投诉 阅读记录

第13章

lookedattheopenknifeinhishandandshuddered,butknewnothowtopreventthedeedwhichIdreaded。Hequicklynoticedmyfears,andcomprehendedthem。Stretchingtowardsmehishand,withanairofincreasingmildness:"Takeit,"saidhe:"Fearnotforthyownsake,norformine。Thecupisgoneby,anditstransientinebriationissucceededbythesobernessoftruth。

"ThouangelwhomIwaswonttoworship!fearestthou,mysister,forthylife?Onceitwasthescopeofmylabourstodestroythee,butIwaspromptedtothedeedbyheaven;such,atleast,wasmybelief。Thinkestthouthatthydeathwassoughttogratifymalevolence?No。Iampurefromallstain。I

believedthatmyGodwasmymover!

"NeithertheenormyselfhaveIcausetoinjure。Ihavedonemyduty,andsurelythereismeritinhavingsacrificedtothat,allthatisdeartotheheartofman。Ifadevilhasdeceivedme,hecameinthehabitofanangel。IfIerred,itwasnotmyjudgmentthatdeceivedme,butmysenses。Inthysight,beingofbeings!Iamstillpure。StillwillIlookformyrewardinthyjustice!"

Didmyearstrulyreportthesesounds?IfIdidnoterr,mybrotherwasrestoredtojustperceptions。Heknewhimselftohavebeenbetrayedtothemurderofhiswifeandchildren,tohavebeenthevictimofinfernalartifice;yethefoundconsolationintherectitudeofhismotives。Hewasnotdevoidofsorrow,forthiswaswrittenonhiscountenance;buthissoulwastranquilandsublime。

Perhapsthiswasmerelyatransitionofhisformermadnessintoanewshape。Perhapshehadnotyetawakenedtothememoryofthehorrorswhichhehadperpetrated。InfatuatedwretchthatIwas!Tosetmyselfupasamodelbywhichtojudgeofmyheroicbrother!Myreasontaughtmethathisconclusionswereright;butconsciousoftheimpotenceofreasonovermyownconduct;consciousofmycowardlyrashnessandmycriminaldespair,Idoubtedwhetheranyonecouldbestedfastandwise。

Suchwasmyweakness,thateveninthemidstofthesethoughts,mymindglidedintoabhorrenceofCarwin,andI

utteredinalowvoice,O!Carwin!Carwin!Whathastthoutoanswerfor?

Mybrotherimmediatelynoticedtheinvoluntaryexclamation:

"Clara!"saidhe,"bethyself。Equityusedtobeathemeforthyeloquence。Reduceitslessonstopractice,andbejusttothatunfortunateman。Theinstrumenthasdoneitswork,andI

amsatisfied。

"Ithankthee,myGod,forthislastillumination!Myenemyisthinealso。Ideemedhimtobeman,themanwithwhomIhaveoftencommuned;butnowthygoodnesshasunveiledtomehistruenature。Astheperformerofthybehests,heismyfriend。"

Myheartbegannowtomisgiveme。Hismournfulaspecthadgraduallyyieldedplacetoaserenebrow。Anewsoulappearedtoactuatehisframe,andhiseyestobeamwithpreternaturallustre。Thesesymptomsdidnotabate,andhecontinued:

"Clara!Imustnotleavetheeindoubt。IknownotwhatbroughtaboutthyinterviewwiththebeingwhomthoucallestCarwin。Foratime,Iwasguiltyofthyerror,anddeducedfromhisincoherentconfessionsthatIhadbeenmadethevictimofhumanmalice。Heleftusatmybidding,andIputupaprayerthatmydoubtsshouldberemoved。Thyeyeswereshut,andthyearssealedtothevisionthatansweredmyprayer。

"Iwasindeeddeceived。Theformthouhastseenwastheincarnationofadaemon。Thevisageandvoicewhichurgedmetothesacrificeofmyfamily,werehis。Nowhepersonatesahumanform:thenhewasinvironedwiththelustreofheaven——

"Clara,"hecontinued,advancingclosertome,"thydeathmustcome。Thisministerisevil,buthefromwhomhiscommissionwasreceivedisGod。Submitthenwithallthywontedresignationtoadecreethatcannotbereversedorresisted。

Marktheclock。Threeminutesareallowedtothee,inwhichtocallupthyfortitude,andpreparetheeforthydoom。"Therehestopped。

Evennow,whenthissceneexistsonlyinmemory,whenlifeandallitsfunctionshavesunkintotorpor,mypulsethrobs,andmyhairsuprise:mybrowsareknit,asthen;andIgazearoundmeindistraction。Iwasunconquerablyaversetodeath;

butdeath,imminentandfullofagonyasthatwhichwasthreatened,wasnothing。Thiswasnottheonlyorchiefinspirerofmyfears。

Forhim,notformyself,wasmysoultormented。Imightdie,andnocrime,surpassingthereachofmercy,wouldpursuemetothepresenceofmyJudge;butmyassassinwouldsurvivetocontemplatehisdeed,andthatassassinwasWieland!

WingstobearmebeyondhisreachIhadnot。Icouldnotvanishwithathought。Thedoorwasopen,butmymurdererwasinterposedbetweenthatandme。Ofself-defenceIwasincapable。Thephrenzythatlatelypromptedmetobloodwasgone;mystatewasdesperate;myrescuewasimpossible。

Theweightoftheseaccumulatedthoughtscouldnotbeborne。

Mysightbecameconfused;mylimbswereseizedwithconvulsion;

Ispoke,butmywordswerehalf-formed:——

"Spareme,mybrother!Lookdown,righteousJudge!snatchmefromthisfate!takeawaythisfuryfromhim,orturnitelsewhere!"

