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Andnow,"sheadded,"Iwantyoutotellmeeverythingthathappenedthisevening。Don"tomitaword,oralook,oramotion。Iwishtoproceedintelligently。"
IhopeIwasaccurateinthehistoryofthehopwhichIgaveMrs。
March;IamsureIwasfull。Ithinkmyaccountmaybejustlydescribedashavingacreativetruthfulness,ifnoothermerit。I
hadreallynowishtoconcealanythingexceptthefactthatIhadnot,inmyutterhelplessness,eventriedtogetMissGageanyotherpartners。Butinthelargerinterestofthepresentsituation,Mrs。
Marchseemedtohavelostthesenseofmyderelictioninthisrespect。Shemerelyasked,"Anditwasafteryouwentbacktotheparlour,justbeforeyoucamehome,thatyouwrotethosenamesonhercard?"
"Kendrickswrotehalfofthem,"Isaid。
"Idaresay。Well,itwasveryamusing,andifthecircumstancesweredifferent,Icouldhaveenteredintothespiritofittoo。Butyouseeyourself,Basil,thatwecan"tletthisaffairgoanyfurtherwithoutdealingfranklywithher。YOUcan"tspeaktoher,and_I_MUST。Don"tyousee?"
IsaidthatIsaw,butIhadsuddenlyawildwishthatitwerepracticableformetospeaktoMissGage。Ishouldhavelikedtohaveapeepintoagirl"sheartatjustsuchamoment,whenitmustbequiveringwiththeunconfessedsenseoflove,andtheconfidenthopeofbeingloved,butwhileasyetnothingwasassured,nothingwasascertained。Ifitwouldnothavebeenshocking,ifitwouldnothavebeensacrilegious,itwouldhavebeeninfinitelyinteresting,andfromanaestheticpointofviewinfinitelyimportant。IthoughtthatIshouldhavebeenwillingtoundergoalltheembarrassmentofsuchaninquiryforthesakeofitspreciousresults,ifithadbeenatallpossible;butIacquiescedthatitwouldnotbepossible。IfeltthatIwasgettingoffprettylightlynottohaveitbroughthometomeagainthatIwasthecauseofallthistrouble,andthatifithadnotbeenformetherewouldhavebeen,asfarasMrs。Marchwasconcerned,noMissGage,andnolove-
affairofherstodealwith。IdebatedinmymindamomentwhetherIhadbetterurgehertoletmespeaktoKendricksafterall;butI
forbore,andinthemorningIwaitedaboutinmuchperturbation,afterIhadsentMissGagetoher,untilIcouldknowtheresultoftheirinterview。WhenIsawthegirlcomeawayfromherroom,whichshedidrathertrippingly,Iwenttoher,andfoundherbynomeansthewreckIhadexpectedtheordealtoleaveher。
"DidyoumeetMissGage?"sheasked。
"Yes,"Ireturned,withtremulousexpectation。
"Well,don"tyouthinkshelooksperfectlydivineinthatgown?
It"soneofMme。Cody"s,andwegotitforthirtydollars。ItwouldhavebeenfiftyinNewYork,anditwas,here,earlierintheseason。Ishallalwayscomehereforsomeofmythings;assoonastheseason"salittlepasttheysimplyFLINGthemaway。Well,mydear!"
"Well,what?"
"Ididn"tspeaktoherafterall。"
"Youdidn"t!Don"tyouthinkshe"sinlovewithhim,then?"
"Dead。"
"Well?"
"Well,Icouldn"tsomehowseemtoapproachthesubjectasIhadexpectedto。Shewassohappy,andsogood,andsoperfectlyobedient,thatIcouldn"tgetanythingtotakeholdof。Yousee,I
didn"tknowbutshemightbealittlerebellious,orresentfulofmyinterference;butinthelittlegingerlyattemptsIdidmakeshewassosubmissive,don"tyouunderstand?AndshewasverymodestaboutMr。Kendricks"attentions,andsoself-depreciatorythat,well——"
"Lookhere,Isabel,"Ibrokein,"thisisprettyshamelessofyou。
Youpretendtobeinthegreatestkindoffidgeaboutthisgirl;andyoumakemelieawakeallnightthinkingwhatyou"regoingtosaytoher;andnowyouasmuchastellmeyouweresofascinatedwiththemodestwayshewasinlovethatyoucouldn"tsayanythingtoheragainstbeinginloveonourhandsinanysortofway。Doyoucallthisbusiness?"
"Well,Idon"tcareifIDIDencourageher——"
"Oh,youevenencouragedher!"
"IDIDN"Tencourageher。ImerelypraisedMr。Kendricks,andsaidhowmuchyouthoughtofhimasawriter。"
"Oh!thenyougavethesubjectaliterarycast。Isee!DoyouthinkMissGagewasabletofollowyou?"
