第3章
"Whatwasyouthinkin"about,Jim?"
Jimwasatrifleawkwardforthemoment。
"Nothin","heanswered。"OnlyIwasthinkin"justhowfunnyitwas——allthemjoolsathishouse。Whatmadeyouask?"
"Nothin"。Iwasjustwonderin",thatwasall。"
Thesilencesettleddown,brokenbyanoccasionallowandnervousgiggleonthepartofJim。Hewasovercomebythespreadofgems。Itwasnotthathefelttheirbeauty。Hewasunawarethattheywerebeautifulinthemselves。Butinthemhisswiftimaginationvisionedthejoysoflifetheywouldbuy,andallthedesiresandappetitesofhisdiseasedmindandsicklyfleshweretickledbythepromisetheyextended。Hebuildedwondrous,orgy-hauntedcastlesoutoftheirbrilliantfires,andwasappalledatwhathebuilded。Thenitwasthathegiggled。Itwasalltooimpossibletobereal。Andyettheretheyblazedonthetablebeforehim,fanningtheflameofthelustofhim,andhegiggledagain。
"Iguesswemightaswellcount"em,"Mattsaidsuddenly,tearinghimselfawayfromhisownvisions。"Youwatchmean"seethatit"ssquare,becauseyouan"mehasgottobeonthesquare,Jim。Understand?"
Jimdidnotlikethis,andbetrayeditinhiseyes,whileMattdidnotlikewhathesawinhispartner"seyes。
"Understand?"Mattrepeated,almostmenacingly。
"Ain"twealwaysbensquare?"theotherreplied,onthedefensivebecauseofthetreacheryalreadywhisperinginhim。
"Itdon"tcostnothin",bein"squareinhardtimes,"Mattretorted。"It"sbein"squareinprosperitythatcounts。Whenweain"tgotnothin",wecan"thelpbein"square。We"reprosperousnow,an"we"vegottobebusinessmen——honestbusinessmen。Understand?"
"That"sthetalkforme,"Jimapproved,butdeepdowninthemeagresoulofhim,——andinspiteofhim,——wantonandlawlessthoughtswerestirringlikechainedbeasts。
Mattsteppedtothefoodshelfbehindthetwo-burnerkerosenecookingstove。Heemptiedtheteafromapaperbag,andfromasecondbagemptiedsomeredpeppers。Returningtothetablewiththebags,heputintothemthetwosizesofsmalldiamonds。Thenhecountedthelargegemsandwrappedthemintheirtissuepaperandchamoisskin。
"Hundredan"forty-sevengood-sizedones,"washisinventory;"twentyrealbigones;twobigboysandonewhopper;an"acoupleoffistfulsofteenyonesan"dust。"
HelookedatJim。
"Correct,"wastheresponse。
Hewrotethecountoutonaslipofmemorandumpaper,andmadeacopyofit,givingonesliptohispartnerandretainingtheother。
"Justforreference,"hesaid。
Againhehadrecoursetothefoodshelf,whereheemptiedthesugarfromalargepaperbag。Intothishethrustthediamonds,largeandsmall,wrappeditupinabandannahandkerchief,andstoweditawayunderhispillow。Thenhesatdownontheedgeofthebedandtookoffhisshoes。
"An"youthinkthey"reworthahundredthousan"?"Jimasked,pausingandlookingupfromtheunlacingofhisshoe。
"Sure,"wastheanswer。"Iseenadance-housegirldowninArizonaonce,withsomebigsparklersonher。Theywasn"treal。Shesaidiftheywasshewouldn"tbedancin"。Saidthey"dbeworthalloffiftythousan",an"
shedidn"thaveadozenof"emalltold。"
"Who"dworkforalivin"?"Jimtriumphantlydemanded。"Pickan"shovelwork!"hesneered。"Worklikeadogallmylife,an"saveallmywages,an"Iwouldn"thavehalfasmuchaswegottonight。"
"Dishwashin"saboutyourmeasure,an"youcouldn"tgetmore"ntwentyamonthan"board。Yourfiggersis"wayoff,butyourpointiswelltaken。
Letthemthatlikesit,work。IroderangeforthirtyamonthwhenIwasyoungan"foolish。Well,I"molder,an"Iain"tridin"range。"
Hegotintobedononeside。Jimputoutthelightandfollowedhiminontheotherside。
"How"syourarmfeel?"Jimqueriedamiably。
Suchconcernwasunusual,andMattnotedit,andreplied——
"Iguessthere"snodangerofhydrophoby。Whatmadeyouask?"
Jimfeltinhimselfaguiltystir,andunderhisbreathhecursedtheother"swayofaskingdisagreeablequestions;butaloudheanswered——
"Nothin",onlyyouseemedscaredofitatfirst。Whatareyougoin"todowithyourshare,Matt?"
