投诉 阅读记录

第3章

Shewasnotabsentamoment。"Hestood,foratime,asiftoassurehimselfofmysincerity。Then,clinchinghishands,andwildlyliftingthemabovehishead,"Lo,"criedhe,"Ihavenewstotellyou。TheBaronessdeStolbergisdead?"

Thiswasherwhomheloved。Iwasnotsurprisedattheagitationswhichhebetrayed。"Buthowwastheinformationprocured?HowwasthetruthofthisnewsconnectedwiththecircumstanceofCatharine"sremaininginourcompany?"Hewasforsometimeinattentivetomyquestions。Whenhespoke,itseemedmerelyacontinuationofthereverieintowhichhehadbeenplunged。

"Andyetitmightbeameredeception。Butcouldbothofusinthatcasehavebeendeceived?Arareandprodigiouscoincidence!Barelynotimpossible。Andyet,iftheaccentbeoracular——Theresaisdead。No,no,"continuedhe,coveringhisfacewithhishands,andinatonehalfbrokenintosobs,"I

cannotbelieveit。Shehasnotwritten,butifsheweredead,thefaithfulBertrandwouldhavegivenmetheearliestinformation。Andyetifheknewhismaster,hemusthaveeasilyguessedattheeffectofsuchtidings。Inpitytomehewassilent。"

"Clara,forgiveme;toyou,thisbehaviourismysterious。I

willexplainaswellasIamable。ButsaynotawordtoCatharine。Herstrengthofmindisinferiortoyour"s。Shewill,besides,havemorereasontobestartled。SheisWieland"sangel。"

Pleyelproceededtoinformme,forthefirsttime,oftheschemewhichhehadpressed,withsomuchearnestness,onmybrother。Heenumeratedtheobjectionswhichhadbeenmade,andtheindustrywithwhichhehadendeavouredtoconfutethem。Hementionedtheeffectuponhisresolutionsproducedbythefailureofaletter。"Duringourlatewalk,"continuedhe,"I

introducedthesubjectthatwasnearestmyheart。Ire-urgedallmyformerarguments,andplacedtheminmoreforciblelights。Wielandwasstillrefractory。Heexpatiatedontheperilsofwealthandpower,onthesacrednessofconjugalandparentalduties,andthehappinessofmediocrity。

"Nowonderthatthetimepassed,unperceived,away。Ourwholesoulswereengagedinthiscause。Severaltimeswecametothefootoftherock;assoonasweperceivedit,wechangedourcourse,butneverfailedtoterminateourcircuitousanddeviousrambleatthisspot。Atlengthyourbrotherobserved,"Weseemtobeledhitherbyakindoffatality。Sincewearesonear,letusascendandrestourselvesawhile。Ifyouarenotwearyofthisargumentwewillresumeitthere。"

"Itacitlyconsented。Wemountedthestairs,anddrawingthesofainfrontoftheriver,weseatedourselvesuponit。Itookupthethreadofourdiscoursewherewehaddroppedit。I

ridiculedhisdreadofthesea,andhisattachmenttohome。I

keptoninthisstrain,socongenialwithmydisposition,forsometime,uninterruptedbyhim。Atlength,hesaidtome,"SupposenowthatI,whomargumenthasnotconvinced,shouldyieldtoridicule,andshouldagreethatyourschemeiseligible;whatwillyouhavegained?Nothing。Youhaveotherenemiesbesidemyselftoencounter。Whenyouhavevanquishedme,yourtoilhasscarcelybegun。Therearemysisterandwife,withwhomitwillremainforyoutomaintainthecontest。Andtrustme,theyareadversarieswhomallyourforceandstratagemwillneversubdue。"Iinsinuatedthattheywouldmodelthemselvesbyhiswill:thatCatharinewouldthinkobedienceherduty。Heanswered,withsomequickness,"Youmistake。

Theirconcurrenceisindispensable。Itisnotmycustomtoexactsacrificesofthiskind。Ilivetobetheirprotectorandfriend,andnottheirtyrantandfoe。Ifmywifeshalldeemherhappiness,andthatofherchildren,mostconsultedbyremainingwheresheis,heresheshallremain。""But,"saidI,"whensheknowsyourpleasure,willshenotconformtoit?"Beforemyfriendhadtimetoanswerthisquestion,anegativewasclearlyanddistinctlyutteredfromanotherquarter。Itdidnotcomefromonesideortheother,frombeforeusorbehind。Whencethendiditcome?Bywhoseorganswasitfashioned?

"Ifanyuncertaintyhadexistedwithregardtotheseparticulars,itwouldhavebeenremovedbyadeliberateandequallydistinctrepetitionofthesamemonosyllable,"No。"Thevoicewasmysister"s。Itappearedtocomefromtheroof。I

startedfrommyseat。Catharine,exclaimedI,whereareyou?