"Thatdoesn"tmatter。"
"Andwhatdoyouproposetodonow?"
"Iproposetodonothing。IthinkthatIhavedoneallmydutyrequires,andthatnowIcanleavethewholeaffairtoyou。Itwasyouraffairinthebeginning。Idon"tseewhyIshouldworrymyselfaboutit。"
"Itseemstomethatthisisaverystrangepositionforaladytotakewhowasnotgoingtocloseaneyelastnightinviewofasituationwhichhasnotchangedintheleast,exceptfortheworse。
Don"tyouthinkyouareratherculpablylight-heartedallofasudden?"
"Iamlight-hearted,butifthereisanyculpabilityitisyours,Basil。"
Ireflected,butIfailedtofindanynoveltyinthefact。"Verywell,then;whatdoyouproposethatIshoulddo?"
"Ileavethatentirelytoyourownconscience。"
"Andifmyconsciencehasnosuggestiontomake?"
"That"syouraffair。"
Ireflectedagain,andthenIsaid,morethananythingtomakeheruncomfortable,I"mafraid:"Ifeelperfectlyeasyinmyconscience,personally,butIhaveasocialdutyinthematter,andIhopeI
shallperformitwithmorefidelityandcouragethanyouhaveshown。
IshallspeaktoKendricks。"
Shesaid:"Thatisjustwhatyououghttodo。I"mquitesurprised。"Afterthistouchofironysheaddedearnestly,"AndI
dohope,mydear,youwillusejudgmentinspeakingtohim,andtact。Youmustn"tgoatitbluntly。RememberthatMr。Kendricksisnotatalltoblame。Hebegantoshowherattentiontoobligeus,andifshehasfalleninlovewithhimitisourfault。"
"Ishallhandlehimwithoutgloves,"Isaid。"Ishalltellhimhehadbettergoaway。"
Iwasjoking,butshesaidseriously,"Yes;hemustgoaway。AndI
don"tenvyyouhavingtotellhim。Isupposeyouwillbungleit,ofcourse。"
"Well,then,youmustadviseme,"Isaid;andwereallybegantoconsiderthequestion。Wecouldhardlyexaggeratethedifficultyanddelicacyofthedutybeforeme。WerecognisedthatbeforeI
madeanyexplicitdemandofhimImustfirstascertainthenatureofthewholegroundandthenbegovernedbythefacts。ItwouldbesimpleenoughifIhadmerelytosaythatwethoughtthegirl"saffectionswerebecomingengaged,andthenappealtohiseagergenerosity,hisdelicatemagnanimity;buttherewerepossiblecomplicationsonhissidewhichmustberegarded。Iwastoascertain,weconcluded,theexactnatureofthesituationbeforeI
venturedtosayanythingopenly。IwastomakemyapproachesbyaseriesofambushesbeforeIunmaskedmypurpose,andperhapsImustnotunmaskitatall。AsIsetoffonmymission,whichmustbeginwithfindingKendricksathishotel,Mrs。Marchsaidshepitiedme。
ShecalledmebacktoaskwhetherIthoughtIhadreallybetterdoanything。Then,asIshowedsignsofweakening,shedrovemefromherwith,"Yes,yes!Youmust!Youmust!"
CHAPTERXVII
ItwasstillsoearlythatIhadmydoubtswhetherIshouldfindKendricksupafterthelastnight"srevelry,buthemetmehalf-waybetweenourhotelandhis。HesaidhewascomingtoseehowMrs。
MarchwasbearingMissGage"simmensesuccessattheball;butperhapsthiswasnothissolemotive。Heaskedfranklyhowtheyoungladywas,andwhetherIthoughtMrs。Marchwouldconsideralunchatarestaurantbythelakeagoodnotion。WhenIsaidIhadverylittledoubtshewould,andproposedtakingaturnintheparkbeforeIwentbackwithhim,helookedathiswatchandlaughed,andsaidhesupposeditWASratherearlyyet,andcameverywillinglywithme。
Wehadtheprettyplacealmosttoourselvesatthathour。Therewereahalf-dozenorsonursemaids,pushingtheirperambulatorsabout,orstandingthevehiclesacrossthewalkinfrontofthebencheswheretheysat,inthesimplebeliefofallpeoplewhohavetodowithbabiesthattherestoftheworldmaybefitlydiscommodedintheirbehalf。Buttheydidnotactivelymolestus,andtheyscarcelycircumscribedourchoiceofseats。Wewerebynomeansdriventothelittlekioskinthelakeforthem,andIshouldrathersaythatwewerefatefullyledthere,soaptweretheassociationsoftheplacetomypurpose。NothingcouldhavebeenmorenaturalthanthatIshouldsay,aswesatdownthere,"ThiswaswhereIfirstsawMissGagewithherfriends";anditwasbyaperfectlynaturaltransitionthatIshouldgoontospeak,inasemi-humorousstrain,oftheresponsibilitywhichMrs。Marchandmyselfhadincurredbylettingoursympathyforherrunawaywithus。IsaidIsupposedthatifwehadnotbeenwillingfromthefirsttotrytorealiseforhersomeoftheexpectationsweimaginedshehadincomingtoSaratoga,sheneverwouldhavefallentoourcharge;thatpeoplereallybroughtagreatmanymorethingsuponthemselvesthantheywerewillingtoown;andthatfatewasperhapsmorethefulfilmentofourtacitambitionsthanourovertacts。