"BuyacattleranchinArizonaan"setdownan"payothermentoriderangeforme。There"ssomeseveralI"dliketoseeaskin"ajobfromme,damnthem!An"nowyoushutyourface,Jim。It"llbesometimebeforeIbuythatranch。JustnowI"mgoin"tosleep。"
ButJimlaylongawake,nervousandtwitching,rollingaboutrestlesslyandrollinghimselfwideawakeeverytimehedozed。Thediamondsstillblazedunderhiseyelids,andthefireofthemhurt。Matt,inspiteofhisheavynature,sleptlightly,likeawildanimalalertinitssleep;andJimnoticed,everytimehemoved,thathispartner"sbodymovedsufficientlytoshowthatithadreceivedtheimpressionandthatitwastremblingonthevergeofawakening。Forthatmatter,Jimdidnotknowwhetherornot,frequently,theotherwasawake。Once,quietly,betokeningcompleteconsciousness,Mattsaidtohim:"Aw,gotosleep,Jim。Don"tworryaboutthemjools。They"llkeep。"AndJimhadthoughtthatatthatparticularmomentMatthadbeensurelyasleep。
InthelatemorningMattwasawakewithJim"sfirstmovement,andthereafterheawokeanddozedwithhimuntilmidday,whentheygotuptogetherandbegandressing。
"I"mgoin"outtogetapaperan"somebread,"Mattsaid。"Youboilthecoffee。"
AsJimlistened,unconsciouslyhisgazeleftMatt"sfaceandrovedtothepillow,beneathwhichwasthebundlewrappedinthebandannahandkerchief。
OntheinstantMatt"sfacebecamelikeawildbeast"s。
"Lookhere,Jim,"hesnarled。"You"vegottoplaysquare。Ifyoudomedirt,I"llfixyou。Understand?I"deatyou,Jim。Youknowthat。I"dbiterightintoyourthroatan"eatyoulikethatmuchbeefsteak。"
Hissunburnedskinwasblackwiththesurgeofbloodinit,andhistobacco-stainedteethwereexposedbythesnarlinglips。Jimshiveredandinvoluntarilycowered。Therewasdeathinthemanhelookedat。Onlythenightbeforethatblack-facedmanhadkilledanotherwithhishands,andithadnothurthissleep。AndinhisownheartJimwasawareofasneakingguilt,ofatrainofthoughtthatmeritedallthatwasthreatened。
Mattpassedout,leavinghimstillshivering。Thenahatredtwistedhisownface,andhesoftlyhurledsavagecursesatthedoor。Herememberedthejewels,andhastenedtothebed,feelingunderthepillowforthebandannabundle。Hecrusheditwithhisfingerstomakecertainthatitstillcontainedthediamonds。AssuredthatMatthadnotcarriedthemaway,helookedtowardthekerosenestovewithaguiltystart。Thenhehurriedlylightedit,filledthecoffee-potatthesink,andputitovertheflame。
ThecoffeewasboilingwhenMattreturned,andwhilethelattercutthebreadandputasliceofbutteronthetable,Jimpouredoutthecoffee。
Itwasnotuntilhesatdownandhadtakenafewsipsofthecoffee,thatMattpulledoutthemorningpaperfromhispocket。
"Wewaswayoff,"hesaid。"ItoldyouIdidn"tdastfiggerouthowfatitwas。Lookatthat。"
Hepointedtothehead-linesonthefirstpage。
"SWIFTNEMESISONBUJANNOFF"STRACK,"theyread。"MURDEREDINHISSLEEP
AFTERROBBINGHISPARTNER。"
"Thereyouhaveit!"Mattcried。"Herobbedhispartner——robbedhimlikeadirtythief。"
"Halfamillionofjewelsmissin","Jimreadaloud。HeputthepaperdownandstaredatMatt。
"That"swhatItoldyou,"thelattersaid。"Whatinhelldoweknowaboutjools?Halfamillion!——an"thebestIcouldfiggeritwasahundredthousan"。Goonan"readtherestofit。"
Theyreadonsilently,theirheadssidebyside,theuntouchedcoffeegrowingcold;andeverandanononeortheotherburstforthwithsomesalientprintedfact。
"I"dliketoseenMetzner"sfacewhenheopenedthesafeatthestorethismornin","Jimgloated。
"HehitthehighplacesrightawayforBujannoff"shouse,"Mattexplained。
"Goonan"read。"
"WastohavesailedlastnightattenontheSajodafortheSouthSeas——
steamshipdelayedbyextrafreight——"
"That"swhywecaught"minbed,"Mattinterrupted。"Itwasjustluck——
likepickin"afifty-to-onewinner。"
"Sajodasailedatsixthismornin"——"
"Hedidn"tcatchher,"Mattsaid。"Isawhisalarm-clockwassetatfive。
That"dgiven"mplentyoftime……onlyIcomealongan"putthekiboshonhistime。Goon。"
"AdolphMetznerindespair——thefamousHaythornepearlnecklace——
magnificentlyassortedpearls——valuedbyexpertsatfromfiftytoseventythousan"dollars。"
Jimbrokeofftoswearvilelyandsolemnly,concludingwith,"Thosedamnoyster-eggsworthallthatmoney!"
Helickedhislipsandadded,"Theywasbeautiesan"nomistake。"
"BigBraziliangem,"hereadon。"Eightythousan"dollars——manyvaluablegemsofthefirstwater——severalthousan"smalldiamondswellworthfortythousan"。"
"Whatyoudon"tknowaboutjoolsisworthknowin","Mattsmiledgood-
humouredly。
"Theoryofthesleuths,"Jimread。"Thievesmusthaveknown——cleverlykeptwatchonBujannoff"sactions——musthavelearnedhisplanandtrailedhimtohishousewiththefruitsofhisrobbery——"
"Clever——hell!"Mattbrokeout。"That"sthewayreputationsismade……
inthenoospapers。How"dweknowhewasrobbin"hispardner?"
