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CHAPTERTHEFIRST

ANNVERONICATALKSTOHERFATHER

Part1

OneWednesdayafternooninlateSeptember,AnnVeronicaStanleycamedownfromLondoninastateofsolemnexcitementandquiteresolvedtohavethingsoutwithherfatherthatveryevening。

Shehadtrembledonthevergeofsucharesolutionbefore,butthistimequitedefinitelyshemadeit。Acrisishadbeenreached,andshewasalmostgladithadbeenreached。Shemadeuphermindinthetrainhomethatitshouldbeadecisivecrisis。Itisforthatreasonthatthisnovelbeginswithherthere,andneitherearliernorlater,foritisthehistoryofthiscrisisanditsconsequencesthatthisnovelhastotell。

ShehadacompartmenttoherselfinthetrainfromLondontoMorningsidePark,andshesatwithbothherfeetontheseatinanattitudethatwouldcertainlyhavedistressedhermothertosee,andhorrifiedhergrandmotherbeyondmeasure;shesatwithherkneesuptoherchinandherhandsclaspedbeforethem,andshewassolostinthoughtthatshediscoveredwithastart,fromaletteredlamp,thatshewasatMorningsidePark,andthoughtshewasmovingoutofthestation,whereasshewasonlymovingin。"Lord!"shesaid。Shejumpedupatonce,caughtupaleatherclutchcontainingnotebooks,afattext-book,andachocolate-and-yellow-coveredpamphlet,andleapedneatlyfromthecarriage,onlytodiscoverthatthetrainwasslowingdownandthatshehadtotraversethefulllengthoftheplatformpastitagainastheresultofherprecipitation。"Soldagain,"sheremarked。"Idiot!"Sheragedinwardlywhileshewalkedalongwiththatairofself-containedserenitythatispropertoayoungladyofnearlytwo-and-twentyundertheeyeoftheworld。

Shewalkeddownthestationapproach,pasttheneat,obtrusiveofficesofthecoalmerchantandthehouseagent,andsotothewicket-gatebythebutcher’sshopthatledtothefieldpathtoherhome。Outsidethepost-officestoodano-hatted,blondyoungmaningrayflannels,whowaselaboratelyaffixingastamptoaletter。Atthesightofherhebecamerigidandasingularlybrightshadeofpink。Shemadeherselfserenelyunawareofhisexistence,thoughitmaybeitwashispresencethatsentherbythefielddetourinsteadofbythedirectpathuptheAvenue。

"Umph!"hesaid,andregardedhisletterdoubtfullybeforeconsigningittothepillar-box。"Heregoes,"hesaid。ThenhehoveredundecidedlyforsomesecondswithhishandsinhispocketsandhismouthpuckeredtoawhistlebeforeheturnedtogohomebytheAvenue。

AnnVeronicaforgothimassoonasshewasthroughthegate,andherfaceresumeditsexpressionofsternpreoccupation。"It’seithernowornever,"shesaidtoherself……

MorningsideParkwasasuburbthathadnotaltogether,aspeoplesay,comeoff。Itconsisted,likepre-RomanGaul,ofthreeparts。TherewasfirsttheAvenue,whichraninaconsciouslyelegantcurvefromtherailwaystationintoanundevelopedwildernessofagriculture,withbig,yellowbrickvillasoneitherside,andthentherewasthepavement,thelittleclumpofshopsaboutthepost-office,andundertherailwayarchwasacongestionofworkmen’sdwellings。TheroadfromSurbitonandEpsomranunderthearch,and,likeabrightfungoidgrowthintheditch,therewasnowappearingasortoffourthestateoflittlered-and-whiterough-castvillas,withmeretriciousgablesandverybrassywindow-blinds。BehindtheAvenuewasalittlehill,andaniron-fencedpathwentoverthecrestofthistoastileunderanelm-tree,andforkedthere,withonebranchgoingbackintotheAvenueagain。

"It’seithernowornever,"saidAnnVeronica,againascendingthisstile。"MuchasIhaterows,I’veeithergottomakeastandorgiveinaltogether。"

SheseatedherselfinalooseandeasyattitudeandsurveyedthebacksoftheAvenuehouses;thenhereyeswanderedtowherethenewred-and-whitevillaspeepedamongthetrees。Sheseemedtobemakingsomesortofinventory。"YeGods!"shesaidatlast。

"WHATaplace!

"Stuffyisn’tthewordforit。

"Iwonderwhathetakesmefor?"

Whenpresentlyshegotdownfromthestileacertainnoteofinternalconflict,atouchofdoubt,hadgonefromherwarm-tintedface。Shehadnowtheclearandtranquilexpressionofonewhosemindismadeup。Herbackhadstiffened,andherhazeleyeslookedsteadfastlyahead。

AssheapproachedthecorneroftheAvenuetheblond,no-hattedmaningrayflannelsappeared。Therewasacertainairofforcedfortuityinhismanner。Hesalutedawkwardly。"Hello,Vee!"hesaid。

"Hello,Teddy!"sheanswered。

Hehungvaguelyforamomentasshepassed。

ButitwasclearshewasinnomoodforTeddys。Herealizedthathewascommittedtothepathacrossthefields,anuninterestingwalkatthebestoftimes。

"Oh,dammit!"heremarked,"dammit!"withgreatbitternessashefacedit。

Part2

AnnVeronicaStanleywastwenty-oneandahalfyearsold。Shehadblackhair,fineeyebrows,andaclearcomplexion;andtheforcesthathadmodelledherfeatureshadlovedandlingeredattheirworkandmadethemsubtleandfine。Shewasslender,andsometimessheseemedtall,andwalkedandcarriedherselflightlyandjoyfullyasonewhocommonlyandhabituallyfeelswell,andsometimesshestoopedalittleandwaspreoccupied。Herlipscametogetherwithanexpressionbetweencontentmentandthefaintestshadowofasmile,hermannerwasoneofquietreserve,andbehindthismaskshewaswildlydiscontentedandeagerforfreedomandlife。

Shewantedtolive。Shewasvehementlyimpatient——shedidnotclearlyknowforwhat——todo,tobe,toexperience。Andexperiencewasslowincoming。Alltheworldaboutherseemedtobe——howcanoneputit?——inwrappers,likeahousewhenpeopleleaveitinthesummer。Theblindswerealldrawn,thesunlightkeptout,onecouldnottellwhatcolorsthesegrayswathingshid。Shewantedtoknow。Andtherewasnointimationwhateverthattheblindswouldevergouporthewindowsordoorsbeopened,orthechandeliers,thatseemedtopromisesuchablazeoffire,unveiledandfurnishedandlit。Dimsoulsflittedabouther,notonlyspeakingbutitwouldseemeventhinkinginundertones……

Duringherschooldays,especiallyherearlierschooldays,theworldhadbeenveryexplicitwithher,tellingherwhattodo,whatnottodo,givingherlessonstolearnandgamestoplayandinterestsofthemostsuitableandvariouskinds。Presentlyshewokeuptothefactthattherewasaconsiderablegroupofinterestscalledbeinginloveandgettingmarried,withcertainattractiveandamusingsubsidiarydevelopments,suchasflirtationand"beinginterested"inpeopleoftheoppositesex。

Sheapproachedthisfieldwithherusuallivelinessofapprehension。Buthereshemetwithacheck。Theseinterestsherworldpromptly,throughtheagencyofschoolmistresses,olderschool-mates,heraunt,andanumberofotherresponsibleandauthoritativepeople,assuredhershemustonnoaccountthinkabout。MissMoffatt,thehistoryandmoralinstructionmistress,wasparticularlyexplicituponthisscore,andtheyallagreedinindicatingcontemptandpityforgirlswhosemindsranonsuchmatters,andwhobetrayeditintheirconversationordressorbearing。Itwas,infact,agroupofinterestsquiteunlikeanyothergroup,peculiarandspecial,andonetobethoroughlyashamedof。Nevertheless,AnnVeronicafounditadifficultmatternottothinkofthesethings。Howeverhavingaconsiderableamountofpride,shedecidedshewoulddisavowtheseundesirabletopicsandkeephermindawayfromthemjustasfarasshecould,butitleftherattheendofherschooldayswiththatwrappedfeelingIhavedescribed,andratheratlooseends。