Noanswerwasreturned。Isearchedtheroom,andtheareabeforeit,butinvain。Yourbrotherwasmotionlessinhisseat。Ireturnedtohim,andplacedmyselfagainbyhisside。

Myastonishmentwasnotlessthanhis。"

"Well,"saidhe,atlength,"Whatthinkyouofthis?Thisistheself-samevoicewhichIformerlyheard;youarenowconvincedthatmyearswerewellinformed。"

"Yes,"saidI,"this,itisplain,isnofictionofthefancy。"Weagainsunkintomutualandthoughtfulsilence。A

recollectionofthehour,andofthelengthofourabsence,mademeatlastproposetoreturn。Weroseupforthispurpose。Indoingthis,mymindrevertedtothecontemplationofmyowncondition。"Yes,"saidIaloud,butwithoutparticularlyaddressingmyselftoWieland,"myresolutionistaken。Icannothopetoprevailwithmyfriendstoaccompanyme。TheymaydozeawaytheirdaysonthebanksofSchuylkill,butastome,Igointhenextvessel;Iwillflytoherpresence,anddemandthereasonofthisextraordinarysilence。"

"Ihadscarcelyfinishedthesentence,whenthesamemysteriousvoiceexclaimed,"Youshallnotgo。Thesealofdeathisonherlips。Hersilenceisthesilenceofthetomb。"

Thinkoftheeffectswhichaccentslikethesemusthavehaduponme。IshudderedasIlistened。AssoonasIrecoveredfrommyfirstamazement,"Whoisitthatspeaks?"saidI,"whencedidyouprocurethesedismaltidings?"Ididnotwaitlongforananswer。"Fromasourcethatcannotfail。Besatisfied。Sheisdead。"Youmayjustlybesurprised,that,inthecircumstancesinwhichIheardthetidings,andnotwithstandingthemysterywhichenvironedhimbywhomtheywereimparted,Icouldgiveanundividedattentiontothefacts,whichwerethesubjectofourdialogue。Ieagerlyinquired,whenandwheredidshedie?Whatwasthecauseofherdeath?Washerdeathabsolutelycertain?

Ananswerwasreturnedonlytothelastofthesequestions。

"Yes,"waspronouncedbythesamevoice;butitnowsoundedfromagreaterdistance,andthedeepestsilencewasallthereturnmadetomysubsequentinterrogatories。

"Itwasmysister"svoice;butitcouldnotbeutteredbyher;andyet,ifnotbyher,bywhomwasituttered?Whenwereturnedhither,anddiscoveredyoutogether,thedoubtthathadpreviouslyexistedwasremoved。Itwasmanifestthattheintimationcamenotfromher。Yetifnotfromher,fromwhomcoulditcome?Arethecircumstancesattendingtheimpartingofthisnewsproofthatthetidingsaretrue?Godforbidthattheyshouldbetrue。"

HerePleyelsunkintoanxioussilence,andgavemeleisuretoruminateonthisinexplicableevent。Iamatalosstodescribethesensationsthataffectedme。Iamnotfearfulofshadows。

Thetalesofapparitionsandenchantmentsdidnotpossessthatpowerovermybeliefwhichcouldevenrendertheminteresting。

Isawnothinginthembutignoranceandfolly,andwasastrangereventothatterrorwhichispleasing。ButthisincidentwasdifferentfromanythatIhadeverbeforeknown。

Herewereproofsofasensibleandintelligentexistence,whichcouldnotbedenied。Herewasinformationobtainedandimpartedbymeansunquestionablysuper-human。

Thatthereareconsciousbeings,besideourselves,inexistence,whosemodesofactivityandinformationsurpassourown,canscarcelybedenied。Isthereaglimpseaffordedusintoaworldofthesesuperiorbeings?Myheartwasscarcelylargeenoughtogiveadmittancetososwellingathought。Anawe,thesweetestandmostsolemnthatimaginationcanconceive,pervadedmywholeframe。ItforsookmenotwhenIpartedfromPleyelandretiredtomychamber。Animpulsewasgiventomyspiritsutterlyincompatiblewithsleep。Ipassedthenightwakefulandfullofmeditation。Iwasimpressedwiththebeliefofmysterious,butnotofmalignantagency。Hithertonothinghadoccurredtopersuademethatthisairyministerwasbusytoevilratherthantogoodpurposes。Onthecontrary,theideaofsuperiorvirtuehadalwaysbeenassociatedinmymindwiththatofsuperiorpower。Thewarningsthathadthusbeenheardappearedtohavebeenpromptedbybeneficentintentions。Mybrotherhadbeenhinderedbythisvoicefromascendingthehill。

Hewastoldthatdangerlurkedinhispath,andhisobediencetotheintimationhadperhapssavedhimfromadestinysimilartothatofmyfather。

Pleyelhadbeenrescuedfromtormentinguncertainty,andfromthehazardsandfatiguesofafruitlessvoyage,bythesameinterposition。IthadassuredhimofthedeathofhisTheresa。

Thiswomanwasthendead。Aconfirmationofthetidings,iftrue,wouldspeedilyarrive。Wasthisconfirmationtobedeprecatedordesired?Byherdeath,thetiethatattachedhimtoEurope,wastakenaway。Henceforwardeverymotivewouldcombinetoretainhiminhisnativecountry,andwewererescuedfromthedeepregretsthatwouldaccompanyhishopelessabsencefromus。Propitiouswasthespiritthatimpartedthesetidings。

Propitioushewouldperhapshavebeen,ifhehadbeeninstrumentalinproducing,aswellasincommunicatingthetidingsofherdeath。Propitioustous,thefriendsofPleyel,towhomhastherebybeensecuredtheenjoymentofhissociety;

andnotunpropitioustohimself;forthoughthisobjectofhislovebesnatchedaway,istherenotanotherwhoisableandwillingtoconsolehimforherloss?

