthatconsoleherforlosingyou?"

"Thedoctorwillhelpyou。Hewillbedelightedatthethingbeingbrokenoff;andasheisaknowingfellow,hewillinventsomethingtocomforther。"

"Hewillinventanewtorture,"criedMrs。Penniman。"Heavendeliverherfromherfather"scomfort!Itwillconsistofhiscrowingoverher,andsaying,"Ialwaystoldyouso!""

Morriscoloredamostuncomfortablered。

"Ifyoudon"tconsoleheranybetterthanyouconsoleme,youcertainlywon"tbeofmuchuse。It"sadamneddisagreeablenecessity;Ifeelitextremely,andyououghttomakeiteasyforme。"

"Iwillbeyourfriendforlife,"Mrs。Pennimandeclared。

"Bemyfriendnow!"andMorriswalkedon。

Shewentwithhim;shewasalmosttrembling。

"Shouldyoulikemetotellher?"sheasked。

"Youmustn"ttellher,butyoucan-youcan-"Andhehesitated,tryingtothinkwhatMrs。Pennimancoulddo。"Youcanexplaintoherwhyitis。It"sbecauseIcan"tbringmyselftostepinbetweenherandherfather-togivehimthepretexthegraspsatsoeagerly(it"sahideoussight!)fordeprivingherofherrights。"

Mrs。Pennimanfeltwithremarkablepromptitudethecharmofthisformula。

"That"ssolikeyou,"shesaid。"It"ssofinelyfelt。"

Morrisgavehisstickanangryswing。

"Ohdamnation!"heexclaimed,perversely。

Mrs。Penniman,however,wasnotdiscouraged。

"Itmayturnoutbetterthanyouthink。Catherineis,afterall,soverypeculiar。"Andshethoughtshemighttakeituponherselftoassurehimthat,whateverhappened,thegirlwouldbeveryquiet-

shewouldn"tmakeanoise。Theyextendedtheirwalk,andwhiletheyproceededMrs。Pennimantookuponherselfotherthingsbesides,andendedbyhavingassumedaconsiderableburden;Morrisbeingreadyenough,asmaybeimagined,toputeverythingoffuponher。Buthewasnotforasingleinstantthedupeofherblunderingalacrity;heknewthatofwhatshepromisedshewascompetenttoperformbutaninsignificantfraction,andthemoresheprofessedherwillingnesstoservehim,thegreaterfoolhethoughther。

"Whatwillyoudoifyoudon"tmarryher?"sheventuredtoinquireinthecourseofthisconversation。

"Somethingbrilliant,"saidMorris。"Shouldn"tyoulikemetodosomethingbrilliant?"

TheideagaveMrs。Pennimanexceedingpleasure。

"Ishallfeelsadlytakeninifyoudon"t。"

"Ishallhaveto,tomakeupforthis。Thisisn"tatallbrilliant,youknow。"

Mrs。Pennimanmusedalittle,asiftheremightbesomewayofmakingoutthatitwas;butshehadtogiveuptheattempt,and,tocarryofftheawkwardnessoffailure,sheriskedanewinquiry。

"Doyoumean-doyoumeananothermarriage?"

Morrisgreetedthisquestionwithareflectionwhichwashardlythelessimpudentfrombeinginaudible。"Surelywomenaremorecrudethanmen!"Andthenheanswered,audibly,"Neverintheworld!"

Mrs。Pennimanfeltdisappointedandsnubbed,andsherelievedherselfinalittlevaguelysarcasticcry。Hewascertainlyperverse。

"Igiveherup,notforanotherwoman,butforawidercareer,"

Morrisannounced。

Thiswasverygrand;butstillMrs。Penniman,whofeltthatshehadexposedherself,wasfaintlyrancorous。

"Doyoumeannevertocometoseeheragain?"sheasked,withsomesharpness。

"Ohno,Ishallcomeagain;butwhatistheuseofdraggingitout?Ihavebeenfourtimessinceshecameback,andit"sterriblyawkwardwork。Ican"tkeepitupindefinitely;sheoughtn"ttoexpectthat,youknow。Awomanshouldneverkeepamandangling,"headded,finely。

