投诉 阅读记录

第8章

’Shouldwelive……justasweare,exactly,……supposingI

agreed?’shefaintlyinquired。

’Yes,thatismyidea。’

’Quiteprivately,yousay。Howcould——themarriagebequiteprivate?’

’IwouldgoawaytoLondonandgetalicense。Thenyoucouldcometome,andreturnagainimmediatelyaftertheceremony。Icouldreturnatleisureandnotasoulintheworldwouldknowwhathadtakenplace。Think,dearest,withwhatafreeconscienceyoucouldthenassistmeinmyeffortstoplumbthesedeepsaboveus!Anyfeelingthatyoumaynowhaveagainstclandestinemeetingsassuchwouldthenberemoved,andourheartswouldbeatrest。’

Therewasacertainscientificpracticabilityeveninhislove—

making,anditherecameoutexcellently。Butshesatonwithsuspendedbreath,herheartwildlybeating,whilehewaitedinopen—

mouthedexpectation。Eachwasswayedbytheemotionwithinthem,muchasthecandle—flamewasswayedbythetempestwithout。Itwasthemostcriticaleveningoftheirlives。

Thepaleraysofthelittlelanternfelluponherbeautifulface,snuglyandneatlyboundinbyherblackbonnet;butnotabeamofthelanternleakedoutintothenighttosuggesttoanywatchfuleyethathumanlifeatitshighestexcitementwasbeatingwithinthedarkandisolatedtower;forthedomehadnowindows,andeveryshutterthataffordedanopeningforthetelescopewashermeticallyclosed。Predilectionsandmisgivingssoequallystrovewithinherstillyouthfulbreastthatshecouldnotutteraword;herintentionwheeledthiswayandthatlikethebalanceofawatch。Hisunexpectedpropositionhadbroughtaboutthesmartestencounterofinclinationwithprudence,ofimpulsewithreserve,thatshehadeverknown。

Ofallthereasonsthatshehadexpectedhimtogiveforhisurgentrequesttoseeherthisevening,anofferofmarriagewasprobablythelast。Whetherornotshehadeveramusedherselfwithhypotheticalfanciesonsuchasubject,——anditwasonlynaturalthatsheshouldvaguelyhavedoneso,——thecourageinherprotegecoollytoadvanceit,withoutahintfromherselfthatsuchaproposalwouldbetolerated,showedherthattherewasmoreinhischaracterthanshehadreckonedon:andthediscoveryalmostfrightenedher。Thehumour,attitude,andtenorofherattachmenthadbeenofquiteanunpremeditatedquality,unsuggestiveofanysuchaudacioussolutiontotheirdistressesasthis。

’Irepeatmyquestion,dearest,’hesaid,afterherlongpause。

’Shallitbedone?OrshallIexilemyself,andstudyasbestI

can,insomedistantcountry,outofsightandsound?’

’Arethosetheonlyalternatives?Yes,yes;Isupposetheyare!’

Shewaitedyetanothermoment,bentoverhiskneelingfigure,andkissedhisforehead。’Yes;itshallbedone,’shewhispered。’I

willmarryyou。’

’Myangel,Iamcontent!’

Hedrewheryieldingformtohisheart,andherheadsankuponhisshoulder,ashepressedhistwolipscontinuouslyuponhers。Tosuchhadthestudyofcelestialphysicsbroughttheminthespaceofeightmonths,oneweek,andafewodddays。

’Iamweakerthanyou,——fartheweaker,’shewenton,hertearsfalling。’RatherthanloseyououtofmysightIwillmarrywithoutstipulationorcondition。But——Iputittoyourkindness——grantmeonelittlerequest。’

Heinstantlyassented。

’Itisthat,inconsiderationofmypeculiarpositioninthiscounty,——O,youcan’tunderstandit!——youwillnotputanendtotheabsolutesecrecyofourrelationshipwithoutmyfullassent。Also,thatyouwillnevercometoWellandHousewithoutfirstdiscussingwithmetheadvisabilityofthevisit,acceptingmyopiniononthepoint。There,seehowatimidwomantriestofenceherselfin!’