Thisbitofphilosophy,whichIconfessIthoughtfine,didnotseemtoimpressKendricks。Hemerelysaidthatitmustbegreatfuntohavethechanceofbafflingthemaliceofcircumstanceinacaselikethat,andIperceivedthathefeltnothingcomplexinthesituation。Infact,Idoubtwhetheryouthperceivesanythingcomplexinlife。Totheyoung,lifeisaveryplaincase。Tobesure,theyaremuchmorealarmedthantheireldersatgettingtangledupinitswebattimes,butthatisbecausetheyhavenothadourexperienceingettinguntangled,andthinktheyarenevergoingtogetoutalive。Whentheydo,theythinkthatitistheonlytangletheyareevergoingtobein,anddonotknowthattheyaresimplygoingonfromonetoanotheraslongasthereisenoughofthemlefttobecaughtinamesh。ToKendricksweMarchesweresimplytwoamiablepeople,whohadfancieddoingapleasantthingforabeautifulgirlthataccidenthadthrownitinourpowertobefriend,andwerebynomeansthetremblingarbitersofherdestinywefeltourselvestobe。Thedifferencebetweenhisobjectivesenseandmysubjectivesensewasthedifferencebetweenhistwenty-sevenyearsandmyfifty-two,andwhilethisremainedIsawthatitwouldbeuselesstotrytogetoncommongroundwithhim,ortogivehimourpointofview。IfIweretospeaktohimatall,itmustbewithauthority,withtherightofonewhostoodintheplaceofthegirl"sparents,andhadherhappinessatheart。Thatis,itwassomethinglikethat;butmywordssayittoobluntly。Ifoundmyselfbeginning,"Ihaveratherhadanotionthatherfathermightcomeon,andtaketheenterpriseoffourhands,"though,totellthetruth,Ihadneverimaginedsuchathing,whichcameintomyheadatthatmomentthroughanassociationwiththethoughtofparents。
"Haveyouanyideawhatsortofmanheis?"askedKendricks。
"Oh,somelittlelocalmagnate,presidentofthevillageandpresidentofthevillagebank;Ifancythechieffigureintheplace,butprobablyasignorantofourworldasaCherokee。"
"Well,Idon"tknow,"saidtheyoungfellow。"Doyouthinkthatfollowsbecausehedoesn"tliveinit?"IcouldseethathedidnotquitelikewhatIhadsaid。"Isupposeoursisratherasmallworld。"
"Thesmallestofallworlds,"Ianswered。"AndintheeyesofPapaGage,iftheycouldoncebefocuseduponit,ourworldwouldshriveltoanatom。"
"Doyouthink,"heasked,withamanifestanxiety,"thatitwouldinhers?"
"No;sheisnottheAmericanpeople,andherfatheris,asIfancyhim。ImakeoutfromthevaguehintsthatBrotherDeering(asFulkersonwouldcallhim)droppedwhenhetalkedabouthimthatPapaGageisashrewd,practical,home-keepingbusinessman,withaneyesingletothemainchance,lavish,butnotgenerous,Philistinetothebackbone,blindlydevotedtohisdaughter,andcontemptuousofallthemyriadmysteriesofcivilisationthathedoesn"tunderstand。
Idon"tknowwhyIshouldbeauthorisedtoimaginehimpersonallylongandlank,withpossiblyatobaccohabitofsomesort。Hisnaturalhistory,uponnobetterauthority,isthatofahard-headedfarmer,whofoundoutthatfarmingcouldneverbemorethanalivelihood,andcameintothevillage,andbegantolendmoney,andgetgain,tillhewasinapositiontohelpfoundtheDeWittPointNationalBank,andthen,byweightofhismoneyedsolidity,imposedhimselfuponthefreeandindependentvotersofthevillage——amajorityofthemundermortgagetohim——andbecameitspresident。
Itisn"tapleasanttype,butit"sideallyAmerican。"
"Yes,"saidKendricksruefully。
"Buthisdaughter,"Icontinued,"isprobablyaltogetherdifferent。
Thereissomethingfineabouther——reallyfine。Ourworldwouldn"tshrivelinhereye;itwouldprobablyswellupandfilltheuniverse,"Iaddedbyanimpulsethatcamefromnowhereirresistiblyuponme:"thatis,ifshecouldseeYOUinit。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"heaskedwithastart。
"Oh,nowImusttellyouwhatImean,"Isaiddesperately。"It"syouthathavecomplicatedthiscasesodreadfullyforus。Can"tyouthinkwhy?"
