投诉 阅读记录

第1章

RandolphTrentsteppedfromtheStocktonboatontheSanFranciscowharf,penniless,friendless,andunknown。Hungermighthavebeenaddedtohistrials,for,havingpaidhislastcoininpassagemoney,hehadbeenadayandahalfwithoutfood。Yetheknewitonlybyanoccasionallapseintoweaknessasmuchmentalasphysical。Nevertheless,hewasfirstonthegangplanktoland,andhurriedfeverishlyashore,inthatvaguedesireforactionandchangeofscenecommontosuchirritation;yetaftermixingforafewmomentswiththedepartingpassengers,eachselfishlyhurryingtosomerendezvousofrestorbusiness,heinsensiblydrewapartfromthem,withtheinstinctofavagabondandoutcast。Althoughhewasconsciousthathewasneither,butmerelyanunsuccessfulminersuddenlyreducedtothepointofsolicitingworkoralmsofanykind,hetookadvantageofthefirstcrossingtoplungeintoasidestreet,withavaguesenseofhidinghisshame。

Arisingwind,whichhadrockedtheboatforthelastfewhours,hadnowdevelopedintoastrongsou’wester,withtorrentsofrainwhichswepttheroadway。Hiswell-wornworkingclothes,fittedtothewarmerSouthernmines,gavehimmoreconcernfromtheirvisible,absurdcontrasttotheclimatethanfromanyactualsenseofdiscomfort,andhisfeverishnessdefiedthechillofhissoakinggarments,ashehurriedlyfacedtheblastthroughthedimlylightedstreet。Atthenextcornerhepaused;hehadreachedanother,and,fromitsdilapidatedappearance,apparentlyanolderwharfthanthatwherehehadlanded,but,likethefirst,itwasstillastragglingavenueleadingtowardthehigherandmoreanimatedpartofthecity。Heagainmechanically——forapartofhistroublewasavague,undefinedpurpose——turnedtowardit。

Inhisfeverishexaltationhispowersofperceptionseemedtobequickened:hewasvividlyalivetotheincongruous,half-marine,half-backwoodscharacterofthewarehousesandcommercialbuildings;tothehullofastrandedshipalreadybuiltintoablockofrudetenements;tothedarkstockadedwallofahouseframedofcorrugatediron,anditsweirdcontiguitytoaSwisschalet,whosegallerieswereusedonlytobearthesignsoftheshops,andwhoseframehadbeencarriedacrossseasinsectionstobesetupatrandomhere。

Movingpastthese,asinanightmaredream,ofwhicheventheturbulencyoftheweatherseemedtobeapart,hestumbled,blinded,panting,andunexpectedly,withnoconsciousnessofhisrapidpacebeyondhisbreathlessness,uponthedazzlingmainthoroughfareofthecity。Inspiteoftheweather,theslipperypavementswerethrongedbyhurryingcrowdsofwell-dressedpeople,againallintentontheirownpurposes,——purposesthatseemedsotriflingandunimportantbesidehisown。Theshopswerebrilliantlylighted,exposingtheirbrightestwaresthroughplate-

glasswindows;ajeweler’sglitteredwithpreciousstones;afashionableapothecary’snexttoitalmostoutrivaleditwithitsgorgeousglobes,thegoldandgreenprecisionofitsshelves,andthemarbleandsilversodafountainlikeashrinebeforeit。Allthisspeciousshowofopulencecameuponhimwiththeshockofcontrast,andwithitabitterrevulsionoffeelingmorehopelessthanhisfeverishanxiety,——thebitternessofdisappointment。

Forduringhisjourneyhehadbeenbuoyedupwiththeprospectoffindingworkandsympathyinthisyouthfulcity,——aprospectfoundedsolelyonhisinexperiencedhopes。Forthishehadexchangedthepovertyoftheminingdistrict,——apovertythathadnothingignobleaboutit,thatwasapartoftheeconomyofnature,andsharedwithhisfellowmenandthebirdsandbeastsintheirrudeencampments。Hehadgivenupthebrotherhoodoftheminer,andthatpracticalhelpandsympathywhichbroughtnodegradationwithit,forthisrudeshockofself-interested,self-satisfiedcivilization。He,whowouldnothaveshrunkfromaskingrest,food,oranight’slodgingatthecabinofabrotherminerorwoodsman,nowrecoiledsuddenlyfromthesewell-dressedcitizens。

