第1章
CHAPTERTHEFIRST
ANNVERONICATALKSTOHERFATHER
Part1
OneWednesdayafternooninlateSeptember,AnnVeronicaStanleycamedownfromLondoninastateofsolemnexcitementandquiteresolvedtohavethingsoutwithherfatherthatveryevening。
Shehadtrembledonthevergeofsucharesolutionbefore,butthistimequitedefinitelyshemadeit。Acrisishadbeenreached,andshewasalmostgladithadbeenreached。Shemadeuphermindinthetrainhomethatitshouldbeadecisivecrisis。Itisforthatreasonthatthisnovelbeginswithherthere,andneitherearliernorlater,foritisthehistoryofthiscrisisanditsconsequencesthatthisnovelhastotell。
ShehadacompartmenttoherselfinthetrainfromLondontoMorningsidePark,andshesatwithbothherfeetontheseatinanattitudethatwouldcertainlyhavedistressedhermothertosee,andhorrifiedhergrandmotherbeyondmeasure;shesatwithherkneesuptoherchinandherhandsclaspedbeforethem,andshewassolostinthoughtthatshediscoveredwithastart,fromaletteredlamp,thatshewasatMorningsidePark,andthoughtshewasmovingoutofthestation,whereasshewasonlymovingin。"Lord!"shesaid。Shejumpedupatonce,caughtupaleatherclutchcontainingnotebooks,afattext-book,andachocolate-and-yellow-coveredpamphlet,andleapedneatlyfromthecarriage,onlytodiscoverthatthetrainwasslowingdownandthatshehadtotraversethefulllengthoftheplatformpastitagainastheresultofherprecipitation。"Soldagain,"sheremarked。"Idiot!"Sheragedinwardlywhileshewalkedalongwiththatairofself-containedserenitythatispropertoayoungladyofnearlytwo-and-twentyundertheeyeoftheworld。
Shewalkeddownthestationapproach,pasttheneat,obtrusiveofficesofthecoalmerchantandthehouseagent,andsotothewicket-gatebythebutcher’sshopthatledtothefieldpathtoherhome。Outsidethepost-officestoodano-hatted,blondyoungmaningrayflannels,whowaselaboratelyaffixingastamptoaletter。Atthesightofherhebecamerigidandasingularlybrightshadeofpink。Shemadeherselfserenelyunawareofhisexistence,thoughitmaybeitwashispresencethatsentherbythefielddetourinsteadofbythedirectpathuptheAvenue。
"Umph!"hesaid,andregardedhisletterdoubtfullybeforeconsigningittothepillar-box。"Heregoes,"hesaid。ThenhehoveredundecidedlyforsomesecondswithhishandsinhispocketsandhismouthpuckeredtoawhistlebeforeheturnedtogohomebytheAvenue。
AnnVeronicaforgothimassoonasshewasthroughthegate,andherfaceresumeditsexpressionofsternpreoccupation。"It’seithernowornever,"shesaidtoherself……
MorningsideParkwasasuburbthathadnotaltogether,aspeoplesay,comeoff。Itconsisted,likepre-RomanGaul,ofthreeparts。TherewasfirsttheAvenue,whichraninaconsciouslyelegantcurvefromtherailwaystationintoanundevelopedwildernessofagriculture,withbig,yellowbrickvillasoneitherside,andthentherewasthepavement,thelittleclumpofshopsaboutthepost-office,andundertherailwayarchwasacongestionofworkmen’sdwellings。TheroadfromSurbitonandEpsomranunderthearch,and,likeabrightfungoidgrowthintheditch,therewasnowappearingasortoffourthestateoflittlered-and-whiterough-castvillas,withmeretriciousgablesandverybrassywindow-blinds。BehindtheAvenuewasalittlehill,andaniron-fencedpathwentoverthecrestofthistoastileunderanelm-tree,andforkedthere,withonebranchgoingbackintotheAvenueagain。
"It’seithernowornever,"saidAnnVeronica,againascendingthisstile。"MuchasIhaterows,I’veeithergottomakeastandorgiveinaltogether。"
SheseatedherselfinalooseandeasyattitudeandsurveyedthebacksoftheAvenuehouses;thenhereyeswanderedtowherethenewred-and-whitevillaspeepedamongthetrees。Sheseemedtobemakingsomesortofinventory。"YeGods!"shesaidatlast。
"WHATaplace!
"Stuffyisn’tthewordforit。
"Iwonderwhathetakesmefor?"
Whenpresentlyshegotdownfromthestileacertainnoteofinternalconflict,atouchofdoubt,hadgonefromherwarm-tintedface。Shehadnowtheclearandtranquilexpressionofonewhosemindismadeup。Herbackhadstiffened,andherhazeleyeslookedsteadfastlyahead。
AssheapproachedthecorneroftheAvenuetheblond,no-hattedmaningrayflannelsappeared。Therewasacertainairofforcedfortuityinhismanner。Hesalutedawkwardly。"Hello,Vee!"hesaid。
"Hello,Teddy!"sheanswered。
Hehungvaguelyforamomentasshepassed。
ButitwasclearshewasinnomoodforTeddys。Herealizedthathewascommittedtothepathacrossthefields,anuninterestingwalkatthebestoftimes。
"Oh,dammit!"heremarked,"dammit!"withgreatbitternessashefacedit。
Part2
AnnVeronicaStanleywastwenty-oneandahalfyearsold。Shehadblackhair,fineeyebrows,andaclearcomplexion;andtheforcesthathadmodelledherfeatureshadlovedandlingeredattheirworkandmadethemsubtleandfine。Shewasslender,andsometimessheseemedtall,andwalkedandcarriedherselflightlyandjoyfullyasonewhocommonlyandhabituallyfeelswell,andsometimesshestoopedalittleandwaspreoccupied。Herlipscametogetherwithanexpressionbetweencontentmentandthefaintestshadowofasmile,hermannerwasoneofquietreserve,andbehindthismaskshewaswildlydiscontentedandeagerforfreedomandlife。
Shewantedtolive。Shewasvehementlyimpatient——shedidnotclearlyknowforwhat——todo,tobe,toexperience。Andexperiencewasslowincoming。Alltheworldaboutherseemedtobe——howcanoneputit?——inwrappers,likeahousewhenpeopleleaveitinthesummer。Theblindswerealldrawn,thesunlightkeptout,onecouldnottellwhatcolorsthesegrayswathingshid。Shewantedtoknow。Andtherewasnointimationwhateverthattheblindswouldevergouporthewindowsordoorsbeopened,orthechandeliers,thatseemedtopromisesuchablazeoffire,unveiledandfurnishedandlit。Dimsoulsflittedabouther,notonlyspeakingbutitwouldseemeventhinkinginundertones……
Duringherschooldays,especiallyherearlierschooldays,theworldhadbeenveryexplicitwithher,tellingherwhattodo,whatnottodo,givingherlessonstolearnandgamestoplayandinterestsofthemostsuitableandvariouskinds。Presentlyshewokeuptothefactthattherewasaconsiderablegroupofinterestscalledbeinginloveandgettingmarried,withcertainattractiveandamusingsubsidiarydevelopments,suchasflirtationand"beinginterested"inpeopleoftheoppositesex。