Theworld,shediscovered,withthesemattersbarredhadnoparticularplaceforheratall,nothingforhertodo,exceptafunctionlessexistencevariedbycalls,tennis,selectednovels,walks,anddustinginherfather’shouse。Shethoughtstudywouldbebetter。Shewasaclevergirl,thebestofheryearintheHighSchool,andshemadeavaliantfightforSomervilleorNewnhambutherfatherhadmetandarguedwithaSomervillegirlatafriend’sdinner-tableandhethoughtthatsortofthingunsexedawoman。Hesaidsimplythathewantedhertoliveathome。Therewasacertainamountofdisputation,andmeanwhileshewentonatschool。TheycompromisedatlengthonthesciencecourseattheTredgoldWomen’sCollege——shehadalreadymatriculatedintoLondonUniversityfromschool——shecameofage,andshebickeredwithherauntforlatch-keyprivilegesonthestrengthofthatandherseasonticket。Shamefacedcuriositiesbegantocomebackintohermind,thinlydisguisedasliteratureandart。Shereadvoraciously,andpresently,becauseofheraunt’scensorship,shetooktosmugglinganybooksshethoughtmightbeprohibitedinsteadofbringingthemhomeopenly,andshewenttothetheatrewhenevershecouldproduceanacceptablefriendtoaccompanyher。Shepassedhergeneralscienceexaminationwithdoublehonorsandspecializedinscience。Shehappenedtohaveanacutesenseofformandunusualmentallucidity,andshefoundinbiology,andparticularlyincomparativeanatomy,averyconsiderableinterest,albeittheilluminationitcastuponherpersonallifewasnotaltogetherdirect。Shedissectedwell,andinayearshefoundherselfchafingatthelimitationsoftheladyB。Sc。whoretailedastoreoffadedlearningintheTredgoldlaboratory。Shehadalreadyrealizedthatthisinstructresswashopelesslywrongandfoggy——itisthetestofthegoodcomparativeanatomist——upontheskull。ShediscoveredadesiretoenterasastudentintheImperialCollegeatWestminster,whereRusselltaught,andgoonwithherworkatthefountain-head。

Shehadaskedaboutthatalready,andherfatherhadreplied,evasively:"We’llhavetoseeaboutthat,littleVee;we’llhavetoseeaboutthat。"InthatpostureofbeingseenaboutthematterhunguntilsheseemedcommittedtoanothersessionattheTredgoldCollege,andinthemeantimeasmallconflictaroseandbroughtthelatch-keyquestion,andinfactthequestionofAnnVeronica’spositiongenerally,toanacuteissue。

Inadditiontothevariousbusinessmen,solicitors,civilservants,andwidowladieswholivedintheMorningsideParkAvenue,therewasacertainfamilyofaliensympathiesandartisticquality,theWidgetts,withwhichAnnVeronicahadbecomeveryfriendly。Mr。Widgettwasajournalistandartcritic,addictedtoagreenish-graytweedsuitand"art"brownties;hesmokedcorncobpipesintheAvenueonSundaymorning,travelledthirdclasstoLondonbyunusualtrains,andopenlydespisedgolf。Heoccupiedoneofthesmallerhousesnearthestation。Hehadoneson,whohadbeenco-educated,andthreedaughterswithpeculiarlyjollyredhairthatAnnVeronicafoundadorable。TwoofthesehadbeenherparticularintimatesattheHighSchool,andhaddonemuchtosendhermindexploringbeyondthelimitsoftheavailableliteratureathome。Itwasacheerful,irresponsible,shamelesslyhard-upfamilyinthekeyoffadedgreenandflattenedpurple,andthegirlswentonfromtheHighSchooltotheFaddenArtSchoolandabright,eventfullifeofartstudentdances,Socialistmeetings,theatregalleries,talkingaboutwork,andeven,atintervals,work;andeverandagaintheydrewAnnVeronicafromhersoundpersistentindustryintothecircleoftheseexperiences。TheyhadaskedhertocometothefirstofthetwogreatannualFaddenDances,theOctoberone,andAnnVeronicahadacceptedwithenthusiasm。Andnowherfathersaidshemustnotgo。

Hehad"puthisfootdown,"andsaidshemustnotgo。

GoinginvolvedtwothingsthatallAnnVeronica’stacthadbeenineffectualtoconcealfromherauntandfather。Herusualdignifiedreservehadavailedhernothing。OnepointwasthatshewastowearfancydressinthelikenessofaCorsair’sbride,andtheotherwasthatshewastospendwhatevervestigesofthenightremainedafterthedancewasoverinLondonwiththeWidgettgirlsandaselectpartyin"quiteadecentlittlehotel"

nearFitzroySquare。

"But,mydear!"saidAnnVeronica’saunt。

"Yousee,"saidAnnVeronica,withtheairofonewhosharesadifficulty,"I’vepromisedtogo。Ididn’trealize——Idon’tseehowIcangetoutofitnow。"

Thenitwasherfatherissuedhisultimatum。Hehadconveyedittoher,notverbally,butbymeansofaletter,whichseemedtoherasingularlyignoblemethodofprohibition。"Hecouldn’tlookmeinthefaceandsayit,"saidAnnVeronica。

"Butofcourseit’saunt’sdoingreally。"

AndthusitwasthatasAnnVeronicanearedthegatesofhome,shesaidtoherself:"I’llhaveitoutwithhimsomehow。I’llhaveitoutwithhim。Andifhewon’t——"

Butshedidnotgiveevenunspokenwordstothealternativeatthattime。

Part3

AnnVeronica’sfatherwasasolicitorwithagooddealofcompanybusiness:alean,trustworthy,worried-looking,neuralgic,clean-shavenmanoffifty-three,withahardmouth,asharpnose,iron-grayhair,grayeyes,gold-framedglasses,andasmall,circularbaldnessatthecrownofhishead。HisnamewasPeter。

Hehadhadfivechildrenatirregularintervals,ofwhomAnnVeronicawastheyoungest,sothatasaparenthecametoherperhapsalittlepractisedandjadedandinattentive;andhecalledherhis"littleVee,"andpattedherunexpectedlyanddisconcertingly,andtreatedherpromiscuouslyasofanyagebetweenelevenandeight-and-twenty。TheCityworriedhimagooddeal,andwhatenergyhehadleftoverhespentpartlyingolf,agamehetreatedveryseriously,andpartlyinthepracticesofmicroscopicpetrography。

He"wentin"formicroscopyintheunphilosophicalVictorianmannerashis"hobby。"Abirthdaypresentofamicroscopehadturnedhismindtotechnicalmicroscopywhenhewaseighteen,andachancefriendshipwithaHolbornmicroscopedealerhadconfirmedthatbent。Hehadremarkablyskilfulfingersandaloveofdetailedprocesses,andhehadbecomeoneofthemostdexterousamateurmakersofrocksectionsintheworld。Hespentagooddealmoremoneyandtimethanhecouldafforduponthelittleroomatthetopofthehouse,inproducingnewlapidaryapparatusandnewmicroscopicaccessoriesandinrubbingdownslicesofrocktoatransparentthinnessandmountingtheminabeautifulanddignifiedmanner。Hedidit,hesaid,"todistracthismind。"HischiefsuccessesheexhibitedtotheLowndeanMicroscopicalSociety,wheretheirhightechnicalmeritneverfailedtoexciteadmiration。Theirscientificvaluewaslessconsiderable,sincehechoserocksentirelywithaviewtotheirdifficultyofhandlingortheirattractivenessatconversazioneswhendone。Hehadagreatcontemptforthesectionsthe"theorizers"produced。Theyprovedallsortsofthingsperhaps,buttheywerethick,unequal,pitifulpiecesofwork。Yetanindiscriminating,wrong-headedworldgavesuchfellowsallsortsofdistinctions……