Whatmadnesshadsenthimhere,anintruder,or,even,asitseemedtohiminhisdrippingclothes,animpostor?Andyetthesewerethepeopletowhomhehadconfidentlyexpectedtotellhisstory,andwhowouldcheerfullyassisthimwithwork!Hecouldalmostanticipatethehardlaughorbrutalhurriednegativeintheirfaces。InhisfoolishhearthethankedGodhehadnottriedit。

Thentheapatheticrecoilwhichisapttofollowanykeenemotionovertookhim。Hewasdazedlyconsciousofbeingrudelyshovedonceortwice,andevenheardtheepithet“drunkenlout“fromonewhohadrunagainsthim。

Hefoundhimselfpresentlystaringvacantlyintheapothecary’swindow。Howlonghestoodtherehecouldnottell,forhewasarousedonlybythedooropeninginfrontofhim,andayounggirlemergingwithsomepurchaseinherhand。Hecouldseethatshewashandsomelydressedandquitepretty,andasshepassedoutsheliftedtohiswithdrawingfigureapairofcalm,inquiringeyes,which,however,changedtoalookofhalf-wondering,half-amusedpityasshegazed。Yetthatlookofpitystunghispridemoredeeplythanall。Withadeliberateeffortherecoveredhisenergy。

No,hewouldnotbeg,hewouldnotaskassistancefromthesepeople;hewouldgoback——anywhere!Tothesteamboatfirst;theymightlethimsleepthere,givehimameal,andallowhimtoworkhispassagebacktoStockton。Hemightberefused。Well,whatthen?Well,beyond,therewasthebay!Helaughedbitterly——hismindwassaneenoughforthat——buthekeptonrepeatingitvaguelytohimself,ashecrossedthestreetagain,andoncemoremadehiswaytothewharf。

Thewindandrainhadincreased,buthenolongerheededtheminhisfeverishhasteandhisconsciousnessthatmotioncouldalonekeepawaythatdreadfulapathywhichthreatenedtoovercloudhisjudgment。Andhewishedwhilehewasabletoreasonlogicallytomakeuphismindtoendthisunsupportablesituationthatnight。

Hewasscarcelytwenty,yetitseemedtohimthatithadalreadybeendemonstratedthathislifewasafailure;hewasanorphan,andwhenheleftcollegetoseekhisownfortuneinCalifornia,hebelievedhehadstakedhisalluponthatventure——andlost。

Thatbitternesswhichisthesuddenrecoilofboyishenthusiasm,andisnonethelessterribleforbeingwithoutexperiencetojustifyit,——thatmelancholywearetooapttolookbackuponwithcynicaljeersandlaughterinmiddleage,——ismorepotentthanwedaretothink,anditwasinnomereposeofyouthfulpessimismthatRandolphTrentnowcontemplatedsuicide。Suchscrapsofphilosophyashiseducationhadgivenhimpointedtothatoneconclusion。Anditwastheonlyrefugethatpride——realorfalse——

offeredhimfromtheonesupremeterrorofyouth——shame。

Thestreetwasdeserted,andthefewlightshehadpreviouslynotedinwarehousesandshopswereextinguished。Ithadgrowndarkerwiththestorm;theincongruousbuildingsoneithersidehadbecomemisshapenshadows;thelongperspectiveofthewharfwasastrangegloomfromwhichthesparsofashipstoodoutlikethecrossherememberedasaboytohaveonceseeninapictureofthetempest-

smittenCalvary。Itwashisonlyfancyconnectedwiththefuture——

itmighthavebeenhislast,forsuddenlyoneoftheplanksoftherottenwharfgavewaybeneathhisfeet,andhefelthimselfviolentlyprecipitatedtowardthegurglingandoozingtidebelow。

Hethrewouthisarmsdesperately,caughtatastronggirder,drewhimselfupwiththeenergyofdesperation,andstaggeredtohisfeetagain,safe——andsane。Forwiththisterribleautomaticstruggletoavoidthatdeathhewascourtingcameaflashofreason。Ifhehadresolutelythrownhimselffromthepierheadasheintended,wouldhehaveundergoneahopelessrevulsionlikethis?Washesurethatthismightnotbe,afterall,theterriblepenaltyofself-destruction——thisinevitablefierceprotestofmindandbodywhenTOOLATE?Hewasmomentarilytouchedwithasenseofgratitudeathisescape,buthisreasontoldhimitwasnotfromhisACCIDENT,butfromhisintention。

