投诉 阅读记录

第6章

Andnow,"sheadded,"Iwantyoutotellmeeverythingthathappenedthisevening。Don"tomitaword,oralook,oramotion。Iwishtoproceedintelligently。"

IhopeIwasaccurateinthehistoryofthehopwhichIgaveMrs。

March;IamsureIwasfull。Ithinkmyaccountmaybejustlydescribedashavingacreativetruthfulness,ifnoothermerit。I

hadreallynowishtoconcealanythingexceptthefactthatIhadnot,inmyutterhelplessness,eventriedtogetMissGageanyotherpartners。Butinthelargerinterestofthepresentsituation,Mrs。

Marchseemedtohavelostthesenseofmyderelictioninthisrespect。Shemerelyasked,"Anditwasafteryouwentbacktotheparlour,justbeforeyoucamehome,thatyouwrotethosenamesonhercard?"

"Kendrickswrotehalfofthem,"Isaid。

"Idaresay。Well,itwasveryamusing,andifthecircumstancesweredifferent,Icouldhaveenteredintothespiritofittoo。Butyouseeyourself,Basil,thatwecan"tletthisaffairgoanyfurtherwithoutdealingfranklywithher。YOUcan"tspeaktoher,and_I_MUST。Don"tyousee?"

IsaidthatIsaw,butIhadsuddenlyawildwishthatitwerepracticableformetospeaktoMissGage。Ishouldhavelikedtohaveapeepintoagirl"sheartatjustsuchamoment,whenitmustbequiveringwiththeunconfessedsenseoflove,andtheconfidenthopeofbeingloved,butwhileasyetnothingwasassured,nothingwasascertained。Ifitwouldnothavebeenshocking,ifitwouldnothavebeensacrilegious,itwouldhavebeeninfinitelyinteresting,andfromanaestheticpointofviewinfinitelyimportant。IthoughtthatIshouldhavebeenwillingtoundergoalltheembarrassmentofsuchaninquiryforthesakeofitspreciousresults,ifithadbeenatallpossible;butIacquiescedthatitwouldnotbepossible。IfeltthatIwasgettingoffprettylightlynottohaveitbroughthometomeagainthatIwasthecauseofallthistrouble,andthatifithadnotbeenformetherewouldhavebeen,asfarasMrs。Marchwasconcerned,noMissGage,andnolove-

affairofherstodealwith。IdebatedinmymindamomentwhetherIhadbetterurgehertoletmespeaktoKendricksafterall;butI

forbore,andinthemorningIwaitedaboutinmuchperturbation,afterIhadsentMissGagetoher,untilIcouldknowtheresultoftheirinterview。WhenIsawthegirlcomeawayfromherroom,whichshedidrathertrippingly,Iwenttoher,andfoundherbynomeansthewreckIhadexpectedtheordealtoleaveher。

"DidyoumeetMissGage?"sheasked。

"Yes,"Ireturned,withtremulousexpectation。

"Well,don"tyouthinkshelooksperfectlydivineinthatgown?

It"soneofMme。Cody"s,andwegotitforthirtydollars。ItwouldhavebeenfiftyinNewYork,anditwas,here,earlierintheseason。Ishallalwayscomehereforsomeofmythings;assoonastheseason"salittlepasttheysimplyFLINGthemaway。Well,mydear!"

"Well,what?"

"Ididn"tspeaktoherafterall。"

"Youdidn"t!Don"tyouthinkshe"sinlovewithhim,then?"

"Dead。"

"Well?"

"Well,Icouldn"tsomehowseemtoapproachthesubjectasIhadexpectedto。Shewassohappy,andsogood,andsoperfectlyobedient,thatIcouldn"tgetanythingtotakeholdof。Yousee,I

didn"tknowbutshemightbealittlerebellious,orresentfulofmyinterference;butinthelittlegingerlyattemptsIdidmakeshewassosubmissive,don"tyouunderstand?AndshewasverymodestaboutMr。Kendricks"attentions,andsoself-depreciatorythat,well——"

"Lookhere,Isabel,"Ibrokein,"thisisprettyshamelessofyou。

Youpretendtobeinthegreatestkindoffidgeaboutthisgirl;andyoumakemelieawakeallnightthinkingwhatyou"regoingtosaytoher;andnowyouasmuchastellmeyouweresofascinatedwiththemodestwayshewasinlovethatyoucouldn"tsayanythingtoheragainstbeinginloveonourhandsinanysortofway。Doyoucallthisbusiness?"

"Well,Idon"tcareifIDIDencourageher——"

"Oh,youevenencouragedher!"

"IDIDN"Tencourageher。ImerelypraisedMr。Kendricks,andsaidhowmuchyouthoughtofhimasawriter。"

"Oh!thenyougavethesubjectaliterarycast。Isee!DoyouthinkMissGagewasabletofollowyou?"

"Thatdoesn"tmatter。"

"Andwhatdoyouproposetodonow?"

"Iproposetodonothing。IthinkthatIhavedoneallmydutyrequires,andthatnowIcanleavethewholeaffairtoyou。Itwasyouraffairinthebeginning。Idon"tseewhyIshouldworrymyselfaboutit。"

"Itseemstomethatthisisaverystrangepositionforaladytotakewhowasnotgoingtocloseaneyelastnightinviewofasituationwhichhasnotchangedintheleast,exceptfortheworse。

Don"tyouthinkyouareratherculpablylight-heartedallofasudden?"

"Iamlight-hearted,butifthereisanyculpabilityitisyours,Basil。"

Ireflected,butIfailedtofindanynoveltyinthefact。"Verywell,then;whatdoyouproposethatIshoulddo?"