Suchwastheagonyofmythoughts,thatInoticednotstepsenteringmyapartment。Supplicatingeyeswerecastupward,butwhenmyprayerwasbreathed,Ioncemorewildlygazedatthedoor。Aformmetmysight:IshudderedasiftheGodwhomI

invokedwerepresent。ItwasCarwinthatagainintruded,andwhostoodbeforeme,erectinattitude,andstedfastinlook!

Thesightofhimawakenednewandrapidthoughts。Hisrecenttalewasremembered:hismagicaltransitionsandmysteriousenergyofvoice:Whetherhewereinfernalormiraculous,orhuman,therewasnopowerandnoneedtodecide。Whetherthecontriverornotofthisspell,hewasabletounbindit,andtocheckthefuryofmybrother。Hehadascribedtohimselfintentionsnotmalignant。Herenowwasaffordedatestofhistruth。Lethiminterpose,asfromabove;revokethesavagedecreewhichthemadnessofWielandhasassignedtoheaven,andextinguishforeverthispassionforblood!

Myminddetectedataglancethisavenuetosafety。Therecommendationsitpossessedthrongedasitweretogether,andmadebutoneimpressiononmyintellect。RemotereffectsandcollateraldangersIsawnot。Perhapsthepauseofaninstanthadsufficedtocallthemup。TheimprobabilitythattheinfluencewhichgovernedWielandwasexternalorhuman;thetendencyofthisstratagemtosanctionsofatalanerror,orsubstituteamoredestructiverageinplaceofthis;thesufficiencyofCarwin"smeremuscularforcestocounteracttheefforts,andrestrainthefuryofWieland,might,atasecondglance,havebeendiscovered;butnosecondglancewasallowed。

Myfirstthoughthurriedmetoaction,and,fixingmyeyesuponCarwinIexclaimed——

"Owretch!oncemorehastthoucome?Letitbetoabjurethymalice;tocounterworkthishellishstratagem;toturnfrommeandfrommybrother,thisdesolatingrage!

"Testifythyinnocenceorthyremorse:exertthepowerswhichpertaintothee,whatevertheybe,toturnasidethisruin。Thouarttheauthorofthesehorrors!WhathaveIdonetodeservethustodie?HowhaveImeritedthisunrelentingpersecution?Iadjurethee,bythatGodwhosevoicethouhastdaredtocounterfeit,tosavemylife!

"Wiltthouthengo?leaveme!Succourless!"

Carwinlistenedtomyintreatiesunmoved,andturnedfromme。

Heseemedtohesitateamoment:thenglidedthroughthedoor。

Rageanddespairstifledmyutterance。Theintervalofrespitewaspassed;thepangsreservedformebyWieland,werenottobeendured;mythoughtsrushedagainintoanarchy。Havingreceivedtheknifefromhishand,Ihelditlooselyandwithoutregard;

butnowitseizedagainmyattention,andIgraspeditwithforce。

HeseemedtonoticenottheentranceorexitofCarwin。Mygestureandthemurderousweaponappearedtohaveescapedhisnotice。Hissilencewasunbroken;hiseye,fixedupontheclockforatime,wasnowwithdrawn;furykindledineveryfeature;

allthatwashumaninhisfacegavewaytoanexpressionsupernaturalandtremendous。Ifeltmyleftarmwithinhisgrasp——

EvennowIhesitatedtostrike。Ishrunkfromhisassault,butinvain——

Hereletmedesist。WhyshouldIrescuethiseventfromoblivion?WhyshouldIpaintthisdetestableconflict?Whynotterminateatoncethisseriesofhorrors?——Hurrytothevergeoftheprecipice,andcastmyselfforeverbeyondremembranceandbeyondhope?

StillIlive:withthisloaduponmybreast;withthisphantomtopursuemysteps;withadderslodgedinmybosom,andstingingmetomadness:stillIconsenttolive!

Yes,Iwillriseabovethesphereofmortalpassions:Iwillspurnatthecowardlyremorsethatbidsmeseekimpunityinsilence,orcomfortinforgetfulness。Mynervesshallbenewstrungtothetask。HaveInotresolved?Iwilldie。Thegulphbeforemeisinevitableandnear。Iwilldie,butthenonlywhenmytaleisatanend。

ChapterXXVI

Myrighthand,graspingtheunseenknife,wasstilldisengaged。Itwasliftedtostrike。Allmystrengthwasexhausted,butwhatwassufficienttotheperformanceofthisdeed。Alreadywastheenergyawakened,andtheimpulsegiven,thatshouldbearthefatalsteeltohisheart,when——Wielandshrunkback:hishandwaswithdrawn。Breathlesswithaffrightanddesperation,Istood,freedfromhisgrasp;unassailed;

untouched。

Thuslonghadthepowerwhichcontrouledthesceneforbornetointerfere;butnowhismightwasirresistible,andWielandinamomentwasdisarmedofallhispurposes。Avoice,louderthanhumanorganscouldproduce,shrillerthanlanguagecandepict,burstfromtheceiling,andcommandedhim——TOHOLD!