Sheapproachedthisfieldwithherusuallivelinessofapprehension。Buthereshemetwithacheck。Theseinterestsherworldpromptly,throughtheagencyofschoolmistresses,olderschool-mates,heraunt,andanumberofotherresponsibleandauthoritativepeople,assuredhershemustonnoaccountthinkabout。MissMoffatt,thehistoryandmoralinstructionmistress,wasparticularlyexplicituponthisscore,andtheyallagreedinindicatingcontemptandpityforgirlswhosemindsranonsuchmatters,andwhobetrayeditintheirconversationordressorbearing。Itwas,infact,agroupofinterestsquiteunlikeanyothergroup,peculiarandspecial,andonetobethoroughlyashamedof。Nevertheless,AnnVeronicafounditadifficultmatternottothinkofthesethings。Howeverhavingaconsiderableamountofpride,shedecidedshewoulddisavowtheseundesirabletopicsandkeephermindawayfromthemjustasfarasshecould,butitleftherattheendofherschooldayswiththatwrappedfeelingIhavedescribed,andratheratlooseends。
Theworld,shediscovered,withthesemattersbarredhadnoparticularplaceforheratall,nothingforhertodo,exceptafunctionlessexistencevariedbycalls,tennis,selectednovels,walks,anddustinginherfather’shouse。Shethoughtstudywouldbebetter。Shewasaclevergirl,thebestofheryearintheHighSchool,andshemadeavaliantfightforSomervilleorNewnhambutherfatherhadmetandarguedwithaSomervillegirlatafriend’sdinner-tableandhethoughtthatsortofthingunsexedawoman。Hesaidsimplythathewantedhertoliveathome。Therewasacertainamountofdisputation,andmeanwhileshewentonatschool。TheycompromisedatlengthonthesciencecourseattheTredgoldWomen’sCollege——shehadalreadymatriculatedintoLondonUniversityfromschool——shecameofage,andshebickeredwithherauntforlatch-keyprivilegesonthestrengthofthatandherseasonticket。Shamefacedcuriositiesbegantocomebackintohermind,thinlydisguisedasliteratureandart。Shereadvoraciously,andpresently,becauseofheraunt’scensorship,shetooktosmugglinganybooksshethoughtmightbeprohibitedinsteadofbringingthemhomeopenly,andshewenttothetheatrewhenevershecouldproduceanacceptablefriendtoaccompanyher。Shepassedhergeneralscienceexaminationwithdoublehonorsandspecializedinscience。Shehappenedtohaveanacutesenseofformandunusualmentallucidity,andshefoundinbiology,andparticularlyincomparativeanatomy,averyconsiderableinterest,albeittheilluminationitcastuponherpersonallifewasnotaltogetherdirect。Shedissectedwell,andinayearshefoundherselfchafingatthelimitationsoftheladyB。Sc。whoretailedastoreoffadedlearningintheTredgoldlaboratory。Shehadalreadyrealizedthatthisinstructresswashopelesslywrongandfoggy——itisthetestofthegoodcomparativeanatomist——upontheskull。ShediscoveredadesiretoenterasastudentintheImperialCollegeatWestminster,whereRusselltaught,andgoonwithherworkatthefountain-head。
Shehadaskedaboutthatalready,andherfatherhadreplied,evasively:"We’llhavetoseeaboutthat,littleVee;we’llhavetoseeaboutthat。"InthatpostureofbeingseenaboutthematterhunguntilsheseemedcommittedtoanothersessionattheTredgoldCollege,andinthemeantimeasmallconflictaroseandbroughtthelatch-keyquestion,andinfactthequestionofAnnVeronica’spositiongenerally,toanacuteissue。
Inadditiontothevariousbusinessmen,solicitors,civilservants,andwidowladieswholivedintheMorningsideParkAvenue,therewasacertainfamilyofaliensympathiesandartisticquality,theWidgetts,withwhichAnnVeronicahadbecomeveryfriendly。Mr。Widgettwasajournalistandartcritic,addictedtoagreenish-graytweedsuitand"art"brownties;hesmokedcorncobpipesintheAvenueonSundaymorning,travelledthirdclasstoLondonbyunusualtrains,andopenlydespisedgolf。Heoccupiedoneofthesmallerhousesnearthestation。Hehadoneson,whohadbeenco-educated,andthreedaughterswithpeculiarlyjollyredhairthatAnnVeronicafoundadorable。TwoofthesehadbeenherparticularintimatesattheHighSchool,andhaddonemuchtosendhermindexploringbeyondthelimitsoftheavailableliteratureathome。Itwasacheerful,irresponsible,shamelesslyhard-upfamilyinthekeyoffadedgreenandflattenedpurple,andthegirlswentonfromtheHighSchooltotheFaddenArtSchoolandabright,eventfullifeofartstudentdances,Socialistmeetings,theatregalleries,talkingaboutwork,andeven,atintervals,work;andeverandagaintheydrewAnnVeronicafromhersoundpersistentindustryintothecircleoftheseexperiences。TheyhadaskedhertocometothefirstofthetwogreatannualFaddenDances,theOctoberone,andAnnVeronicahadacceptedwithenthusiasm。Andnowherfathersaidshemustnotgo。
Hehad"puthisfootdown,"andsaidshemustnotgo。
GoinginvolvedtwothingsthatallAnnVeronica’stacthadbeenineffectualtoconcealfromherauntandfather。Herusualdignifiedreservehadavailedhernothing。OnepointwasthatshewastowearfancydressinthelikenessofaCorsair’sbride,andtheotherwasthatshewastospendwhatevervestigesofthenightremainedafterthedancewasoverinLondonwiththeWidgettgirlsandaselectpartyin"quiteadecentlittlehotel"
nearFitzroySquare。
"But,mydear!"saidAnnVeronica’saunt。
"Yousee,"saidAnnVeronica,withtheairofonewhosharesadifficulty,"I’vepromisedtogo。Ididn’trealize——Idon’tseehowIcangetoutofitnow。"
Thenitwasherfatherissuedhisultimatum。Hehadconveyedittoher,notverbally,butbymeansofaletter,whichseemedtoherasingularlyignoblemethodofprohibition。"Hecouldn’tlookmeinthefaceandsayit,"saidAnnVeronica。
"Butofcourseit’saunt’sdoingreally。"
AndthusitwasthatasAnnVeronicanearedthegatesofhome,shesaidtoherself:"I’llhaveitoutwithhimsomehow。I’llhaveitoutwithhim。Andifhewon’t——"
Butshedidnotgiveevenunspokenwordstothealternativeatthattime。
Part3
AnnVeronica’sfatherwasasolicitorwithagooddealofcompanybusiness:alean,trustworthy,worried-looking,neuralgic,clean-shavenmanoffifty-three,withahardmouth,asharpnose,iron-grayhair,grayeyes,gold-framedglasses,andasmall,circularbaldnessatthecrownofhishead。HisnamewasPeter。
Hehadhadfivechildrenatirregularintervals,ofwhomAnnVeronicawastheyoungest,sothatasaparenthecametoherperhapsalittlepractisedandjadedandinattentive;andhecalledherhis"littleVee,"andpattedherunexpectedlyanddisconcertingly,andtreatedherpromiscuouslyasofanyagebetweenelevenandeight-and-twenty。TheCityworriedhimagooddeal,andwhatenergyhehadleftoverhespentpartlyingolf,agamehetreatedveryseriously,andpartlyinthepracticesofmicroscopicpetrography。