Twentydaysafterthis,anothervesselarrivedfromthesameport。Inthisinterval,Pleyel,forthemostpart,estrangedhimselffromhisoldcompanions。Hewasbecomethepreyofagloomyandunsociablegrief。HiswalkswerelimitedtothebankoftheDelaware。Thisbankisanartificialone。Reedsandtheriverareononeside,andawaterymarshontheother,inthatpartwhichboundedhislands,andwhichextendedfromthemouthofHollander"screektothatofSchuylkill。Noscenecanbeimaginedlessenticingtoaloverofthepicturesquethanthis。

Theshoreisdeformedwithmud,andincumberedwithaforestofreeds。Thefields,inmostseasons,aremire;butwhentheyaffordafirmfooting,theditchesbywhichtheyareboundedandintersected,aremantledwithstagnatinggreen,andemitthemostnoxiousexhalations。Healthisnolessastrangertothoseseatsthanpleasure。Springandautumnaresuretobeaccompaniedwithaguesandbiliousremittents。

ThesceneswhichenvironedourdwellingsatMettingenconstitutedthereverseofthis。Schuylkillwashereapureandtranslucidcurrent,brokenintOwildandceaselessmusicbyrockypoints,murmuringonasandymargin,andreflectingonitssurface,banksofallvarietiesofheightanddegreesofdeclivity。Thesebankswerechequeredbypatchesofdarkverdureandshapelessmassesofwhitemarble,andcrownedbycopsesofcedar,orbytheregularmagnificenceoforchards,which,atthisseason,wereinblossom,andwereprodigalofodours。Thegroundwhichrecededfromtheriverwasscoopedintovalleysanddales。Itsbeautieswereenhancedbythehorticulturalskillofmybrother,whobedeckedthisexquisiteassemblageofslopesandrisingswitheveryspeciesofvegetableornament,fromthegiantarmsoftheoaktotheclusteringtendrilsofthehoney-suckle。

Toscreenhimfromtheunwholesomeairsofhisownresidence,ithadbeenproposedtoPleyeltospendthemonthsofspringwithus。Hehadapparentlyacquiescedinthisproposal;butthelateeventinducedhimtochangehispurpose。Hewasonlytobeseenbyvisitinghiminhisretirements。Hisgaietyhadflown,andeverypassionwasabsorbedineagernesstoprocuretidingsfromSaxony。IhavementionedthearrivalofanothervesselfromtheElbe。Hedescriedherearlyonemorningashewaspassingalongtheskirtoftheriver。Shewaseasilyrecognized,beingtheshipinwhichhehadperformedhisfirstvoyagetoGermany。Heimmediatelywentonboard,butfoundnolettersdirectedtohim。Thisomissionwas,insomedegree,compensatedbymeetingwithanoldacquaintanceamongthepassengers,whohadtilllatelybeenaresidentinLeipsig。

ThispersonputanendtoallsuspenserespectingthefateofTheresa,byrelatingtheparticularsofherdeathandfuneral。

Thuswasthetruthoftheformerintimationattested。Nolongerdevouredbysuspense,thegriefofPleyelwasnotlonginyieldingtotheinfluenceofsociety。Hegavehimselfuponcemoretoourcompany。Hisvivacityhadindeedbeendamped;buteveninthisrespecthewasamoreacceptablecompanionthanformerly,sincehisseriousnesswasneitherincommunicativenorsullen。

Theseincidents,foratime,occupiedallourthoughts。Inmetheyproducedasentimentnotunalliedtopleasure,andmorespeedilythaninthecaseofmyfriendswereintermixedwithothertopics。Mybrotherwasparticularlyaffectedbythem。Itwaseasytoperceivethatmostofhismeditationsweretincturedfromthissource。Tothiswastobeascribedadesigninwhichhispenwas,atthisperiod,engaged,ofcollectingandinvestigatingthefactswhichrelatetothatmysteriouspersonage,theDaemonofSocrates。

Mybrother"sskillinGreekandRomanlearningwasexceededbythatoffew,andnodoubttheworldwouldhaveacceptedatreatiseuponthissubjectfromhishandwithavidity;butalas!

thisandeveryotherschemeoffelicityandhonor,weredoomedtosuddenblastandhopelessextermination。