"Anyway,we"vegotthegoods,"Jimgrinned。"Let"slookat"emagain。"
Heassuredhimselfthatthedoorwaslockedandbolted,whileMattbroughtoutthebundleinthebandannaandopeneditonthetable。
"Ain"ttheybeauties,though!"Jimexclaimedatsightofthepearls;andforatimehehadeyesonlyforthem。"Accordin"totheexperts,worthfromfiftytoseventythousan"dollars。"
"An"womenlikethemthings,"Mattcommented。"An"they"lldoeverythingtoget"em——sellthemselves,commitmurder,anything。"
"Justlikeyouan"me。"
"Notonyourlife,"Mattretorted。"I"llcommitmurderfor"em,butnotfortheirownsakes,butforsakeofwhatthey"llgetme。That"sthedifference。Womenwantthejoolsforthemselves,an"Iwantthejoolsforthewomenan"suchthingsthey"llgetme。"
"Luckythatmenan"womendon"twantthesamethings,"Jimremarked。
"That"swhatmakescommerce,"Mattagreed;"peoplewantin"differentthings。"
InthemiddleoftheafternoonJimwentouttobuyfood。Whilehewasgone,Mattclearedthetableofthejewels,wrappingthemupasbeforeandputtingthemunderthepillow。Thenhelightedthekerosenestoveandstartedtoboilwaterforcoffee。Afewminuteslater,Jimreturned。
"Mostsurprising,"heremarked。"Streets,an"stores,an"peoplejustliketheyalwayswas。Nothin"changed。An"mewalkingalongthroughitallamillionaire。Nobodylookedatmean"guessedit。"
Mattgruntedunsympathetically。Hehadlittlecomprehensionofthelighterwhimsandfanciesofhispartner"simagination。
"Didyougetaporterhouse?"hedemanded。
"Sure,an"aninchthick。It"sapeach。Lookatit。"
Heunwrappedthesteakandhelditupfortheother"sinspection。Thenhemadethecoffeeandsetthetable,whileMattfriedthesteak。
"Don"tputontoomuchofthemredpeppers,"Jimwarned。"Iain"tusedtoyourMexicancookin"。Youalwaysseasontoohot。"
Mattgruntedalaughandwentonwithhiscooking。Jimpouredoutthecoffee,butfirst,intothenickedchinacup,heemptiedapowderhehadcarriedinhisvestpocketwrappedinarice-paper。Hehadturnedhisbackforthemomentonhispartner,buthedidnotdaretoglancearoundathim。
Mattplacedanewspaperonthetable,andonthenewspapersetthehotfrying-pan。Hecutthesteakinhalf,andservedJimandhimself。
"Eatherwhileshe"shot,"hecounselled,andwithknifeandforksettheexample。
"She"sadandy,"wasJim"sjudgment,afterhisfirstmouthful。"ButItellyouonethingstraight。I"mnevergoin"tovisityouonthatArizonaranch,soyouneedn"taskme。"
"What"sthematternow?"Mattasked。
"Hell"sthematter,"wastheanswer。"TheMexicancookin"onyourranch"dbetoomuchforme。IfI"vegothella-comin"inthenextlife,I"mnotgoin"totormentmyinsidesinthisone。Damnedpeppers!"
Hesmiled,expelledhisbreathforciblytocoolhisburningmouth,dranksomecoffee,andwentoneatingthesteak。
"Whatdoyouthinkaboutthenextlifeanyway,Matt?"heaskedalittlelater,whilesecretlyhewonderedwhytheotherhadnotyettouchedhiscoffee。
"Ain"tnonextlife,"Mattanswered,pausingfromthesteaktotakehisfirstsipofcoffee。"Norheavennorhell,nornothin"。Yougetallthat"scomin"righthereinthislife。"
"An"afterward?"Jimqueriedoutofhismorbidcuriosity,forheknewthathelookeduponamanthatwassoontodie。"An"afterward?"herepeated。
"Didyoueverseeamantwoweeksdead?"theotherasked。
Jimshookhishead。
"Well,Ihave。Hewaslikethisbeefsteakyouan"meiseatin"。Itwasoncesteercavortin"overthelandscape。Butnowit"sjustmeat。That"sall,justmeat。An"that"swhatyouan"mean"allpeoplecometo——meat。"
Mattgulpeddownthewholecupofcoffee,andrefilledthecup。
"Areyouscaredtodie?"heasked。
Jimshookhishead。"What"stheuse?Idon"tdieanyway。Ipassonan"
liveagain——"
"Togostealin",an"lyin"an"snivellin"throughanotherlife,an"goonthatwayforeveran"everan"ever?"Mattsneered。
"MaybeI"llimprove,"Jimsuggestedhopefully。"Maybestealin"won"tbenecessaryinthelifetocome。"
Heceasedabruptly,andstaredstraightbeforehim,afrightenedexpressiononhisface。
"What"sthematter!"Mattdemanded。
"Nothin"。Iwasjustwonderin""——Jimreturnedtohimselfwithaneffort——
"aboutthisdyin",thatwasall。"
Buthecouldnotshakeoffthefrightthathadstartledhim。Itwasasifanunseenthingofgloomhadpassedhimby,castinguponhimtheintangibleshadowofitspresence。Hewasawareofafeelingofforeboding。
Somethingominouswasabouttohappen。Calamityhoveredintheair。Hegazedfixedlyacrossthetableattheotherman。Hecouldnotunderstand。
Wasitthathehadblunderedandpoisonedhimself?No,Matthadthenickedcup,andhehadcertainlyputthepoisoninthenickedcup。
Itwasallhisownimagination,washisnextthought。Ithadplayedhimtricksbefore。Fool!Ofcourseitwas。Ofcoursesomethingwasabouttohappen,butitwasabouttohappentoMatt。HadnotMattdrunkthewholecupofcoffee?
Jimbrightenedupandfinishedhissteak,soppingbreadinthegravywhenthemeatwasgone。
"WhenIwasakid——"hebegan,butbrokeoffabruptly。
Againtheunseenthingofgloomhadfluttered,andhisbeingwasvibrantwithpremonitionofimpendingmisfortune。Hefeltadisruptiveinfluenceatworkinthefleshofhim,andinallhismusclestherewasaseemingthattheywereabouttobegintotwitch。Hesatbacksuddenly,andassuddenlyleanedforwardwithhiselbowsonthetable。Atremorrandimlythroughthemusclesofhisbody。Itwaslikethefirstrustlingofleavesbeforetheoncomingofwind。Heclenchedhisteeth。Itcameagain,aspasmodictensingofhismuscles。Heknewpanicattherevoltwithinhisbeing。Hismusclesnolongerrecognizedhismasteryoverthem。Againtheyspasmodicallytensed,despitethewillofhim,forhehadwilledthattheyshouldnottense。Thiswasrevolutionwithinhimself,thiswasanarchy;
andtheterrorofimpotencerushedupinhimashisfleshgrippedandseemedtoseizehiminaclutch,chillsrunningupanddownhisbackandsweatstartingonhisbrow。Heglancedabouttheroom,andallthedetailsofitsmotehimwithastrangesenseoffamiliarity。Itwasasthoughhehadjustreturnedfromalongjourney。Helookedacrossthetableathispartner。Mattwaswatchinghimandsmiling。AnexpressionofhorrorspreadoverJim"sface。
"MyGod,Matt!"hescreamed。"Youain"tdopedme?"