He"wentin"formicroscopyintheunphilosophicalVictorianmannerashis"hobby。"Abirthdaypresentofamicroscopehadturnedhismindtotechnicalmicroscopywhenhewaseighteen,andachancefriendshipwithaHolbornmicroscopedealerhadconfirmedthatbent。Hehadremarkablyskilfulfingersandaloveofdetailedprocesses,andhehadbecomeoneofthemostdexterousamateurmakersofrocksectionsintheworld。Hespentagooddealmoremoneyandtimethanhecouldafforduponthelittleroomatthetopofthehouse,inproducingnewlapidaryapparatusandnewmicroscopicaccessoriesandinrubbingdownslicesofrocktoatransparentthinnessandmountingtheminabeautifulanddignifiedmanner。Hedidit,hesaid,"todistracthismind。"HischiefsuccessesheexhibitedtotheLowndeanMicroscopicalSociety,wheretheirhightechnicalmeritneverfailedtoexciteadmiration。Theirscientificvaluewaslessconsiderable,sincehechoserocksentirelywithaviewtotheirdifficultyofhandlingortheirattractivenessatconversazioneswhendone。Hehadagreatcontemptforthesectionsthe"theorizers"produced。Theyprovedallsortsofthingsperhaps,buttheywerethick,unequal,pitifulpiecesofwork。Yetanindiscriminating,wrong-headedworldgavesuchfellowsallsortsofdistinctions……
Hereadbutlittle,andthatchieflyhealthylightfictionwithchromatictitles,TheRedSword,TheBlackHelmet,ThePurpleRobe,alsoinorder"todistracthismind。"Hereaditinwinterintheeveningafterdinner,andAnnVeronicaassociateditwithatendencytomonopolizethelamp,andtospreadaverywornpairofdappledfawn-skinslippersacrossthefender。Shewonderedoccasionallywhyhismindneededsomuchdistraction。HisfavoritenewspaperwastheTimes,whichhebeganatbreakfastinthemorningoftenwithmanifestirritation,andcarriedofftofinishinthetrain,leavingnootherpaperathome。
ItoccurredtoAnnVeronicaoncethatshehadknownhimwhenhewasyounger,butdayhadfollowedday,andeachhadlargelyobliteratedtheimpressionofitspredecessor。Butshecertainlyrememberedthatwhenshewasalittlegirlhesometimesworetennisflannels,andalsorodeabicycleverydexterouslyinthroughthegatestothefrontdoor。Andinthosedays,too,heusedtohelphermotherwithhergardening,andhoveraboutherwhileshestoodontheladderandhammeredcreeperstothescullerywall。
IthadbeenAnnVeronica’slotastheyoungestchildtoliveinahomethatbecamelessanimatedandvariousasshegrewup。Hermotherhaddiedwhenshewasthirteen,hertwomucholdersistershadmarriedoff——onesubmissively,oneinsubordinately;hertwobrothershadgoneoutintotheworldwellaheadofher,andsoshehadmadewhatshecouldofherfather。Buthewasnotafatheronecouldmakemuchof。
Hisideasaboutgirlsandwomenwereofasentimentalandmodestquality;theywerecreatures,hethought,eithertoobadforamodernvocabulary,andthenfrequentlymostundesirablydesirable,ortoopureandgoodforlife。Hemadethissimpleclassificationofalargeandvarioussextotheexclusionofallintermediatekinds;heheldthatthetwoclasseshadtobekeptaparteveninthoughtandremotefromoneanother。Womenaremadelikethepotter’svessels——eitherforworshiporcontumely,andarewithalfragilevessels。Hehadneverwanteddaughters。
Eachtimeadaughterhadbeenborntohimhehadconcealedhischagrinwithgreattendernessandeffusionfromhiswife,andhadswornunwontedlyandwithpassionatesincerityinthebathroom。
Hewasamanlyman,freefromanystrongmaternalstrain,andhehadlovedhisdark-eyed,daintybright-colored,andactivelittlewifewitharealveinofpassioninhissentiment。Buthehadalwaysfelt(hehadneverallowedhimselftothinkofit)thatthepromptitudeoftheirfamilywasalittleindelicateofher,andinasenseanintrusion。Hehad,however,plannedbrilliantcareersforhistwosons,and,withacertainhumanamountofwarpinganddelay,theywerepursuingthese。OnewasintheIndianCivilServiceandoneintherapidlydevelopingmotorbusiness。Thedaughters,hehadhoped,wouldbetheirmother’scare。
Hehadnoideasaboutdaughters。Theyhappentoaman。
Ofcoursealittledaughterisadelightfulthingenough。Itrunsaboutgayly,itromps,itisbrightandpretty,ithasenormousquantitiesofsofthairandmorepowerofexpressingaffectionthanitsbrothers。Itisalovelylittleappendagetothemotherwhosmilesoverit,anditdoesthingsquaintlylikeher,gestureswithherverygestures。ItmakeswonderfulsentencesthatyoucanrepeatintheCityandaregoodenoughforPunch。
Youcallitalotofnicknames——"Babs"and"Bibs"and"Viddles"
and"Vee";youwhackatitplayfully,anditwhacksyouback。Itlovestositonyourknee。Allthatisjollyandasitshouldbe。
Butalittledaughterisonethingandadaughterquiteanother。
ThereonecomestoarelationshipthatMr。Stanleyhadneverthoughtout。Whenhefoundhimselfthinkingaboutit,itupsethimsothatheatonceresortedtodistraction。Thechromaticfictionwithwhichherelievedhismindglancedbutslightlyatthisaspectoflife,andneverwithanyqualityofguidance。Itsheroesneverhaddaughters,theyborrowedotherpeople’s。Theonefault,indeed,ofthisschooloffictionforhimwasthatithadratheralightwaywithparentalrights。Hisinstinctwasinthedirectionofconsideringhisdaughtershisabsoluteproperty,boundtoobeyhim,histogiveawayorhistokeeptobeacomfortinhisdecliningyearsjustashethoughtfit。Aboutthisconceptionofownershipheperceivedanddesiredacertainsentimentalglamour,helikedeverythingproperlydressed,butitremainedownership。Ownershipseemedonlyareasonablereturnforthecaresandexpensesofadaughter’supbringing。Daughterswerenotlikesons。Heperceived,however,thatboththenovelshereadandtheworldhelivedindiscountenancedtheseassumptions。Nothingelsewasputintheirplace,andtheyremainedsottovoce,asitwere,inhismind。Thenewandtheoldcancelledout;hisdaughtersbecamequasi-independentdependents——whichisabsurd。Onemarriedashewishedandoneagainsthiswishes,andnowherewasAnnVeronica,hislittleVee,discontentedwithherbeautiful,safe,andshelteringhome,goingaboutwithhatlessfriendstoSocialistmeetingsandart-classdances,anddisplayingadispositiontocarryherscientificambitionstounwomanlylengths。Sheseemedtothinkhewasmerelythepaymaster,handingoverthemeansofherfreedom。AndnowsheinsistedthatsheMUSTleavethechastenedsecurityoftheTredgoldWomen’sCollegeforRussell’sunbridledclasses,andwantedtogotofancydressdancesinpiratecostumeandspendtheresidueofthenightwithWidgett’sramshacklegirlsinsomeindescribablehotelinSoho!