ChapterVI

Inowcometothementionofapersonwithwhosenamethemostturbulentsensationsareconnected。ItiswithashudderingreluctancethatIenterontheprovinceofdescribinghim。NowitisthatIbegintoperceivethedifficultyofthetaskwhichIhaveundertaken;butitwouldbeweaknesstoshrinkfromit。Mybloodiscongealed:andmyfingersarepalsiedwhenIcalluphisimage。Shameuponmycowardlyandinfirmheart!HithertoIhaveproceededwithsomedegreeofcomposure,butnowImustpause。Imeannotthatdireremembranceshallsubduemycourageorbafflemydesign,butthisweaknesscannotbeimmediatelyconquered。Imustdesistforalittlewhile。

Ihavetakenafewturnsinmychamber,andhavegatheredstrengthenoughtoproceed。YethaveInotprojectedataskbeyondmypowertoexecute?Ifthus,ontheverythresholdofthescene,mykneesfaulterandIsink,howshallIsupportmyself,whenIrushintothemidstofhorrorssuchasnohearthashithertoconceived,nortonguerelated?Isickenandrecoilattheprospect,andyetmyirresolutionismomentary。Ihavenotformedthisdesignuponslightgrounds,andthoughImayattimespauseandhesitate,Iwillnotbefinallydivertedfromit。

Andthou,Omostfatalandpotentofmankind,inwhattermsshallIdescribethee?Whatwordsareadequatetothejustdelineationofthycharacter?HowshallIdetailthemeanswhichrenderedthesecrecyofthypurposesunfathomable?ButI

willnotanticipate。Letmerecoverifpossible,asoberstrain。Letmekeepdownthefloodofpassionthatwouldrendermeprecipitateorpowerless。Letmestifletheagoniesthatareawakenedbythyname。Letme,foratime,regardtheeasabeingofnoterribleattributes。Letmetearmyselffromcontemplationoftheevilsofwhichitisbuttoocertainthatthouwasttheauthor,andlimitmyviewtothoseharmlessappearanceswhichattendedthyentranceonthestage。

Onesunnyafternoon,Iwasstandinginthedoorofmyhouse,whenImarkedapersonpassingclosetotheedgeofthebankthatwasinfront。Hispacewasacarelessandlingeringone,andhadnoneofthatgracefulnessandeasewhichdistinguishapersonwithcertainadvantagesofeducationfromaclown。Hisgaitwasrusticandaukward。Hisformwasungainlyanddisproportioned。Shouldersbroadandsquare,breastsunken,hisheaddrooping,hisbodyofuniformbreadth,supportedbylongandlanklegs,weretheingredientsofhisframe。Hisgarbwasnotilladaptedtosuchafigure。Aslouchedhat,tarnishedbytheweather,acoatofthickgreycloth,cutandwrought,asitseemed,byacountrytailor,blueworstedstockings,andshoesfastenedbythongs,anddeeplydiscolouredbydust,whichbrushhadneverdisturbed,constitutedhisdress。

Therewasnothingremarkableintheseappearances;theywerefrequentlytobemetwithontheroad,andintheharvestfield。

IcannottellwhyIgazeduponthem,onthisoccasion,withmorethanordinaryattention,unlessitwerethatsuchfigureswereseldomseenbyme,exceptontheroadorfield。Thislawnwasonlytraversedbymenwhoseviewsweredirectedtothepleasuresofthewalk,orthegrandeurofthescenery。

Hepassedslowlyalong,frequentlypausing,asiftoexaminetheprospectmoredeliberately,butneverturninghiseyetowardsthehouse,soastoallowmeaviewofhiscountenance。

Presently,heenteredacopseatasmalldistance,anddisappeared。Myeyefollowedhimwhileheremainedinsight。

Ifhisimageremainedforanydurationinmyfancyafterhisdeparture,itwasbecausenootherobjectoccurredsufficienttoexpelit。

Icontinuedinthesamespotforhalfanhour,vaguely,andbyfits,contemplatingtheimageofthiswanderer,anddrawing,fromoutwardappearances,thoseinferenceswithrespecttotheintellectualhistoryofthisperson,whichexperienceaffordsus。Ireflectedonthealliancewhichcommonlysubsistsbetweenignoranceandthepracticeofagriculture,andindulgedmyselfinairyspeculationsastotheinfluenceofprogressiveknowledgeindissolvingthisalliance,andembodyingthedreamsofthepoets。Iaskedwhytheploughandthehoemightnotbecomethetradeofeveryhumanbeing,andhowthistrademightbemadeconduciveto,or,atleast,consistentwiththeacquisitionofwisdomandeloquence。