’Mydearlady—love,neitherofthosetwohigh—handedcoursesshouldIhavetaken,evenhadyounotstipulatedagainstthem。Theveryessenceofourmarriageplanisthatthosetwoconditionsarekept。

Iseeaswellasyoudo,evenmorethanyoudo,howimportantitisthatforthepresent,——ay,foralongtimehence——Ishouldstillbebutthecurate’slonelyson,unattachedtoanybodyoranything,withnoobjectofinterestbuthisscience;andyoutherecluseladyofthemanor,towhomheisonlyanacquaintance。’

’Seewhatdeceitslovesowsinhonestminds!’

’ItwouldbeahumiliationtoyouatpresentthatIcouldnotbearifamarriagebetweenusweremadepublic;aninconveniencewithoutanycompensatingadvantage。’

’Iamsogladyouassumeitwithoutmysettingitbeforeyou!NowI

knowyouarenotonlygoodandtrue,butpoliticandtrustworthy。’

’Well,then,hereisourcovenant。Myladyswearstomarryme;I,inreturnforsuchgreatcourtesy,swearnevertocompromiseherbyintrudingatWellandHouse,andtokeepthemarriageconcealedtillIhavewonapositionworthyofher。’

’OrtillIrequestittobemadeknown,’sheadded,possiblyforeseeingacontingencywhichhadnotoccurredtohim。

’Ortillyourequestit,’herepeated。

’Itisagreed,’murmuredLadyConstantine,XVI

Afterthisthereonlyremainedtobesettledbetweenthemthepracticaldetailsoftheproject。

Thesewerethatheshouldleavehomeinacoupleofdays,andtakelodgingseitherinthedistantcityofBathorinaconvenientsuburbofLondon,tillasufficienttimeshouldhaveelapsedtosatisfylegalrequirements;thatonafinemorningattheendofthistimesheshouldhieawaytothesameplace,andbemetatthestationbySt。Cleeve,armedwiththemarriagelicense;whencetheyshouldatonceproceedtothechurchfixeduponfortheceremony;

returninghomeindependentlyinthecourseofthenexttwoorthreedays。

Whilethesetacticswereunderdiscussionthetwo—and—thirtywindsofheavencontinued,asbefore,tobeataboutthetower,thoughtheironsetsappearedtobesomewhatlesseninginforce。Himselfnowcalmedandsatisfied,Swithin,asisthewontofhumanity,tookserenerviewsofNature’scrushingmechanicswithout,andsaid,’Thewinddoesn’tseemdisposedtoputthetragicperiodtoourhopesandfearsthatIspokeofinmymomentarydespair。’

’Thedispositionofthewindisasviciousasever,’sheanswered,lookingintohisfacewithpausingthoughtson,perhaps,othersubjectsthanthatdiscussed。’Itisyourmoodofviewingitthathaschanged。"Thereisnothingeithergoodorbad,butthinkingmakesitso。"’

And,asifflatlytostultifySwithin’sassumption,acircularhurricane,exceedinginviolenceanythathadprecededit,seizedholduponRings—HillSpeeratthatmomentwiththedeterminationofaconsciousagent。Thefirstsensationofaresultingcatastrophewasconveyedtotheirintelligencebytheflappingofthecandle—

flameagainstthelantern—glass;thenthewind,whichhithertotheyhadheardratherthanfelt,rubbedpastthemlikeafugitive。

Swithinbeheldaroundandabovehim,inplaceoftheconcavityofthedome,theopenheaven,withitsracingclouds,remotehorizon,andintermittentgleamofstars。Thedomethathadcoveredthetowerhadbeenwhirledoffbodily;andtheyhearditdescendcrashinguponthetrees。

FindinghimselfuntouchedSwithinstretchedouthisarmstowardsLadyConstantine,whoseapparelhadbeenseizedbythespinningair,nearlyliftingheroffherlegs。She,too,wasasyetunharmed。

Eachheldtheotherforamoment,when,fearingthatsomethingfurtherwouldhappen,theytookshelterinthestaircase。

’Dearest,whatanescape!’hesaid,stillholdingher。

’Whatistheaccident?’sheasked。’Hasthewholetopreallygone?’