TroubleanddismaysucceededtothestedfastnessthathadlatelybeendisplayedinthelooksofWieland。Hiseyesrovedfromonequartertoanother,withanexpressionofdoubt。Heseemedtowaitforafurtherintimation。

Carwin"sagencywashereeasilyrecognized。Ihadbesoughthimtointerposeinmydefence。Hehadflown。Ihadimaginedhimdeaftomyprayer,andresolutetoseemeperish:yethedisappearedmerelytodeviseandexecutethemeansofmyrelief。

Whydidhenotforbearwhenthisendwasaccomplished?Whydidhismisjudgingzealandaccursedprecipitationoverpassthatlimit?Ormeanthethustocrownthescene,andconducthisinscrutableplotstothisconsummation?

Suchideaswerethefruitofsubsequentcontemplation。Thismomentwaspregnantwithfate。Ihadnopowertoreason。Inthecareerofmytempestuousthoughts,rentintopieces,asmymindwas,byaccumulatinghorrors,Carwinwasunseenandunsuspected。IpartookofWieland"scredulity,shookwithhisamazement,andpantedwithhisawe。

Silencetookplaceforamoment;somuchasallowedtheattentiontorecoveritspost。Thennewsoundswereutteredfromabove。

"Manoferrors!ceasetocherishthydelusion:notheavenorhell,butthysenseshavemisledtheetocommittheseacts。

Shakeoffthyphrenzy,andascendintorationalandhuman。Belunaticnolonger。"

Mybrotheropenedhislipstospeak。Histonewasterrificandfaint。Hemutteredanappealtoheaven。Itwasdifficulttocomprehendthethemeofhisinquiries。Theyimplieddoubtastothenatureoftheimpulsethathithertohadguidedhim,andquestionedwhetherhehadactedinconsequenceofinsaneperceptions。

Totheseinterrogatoriesthevoice,whichnowseemedtohoverathisshoulder,loudlyansweredintheaffirmative。Thenuninterruptedsilenceensued。

Fallenfromhisloftyandheroicstation;nowfinallyrestoredtotheperceptionoftruth;weighedtoearthbytherecollectionofhisowndeeds;consolednolongerbyaconsciousnessofrectitude,forthelossofoffspringandwife——alossforwhichhewasindebtedtohisownmisguidedhand;WielandwastransformedatonceintothemanOFSORROWS!

Hereflectednotthatcreditshouldbeasreasonablydeniedtothelast,astoanyformerintimation;thatonemightasjustlybeascribedtoerringordiseasedsensesastheother。

Hesawnotthatthisdiscoveryinnodegreeaffectedtheintegrityofhisconduct;thathismotiveshadlostnoneoftheirclaimstothehomageofmankind;thatthepreferenceofsupremegood,andtheboundlessenergyofduty,wereundiminishedinhisbosom。

Itisnotformetopursuehimthroughtheghastlychangesofhiscountenance。Wordshehadnone。Nowhesatuponthefloor,motionlessinallhislimbs,withhiseyesglazedandfixed;amonumentofwoe。

Anonaspiritoftempestuousbutundesigningactivityseizedhim。Herosefromhisplaceandstrodeacrossthefloor,totteringandatrandom。Hiseyeswerewithoutmoisture,andgleamedwiththefirethatconsumedhisvitals。Themusclesofhisfacewereagitatedbyconvulsion。Hislipsmoved,butnosoundescapedhim。

Thatnatureshouldlongsustainthisconflictwasnottobebelieved。Mystatewaslittledifferentfromthatofmybrother。Ientered,asitwere,intohisthought。Myheartwasvisitedandrentbyhispangs——Ohthatthyphrenzyhadneverbeencured!thatthymadness,withitsblissfulvisions,wouldreturn!or,ifthatmustnotbe,thatthyscenewouldhastentoaclose!thatdeathwouldcovertheewithhisoblivion!

WhatcanIwishforthee?Thouwhohastviedwiththegreatpreacherofthyfaithinsanctityofmotives,andinelevationabovesensualandselfish!Thouwhomthyfatehaschangedintoparicideandsavage!CanIwishforthecontinuanceofthybeing?No。

Foratimehismovementsseemeddestituteofpurpose。Ifhewalked;ifheturned;ifhisfingerswereentwinedwitheachother;ifhishandswerepressedagainstoppositesidesofhisheadwithaforcesufficienttocrushitintopieces;itwastotearhismindfromself-contemplation;towastehisthoughtsonexternalobjects。

Speedilythistrainwasbroken。Abeamappearedtobedartedintohismind,whichgaveapurposetohisefforts。Anavenuetoescapepresenteditself;andnowheeagerlygazedabouthim:

whenmythoughtsbecameengagedbyhisdemeanour,myfingerswerestretchedasbyamechanicalforce,andtheknife,nolongerheededorofuse,escapedfrommygrasp,andfellunperceivedonthefloor。Hiseyenowlighteduponit;heseizeditwiththequicknessofthought。

Ishriekedaloud,butitwastoolate。Heplungedittothehiltinhisneck;andhislifeinstantlyescapedwiththestreamthatgushedfromthewound。Hewasstretchedatmyfeet;andmyhandsweresprinkledwithhisbloodashefell。

Suchwasthylastdeed,mybrother!Foraspectaclelikethiswasitmyfatetobereserved!Thyeyeswereclosed——thyfaceghastlywithdeath——thyarms,andthespotwherethouliedest,floatedinthylife"sblood!Theseimageshavenot,foramoment,forsakenme。TillIambreathlessandcold,theymustcontinuetohoverinmysight。