"Ileavethatentirelytoyourownconscience。"

"Andifmyconsciencehasnosuggestiontomake?"

"That"syouraffair。"

Ireflectedagain,andthenIsaid,morethananythingtomakeheruncomfortable,I"mafraid:"Ifeelperfectlyeasyinmyconscience,personally,butIhaveasocialdutyinthematter,andIhopeI

shallperformitwithmorefidelityandcouragethanyouhaveshown。

IshallspeaktoKendricks。"

Shesaid:"Thatisjustwhatyououghttodo。I"mquitesurprised。"Afterthistouchofironysheaddedearnestly,"AndI

dohope,mydear,youwillusejudgmentinspeakingtohim,andtact。Youmustn"tgoatitbluntly。RememberthatMr。Kendricksisnotatalltoblame。Hebegantoshowherattentiontoobligeus,andifshehasfalleninlovewithhimitisourfault。"

"Ishallhandlehimwithoutgloves,"Isaid。"Ishalltellhimhehadbettergoaway。"

Iwasjoking,butshesaidseriously,"Yes;hemustgoaway。AndI

don"tenvyyouhavingtotellhim。Isupposeyouwillbungleit,ofcourse。"

"Well,then,youmustadviseme,"Isaid;andwereallybegantoconsiderthequestion。Wecouldhardlyexaggeratethedifficultyanddelicacyofthedutybeforeme。WerecognisedthatbeforeI

madeanyexplicitdemandofhimImustfirstascertainthenatureofthewholegroundandthenbegovernedbythefacts。ItwouldbesimpleenoughifIhadmerelytosaythatwethoughtthegirl"saffectionswerebecomingengaged,andthenappealtohiseagergenerosity,hisdelicatemagnanimity;buttherewerepossiblecomplicationsonhissidewhichmustberegarded。Iwastoascertain,weconcluded,theexactnatureofthesituationbeforeI

venturedtosayanythingopenly。IwastomakemyapproachesbyaseriesofambushesbeforeIunmaskedmypurpose,andperhapsImustnotunmaskitatall。AsIsetoffonmymission,whichmustbeginwithfindingKendricksathishotel,Mrs。Marchsaidshepitiedme。

ShecalledmebacktoaskwhetherIthoughtIhadreallybetterdoanything。Then,asIshowedsignsofweakening,shedrovemefromherwith,"Yes,yes!Youmust!Youmust!"

CHAPTERXVII

ItwasstillsoearlythatIhadmydoubtswhetherIshouldfindKendricksupafterthelastnight"srevelry,buthemetmehalf-waybetweenourhotelandhis。HesaidhewascomingtoseehowMrs。

MarchwasbearingMissGage"simmensesuccessattheball;butperhapsthiswasnothissolemotive。Heaskedfranklyhowtheyoungladywas,andwhetherIthoughtMrs。Marchwouldconsideralunchatarestaurantbythelakeagoodnotion。WhenIsaidIhadverylittledoubtshewould,andproposedtakingaturnintheparkbeforeIwentbackwithhim,helookedathiswatchandlaughed,andsaidhesupposeditWASratherearlyyet,andcameverywillinglywithme。

Wehadtheprettyplacealmosttoourselvesatthathour。Therewereahalf-dozenorsonursemaids,pushingtheirperambulatorsabout,orstandingthevehiclesacrossthewalkinfrontofthebencheswheretheysat,inthesimplebeliefofallpeoplewhohavetodowithbabiesthattherestoftheworldmaybefitlydiscommodedintheirbehalf。Buttheydidnotactivelymolestus,andtheyscarcelycircumscribedourchoiceofseats。Wewerebynomeansdriventothelittlekioskinthelakeforthem,andIshouldrathersaythatwewerefatefullyledthere,soaptweretheassociationsoftheplacetomypurpose。NothingcouldhavebeenmorenaturalthanthatIshouldsay,aswesatdownthere,"ThiswaswhereIfirstsawMissGagewithherfriends";anditwasbyaperfectlynaturaltransitionthatIshouldgoontospeak,inasemi-humorousstrain,oftheresponsibilitywhichMrs。Marchandmyselfhadincurredbylettingoursympathyforherrunawaywithus。IsaidIsupposedthatifwehadnotbeenwillingfromthefirsttotrytorealiseforhersomeoftheexpectationsweimaginedshehadincomingtoSaratoga,sheneverwouldhavefallentoourcharge;thatpeoplereallybroughtagreatmanymorethingsuponthemselvesthantheywerewillingtoown;andthatfatewasperhapsmorethefulfilmentofourtacitambitionsthanourovertacts。