Hereadbutlittle,andthatchieflyhealthylightfictionwithchromatictitles,TheRedSword,TheBlackHelmet,ThePurpleRobe,alsoinorder"todistracthismind。"Hereaditinwinterintheeveningafterdinner,andAnnVeronicaassociateditwithatendencytomonopolizethelamp,andtospreadaverywornpairofdappledfawn-skinslippersacrossthefender。Shewonderedoccasionallywhyhismindneededsomuchdistraction。HisfavoritenewspaperwastheTimes,whichhebeganatbreakfastinthemorningoftenwithmanifestirritation,andcarriedofftofinishinthetrain,leavingnootherpaperathome。

ItoccurredtoAnnVeronicaoncethatshehadknownhimwhenhewasyounger,butdayhadfollowedday,andeachhadlargelyobliteratedtheimpressionofitspredecessor。Butshecertainlyrememberedthatwhenshewasalittlegirlhesometimesworetennisflannels,andalsorodeabicycleverydexterouslyinthroughthegatestothefrontdoor。Andinthosedays,too,heusedtohelphermotherwithhergardening,andhoveraboutherwhileshestoodontheladderandhammeredcreeperstothescullerywall。

IthadbeenAnnVeronica’slotastheyoungestchildtoliveinahomethatbecamelessanimatedandvariousasshegrewup。Hermotherhaddiedwhenshewasthirteen,hertwomucholdersistershadmarriedoff——onesubmissively,oneinsubordinately;hertwobrothershadgoneoutintotheworldwellaheadofher,andsoshehadmadewhatshecouldofherfather。Buthewasnotafatheronecouldmakemuchof。

Hisideasaboutgirlsandwomenwereofasentimentalandmodestquality;theywerecreatures,hethought,eithertoobadforamodernvocabulary,andthenfrequentlymostundesirablydesirable,ortoopureandgoodforlife。Hemadethissimpleclassificationofalargeandvarioussextotheexclusionofallintermediatekinds;heheldthatthetwoclasseshadtobekeptaparteveninthoughtandremotefromoneanother。Womenaremadelikethepotter’svessels——eitherforworshiporcontumely,andarewithalfragilevessels。Hehadneverwanteddaughters。

Eachtimeadaughterhadbeenborntohimhehadconcealedhischagrinwithgreattendernessandeffusionfromhiswife,andhadswornunwontedlyandwithpassionatesincerityinthebathroom。

Hewasamanlyman,freefromanystrongmaternalstrain,andhehadlovedhisdark-eyed,daintybright-colored,andactivelittlewifewitharealveinofpassioninhissentiment。Buthehadalwaysfelt(hehadneverallowedhimselftothinkofit)thatthepromptitudeoftheirfamilywasalittleindelicateofher,andinasenseanintrusion。Hehad,however,plannedbrilliantcareersforhistwosons,and,withacertainhumanamountofwarpinganddelay,theywerepursuingthese。OnewasintheIndianCivilServiceandoneintherapidlydevelopingmotorbusiness。Thedaughters,hehadhoped,wouldbetheirmother’scare。

Hehadnoideasaboutdaughters。Theyhappentoaman。

Ofcoursealittledaughterisadelightfulthingenough。Itrunsaboutgayly,itromps,itisbrightandpretty,ithasenormousquantitiesofsofthairandmorepowerofexpressingaffectionthanitsbrothers。Itisalovelylittleappendagetothemotherwhosmilesoverit,anditdoesthingsquaintlylikeher,gestureswithherverygestures。ItmakeswonderfulsentencesthatyoucanrepeatintheCityandaregoodenoughforPunch。

Youcallitalotofnicknames——"Babs"and"Bibs"and"Viddles"

and"Vee";youwhackatitplayfully,anditwhacksyouback。Itlovestositonyourknee。Allthatisjollyandasitshouldbe。

Butalittledaughterisonethingandadaughterquiteanother。

ThereonecomestoarelationshipthatMr。Stanleyhadneverthoughtout。Whenhefoundhimselfthinkingaboutit,itupsethimsothatheatonceresortedtodistraction。Thechromaticfictionwithwhichherelievedhismindglancedbutslightlyatthisaspectoflife,andneverwithanyqualityofguidance。Itsheroesneverhaddaughters,theyborrowedotherpeople’s。Theonefault,indeed,ofthisschooloffictionforhimwasthatithadratheralightwaywithparentalrights。Hisinstinctwasinthedirectionofconsideringhisdaughtershisabsoluteproperty,boundtoobeyhim,histogiveawayorhistokeeptobeacomfortinhisdecliningyearsjustashethoughtfit。Aboutthisconceptionofownershipheperceivedanddesiredacertainsentimentalglamour,helikedeverythingproperlydressed,butitremainedownership。Ownershipseemedonlyareasonablereturnforthecaresandexpensesofadaughter’supbringing。Daughterswerenotlikesons。Heperceived,however,thatboththenovelshereadandtheworldhelivedindiscountenancedtheseassumptions。Nothingelsewasputintheirplace,andtheyremainedsottovoce,asitwere,inhismind。Thenewandtheoldcancelledout;hisdaughtersbecamequasi-independentdependents——whichisabsurd。Onemarriedashewishedandoneagainsthiswishes,andnowherewasAnnVeronica,hislittleVee,discontentedwithherbeautiful,safe,andshelteringhome,goingaboutwithhatlessfriendstoSocialistmeetingsandart-classdances,anddisplayingadispositiontocarryherscientificambitionstounwomanlylengths。Sheseemedtothinkhewasmerelythepaymaster,handingoverthemeansofherfreedom。AndnowsheinsistedthatsheMUSTleavethechastenedsecurityoftheTredgoldWomen’sCollegeforRussell’sunbridledclasses,andwantedtogotofancydressdancesinpiratecostumeandspendtheresidueofthenightwithWidgett’sramshacklegirlsinsomeindescribablehotelinSoho!

Hehaddonehisbestnottothinkaboutheratall,butthesituationandhissisterhadbecomealtogethertoourgent。HehadfinallyputasideTheLilacSunbonnet,goneintohisstudy,litthegasfire,andwrittentheletterthathadbroughttheseunsatisfactoryrelationstoahead。

Part4

MYDEARVEE,hewrote。

Thesedaughters!Hegnawedhispenandreflected,torethesheetup,andbeganagain。

"MYDEARVERONICA,——YouraunttellsmeyouhaveinvolvedyourselfinsomearrangementwiththeWidgettgirlsaboutaFancyDressBallinLondon。Igatheryouwishtogoupinsomefantasticget-up,wrappedaboutinyouroperacloak,andthatafterthefestivitiesyouproposetostaywiththesefriendsofyours,andwithoutanyolderpeopleinyourparty,atanhotel。NowIamsorrytocrossyouinanythingyouhavesetyourheartupon,butIregrettosay——"

"H’m,"hereflected,andcrossedoutthelastfourwords。

"——butthiscannotbe。"

"No,"hesaid,andtriedagain:"butImusttellyouquitedefinitelythatIfeelittobemydutytoforbidanysuchexploit。"

"Damn!"heremarkedatthedefacedletter;and,takingafreshsheet,herecopiedwhathehadwritten。Acertainirritationcreptintohismannerashedidso。

"Iregretthatyoushouldeverhaveproposedit,"hewenton。

Hemeditated,andbegananewparagraph。

"Thefactofitis,andthisabsurdprojectofyoursonlybringsittoahead,youhavebeguntogetholdofsomeveryqueerideasaboutwhatayoungladyinyourpositionmayormaynotventuretodo。Idonotthinkyouquiteunderstandmyidealsorwhatisbecomingasbetweenfatheranddaughter。Yourattitudetome——"

Hefellintoabrownstudy。Itwassodifficulttoputprecisely。

"——andyouraunt——"

Foratimehesearchedforthemotjuste。Thenhewenton:

"——and,indeed,tomostoftheestablishedthingsinlifeis,frankly,unsatisfactory。Youarerestless,aggressive,criticalwithallthecrudeunthinkingcriticismofyouth。Youhavenograspupontheessentialfactsoflife(IprayGodyounevermay),andinyourrashignoranceyouarepreparedtodashintopositionsthatmayendinlifelongregret。Thelifeofayounggirlissetaboutwithprowlingpitfalls。"

HewasarrestedforamomentbyanindistinctpictureofVeronicareadingthislastsentence。Buthewasnowtoodeeplymovedtotraceacertainunsatisfactorinesstoitssourceinamixtureofmetaphors。"Well,"hesaid,argumentatively,"itIS。That’sallaboutit。It’stimesheknew。"

"Thelifeofayounggirlissetaboutwithprowlingpitfalls,fromwhichshemustbeshieldedatallcosts。"

Hislipstightened,andhefrownedwithsolemnresolution。

"SolongasIamyourfather,solongasyourlifeisentrustedtomycare,Ifeelboundbyeveryobligationtousemyauthoritytocheckthisodddispositionofyourstowardextravagantenterprises。Adaywillcomewhenyouwillthankme。Itisnot,mydearVeronica,thatIthinkthereisanyharminyou;thereisnot。Butagirlissoilednotonlybyevilbutbytheproximityofevil,andareputationforrashnessmaydoherasseriousaninjuryasreallyreprehensibleconduct。SodopleasebelievethatinthismatterIamactingforthebest。"

Hesignedhisnameandreflected。Thenheopenedthestudydoorandcalled"Mollie!"andreturnedtoassumeanattitudeofauthorityonthehearthrug,beforetheblueflamesandorangeglowofthegasfire。

Hissisterappeared。

Shewasdressedinoneofthosecomplicateddressesthatarealllaceandworkandconfusedpatterningsofblackandpurpleandcreamaboutthebody,andshewasinmanywaysayoungerfeminineversionofthesamethemeashimself。Shehadthesamesharpnose——which,indeed,onlyAnnVeronica,ofallthefamily,hadescaped。Shecarriedherselfwell,whereasherbrotherslouched,andtherewasacertainaristocraticdignityaboutherthatshehadacquiredthroughherlongengagementtoacurateoffamily,ascionoftheWiltshireEdmondshaws。Hehaddiedbeforetheymarried,andwhenherbrotherbecameawidowershehadcometohisassistanceandtakenovermuchofthecareofhisyoungestdaughter。Butfromthefirstherratherold-fashionedconceptionoflifehadjarredwiththesuburbanatmosphere,theHighSchoolspiritandthememoriesofthelightandlittleMrs。Stanley,whosefamilyhadbeenbyanyreckoninginconsiderable——tousethekindliestterm。MissStanleyhaddeterminedfromtheoutsettohavethewarmestaffectionforheryoungestnieceandtobeasecondmotherinherlife——asecondandabetterone;butshehadfoundmuchtobattlewith,andtherewasmuchinherselfthatAnnVeronicafailedtounderstand。Shecameinnowwithanairofreservedsolicitude。

Mr。Stanleypointedtotheletterwithapipehehaddrawnfromhisjacketpocket。"Whatdoyouthinkofthat?"heasked。

Shetookitupinhermany-ringedhandsandreaditjudicially。

Hefilledhispipeslowly。

"Yes,"shesaidatlast,"itisfirmandaffectionate。"

"Icouldhavesaidmore。"

"Youseemtohavesaidjustwhathadtobesaid。Itseemstomeexactlywhatiswanted。Shereallymustnotgotothataffair。"

Shepaused,andhewaitedforhertospeak。

"Idon’tthinkshequiteseestheharmofthosepeopleorthesortoflifetowhichtheywoulddrawher,"shesaid。"Theywouldspoileverychance。"

"Shehaschances?"hesaid,helpingherout。

"Sheisanextremelyattractivegirl,"shesaid;andadded,"tosomepeople。Ofcourse,onedoesn’tliketotalkaboutthingsuntiltherearethingstotalkabout。"

"Allthemorereasonwhysheshouldn’tgetherselftalkedabout。"

"ThatisexactlywhatIfeel。"

Mr。Stanleytooktheletterandstoodwithitinhishandthoughtfullyforatime。"I’dgiveanything,"heremarked,"toseeourlittleVeehappilyandcomfortablymarried。"

Hegavethenotetotheparlormaidthenextmorninginaninadvertent,casualmannerjustashewasleavingthehousetocatchhisLondontrain。WhenAnnVeronicagotitshehadatfirstawild,fantasticideathatitcontainedatip。

Part5

AnnVeronica’sresolvetohavethingsoutwithherfatherwasnotaccomplishedwithoutdifficulty。

HewasnotduefromtheCityuntilaboutsix,andsoshewentandplayedBadmintonwiththeWidgettgirlsuntildinner-time。Theatmosphereatdinnerwasnotpropitious。Herauntwasblandlyamiableaboveacertaintremulousundertow,andtalkedasiftoacalleraboutthealarmingspreadofmarigoldsthatsummerattheendofthegarden,asortofYellowPeriltoallthesmallerhardyannuals,whileherfatherbroughtsomepaperstotableandpresentedhimselfaspreoccupiedwiththem。"Itreallyseemsasifweshallhavetoputdownmarigoldsaltogethernextyear,"

AuntMollyrepeatedthreetimes,"anddoawaywithmarguerites。

Theyseedbeyondallreason。"Elizabeth,theparlormaid,keptcomingintohandvegetableswheneverthereseemedachanceofAnnVeronicaaskingforaninterview。DirectlydinnerwasoverMr。Stanley,havingpretendedtolingertosmoke,fledsuddenlyup-stairstopetrography,andwhenVeronicatappedheansweredthroughthelockeddoor,"Goaway,Vee!I’mbusy,"andmadealapidary’swheelbuzzloudly。

Breakfast,too,wasanimpossibleoccasion。HereadtheTimeswithanunusuallypassionateintentness,andthendeclaredsuddenlyfortheearlierofthetwotrainsheused。

"I’llcometothestation,"saidAnnVeronica。"Imayaswellcomeupbythistrain。"

"Imayhavetorun,"saidherfather,withanappealtohiswatch。

"I’llrun,too,"shevolunteered。

Insteadofwhichtheywalkedsharply……

"Isay,daddy,"shebegan,andwassuddenlyshortofbreath。

"Ifit’saboutthatdanceproject,"hesaid,"it’snogood,Veronica。I’vemadeupmymind。"

"You’llmakemelookafoolbeforeallmyfriends。"

"Youshouldn’thavemadeanengagementuntilyou’dconsultedyouraunt。"

"IthoughtIwasoldenough,"shegasped,betweenlaughterandcrying。

Herfather’sstepquickenedtoatrot。"Iwon’thaveyouquarrellingandcryingintheAvenue,"hesaid。"Stopit!……

Ifyou’vegotanythingtosay,youmustsayittoyouraunt——"

"Butlookhere,daddy!"

HeflappedtheTimesatherwithanimperiousgesture。

"It’ssettled。You’renottogo。You’reNOTtogo。"

"Butit’saboutotherthings。"

"Idon’tcare。Thisisn’ttheplace。"

"ThenmayIcometothestudyto-night——afterdinner?"

"I’m——BUSY!"

"It’simportant。IfIcan’ttalkanywhereelse——IDOwantanunderstanding。"

Aheadofthemwalkedagentlemanwhomitwasevidenttheymustattheirpresentpaceveryspeedilyovertake。ItwasRamage,theoccupantofthebighouseattheendoftheAvenue。HehadrecentlymadeMr。Stanley’sacquaintanceinthetrainandshownhimoneortwotriflingcivilities。Hewasanoutsidebrokerandtheproprietorofafinancialnewspaper;hehadcomeupveryrapidlyinthelastfewyears,andMr。Stanleyadmiredanddetestedhiminalmostequalmeasure。Itwasintolerabletothinkthathemightoverhearwordsandphrases。Mr。Stanley’spaceslackened。

"You’venorighttobadgermelikethis,Veronica,"hesaid。"I

can’tseewhatpossiblebenefitcancomeofdiscussingthingsthataresettled。Ifyouwantadvice,yourauntistheperson。

However,ifyoumustairyouropinions——"

"To-night,then,daddy!"