Carwin,asIsaid,hadlefttheroom,buthestilllingeredinthehouse。Myvoicesummonedhimtomyaid;butIscarcelynoticedhisre-entrance,andnowfaintlyrecollecthisterrifiedlooks,hisbrokenexclamations,hisvehementavowalsofinnocence,theeffusionsofhispityforme,andhisoffersofassistance。

Ididnotlisten——Iansweredhimnot——Iceasedtoupbraidoraccuse。HisguiltwasapointtowhichIwasindifferent。

Ruffianordevil,blackashellorbrightasangels,thenceforthhewasnothingtome。Iwasincapableofsparingalookorathoughtfromtheruinthatwasspreadatmyfeet。

Whenheleftme,Iwasscarcelyconsciousofanyvariationinthescene。Heinformedtheinhabitantsofthehutofwhathadpassed,andtheyflewtothespot。Carelessofhisownsafety,hehastedtothecitytoinformmyfriendsofmycondition。

Myunclespeedilyarrivedatthehouse。ThebodyofWielandwasremovedfrommypresence,andtheysupposedthatIwouldfollowit;butno,myhomeisascertained;hereIhavetakenupmyrest,andneverwillIgohence,till,likeWieland,Iambornetomygrave。

Importunitywastriedinvain:theythreatenedtoremovemebyviolence——nay,violencewasused;butmysoulprizestoodearlythislittlerooftoenduretobebereavedofit。Forceshouldnotprevailwhenthehoarylocksandsupplicatingtearsofmyunclewereineffectual。Myrepugnancetomovegavebirthtoferociousnessandphrenzywhenforcewasemployed,andtheywereobligedtoconsenttomyreturn。

Theybesoughtme——theyremonstrated——theyappealedtoeverydutythatconnectedmewithhimthatmademe,andwithmyfellow-men——invain。WhileIliveIwillnotgohence。HaveI

notfulfilledmydestiny?

Whywillyetormentmewithyourreasoningsandreproofs?

Canyerestoretomethehopeofmybetterdays?CanyegivemebackCatharineandherbabes?Canyerecalltolifehimwhodiedatmyfeet?

Iwilleat——Iwilldrink——Iwillliedownandriseupatyourbidding——allIaskisthechoiceofmyabode。Whatisthereunreasonableinthisdemand?ShortlywillIbeatpeace。ThisisthespotwhichIhavechoseninwhichtobreathemylastsigh。Denymenot,Ibeseechyou,soslightaboon。

Talknottome,Omyreveredfriend!ofCarwin。Hehastoldtheehistale,andthouexculpatesthimfromalldirectconcerninthefateofWieland。Thissceneofhavockwasproducedbyanillusionofthesenses。Beitso:Icarenotfromwhatsourcethesedisastershaveflowed;itsufficesthattheyhaveswallowedupourhopesandourexistence。

Whathisagencybegan,hisagencyconductedtoaclose。Heintended,bythefinaleffortofhispower,torescuemeandtobanishhisillusionsfrommybrother。Suchishistale,concerningthetruthofwhichIcarenot。HenceforthIfosterbutonewish——Iaskonlyquickdeliverancefromlifeandalltheillsthatattendit——

Gowretch!tormentmenotwiththypresenceandthyprayers——Forgivethee?Willthatavailtheewhenthyfatefulhourshallarrive?Bethouacquittedatthyowntribunal,andthouneedestnotfeartheverdictofothers。Ifthyguiltbecapableofblackerhues,ifhithertothyconsciencebewithoutstain,thycrimewillbemademoreflagrantbythusviolatingmyretreat。Takethyselfawayfrommysightifthouwouldestnotbeholdmydeath!

Thouaregone!murmuringandreluctant!Andnowmyreposeiscoming——myworkisdone!

ChapterXXVII

[Writtenthreeyearsaftertheforegoing,anddatedatMontpellier。]

IimaginedthatIhadforeverlaidasidethepen;andthatI

shouldtakeupmyabodeinthispartoftheworld,wasofalleventstheleastprobable。MydestinyIbelievedtobeaccomplished,andIlookedforwardtoaspeedyterminationofmylifewiththefullestconfidence。

SurelyIhadreasontobewearyofexistence,tobeimpatientofeverytiewhichheldmefromthegrave。Iexperiencedthisimpatienceinitsfullestextent。Iwasnotonlyenamouredofdeath,butconceived,fromtheconditionofmyframe,thattoshunitwasimpossible,eventhoughIhadardentlydesiredit;

yethereamI,athousandleaguesfrommynativesoil,infullpossessionoflifeandofhealth,andnotdestituteofhappiness。

Suchisman。Timewillobliteratethedeepestimpressions。

Griefthemostvehementandhopeless,willgraduallydecayandwearitselfout。Argumentsmaybeemployedinvain:everymoralprescriptionmaybeineffectuallytried:remonstrances,howevercogentorpathetic,shallhavenopowerovertheattention,orshallberepelledwithdisdain;yet,asdayfollowsday,theturbulenceofouremotionsshallsubside,andourfluctuationsbefinallysucceededbyacalm。