’Thedomehasbeenblownofftheroof。’

Assoonasitwaspracticableherelittheextinguishedlantern,andtheyemergedagainupontheleads,wheretheextentofthedisasterbecameatonceapparent。Savingtheabsenceoftheenclosinghemisphereallremainedthesame。Thedome,beingconstructedofwood,waslightbycomparisonwiththerestofthestructure,andthewheelswhichallowedithorizontal,or,asSwithinexpressedit,azimuthmotion,denieditafirmholduponthewalls;sothatithadbeenliftedoffthemlikeacoverfromapot。Theequatorialstoodinthemidstasithadstoodbefore。

Havingexecuteditsgrotesquepurposethewindsanktocomparativemildness。Swithintookadvantageofthislullbycoveringuptheinstrumentswithcloths,afterwhichthebetrothedcouplepreparedtogodownstairs。

Buttheeventsofthenighthadnotyetfullydisclosedthemselves。

Atthismomenttherewasasoundoffootstepsandaknockingatthedoorbelow。

’Itcan’tbeforme!’saidLadyConstantine。’Iretiredtomyroombeforeleavingthehouse,andtoldthemonnoaccounttodisturbme。’

SheremainedatthetopwhileSwithinwentdownthespiral。InthegloomhebeheldHannah。

’OMasterSwithin,canyecomehome!Thewindhavebloweddownthechimleythatdon’tsmoke,andthepinning—endwithit;andtheoldancienthouse,thathavebeeninyourfamilysolongasthememoryofman,isnakedtotheworld!Itisamercythatyourgrammerwerenotkilled,sittingbythehearth,pooroldsoul,andsoontowalkwi’God,——for’a’sgettingwamblingonherpins,Mr。Swithin,asagedfolksdo。AsIsay,’awasallbutmurderedbytheelements,anddoingnomoreharmthanthebabesinthewood,norspeakingoneharmfulword。AndthefireandsmokewereblowedallacrosshouselikeachapterinRevelation;andyourpoorreverentfather’sfeaturesscorchedtoflakes,lookinglikethevilestruffian,andthegiltframespoiled!Everyflitch,everyeye—piece,andeverychineisburiedunderthewalling;andIfedthempigswithmyownhands,MasterSwithin,littlethinkingtheywouldcometothisend。

Doyecollectyourself,Mr。Swithin,andcomeatonce!’

’Iwill,——Iwill。I’llfollowyouinamoment。Doyouhastenbackagainandassist。’

WhenHannahhaddepartedtheyoungmanranuptoLadyConstantine,towhomheexplainedtheaccident。AftersympathizingwitholdMrs。

MartinLadyConstantineadded,’Ithoughtsomethingwouldoccurtomarourscheme!’

’Iamnotquitesureofthatyet。’

Onashortconsiderationwithhim,sheagreedtowaitatthetopofthetowertillhecouldcomebackandinformheriftheaccidentwerereallysoseriousastointerferewithhisplanfordeparture。

Hethenlefther,andthereshesatinthedark,alone,lookingovertheparapet,andstraininghereyesinthedirectionofthehomestead。

Atfirstallwasobscurity;butwhenhehadbeengoneabouttenminuteslightsbegantomovetoandfrointhehollowwherethehousestood,andshoutsoccasionallymingledwiththewind,whichretainedsomeviolenceyet,playingoverthetreesbeneathherasonthestringsofalyre。Butnotaboughofthemwasvisible,acloakofblacknesscoveringeverythingnetherward;whileoverheadthewindyskylookeddownwithastrangeanddisguisedface,thethreeorfourstarsthatalonewerevisiblebeingsodissociatedbycloudsthatsheknewnotwhichtheywere。UnderanyothercircumstancesLadyConstantinemighthavefeltanamelessfearinthussittingaloftonalonelycolumn,withaforestgroaningunderherfeet,andpalaeolithicdeadmenfeedingitsroots;buttherecentpassionatedecisionstirredherpulsestoanintensitybesidewhichtheordinarytremorsoffeminineexistenceassertedthemselvesinvain。

Theapocalypticeffectofthescenesurroundingherwas,indeed,notinharmonious,andaffordedanappropriatebackgroundtoherintentions。

Afterwhatseemedtoheraninterminablespaceoftime,quickstepsinthestaircasebecameaudibleabovetheroarofthefirs,andinafewinstantsSt。Cleeveagainstoodbesideher。

Thecaseofthehomesteadwasserious。Hannah’saccounthadnotbeenexaggeratedinsubstance:thegableendofthehousewasopentothegarden;thejoists,leftwithoutsupport,haddropped,andwiththemtheupperfloor。Bythehelpofsomelabourers,wholivednear,andLadyConstantine’smanAnthony,whowaspassingatthetime,thehomesteadhadbeenproppedup,andprotectedforthenightbysomerickcloths;butSwithinfeltthatitwouldbeselfishinthehighestdegreetoleavetwolonelyoldwomentothemselvesatthisjuncture。’Inshort,’heconcludeddespondently,’IcannotgotostayinBathorLondonjustnow;perhapsnotforanotherfortnight!’