Hemadeanangrybutconceivablyanassentingnoise,andthenRamageglancedbackandstopped,salutedelaborately,andwaitedforthemtocomeup。Hewasasquare-facedmanofnearlyfifty,withiron-grayhairamobile,clean-shavenmouthandratherprotuberantblackeyesthatnowscrutinizedAnnVeronica。HedressedratherafterthefashionoftheWestEndthantheCity,andaffectedaculturedurbanitythatsomehowdisconcertedandalwaysannoyedAnnVeronica’sfatherextremely。Hedidnotplaygolf,buttookhisexerciseonhorseback,whichwasalsounsympathetic。

"StuffythesetreesmaketheAvenue,"saidMr。Stanleyastheydrewalongside,toaccountforhisownruffledandheatedexpression。"Theyoughttohavebeenloppedinthespring。"

"There’splentyoftime,"saidRamage。"IsMissStanleycomingupwithus?"

"Igosecond,"shesaid,"andchangeatWimbledon。"

"We’llallgosecond,"saidRamage,"ifwemay?"

Mr。Stanleywantedtoobjectstrongly,butashecouldnotimmediatelythinkhowtoputit,hecontentedhimselfwithagrunt,andthemotionwascarried。"How’sMrs。Ramage?"heasked。

"Verymuchasusual,"saidRamage。"Shefindslyingupsomuchveryirksome。But,yousee,sheHAStolieup。"

Thetopicofhisinvalidwifeboredhim,andheturnedatoncetoAnnVeronica。"AndwhereareYOUgoing?"hesaid。"Areyougoingonagainthiswinterwiththatscientificworkofyours?

It’saninstanceofheredity,Isuppose。"ForamomentMr。

StanleyalmostlikedRamage。"You’reabiologist,aren’tyou?"

Hebegantotalkofhisownimpressionsofbiologyasacommonplacemagazinereaderwhohadtogetwhathecouldfromthemonthlyreviews,andwasgladtomeetwithanyinformationfromnearerthefountainhead。Inalittlewhileheandsheweretalkingquiteeasilyandagreeably。Theywentontalkinginthetrain——itseemedtoherfatheraslightwantofdeferencetohim——andhelistenedandpretendedtoreadtheTimes。HewasstruckdisagreeablybyRamage’sairofgallantconsiderationandAnnVeronica’sself-possessedanswers。Thesethingsdidnotharmonizewithhisconceptionoftheforthcoming(ifunavoidable)

interview。Afterall,itcametohimsuddenlyasaharshdiscoverythatshemightbeinasenseregardedasgrownup。Hewasamanwhoinallthingsclassifiedwithoutnuance,andforhimtherewereinthematterofagejusttwofeminineclassesandnomore——girlsandwomen。Thedistinctionlaychieflyintherighttopattheirheads。Butherewasagirl——shemustbeagirl,sinceshewashisdaughterandpat-able——imitatingthewomanquiteremarkablyandcleverly。Heresumedhislistening。

Shewasdiscussingoneofthosemodernadvancedplayswitharemarkable,withanextraordinary,confidence。

"Hislove-making,"sheremarked,"struckmeasunconvincing。Heseemedtoonoisy。"

Thefullsignificanceofherwordsdidnotinstantlyappeartohim。Thenitdawned。Goodheavens!Shewasdiscussinglove-making。Foratimeheheardnomore,andstaredwithstonyeyesataBook-WarproclamationinleadedtypethatfilledhalfacolumnoftheTimesthatday。Couldsheunderstandwhatshewastalkingabout?Luckilyitwasasecond-classcarriageandtheordinaryfellow-travellerswerenotthere。Everybody,hefelt,mustbelisteningbehindtheirpapers。

Ofcourse,girlsrepeatphrasesandopinionsofwhichtheycannotpossiblyunderstandthemeaning。Butamiddle-agedmanlikeRamageoughttoknowbetterthantodrawoutagirl,thedaughterofafriendandneighbor……

Well,afterall,heseemedtobeturningthesubject。"Broddickisaheavyman,"hewassaying,"andthemaininterestoftheplaywastheembezzlement。"ThankHeaven!Mr。Stanleyallowedhispapertodropalittle,andscrutinizedthehatsandbrowsoftheirthreefellow-travellers。

TheyreachedWimbledon,andRamagewhippedouttohandMissStanleytotheplatformasthoughshehadbeenaduchess,andshedescendedasthoughsuchattentionsfrommiddle-aged,butstillgallant,merchantswereamatterofcourse。Then,asRamagereadjustedhimselfinacorner,heremarked:"Theseyoungpeopleshootup,Stanley。ItseemsonlyyesterdaythatshewasrunningdowntheAvenue,allhairandlegs。"

Mr。Stanleyregardedhimthroughhisglasseswithsomethingapproachinganimosity。

"Nowshe’sallhatandideas,"hesaid,withanairofhumor。

"Sheseemsanunusuallyclevergirl,"saidRamage。

Mr。Stanleyregardedhisneighbor’sclean-shavenfacealmostwarily。"I’mnotsurewhetherwedon’tratheroverdoallthishighereducation,"hesaid,withaneffectofconveyingprofoundmeanings。

Part6

Hebecamequitesure,byasortofaccumulationofreflection,asthedayworeon。Hefoundhisyoungestdaughterintrusiveinhisthoughtsallthroughthemorning,andstillmoresointheafternoon。Hesawheryoungandgracefulbackasshedescendedfromthecarriage,severelyignoringhim,andrecalledaglimpsehehadofherface,brightandserene,ashistrainranoutofWimbledon。Herecalledwithexasperatingperplexityherclear,matter-of-facttoneasshetalkedaboutlove-makingbeingunconvincing。Hewasreallyveryproudofher,andextraordinarilyangryandresentfulattheinnocentandaudaciousself-reliancethatseemedtointimatehersenseofabsoluteindependenceofhim,herabsolutesecuritywithouthim。Afterall,sheonlyLOOKEDawoman。Shewasrashandignorant,absolutelyinexperienced。Absolutely。Hebegantothinkofspeeches,veryfirm,explicitspeeches,hewouldmake。

HelunchedintheLegalClubinChanceryLane,andmetOgilvy。

Daughterswereintheairthatday。Ogilvywasfullofaclient’stroubleinthatmatter,agraveandeventragictrouble。Hetoldsomeoftheparticulars。

"Curiouscase,"saidOgilvy,butteringhisbreadandcuttingitupinawayhehad。"Curiouscase——andsetsonethinking。"

Heresumed,afteramouthful:"Hereisagirlofsixteenorseventeen,seventeenandahalftobeexact,runningabout,asonemightsay,inLondon。Schoolgirl。HerfamilyaresolidWestEndpeople,Kensingtonpeople。Father——dead。Shegoesoutandcomeshome。AfterwardgoesontoOxford。Twenty-one,twenty-two。

Whydoesn’tshemarry?Plentyofmoneyunderherfather’swill。

Charminggirl。"

HeconsumedIrishstewforsomemoments。

"Marriedalready,"hesaid,withhismouthfull。"Shopman。"

"GoodGod!"saidMr。Stanley。

"Good-lookingrascalshemetatWorthing。Veryromanticandallthat。Hefixedit。"

"But——"

"Heleftheralone。Pureromanticnonsenseonherpart。Sheercalculationonhis。WentuptoSomersetHousetoexaminethewillbeforehedidit。Yes。Niceposition。"

"Shedoesn’tcareforhimnow?"