Mattsmiledandcontinuedtowatchhim。Intheparoxysmthatfollowed,Jimdidnotbecomeunconscious。Hismusclestensedandtwitchedandknotted,hurtinghimandcrushinghimintheirsavagegrip。Andinthemidstofitall,itcametohimthatMattwasactingqueerly。Hewastravellingthesameroad。Thesmilehadgonefromhisface,andtherewasonitanintentexpression,asifhewerelisteningtosomeinnertaleofhimselfandtryingtodivinethemessage。Mattgotupandwalkedacrosstheroomandbackagain,thensatdown。
"Youdidthis,Jim,"hesaidquietly。
"ButIdidn"tthinkyou"dtrytofixME,"Jimansweredreproachfully。
"Oh,Ifixedyouallright,"Mattsaid,withteethclosetogetherandshiveringbody。"Whatdidyougiveme?"
"Strychnine。"
"SameasIgaveyou,"Mattvolunteered。"It"sahellofamess,ain"tit?"
"You"relyin",Matt,"Jimpleaded。"Youain"tdopedme,haveyou?"
"Isuredid,Jim;an"Ididn"toverdoseyou,neither。Icookeditinasneatasyoupleaseinyourhalftheporterhouse——Holdon!Where"reyougoin"?"
Jimhadmadeadashforthedoor,andwasthrowingbackthebolts。Mattspranginbetweenandshovedhimaway。
"Drugstore,"Jimpanted。"Drugstore。"
"Noyoudon"t。You"llstayrighthere。Thereain"tgoin"tobeanyrunnin"outan"makin"apoisonplayonthestreet——notwithallthemjoolsreposin"underthepillow。Savve?Evenifyoudidn"tdie,you"dbeinthehandsofthepolicewithawholelotofexplanationscomin"。Emeticsisthestuffforpoison。I"mjustasbadbitasyou,an"I"mgoin"totakeaemetic。That"sallthey"dgiveyouatadrugstore,anyway。"
HethrustJimbackintothemiddleoftheroomandshottheboltsintoplace。Ashewentacrossthefloortothefoodshelf,hepassedonehandoverhisbrowandflungoffthebeadedsweat。Itspatteredaudiblyonthefloor。JimwatchedagonizedlyasMattgotthemustard-canandacupandranforthesink。Hestirredacupfulofmustardandwateranddrankitdown。Jimhadfollowedhimandwasreachingwithtremblinghandsfortheemptycup。AgainMattshovedhimaway。Ashemixedasecondcupful,hedemanded——
"D"youthinkonecup"lldoforme?YoucanwaittillI"mdone。"
Jimstartedtotottertowardthedoor,butMattcheckedhim。
"Ifyoumonkeywiththatdoor,I"lltwistyourneck。Savve?YoucantakeyourswhenI"mdone。An"ifitsavesyou,I"lltwistyourneck,anyway。
Youain"tgotnochance,nohow。Itoldyoumanytimeswhatyou"dgetifyoudidmedirt。"
"Butyoudidmedirt,too,"Jimarticulatedwithaneffort。
Mattwasdrinkingthesecondcupful,anddidnotanswer。ThesweathadgotintoJim"seyes,andhecouldscarcelyseehiswaytothetable,wherehegotacupforhimself。ButMattwasmixingathirdcupful,and,asbefore,thrusthimaway。
"ItoldyoutowaittillIwasdone,"Mattgrowled。"Getoutamyway。"
AndJimsupportedhistwitchingbodybyholdingontothesink,thewhileheyearnedtowardtheyellowishconcoctionthatstoodforlife。Itwasbysheerwillthathestoodandclungtothesink。Hisfleshstrovetodoublehimupandbringhimtothefloor。Mattdrankthethirdcupful,andwithdifficultymanagedtogettoachairandsitdown。Hisfirstparoxysmwaspassing。Thespasmsthatafflictedhimweredyingaway。Thisgoodeffectheascribedtothemustardandwater。Hewassafe,atanyrate。Hewipedthesweatfromhisface,and,intheintervalofcalm,foundroomforcuriosity。Helookedathispartner。
AspasmhadshakenthemustardcanoutofJim"shands,andthecontentswerespilleduponthefloor。Hestoopedtoscoopsomeofthemustardintothecup,andthesucceedingspasmdoubledhimuponthefloor。Mattsmiled。
"Staywithit,"heencouraged。"It"sthestuffallright。It"sfixedmeup。"
Jimheardhimandturnedtowardhimastrickenface,twistedwithsufferingandpleading。Spasmnowfollowedspasmtillhewasinconvulsions,rollingonthefloorandyellowinghisfaceandhairinthemustard。
Mattlaughedhoarselyatthesight,butthelaughbrokemidway。Atremorhadrunthroughhisbody。Anewparoxysmwasbeginning。Hearoseandstaggeredacrosstothesink,where,withprobingforefinger,hevainlystrovetoassisttheactionoftheemetic。Intheend,heclungtothesinkasJimhadclung,filledwiththehorrorofgoingdowntothefloor。
Theother"sparoxysmhadpassed,andhesatup,weakandfainting,tooweaktorise,hisforeheaddripping,hislipsfleckedwithafoammadeyellowbythemustardinwhichhehadrolled。Herubbedhiseyeswithhisknuckles,andgroansthatwerelikewhinescamefromhisthroat。
"Whatareyousnifflin"about?"Mattdemandedoutofhisagony。"Allyougottodoisdie。An"whenyoudieyou"redead。"
"I……ain"t……snifflin"……it"s……the……mustard……
stingin"……my……eyes,"Jimpantedwithdesperateslowness。
Itwashislastsuccessfulattemptatspeech。Thereafterhebabbledincoherently,pawingtheairwithshakingarmstillafreshconvulsionstretchedhimonthefloor。