Perhaps,however,theconquestofdespairwaschieflyowingtoanaccidentwhichrenderedmycontinuanceinmyownhouseimpossible。Attheconclusionofmylong,and,asIthensupposed,mylastlettertoyou,Imentionedmyresolutiontowaitfordeathintheveryspotwhichhadbeentheprincipalsceneofmymisfortunes。Fromthisresolutionmyfriendsexertedthemselveswiththeutmostzealandperseverancetomakemedepart。Theyjustlyimaginedthattobethussurroundedbymemorialsofthefateofmyfamily,wouldtendtofostermydisease。Aswiftsuccessionofnewobjects,andtheexclusionofeverythingcalculatedtoremindmeofmyloss,wastheonlymethodofcure。

Irefusedtolistentotheirexhortations。Greatasmycalamitywas,tobetornfromthisasylumwasregardedbymeasanaggravationofit。Byaperverseconstitutionofmind,hewasconsideredasmygreatestenemywhosoughttowithdrawmefromascenewhichsuppliedeternalfoodtomymelancholy,andkeptmydespairfromlanguishing。

InrelatingthehistoryofthesedisastersIderivedasimilarspeciesofgratification。Myuncleearnestlydissuadedmefromthistask;buthisremonstranceswereasfruitlessonthisheadastheyhadbeenonothers。Theywouldhavewithheldfrommetheimplementsofwriting;buttheyquicklyperceivedthattowithstandwouldbemoreinjuriousthantocomplywithmywishes。Havingfinishedmytale,itseemedasifthescenewereclosing。Afeverlurkedinmyveins,andmystrengthwasgone。

Anyexertion,howeverslight,wasattendedwithdifficulty,and,atlength,Irefusedtorisefrommybed。

Inowseetheinfatuationandinjusticeofmyconductinitstruecolours。Ireflectuponthesensationsandreasoningsofthatperiodwithwonderandhumiliation。ThatIshouldbeinsensibletotheclaimsandtearsofmyfriends;thatIshouldoverlookthesuggestionsofduty,andflyfromthatpostinwhichonlyIcouldbeinstrumentaltothebenefitofothers;

thattheexerciseofthesocialandbeneficentaffections,thecontemplationofnatureandtheacquisitionofwisdomshouldnotbeseentobemeansofhappinessstillwithinmyreach,is,atthistime,scarcelycredible。

ItistruethatIamnowchanged;butIhavenottheconsolationtoreflectthatmychangewasowingtomyfortitudeortomycapacityforinstruction。Betterthoughtsgrewupinmymindimperceptibly。Icannotbutcongratulatemyselfonthechange,though,perhaps,itmerelyarguesaficklenessoftemper,andadefectofsensibility。

AftermynarrativewasendedIbetookmyselftomybed,inthefullbeliefthatmycareerinthisworldwasonthepointoffinishing。Myuncletookuphisabodewithme,andperformedformeeveryofficeofnurse,physicianandfriend。Onenight,aftersomehoursofrestlessnessandpain,Isunkintodeepsleep。Itstranquillity,however,wasofnolongduration。Myfancybecamesuddenlydistempered,andmybrainwasturnedintoatheatreofuproarandconfusion。Itwouldnotbeeasytodescribethewildandphantasticalincongruitiesthatpesteredme。Myuncle,Wieland,PleyelandCarwinweresuccessivelyandmomentlydiscernedamidstthestorm。SometimesIwasswallowedupbywhirlpools,orcaughtupintheairbyhalf-seenandgiganticforms,andthrownuponpointedrocks,orcastamongthebillows。Sometimesgleamsoflightwereshotintoadarkabyss,onthevergeofwhichIwasstanding,andenabledmetodiscover,foramoment,itsenormousdepthandhideousprecipices。Anon,IwastransportedtosomeridgeofAEtna,andmadeaterrifiedspectatorofitsfierytorrentsanditspillarsofsmoke。

Howeverstrangeitmayseem,Iwasconscious,evenduringmydream,ofmyrealsituation。Iknewmyselftobeasleep,andstruggledtobreakthespell,bymuscularexertions。Thesedidnotavail,andIcontinuedtosuffertheseabortivecreationstillaloudvoice,atmybedside,andsomeoneshakingmewithviolence,putanendtomyreverie。Myeyeswereunsealed,andIstartedfrommypillow。

Mychamberwasfilledwithsmoke,which,thoughinsomedegreeluminous,wouldpermitmetoseenothing,andbywhichI

wasnearlysuffocated。Thecracklingofflames,andthedeafeningclamourofvoiceswithout,burstuponmyears。

StunnedasIwasbythishubbub,scorchedwithheat,andnearlychoakedbytheaccumulatingvapours,Iwasunabletothinkoractformyownpreservation;Iwasincapable,indeed,ofcomprehendingmydanger。

Iwascaughtup,inaninstant,byapairofsinewyarms,bornetothewindow,andcarrieddownaladderwhichhadbeenplacedthere。Myunclestoodatthebottomandreceivedme。I

wasnotfullyawareofmysituationtillIfoundmyselfshelteredintheHUT,andsurroundedbyitsinhabitants。

Byneglectoftheservant,someunextinguishedembershadbeenplacedinabarrelinthecellarofthebuilding。Thebarrelhadcaughtfire;thiswascommunicatedtothebeamsofthelowerfloor,andthencetotheupperpartofthestructure。

Itwasfirstdiscoveredbysomepersonsatadistance,whohastenedtothespotandalarmedmyuncleandtheservants。Theflameshadalreadymadeconsiderableprogress,andmyconditionwasoverlookedtillmyescapewasrenderednearlyimpossible。