"No,Ican"t,"hesaid;buthehadtosaythat。
Hisfine,sensitivefaceflamedatoncesofire-redthatitcouldonlyturnpaleforachangewhenIplungedon:"I"mafraidwe"vetrifledwithherhappiness";andthisformulationofthecasedisgustedmesomuchthatIlaughedwildly,andadded,"unlesswe"vetrifledwithyours,too。"
"Idon"tknowwhyyoucallittriflingwithhappiness,"hereturnedwithdignity,butwithoutoffence。"Ifyouwillleaveheroutofthequestion,IwillsaythatyouhavegivenmethegreatesthappinessofmylifeinintroducingmetoMissGage。"
"Now,"Idemanded,"mayIaskwhatYOUmean?YouknowIwouldn"tifIdidn"tfeelboundforhersake,andifyouhadn"tsaidjustwhatyouhavesaid。Youneedn"tanswermeunlessyoulike!It"spleasanttoknowthatyou"venotbeenbored,andMrs。MarchandI
areinfinitelyobligedtoyouforhelpingusout。"
Kendricksmadeasifheweregoingtosaysomething,andthenhedidnot。HehunghisheadlowerandlowerinthesilencewhichIhadtobreakforhim——"IhopeIhaven"tbeenintrusive,mydearfellow。
ThisissomethingIfeltboundtospeakof。Youknowwecouldn"tletitgoon。Mrs。MarchandIhaveblamedourselvesagooddeal,andwecouldn"tletitgoon。ButI"mafraidIhaven"tbeenasdelicatewithyou——"
"Oh!delicate!"Heliftedhisheadandflashedafaceofgenerousself-reproachuponme。"It"s_I_thathaven"tbeendelicatewithYOU。I"vebeenmonstrouslyindelicate。ButInevermeanttobe,and——and——Iwascomingtoseeyoujustnowwhenwemet——toseeyou——
MissGage——andaskher——tellherthatwe——I——musttellyouandMrs。
March——Mr。March!AtthehoplastnightIaskedhertobemywife,andassoonasshecanhearfromherfather——ButthefirstthingwhenIwokethismorning,IsawthatImusttellMrs。Marchandyou。
Andyou——youmustforgiveus——orme,rather;foritwasmyfault——
fornottellingyoulastnight——atonce——oh,thankyou!thankyou!"
Ihadseizedhishand,andwaswringingitvehementlyinexpressionofmypleasureinwhathehadtoldme。InthatfirstmomentIfeltnothingbutpurejoyandanimmeasurablerelief。Idrewmybreath,averydeepandfullone,inasudden,absolutefreedomfromanxietieswhichhadbeennonethelessrealandconstantbecausesooftenburlesqued。Afterwardconsiderationspresentedthemselvestoalloymyrapture,butforthatmoment,asIsay,itwasnothingbutrapture。Therewasnoquestioninitofthelovers"fitnessforeachother,oftheiracceptabilitytotheirrespectivefamilies,oftheirgeneralconduct,oroftheirespecialbehaviourtowardus。
AllthatIcouldrealisewasthatitwasagreatescapeforbothofus,andagreattriumphforme。IhadbeenafraidthatIshouldnothavethecouragetospeaktoKendricksofthematteratall,muchlessaskhimtogoaway;andhereIhadactuallyspokentohim,withthesplendidresultthatIneedonlycongratulatehimonhisengagementtotheladywhoseunrequitedaffectionsIhadbeenwishinghimtospare。Idon"trememberjustthetermsIusedindoingthis,buttheyseemedsatisfactorytoKendricks;probablyarepetitionofthelettersofthealphabetwouldhavebeenequallyacceptable。AtlastIsaid,"Well,nowImustgoandtellthegreatnewstoMrs。March,"andIshookhandswithhimagain;wehadbeenshakinghandsathalf-minutelyintervalseversincethefirsttime。
CHAPTERXVIII
IsawMrs。Marchwaitingformeonthehotelverandah。Sheworeherbonnet,andshewarnedmenottoapproach,andthenrandowntomeetme。
"Well,mydear,"shesaid,asshepushedherhandthroughmyarmandbegantopropelmeawayfromthesightandhearingofpeopleonthepiazza,"Ihopeyoudidn"tmakeafoolofyourselfwithKendricks。
They"reengaged!"