"Notabit。Whatagirlofsixteencaresforishairandahighcolorandmoonlightandatenorvoice。Isupposemostofourdaughterswouldmarryorgan-grindersiftheyhadachance——atthatage。Mysonwantedtomarryawomanofthirtyinatobacconist’sshop。Onlyason’sanotherstory。Wefixedthat。

Well,that’sthesituation。Mypeopledon’tknowwhattodo。

Can’tfaceascandal。Can’taskthegenttogoabroadandcondoneabigamy。Hemisstatedherageandaddress;butyoucan’tgethomeonhimforathinglikethat……Thereyouare!Girlspoiltforlife。MakesonewanttogobacktotheOrientalsystem!"

Mr。Stanleypouredwine。"DamnedRascal!"hesaid。"Isn’tthereabrothertokickhim?"

"Meresatisfaction,"reflectedOgilvy。"Meresensuality。I

ratherthinktheyhavekickedhim,fromthetoneofsomeoftheletters。Nice,ofcourse。Butitdoesn’talterthesituation。"

"It’stheseRascals,"saidMr。Stanley,andpaused。

"Alwayshasbeen,"saidOgilvy。"Ourinterestliesinheadingthemoff。"

"Therewasatimewhengirlsdidn’tgettheseextravagantideas。"

"LydiaLanguish,forexample。Anyhow,theydidn’trunaboutsomuch。"

"Yes。That’saboutthebeginning。It’sthesedamnednovels。Allthistorrentofmisleading,spuriousstuffthatpoursfromthepress。Theseshamidealsandadvancednotions。WomenwhoDids,andallthatkindofthing……"

Ogilvyreflected。"Thisgirl——she’sreallyaverycharming,frankperson——hadhadherimaginationfired,soshetoldme,byaschoolperformanceofRomeoandJuliet。"

Mr。Stanleydecidedtotreatthatasirrelevant。"ThereoughttobeaCensorshipofBooks。Wewantitbadlyatthepresenttime。

EvenWITHtheCensorshipofPlaysthere’shardlyadecentthingtowhichamancantakehiswifeanddaughters,acreepingtaintofsuggestioneverywhere。Whatwoulditbewithoutthatsafeguard?"

Ogilvypursuedhisowntopic。"I’minclinedtothink,Stanley,myselfthatasamatteroffactitwastheexpurgatedRomeoandJulietdidthemischief。Ifouryoungpersonhadn’thadthenursepartcutout,eh?Shemighthaveknownmoreanddoneless。

Iwascuriousaboutthat。Alltheyleftitwasthemoonandstars。Andthebalconyand’MyRomeo!’"

"Shakespeareisaltogetherdifferentfromthemodernstuff。

Altogetherdifferent。I’mnotdiscussingShakespeare。Idon’twanttoBowdlerizeShakespeare。I’mnotthatsortIquiteagree。

Butthismodernmiasma——"

Mr。Stanleytookmustardsavagely。

"Well,wewon’tgointoShakespeare,"saidOgilvy"Whatinterestsmeisthatouryoungwomennowadaysarerunningaboutasfreeasairpractically,withregistryofficesandallsortsofaccommodationroundthecorner。Nothingtochecktheirproceedingsbutadeclininghabitoftellingthetruthandthelimitationsoftheirimaginations。Andinthatrespecttheystiruponeanother。Notmyaffair,ofcourse,butIthinkweoughttoteachthemmoreorrestrainthemmore。Oneortheother。

They’retoofreefortheirinnocenceortooinnocentfortheirfreedom。That’smypoint。Areyougoingtohaveanyapple-tart,Stanley?Theapple-tart’sbeenverygoodlately——verygood!"

Part7

AttheendofdinnerthateveningAnnVeronicabegan:"Father!"

Herfatherlookedatheroverhisglassesandspokewithgravedeliberation;"Ifthereisanythingyouwanttosaytome,"hesaid,"youmustsayitinthestudy。Iamgoingtosmokealittlehere,andthenIshallgotothestudy。Idon’tseewhatyoucanhavetosay。Ishouldhavethoughtmynoteclearedupeverything。TherearesomepapersIhavetolookthroughto-night——importantpapers。"

"Iwon’tkeepyouverylong,daddy,"saidAnnVeronica。

"Idon’tsee,Mollie,"heremarked,takingacigarfromtheboxonthetableashissisteranddaughterrose,"whyyouandVeeshouldn’tdiscussthislittleaffair——whateveritis——withoutbotheringme。"

Itwasthefirsttimethiscontroversyhadbecometriangular,forallthreeofthemwereshybyhabit。

Hestoppedinmid-sentence,andAnnVeronicaopenedthedoorforheraunt。Theairwasthickwithfeelings。Herauntwentoutoftheroomwithdignityandarustle,andup-stairstothefastnessofherownroom。Sheagreedentirelywithherbrother。Itdistressedandconfusedherthatthegirlshouldnotcometoher。

Itseemedtoshowawantofaffection,tobeadeliberateandunmeriteddisregard,tojustifythereprisalofbeinghurt。

WhenAnnVeronicacameintothestudyshefoundeveryevidenceofacarefullyforeseengroupingaboutthegasfire。Botharm-chairshadbeenmovedalittlesoastofaceeachotheroneithersideofthefender,andinthecircularglowofthegreen-shadedlamptherelay,conspicuouslywaiting,athickbundleofblueandwhitepaperstiedwithpinktape。Herfatherheldsomeprinteddocumentinhishand,andappearednottoobserveherentry。"Sitdown,"hesaid,andperused——"perused"

isthewordforit——forsomemoments。Thenheputthepaperby。

"Andwhatisitallabout,Veronica?"heasked,withadeliberatenoteofirony,lookingatheralittlequizzicallyoverhisglasses。

AnnVeronicalookedbrightandalittleelated,andshedisregardedherfather’sinvitationtobeseated。Shestoodonthematinstead,andlookeddownonhim。"Lookhere,daddy,"shesaid,inatoneofgreatreasonableness,"IMUSTgotothatdance,youknow。"

Herfather’sironydeepened。"Why?"heasked,suavely。

Heranswerwasnotquiteready。"Well,becauseIdon’tseeanyreasonwhyIshouldn’t。"

"YouseeIdo。"

"Whyshouldn’tIgo?"

"Itisn’tasuitableplace;itisn’tasuitablegathering。"

"But,daddy,whatdoyouknowoftheplaceandthegathering?"

"Andit’sentirelyoutoforder;itisn’tright,itisn’tcorrect;it’simpossibleforyoutostayinanhotelinLondon——theideaispreposterous。Ican’timaginewhatpossessedyou,Veronica。"

Heputhisheadononeside,pulleddownthecornersofhismouth,andlookedatheroverhisglasses。

"Butwhyisitpreposterous?"askedAnnVeronica,andfiddledwithapipeonthemantel。

"Surely!"heremarked,withanexpressionofworriedappeal。

"Yousee,daddy,Idon’tthinkitISpreposterous。That’sreallywhatIwanttodiscuss。Itcomestothis——amItobetrustedtotakecareofmyself,oramInot?"

"Tojudgefromthisproposalofyours,Ishouldsaynot。"

"IthinkIam。"

"Aslongasyouremainundermyroof——"hebegan,andpaused。

"YouaregoingtotreatmeasthoughIwasn’t。Well,Idon’tthinkthat’sfair。"

"Yourideasoffairness——"heremarked,anddiscontinuedthatsentence。"Mydeargirl,"hesaid,inatoneofpatientreasonableness,"youareamerechild。Youknownothingoflife,nothingofitsdangers,nothingofitspossibilities。Youthinkeverythingisharmlessandsimple,andsoforth。Itisn’t。Itisn’t。That’swhereyougowrong。Insomethings,inmanythings,youmusttrusttoyourelders,tothosewhoknowmoreoflifethanyoudo。YourauntandIhavediscussedallthismatter。Thereitis。Youcan’tgo。"

Theconversationhungforamoment。AnnVeronicatriedtokeepholdofacomplicatedsituationandnotloseherhead。Shehadturnedroundsideways,soastolookdownintothefire。

"Yousee,father,"shesaid,"itisn’tonlythisaffairofthedance。Iwanttogotothatbecauseit’sanewexperience,becauseIthinkitwillbeinterestingandgivemeaviewofthings。YousayIknownothing。That’sprobablytrue。ButhowamItoknowofthings?"