Thisbitofphilosophy,whichIconfessIthoughtfine,didnotseemtoimpressKendricks。Hemerelysaidthatitmustbegreatfuntohavethechanceofbafflingthemaliceofcircumstanceinacaselikethat,andIperceivedthathefeltnothingcomplexinthesituation。Infact,Idoubtwhetheryouthperceivesanythingcomplexinlife。Totheyoung,lifeisaveryplaincase。Tobesure,theyaremuchmorealarmedthantheireldersatgettingtangledupinitswebattimes,butthatisbecausetheyhavenothadourexperienceingettinguntangled,andthinktheyarenevergoingtogetoutalive。Whentheydo,theythinkthatitistheonlytangletheyareevergoingtobein,anddonotknowthattheyaresimplygoingonfromonetoanotheraslongasthereisenoughofthemlefttobecaughtinamesh。ToKendricksweMarchesweresimplytwoamiablepeople,whohadfancieddoingapleasantthingforabeautifulgirlthataccidenthadthrownitinourpowertobefriend,andwerebynomeansthetremblingarbitersofherdestinywefeltourselvestobe。Thedifferencebetweenhisobjectivesenseandmysubjectivesensewasthedifferencebetweenhistwenty-sevenyearsandmyfifty-two,andwhilethisremainedIsawthatitwouldbeuselesstotrytogetoncommongroundwithhim,ortogivehimourpointofview。IfIweretospeaktohimatall,itmustbewithauthority,withtherightofonewhostoodintheplaceofthegirl"sparents,andhadherhappinessatheart。Thatis,itwassomethinglikethat;butmywordssayittoobluntly。Ifoundmyselfbeginning,"Ihaveratherhadanotionthatherfathermightcomeon,andtaketheenterpriseoffourhands,"though,totellthetruth,Ihadneverimaginedsuchathing,whichcameintomyheadatthatmomentthroughanassociationwiththethoughtofparents。

"Haveyouanyideawhatsortofmanheis?"askedKendricks。

"Oh,somelittlelocalmagnate,presidentofthevillageandpresidentofthevillagebank;Ifancythechieffigureintheplace,butprobablyasignorantofourworldasaCherokee。"

"Well,Idon"tknow,"saidtheyoungfellow。"Doyouthinkthatfollowsbecausehedoesn"tliveinit?"IcouldseethathedidnotquitelikewhatIhadsaid。"Isupposeoursisratherasmallworld。"

"Thesmallestofallworlds,"Ianswered。"AndintheeyesofPapaGage,iftheycouldoncebefocuseduponit,ourworldwouldshriveltoanatom。"

"Doyouthink,"heasked,withamanifestanxiety,"thatitwouldinhers?"

"No;sheisnottheAmericanpeople,andherfatheris,asIfancyhim。ImakeoutfromthevaguehintsthatBrotherDeering(asFulkersonwouldcallhim)droppedwhenhetalkedabouthimthatPapaGageisashrewd,practical,home-keepingbusinessman,withaneyesingletothemainchance,lavish,butnotgenerous,Philistinetothebackbone,blindlydevotedtohisdaughter,andcontemptuousofallthemyriadmysteriesofcivilisationthathedoesn"tunderstand。

Idon"tknowwhyIshouldbeauthorisedtoimaginehimpersonallylongandlank,withpossiblyatobaccohabitofsomesort。Hisnaturalhistory,uponnobetterauthority,isthatofahard-headedfarmer,whofoundoutthatfarmingcouldneverbemorethanalivelihood,andcameintothevillage,andbegantolendmoney,andgetgain,tillhewasinapositiontohelpfoundtheDeWittPointNationalBank,andthen,byweightofhismoneyedsolidity,imposedhimselfuponthefreeandindependentvotersofthevillage——amajorityofthemundermortgagetohim——andbecameitspresident。

Itisn"tapleasanttype,butit"sideallyAmerican。"

"Yes,"saidKendricksruefully。

"Buthisdaughter,"Icontinued,"isprobablyaltogetherdifferent。

Thereissomethingfineabouther——reallyfine。Ourworldwouldn"tshrivelinhereye;itwouldprobablyswellupandfilltheuniverse,"Iaddedbyanimpulsethatcamefromnowhereirresistiblyuponme:"thatis,ifshecouldseeYOUinit。"

"Whatdoyoumean?"heaskedwithastart。

"Oh,nowImusttellyouwhatImean,"Isaiddesperately。"It"syouthathavecomplicatedthiscasesodreadfullyforus。Can"tyouthinkwhy?"

"No,Ican"t,"hesaid;buthehadtosaythat。

Hisfine,sensitivefaceflamedatoncesofire-redthatitcouldonlyturnpaleforachangewhenIplungedon:"I"mafraidwe"vetrifledwithherhappiness";andthisformulationofthecasedisgustedmesomuchthatIlaughedwildly,andadded,"unlesswe"vetrifledwithyours,too。"

"Idon"tknowwhyyoucallittriflingwithhappiness,"hereturnedwithdignity,butwithoutoffence。"Ifyouwillleaveheroutofthequestion,IwillsaythatyouhavegivenmethegreatesthappinessofmylifeinintroducingmetoMissGage。"

"Now,"Idemanded,"mayIaskwhatYOUmean?YouknowIwouldn"tifIdidn"tfeelboundforhersake,andifyouhadn"tsaidjustwhatyouhavesaid。Youneedn"tanswermeunlessyoulike!It"spleasanttoknowthatyou"venotbeenbored,andMrs。MarchandI

areinfinitelyobligedtoyouforhelpingusout。"

Kendricksmadeasifheweregoingtosaysomething,andthenhedidnot。HehunghisheadlowerandlowerinthesilencewhichIhadtobreakforhim——"IhopeIhaven"tbeenintrusive,mydearfellow。

ThisissomethingIfeltboundtospeakof。Youknowwecouldn"tletitgoon。Mrs。MarchandIhaveblamedourselvesagooddeal,andwecouldn"tletitgoon。ButI"mafraidIhaven"tbeenasdelicatewithyou——"

"Oh!delicate!"Heliftedhisheadandflashedafaceofgenerousself-reproachuponme。"It"s_I_thathaven"tbeendelicatewithYOU。I"vebeenmonstrouslyindelicate。ButInevermeanttobe,and——and——Iwascomingtoseeyoujustnowwhenwemet——toseeyou——

MissGage——andaskher——tellherthatwe——I——musttellyouandMrs。

March——Mr。March!AtthehoplastnightIaskedhertobemywife,andassoonasshecanhearfromherfather——ButthefirstthingwhenIwokethismorning,IsawthatImusttellMrs。Marchandyou。

Andyou——youmustforgiveus——orme,rather;foritwasmyfault——

fornottellingyoulastnight——atonce——oh,thankyou!thankyou!"