Sheapparentlyexpectedmetobeprostratedbythisstroke。"Yes,"
Isaidverycoolly;"Iwasjustcomingtotellyou。"
"Howdidyouknowit?Whotoldyou?DidKendricks?Idon"tbelieveit!"shecriedinanexcitementnotunmixedwithresentment。
"Noonetoldme,"Isaid。"Isimplydivinedit。"
Shedidn"tmindthatforamoment。"Well,I"mgladhehadthegracetodoso,andIhopehediditbeforeyouaskedhimanyleadingquestions。"Withoutwaitingtohearwhetherthiswassoornot,shewenton,withanemphasisonthenextwordthatalmostblotteditoutofthelanguage,"SHEcamebacktomealmosttheinstantyouweregone,andtoldmeeverything。Shesaidshewantedtotellmelastnight,butshehadn"tthecourage,andthismorning,whenshesawthatIwasbeginningtohintuptoMr。Kendricksalittle,shehadn"tthecourageatall。Isentherstraightofftotelegraphforherfather。Sheisbehavingsplendidly。Andnow,whatarewegoingtodo?"
"Whattherestoftheworldis——nothing。Itseemstomethatweareoutofthestory,mydear。Atanyrate,Ishan"tattempttocompetewithMissGageinsplendidbehaviour,andIhopeyouwon"t。Itwouldbesoeasyforus。IwonderwhatPapaGageisgoingtobelike。"
Ifeltmythrillofapprehensionimpartitselftoher。"Yes!"shegasped;"whatifheshouldn"tlikeit?"
"Well,then,that"shisaffair。"ButIdidnotfeelsolightlyaboutitasIspoke,andfromtimetotimeduringthedayIwasovertakenwithacolddismayatthethoughtoftheunknownquantityintheproblem。
Whenwereturnedtothehotelafteratouroftheblock,wesawKendricksinourcorneroftheverandahwithMissGage。Theywerebothlaughingconvulsively,andtheyrandowntomeetusinyetwilderthroesofmerriment。
"We"vejustbeencomparingnotes,"hesaid,"andattheverymomentwhenIwastellingyou,Mr。March,JuliawastellingMrs。March。"
"Wonderfulcaseoftelepathy,"Imocked。
"GiveittothePsychicalResearch。"
Theybothseemedalittledaunted,andMissGagesaid,"IknowMr。
Marchdoesn"tlikethewaywe"vedone。"
"Likeit!"criedMrs。March,contrivingtoshakemealittlewiththehandshestillhadinmyarm。"Ofcoursehelikesit。Hewasjustsayingyouhadbehavedsplendidly。HesaidHEwouldn"tattempttocompetewithyou。Butyoumustn"tregardhimintheleast。"
IadmiredtheskillwithwhichIsabelsavedherconscienceinthisstatementtoomuchtodisputeit;andIsupposethatwhatevershehadsaid,MissGagewouldhavebeenreassured。Icannotparticularlypraisethewisdomofherbehaviourduringthatday,or,forthematterofthat,thebehaviourofKendrickseither。Theidealthingwouldhavebeenforhimtokeepawaynowtillherfathercame,butitseemedtomethathewasaboutunderourfeetallthewhile,andthatshe,sofarfrommakinghimremainathisownhotel,encouragedhimtopassthetimeatours。Withoutconsultingme,Mrs。Marchaskedhimtostaytodinnerafterhehadstayedalltheforenoon,andhemadethisapretextforspendingtheafternooninourcorneroftheverandah。ShemademegiveituptohimandMissGage,sothattheycouldbealonetogether,thoughImustsaytheydidnotseemtomindusagreatdealwhenwewerepresent;hewasalwaysleaningonthebackofherchair,orsittingnextherwithhishanddanglingoveritinamannerthatmademesick。IwonderedifIwaseversuchanassasthat,andIquitelosttherespectforKendricks"sgoodsenseandgoodtastewhichhadbeenthegroundofmylikingforhim。
Ifeltmyselfwithdrawnfromtheaffairfartherandfartherinsympathy,sinceithadnowpassedbeyondmycontrol;andIresentedthestrainoftheresponsibilitywhichIhadthrownoff,Ifound,onlyforamoment,andmustcontinuetosufferuntilthegirl"sfatherappearedandfinallyrelievedme。TheworstwasthatIhadtobearitalone。ItwasimpossibletodetachMrs。March"sinterestfromMissGage,asagirlwhohadbeenmadeloveto,longenoughtoenablehertorealiseherasadaughterwithfilialtiesandduties。
Shedidtryinaperfunctorywaytodoit,butIcouldseethatshenevergavehermindtoit。Icouldnotevenmakehersharemysenseofmyownculpability,athingshewasonlytoowillingtodoinmostmatters。SheadmittedthatitwasabsurdformetohaveletmyfancyplayaboutthegirlwhenIfirstsawheruntilwefeltthatI
mustdosomethingforher;butIcouldnotgethertoownthatwehadbothactedpreposterouslyinlettingMrs。DeeringleaveMissGageinourcharge。Inthefirstplace,shedeniedthatshehadbeenleftinourcharge。Shehadsimplybeenleftinthehotelwherewewerestaying,andweshouldhavebeenperfectlyfreetodonothingforher。ButwhenKendricksturnedupsounexpectedly,itwasquitenaturalweshouldaskhimtobepolitetoher。Mrs。Marchsawnothingstrangeinallthat。WhatwasIworryingabout?Whatshehadbeenafraidofwasthathehadnotbeeninlovewiththegirlwhenshewassoclearlyinlovewithhim。Butnow!