’Nevermind,’shesaid。’Afortnighthencewilldoaswell。’

’AndIhavetheseforyou,’hecontinued。’YourmanGreenwaspassingmygrandmother’sonhiswaybackfromWarborne,wherehehadbeen,hesays,foranylettersthathadcomeforyoubytheeveningpost。AshestayedtoassisttheothermenItoldhimIwouldgoontoyourhousewiththelettershehadbrought。OfcourseIdidnottellhimIshouldseeyouhere。’

’Thankyou。Ofcoursenot。NowI’llreturnatonce。’

Indescendingthecolumnhereyefelluponthesuperscriptionofoneoftheletters,andsheopenedandglancedoveritbythelanternlight。Sheseemedstartled,and,musing,said,’Thepostponementofour——intentionmustbe,Ifear,foralongtime。IfindthataftertheendofthismonthIcannotleavehomesafely,evenforaday。’

Perceivingthathewasabouttoaskwhy,sheadded,’Iwillnottroubleyouwiththereasonnow;itwouldonlyharassyou。Itisonlyafamilybusiness,andcannotbehelped。’

’Thenwecannotbemarriedtill——Godknowswhen!’saidSwithinblankly。’Icannotleavehometillafterthenextweekortwo;youcannotleavehomeunlesswithinthattime。Sowhatarewetodo?’

’Idonotknow。’

’Mydear,dearone,don’tletusbebeatenlikethis!Don’tletawell—consideredplanbeoverthrownbyamereaccident!Here’saremedy。DoYOUgoandstaytherequisitetimeintheparishwearetobemarriedin,insteadofme。WhenmygrandmotherisagainwellhousedIcancometoyou,insteadofyoutome,aswefirstsaid。

Thenitcanbedonewithinthetime。’

Reluctantly,shyly,andyetwithacertaingladnessofheart,shegavewaytohisproposalthattheyshouldchangeplacesintheprogramme。Therewasmuchthatshedidnotlikeinit,shesaid。

Itseemedtoherasifsheweretakingtheinitiativebygoingandattendingtothepreliminaries。Itwastheman’sparttodothat,inheropinion,andwasusuallyundertakenbyhim。

’But,’arguedSwithin,’therearecasesinwhichthewomandoesgivethenotices,andsoon;thatistosay,whenthemanisabsolutelyhinderedfromdoingso;andoursissuchacase。Theseemingisnothing;Iknowthetruth,andwhatdoesitmatter?Youdonotrefuse——retractyourwordtobemywife,because,toavoidasickeningdelay,theformalitiesrequireyoutoattendtotheminplaceofme?’

Shedidnotrefuse,shesaid。Inshortsheagreedtohisentreaty。

Theyhad,intruth,gonesofarintheirdreamofunionthattherewasnodrawingbacknow。Whicheverofthemwasforcedbycircumstancestobetheprotagonistintheenterprise,thethingmustbedone。Theirintentiontobecomehusbandandwife,atfirsthaltingandtimorous,hadaccumulatedmomentumwiththelapseofhours,tillitnowboredowneveryobstacleinitscourse。

’Sinceyoubegmeto,——sincethereisnoalternativebetweenmygoingandalongpostponement,’shesaid,astheystoodinthedarkporchofWellandHousebeforeparting,——’sinceIamtogofirst,andseemtobethepioneerinthisadventure,promiseme,Swithin,promiseyourViviette,thatinyearstocome,whenperhapsyoumaynotlovemesowarmlyasyoudonow——’

’Thatwillneverbe。’

’Well,hopingitwillnot,butsupposingitshould,promisemethatyouwillneverreproachmeastheonewhotooktheinitiativewhenitshouldhavebeenyourself,forgettingthatitwasatyourrequest;promisethatyouwillneversayIshowedimmodestreadinesstodoso,oranythingwhichmayimplyyourobliviousnessofthefactthatIactinobediencetonecessityandyourearnestprayer。’

Needitbesaidthathepromisednevertoreproachherwiththatoranyotherthingaslongastheyshouldlive?Thefewdetailsofthereversedarrangementweresoonsettled,Bathbeingtheplacefinallydecidedon。Then,withawarmaudacitywhicheventshadencouraged,hepressedhertohisbreast,andshesilentlyenteredthehouse。