"Ah,butyoumusthaveyourlastparting!"urgedhiscompanion,inwhoseimaginationtheideaoflastpartingsoccupiedaplaceinferiorindignityonlytothatoffirstmeetings。

CHAPTER29。

HECAMEAGAIN,withoutmanagingthelastparting;andagainandagain,withoutfindingthatMrs。Pennimanhadasyetdonemuchtopavethepathofretreatwithflowers。Itwasdevilishawkward,ashesaid,andhefeltalivelyanimosityforCatherine"saunt,who,ashehadnowquiteformedthehabitofsayingtohimself,haddraggedhimintothemess,andwasboundincommoncharitytogethimoutofit。

Mrs。Penniman,totellthetruth,had,intheseclusionofherownapartment-and,Imayadd,amidthesuggestivenessofCatherine"s,whichworeinthosedaystheappearanceofthatofayoungladylayingouthertrousseau-Mrs。Pennimanhadmeasuredherresponsibilities,andtakenfrightattheirmagnitude。ThetaskofpreparingCatherineandeasingoffMorrispresenteddifficultieswhichincreasedintheexecution,andevenledtheimpulsiveLaviniatoaskherselfwhetherthemodificationoftheyoungman"soriginalprojecthadbeenconceivedinahappyspirit。Abrilliantfuture,awidercareer,aconscienceexemptfromthereproachofinterferencebetweenayoungladyandhernaturalrights-theseexcellentthingsmightbetootroublesomelypurchased。FromCatherineherselfMrs。Pennimanreceivednoassistancewhatever;thepoorgirlwasapparentlywithoutsuspicionofherdanger。Shelookedatherloverwitheyesofundiminishedtrust,andthoughshehadlessconfidenceinherauntthaninayoungmanwithwhomshehadexchangedsomanytendervows,shegavehernohandleforexplainingorconfessing。Mrs。Penniman,falteringandwavering,declaredCatherinewasverystupid,putoffthegreatscene,asshewouldhavecalledit,fromdaytoday,andwanderedabout,veryuncomfortably,withherunexplodedbombinherhands。

Morris"sownsceneswereverysmallonesjustnow;buteventhesewerebeyondhisstrength。Hemadehisvisitsasbriefaspossible,and,whilehesatwithhismistress,foundterriblylittletotalkabout。

Shewaswaitingforhim,invulgarparlance,tonametheday;andsolongashewasunpreparedtobeexplicitonthispoint,itseemedamockerytopretendtotalkaboutmattersmoreabstract。Shehadnoairsandnoarts;sheneverattemptedtodisguiseherexpectancy。

Shewaswaitingonhisgoodpleasure,andwouldwaitmodestlyandpatiently;hishangingbackatthissupremetimemightappearstrange,butofcoursehemusthaveagoodreasonforit。Catherinewouldhavemadeawifeofthegentle,old-fashionedpattern-regardingreasonsasfavorsandwindfalls,butnomoreexpectingoneeverydaythanshewouldhaveexpectedabouquetofcamellias。Duringtheperiodofherengagement,however,ayoungladyevenofthemostslenderpretensionscountsuponmorebouquetsthanatothertimes;andtherewasawantofperfumeintheairatthismomentwhichatlastexcitedthegirl"salarm。

"Areyousick?"sheaskedofMorris。"Youseemsorestless,andyoulookpale。"

"Iamnotatallwell,"saidMorris;anditoccurredtohimthat,ifhecouldonlymakeherpityhimenough,hemightgetoff。

"Iamafraidyouareoverworked;yououghtn"ttoworksomuch。"

"Imustdothat。"Andthenheadded,withasortofcalculatedbrutality,"Idon"twanttooweyoueverything。"

"Ah,howcanyousaythat?"