"Andsupposeherfatherdoesn"tlikeit!"
"NotlikeMr。Kendricks!"Shestaredatme,andIcouldseehowinfatuatedshewas。
Iwasmyselfalwayscharmedwiththeyoungfellow。Hewasnotonlygoodandgenerousandhandsome,andclever——Ineverthoughthimafirst-classtalent——buthewasbeautifullywellbred,andhewasverywellborn,asthosethingsgowithus。Thatis,hecameofpeoplewhohadnotdonemuchofanythingforageneration,andhadacquiredmeritwiththemselvesforit。Theywerenotveryrich,buttheyhadarighttothinkthathemighthavedonenothing,ordonesomethingbetterthanliterature;andIwishIcouldsetforthexactlytheterms,tacitandexplicit,inwhichhismotherandsisterscondonedhisderelictiontomeatareceptionwherehepresentedmetothem。Invirtueofhiswishtodosomething,hehadbecomeahumanbeing,andtheycouldnotquitefollowhim;buttheywereverypoliteintoleratingme,andtryingtomakemefeelthatI
wasnotatallodd,thoughhewassoqueerinbeingproudofwritingformypaper,astheycalledit。HewassounlikethemallthatI
likedhimmorethaneveraftermeetingthem。Still,Icouldimagineafondfather,asIimaginedMissGage"sfathertobe,objectingtohim,onsomegroundsatleast,tillheknewhim,andMrs。Marchapparentlycouldnotimagineeventhis。
IdonotknowwhyIshouldhaveprefiguredMissGage"sfatherastallandlank。Shewasnotherselfsoverytall,thoughshewasrathertallthanshort,andthoughshewasratheroftheDianaorgirlishtypeofgoddess,shewasbynomeanslank。YetitwasinthisshapethatIhadalwaysthoughtofhim,perhapsthroughanobscureassociationwithhisfellow-villager,Deering。Ihadfanciedhimsaturnineofspirit,slovenlyofdress,andloungingofhabit,uponnoauthoritythatIcouldallege,andIwaswhollyunpreparedfortheneat,smallfigureofaman,verypreciseofmannerandscrupulousofaspect,whosaid,"Howdoyoudo,sir?I
hopeIseeyouwell,sir,"whenhisdaughterpresentedustoeachother,themorningaftertheeventfuldaydescribed,andheshookmyhandwithhisverysmall,dryhand。
Icouldnotmakeoutfromtheirmannerwitheachotherwhethertheyhadbeenspeakingofthegreatmatterinhandornot。IamratheratalossaboutpeopleofthatPhilistinemakeastowhattheirprocedurewillbeincircumstanceswhereIknowjustwhatpeopleofmyownsortofsophisticationwoulddo。Thesewouldcomestraightatthetrouble,butIfancythatwiththeothersorttheconventionisapreliminaryreserve。IfoundMr。Gagedisposedtoprolong,withmeatleast,adiscussionoftheweather,andtheaspectsofSaratoga,theeventsofhisjourneyfromDeWittPoint,andthehardshipofhavingtorideallthewaytoMooer"sJunctioninastage-coach。Ifeltmoreandmore,whilewebandiedthesefutilities,asifMr。Gagehadanoverduenoteofmine,andwaswaitingforme,sinceIcouldnotpayit,tomakesomepropositiontowarditsrenewal;andhedidreallytiremeoutatlast,sothatI
said,"Well,Mr。Gage,IsupposeMissGagehastoldyousomethingofthetremendoussituationthathasdevelopeditselfhere?"
IthoughtIhadbettergivetheaffairsuchsmilingcharacterasajocosetreatmentmightimpart,andthedrylittlemantwinkledupresponsivelysofarasmannerwasconcerned。"Well,yes,yes。
Therehasbeensometalkofitbetweenus,"andagainheleftthewordtome。
"Mrs。Marchurgedyourdaughtertosendforyouatoncebecausethatwastherightandfitthingtodo,andbecausewefeltthattheaffairhadnowquitetranscendedourpowers,suchastheywere,andnobodycouldreallycopewithitbutyourself。Ihopeyouwerenotundulyalarmedbythesummons?"