Hereturnedtothehomestead,theretoattendtotheunexpecteddutiesofrepairingthehavocwroughtbythegale。

Thatnight,inthesolitudeofherchamber,LadyConstantinereopenedandreadthesubjoinedletter——oneofthosehandedtoherbySt。Cleeve:——

"—————STREET,PICCADILLY,October15,18——。

’DEARVIVIETTE,——YouwillbesurprisedtolearnthatIaminEngland,andthatIamagainoutofharness——unlessyoushouldhaveseenthelatterinthepapers。RioJaneiromaydoformonkeys,butitwon’tdoforme。HavingresignedtheappointmentIhavereturnedhere,asapreliminarysteptofindinganotherventformyenergies;

inotherwords,anothermilchcowformysustenance。Iknewnothingwhateverofyourhusband’sdeathtilltwodaysago;sothatanyletterfromyouonthesubject,atthetimeitbecameknown,musthavemiscarried。Hypocrisyatsuchamomentisworsethanuseless,andIthereforedonotcondolewithyou,particularlyastheevent,thoughnewtoabanishedmanlikeme,occurredsolongsince。Youarebetterwithouthim,Viviette,andarenowjustthelimbfordoingsomethingforyourself,notwithstandingthethreadbarestateinwhichyouseemtohavebeencastupontheworld。Youarestillyoung,and,asIimagine(unlessyouhavevastlyalteredsinceI

beheldyou),good—looking:thereforemakeupyourmindtoretrieveyourpositionbyamatchwithoneofthelocalcelebrities;andyouwoulddowelltobegindrawingneighbouringcoversatonce。A

genialsquire,withmoreweightthanwit,morerealtythanweight,andmorepersonaltythanrealty(consideringthecircumstances),wouldbebestforyou。Youmightmakeapositionforusbothbysomesuchalliance;for,totellthetruth,Ihavehadbutin—and—

outlucksofar。Ishallbewithyouinlittlemorethanafortnight,whenwewilltalkoverthematterseriously,ifyoudon’tobject。——Youraffectionatebrother,LOUIS。’

Itwasthisallusiontoherbrother’scomingvisitwhichhadcaughthereyeinthetowerstaircase,andledtoamodificationintheweddingarrangement。

HavingreadtheletterthroughonceLadyConstantineflungitasidewithanimpatientlittlestampthatshookthedecayingoldfloorandcasement。Itscontentsproducedperturbation,misgiving,butnotretreat。Thedeepglowofenchantmentshedbytheideaofaprivateunionwithherbeautifulyoungloverkilledthepalelightofcoldreasoningfromanindifferentlygoodrelative。

’Oh,no,’shemurmured,asshesat,coveringherfacewithherhand。

’NotforwealthuntoldcouldIgivehimupnow!’

Noargument,shortofApolloinpersonfromtheclouds,wouldhaveinfluencedher。Shemadeherpreparationsfordepartureasifnothinghadintervened。

XVII

InherdaysofprosperityLadyConstantinehadoftengonetothecityofBath,eitherfrivolously,forshoppingpurposes,ormusico—

religiously,toattendchoirfestivalsintheabbey;sotherewasnothingsurprisinginherrevertingtoanoldpractice。Thatthejourneymightappeartobeofasomewhatsimilarnatureshetookwithhertheservantwhohadbeenaccustomedtoaccompanyheronformeroccasions,thoughthewoman,havingnowleftherservice,andsettledinthevillageasthewifeofAnthonyGreen,withayoungchildonherhands,couldwithsomedifficultyleavehome。LadyConstantineovercametheanxiousmother’sscruplesbyprovidingthatyoungGreenshouldbewellcaredfor;andknowingthatshecouldcountuponthiswoman’sfidelity,ifuponanybody’s,incaseofanaccident(foritwaschieflyLadyConstantine’sexertionsthathadmadeanhonestwifeofMrs。Green),shedepartedforafortnight’sabsence。

Thenextdayfoundmistressandmaidsettledinlodgingsinanoldplum—colouredbrickstreet,whichahundredyearsagocouldboastofrankandfashionamongitsresidents,thoughnowthebroadfan—lightovereachbroaddooradmittedthesuntothehallsofalodging—

housekeeperonly。Thelamp—postswerestillthosethathaddonedutywithoillights;andrheumaticoldcoachmenandpostilions,thatoncehaddrivenandriddengloriouslyfromLondontoLand’sEnd,ornamentedwiththeirbentpersonsandbowlegsthepavementinfrontofthechiefinn,inthesorryhopeofearningsixpencetokeepbodyandsoultogether。