"Iamtooproud,"saidMorris。

"Yes-youaretooproud。"

"Well,youmusttakemeasIam,"hewenton。"Youcanneverchangeme。"

"Idon"twanttochangeyou,"shesaid,gently。"Iwilltakeyouasyouare。"Andshestoodlookingathim。

"Youknowpeopletalktremendouslyaboutaman"smarryingarichgirl,"Morrisremarked。"It"sexcessivelydisagreeable。"

"ButIamnotrich,"saidCatherine。

"Youarerichenoughtomakemetalkedabout。"

"Ofcourseyouaretalkedabout。It"sanhonor。"

"It"sanhonorIcouldeasilydispensewith。"

Shewasonthepointofaskinghimwhetheritwasnotacompensationforthisannoyancethatthepoorgirlwhohadthemisfortunetobringituponhimlovedhimsodearlyandbelievedinhimsotruly;

butshehesitated,thinkingthatthiswouldperhapsseemanexactingspeech,andwhileshehesitated,hesuddenlylefther。

Thenexttimehecame,however,shebroughtitout,andshetoldhimagainthathewastooproud。Herepeatedthathecouldn"tchange,andthistimeshefelttheimpulsetosaythatwithalittleefforthemightchange。

Sometimeshethoughtthatifhecouldonlymakeaquarrelwithheritmighthelphim;butthequestionwashowtoquarrelwithayoungwomanwhohadsuchtreasuresofconcession。"Isupposeyouthinktheeffortisallonyourside,"hebrokeout。"Don"tyoubelievethatI

havemyownefforttomake?"

"It"sallyoursnow,"shesaid。"Myeffortisfinishedanddonewith。"

"Well,mineisnot。"

"Wemustbearthingstogether,"saidCatherine。"That"swhatweoughttodo。"

Morrisattemptedanaturalsmile。"Therearesomethingswhichwecan"tverywellbeartogether-forinstance,separation。"

"Whydoyouspeakofseparation?"

"Ah,youdon"tlikeit;Iknewyouwouldn"t。"

"Whereareyougoing,Morris?"shesuddenlyasked。

Hefixedhiseyeonheramoment,andforapartofthatmomentshewasafraidofit。"Willyoupromisenottomakeascene?"

"Ascene-doImakescenes?"

"Allwomendo!"saidMorris,withthetoneoflargeexperience。

"Idon"t。Whereareyougoing?"

"IfIshouldsayIwasgoingawayonbusiness,shouldyouthinkitverystrange?"

Shewonderedamoment,gazingathim。"Yes-no。Notifyouwilltakemewithyou。"

"Takeyouwithme-onbusiness?"

"Whatisyourbusiness?Yourbusinessistobewithme。"

"Idon"tearnmylivingwithyou,"saidMorris。"Or,rather,"hecried,withasuddeninspiration,"that"sjustwhatIdo-orwhattheworldsaysIdo!"

Thisoughtperhapstohavebeenagreatstroke,butitmiscarried。

"Whereareyougoing?"Catherinesimplyrepeated。

"ToNewOrleans-aboutbuyingsomecotton。"

"IamperfectlywillingtogotoNewOrleans,"Catherinesaid。

"DoyousupposeIwouldtakeyoutoanestofyellowfever?"criedMorris。"DoyousupposeIwouldexposeyouatsuchatimeasthis?"

"Ifthereisyellowfever,whyshouldyougo?Morris,youmustnotgo。"

"Itistomakesixthousanddollars,"saidMorris。"Doyougrudgemethatsatisfaction?"

"Wehavenoneedofsixthousanddollars。Youthinktoomuchaboutmoney。"

"Youcanaffordtosaythat。Thisisagreatchance;weheardofitlastnight。"Andheexplainedtoherinwhatthechanceconsisted;andtoldheralongstory,goingovermorethanonceseveralofthedetails,abouttheremarkablestrokeofbusinesswhichheandhispartnerhadplannedbetweenthem。

ButCatherine"simagination,forreasonsbestknowntoherself,absolutelyrefusedtobefired。"IfyoucangotoNewOrleans,Icango,"shesaid。"Whyshouldn"tyoucatchyellowfeverquiteaseasilyasI?Iameverybitasstrongasyou,andnotintheleastafraidofanyfever。WhenwewereinEuropewewereinveryunhealthyplaces;

myfatherusedtomakemetakesomepills。Inevercaughtanything,andIneverwasnervous。Whatwillbetheuseofsixthousanddollarsifyoudieofafever?Whenpersonsaregoingtobemarriedtheyoughtn"ttothinksomuchaboutbusiness。Youshouldn"tthinkaboutcotton;youshouldthinkaboutme。YoucangotoNewOrleanssomeothertime-therewillalwaysbeplentyofcotton。Itisn"tthemomenttochoose。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。"Shespokemoreforciblyandvolublythanhehadeverheardher,andsheheldhisarminhertwohands。