Mydangerbeingknown,andaladderquicklyprocured,oneofthespectatorsascendedtomychamber,andeffectedmydeliveranceinthemannerbeforerelated。

Thisincident,disastrousasitmayatfirstseem,had,inreality,abeneficialeffectuponmyfeelings。Iwas,insomedegree,rousedfromthestuporwhichhadseizedmyfaculties。

Themonotonousandgloomyseriesofmythoughtswasbroken。Myhabitationwaslevelledwiththeground,andIwasobligedtoseekanewone。Anewtrainofimages,disconnectedwiththefateofmyfamily,forceditselfonmyattention,andabeliefinsensiblysprungup,thattranquillity,ifnothappiness,wasstillwithinmyreach。Notwithstandingtheshockswhichmyframehadendured,theanguishofmythoughtsnosoonerabatedthanIrecoveredmyhealth。

Inowwillinglylistenedtomyuncle"ssolicitationstobethecompanionofhisvoyage。Preparationswereeasilymade,andafteratediouspassage,wesetourfeetontheshoreoftheancientworld。Thememoryofthepastdidnotforsakeme;butthemelancholywhichitgenerated,andthetearswithwhichitfilledmyeyes,werenotunprofitable。Mycuriositywasrevived,andIcontemplated,withardour,thespectacleoflivingmannersandthemonumentsofpastages。

Inproportionasmyheartwasreinstatedinthepossessionofitsancienttranquillity,thesentimentwhichIhadcherishedwithregardtoPleyelreturned。InashorttimehewasunitedtotheSaxonwoman,andmadehisresidenceintheneighbourhoodofBoston。Iwasgladthatcircumstanceswouldnotpermitaninterviewtotakeplacebetweenus。Icouldnotdesiretheirmisery;butIreapednopleasurefromreflectingontheirhappiness。Time,andtheexertionsofmyfortitude,curedme,insomedegree,ofthisfolly。Icontinuedtolovehim,butmypassionwasdisguisedtomyself;Iconsidereditmerelyasamoretenderspeciesoffriendship,andcherisheditwithoutcompunction。

Throughmyuncle"sexertionsameetingwasbroughtaboutbetweenCarwinandPleyel,andexplanationstookplacewhichrestoredmeatoncetothegoodopinionofthelatter。Thoughseparatedsowidelyourcorrespondencewaspunctualandfrequent,andpavedthewayforthatunionwhichcanonlyendwiththedeathofoneofus。

InmyletterstohimImadenosecretofmyformersentiments。ThiswasathemeonwhichIcouldtalkwithoutpainful,thoughnotwithoutdelicateemotions。ThatknowledgewhichIshouldneverhaveimpartedtoalover,Ifeltlittlescrupletocommunicatetoafriend。

AyearandanhalfelapsedwhenTheresawassnatchedfromhimbydeath,inthehourinwhichshegavehimthefirstpledgeoftheirmutualaffection。Thiseventwasbornebyhimwithhiscustomaryfortitude。Itinducedhim,however,tomakeachangeinhisplans。HedisposedofhispropertyinAmerica,andjoinedmyuncleandme,whohadterminatedthewanderingsoftwoyearsatMontpellier,whichwillhenceforth,Ibelieve,beourpermanentabode。

IfyoureflectuponthatentireconfidencewhichhadsubsistedfromourinfancybetweenPleyelandmyself;onthepassionthatIhadcontracted,andwhichwasmerelysmotheredforatime;andontheesteemwhichwasmutual,youwillnot,perhaps,besurprizedthattherenovationofourintercourseshouldgivebirthtothatunionwhichatpresentsubsists。WhentheperiodhadelapsednecessarytoweakentheremembranceofTheresa,towhomhehadbeenboundbytiesmoreofhonorthanoflove,hetenderedhisaffectionstome。Ineednotaddthatthetenderwaseagerlyaccepted。

PerhapsyouaresomewhatinterestedinthefateofCarwin。

Hesaw,whentoolate,thedangerofimposture。Somuchaffectedwashebythecatastrophetowhichhewasawitness,thathelaidasideallregardtohisownsafety。Hesoughtmyuncle,andconfidedtohimthetalewhichhehadjustrelatedtome。HefoundamoreimpartialandindulgentauditorinMr。

Cambridge,whoimputedtomaniacalillusiontheconductofWieland,thoughheconceivedthepreviousandunseenagencyofCarwin,tohaveindirectlybutpowerfullypredisposedtothisdeplorableperversionofmind。

ItwaseasyforCarwintoeludethepersecutionsofLudloe。

ItwasmerelyrequisitetohidehimselfinaremotedistrictofPennsylvania。This,whenhepartedfromus,hedeterminedtodo。Heisnowprobablyengagedintheharmlesspursuitsofagriculture,andmaycometothink,withoutinsupportableremorse,ontheevilstowhichhisfataltalentshavegivenbirth。Theinnocenceandusefulnessofhisfuturelifemay,insomedegree,atoneforthemiseriessorashlyorsothoughtlesslyinflicted。

Moreurgentconsiderationshinderedmefrommentioning,inthecourseofmyformermournfulrecital,anyparticularsrespectingtheunfortunatefatherofLouisaConway。Thatmansurelywasreservedtobeamonumentofcapriciousfortune。Hissouthernjourniesbeingfinished,hereturnedtoPhiladelphia。