’Wearekeptwellinformedonthetimeo’day,mylady,’saidMrs。

Green,asshepulleddowntheblindsinLadyConstantine’sroomontheeveningoftheirarrival。’There’sachurchexactlyatthebackofus,andIheareveryhourstrike。’

LadyConstantinesaidshehadnoticedthattherewasachurchquitenear。

’Well,itisbettertohavethatatthebackthanotherfolks’

winders。Andifyourladyshipwantstogothereitwon’tbefartowalk。’

’That’swhatoccurredtome,’saidLadyConstantine,’IFIshouldwanttogo。’

Duringtheensuingdaysshefelttotheutmostthetediousnessofwaitingmerelythattimemightpass。Notasoulknewherthere,andsheknewnotasoul,acircumstancewhich,whileitaddedtohersenseofsecrecy,intensifiedhersolitude。Occasionallyshewenttoashop,withGreenashercompanion。Thoughtherewerepurchasestobemade,theywerebynomeansofapressingnature,andbutpoorlyfilledupthevacanciesofthosestrange,speculativedays,——

dayssurroundedbyashadeoffear,yetpoetizedbysweetexpectation。

OnthethirteenthdayshetoldGreenthatshewasgoingtotakeawalk,andleavingthehouseshepassedbytheobscureststreetstotheAbbey。Afterwanderingaboutbeneaththeaislestillhercouragewasscrewedtoitshighest,shewentoutattheotherside,and,lookingtimidlyroundtoseeifanybodyfollowed,walkedontillshecametoacertaindoor,whichshereachedjustatthemomentwhenherheartbegantosinktoitsverylowest,renderingallthescrewingupinvain。

WhetheritwasbecausethemonthwasOctober,orfromanyotherreason,thedesertedaspectofthequarteringeneralsatespeciallyonthisbuilding。Moreoverthepavementwasup,andheapsofstoneandgravelobstructedthefootway。Nobodywascoming,nobodywasgoing,inthatthoroughfare;sheappearedtobethesingleoneofthehumanracebentuponmarriagebusiness,whichseemedtohavebeenunanimouslyabandonedbyalltherestoftheworldasprovenfolly。ButshethoughtofSwithin,hisblondehair,ardenteyes,andeloquentlips,andwascarriedonwardbytheveryreflection。

Enteringthesurrogate’sroomLadyConstantinemanaged,atthelastjuncture,tostatehererrandintonessocollectedastostartleevenherselftowhichherlistenerrepliedalsoasifthewholethingwerethemostnaturalintheworld。Whenitcametotheaffirmationthatshehadlivedfifteendaysintheparish,shesaidwithdismay——

’Ono!Ithoughtthefifteendaysmeanttheintervalofresidencebeforethemarriagetakesplace。Ihavelivedhereonlythirteendaysandahalf。NowImustcomeagain!’

’Ah——well——Ithinkyouneednotbesoparticular,’saidthesurrogate。’Asamatteroffact,thoughtheletterofthelawrequiresfifteendays’residence,manypeoplemakefivesufficient。

Theprovisionisinserted,asyoudoubtlessareaware,tohinderrunawaymarriagesasmuchaspossible,andsecretunions,andothersuchobjectionablepractices。Youneednotcomeagain。’

ThateveningLadyConstantinewrotetoSwithinSt。Cleevethelastletterofthefortnight:——

’MYDEAREST,——Docometomeassoonasyoucan。ByasortoffavouringblunderIhavebeenabletoshortenthetimeofwaitingbyaday。Comeatonce,forIamalmostbrokendownwithapprehension。

Itseemsratherrashatmoments,allthis,andIwishyouwereheretoreassureme。IdidnotknowIshouldfeelsoalarmed。Iamfrightenedateveryfootstep,anddreadlestanybodywhoknowsmeshouldaccostme,andfindoutwhyIamhere。IsometimeswonderhowIcouldhaveagreedtocomeandenactyourpart,butIdidnotrealizehowtryingitwouldbe。Yououghtnottohaveaskedme,Swithin;uponmyword,itwastoocruelofyou,andIwillpunishyouforitwhenyoucome!ButIwon’tupbraid。Ihopethehomesteadisrepairedthathascostmeallthissacrificeofmodesty。IfitwereanybodyintheworldbutYOUinquestionI

wouldrushhome,withoutwaitingherefortheendofit,——IreallythinkIwould!But,dearest,no。Imustshowmystrengthnow,orletitbeforeverhid。Thebarriersofceremonyarebrokendownbetweenus,anditisforthebestthatIamhere。’