Ihadseizedhishand,andwaswringingitvehementlyinexpressionofmypleasureinwhathehadtoldme。InthatfirstmomentIfeltnothingbutpurejoyandanimmeasurablerelief。Idrewmybreath,averydeepandfullone,inasudden,absolutefreedomfromanxietieswhichhadbeennonethelessrealandconstantbecausesooftenburlesqued。Afterwardconsiderationspresentedthemselvestoalloymyrapture,butforthatmoment,asIsay,itwasnothingbutrapture。Therewasnoquestioninitofthelovers"fitnessforeachother,oftheiracceptabilitytotheirrespectivefamilies,oftheirgeneralconduct,oroftheirespecialbehaviourtowardus。

AllthatIcouldrealisewasthatitwasagreatescapeforbothofus,andagreattriumphforme。IhadbeenafraidthatIshouldnothavethecouragetospeaktoKendricksofthematteratall,muchlessaskhimtogoaway;andhereIhadactuallyspokentohim,withthesplendidresultthatIneedonlycongratulatehimonhisengagementtotheladywhoseunrequitedaffectionsIhadbeenwishinghimtospare。Idon"trememberjustthetermsIusedindoingthis,buttheyseemedsatisfactorytoKendricks;probablyarepetitionofthelettersofthealphabetwouldhavebeenequallyacceptable。AtlastIsaid,"Well,nowImustgoandtellthegreatnewstoMrs。March,"andIshookhandswithhimagain;wehadbeenshakinghandsathalf-minutelyintervalseversincethefirsttime。

CHAPTERXVIII

IsawMrs。Marchwaitingformeonthehotelverandah。Sheworeherbonnet,andshewarnedmenottoapproach,andthenrandowntomeetme。

"Well,mydear,"shesaid,asshepushedherhandthroughmyarmandbegantopropelmeawayfromthesightandhearingofpeopleonthepiazza,"Ihopeyoudidn"tmakeafoolofyourselfwithKendricks。

They"reengaged!"

Sheapparentlyexpectedmetobeprostratedbythisstroke。"Yes,"

Isaidverycoolly;"Iwasjustcomingtotellyou。"

"Howdidyouknowit?Whotoldyou?DidKendricks?Idon"tbelieveit!"shecriedinanexcitementnotunmixedwithresentment。

"Noonetoldme,"Isaid。"Isimplydivinedit。"

Shedidn"tmindthatforamoment。"Well,I"mgladhehadthegracetodoso,andIhopehediditbeforeyouaskedhimanyleadingquestions。"Withoutwaitingtohearwhetherthiswassoornot,shewenton,withanemphasisonthenextwordthatalmostblotteditoutofthelanguage,"SHEcamebacktomealmosttheinstantyouweregone,andtoldmeeverything。Shesaidshewantedtotellmelastnight,butshehadn"tthecourage,andthismorning,whenshesawthatIwasbeginningtohintuptoMr。Kendricksalittle,shehadn"tthecourageatall。Isentherstraightofftotelegraphforherfather。Sheisbehavingsplendidly。Andnow,whatarewegoingtodo?"

"Whattherestoftheworldis——nothing。Itseemstomethatweareoutofthestory,mydear。Atanyrate,Ishan"tattempttocompetewithMissGageinsplendidbehaviour,andIhopeyouwon"t。Itwouldbesoeasyforus。IwonderwhatPapaGageisgoingtobelike。"

Ifeltmythrillofapprehensionimpartitselftoher。"Yes!"shegasped;"whatifheshouldn"tlikeit?"

"Well,then,that"shisaffair。"ButIdidnotfeelsolightlyaboutitasIspoke,andfromtimetotimeduringthedayIwasovertakenwithacolddismayatthethoughtoftheunknownquantityintheproblem。

Whenwereturnedtothehotelafteratouroftheblock,wesawKendricksinourcorneroftheverandahwithMissGage。Theywerebothlaughingconvulsively,andtheyrandowntomeetusinyetwilderthroesofmerriment。

"We"vejustbeencomparingnotes,"hesaid,"andattheverymomentwhenIwastellingyou,Mr。March,JuliawastellingMrs。March。"

"Wonderfulcaseoftelepathy,"Imocked。

"GiveittothePsychicalResearch。"

Theybothseemedalittledaunted,andMissGagesaid,"IknowMr。

Marchdoesn"tlikethewaywe"vedone。"

"Likeit!"criedMrs。March,contrivingtoshakemealittlewiththehandshestillhadinmyarm。"Ofcoursehelikesit。Hewasjustsayingyouhadbehavedsplendidly。HesaidHEwouldn"tattempttocompetewithyou。Butyoumustn"tregardhimintheleast。"