Beforehereachedthecityheleftthehighway,andalightedatmybrother"sdoor。Contrarytohisexpectation,noonecameforthtowelcomehim,orhailhisapproach。Heattemptedtoenterthehouse,butbolteddoors,barredwindows,andasilencebrokenonlybyunansweredcalls,shewedhimthatthemansionwasdeserted。

Heproceededthencetomyhabitation,whichhefound,inlikemanner,gloomyandtenantless。Hissurprizemaybeeasilyconceived。Therusticswhooccupiedthehuttoldhimanimperfectandincredibletale。Hehastedtothecity,andextortedfromMrs。Bayntonafulldisclosureoflatedisasters。

Hewasinuredtoadversity,andrecovered,afternolongtime,fromtheshocksproducedbythisdisappointmentofhisdarlingscheme。OurintercoursedidnotterminatewithhisdeparturefromAmerica。WehavesincemetwithhiminFrance,andlighthasatlengthbeenthrownuponthemotiveswhichoccasionedthedisappearanceofhiswife,inthemannerwhichI

formerlyrelatedtoyou。

Ihavedweltupontheardouroftheirconjugalattachment,andmentionedthatnosuspicionhadeverglanceduponherpurity。This,thoughthebeliefwaslongcherished,recentdiscoverieshaveshewntobequestionable。Nodoubtherintegritywouldhavesurvivedtothepresentmoment,ifanextraordinaryfatehadnotbefallenher。

MajorStuarthadbeenengaged,whileinGermany,inacontestofhonorwithanAiddeCampoftheMarquisofGranby。Hisadversaryhadpropagatedarumourinjurioustohischaracter。

Achallengewassent;ameetingensued;andStuartwoundedanddisarmedthecalumniator。Theoffencewasatonedfor,andhislifesecuredbysuitableconcessions。

Maxwell,thatwashisname,shortlyafter,inconsequenceofsucceedingtoarichinheritance,soldhiscommissionandreturnedtoLondon。Hisfortunewasspeedilyaugmentedbyanopulentmarriage。Interestwashissoleinducementtothismarriage,thoughtheladyhadbeenswayedbyacredulousaffection。Thetruestateofhisheartwasquicklydiscovered,andaseparation,bymutualconsent,tookplace。Theladywithdrewtoanestateinadistantcounty,andMaxwellcontinuedtoconsumehistimeandfortuneinthedissipationofthecapital。

Maxwell,thoughdeceitfulandsensual,possessedgreatforceofmindandspeciousaccomplishments。HecontrivedtomisleadthegenerousmindofStuart,andtoregaintheesteemwhichhismisconduct,foratime,hadforfeited。HewasrecommendedbyherhusbandtotheconfidenceofMrs。Stuart。Maxwellwasstimulatedbyrevenge,andbyalawlesspassion,toconvertthisconfidenceintoasourceofguilt。

Theeducationandcapacityofthiswoman,theworthofherhusband,thepledgeoftheiralliancewhichtimehadproduced,hermaturityinageandknowledgeoftheworld——allcombinedtorenderthisattempthopeless。Maxwell,however,wasnoteasilydiscouraged。Themostperfectbeing,hebelieved,mustowehisexemptionfromvicetotheabsenceoftemptation。Theimpulsesoflovearesosubtile,andtheinfluenceoffalsereasoning,whenenforcedbyeloquenceandpassion,sounbounded,thatnohumanvirtueissecurefromdegeneracy。Allartsbeingtried,everytemptationbeingsummonedtohisaid,dissimulationbeingcarriedtoitsutmostbound,Maxwell,atlength,nearlyaccomplishedhispurpose。Thelady"saffectionswerewithdrawnfromherhusbandandtransferredtohim。Shecouldnot,asyet,bereconciledtodishonor。Alleffortstoinducehertoelopewithhimwereineffectual。Shepermittedherselftolove,andtoavowherlove;butatthislimitshestopped,andwasimmoveable。

Hencethisrevolutioninhersentimentswasproductiveonlyofdespair。Herrectitudeofprinciplepreservedherfromactualguilt,butcouldnotrestoretoherherancientaffection,orsaveherfrombeingthepreyofremorsefulandimpracticablewishes。Herhusband"sabsenceproducedastateofsuspense。This,however,approachedtoaperiod,andshereceivedtidingsofhisintendedreturn。Maxwell,beinglikewiseapprizedofthisevent,andhavingmadealastandunsuccessfulefforttoconquerherreluctancetoaccompanyhiminajourneytoItaly,whitherhepretendedaninvinciblenecessityofgoing,lefthertopursuethemeasureswhichdespairmightsuggest。AtthesametimeshereceivedaletterfromthewifeofMaxwell,unveilingthetruecharacterofthisman,andrevealingfactswhichtheartificesofherseducerhadhithertoconcealedfromher。Mrs。Maxwellhadbeenpromptedtothisdisclosurebyaknowledgeofherhusband"spractices,withwhichhisownimpetuosityhadmadeheracquainted。

Thisdiscovery,joinedtothedelicacyofherscruplesandtheanguishofremorse,inducedhertoabscond。Thisschemewasadoptedinhaste,buteffectedwithconsummateprudence。Shefled,ontheeveofherhusband"sarrival,inthedisguiseofaboy,andembarkedatFalmouthinapacketboundforAmerica。