Hehaddonehisbestnottothinkaboutheratall,butthesituationandhissisterhadbecomealtogethertoourgent。HehadfinallyputasideTheLilacSunbonnet,goneintohisstudy,litthegasfire,andwrittentheletterthathadbroughttheseunsatisfactoryrelationstoahead。
Part4
MYDEARVEE,hewrote。
Thesedaughters!Hegnawedhispenandreflected,torethesheetup,andbeganagain。
"MYDEARVERONICA,——YouraunttellsmeyouhaveinvolvedyourselfinsomearrangementwiththeWidgettgirlsaboutaFancyDressBallinLondon。Igatheryouwishtogoupinsomefantasticget-up,wrappedaboutinyouroperacloak,andthatafterthefestivitiesyouproposetostaywiththesefriendsofyours,andwithoutanyolderpeopleinyourparty,atanhotel。NowIamsorrytocrossyouinanythingyouhavesetyourheartupon,butIregrettosay——"
"H’m,"hereflected,andcrossedoutthelastfourwords。
"——butthiscannotbe。"
"No,"hesaid,andtriedagain:"butImusttellyouquitedefinitelythatIfeelittobemydutytoforbidanysuchexploit。"
"Damn!"heremarkedatthedefacedletter;and,takingafreshsheet,herecopiedwhathehadwritten。Acertainirritationcreptintohismannerashedidso。
"Iregretthatyoushouldeverhaveproposedit,"hewenton。
Hemeditated,andbegananewparagraph。
"Thefactofitis,andthisabsurdprojectofyoursonlybringsittoahead,youhavebeguntogetholdofsomeveryqueerideasaboutwhatayoungladyinyourpositionmayormaynotventuretodo。Idonotthinkyouquiteunderstandmyidealsorwhatisbecomingasbetweenfatheranddaughter。Yourattitudetome——"
Hefellintoabrownstudy。Itwassodifficulttoputprecisely。
"——andyouraunt——"
Foratimehesearchedforthemotjuste。Thenhewenton:
"——and,indeed,tomostoftheestablishedthingsinlifeis,frankly,unsatisfactory。Youarerestless,aggressive,criticalwithallthecrudeunthinkingcriticismofyouth。Youhavenograspupontheessentialfactsoflife(IprayGodyounevermay),andinyourrashignoranceyouarepreparedtodashintopositionsthatmayendinlifelongregret。Thelifeofayounggirlissetaboutwithprowlingpitfalls。"
HewasarrestedforamomentbyanindistinctpictureofVeronicareadingthislastsentence。Buthewasnowtoodeeplymovedtotraceacertainunsatisfactorinesstoitssourceinamixtureofmetaphors。"Well,"hesaid,argumentatively,"itIS。That’sallaboutit。It’stimesheknew。"
"Thelifeofayounggirlissetaboutwithprowlingpitfalls,fromwhichshemustbeshieldedatallcosts。"
Hislipstightened,andhefrownedwithsolemnresolution。
"SolongasIamyourfather,solongasyourlifeisentrustedtomycare,Ifeelboundbyeveryobligationtousemyauthoritytocheckthisodddispositionofyourstowardextravagantenterprises。Adaywillcomewhenyouwillthankme。Itisnot,mydearVeronica,thatIthinkthereisanyharminyou;thereisnot。Butagirlissoilednotonlybyevilbutbytheproximityofevil,andareputationforrashnessmaydoherasseriousaninjuryasreallyreprehensibleconduct。SodopleasebelievethatinthismatterIamactingforthebest。"
Hesignedhisnameandreflected。Thenheopenedthestudydoorandcalled"Mollie!"andreturnedtoassumeanattitudeofauthorityonthehearthrug,beforetheblueflamesandorangeglowofthegasfire。
Hissisterappeared。
Shewasdressedinoneofthosecomplicateddressesthatarealllaceandworkandconfusedpatterningsofblackandpurpleandcreamaboutthebody,andshewasinmanywaysayoungerfeminineversionofthesamethemeashimself。Shehadthesamesharpnose——which,indeed,onlyAnnVeronica,ofallthefamily,hadescaped。Shecarriedherselfwell,whereasherbrotherslouched,andtherewasacertainaristocraticdignityaboutherthatshehadacquiredthroughherlongengagementtoacurateoffamily,ascionoftheWiltshireEdmondshaws。Hehaddiedbeforetheymarried,andwhenherbrotherbecameawidowershehadcometohisassistanceandtakenovermuchofthecareofhisyoungestdaughter。Butfromthefirstherratherold-fashionedconceptionoflifehadjarredwiththesuburbanatmosphere,theHighSchoolspiritandthememoriesofthelightandlittleMrs。Stanley,whosefamilyhadbeenbyanyreckoninginconsiderable——tousethekindliestterm。MissStanleyhaddeterminedfromtheoutsettohavethewarmestaffectionforheryoungestnieceandtobeasecondmotherinherlife——asecondandabetterone;butshehadfoundmuchtobattlewith,andtherewasmuchinherselfthatAnnVeronicafailedtounderstand。Shecameinnowwithanairofreservedsolicitude。
Mr。Stanleypointedtotheletterwithapipehehaddrawnfromhisjacketpocket。"Whatdoyouthinkofthat?"heasked。
Shetookitupinhermany-ringedhandsandreaditjudicially。
Hefilledhispipeslowly。
"Yes,"shesaidatlast,"itisfirmandaffectionate。"
"Icouldhavesaidmore。"
"Youseemtohavesaidjustwhathadtobesaid。Itseemstomeexactlywhatiswanted。Shereallymustnotgotothataffair。"
Shepaused,andhewaitedforhertospeak。
"Idon’tthinkshequiteseestheharmofthosepeopleorthesortoflifetowhichtheywoulddrawher,"shesaid。"Theywouldspoileverychance。"
"Shehaschances?"hesaid,helpingherout。
"Sheisanextremelyattractivegirl,"shesaid;andadded,"tosomepeople。Ofcourse,onedoesn’tliketotalkaboutthingsuntiltherearethingstotalkabout。"
"Allthemorereasonwhysheshouldn’tgetherselftalkedabout。"
"ThatisexactlywhatIfeel。"
Mr。Stanleytooktheletterandstoodwithitinhishandthoughtfullyforatime。"I’dgiveanything,"heremarked,"toseeourlittleVeehappilyandcomfortablymarried。"
Hegavethenotetotheparlormaidthenextmorninginaninadvertent,casualmannerjustashewasleavingthehousetocatchhisLondontrain。WhenAnnVeronicagotitshehadatfirstawild,fantasticideathatitcontainedatip。
Part5
AnnVeronica’sresolvetohavethingsoutwithherfatherwasnotaccomplishedwithoutdifficulty。
HewasnotduefromtheCityuntilaboutsix,andsoshewentandplayedBadmintonwiththeWidgettgirlsuntildinner-time。Theatmosphereatdinnerwasnotpropitious。Herauntwasblandlyamiableaboveacertaintremulousundertow,andtalkedasiftoacalleraboutthealarmingspreadofmarigoldsthatsummerattheendofthegarden,asortofYellowPeriltoallthesmallerhardyannuals,whileherfatherbroughtsomepaperstotableandpresentedhimselfaspreoccupiedwiththem。"Itreallyseemsasifweshallhavetoputdownmarigoldsaltogethernextyear,"
AuntMollyrepeatedthreetimes,"anddoawaywithmarguerites。
Theyseedbeyondallreason。"Elizabeth,theparlormaid,keptcomingintohandvegetableswheneverthereseemedachanceofAnnVeronicaaskingforaninterview。DirectlydinnerwasoverMr。Stanley,havingpretendedtolingertosmoke,fledsuddenlyup-stairstopetrography,andwhenVeronicatappedheansweredthroughthelockeddoor,"Goaway,Vee!I’mbusy,"andmadealapidary’swheelbuzzloudly。
Breakfast,too,wasanimpossibleoccasion。HereadtheTimeswithanunusuallypassionateintentness,andthendeclaredsuddenlyfortheearlierofthetwotrainsheused。
"I’llcometothestation,"saidAnnVeronica。"Imayaswellcomeupbythistrain。"
"Imayhavetorun,"saidherfather,withanappealtohiswatch。
"I’llrun,too,"shevolunteered。
Insteadofwhichtheywalkedsharply……
"Isay,daddy,"shebegan,andwassuddenlyshortofbreath。
"Ifit’saboutthatdanceproject,"hesaid,"it’snogood,Veronica。I’vemadeupmymind。"
"You’llmakemelookafoolbeforeallmyfriends。"
"Youshouldn’thavemadeanengagementuntilyou’dconsultedyouraunt。"
"IthoughtIwasoldenough,"shegasped,betweenlaughterandcrying。
Herfather’sstepquickenedtoatrot。"Iwon’thaveyouquarrellingandcryingintheAvenue,"hesaid。"Stopit!……
Ifyou’vegotanythingtosay,youmustsayittoyouraunt——"
"Butlookhere,daddy!"
HeflappedtheTimesatherwithanimperiousgesture。
"It’ssettled。You’renottogo。You’reNOTtogo。"
"Butit’saboutotherthings。"
"Idon’tcare。Thisisn’ttheplace。"
"ThenmayIcometothestudyto-night——afterdinner?"
"I’m——BUSY!"
"It’simportant。IfIcan’ttalkanywhereelse——IDOwantanunderstanding。"
Aheadofthemwalkedagentlemanwhomitwasevidenttheymustattheirpresentpaceveryspeedilyovertake。ItwasRamage,theoccupantofthebighouseattheendoftheAvenue。HehadrecentlymadeMr。Stanley’sacquaintanceinthetrainandshownhimoneortwotriflingcivilities。Hewasanoutsidebrokerandtheproprietorofafinancialnewspaper;hehadcomeupveryrapidlyinthelastfewyears,andMr。Stanleyadmiredanddetestedhiminalmostequalmeasure。Itwasintolerabletothinkthathemightoverhearwordsandphrases。Mr。Stanley’spaceslackened。
"You’venorighttobadgermelikethis,Veronica,"hesaid。"I
can’tseewhatpossiblebenefitcancomeofdiscussingthingsthataresettled。Ifyouwantadvice,yourauntistheperson。
However,ifyoumustairyouropinions——"
"To-night,then,daddy!"