IadmiredtheskillwithwhichIsabelsavedherconscienceinthisstatementtoomuchtodisputeit;andIsupposethatwhatevershehadsaid,MissGagewouldhavebeenreassured。Icannotparticularlypraisethewisdomofherbehaviourduringthatday,or,forthematterofthat,thebehaviourofKendrickseither。Theidealthingwouldhavebeenforhimtokeepawaynowtillherfathercame,butitseemedtomethathewasaboutunderourfeetallthewhile,andthatshe,sofarfrommakinghimremainathisownhotel,encouragedhimtopassthetimeatours。Withoutconsultingme,Mrs。Marchaskedhimtostaytodinnerafterhehadstayedalltheforenoon,andhemadethisapretextforspendingtheafternooninourcorneroftheverandah。ShemademegiveituptohimandMissGage,sothattheycouldbealonetogether,thoughImustsaytheydidnotseemtomindusagreatdealwhenwewerepresent;hewasalwaysleaningonthebackofherchair,orsittingnextherwithhishanddanglingoveritinamannerthatmademesick。IwonderedifIwaseversuchanassasthat,andIquitelosttherespectforKendricks"sgoodsenseandgoodtastewhichhadbeenthegroundofmylikingforhim。

Ifeltmyselfwithdrawnfromtheaffairfartherandfartherinsympathy,sinceithadnowpassedbeyondmycontrol;andIresentedthestrainoftheresponsibilitywhichIhadthrownoff,Ifound,onlyforamoment,andmustcontinuetosufferuntilthegirl"sfatherappearedandfinallyrelievedme。TheworstwasthatIhadtobearitalone。ItwasimpossibletodetachMrs。March"sinterestfromMissGage,asagirlwhohadbeenmadeloveto,longenoughtoenablehertorealiseherasadaughterwithfilialtiesandduties。

Shedidtryinaperfunctorywaytodoit,butIcouldseethatshenevergavehermindtoit。Icouldnotevenmakehersharemysenseofmyownculpability,athingshewasonlytoowillingtodoinmostmatters。SheadmittedthatitwasabsurdformetohaveletmyfancyplayaboutthegirlwhenIfirstsawheruntilwefeltthatI

mustdosomethingforher;butIcouldnotgethertoownthatwehadbothactedpreposterouslyinlettingMrs。DeeringleaveMissGageinourcharge。Inthefirstplace,shedeniedthatshehadbeenleftinourcharge。Shehadsimplybeenleftinthehotelwherewewerestaying,andweshouldhavebeenperfectlyfreetodonothingforher。ButwhenKendricksturnedupsounexpectedly,itwasquitenaturalweshouldaskhimtobepolitetoher。Mrs。Marchsawnothingstrangeinallthat。WhatwasIworryingabout?Whatshehadbeenafraidofwasthathehadnotbeeninlovewiththegirlwhenshewassoclearlyinlovewithhim。Butnow!

"Andsupposeherfatherdoesn"tlikeit!"

"NotlikeMr。Kendricks!"Shestaredatme,andIcouldseehowinfatuatedshewas。

Iwasmyselfalwayscharmedwiththeyoungfellow。Hewasnotonlygoodandgenerousandhandsome,andclever——Ineverthoughthimafirst-classtalent——buthewasbeautifullywellbred,andhewasverywellborn,asthosethingsgowithus。Thatis,hecameofpeoplewhohadnotdonemuchofanythingforageneration,andhadacquiredmeritwiththemselvesforit。Theywerenotveryrich,buttheyhadarighttothinkthathemighthavedonenothing,ordonesomethingbetterthanliterature;andIwishIcouldsetforthexactlytheterms,tacitandexplicit,inwhichhismotherandsisterscondonedhisderelictiontomeatareceptionwherehepresentedmetothem。Invirtueofhiswishtodosomething,hehadbecomeahumanbeing,andtheycouldnotquitefollowhim;buttheywereverypoliteintoleratingme,andtryingtomakemefeelthatI

wasnotatallodd,thoughhewassoqueerinbeingproudofwritingformypaper,astheycalledit。HewassounlikethemallthatI

likedhimmorethaneveraftermeetingthem。Still,Icouldimagineafondfather,asIimaginedMissGage"sfathertobe,objectingtohim,onsomegroundsatleast,tillheknewhim,andMrs。Marchapparentlycouldnotimagineeventhis。

IdonotknowwhyIshouldhaveprefiguredMissGage"sfatherastallandlank。Shewasnotherselfsoverytall,thoughshewasrathertallthanshort,andthoughshewasratheroftheDianaorgirlishtypeofgoddess,shewasbynomeanslank。YetitwasinthisshapethatIhadalwaysthoughtofhim,perhapsthroughanobscureassociationwithhisfellow-villager,Deering。Ihadfanciedhimsaturnineofspirit,slovenlyofdress,andloungingofhabit,uponnoauthoritythatIcouldallege,andIwaswhollyunpreparedfortheneat,smallfigureofaman,verypreciseofmannerandscrupulousofaspect,whosaid,"Howdoyoudo,sir?I

hopeIseeyouwell,sir,"whenhisdaughterpresentedustoeachother,themorningaftertheeventfuldaydescribed,andheshookmyhandwithhisverysmall,dryhand。

Icouldnotmakeoutfromtheirmannerwitheachotherwhethertheyhadbeenspeakingofthegreatmatterinhandornot。IamratheratalossaboutpeopleofthatPhilistinemakeastowhattheirprocedurewillbeincircumstanceswhereIknowjustwhatpeopleofmyownsortofsophisticationwoulddo。Thesewouldcomestraightatthetrouble,butIfancythatwiththeothersorttheconventionisapreliminaryreserve。IfoundMr。Gagedisposedtoprolong,withmeatleast,adiscussionoftheweather,andtheaspectsofSaratoga,theeventsofhisjourneyfromDeWittPoint,andthehardshipofhavingtorideallthewaytoMooer"sJunctioninastage-coach。Ifeltmoreandmore,whilewebandiedthesefutilities,asifMr。Gagehadanoverduenoteofmine,andwaswaitingforme,sinceIcouldnotpayit,tomakesomepropositiontowarditsrenewal;andhedidreallytiremeoutatlast,sothatI

said,"Well,Mr。Gage,IsupposeMissGagehastoldyousomethingofthetremendoussituationthathasdevelopeditselfhere?"