Wearywiththesereflections,Ireturnedtothekitchentoperformsomehouseholdoffice。Ihadusuallybutoneservant,andshewasagirlaboutmyownage。Iwasbusynearthechimney,andshewasemployednearthedooroftheapartment,whensomeoneknocked。Thedoorwasopenedbyher,andshewasimmediatelyaddressedwith"Pry"thee,goodgirl,canstthousupplyathirstymanwithaglassofbuttermilk?"Sheansweredthattherewasnoneinthehouse。"Aye,butthereissomeinthedairyyonder。ThouknowestaswellasI,thoughHermesnevertaughtthee,thatthougheverydairybeanhouse,everyhouseisnotadairy。"Tothisspeech,thoughsheunderstoodonlyapartofit,sherepliedbyrepeatingherassurances,thatshehadnonetogive。"Wellthen,"rejoinedthestranger,"forcharity"ssweetsake,handmeforthacupofcoldwater。"Thegirlsaidshewouldgotothespringandfetchit。"Nay,givemethecup,andsuffermetohelpmyself。Neithermanaclednorlame,Ishouldmeritburialinthemawofcarrioncrows,ifI

laidthistaskuponthee。"Shegavehimthecup,andheturnedtogotothespring。

Ilistenedtothisdialogueinsilence。Thewordsutteredbythepersonwithout,affectedmeassomewhatsingular,butwhatchieflyrenderedthemremarkable,wasthetonethataccompaniedthem。Itwaswhollynew。Mybrother"svoiceandPleyel"sweremusicalandenergetic。Ihadfondlyimagined,that,inthisrespect,theyweresurpassedbynone。Nowmymistakewasdetected。Icannotpretendtocommunicatetheimpressionthatwasmadeuponmebytheseaccents,ortodepictthedegreeinwhichforceandsweetnesswereblendedinthem。Theywerearticulatedwithadistinctnessthatwasunexampledinmyexperience。Butthiswasnotall。Thevoicewasnotonlymellifluentandclear,buttheemphasiswassojust,andthemodulationsoimpassioned,thatitseemedasifanheartofstonecouldnotfailofbeingmovedbyit。Itimpartedtomeanemotionaltogetherinvoluntaryandincontroulable。Whenheutteredthewords"forcharity"ssweetsake,"IdroppedthecloththatIheldinmyhand,myheartoverflowedwithsympathy,andmyeyeswithunbiddentears。

Thisdescriptionwillappeartoyoutriflingorincredible。

Theimportanceofthesecircumstanceswillbemanifestedinthesequel。ThemannerinwhichIwasaffectedonthisoccasion,was,tomyownapprehension,asubjectofastonishment。ThetoneswereindeedsuchasIneverheardbefore;butthattheyshould,inaninstant,asitwere,dissolvemeintears,willnoteasilybebelievedbyothers,andcanscarcelybecomprehendedbymyself。

ItwillbereadilysupposedthatIwassomewhatinquisitiveastothepersonanddemeanourofourvisitant。Afteramoment"spause,Isteppedtothedoorandlookedafterhim。

Judgemysurprize,whenIbeheldtheself-samefigurethathadappearedanhalfhourbeforeuponthebank。Myfancyhadconjuredupaverydifferentimage。Aform,andattitude,andgarb,wereinstantlycreatedworthytoaccompanysuchelocution;

butthispersonwas,inallvisiblerespects,thereverseofthisphantom。Strangeasitmayseem,Icouldnotspeedilyreconcilemyselftothisdisappointment。Insteadofreturningtomyemployment,Ithrewmyselfinachairthatwasplacedoppositethedoor,andsunkintoafitofmusing。

Myattentionwas,inafewminutes,recalledbythestranger,whoreturnedwiththeemptycupinhishand。Ihadnotthoughtofthecircumstance,orshouldcertainlyhavechosenadifferentseat。Henosoonershewedhimself,thanaconfusedsenseofimpropriety,addedtothesuddennessoftheinterview,forwhich,nothavingforeseenit,Ihadmadenopreparation,threwmeintoastateofthemostpainfulembarrassment。Hebroughtwithhimaplacidbrow;butnosoonerhadhecasthiseyesuponme,thanhisfacewasasglowinglysuffusedasmyown。Heplacedthecupuponthebench,stammeredoutthanks,andretired。

ItwassometimebeforeIcouldrecovermywontedcomposure。

Ihadsnatchedaviewofthestranger"scountenance。Theimpressionthatitmadewasvividandindelible。Hischeekswerepallidandlank,hiseyessunken,hisforeheadovershadowedbycoarsestragglinghairs,histeethlargeandirregular,thoughsoundandbrilliantlywhite,andhischindiscolouredbyatetter。Hisskinwasofcoarsegrain,andsallowhue。Everyfeaturewaswideofbeauty,andtheoutlineofhisfaceremindedyouofaninvertedcone。

Andyethisforehead,sofarasshaggylockswouldallowittobeseen,hiseyeslustrouslyblack,andpossessing,inthemidstofhaggardness,aradianceinexpressiblysereneandpotent,andsomethingintherestofhisfeatures,whichitwouldbeinvaintodescribe,butwhichservedtobetokenamindofthehighestorder,wereessentialingredientsintheportrait。This,intheeffectswhichimmediatelyflowedfromit,Icountamongthemostextraordinaryincidentsofmylife。