"Yousaidyouwouldn"tmakeascene,"criedMorris。"Icallthisascene。"

"It"syouthataremakingit。Ihaveneveraskedyouanythingbefore。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。"Anditwasacomforttohertothinkthatshehadhithertoaskedsolittle;itseemedtomakeherrighttoinsistthegreaternow。

Morrisbethoughthimselfalittle。"Verywell,then;wewon"ttalkaboutitanymore。Iwilltransactmybusinessbyletter。"Andhebegantosmoothhishat,asiftotakeleave。

"Youwon"tgo?"andshestoodlookingupathim。

Hecouldnotgiveuphisideaofprovokingaquarrel;itwassomuchthesimplestway。Hebenthiseyesonherupturnedfacewiththedarkestfrownhecouldachieve。"Youarenotdiscreet;youmustn"tbullyme。"

But,asusual,sheconcededeverything。"No,Iamnotdiscreet;I

knowIamtoopressing。Butisn"titnatural?Itisonlyforamoment。"

"Inamomentyoumaydoagreatdealofharm。TryandbecalmerthenexttimeIcome。"

"Whenwillyoucome?"

"Doyouwanttomakeconditions?"Morrisasked。"IwillcomenextSaturday。"

"Cometomorrow,"Catherinebegged。"Iwantyoutocometomorrow。I

willbeveryquiet,"sheadded;andheragitationhadbythistimebecomesogreatthattheassurancewasnotunbecoming。Asuddenfearhadcomeoverher;itwaslikethesolidconjunctionofadozendisembodieddoubts,andherimagination,atasinglebound,hadtraversedanenormousdistance。Allherbeing,forthemoment,wascenteredinthewishtokeephimintheroom。

Morrisbenthisheadandkissedherforehead。"Whenyouarequiet,youareperfection,"hesaid,"butwhenyouareviolent,youarenotincharacter。"

ItwasCatherine"swishthatthereshouldbenoviolenceabouthersavethebeatingofherheart,whichshecouldnothelp;andshewenton,asgentlyaspossible,"Willyoupromisetocometomorrow?"

"IsaidSaturday!"Morrisanswered,smiling。Hetriedafrownatonemoment,asmileatanother;hewasathiswit"send。

"Yes,Saturdaytoo,"sheanswered,tryingtosmile。"Buttomorrowfirst。"Hewasgoingtothedoor,andshewentwithhimquickly。Sheleanedhershoulderagainstit;itseemedtoherthatshewoulddoanythingtokeephim。

"IfIampreventedfromcomingtomorrow,youwillsayIhavedeceivedyou,"hesaid。

"Howcanyoubeprevented?Youcancomeifyouwill。"

"Iamabusyman-Iamnotadangler!"criedMorris,sternly。

Hisvoicewassohardandunnaturalthat,withahelplesslookathim,sheturnedaway;andthenhequicklylaidhishandonthedoorknob。Hefeltasifhewereabsolutelyrunningawayfromher。

Butinaninstantshewasclosetohimagain,andmurmuringinatonenonethelesspenetratingforbeinglow,"Morris,youaregoingtoleaveme。"

"Yes,foralittlewhile。"

"Forhowlong?"

"Tillyouarereasonableagain。"

"Ishallneverbereasonable,inthatway。"Andshetriedtokeephimlonger;itwasalmostastruggle。"ThinkofwhatIhavedone!"shebrokeout。"Morris,Ihavegivenupeverything。"

"Youshallhaveeverythingback。"

"Youwouldn"tsaythatifyoudidn"tmeansomething。Whatisit?

Whathashappened?WhathaveIdone?Whathaschangedyou?"