Mattstruggledbacktothechair,and,doubleduponit,withhisarmsclaspedabouthisknees,hefoughtwithhisdisintegratingflesh。Hecameoutoftheconvulsioncoolandweak。Helookedtoseehowitwentwiththeother,andsawhimlyingmotionless。
Hetriedtosoliloquize,tobefacetious,tohavehislastgrimlaughatlife,buthislipsmadeonlyincoherentsounds。Thethoughtcametohimthattheemetichadfailed,andthatnothingremainedbutthedrugstore。
Helookedtowardthedooranddrewhimselftohisfeet。Therehesavedhimselffromfallingbyclutchingthechair。Anotherparoxysmhadbegun。
Andinthemidstoftheparoxysm,withhisbodyandallthepartsofitflyingapartandwrithingandtwistingbackagainintoknots,heclungtothechairandshoveditbeforehimacrossthefloor。Thelastshredsofhiswillwereleavinghimwhenhegainedthedoor。Heturnedthekeyandshotbackonebolt。Hefumbledforthesecondbolt,butfailed。Thenheleanedhisweightagainstthedoorandsliddowngentlytothefloor。
CREATEDHETHEM
Shemethimatthedoor。
"Ididnotthinkyouwouldbesoearly。"
"Itishalfpasteight。"Helookedathiswatch。"Thetrainleavesat9。12。"
Hewasverybusinesslike,untilhesawherlipstrembleassheabruptlyturnedandledtheway。
"It"llbeallright,littlewoman,"hesaidsoothingly。"DoctorBodineau"stheman。He"llpullhimthrough,you"llsee。"
Theyenteredtheliving-room。Hisglancequestedapprehensivelyabout,thenturnedtoher。
"Where"sAl?"
Shedidnotanswer,butwithasuddenimpulsecameclosetohimandstoodmotionless。Shewasaslender,dark-eyedwoman,inwhosefacewasstampedthestrainandstressofliving。Butthefinelinesandthehauntedlookintheeyeswerenotthehandiworkofmereworry。Heknewwhosehandiworkitwasashelookeduponit,andsheknewwhensheconsultedhermirror。
"It"snouse,Mary,"hesaid。Heputhishandonhershoulder。"We"vetriedeverything。It"sawretchedbusiness,Iknow,butwhatelsecanwedo?You"vefailed。DoctorBodineau"sallthat"sleft。"
"IfIhadanotherchance……"shebeganfalteringly。
"We"vethreshedthatallout,"heansweredharshly。"You"vegottobuckup,now。Youknowwhatconclusionwearrivedat。Youknowyouhaven"ttheghostofahopeinanotherchance。"
Sheshookherhead。"Iknowit。Butitisterrible,thethoughtofhisgoingawaytofightitoutalone。"
"Hewon"tbealone。There"sDoctorBodineau。Andbesides,it"sabeautifulplace。"
Sheremainedsilent。
"Itistheonlything,"hesaid。
"Itistheonlything,"sherepeatedmechanically。
Helookedathiswatch。"Where"sAl?"
"I"llsendhim。"
Whenthedoorhadclosedbehindher,hewalkedovertothewindowandlookedout,drummingabsentlywithhisknucklesonthepane。
"Hello。"
Heturnedandrespondedtothegreetingofthemanwhohadjustentered。
Therewasaperceptibledragtotheman"sfeetashewalkedacrosstowardthewindowandpausedirresolutelyhalfway。
"I"vechangedmymind,George,"heannouncedhurriedlyandnervously。"I"mnotgoing。"
Hepluckedathissleeve,shuffledwithhisfeet,droppedhiseyes,andwithastrongeffortraisedthemagaintoconfronttheother。
Georgeregardedhimsilently,hisnostrilsdistendingandhisleanfingersunconsciouslycrookinglikeaneagle"stalonsabouttoclutch。
Inlineandfeature,therewasmuchofresemblancebetweenthetwomen;andyet,inthestrongestresemblancestherewasaradicaldifference。Theirswerethesameblackeyes,butthoseofthemanatthewindowweresharpandstraightlooking,whilethoseofthemaninthemiddleoftheroomwerecloudyandfurtive。Hecouldnotfacetheother"sgaze,andcontinuallyandvainlystruggledwithhimselftodoso。Thehighcheekboneswiththehollowsbeneathwerethesame,yetthetextureofthehollowsseemeddifferent。Thethin-lippedmouthswerefromthesamemould,butGeorge"slipswerefirmandmuscular,whileAl"sweresoftandloose——thelipsofanasceticturnedvoluptuary。Therewasalsoasagatthecorners。Hisfleshhintedofgrossness,especiallysointheeagle-likeaquilinenosethatmustoncehavebeenliketheother"s,butthathadlosttheausteritytheother"sstillretained。
Alfoughtforsteadinessinthemiddleofthefloor。Thesilencebotheredhim。Hehadafeelingthathewasabouttobeginswayingbackandforth。
Hemoistenedhislipswithhistongue。
"I"mgoingtostay,"hesaiddesperately。
Hedroppedhiseyesandpluckedagainathissleeve。
"Andyouareonlytwenty-sixyearsold,"Georgesaidatlast。"Youpoor,feebleoldman。"
"Don"tbesosureofthat,"Alretorted,withaflashofbelligerence。
"Doyourememberwhenweswamthatmileandahalfacrossthechannel?"
"Well,andwhatofit?"AsullenexpressionwascreepingacrossAl"sface。
"Anddoyourememberwhenweboxedinthebarnafterschool?"