"SomethingsIhopeyoumayneverknow,"hesaid。

"I’mnotsosure。Iwanttoknow——justasmuchasIcan。"

"Tut!"hesaid,fuming,andputouthishandtothepapersinthepinktape。

"Well,Ido。It’sjustthatIwanttosay。Iwanttobeahumanbeing;Iwanttolearnaboutthingsandknowaboutthings,andnottobeprotectedassomethingtoopreciousforlife,coopedupinonenarrowlittlecorner。"

"Coopedup!"hecried。"DidIstandinthewayofyourgoingtocollege?HaveIeverpreventedyougoingaboutatanyreasonablehour?You’vegotabicycle!"

"H’m!"saidAnnVeronica,andthenwenton"Iwanttobetakenseriously。Agirl——atmyage——isgrown-up。IwanttogoonwithmyUniversityworkunderproperconditions,nowthatI’vedonetheIntermediate。Itisn’tasthoughIhaven’tdonewell。I’venevermuffedanexam。yet。Roddymuffedtwo……"

Herfatherinterrupted。"Nowlookhere,Veronica,letusbeplainwitheachother。YouarenotgoingtothatinfidelRussell’sclasses。YouarenotgoinganywherebuttotheTredgoldCollege。I’vethoughtthatout,andyoumustmakeupyourmindtoit。Allsortsofconsiderationscomein。Whileyouliveinmyhouseyoumustfollowmyideas。Youarewrongevenaboutthatman’sscientificpositionandhisstandardofwork。

TherearemenintheLowndeanwholaughathim——simplylaughathim。AndIhaveseenworkbyhispupilsmyselfthatstruckmeasbeing——well,nextdoortoshameful。There’sstories,too,abouthisdemonstrator,CapesSomethingorother。Thekindofmanwhoisn’tcontentwithhisscience,andwritesarticlesinthemonthlyreviews。Anyhow,thereitis:YOUARENOTGOINGTHERE。"

Thegirlreceivedthisintimationinsilence。butthefacethatlookeddownuponthegasfiretookanexpressionofobstinacythatbroughtoutahithertolatentresemblancebetweenparentandchild。Whenshespoke,herlipstwitched。

"ThenIsupposewhenIhavegraduatedIamtocomehome?"

"Itseemsthenaturalcourse"

"Anddonothing?"

"Thereareplentyofthingsagirlcanfindtodoathome。"

"Untilsomeonetakespityonmeandmarriesme?"

Heraisedhiseyebrowsinmildappeal。Hisfoottappedimpatiently,andhetookupthepapers。

"Lookhere,father,"shesaid,withachangeinhervoice,"supposeIwon’tstandit?"

Heregardedherasthoughthiswasanewidea。

"Suppose,forexample,Igotothisdance?"

"Youwon’t。"

"Well"——herbreathfailedherforamoment。"Howwouldyoupreventit?"sheasked。

"ButIhaveforbiddenit!"hesaid,raisinghisvoice。

"Yes,Iknow。ButsupposeIgo?"

"Now,Veronica!No,no。Thiswon’tdo。Understandme!I

forbidit。Idonotwanttohearfromyoueventhethreatofdisobedience。"Hespokeloudly。"Thethingisforbidden!"

"Iamreadytogiveupanythingthatyoushowtobewrong。"

"YouwillgiveupanythingIwishyoutogiveup。"

Theystaredateachotherthroughapause,andbothfaceswereflushedandobstinate。

Shewastryingbysomewonderful,secret,andmotionlessgymnasticstorestrainhertears。Butwhenshespokeherlipsquivered,andtheycame。"Imeantogotothatdance!"sheblubbered。"Imeantogotothatdance!Imeanttoreasonwithyou,butyouwon’treason。You’redogmatic。"

Atthesightofhertearshisexpressionchangedtoaminglingoftriumphandconcern。Hestoodup,apparentlyintendingtoputanarmabouther,butshesteppedbackfromhimquickly。Sheproducedahandkerchief,andwithonesweepofthisandasimultaneousgulphadabolishedherfitofweeping。Hisvoicenowhadlostitsironies。

"Now,Veronica,"hepleaded,"Veronica,thisismostunreasonable。Allwedoisforyourgood。NeitheryourauntnorIhaveanyotherthoughtbutwhatisbestforyou。"

"Onlyyouwon’tletmelive。Onlyyouwon’tletmeexist!"

Mr。Stanleylostpatience。Hebulliedfrankly。

"Whatnonsenseisthis?Whatraving!Mydearchild,youDO

live,youDOexist!Youhavethishome。Youhavefriends,acquaintances,socialstanding,brothersandsisters,everyadvantage!Insteadofwhich,youwanttogotosomemixedclassesorotherandcutuprabbitsanddanceaboutatnightsinwildcostumeswithcasualartstudentfriendsandGodknowswho。

That——thatisn’tliving!Youarebesideyourself。Youdon’tknowwhatyouasknorwhatyousay。Youhaveneitherreasonnorlogic。Iamsorrytoseemtohurtyou,butallIsayisforyourgood。YouMUSTnot,youSHALLnotgo。OnthisIamresolved。I

putmyfootdownlike——likeadamant。Andatimewillcome,Veronica,markmywords,atimewillcomewhenyouwillblessmeformyfirmnessto-night。Itgoestomyhearttodisappointyou,butthisthingmustnotbe。"

Hesidledtowardher,butsherecoiledfromhim,leavinghiminpossessionofthehearth-rug。

"Well,"shesaid,"good-night,father。"

"What!"heasked;"notakiss?"

Sheaffectednottohear。

Thedoorclosedsoftlyuponher。Foralongtimeheremainedstandingbeforethefire,staringatthesituation。Thenhesatdownandfilledhispipeslowlyandthoughtfully……

"Idon’tseewhatelseIcouldhavesaid,"heremarked。

CHAPTERTHESECOND

ANNVERONICAGATHERSPOINTSOFVIEW

Part1

"AreyoucomingtotheFaddenDance,AnnVeronica?"askedConstanceWidgett。

AnnVeronicaconsideredheranswer。"Imeanto,"shereplied。

"Youaremakingyourdress?"

"Suchasitis。"

TheywereintheelderWidgettgirl’sbedroom;Hettywaslaidup,shesaid,withasprainedankle,andamiscellaneouspartywasgossipingawayhertedium。Itwasalarge,littered,self-forgetfulapartment,decoratedwithunframedcharcoalsketchesbyvariousincipientmasters;andanopenbookcase,surmountedbyplastercastsandthehalfofahumanskull,displayedanoddmiscellanyofbooks——ShawandSwinburne,TomJones,FabianEssays,PopeandDumas,cheekbyjowl。ConstanceWidgett’sabundantcopper-redhairwasbentdownoversomedimlyremunerativework——stencillingincolorsuponrough,whitematerial——atakitchentableshehaddraggedup-stairsforthepurpose,whileonherbedtherewasseatedaslenderladyofthirtyorsoinadingygreendress,whomConstancehadintroducedwithawaveofherhandasMissMiniver。MissMiniverlookedoutontheworldthroughlargeemotionalblueeyesthatwerefurthermagnifiedbytheglassesshewore,andhernosewaspinchedandpink,andhermouthwaswhimsicallypetulant。Herglassesmovedquicklyasherglancetravelledfromfacetoface。

Sheseemedburstingwiththedesiretotalk,andwatchingforheropportunity。Onherlapelwasanivorybutton,bearingthewords"VotesforWomen。"AnnVeronicasatatthefootofthesufferer’sbed,whileTeddyWidgett,beingsomethingofanathlete,occupiedtheonlybed-roomchair——adecadentpiece,essentiallyatripodandlargelyaformality——andsmokedcigarettes,andtriedtoconcealthefactthathewaslookingallthetimeatAnnVeronica’seyebrows。TeddywasthehatlessyoungmanwhohadturnedAnnVeronicaasidefromtheAvenuetwodaysbefore。Hewasthejuniorofbothhissisters,co-educatedandmuchbrokenintofemininesociety。Abowlofroses,justbroughtbyAnnVeronica,adornedthecommunaldressing-table,andAnnVeronicawasparticularlytriminpreparationforacallshewastomakewithherauntlaterintheafternoon。

AnnVeronicadecidedtobemoreexplicit。"I’vebeen,"shesaid,"forbiddentocome。"

"Hul-LO!"saidHetty,turningherheadonthepillow;andTeddyremarkedwithprofoundemotion,"MyGod!"