ThehistoryofherdisastrousintercoursewithMaxwell,themotivesinducinghertoforsakehercountry,andthemeasuresshehadtakentoeffectherdesign,wererelatedtoMrs。

Maxwell,inreplytohercommunication。Betweenthesewomenanancientintimacyandconsiderablesimilitudeofcharactersubsisted。Thisdisclosurewasaccompaniedwithsolemninjunctionsofsecrecy,andtheseinjunctionswere,foralongtime,faithfullyobserved。

Mrs。Maxwell"sabodewassituatedonthebanksoftheWey。

Stuartwasherkinsman;theiryouthhadbeenspenttogether;andMaxwellwasinsomedegreeindebtedtothemanwhomhebetrayed,forhisalliancewiththisunfortunatelady。HeresteemforthecharacterofStuarthadneverbeendiminished。Ameetingbetweenthemwasoccasionedbyatourwhichthelatterhadundertaken,intheyearafterhisreturnfromAmerica,toWalesandthewesterncounties。Thisinterviewproducedpleasureandregretineach。Theirowntransactionsnaturallybecamethetopicsoftheirconversation;andtheuntimelyfateofhiswifeanddaughterwererelatedbytheguest。

Mrs。Maxwell"sregardforherfriend,aswellasforthesafetyofherhusband,persuadedhertoconcealment;buttheformerbeingdead,andthelatterbeingoutofthekingdom,sheventuredtoproduceMrs。Stuart"sletter,andtocommunicateherownknowledgeofthetreacheryofMaxwell。Shehadpreviouslyextortedfromherguestapromisenottopursueanyschemeofvengeance;butthispromisewasmadewhileignorantofthefullextentofMaxwell"sdepravity,andhispassionrefusedtoadheretoit。

AtthistimemyuncleandIresidedatAvignon。AmongtheEnglishresidentthere,andwithwhomwemaintainedasocialintercourse,wasMaxwell。Thisman"stalentsandaddressrenderedhimafavoritebothwithmyuncleandmyself。Hehadeventenderedmehishandinmarriage;butthisbeingrefused,hehadsoughtandobtainedpermissiontocontinuewithustheintercourseoffriendship。Sincealegalmarriagewasimpossible,nodoubt,hisviewswereflagitious。WhetherhehadrelinquishedtheseviewsIwasunabletojudge。

Hewasoneinalargecircleatavillaintheenvirons,towhichIhadlikewisebeeninvited,whenStuartabruptlyenteredtheapartment。Hewasrecognizedwithgenuinesatisfactionbyme,andwithseemingpleasurebyMaxwell。Inashorttime,someaffairofmomentbeingpleaded,whichrequiredanimmediateandexclusiveinterview,Maxwellandhewithdrewtogether。StuartandmyunclehadbeenknowntoeachotherintheGermanarmy;

andthepurposecontemplatedbytheformerinthislongandhastyjourney,wasconfidedtohisoldfriend。

Adefiancewasgivenandreceived,andthebanksofarivulet,aboutaleaguefromthecity,wasselectedasthesceneofthiscontest。Myuncle,havingexertedhimselfinvaintopreventanhostilemeeting,consentedtoattendthemasasurgeon——Nextmorning,atsun-rise,wasthetimechosen。

Ireturnedearlyintheeveningtomylodgings。

Preliminariesbeingsettledbetweenthecombatants,Stuarthadconsentedtospendtheeveningwithus,anddidnotretiretilllate。Onthewaytohishotelhewasexposedtonomolestation,butjustashesteppedwithintheportico,aswarthyandmalignantfigurestartedfrombehindacolumn。andplungedastilettointohisbody。

Theauthorofthistreasoncouldnotcertainlybediscovered;

butthedetailscommunicatedbyStuart,respectingthehistoryofMaxwell,naturallypointedhimoutasanobjectofsuspicion。

Nooneexpressedmoreconcern,onaccountofthisdisaster,thanhe;andhepretendedanardentzealtovindicatehischaracterfromtheaspersionsthatwerecastuponit。Thenceforth,however,Ideniedmyselftohisvisits;andshortlyafterhedisappearedfromthisscene。

Fewpossessedmoreestimablequalities,andabettertitletohappinessandthetranquilhonorsoflonglife,thanthemotherandfatherofLouisaConway:yettheywerecutoffinthebloomoftheirdays;andtheirdestinywasthusaccomplishedbythesamehand。Maxwellwastheinstrumentoftheirdestruction,thoughtheinstrumentwasappliedtothisendinsodifferentamanner。

Ileaveyoutomoralizeonthistale。Thatvirtueshouldbecomethevictimoftreacheryis,nodoubt,amournfulconsideration;butitwillnotescapeyournotice,thattheevilsofwhichCarwinandMaxwellweretheauthors,owedtheirexistencetotheerrorsofthesufferers。AlleffortswouldhavebeenineffectualtosubvertthehappinessorshortentheexistenceoftheStuarts,iftheirownfrailtyhadnotsecondedtheseefforts。Iftheladyhadcrushedherdisastrouspassioninthebud,anddriventheseducerfromherpresence,whenthetendencyofhisartificeswasseen;ifStuarthadnotadmittedthespiritofabsurdrevenge,weshouldnothavehadtodeplorethiscatastrophe。IfWielandhadframedjusternotionsofmoralduty,andofthedivineattributes;orifIhadbeengiftedwithordinaryequanimityorforesight,thedouble-tongueddeceiverwouldhavebeenbaffledandrepelled。

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