"Icouldtakeallyougaveme。"
"AllIgaveyou!"George"svoicerosemomentarilytoahigherpitch。"Youlickedmefourafternoonsoutoffive。YouweretwiceasstrongasI——
threetimesasstrong。AndnowI"dbeafraidtolandonyouwithasofacushion;you"dcrumpleuplikealastyear"sleaf。You"ddie,youpoor,miserableoldman。"
"Youneedn"tabusemejustbecauseI"vechangedmymind,"theotherprotested,thehintofawhineinhisvoice。
Hiswifeentered,andhelookedappealinglytoher;butthemanatthewindowstrodesuddenlyuptohimandburstout——
"Youdon"tknowyourownmindfortwosuccessiveminutes!Youhaven"tanymind,youspineless,crawlingworm!"
"Youcan"tmakemeangry。"Alsmiledwithcunning,andglancedtriumphantlyathiswife。"Youcan"tmakemeangry,"herepeated,asthoughtheideawerethoroughlygratifyingtohim。"Iknowyourgame。
It"smystomach,Itellyou。Ican"thelpit。BeforeGod,Ican"t!Isn"titmystomach,Mary?"
SheglancedatGeorgeandspokecomposedly,thoughshehidatremblinghandinafoldofherskirt。
"Isn"tittime?"sheaskedsoftly。
Herhusbandturneduponhersavagely。"I"mnotgoingtogo!"hecried。
"That"sjustwhatI"vebeentelling……him。AndItellyouagain,allofyou,I"mnotgoing。Youcan"tbullyme。"
"Why,Al,dear,yousaid——"shebegan。
"NevermindwhatIsaid!"hebrokeout。"I"vesaidsomethingelserightnow,andyou"veheardit,andthatsettlesit。"
HewalkedacrosstheroomandthrewhimselfwithemphasisintoaMorrischair。Buttheothermanwasswiftlyuponhim。Thetalon-likefingersgrippedhisshoulders,jerkedhimtohisfeet,andheldhimthere。
"You"vereachedthelimit,Al,andIwantyoutounderstandit。I"vetriedtotreatyoulike……likemybrother,buthereafterIshalltreatyoulikethethingthatyouare。Doyouunderstand?"
Theangerinhisvoicewascold。Theblazeinhiseyeswascold。Itwasvastlymoreeffectivethananyoutburst,andAlcringedunderitandundertheclutchinghandthatwasbruisinghisshouldermuscles。
"Itisonlybecauseofmethatyouhavethishouse,thatyouhavethefoodyoueat。Yourposition?Anyothermanwouldhavebeenshownthedoorayearago——twoyearsago。Ihaveheldyouinit。Yoursalaryhasbeencharity。Ithasbeenpaidoutofmypocket。Mary……herdresses……
thatgownshehasonismadeover;shewearsthediscardeddressesofhersisters,ofmywife。Charity——doyouunderstand?Yourchildren——theyarewearingthediscardedclothesofmychildren,ofthechildrenofmyneighbourswhothinktheclotheswenttosomeorphanasylum。Anditisanorphanasylum……oritsoonwillbe。"
Heemphasizedeachpointwithanunconscioustighteningofhisgripontheshoulder。Alwassquirmingwiththepainofit。Thesweatwasstartingoutonhisforehead。
"Nowlistenwelltome,"hisbrotherwenton。"Inthreeminutesyouwilltellmethatyouaregoingwithme。Ifyoudon"t,Maryandthechildrenwillbetakenawayfromyou——to-day。Youneedn"tevercometotheoffice。
Thishousewillbeclosedtoyou。AndinsixmonthsIshallhavethepleasureofburyingyou。Youhavethreeminutestomakeupyourmind。"
Almadeastranglingmovement,andreachedupwithweakfingerstotheclutchinghand。
"Myheart……letmego……you"llbethedeathofme,"hegasped。
ThehandthrusthimdownforciblyintotheMorrischairandreleasedhim。
Theclockonthemantletickedloudly。Georgeglancedatit,andatMary。
Shewasleaningagainstthetable,unabletoconcealhertrembling。Hebecameunpleasantlyawareofthefeelingofhisbrother"sfingersonhishand。Quiteunconsciouslyhewipedthebackofthehanduponhiscoat。
Theclocktickedoninthesilence。ItseemedtoGeorgethattheroomreverberatedwithhisvoice。Hecouldhearhimselfstillspeaking。
"I"llgo,"camefromtheMorrischair。
Itwasaweakandshakenvoice,anditwasaweakandshakenmanthatpulledhimselfoutoftheMorrischair。Hestartedtowardthedoor。
"Whereareyougoing?"Georgedemanded。
"Suitcase,"cametheresponse。"Mary"llsendthetrunklater。I"llbebackinaminute。"
Thedoorclosedafterhim。Amomentlater,struckwithsuddensuspicion,Georgewasopeningthedoor。Heglancedin。Hisbrotherstoodatasideboard,inonehandadecanter,intheotherhand,bottomupandtohislips,awhiskyglass。
AcrosstheglassAlsawthathewasobserved。Itthrewhimintoapanic。
Hastilyhetriedtorefilltheglassandgetittohislips;butglassanddecanterweresentsmashingtothefloor。Hesnarled。Itwaslikethesoundofawildbeast。Butthegriponhisshouldersubduedandfrightenedhim。Hewasbeingpropelledtowardthedoor。
"Thesuitcase,"hegasped。"It"sthereinthatroom。Letmegetit。"
"Where"sthekey?"hisbrotherasked,whenhehadbroughtit。
"Itisn"tlocked。"
Thenextmomentthesuitcasewasspreadopen,andGeorge"shandwassearchingthecontents。Fromonesideitbroughtoutabottleofwhisky,fromtheothersideaflask。Hesnappedthecaseto。
"Comeon,"hesaid。"Ifwemissonecar,wemissthattrain。"
Hewentoutintothehallway,leavingAlwithhiswife。Itwaslikeafuneral,Georgethought,ashewaited。
Hisbrother"sovercoatcaughtontheknobofthefrontdooranddelayeditsclosinglongenoughforMary"sfirstsobtocometotheirears。George"slipswereverythinandcompressedashewentdownthesteps。Inonehandhecarriedthesuitcase。Withtheotherhandheheldhisbrother"sarm。
Astheynearedthecorner,heheardtheelectriccarablockaway,andurgedhisbrotheron。Alwasbreathinghard。Hisfeetdraggedandshuffled,andheheldback。