Hemadeanangrybutconceivablyanassentingnoise,andthenRamageglancedbackandstopped,salutedelaborately,andwaitedforthemtocomeup。Hewasasquare-facedmanofnearlyfifty,withiron-grayhairamobile,clean-shavenmouthandratherprotuberantblackeyesthatnowscrutinizedAnnVeronica。HedressedratherafterthefashionoftheWestEndthantheCity,andaffectedaculturedurbanitythatsomehowdisconcertedandalwaysannoyedAnnVeronica’sfatherextremely。Hedidnotplaygolf,buttookhisexerciseonhorseback,whichwasalsounsympathetic。
"StuffythesetreesmaketheAvenue,"saidMr。Stanleyastheydrewalongside,toaccountforhisownruffledandheatedexpression。"Theyoughttohavebeenloppedinthespring。"
"There’splentyoftime,"saidRamage。"IsMissStanleycomingupwithus?"
"Igosecond,"shesaid,"andchangeatWimbledon。"
"We’llallgosecond,"saidRamage,"ifwemay?"
Mr。Stanleywantedtoobjectstrongly,butashecouldnotimmediatelythinkhowtoputit,hecontentedhimselfwithagrunt,andthemotionwascarried。"How’sMrs。Ramage?"heasked。
"Verymuchasusual,"saidRamage。"Shefindslyingupsomuchveryirksome。But,yousee,sheHAStolieup。"
Thetopicofhisinvalidwifeboredhim,andheturnedatoncetoAnnVeronica。"AndwhereareYOUgoing?"hesaid。"Areyougoingonagainthiswinterwiththatscientificworkofyours?
It’saninstanceofheredity,Isuppose。"ForamomentMr。
StanleyalmostlikedRamage。"You’reabiologist,aren’tyou?"
Hebegantotalkofhisownimpressionsofbiologyasacommonplacemagazinereaderwhohadtogetwhathecouldfromthemonthlyreviews,andwasgladtomeetwithanyinformationfromnearerthefountainhead。Inalittlewhileheandsheweretalkingquiteeasilyandagreeably。Theywentontalkinginthetrain——itseemedtoherfatheraslightwantofdeferencetohim——andhelistenedandpretendedtoreadtheTimes。HewasstruckdisagreeablybyRamage’sairofgallantconsiderationandAnnVeronica’sself-possessedanswers。Thesethingsdidnotharmonizewithhisconceptionoftheforthcoming(ifunavoidable)
interview。Afterall,itcametohimsuddenlyasaharshdiscoverythatshemightbeinasenseregardedasgrownup。Hewasamanwhoinallthingsclassifiedwithoutnuance,andforhimtherewereinthematterofagejusttwofeminineclassesandnomore——girlsandwomen。Thedistinctionlaychieflyintherighttopattheirheads。Butherewasagirl——shemustbeagirl,sinceshewashisdaughterandpat-able——imitatingthewomanquiteremarkablyandcleverly。Heresumedhislistening。
Shewasdiscussingoneofthosemodernadvancedplayswitharemarkable,withanextraordinary,confidence。
"Hislove-making,"sheremarked,"struckmeasunconvincing。Heseemedtoonoisy。"
Thefullsignificanceofherwordsdidnotinstantlyappeartohim。Thenitdawned。Goodheavens!Shewasdiscussinglove-making。Foratimeheheardnomore,andstaredwithstonyeyesataBook-WarproclamationinleadedtypethatfilledhalfacolumnoftheTimesthatday。Couldsheunderstandwhatshewastalkingabout?Luckilyitwasasecond-classcarriageandtheordinaryfellow-travellerswerenotthere。Everybody,hefelt,mustbelisteningbehindtheirpapers。
Ofcourse,girlsrepeatphrasesandopinionsofwhichtheycannotpossiblyunderstandthemeaning。Butamiddle-agedmanlikeRamageoughttoknowbetterthantodrawoutagirl,thedaughterofafriendandneighbor……
Well,afterall,heseemedtobeturningthesubject。"Broddickisaheavyman,"hewassaying,"andthemaininterestoftheplaywastheembezzlement。"ThankHeaven!Mr。Stanleyallowedhispapertodropalittle,andscrutinizedthehatsandbrowsoftheirthreefellow-travellers。
TheyreachedWimbledon,andRamagewhippedouttohandMissStanleytotheplatformasthoughshehadbeenaduchess,andshedescendedasthoughsuchattentionsfrommiddle-aged,butstillgallant,merchantswereamatterofcourse。Then,asRamagereadjustedhimselfinacorner,heremarked:"Theseyoungpeopleshootup,Stanley。ItseemsonlyyesterdaythatshewasrunningdowntheAvenue,allhairandlegs。"
Mr。Stanleyregardedhimthroughhisglasseswithsomethingapproachinganimosity。
"Nowshe’sallhatandideas,"hesaid,withanairofhumor。
"Sheseemsanunusuallyclevergirl,"saidRamage。
Mr。Stanleyregardedhisneighbor’sclean-shavenfacealmostwarily。"I’mnotsurewhetherwedon’tratheroverdoallthishighereducation,"hesaid,withaneffectofconveyingprofoundmeanings。
Part6
Hebecamequitesure,byasortofaccumulationofreflection,asthedayworeon。Hefoundhisyoungestdaughterintrusiveinhisthoughtsallthroughthemorning,andstillmoresointheafternoon。Hesawheryoungandgracefulbackasshedescendedfromthecarriage,severelyignoringhim,andrecalledaglimpsehehadofherface,brightandserene,ashistrainranoutofWimbledon。Herecalledwithexasperatingperplexityherclear,matter-of-facttoneasshetalkedaboutlove-makingbeingunconvincing。Hewasreallyveryproudofher,andextraordinarilyangryandresentfulattheinnocentandaudaciousself-reliancethatseemedtointimatehersenseofabsoluteindependenceofhim,herabsolutesecuritywithouthim。Afterall,sheonlyLOOKEDawoman。Shewasrashandignorant,absolutelyinexperienced。Absolutely。Hebegantothinkofspeeches,veryfirm,explicitspeeches,hewouldmake。
HelunchedintheLegalClubinChanceryLane,andmetOgilvy。
Daughterswereintheairthatday。Ogilvywasfullofaclient’stroubleinthatmatter,agraveandeventragictrouble。Hetoldsomeoftheparticulars。
"Curiouscase,"saidOgilvy,butteringhisbreadandcuttingitupinawayhehad。"Curiouscase——andsetsonethinking。"
Heresumed,afteramouthful:"Hereisagirlofsixteenorseventeen,seventeenandahalftobeexact,runningabout,asonemightsay,inLondon。Schoolgirl。HerfamilyaresolidWestEndpeople,Kensingtonpeople。Father——dead。Shegoesoutandcomeshome。AfterwardgoesontoOxford。Twenty-one,twenty-two。
Whydoesn’tshemarry?Plentyofmoneyunderherfather’swill。
Charminggirl。"
HeconsumedIrishstewforsomemoments。
"Marriedalready,"hesaid,withhismouthfull。"Shopman。"
"GoodGod!"saidMr。Stanley。
"Good-lookingrascalshemetatWorthing。Veryromanticandallthat。Hefixedit。"
"But——"
"Heleftheralone。Pureromanticnonsenseonherpart。Sheercalculationonhis。WentuptoSomersetHousetoexaminethewillbeforehedidit。Yes。Niceposition。"
"Shedoesn’tcareforhimnow?"