IthoughtIhadbettergivetheaffairsuchsmilingcharacterasajocosetreatmentmightimpart,andthedrylittlemantwinkledupresponsivelysofarasmannerwasconcerned。"Well,yes,yes。

Therehasbeensometalkofitbetweenus,"andagainheleftthewordtome。

"Mrs。Marchurgedyourdaughtertosendforyouatoncebecausethatwastherightandfitthingtodo,andbecausewefeltthattheaffairhadnowquitetranscendedourpowers,suchastheywere,andnobodycouldreallycopewithitbutyourself。Ihopeyouwerenotundulyalarmedbythesummons?"

"Notatall。Shesaidinthedespatchthatshewasnotsick。IhadbeenanticipatingashortvisittoSaratogaforsomedays,andmybusinesswasinashapesothatIcouldleave。"

"Oh!"Isaidvaguely,"Iamveryglad。Mrs。Marchfelt,asIdid,thatcircumstanceshadgivenusacertainobligationinregardtoMissGage,andwewereanxioustodischargeitfaithfullyandtotheutmost。Weshouldhavewrittentoyou,summonedyou,before,ifwecouldhavesupposed——orbeensure;butyouknowthesethingsgoonsoobscurely,andweactedattheveryfirstpossiblemoment。I

wishyoutounderstandthat。Wetalkeditoveragreatdeal,andI

hopeyouwillbelievethatwestudiedthroughout——thatweweremostsolicitousfrombeginningtoendforMissGage"shappiness,andthatifwecouldhaveforeseenorimagined——ifwecouldhavetakenanysteps——Itrustyouwillbelieve——"Iwasfuriousatmyselfforbeingsoconfoundedlyapologetic,forIwasthinkingallthetimeofthebotherandafflictionwehadhadwiththegirl;andtheresatthatlittlewoodenimageacceptingmyself-inculpations,andapparentlydemandingmoreofme;butIcouldnothelpgoingoninthesamestrain:"Wefeltespeciallyboundinthematter,fromthefactthatMr。Kendrickswasapersonalfriendofours,whomweareveryfondof,andwebothareveryanxiousthatyoushouldnotsupposethatwepromoted,orthatwewerenotmostvigilant——thatwewereforamomentforgetfulofyourrightsinsuchanaffair——"

Istopped,andMr。Gagepassedhishandacrosshislittlemeagre,smilingmouth。

"Thenheisnotaconnectionofyours,Mr。March?"

"Blessme,no!"Isaidingreatrelief;"wearenotsoswellasthat。"AndItriedtogivehimsomenotionofKendricks"slocalquality,repeatingalistofagglutinatedNewYorksurnamestowhichhiswasmoreorlessaffiliated。Theyalwaysamuseme,thosenames,whichmorethananyintheworldgivethenotionofsocialstraining;butIdoubtiftheyaffectedtheimaginationofMr。Gage,eitherinthiswayorinthewayImeanlymeantthemtoaffecthim。

"Andwhatdidyousayhisbusinesswas?"heasked,withthatimplicationofapreviousstatementonyourpartwhichsomepeoplethinkitsoclevertomakewhentheyquestionyou。

Ialwayshateit,andIavengedmyselfbyansweringsimply,"Blessmysoul,hehasnobusiness!"andlettinghimtakeupthewordnowornot,asheliked。

"Thenheisamanofindependentmeans?"

Icouldnotresistanswering,"Independentmeans?Kendrickshasnomeanswhatever。"Buthavingdealtthisblow,Icouldadd,"I

believehismotherhassomemoney。Theyarepeoplewholivecomfortably"

"Thenhehasnoprofession?"askedMr。Gage,withalittlemorestringencyinhissmile。

"Idon"tknowwhetheryouwillcallitaprofession。Heisawriter。"

"Ah!"Mr。Gagesoftlybreathed。"Doeshewriteforyour——paper?"

InotedthatastotheliterarytechnicalitiesheseemednottobemuchmoreignorantthanKendricks"sownfamily,andIsaid,tolerantly,"Yes;hewritesforourmagazine。"

"Magazine——yes;Ibegyourpardon,"heinterrupted。

"Andforanyotherswherehecanplacehismaterial。"

ThisapparentlydidnotconveyanyveryluminousideatoMr。Gage"smind,andheaskedafteramoment,"Whatkindofthingsdoeshewrite?"

"Oh,stories,sketches,poems,reviews,essays——almostanything,infact。"

Thelightlefthisface,andIperceivedthatIhadcarriedmyrevengetoofar,atleastforKendricks"sadvantage,andI

determinedtotakeanewdepartureatthefirstchance。Thechancedidnotcomeimmediately。

"Andcanamansupportawifebythatkindofwriting?"askedMr。

Gage。

Ilaugheduneasily。"Somepeopledo。Itdependsuponhowmuchofithecansell。Itdependsuponhowhandsomelyawifewishestobesupported。Theresultisn"tusuallybeyondthedreamsofavarice,"

Isaid,withadesperatelevity。

"Excuseme,"returnedthelittleman。"Doyouliveinthatway?Byyourwritings?"