"Iwillwritetoyou-thatisbetter,"Morrisstammered。

"Ah,youwon"tcomeback!"shecried,burstingintotears。

"DearCatherine,"hesaid,"don"tbelievethat。Ipromiseyouthatyoushallseemeagain。"Andhemanagedtogetaway,andtoclosethedoorbehindhim。

CHAPTER30。

ITWASALMOSTthelastoutbreakofpassionofherlife;atleast,sheneverindulgedinanotherthattheworldknewanythingabout。

Butthisonewaslongandterrible;sheflungherselfonthesofaandgaveherselfuptohergriefShehardlyknewwhathadhappened;

ostensiblyshehadonlyhadadifferencewithherlover,asothergirlshadhadbefore,andthethingwasnotonlynotarupture,butshewasundernoobligationtoregarditevenasamenace。

Nevertheless,shefeltawound,evenifhehadnotdealtit;itseemedtoherthatamaskhadsuddenlyfallenfromhisface。Hehadwishedtogetawayfromher;hehadbeenangryandcruel,andsaidstrangethings,withstrangelooks。Shewassmotheredandstunned;sheburiedherheadinthecushions,sobbingandtalkingtoherself。Butatlastsheraisedherself,withthefearthateitherherfatherorMrs。Pennimanwouldcomein;andthenshesatthere,staringbeforeher,whiletheroomgrewdarker。Shesaidtoherselfthatperhapshewouldcomebacktotellherhehadnotmeantwhathesaid;andshelistenedforhisringatthedoor,tryingtobelievethatthiswasprobable。Alongtimepassed,butMorrisremainedabsent;theshadowsgathered;theeveningsettleddownonthemeagereleganceofthelight,clear-coloredroom;thefirewentout。Whenithadgrowndark,Catherinewenttothewindowandlookedout;shestoodthereforhalfanhour,onthemerechancethathewouldcomeupthesteps。Atlastsheturnedaway,forshesawherfathercomein。Hehadseenheratthewindowlookingout,andhestoppedamomentatthebottomofthewhitesteps,andgravely,withanairofexaggeratedcourtesy,liftedhishattoher。Thegesturewassoincongruoustotheconditionshewasin,thisstatelytributeofrespecttoapoorgirldespisedandforsakenwassooutofplace,thatthethinggaveherakindofhorror,andshehurriedawaytoherroom。ItseemedtoherthatshehadgivenMorrisup。

Shehadtoshowherselfhalfanhourlater,andshewassustainedattablebytheimmensityofherdesirethatherfathershouldnotperceivethatanythinghadhappened。Thiswasagreathelptoherafterward,anditservedher(thoughneverasmuchasshesupposed)

fromthefirst。OnthisoccasionDoctorSloperwasrathertalkative。

Hetoldagreatmanystoriesaboutawonderfulpoodlethathehadseenatthehouseofanoldladywhomhevisitedprofessionally。

Catherinenotonlytriedtoappeartolistentotheanecdotesofthepoodle,butsheendeavoredtointerestherselfinthem,soasnottothinkofherscenewithMorris。Thatperhapswasanhallucination;

hewasmistaken,shewasjealous;peopledidn"tchangelikethatfromonedaytoanother。Thensheknewthatshehadhaddoubtsbefore-

strangesuspicions,thatwereatoncevagueandacute-andthathehadbeendifferenteversinceherreturnfromEurope:whereuponshetriedagaintolistentoherfather,whotoldastorysoremarkablywell。Afterwardshewentstraighttoherownroom;itwasbeyondherstrengthtoundertaketospendtheeveningwithheraunt。Alltheevening,alone,shequestionedherself。Hertroublewasterrible;

butwasitathingofherimagination,engenderedbyanextravagantsensibility,ordiditrepresentaclear-cutreality,andhadtheworstthatwaspossibleactuallycometopass?Mrs。Penniman,withadegreeoftactthatwasasunusualasitwascommendable,tookthelineofleavingheralone。Thetruthis,thathersuspicionshavingbeenaroused,sheindulgedadesire,naturaltoatimidperson,thattheexplosionshouldbelocalized。Solongastheairstillvibratedshekeptoutoftheway。

ShepassedandrepassedCatherine"sdoorseveraltimesinthecourseoftheevening,asifsheexpectedtohearaplaintivemoanbehindit。

Buttheroomremainedperfectlystill;andaccordinglythelastthingbeforeretiringtoherowncouch,sheappliedforadmittance。

Catherinewassittingup,andhadabookthatshepretendedtobereading。Shehadnowishtogotobed,forshehadnoexpectationofsleeping。AfterMrs。Pennimanhadlefthershesatuphalfthenight,andsheofferedhervisitornoinducementtoremain。Herauntcamestealinginverygently,andapproachedherwithgreatsolemnity。

"Iamafraidyouareintrouble,mydear。CanIdoanythingtohelpyou?"