Thisface,seenforamoment,continuedforhourstooccupymyfancy,totheexclusionofalmosteveryotherimage。Ihadpurposedtospendtheeveningwithmybrother,butIcouldnotresisttheinclinationofformingasketchuponpaperofthismemorablevisage。Whethermyhandwasaidedbyanypeculiarinspiration,orIwasdeceivedbymyownfondconceptions,thisportrait,thoughhastilyexecuted,appearedunexceptionabletomyowntaste。

Iplaceditatalldistances,andinalllights;myeyeswererivetteduponit。Halfthenightpassedawayinwakefulnessandincontemplationofthispicture。Soflexible,andyetsostubborn,isthehumanmind。Soobedienttoimpulsesthemosttransientandbrief,andyetsounalterablyobservantofthedirectionwhichisgiventoit!HowlittledidIthenforeseetheterminationofthatchain,ofwhichthismayberegardedasthefirstlink?

Nextdayaroseindarknessandstorm。Torrentsofrainfellduringthewholeday,attendedwithincessantthunder,whichreverberatedinstunningechoesfromtheoppositedeclivity。

Theinclemencyoftheairwouldnotallowmetowalk-out。I

had,indeed,noinclinationtoleavemyapartment。Ibetookmyselftothecontemplationofthisportrait,whoseattractionstimehadratherenhancedthandiminished。Ilaidasidemyusualoccupations,andseatingmyselfatawindow,consumedthedayinalternatelylookingoutuponthestorm,andgazingatthepicturewhichlayuponatablebeforeme。Youwill,perhaps,deemthisconductsomewhatsingular,andascribeittocertainpeculiaritiesoftemper。Iamnotawareofanysuchpeculiarities。Icanaccountformydevotiontothisimagenootherwise,thanbysupposingthatitspropertieswererareandprodigious。Perhapsyouwillsuspectthatsuchwerethefirstinroadsofapassionincidenttoeveryfemaleheart,andwhichfrequentlygainsafootingbymeansevenmoreslight,andmoreimprobablethanthese。Ishallnotcontrovertthereasonablenessofthesuspicion,butleaveyouatlibertytodraw,frommynarrative,whatconclusionsyouplease。

Nightatlengthreturned,andthestormceased。Theairwasoncemoreclearandcalm,andboreanaffectingcontrasttothatuproaroftheelementsbywhichithadbeenpreceded。Ispentthedarksomehours,asIspenttheday,contemplativeandseatedatthewindow。Whywasmymindabsorbedinthoughtsominousanddreary?Whydidmybosomheavewithsighs,andmyeyesoverflowwithtears?Wasthetempestthathadjustpastasignaloftheruinwhichimpendedoverme?Mysoulfondlydweltupontheimagesofmybrotherandhischildren,yettheyonlyincreasedthemournfulnessofmycontemplations。Thesmilesofthecharmingbabeswereasblandasformerly。Thesamedignitysatonthebrowoftheirfather,andyetIthoughtofthemwithanguish。Somethingwhisperedthatthehappinessweatpresentenjoyedwassetonmutablefoundations。Deathmusthappentoall。Whetherourfelicitywastobesubvertedbyitto-morrow,orwhetheritwasordainedthatweshouldlaydownourheadsfullofyearsandofhonor,wasaquestionthatnohumanbeingcouldsolve。Atothertimes,theseideasseldomintruded。I

eitherforboretoreflectuponthedestinythatisreservedforallmen,orthereflectionwasmixedupwithimagesthatdisrobeditofterror;butnowtheuncertaintyoflifeoccurredtomewithoutanyofitsusualandalleviatingaccompaniments。

Isaidtomyself,wemustdie。Soonerorlater,wemustdisappearforeverfromthefaceoftheearth。Whateverbethelinksthatholdustolife,theymustbebroken。Thissceneofexistenceis,inallitsparts,calamitous。Thegreaternumberisoppressedwithimmediateevils,andthose,thetideofwhosefortunesisfull,howsmallistheirportionofenjoyment,sincetheyknowthatitwillterminate。

ForsometimeIindulgedmyself,withoutreluctance,inthesegloomythoughts;butatlength,thedejectionwhichtheyproducedbecameinsupportablypainful。Iendeavouredtodissipateitwithmusic。Ihadallmygrand-father"smelodyaswellaspoetrybyrote。Inowlightedbychanceonaballad,whichcommemoratedthefateofaGermanCavalier,whofellatthesiegeofNiceunderGodfreyofBouillon。Mychoicewasunfortunate,forthescenesofviolenceandcarnagewhichwereherewildlybutforciblypourtrayed,onlysuggestedtomythoughtsanewtopicinthehorrorsofwar。

Isoughtrefuge,butineffectually,insleep。Mymindwasthrongedbyvivid,butconfusedimages,andnoeffortthatI

madewassufficienttodrivethemaway。InthissituationI

heardtheclock,whichhungintheroom,givethesignalfortwelve。Itwasthesameinstrumentwhichformerlyhunginmyfather"schamber,andwhich,onaccountofitsbeinghisworkmanship,wasregarded,byeveryoneofourfamily,withveneration。Ithadfallentome,inthedivisionofhisproperty,andwasplacedinthisasylum。Thesoundawakenedaseriesofreflections,respectinghisdeath。Iwasnotallowedtopursuethem;forscarcelyhadthevibrationsceased,whenmyattentionwasattractedbyawhisper,which,atfirst,appearedtoproceedfromlipsthatwerelaidclosetomyear。