"No,"Isaidwithsomestate,whichItriedtosubdue;"IamtheeditorofEveryOtherWeek,andpartowner。Mr。Kendricksismerelyacontributor。"

"Ah,"hebreathedagain。"Andifheweresuccessfulinsellinghiswritings,howmuchwouldheprobablymakeinayear?"

"Inayear?"Irepeated,togaintime。"Mr。Kendricksiscomparativelyabeginner。Sayfifteenhundred——twothousand——

twenty-fivehundred。"

"AndthatwouldnotgoveryfarinNewYork。"

"No;thatwouldnotgofarinNewYork。"Iwasbeginningtofindacertainpleasureindealingsofranklywiththishardlittleman。I

likedtoseehimsuffer,andIcouldseethathedidsuffer;hesufferedasafathermustwholearnsthatfromapecuniarypointofviewhisdaughterisimprudentlyinlove。Whyshouldwealwaysregardsuchasuffererasacomicfigure?Heis,ifwethinkofitrightly,amostserious,eventragicalfigure,andatalleventsamostrespectablefigure。Helovesher,andhisheartistornbetweenthewishtoindulgeherandthewishtodowhatwillbefinallybestforher。Whyshouldoursympathies,insuchacase,beallforthefoolishyounglovers?Theyoughtingreatmeasuretobeforthefather,too。Somethinglikeasenseofthissmoteme,andI

wasashamedinmypleasure。

"ThenIshouldsay,Mr。March,thatthisseemsamostundesirableengagementformydaughter。Whatshouldyousay?Iaskyoutomakethecaseyourown。"

"Excuseme,"Ianswered;"Iwouldmuchrathernotmakethecasemyown,Mr。Gage,andImustdeclinetohaveyouconsultme。IthinkthatinthismatterIhavedoneallthatIwascalledupontodo。I

havetoldyouwhatIknowofMr。Kendricks"scircumstancesandconnections。Astohischaracter,IcantrulysaythatheisoneofthebestmenIeverknew。Ibelieveinhisabsolutepurityofheart,andheisthemostunselfish,themostgenerous——"

Mr。Gagewavedthefactsasidewithhishand。"Idon"tundervaluethosethings。IfIcouldbemaster,nooneshouldhavemygirlwithoutthem。Buttheydonotconstitutealivelihood。FromwhatyoutellmeofMr。Kendricks"sprospects,IamnotpreparedtosaythatIthinktheoutlookisbrilliant。Ifhehascounteduponmysupplyingadeficiency——"

"Oh,excuseme,Mr。Gage!Yourinsinuation——"

"ExcuseME!"heretorted。"Iammakingnoinsinuation。Imerelywishtosaythat,whilemymeansaresuchastoenablemetoliveincomfortatDeWittPoint,IamwellawarethatmuchmorewouldbeneededinNewYorktoenablemydaughtertoliveinthesamecomfort。I"mnotwillingsheshouldliveinless。IthinkitismydutytosaythatIamnotatallarichman,andiftherehasbeenanysuppositionthatIamso,itisamistakethatcannotbecorrectedtoosoon。"

ThistimeIcouldnotresenthisinsinuation,forsincehehadbeguntospeakIhadbecomeguiltilyawareofhavingfeltasortofeaseinregardtoKendricks"smodestyofcompetencefromabelief,givenme,Isuspect,bythetalkofDeering,thatMr。Gagehadplentyofmoney,andcouldcometotherescueinanyamountneeded。Icouldonlysay,"Mr。Gage,allthisissofarbeyondmycontrolthatI

oughtnottoallowyoutosayittome。ItissomethingthatyoumustsaytoMr。Kendricks。"

AsIspokeIsawtheyoungfellowcomeroundthecornerofthestreet,andmountthehotelsteps。Hedidnotseeme,forhedidnotlooktowardthelittlecorneroflawnwhereMr。GageandIhadputourchairsforthesakeofthemorningshade,andfortheseclusionthatthespotaffordedus。Itwasattheangleofthehousefarthestfromourpeculiarcornerofthepiazza,whitherIhadthebeliefthatthegirlhadwithdrawnwhensheleftmetoherfather。IwassurethatKendrickswouldseekherthere,farenoughbeyondeyeshotorearshotofus,andIhadnodoubtthatshewasexpectinghim。

"YouareMr。Kendricks"sfriend——"

"IhavetriedmuchmoretobeMissGage"sfriend;andMrs。March——"

Itcameintomymindthatshewasmostselfishlyandshamelesslykeepingoutoftheway,andIcouldnotgoonandcelebratehermagnanimousimpartiality,hereagerandsleeplessvigilance。

"Ihavenodoubtofthat,"saidthelittleman,"andIamverymuchobligedtoyouforallthetroubleyouhavetakenonmydaughter"saccount。Butyouarehisfriend,andIcanspeaktoyoumuchmorefullyandfranklythanIcouldtohim。"

Ididnotknowjustwhattosaytothis,andhewenton:"Inpointoffact,Idon"tthinkthatIshallspeaktohimatall。"

"Thatisquiteyouraffair,mydearsir,"Isaiddryly。"Itisn"ttobesupposedthatyouwouldseekaninterviewwithhim。"

"Andifheseeksaninterviewwithme,Ishalldeclineit。"Helookedatmedefiantlyandyetinterrogatively。Icouldseethathewasveryangry,andyetuncertain。

"Imustsay,then,Mr。Gage,thatIdon"tthinkyouwouldberight。"

"How,notright?"