Andyet,atnopointofthistryingpreludeneedLadyConstantinehavefearedforherstrength。Deedsinthisconnexiondemandtheparticularkindofcouragethatsuchperfervidwomenareendowedwith,thecourageoftheiremotions,inwhichyoungmenareoftenlamentablydeficient。Herfearwas,intruth,thefearofbeingdiscoveredinanunwontedposition;notoftheactitself。Andthoughherletterwasinitswayatrueexpositionofherfeeling,haditbeennecessarytogothroughthewholelegalprocessoveragainshewouldhavebeenfoundequaltotheemergency。

IthadbeenforsomedaysapointofanxietywithherwhattodowithGreenduringthemorningofthewedding。Chanceunexpectedlyhelpedherinthisdifficulty。ThedaybeforethepurchaseofthelicenseGreencametoLadyConstantinewithaletterinherhandfromherhusbandAnthony,herfaceaslongasafiddle。

’Ihopethere’snothingthematter?’saidLadyConstantine。

’Thechild’stookbad,mylady!’saidMrs。Green,withsuspendedfloodsofwaterinhereyes。’IlovethechildbetterthanIshallloveallthemthat’scomingputtogether;forhe’sbeenagoodboytohismothereversincetwelveweeksaforehewasborn!’Twashe,atenderdeary,thatmadeAnthonymarryme,andtherebyturnedhisselffromalittlecalamitytoalittleblessing!For,asyouknow,themanwereabackwardmaninthechurchparto’matrimony,mylady;thoughhe’lldoanythingwhenhe’sforcedabitbyhismanlyfeelings。Andnowtolosethechild——hoo—hoo—hoo!WhatshallIdoo!’

’Well,youwanttogohomeatonce,Isuppose?’

Mrs。Greenexplained,betweenhersobs,thatsuchwasherdesire;

andthoughthiswasadayortwosoonerthanhermistresshadwishedtobeleftalonesheconsentedtoGreen’sdeparture。Soduringtheafternoonherwomanwentoff,withdirectionstoprepareforLadyConstantine’sreturnintwoorthreedays。Butastheexactdayofherreturnwasuncertainnocarriagewastobesenttothestationtomeether,herintentionbeingtohireonefromthehotel。

LadyConstantinewasnowleftinuttersolitudetoawaitherlover’sarrival。

XVIII

AmorebeautifulOctobermorningthanthatofthenextdayneverbeamedintotheWellandvalleys。Theyearlydissolutionofleafagewassettinginapace。Thefoliageoftheparktreesrapidlyresolveditselfintothemultitudeofcomplexionswhichmarkthesubtlegradesofdecay,reflectingwetlightsofsuchinnumerablehuesthatitwasawondertothinktheirbeautiesonlyarepetitionofscenesthathadbeenexhibitedthereonscoresofpreviousOctobers,andhadbeenallowedtopassawaywithoutasingledirgefromtheimperturbablebeingswhowalkedamongthem。Farintheshadowssemi—opaquescreensofbluehazemademysteriesofthecommonestgravel—pit,dingle,orrecess。

ThewoodencabinatthefootofRings—HillSpeerhadbeenfurnishedbySwithinasasittingandsleepingapartment,somelittlewhilebeforethistime;forhehadfoundithighlyconvenient,duringnightobservationsatthetopofthecolumn,toremainonthespotallnight,nottodisturbhisgrandmotherbypassinginandoutofthehouse,andtosavehimselfthelabourofincessantlycrossingthefield。

Hewouldmuchhavelikedtotellherthesecret,and,haditbeenhisowntotell,wouldprobablyhavedoneso;butsharingitwithanobjectorwhoknewnothisgrandmother’saffectionsowellashedidhimself,therewasnoalternativetoholdinghistongue。Themoreeffectuallytoguardithedecidedtosleepatthecabinduringthetwoorthreenightsprevioustohisdeparture,leavingwordatthehomesteadthatinadayortwohewasgoingonanexcursion。

关闭