Hewastryingcarefullytoretracehissteps,butashedidsohesawthefigureofamandimlylurchingtowardhimoutofthedarknessofthewharfandthecrossedyardsoftheship。Agleamofhopecameoverhim,fortheemotionofthelastfewminuteshadrudelydisplacedhisprideandself-love。Hewouldappealtothisstranger,whoeverhewas;therewasmorechancethatinthisrudelocalityhewouldbeabelatedsailororsomehumblerwayfarer,andthedarknessandsolitudemadehimfeellessashamed。Bythelastflickeringstreetlamphecouldseethathewasamanabouthisownsize,withsomethingoftherollinggaitofasailor,whichwasincreasedbytheweightofatravelingportmanteauhewasswinginginhishand。AsheapproachedheevidentlydetectedRandolph’swaitingfigure,slackenedhisspeedslightly,andchangedhisportmanteaufromhisrighthandtohisleftasaprecautionfordefense。

Randolphfeltthebloodflushhischeekatthissignificantproofofhisdisreputableappearance,butdeterminedtoaccosthim。Hescarcelyrecognizedthesoundofhisownvoicenowfirstbreakingthesilenceforhours,buthemadehisappeal。Themanlistened,madeaslightgestureforwardwithhisdisengagedhand,andimpelledRandolphslowlyuptothestreetlampuntilitshoneonboththeirfaces。Randolphsawamanafewyearshissenior,withaslightlytrimmedbeardonhisdark,weather-beatencheeks,well-

cutfeatures,aquick,observanteye,andasailor’supwardglanceandbearing。Thestrangersawathin,youthful,anxious,yetrefinedandhandsomefacebeneathstragglingdampcurls,anddarkeyespreternaturallybrightwithsuffering。Perhapshisexperiencedear,too,detectedsomeharmonywithallthisinRandolph’svoice。

“Andyouwantsomethingtoeat,anight’slodging,andachanceofworkafterward,“thestrangerrepeatedwithgood-humoreddeliberation。

“Yes,“saidRandolph。

“Youlookit。“

Randolphcoloredfaintly。

“Doyoueverdrink?“

“Yes,“saidRandolphwonderingly。

“IthoughtI’dask,“saidthestranger,“asitmightplayhellwithyoujustnowifyouwerenotaccustomedtoit。Takethat。Justaswallow,youknow——that’sasgoodasajugful。“

Hehandedhimaheavyflask。Randolphfelttheburningliquorscaldhisthroatandfirehisemptystomach。Thestrangerturnedandlookeddownthevacantwharftothedarknessfromwhichhecame。ThenheturnedtoRandolphagainandsaidabruptly,——

“Strongenoughtocarrythisbag?“

“Yes,“saidRandolph。Thewhiskey——possiblytherelief——hadgivenhimnewstrength。Besides,hemightearnhisalms。

“Takeituptoroom74,NianticHotel——topofnextstreettothis,oneblockthatway——andwaittillIcome。“

“WhatnameshallIsay?“askedRandolph。

“Needn’tsayany。Iorderedtheroomaweekago。Stop;there’sthekey。Goin;changeyourtogs;you’llfindsomethinginthatbagthat’llfityou。Waitforme。Stop——no;you’dbettergetsomegrubtherefirst。“Hefumbledinhispockets,butfruitlessly。

“Nomatter。You’llfindabuckskinpurse,withsomescadsinit,inthebag。Solong。“AndbeforeRandolphcouldthankhim,helurchedawayagainintothesemi-darknessofthewharf。

Overflowingwithgratitudeatahospitalitysolikethatofhisrecklessbrethrenofthemines,Randolphpickeduptheportmanteauandstartedforthehotel。Hewalkedwarilynow,withanewinterestinlife,andthen,suddenlythinkingofhisownmiraculousescape,hepaused,wonderingifheoughtnottowarnhisbenefactoroftheperilsoftherottenwharf;buthehadalreadydisappeared。

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