"Ishouldsaythatinequityhehadafullandperfectrighttomeetyou,andtotalkthismatteroverwithyou。Hehasdoneyounowrongwhateverinadmiringyourdaughter,andwishingtomarryher。

It"sforyouandhertodecidewhetheryouwilllethim。Butasfarashiswishgoes,andhisexpressionofittoher,heisquitewithinhisrights。Youmustseethatyourself。"

"Iconsider,"heanswered,"thathehasdonemeawronginthatverything。Amanwithoutmeans,oranystatedoccupation,hehadnobusinesstospeaktomydaughterwithoutspeakingtome。Hetookadvantageofthecircumstances。Whatdoeshethink?DoeshesupposeIamMADEofmoney?DoeshesupposeIwanttosupportason-in-law?IcantellyouthatifIwerepossessedofunlimitedmeans,Ishouldnotdoit。"IbegantosuspectthatDeeringwasnearerright,afterall,inhisrepresentationsoftheman"sfinancialability;Ifanciedsomethingoftheanxiety,thetremorofavarice,inhisresentmentofpoorKendricks"spossible,orratherimpossible,designsuponhispocket。"Ifhehadanyprofession,oranykindofbusiness,Ishouldfeeldifferently,andIshouldbewillingtoassisthimtoareasonabledegree;orifhehadabusinesstraining,Imighttakehiminwithme;butasitis,I

shouldhaveahelplessburdenonmyhands,andIcantellyouIamnotgoinginforthatsortofthing。Ishallmakeshortworkofit。

IshalldeclinetomeetMr。Hendricks,orKendricks,andIshallaskyoutosayasmuchtohimfromme。"

"AndIshalldeclinetobethebearerofanysuchmessagefromyou,Mr。Gage,"Ianswered,andIsaw,notwithoutpleasure,thebewildermentthatbegantomixwithhisarrogance。

"Verywell,then,sir,"heanswered,afteramoment;"Ishallsimplytakemydaughterawaywithme,andthatwillendit。"

Theprimlittle,grimlittlemanlookedatmewithhishardeyes,andsethislipssoclosethatthebeardontheloweronestuckoutatmewithasortofadditionalmenaceIfeltthathewastoocapableofdoingwhathesaid,andIlostmyselfinasenseofhissordidness,asensewhichwasalmostwithoutatraceofcompassion。

ItseemedasifIwerealongtimeunderthespellofthis,andthesightofhisrepugnantface;butitcouldreallyhavebeenmerelyamoment,whenIheardastirofdraperyonthegrassnearus,andthesoft,richvoiceofMissGagesaying,"Papa!"

Webothstartedtoourfeet。Idonotknowwhethershehadheardwhathesaidornot。Wehadspokenlow,andintheutmostvehemenceofhisspeechhedidnotlifthisvoice。Inanycase,shedidnotheedwhathesaid。

"Papa,"sherepeated,"IwantyoutocomeupandseeMrs。Marchonthepiazza。And——Mr。Kendricksisthere。"

Ihadawilddesiretolaughatwhatfollowed,andyetitwasnotwithoutitspathos。"I——I——hm!hm!I——cannotseeMr。Kendricksjustatpresent。I——thefactis,Idonotwanttoseehim。Itisbetter——not。Ithinkyouhadbettergetreadytogohomewithmeatonce,daughter。I——hm!——cannotapproveofanyengagementtoMr。

Kendricks,andI——prefernottomeethim。"Hestopped。

MissGagesaidnothing,andIcannotsaythatshelookedanything。

ShesimplyCLOUDEDUP,ifImaysoexpresstheeffectthatcameandremaineduponhercountenance,whichwasnowthecountenanceshehadshownmethefirsteveningIsawher,whenIsawtheDeeringscoweringinitsshadow。Ihadnoneedtolookattheadamantinelittlemanbeforehertoknowthathewassofteningintowax,and,infact,Ifeltasortofindecencyinbeholdinghisinteneration,forIknewthatitcamefromhisheart,andhaditsconsecrationthroughhisloveforher。

ThatiswhyIturnedaway,anddonotknowtothismomentjusthowthechangeshedesiredinhimwasbroughtabout。IwillnotsaythatIdidnotlookbackfromadiscreetdistance,andcontinuelookinguntilIsawthemstartawaytogetherandmoveinthedirectionofthatcornerofthepiazzawhereKendrickswaswaitingwithMrs。March。

Itappeared,fromheraccount,thatMr。Gage,withnouncommonshowofill-will,butwithmerelyanaturaldryness,sufferedKendrickstobepresentedtohim,andentereduponsomepreliminarybanalitieswithhim,suchashehadusedinopeningaconversationwithme。

BeforethesecametoacloseMrs。Marchhadthoughtitwelltoleavethethreetogether。

Afterward,whenweknewtheonlyresultthattheaffaircouldhave,shesaid,"Thegirlhasapowerfulwill。Iwonderwhatthemotherwaslike。"

"Yes;evidentlyshedidn"tgetthatwillfromherfather。Ihavestillasenseofexhaustionfromitinourowncase。WhatdoyouthinkitportendsforpoorKendricks!"

"PoorKendricks!"sherepeatedthoughtfully。"Yes;inthatsenseI

supposeyoumightcallhimpoor。Itisn"tanequalthingasfarasnature,ascharacter,goes。Butisn"titalwaysdreadfultoseetwopeoplewhohavemadeuptheirmindstogetmarried?"

"It"sverycommon,"Isuggested。

"Thatdoesn"tchangethefact,orlessentherisk。Sheisverybeautiful,andnowheisinlovewithherbeautifulgirlhood。Butafterawhilethegirlhoodwillgo。"

"Andthegirlwillremain,"Isaid。

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