Nowonderthatacircumstancelikethisstartledme。Inthefirstimpulseofmyterror,Iutteredaslightscream,andshrunktotheoppositesideofthebed。Inamoment,however,Irecoveredfrommytrepidation。Iwashabituallyindifferenttoallthecausesoffear,bywhichthemajorityareafflicted。

Ientertainednoapprehensionofeitherghostsorrobbers。Oursecurityhadneverbeenmolestedbyeither,andImadeuseofnomeanstopreventorcounterworktheirmachinations。Mytranquillity,onthisoccasion,wasquicklyretrieved。Thewhisperevidentlyproceededfromonewhowaspostedatmybed-side。Thefirstideathatsuggesteditselfwas,thatitwasutteredbythegirlwholivedwithmeasaservant。Perhaps,somewhathadalarmedher,orshewassick,andhadcometorequestmyassistance。Bywhisperinginmyear,sheintendedtorousewithoutalarmingme。

Fullofthispersuasion,Icalled;"Judith,"saidI,"isityou?Whatdoyouwant?Isthereanythingthematterwithyou?"Noanswerwasreturned。Irepeatedmyinquiry,butequallyinvain。Cloudyaswastheatmosphere,andcurtainedasmybedwas,nothingwasvisible。Iwithdrewthecurtain,andleaningmyheadonmyelbow,Ilistenedwiththedeepestattentiontocatchsomenewsound。Meanwhile,Iranoverinmythoughts,everycircumstancethatcouldassistmyconjectures。

Myhabitationwasawoodenedifice,consistingoftwostories。Ineachstoryweretworooms,separatedbyanentry,ormiddlepassage,withwhichtheycommunicatedbyoppositedoors。Thepassage,onthelowerstory,haddoorsatthetwoends,andastair-case。Windowsansweredtothedoorsontheupperstory。Annexedtothis,ontheeasternside,werewings,divided,inlikemanner,intoanupperandlowerroom;oneofthemcomprizedakitchen,andchamberaboveitfortheservant,andcommunicated,onbothstories,withtheparlouradjoiningitbelow,andthechamberadjoiningitabove。Theoppositewingisofsmallerdimensions,theroomsnotbeingaboveeightfeetsquare。Thelowerofthesewasusedasadepositoryofhouseholdimplements,theupperwasaclosetinwhichI

depositedmybooksandpapers。Theyhadbutoneinlet,whichwasfromtheroomadjoining。Therewasnowindowinthelowerone,andintheupper,asmallaperturewhichcommunicatedlightandair,butwouldscarcelyadmitthebody。Thedoorwhichledintothis,wasclosetomybed-head,andwasalwayslocked,butwhenImyselfwaswithin。Theavenuesbelowwereaccustomedtobeclosedandboltedatnights。

Themaidwasmyonlycompanion,andshecouldnotreachmychamberwithoutpreviouslypassingthroughtheoppositechamber,andthemiddlepassage,ofwhich,however,thedoorswereusuallyunfastened。Ifshehadoccasionedthisnoise,shewouldhaveansweredmyrepeatedcalls。Nootherconclusion,therefore,wasleftme,butthatIhadmistakenthesounds,andthatmyimaginationhadtransformedsomecasualnoiseintothevoiceofahumancreature。Satisfiedwiththissolution,Iwaspreparingtorelinquishmylisteningattitude,whenmyearwasagainsalutedwithanewandyetlouderwhispering。Itappeared,asbefore,toissuefromlipsthattouchedmypillow。

Asecondeffortofattention,however,clearlyshewedme,thatthesoundsissuedfromwithinthecloset,thedoorofwhichwasnotmorethaneightinchesfrommypillow。

Thissecondinterruptionoccasionedashocklessvehementthantheformer。Istarted,butgavenoaudibletokenofalarm。

Iwassomuchmistressofmyfeelings,astocontinuelisteningtowhatshouldbesaid。Thewhisperwasdistinct,hoarse,andutteredsoastoshewthatthespeakerwasdesirousofbeingheardbysomeonenear,but,atthesametime,studioustoavoidbeingoverheardbyanyother。

"Stop,stop,Isay;madmanasyouare!therearebettermeansthanthat。Curseuponyourrashness!Thereisnoneedtoshoot。"

Suchwerethewordsutteredinatoneofeagernessandanger,withinsosmalladistanceofmypillow。WhatconstructioncouldIputuponthem?Myheartbegantopalpitatewithdreadofsomeunknowndanger。Presently,anothervoice,butequallynearme,washeardwhisperinginanswer。"Whynot?Iwilldrawatriggerinthisbusiness,butperditionbemylotifIdomore。"Tothis,thefirstvoicereturned,inatonewhichragehadheightenedinasmalldegreeaboveawhisper,"Coward!standaside,andseemedoit。Iwillgraspherthroat;Iwilldoherbusinessinaninstant;sheshallnothavetimesomuchastogroan。"WhatwonderthatIwaspetrifiedbysoundssodreadful!