"Iamnotinanytroublewhatever,anddonotneedanyhelp,"saidCatherine,fibbingroundly,andprovingtherebythatnotonlyourfaults,butourmostinvoluntarymisfortunes,tendtocorruptourmorals。

"Hasnothinghappenedtoyou?"

"Nothingwhatever。"

"Areyouverysure,dear?"

"Perfectlysure。"

"AndcanIreallydonothingforyou?"

"Nothing,Aunt,butkindlyleavemealone,"saidCatherine。

Mrs。Penniman,thoughshehadbeenafraidoftoowarmawelcomebefore,wasnowdisappointedatsocoldaone;andinrelatingafterward,asshedidtomanypersons,andwithconsiderablevariationsofdetail,thehistoryoftheterminationofherniece"sengagement,shewasusuallycarefultomentionthattheyounglady,onacertainoccasion,had"hustled"heroutoftheroom。ItwascharacteristicofMrs。Pennimanthatsherelatedthisfact,notintheleastoutofmalignitytoCatherine,whomsheverysufficientlypitied,butsimplyfromanaturaldispositiontoembellishanysubjectthatshetouched。

Catherine,asIhavesaid,satuphalfthenight,asifshestillexpectedtohearMorrisTownsendringatthedoor。Onthemorrowthisexpectationwaslessunreasonable;butitwasnotgratifiedbythereappearanceoftheyoungman。Neitherhadhewritten;therewasnotawordofexplanationorreassurance。FortunatelyforCatherine,shecouldtakerefugefromherexcitement,whichhadnowbecomeintense,inherdeterminationthatherfathershouldseenothingofit。Howwellshedeceivedherfatherweshallhaveoccasiontolearn;butherinnocentartswereoflittleavailbeforeapersonoftherareperspicacityofMrs。Penniman。Thisladyeasilysawthatshewasagitated,andiftherewasanyagitationgoingforward,Mrs。

Pennimanwasnotapersontoforfeithernaturalshareinit。Shereturnedtothechargethenextevening,andrequestedherniecetoconfideinher-tounburdenherheart。Perhapssheshouldbeabletoexplaincertainthingsthatnowseemeddark,andthatsheknewmoreaboutthanCatherinesupposed。IfCatherinehadbeenfrigidthenightbefore,todayshewashaughty。

"Youarecompletelymistaken,andIhavenottheleastideawhatyoumean。Idon"tknowwhatyouaretryingtofastenonme,andIhaveneverhadlessneedofanyone"sexplanationsinmylife。"

Inthiswaythegirldeliveredherself,andfromhourtohourkeptherauntatbay。FromhourtohourMrs。Penniman"scuriositygrew。ShewouldhavegivenherlittlefingertoknowwhatMorrishadsaidanddone,whattonehehadtaken,whatpretexthehadfound。Shewrotetohim,naturally,torequestaninterview;butshereceived,asnaturally,noanswertoherpetition。Morriswasnotinawritingmood;forCatherinehadaddressedhimtwoshortnoteswhichmetwithnoacknowledgment。ThesenotesweresobriefthatImaygivethementire。"Won"tyougivemesomesignthatyoudidn"tmeantobesocruelasyouseemedonTuesday?"-thatwasthefirst;theotherwasalittlelonger。"IfIwasunreasonableorsuspiciousonTuesday-ifI

annoyedyouortroubledyouinanyway-Ibegyourforgiveness,andIpromiseneveragaintobesofoolish。Iampunishedenough,andI

don"tunderstand。DearMorris,youarekillingme!"ThesenotesweredispatchedontheFridayandSaturday;butSaturdayandSundaypassedwithoutbringingthepoorgirlthesatisfactionshedesired。

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