"Notatall。Shesaidinthedespatchthatshewasnotsick。IhadbeenanticipatingashortvisittoSaratogaforsomedays,andmybusinesswasinashapesothatIcouldleave。"
"Oh!"Isaidvaguely,"Iamveryglad。Mrs。Marchfelt,asIdid,thatcircumstanceshadgivenusacertainobligationinregardtoMissGage,andwewereanxioustodischargeitfaithfullyandtotheutmost。Weshouldhavewrittentoyou,summonedyou,before,ifwecouldhavesupposed——orbeensure;butyouknowthesethingsgoonsoobscurely,andweactedattheveryfirstpossiblemoment。I
wishyoutounderstandthat。Wetalkeditoveragreatdeal,andI
hopeyouwillbelievethatwestudiedthroughout——thatweweremostsolicitousfrombeginningtoendforMissGage"shappiness,andthatifwecouldhaveforeseenorimagined——ifwecouldhavetakenanysteps——Itrustyouwillbelieve——"Iwasfuriousatmyselfforbeingsoconfoundedlyapologetic,forIwasthinkingallthetimeofthebotherandafflictionwehadhadwiththegirl;andtheresatthatlittlewoodenimageacceptingmyself-inculpations,andapparentlydemandingmoreofme;butIcouldnothelpgoingoninthesamestrain:"Wefeltespeciallyboundinthematter,fromthefactthatMr。Kendrickswasapersonalfriendofours,whomweareveryfondof,andwebothareveryanxiousthatyoushouldnotsupposethatwepromoted,orthatwewerenotmostvigilant——thatwewereforamomentforgetfulofyourrightsinsuchanaffair——"
Istopped,andMr。Gagepassedhishandacrosshislittlemeagre,smilingmouth。
"Thenheisnotaconnectionofyours,Mr。March?"
"Blessme,no!"Isaidingreatrelief;"wearenotsoswellasthat。"AndItriedtogivehimsomenotionofKendricks"slocalquality,repeatingalistofagglutinatedNewYorksurnamestowhichhiswasmoreorlessaffiliated。Theyalwaysamuseme,thosenames,whichmorethananyintheworldgivethenotionofsocialstraining;butIdoubtiftheyaffectedtheimaginationofMr。Gage,eitherinthiswayorinthewayImeanlymeantthemtoaffecthim。
"Andwhatdidyousayhisbusinesswas?"heasked,withthatimplicationofapreviousstatementonyourpartwhichsomepeoplethinkitsoclevertomakewhentheyquestionyou。
Ialwayshateit,andIavengedmyselfbyansweringsimply,"Blessmysoul,hehasnobusiness!"andlettinghimtakeupthewordnowornot,asheliked。
"Thenheisamanofindependentmeans?"
Icouldnotresistanswering,"Independentmeans?Kendrickshasnomeanswhatever。"Buthavingdealtthisblow,Icouldadd,"I
believehismotherhassomemoney。Theyarepeoplewholivecomfortably"
"Thenhehasnoprofession?"askedMr。Gage,withalittlemorestringencyinhissmile。
"Idon"tknowwhetheryouwillcallitaprofession。Heisawriter。"
"Ah!"Mr。Gagesoftlybreathed。"Doeshewriteforyour——paper?"
InotedthatastotheliterarytechnicalitiesheseemednottobemuchmoreignorantthanKendricks"sownfamily,andIsaid,tolerantly,"Yes;hewritesforourmagazine。"
"Magazine——yes;Ibegyourpardon,"heinterrupted。
"Andforanyotherswherehecanplacehismaterial。"
ThisapparentlydidnotconveyanyveryluminousideatoMr。Gage"smind,andheaskedafteramoment,"Whatkindofthingsdoeshewrite?"
"Oh,stories,sketches,poems,reviews,essays——almostanything,infact。"
Thelightlefthisface,andIperceivedthatIhadcarriedmyrevengetoofar,atleastforKendricks"sadvantage,andI
determinedtotakeanewdepartureatthefirstchance。Thechancedidnotcomeimmediately。
"Andcanamansupportawifebythatkindofwriting?"askedMr。
Gage。
Ilaugheduneasily。"Somepeopledo。Itdependsuponhowmuchofithecansell。Itdependsuponhowhandsomelyawifewishestobesupported。Theresultisn"tusuallybeyondthedreamsofavarice,"
Isaid,withadesperatelevity。
"Excuseme,"returnedthelittleman。"Doyouliveinthatway?Byyourwritings?"