"Notabit。Whatagirlofsixteencaresforishairandahighcolorandmoonlightandatenorvoice。Isupposemostofourdaughterswouldmarryorgan-grindersiftheyhadachance——atthatage。Mysonwantedtomarryawomanofthirtyinatobacconist’sshop。Onlyason’sanotherstory。Wefixedthat。
Well,that’sthesituation。Mypeopledon’tknowwhattodo。
Can’tfaceascandal。Can’taskthegenttogoabroadandcondoneabigamy。Hemisstatedherageandaddress;butyoucan’tgethomeonhimforathinglikethat……Thereyouare!Girlspoiltforlife。MakesonewanttogobacktotheOrientalsystem!"
Mr。Stanleypouredwine。"DamnedRascal!"hesaid。"Isn’tthereabrothertokickhim?"
"Meresatisfaction,"reflectedOgilvy。"Meresensuality。I
ratherthinktheyhavekickedhim,fromthetoneofsomeoftheletters。Nice,ofcourse。Butitdoesn’talterthesituation。"
"It’stheseRascals,"saidMr。Stanley,andpaused。
"Alwayshasbeen,"saidOgilvy。"Ourinterestliesinheadingthemoff。"
"Therewasatimewhengirlsdidn’tgettheseextravagantideas。"
"LydiaLanguish,forexample。Anyhow,theydidn’trunaboutsomuch。"
"Yes。That’saboutthebeginning。It’sthesedamnednovels。Allthistorrentofmisleading,spuriousstuffthatpoursfromthepress。Theseshamidealsandadvancednotions。WomenwhoDids,andallthatkindofthing……"
Ogilvyreflected。"Thisgirl——she’sreallyaverycharming,frankperson——hadhadherimaginationfired,soshetoldme,byaschoolperformanceofRomeoandJuliet。"
Mr。Stanleydecidedtotreatthatasirrelevant。"ThereoughttobeaCensorshipofBooks。Wewantitbadlyatthepresenttime。
EvenWITHtheCensorshipofPlaysthere’shardlyadecentthingtowhichamancantakehiswifeanddaughters,acreepingtaintofsuggestioneverywhere。Whatwoulditbewithoutthatsafeguard?"
Ogilvypursuedhisowntopic。"I’minclinedtothink,Stanley,myselfthatasamatteroffactitwastheexpurgatedRomeoandJulietdidthemischief。Ifouryoungpersonhadn’thadthenursepartcutout,eh?Shemighthaveknownmoreanddoneless。
Iwascuriousaboutthat。Alltheyleftitwasthemoonandstars。Andthebalconyand’MyRomeo!’"
"Shakespeareisaltogetherdifferentfromthemodernstuff。
Altogetherdifferent。I’mnotdiscussingShakespeare。Idon’twanttoBowdlerizeShakespeare。I’mnotthatsortIquiteagree。
Butthismodernmiasma——"
Mr。Stanleytookmustardsavagely。
"Well,wewon’tgointoShakespeare,"saidOgilvy"Whatinterestsmeisthatouryoungwomennowadaysarerunningaboutasfreeasairpractically,withregistryofficesandallsortsofaccommodationroundthecorner。Nothingtochecktheirproceedingsbutadeclininghabitoftellingthetruthandthelimitationsoftheirimaginations。Andinthatrespecttheystiruponeanother。Notmyaffair,ofcourse,butIthinkweoughttoteachthemmoreorrestrainthemmore。Oneortheother。
They’retoofreefortheirinnocenceortooinnocentfortheirfreedom。That’smypoint。Areyougoingtohaveanyapple-tart,Stanley?Theapple-tart’sbeenverygoodlately——verygood!"
Part7
AttheendofdinnerthateveningAnnVeronicabegan:"Father!"
Herfatherlookedatheroverhisglassesandspokewithgravedeliberation;"Ifthereisanythingyouwanttosaytome,"hesaid,"youmustsayitinthestudy。Iamgoingtosmokealittlehere,andthenIshallgotothestudy。Idon’tseewhatyoucanhavetosay。Ishouldhavethoughtmynoteclearedupeverything。TherearesomepapersIhavetolookthroughto-night——importantpapers。"
"Iwon’tkeepyouverylong,daddy,"saidAnnVeronica。
"Idon’tsee,Mollie,"heremarked,takingacigarfromtheboxonthetableashissisteranddaughterrose,"whyyouandVeeshouldn’tdiscussthislittleaffair——whateveritis——withoutbotheringme。"
Itwasthefirsttimethiscontroversyhadbecometriangular,forallthreeofthemwereshybyhabit。
Hestoppedinmid-sentence,andAnnVeronicaopenedthedoorforheraunt。Theairwasthickwithfeelings。Herauntwentoutoftheroomwithdignityandarustle,andup-stairstothefastnessofherownroom。Sheagreedentirelywithherbrother。Itdistressedandconfusedherthatthegirlshouldnotcometoher。
Itseemedtoshowawantofaffection,tobeadeliberateandunmeriteddisregard,tojustifythereprisalofbeinghurt。
WhenAnnVeronicacameintothestudyshefoundeveryevidenceofacarefullyforeseengroupingaboutthegasfire。Botharm-chairshadbeenmovedalittlesoastofaceeachotheroneithersideofthefender,andinthecircularglowofthegreen-shadedlamptherelay,conspicuouslywaiting,athickbundleofblueandwhitepaperstiedwithpinktape。Herfatherheldsomeprinteddocumentinhishand,andappearednottoobserveherentry。"Sitdown,"hesaid,andperused——"perused"
isthewordforit——forsomemoments。Thenheputthepaperby。
"Andwhatisitallabout,Veronica?"heasked,withadeliberatenoteofirony,lookingatheralittlequizzicallyoverhisglasses。
AnnVeronicalookedbrightandalittleelated,andshedisregardedherfather’sinvitationtobeseated。Shestoodonthematinstead,andlookeddownonhim。"Lookhere,daddy,"shesaid,inatoneofgreatreasonableness,"IMUSTgotothatdance,youknow。"
Herfather’sironydeepened。"Why?"heasked,suavely。
Heranswerwasnotquiteready。"Well,becauseIdon’tseeanyreasonwhyIshouldn’t。"
"YouseeIdo。"
"Whyshouldn’tIgo?"
"Itisn’tasuitableplace;itisn’tasuitablegathering。"
"But,daddy,whatdoyouknowoftheplaceandthegathering?"
"Andit’sentirelyoutoforder;itisn’tright,itisn’tcorrect;it’simpossibleforyoutostayinanhotelinLondon——theideaispreposterous。Ican’timaginewhatpossessedyou,Veronica。"
Heputhisheadononeside,pulleddownthecornersofhismouth,andlookedatheroverhisglasses。
"Butwhyisitpreposterous?"askedAnnVeronica,andfiddledwithapipeonthemantel。
"Surely!"heremarked,withanexpressionofworriedappeal。
"Yousee,daddy,Idon’tthinkitISpreposterous。That’sreallywhatIwanttodiscuss。Itcomestothis——amItobetrustedtotakecareofmyself,oramInot?"
"Tojudgefromthisproposalofyours,Ishouldsaynot。"
"IthinkIam。"
"Aslongasyouremainundermyroof——"hebegan,andpaused。
"YouaregoingtotreatmeasthoughIwasn’t。Well,Idon’tthinkthat’sfair。"
"Yourideasoffairness——"heremarked,anddiscontinuedthatsentence。"Mydeargirl,"hesaid,inatoneofpatientreasonableness,"youareamerechild。Youknownothingoflife,nothingofitsdangers,nothingofitspossibilities。Youthinkeverythingisharmlessandsimple,andsoforth。Itisn’t。Itisn’t。That’swhereyougowrong。Insomethings,inmanythings,youmusttrusttoyourelders,tothosewhoknowmoreoflifethanyoudo。YourauntandIhavediscussedallthismatter。Thereitis。Youcan’tgo。"
Theconversationhungforamoment。AnnVeronicatriedtokeepholdofacomplicatedsituationandnotloseherhead。Shehadturnedroundsideways,soastolookdownintothefire。
"Yousee,father,"shesaid,"itisn’tonlythisaffairofthedance。Iwanttogotothatbecauseit’sanewexperience,becauseIthinkitwillbeinterestingandgivemeaviewofthings。YousayIknownothing。That’sprobablytrue。ButhowamItoknowofthings?"