Murdererslurkedinmycloset。Theywereplanningthemeansofmydestruction。Oneresolvedtoshoot,andtheothermenacedsuffocation。Theirmeansbeingchosen,theywouldforthwithbreakthedoor。Flightinstantlysuggesteditselfasmosteligibleincircumstancessoperilous。Ideliberatednotamoment;but,fearaddingwingstomyspeed,Ileapedoutofbed,andscantilyrobedasIwas,rushedoutofthechamber,downstairs,andintotheopenair。Icanhardlyrecollecttheprocessofturningkeys,andwithdrawingbolts。Myterrorsurgedmeforwardwithalmostamechanicalimpulse。IstoppednottillIreachedmybrother"sdoor。Ihadnotgainedthethreshold,when,exhaustedbytheviolenceofmyemotions,andbymyspeed,Isunkdowninafit。

HowlongIremainedinthissituationIknownot。WhenI

recovered,Ifoundmyselfstretchedonabed,surroundedbymysisterandherfemaleservants。Iwasastonishedatthescenebeforeme,butgraduallyrecoveredtherecollectionofwhathadhappened。IansweredtheirimportunateinquiriesaswellasI

wasable。MybrotherandPleyel,whomthestormoftheprecedingdaychancedtodetainhere,informingthemselvesofeveryparticular,proceededwithlightsandweaponstomydesertedhabitation。Theyenteredmychamberandmycloset,andfoundeverythinginitsproperplaceandcustomaryorder。Thedooroftheclosetwaslocked,andappearednottohavebeenopenedinmyabsence。TheywenttoJudith"sapartment。Theyfoundherasleepandinsafety。Pleyel"scautioninducedhimtoforbearalarmingthegirl;andfindingherwhollyignorantofwhathadpassed,theydirectedhertoreturntoherchamber。

Theythenfastenedthedoors,andreturned。

Myfriendsweredisposedtoregardthistransactionasadream。Thatpersonsshouldbeactuallyimmuredinthiscloset,towhich,inthecircumstancesofthetime,accessfromwithoutorwithinwasapparentlyimpossible,theycouldnotseriouslybelieve。Thatanyhumanbeingshadintendedmurder,unlessitweretocoveraschemeofpillage,wasincredible;butthatnosuchdesignhadbeenformed,wasevidentfromthesecurityinwhichthefurnitureofthehouseandtheclosetremained。

Irevolvedeveryincidentandexpressionthathadoccurred。

Mysensesassuredmeofthetruthofthem,andyettheirabruptnessandimprobabilitymademe,inmyturn,somewhatincredulous。Theadventurehadmadeadeepimpressiononmyfancy,anditwasnottillafteraweek"sabodeatmybrother"s,thatIresolvedtoresumethepossessionofmyowndwelling。

Therewasanothercircumstancethatenhancedthemysteriousnessofthisevent。Aftermyrecoveryitwasobvioustoinquirebywhatmeanstheattentionofthefamilyhadbeendrawntomysituation。IhadfallenbeforeIhadreachedthethreshold,orwasabletogiveanysignal。Mybrotherrelated,thatwhilethiswastransactinginmychamber,hehimselfwasawake,inconsequenceofsomeslightindisposition,andlay,accordingtohiscustom,musingonsomefavoritetopic。

Suddenlythesilence,whichwasremarkablyprofound,wasbrokenbyavoiceofmostpiercingshrillness,thatseemedtobeutteredbyoneinthehallbelowhischamber。"Awake!arise!"

itexclaimed:"hastentosuccouronethatisdyingatyourdoor。"

Thissummonswaseffectual。Therewasnooneinthehousewhowasnotrousedbyit。Pleyelwasthefirsttoobey,andmybrotherovertookhimbeforehereachedthehall。Whatwasthegeneralastonishmentwhenyourfriendwasdiscoveredstretcheduponthegrassbeforethedoor,pale,ghastly,andwitheverymarkofdeath!

Thiswasthethirdinstanceofavoice,exertedforthebenefitofthislittlecommunity。Theagentwasnolessinscrutableinthis,thanintheformercase。WhenIruminatedupontheseevents,mysoulwassuspendedinwonderandawe。WasIreallydeceivedinimaginingthatIheardtheclosetconversation?Iwasnolongeratlibertytoquestiontherealityofthoseaccentswhichhadformerlyrecalledmybrotherfromthehill;whichhadimpartedtidingsofthedeathoftheGermanladytoPleyel;andwhichhadlatelysummonedthemtomyassistance。

ButhowwasItoregardthismidnightconversation?Hoarseandmanlikevoicesconferringonthemeansofdeath,sonearmybed,andatsuchanhour!Howhadmyancientsecurityvanished!

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