"AhellofabrotherYOUare,"hepanted。
Forreply,hereceivedaviciousjerkonhisarm。Itremindedhimofhischildhoodwhenhewashurriedalongbysomeangrygrown-up。Andlikeachild,hehadtobehelpedupthecarstep。Hesankdownonanoutsideseat,panting,sweating,overcomebytheexertion。HefollowedGeorge"seyesasthelatterlookedhimupanddown。
"AhellofabrotherYOUare,"wasGeorge"scommentwhenhehadfinishedtheinspection。
MoisturewelledintoAl"seyes。
"It"smystomach,"hesaidwithself-pity。
"Idon"twonder,"wastheretort。"Burntoutlikethecraterofavolcano。
Ferventheatisn"tacircumstance。"
Thereaftertheydidnotspeak。Whentheyarrivedatthetransferpoint,Georgecametohimselfwithastart。Hesmiled。Withfixedgazethatdidnotseethehousesthatstreamedacrosshisfieldofvision,hehadhimselfbeensunkdeepinself-pity。Hehelpedhisbrotherfromthecar,andlookeduptheintersectingstreet。Thecartheyweretotakewasnotinsight。
Al"seyeschanceduponthecornergroceryandsaloonacrosstheway。Atoncehebecamerestless。Hishandspassedbeyondhiscontrol,andheyearnedhungrilyacrossthestreettothedoorthatswungopenevenashelookedandletinahappypilgrim。Andinthatinstanthesawthewhite-
jacketedbartenderagainstanarrayofglitteringglass。Quiteunconsciouslyhestartedtocrossthestreet。
"Holdon。"George"shandwasonhisarm。
"Iwantsomewhisky,"heanswered。
"You"vealreadyhadsome。"
"Thatwashoursago。Goon,George,letmehavesome。It"sthelastday。
Don"tshutoffonmeuntilwegetthere——Godknowsitwillbesoonenough。"
Georgeglanceddesperatelyupthestreet。Thecarwasinsight。
"Thereisn"ttimeforadrink,"hesaid。
"Idon"twantadrink。Iwantabottle。"Al"svoicebecamewheedling。
"Goon,George。It"sthelast,theverylast。"
"No。"ThedenialwasasfinalasGeorge"sthinlipscouldmakeit。
Alglancedattheapproachingcar。Hesatdownsuddenlyonthecurbstone。
"What"sthematter?"hisbrotherasked,withmomentaryalarm。
"Nothing。Iwantsomewhisky。It"smystomach。"
"Comeonnow,getup。"
Georgereachedforhim,butwasanticipated,forhisbrothersprawledflatonthepavement,oblivioustothedirtandtothecuriousglancesofthepassers-by。Thecarwasclangingitsgongatthecrossing,ablockaway。
"You"llmissit,"Algrinnedfromthepavement。"Anditwillbeyourfault。"
George"sfistsclenchedtightly。
"FortwocentsI"dgiveyouathrashing。"
"Andmissthecar,"wasthetriumphantcommentfromthepavement。
Georgelookedatthecar。Itwashalfwaydowntheblock。Helookedathiswatch。Hedebatedasecondlonger。
"Allright,"hesaid。"I"llgetit。Butyougetonthatcar。Ifyoumissit,I"llbreakthebottleoveryourhead。"
Hedashedacrossthestreetandintothesaloon。Thecarcameinandstopped。Therewerenopassengerstogetoff。Aldraggedhimselfupthestepsandsatdown。Hesmiledastheconductorrangthebellandthecarstarted。Theswingingdoorofthesaloonburstopen。Clutchinginhishandthesuitcaseandapintbottleofwhisky,Georgestartedinpursuit。
Theconductor,hishandonthebellcord,waitedtoseeifitwouldbenecessarytostop。Itwasnot。Georgeswunglightlyaboard,satdownbesidehisbrother,andpassedhimthebottle。
"Youmighthavegotaquart,"Alsaidreproachfully。
Heextractedthecorkwithapocketcorkscrew,andelevatedthebottle。
"I"msick……mystomach,"heexplainedinapologetictonestothepassengerwhosatnexttohim。
Inthetraintheysatinthesmoking-car。Georgefeltthatitwasimperative。Also,havingsuccessfullycaughtthetrain,hisheartsoftened。Hefeltmorekindlytowardhisbrother,andaccusedhimselfofunnecessaryharshness。Hestrovetoatonebytalkingabouttheirmother,andsisters,andthelittleaffairsandinterestsofthefamily。ButAlwasmorose,anddevotedhimselftothebottle。Asthetimepassed,hismouthhunglooserandlooser,whiletheringsunderhiseyesseemedtopuffoutandallhisfacialmusclestorelax。
"It"smystomach,"hesaid,once,whenhefinishedthebottleanddroppeditundertheseat;buttheswifthardeningofhisbrother"sfacedidnotencouragefurtherexplanations。
Theconveyancethatmetthematthestationhadallthedignityandluxuriousnessofaprivatecarriage。George"seyeswerekeenfortheearmarksoftheinstitutiontowhichtheyweregoing,buthisapprehensionswereallayedfrommomenttomoment。Astheyenteredthewidegatewayandrolledonthroughthespaciousgrounds,hefeltsurethattheinstitutionalsideoftheplacewouldnotjaruponhisbrother。Itwasmorelikeasummerhotel,or,betteryet,acountryclub。Andastheysweptonthroughthespringsunshine,thesongsofbirdsinhisears,andinhisnostrilsthebreathofflowers,Georgesighedforaweekofrestinsuchaplace,andbeforehiseyesloomedthearidvistaofsummerintownandattheoffice。Therewasnotroominhisincomeforhisbrotherandhimself。
"Letustakeawalkinthegrounds,"hesuggested,aftertheyhadmetDoctorBodineauandinspectedthequartersassignedtoAl。"Thecarriageleavesforthestationinhalfanhour,andwe"lljusthavetime。"
"It"sbeautiful,"heremarkedamomentlater。Underhisfeetwasthevelvetgrass,thetreesarchedoverhead,andhestoodinmottledsunshine。
"IwishIcouldstayforamonth。"
"I"lltradeplaceswithyou,"Alsaidquickly。
Georgelaugheditoff,buthefeltasinkingoftheheart。
"Lookatthatoak!"hecried。"Andthatwoodpecker!Isn"theabeauty!"