"SomethingsIhopeyoumayneverknow,"hesaid。
"I’mnotsosure。Iwanttoknow——justasmuchasIcan。"
"Tut!"hesaid,fuming,andputouthishandtothepapersinthepinktape。
"Well,Ido。It’sjustthatIwanttosay。Iwanttobeahumanbeing;Iwanttolearnaboutthingsandknowaboutthings,andnottobeprotectedassomethingtoopreciousforlife,coopedupinonenarrowlittlecorner。"
"Coopedup!"hecried。"DidIstandinthewayofyourgoingtocollege?HaveIeverpreventedyougoingaboutatanyreasonablehour?You’vegotabicycle!"
"H’m!"saidAnnVeronica,andthenwenton"Iwanttobetakenseriously。Agirl——atmyage——isgrown-up。IwanttogoonwithmyUniversityworkunderproperconditions,nowthatI’vedonetheIntermediate。Itisn’tasthoughIhaven’tdonewell。I’venevermuffedanexam。yet。Roddymuffedtwo……"
Herfatherinterrupted。"Nowlookhere,Veronica,letusbeplainwitheachother。YouarenotgoingtothatinfidelRussell’sclasses。YouarenotgoinganywherebuttotheTredgoldCollege。I’vethoughtthatout,andyoumustmakeupyourmindtoit。Allsortsofconsiderationscomein。Whileyouliveinmyhouseyoumustfollowmyideas。Youarewrongevenaboutthatman’sscientificpositionandhisstandardofwork。
TherearemenintheLowndeanwholaughathim——simplylaughathim。AndIhaveseenworkbyhispupilsmyselfthatstruckmeasbeing——well,nextdoortoshameful。There’sstories,too,abouthisdemonstrator,CapesSomethingorother。Thekindofmanwhoisn’tcontentwithhisscience,andwritesarticlesinthemonthlyreviews。Anyhow,thereitis:YOUARENOTGOINGTHERE。"
Thegirlreceivedthisintimationinsilence。butthefacethatlookeddownuponthegasfiretookanexpressionofobstinacythatbroughtoutahithertolatentresemblancebetweenparentandchild。Whenshespoke,herlipstwitched。
"ThenIsupposewhenIhavegraduatedIamtocomehome?"
"Itseemsthenaturalcourse"
"Anddonothing?"
"Thereareplentyofthingsagirlcanfindtodoathome。"
"Untilsomeonetakespityonmeandmarriesme?"
Heraisedhiseyebrowsinmildappeal。Hisfoottappedimpatiently,andhetookupthepapers。
"Lookhere,father,"shesaid,withachangeinhervoice,"supposeIwon’tstandit?"
Heregardedherasthoughthiswasanewidea。
"Suppose,forexample,Igotothisdance?"
"Youwon’t。"
"Well"——herbreathfailedherforamoment。"Howwouldyoupreventit?"sheasked。
"ButIhaveforbiddenit!"hesaid,raisinghisvoice。
"Yes,Iknow。ButsupposeIgo?"
"Now,Veronica!No,no。Thiswon’tdo。Understandme!I
forbidit。Idonotwanttohearfromyoueventhethreatofdisobedience。"Hespokeloudly。"Thethingisforbidden!"
"Iamreadytogiveupanythingthatyoushowtobewrong。"
"YouwillgiveupanythingIwishyoutogiveup。"
Theystaredateachotherthroughapause,andbothfaceswereflushedandobstinate。
Shewastryingbysomewonderful,secret,andmotionlessgymnasticstorestrainhertears。Butwhenshespokeherlipsquivered,andtheycame。"Imeantogotothatdance!"sheblubbered。"Imeantogotothatdance!Imeanttoreasonwithyou,butyouwon’treason。You’redogmatic。"
Atthesightofhertearshisexpressionchangedtoaminglingoftriumphandconcern。Hestoodup,apparentlyintendingtoputanarmabouther,butshesteppedbackfromhimquickly。Sheproducedahandkerchief,andwithonesweepofthisandasimultaneousgulphadabolishedherfitofweeping。Hisvoicenowhadlostitsironies。
"Now,Veronica,"hepleaded,"Veronica,thisismostunreasonable。Allwedoisforyourgood。NeitheryourauntnorIhaveanyotherthoughtbutwhatisbestforyou。"
"Onlyyouwon’tletmelive。Onlyyouwon’tletmeexist!"
Mr。Stanleylostpatience。Hebulliedfrankly。
"Whatnonsenseisthis?Whatraving!Mydearchild,youDO
live,youDOexist!Youhavethishome。Youhavefriends,acquaintances,socialstanding,brothersandsisters,everyadvantage!Insteadofwhich,youwanttogotosomemixedclassesorotherandcutuprabbitsanddanceaboutatnightsinwildcostumeswithcasualartstudentfriendsandGodknowswho。
That——thatisn’tliving!Youarebesideyourself。Youdon’tknowwhatyouasknorwhatyousay。Youhaveneitherreasonnorlogic。Iamsorrytoseemtohurtyou,butallIsayisforyourgood。YouMUSTnot,youSHALLnotgo。OnthisIamresolved。I
putmyfootdownlike——likeadamant。Andatimewillcome,Veronica,markmywords,atimewillcomewhenyouwillblessmeformyfirmnessto-night。Itgoestomyhearttodisappointyou,butthisthingmustnotbe。"
Hesidledtowardher,butsherecoiledfromhim,leavinghiminpossessionofthehearth-rug。
"Well,"shesaid,"good-night,father。"
"What!"heasked;"notakiss?"
Sheaffectednottohear。
Thedoorclosedsoftlyuponher。Foralongtimeheremainedstandingbeforethefire,staringatthesituation。Thenhesatdownandfilledhispipeslowlyandthoughtfully……
"Idon’tseewhatelseIcouldhavesaid,"heremarked。
CHAPTERTHESECOND
ANNVERONICAGATHERSPOINTSOFVIEW
Part1
"AreyoucomingtotheFaddenDance,AnnVeronica?"askedConstanceWidgett。
AnnVeronicaconsideredheranswer。"Imeanto,"shereplied。
"Youaremakingyourdress?"
"Suchasitis。"
TheywereintheelderWidgettgirl’sbedroom;Hettywaslaidup,shesaid,withasprainedankle,andamiscellaneouspartywasgossipingawayhertedium。Itwasalarge,littered,self-forgetfulapartment,decoratedwithunframedcharcoalsketchesbyvariousincipientmasters;andanopenbookcase,surmountedbyplastercastsandthehalfofahumanskull,displayedanoddmiscellanyofbooks——ShawandSwinburne,TomJones,FabianEssays,PopeandDumas,cheekbyjowl。ConstanceWidgett’sabundantcopper-redhairwasbentdownoversomedimlyremunerativework——stencillingincolorsuponrough,whitematerial——atakitchentableshehaddraggedup-stairsforthepurpose,whileonherbedtherewasseatedaslenderladyofthirtyorsoinadingygreendress,whomConstancehadintroducedwithawaveofherhandasMissMiniver。MissMiniverlookedoutontheworldthroughlargeemotionalblueeyesthatwerefurthermagnifiedbytheglassesshewore,andhernosewaspinchedandpink,andhermouthwaswhimsicallypetulant。Herglassesmovedquicklyasherglancetravelledfromfacetoface。
Sheseemedburstingwiththedesiretotalk,andwatchingforheropportunity。Onherlapelwasanivorybutton,bearingthewords"VotesforWomen。"AnnVeronicasatatthefootofthesufferer’sbed,whileTeddyWidgett,beingsomethingofanathlete,occupiedtheonlybed-roomchair——adecadentpiece,essentiallyatripodandlargelyaformality——andsmokedcigarettes,andtriedtoconcealthefactthathewaslookingallthetimeatAnnVeronica’seyebrows。TeddywasthehatlessyoungmanwhohadturnedAnnVeronicaasidefromtheAvenuetwodaysbefore。Hewasthejuniorofbothhissisters,co-educatedandmuchbrokenintofemininesociety。Abowlofroses,justbroughtbyAnnVeronica,adornedthecommunaldressing-table,andAnnVeronicawasparticularlytriminpreparationforacallshewastomakewithherauntlaterintheafternoon。
AnnVeronicadecidedtobemoreexplicit。"I’vebeen,"shesaid,"forbiddentocome。"
"Hul-LO!"saidHetty,turningherheadonthepillow;andTeddyremarkedwithprofoundemotion,"MyGod!"