"Yes,"saidAnnVeronica,"andthatcomplicatesthesituation。"

"Auntie?"askedConstance,whowasconversantwithAnnVeronica’saffairs。

"No!Myfather。It’s——it’saseriousprohibition。"

"Why?"askedHetty。

"That’sthepoint。Iaskedhimwhy,andhehadn’tareason。"

"YOUASKEDYOURFATHERFORAREASON!"saidMissMiniver,withgreatintensity。

"Yes。Itriedtohaveitoutwithhim,buthewouldn’thaveitout。"AnnVeronicareflectedforaninstant"That’swhyIthinkIoughttocome。"

"Youaskedyourfatherforareason!"MissMiniverrepeated。

"WealwayshavethingsoutwithOURfather,poordear!"saidHetty。"He’sgotalmosttolikeit。"

"Men,"saidMissMiniver,"NEVERhaveareason。Never!Andtheydon’tknowit!Theyhavenoideaofit。It’soneoftheirworsttraits,oneoftheirveryworst。"

"ButIsay,Vee,"saidConstance,"ifyoucomeandyouareforbiddentocomethere’llbethedeuceofarow。"

AnnVeronicawasdecidingforfurtherconfidences。Hersituationwasperplexingherverymuch,andtheWidgettatmospherewaslaxandsympathetic,andprovocativeofdiscussion。"Itisn’tonlythedance,"shesaid。

"There’stheclasses,"saidConstance,thewell-informed。

"There’sthewholesituation。ApparentlyI’mnottoexistyet。

I’mnottostudy,I’mnottogrow。I’vegottostayathomeandremaininastateofsuspendedanimation。"

"DUSTING!"saidMissMiniver,inasepulchralvoice。

"Untilyoumarry,Vee,"saidHetty。

"Well,Idon’tfeellikestandingit。"

"Thousandsofwomenhavemarriedmerelyforfreedom,"saidMissMiniver。"Thousands!Ugh!Andfounditaworseslavery。"

"Isuppose,"saidConstance,stencillingawayatbrightpinkpetals,"it’sourlot。Butit’sverybeastly。"

"What’sourlot?"askedhersister。

"Slavery!Downtroddenness!WhenIthinkofitIfeelalloverbootmarks——men’sboots。Wehideitbravely,butsoitis。

Damn!I’vesplashed。"

MissMiniver’smannerbecameimpressive。SheaddressedAnnVeronicawithanairofconveyinggreatopensecretstoher。"Asthingsareatpresent,"shesaid,"itistrue。Weliveunderman-madeinstitutions,andthatiswhattheyamountto。Everygirlintheworldpractically,exceptafewofuswhoteachortype-write,andthenwe’reunderpaidandsweated——it’sdreadfultothinkhowwearesweated!"Shehadlosthergeneralization,whateveritwas。Shehungforamoment,andthenwenton,conclusively,"UntilwehavethevotethatishowthingsWILL

be。"

"I’mallforthevote,"saidTeddy。

"IsupposeagirlMUSTbeunderpaidandsweated,"saidAnnVeronica。"Isupposethere’snowayofgettingadecentincome——independently。"

"WomenhavepracticallyNOeconomicfreedom,"saidMissMiniver,"becausetheyhavenopoliticalfreedom。Menhaveseentothat。

Theoneprofession,theonedecentprofession,Imean,forawoman——exceptthestage——isteaching,andtherewetrampleononeanother。Everywhereelse——thelaw,medicine,theStockExchange——prejudicebarsus。"

"There’sart,"saidAnnVeronica,"andwriting。"

"Everyonehasn’ttheGift。Eventhereawomannevergetsafairchance。Menareagainsther。Whatevershedoesisminimized。

Allthebestnovelshavebeenwrittenbywomen,andyetseehowmensneerattheladynoveliststill!There’sonlyonewaytogetonforawoman,andthatistopleasemen。Thatiswhattheythinkwearefor!"

"We’rebeasts,"saidTeddy。"Beasts!"

ButMissMinivertooknonoticeofhisadmission。

"Ofcourse,"saidMissMiniver——shewentoninaregularlyundulatingvoice——"weDOpleasemen。Wehavethatgift。Wecanseeroundthemandbehindthemandthroughthem,andmostofususethatknowledge,inthesilentwaywehave,forourgreatends。Notallofus,butsomeofus。Toomany。Iwonderwhatmenwouldsayifwethrewthemaskaside——ifwereallytoldthemwhatWEthoughtofthem,reallyshowedthemwhatWEwere。"A

flushofexcitementcreptintohercheeks。

"Maternity,"shesaid,"hasbeenourundoing。"

Fromthatsheopenedoutintoalong,confusedemphaticdiscourseonthepositionofwomen,fullofwonderfulstatements,whileConstanceworkedatherstencillingandAnnVeronicaandHettylistened,andTeddycontributedsympatheticnoisesandconsumedcheapcigarettes。Asshetalkedshemadeweaklittlegestureswithherhands,andshethrustherfaceforwardfromherbentshoulders;andshepeeredsometimesatAnnVeronicaandsometimesataphotographoftheAxenstrasse,nearFluelen,thathunguponthewall。AnnVeronicawatchedherface,vaguelysympathizingwithher,vaguelydislikingherphysicalinsufficiencyandherconvulsivemovements,andthefineeyebrowswereknitwithafaintperplexity。Essentiallythetalkwasamixtureoffragmentsofsentencesheard,ofpassagesread,orargumentsindicatedratherthanstated,andallofitwasservedinasauceofstrangeenthusiasm,thinyetintense。AnnVeronicahadhadsometrainingattheTredgoldCollegeindisentanglingthreadsfromconfusedstatements,andshehadacuriouspersuasionthatinallthisfluentmuddletherewassomething——somethingreal,somethingthatsignified。Butitwasveryhardtofollow。Shedidnotunderstandthenoteofhostilitytomenthatranthroughitall,thebittervindictivenessthatlitMissMiniver’scheeksandeyes,thesenseofsomeatlastinsupportablewrongslowlyaccumulated。Shehadnoinklingofthatinsupportablewrong。

"Wearethespecies,"saidMissMiniver,"menareonlyincidents。

Theygivethemselvesairs,butsoitis。Inallthespeciesofanimalsthefemalesaremoreimportantthanthemales;themaleshavetopleasethem。Lookatthecock’sfeathers,lookatthecompetitionthereiseverywhere,exceptamonghumans。Thestagsandoxenandthingsallhavetofightforus,everywhere。Onlyinmanisthemalemadethemostimportant。Andthathappensthroughourmaternity;it’sourveryimportancethatdegradesus。

Whileweweremindingthechildrentheystoleourrightsandliberties。Thechildrenmadeusslaves,andthementookadvantageofit。It’s——Mrs。Shalfordsays——theaccidentalconqueringtheessential。Originallyinthefirstanimalstherewerenomales,noneatall。Ithasbeenproved。Thentheyappearamongthelowerthings"——shemademeticulousgesturestofigurethescaleoflife;sheseemedtobeholdingupspecimens,andpeeringthroughherglassesatthem——"amongcrustaceansandthings,justaslittlecreatures,eversoinferiortothefemales。Merehangerson。Thingsyouwouldlaughat。Andamonghumanbeings,too,womentobeginwithweretherulersandleaders;theyownedalltheproperty,theyinventedallthearts。

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