"Idon"tlikeithere,"heheardhisbrothermutter。
George"slipstightenedinpreparationforthestruggle,buthesaid——
"I"mgoingtosendMaryandthechildrenofftothemountains。Sheneedsit,andsodothey。Andwhenyou"reinshape,I"llsendyourightontojointhem。Thenyoucantakeyoursummervacationbeforeyoucomebacktotheoffice。"
"I"mnotgoingtostayinthisdamnedhole,forallyoutalkaboutit,"Alannouncedabruptly。
"Yesyouare,andyou"regoingtogetyourhealthandstrengthbackagain,sothatthelookofyouwillputthecolourinMary"scheekswhereitusedtobe。"
"I"mgoingbackwithyou。"Al"svoicewasfirm。"I"mgoingtotakethesametrainback。It"sabouttimeforthatcarriage,Iguess。"
"Ihaven"ttoldyouallmyplans,"Georgetriedtogoon,butAlcuthimoff。
"Youmightaswellquitthat。Idon"twantanyofyoursoapytalking。Youtreatmelikeachild。I"mnotachild。Mymind"smadeup,andI"llshowyouhowlongitcanstaymadeup。Youneedn"ttalktome。Idon"tcarearapforwhatyou"regoingtosay。"
Abalefullightwasinhiseyes,andtohisbrotherheseemedforalltheworldlikeacorneredrat,desperateandreadytofight。AsGeorgelookedathimherememberedbacktotheirchildhood,anditcametohimthatatlastwasarousedinAlthesameoldstubbornstrainthathadenabledhim,asachild,tostandagainstallforceandpersuasion。
Georgeabandonedhope。Hehadlost。Thiscreaturewasnothuman。Thelastfineinstinctofthehumanhadfled。Itwasabrute,sluggishandstolid,impossibletomove——justtherawstuffoflife,combative,rebellious,andindomitable。Andashecontemplatedhisbrotherhefeltinhimselftherisingupofasimilarbrute。Hebecamesuddenlyawarethathisfingersweretensingandcrookinglikeathug"s,andheknewthedesiretokill。Andhisreason,turnedtraitoratlast,counselledthatheshouldkill,thatitwastheonlythingleftforhimtodo。
Hewasarousedbyaservantcallingtohimthroughthetreesthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Heanswered。Then,lookingstraightbeforehim,hediscoveredhisbrother。Hehadforgottenitwashisbrother。Ithadbeenonlyathingthemomentbefore。Hebegantotalk,andashetalkedthewaybecamecleartohim。Hisreasonhadnotturnedtraitor。Thebruteinhimhadmerelyorientatedhisreason。
"Youarenoearthlygood,Al,"hesaid。"Youknowthat。You"vemadeMary"slifeahell。Youareacursetoyourchildren。Andyouhavenotmadelifeexactlyaparadisefortherestofus。"
"There"snouseyourtalking,"Alinterjected。"I"mnotgoingtostayhere。"
"That"swhatI"mcomingto,"Georgecontinued。"Youdon"thavetostayhere。"(Al"sfacebrightened,andheinvoluntarilymadeamovement,asthoughabouttostarttowardthecarriage。)"Ontheotherhand,itisnotnecessarythatyoushouldreturnwithme。Thereisanotherway。"
George"shandwenttohishippocketandappearedwitharevolver。Itlayalonghispalm,thebutttowardAl,andtowardAlheextendedit。Atthesametime,withhishead,heindicatedthenear-bythicket。
"Youcan"tbluffme,"Alsnarled。
"Itisnotabluff,Al。Lookatme。Imeanit。Andifyoudon"tdoitforyourself,Ishallhavetodoitforyou。"
Theyfacedeachother,theprofferedrevolverstillextended。Aldebatedforamoment,thenhiseyesblazed。Withaquickmovementheseizedtherevolver。
"MyGod!I"lldoit,"hesaid。"I"llshowyouwhatI"vegotinme。"
Georgefeltsuddenlysick。Heturnedaway。Hedidnotseehisbrotherenterthethicket,butheheardthepassageofhisbodythroughtheleavesandbranches。
"Good-bye,Al,"hecalled。
"Good-bye,"camefromthethicket。
Georgefeltthesweatuponhisforehead。Hebeganmoppinghisfacewithhishandkerchief。Heheard,asfromaremotedistance,thevoiceoftheservantagaincallingtohimthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Thewoodpeckerdroppeddownthroughthemottledsunshineandlightedonthetrunkofatreeadozenfeetaway。Georgefeltthatitwasalladream,andyetthroughitallhefeltsupremejustification。Itwastherightthingtodo。Itwastheonlything。
Hiswholebodygaveaspasmodicstart,asthoughtherevolverhadbeenfired。ItwasthevoiceofAl,closeathisback。
"Here"syourgun,"Alsaid。"I"llstay。"
Theservantappearedamongthetrees,approachingrapidlyandcallinganxiously。Georgeputtheweaponinhispocketandcaughtbothhisbrother"shandsinhisown。
"Godblessyou,oldman,"hemurmured;"and"——withafinalsqueezeofthehands——"goodluck!"
"I"mcoming,"hecalledtotheservant,andturnedandranthroughthetreestowardthecarriage。
THECHINAGO
"Thecoralwaxes,thepalmgrows,butmandeparts。"——
Tahitianproverb。