"Yes,"saidAnnVeronica,"andthatcomplicatesthesituation。"
"Auntie?"askedConstance,whowasconversantwithAnnVeronica’saffairs。
"No!Myfather。It’s——it’saseriousprohibition。"
"Why?"askedHetty。
"That’sthepoint。Iaskedhimwhy,andhehadn’tareason。"
"YOUASKEDYOURFATHERFORAREASON!"saidMissMiniver,withgreatintensity。
"Yes。Itriedtohaveitoutwithhim,buthewouldn’thaveitout。"AnnVeronicareflectedforaninstant"That’swhyIthinkIoughttocome。"
"Youaskedyourfatherforareason!"MissMiniverrepeated。
"WealwayshavethingsoutwithOURfather,poordear!"saidHetty。"He’sgotalmosttolikeit。"
"Men,"saidMissMiniver,"NEVERhaveareason。Never!Andtheydon’tknowit!Theyhavenoideaofit。It’soneoftheirworsttraits,oneoftheirveryworst。"
"ButIsay,Vee,"saidConstance,"ifyoucomeandyouareforbiddentocomethere’llbethedeuceofarow。"
AnnVeronicawasdecidingforfurtherconfidences。Hersituationwasperplexingherverymuch,andtheWidgettatmospherewaslaxandsympathetic,andprovocativeofdiscussion。"Itisn’tonlythedance,"shesaid。
"There’stheclasses,"saidConstance,thewell-informed。
"There’sthewholesituation。ApparentlyI’mnottoexistyet。
I’mnottostudy,I’mnottogrow。I’vegottostayathomeandremaininastateofsuspendedanimation。"
"DUSTING!"saidMissMiniver,inasepulchralvoice。
"Untilyoumarry,Vee,"saidHetty。
"Well,Idon’tfeellikestandingit。"
"Thousandsofwomenhavemarriedmerelyforfreedom,"saidMissMiniver。"Thousands!Ugh!Andfounditaworseslavery。"
"Isuppose,"saidConstance,stencillingawayatbrightpinkpetals,"it’sourlot。Butit’sverybeastly。"
"What’sourlot?"askedhersister。
"Slavery!Downtroddenness!WhenIthinkofitIfeelalloverbootmarks——men’sboots。Wehideitbravely,butsoitis。
Damn!I’vesplashed。"
MissMiniver’smannerbecameimpressive。SheaddressedAnnVeronicawithanairofconveyinggreatopensecretstoher。"Asthingsareatpresent,"shesaid,"itistrue。Weliveunderman-madeinstitutions,andthatiswhattheyamountto。Everygirlintheworldpractically,exceptafewofuswhoteachortype-write,andthenwe’reunderpaidandsweated——it’sdreadfultothinkhowwearesweated!"Shehadlosthergeneralization,whateveritwas。Shehungforamoment,andthenwenton,conclusively,"UntilwehavethevotethatishowthingsWILL
be。"
"I’mallforthevote,"saidTeddy。
"IsupposeagirlMUSTbeunderpaidandsweated,"saidAnnVeronica。"Isupposethere’snowayofgettingadecentincome——independently。"
"WomenhavepracticallyNOeconomicfreedom,"saidMissMiniver,"becausetheyhavenopoliticalfreedom。Menhaveseentothat。
Theoneprofession,theonedecentprofession,Imean,forawoman——exceptthestage——isteaching,andtherewetrampleononeanother。Everywhereelse——thelaw,medicine,theStockExchange——prejudicebarsus。"
"There’sart,"saidAnnVeronica,"andwriting。"
"Everyonehasn’ttheGift。Eventhereawomannevergetsafairchance。Menareagainsther。Whatevershedoesisminimized。
Allthebestnovelshavebeenwrittenbywomen,andyetseehowmensneerattheladynoveliststill!There’sonlyonewaytogetonforawoman,andthatistopleasemen。Thatiswhattheythinkwearefor!"
"We’rebeasts,"saidTeddy。"Beasts!"
ButMissMinivertooknonoticeofhisadmission。
"Ofcourse,"saidMissMiniver——shewentoninaregularlyundulatingvoice——"weDOpleasemen。Wehavethatgift。Wecanseeroundthemandbehindthemandthroughthem,andmostofususethatknowledge,inthesilentwaywehave,forourgreatends。Notallofus,butsomeofus。Toomany。Iwonderwhatmenwouldsayifwethrewthemaskaside——ifwereallytoldthemwhatWEthoughtofthem,reallyshowedthemwhatWEwere。"A
flushofexcitementcreptintohercheeks。
"Maternity,"shesaid,"hasbeenourundoing。"
Fromthatsheopenedoutintoalong,confusedemphaticdiscourseonthepositionofwomen,fullofwonderfulstatements,whileConstanceworkedatherstencillingandAnnVeronicaandHettylistened,andTeddycontributedsympatheticnoisesandconsumedcheapcigarettes。Asshetalkedshemadeweaklittlegestureswithherhands,andshethrustherfaceforwardfromherbentshoulders;andshepeeredsometimesatAnnVeronicaandsometimesataphotographoftheAxenstrasse,nearFluelen,thathunguponthewall。AnnVeronicawatchedherface,vaguelysympathizingwithher,vaguelydislikingherphysicalinsufficiencyandherconvulsivemovements,andthefineeyebrowswereknitwithafaintperplexity。Essentiallythetalkwasamixtureoffragmentsofsentencesheard,ofpassagesread,orargumentsindicatedratherthanstated,andallofitwasservedinasauceofstrangeenthusiasm,thinyetintense。AnnVeronicahadhadsometrainingattheTredgoldCollegeindisentanglingthreadsfromconfusedstatements,andshehadacuriouspersuasionthatinallthisfluentmuddletherewassomething——somethingreal,somethingthatsignified。Butitwasveryhardtofollow。Shedidnotunderstandthenoteofhostilitytomenthatranthroughitall,thebittervindictivenessthatlitMissMiniver’scheeksandeyes,thesenseofsomeatlastinsupportablewrongslowlyaccumulated。Shehadnoinklingofthatinsupportablewrong。
"Wearethespecies,"saidMissMiniver,"menareonlyincidents。
Theygivethemselvesairs,butsoitis。Inallthespeciesofanimalsthefemalesaremoreimportantthanthemales;themaleshavetopleasethem。Lookatthecock’sfeathers,lookatthecompetitionthereiseverywhere,exceptamonghumans。Thestagsandoxenandthingsallhavetofightforus,everywhere。Onlyinmanisthemalemadethemostimportant。Andthathappensthroughourmaternity;it’sourveryimportancethatdegradesus。
Whileweweremindingthechildrentheystoleourrightsandliberties。Thechildrenmadeusslaves,andthementookadvantageofit。It’s——Mrs。Shalfordsays——theaccidentalconqueringtheessential。Originallyinthefirstanimalstherewerenomales,noneatall。Ithasbeenproved。Thentheyappearamongthelowerthings"——shemademeticulousgesturestofigurethescaleoflife;sheseemedtobeholdingupspecimens,andpeeringthroughherglassesatthem——"amongcrustaceansandthings,justaslittlecreatures,eversoinferiortothefemales。Merehangerson。Thingsyouwouldlaughat。Andamonghumanbeings,too,womentobeginwithweretherulersandleaders;theyownedalltheproperty,theyinventedallthearts。