"No,"Isaidwithsomestate,whichItriedtosubdue;"IamtheeditorofEveryOtherWeek,andpartowner。Mr。Kendricksismerelyacontributor。"
"Ah,"hebreathedagain。"Andifheweresuccessfulinsellinghiswritings,howmuchwouldheprobablymakeinayear?"
"Inayear?"Irepeated,togaintime。"Mr。Kendricksiscomparativelyabeginner。Sayfifteenhundred——twothousand——
twenty-fivehundred。"
"AndthatwouldnotgoveryfarinNewYork。"
"No;thatwouldnotgofarinNewYork。"Iwasbeginningtofindacertainpleasureindealingsofranklywiththishardlittleman。I
likedtoseehimsuffer,andIcouldseethathedidsuffer;hesufferedasafathermustwholearnsthatfromapecuniarypointofviewhisdaughterisimprudentlyinlove。Whyshouldwealwaysregardsuchasuffererasacomicfigure?Heis,ifwethinkofitrightly,amostserious,eventragicalfigure,andatalleventsamostrespectablefigure。Helovesher,andhisheartistornbetweenthewishtoindulgeherandthewishtodowhatwillbefinallybestforher。Whyshouldoursympathies,insuchacase,beallforthefoolishyounglovers?Theyoughtingreatmeasuretobeforthefather,too。Somethinglikeasenseofthissmoteme,andI
wasashamedinmypleasure。
"ThenIshouldsay,Mr。March,thatthisseemsamostundesirableengagementformydaughter。Whatshouldyousay?Iaskyoutomakethecaseyourown。"
"Excuseme,"Ianswered;"Iwouldmuchrathernotmakethecasemyown,Mr。Gage,andImustdeclinetohaveyouconsultme。IthinkthatinthismatterIhavedoneallthatIwascalledupontodo。I
havetoldyouwhatIknowofMr。Kendricks"scircumstancesandconnections。Astohischaracter,IcantrulysaythatheisoneofthebestmenIeverknew。Ibelieveinhisabsolutepurityofheart,andheisthemostunselfish,themostgenerous——"
Mr。Gagewavedthefactsasidewithhishand。"Idon"tundervaluethosethings。IfIcouldbemaster,nooneshouldhavemygirlwithoutthem。Buttheydonotconstitutealivelihood。FromwhatyoutellmeofMr。Kendricks"sprospects,IamnotpreparedtosaythatIthinktheoutlookisbrilliant。Ifhehascounteduponmysupplyingadeficiency——"
"Oh,excuseme,Mr。Gage!Yourinsinuation——"
"ExcuseME!"heretorted。"Iammakingnoinsinuation。Imerelywishtosaythat,whilemymeansaresuchastoenablemetoliveincomfortatDeWittPoint,IamwellawarethatmuchmorewouldbeneededinNewYorktoenablemydaughtertoliveinthesamecomfort。I"mnotwillingsheshouldliveinless。IthinkitismydutytosaythatIamnotatallarichman,andiftherehasbeenanysuppositionthatIamso,itisamistakethatcannotbecorrectedtoosoon。"
ThistimeIcouldnotresenthisinsinuation,forsincehehadbeguntospeakIhadbecomeguiltilyawareofhavingfeltasortofeaseinregardtoKendricks"smodestyofcompetencefromabelief,givenme,Isuspect,bythetalkofDeering,thatMr。Gagehadplentyofmoney,andcouldcometotherescueinanyamountneeded。Icouldonlysay,"Mr。Gage,allthisissofarbeyondmycontrolthatI
oughtnottoallowyoutosayittome。ItissomethingthatyoumustsaytoMr。Kendricks。"
AsIspokeIsawtheyoungfellowcomeroundthecornerofthestreet,andmountthehotelsteps。Hedidnotseeme,forhedidnotlooktowardthelittlecorneroflawnwhereMr。GageandIhadputourchairsforthesakeofthemorningshade,andfortheseclusionthatthespotaffordedus。Itwasattheangleofthehousefarthestfromourpeculiarcornerofthepiazza,whitherIhadthebeliefthatthegirlhadwithdrawnwhensheleftmetoherfather。IwassurethatKendrickswouldseekherthere,farenoughbeyondeyeshotorearshotofus,andIhadnodoubtthatshewasexpectinghim。
"YouareMr。Kendricks"sfriend——"
"IhavetriedmuchmoretobeMissGage"sfriend;andMrs。March——"
Itcameintomymindthatshewasmostselfishlyandshamelesslykeepingoutoftheway,andIcouldnotgoonandcelebratehermagnanimousimpartiality,hereagerandsleeplessvigilance。
"Ihavenodoubtofthat,"saidthelittleman,"andIamverymuchobligedtoyouforallthetroubleyouhavetakenonmydaughter"saccount。Butyouarehisfriend,andIcanspeaktoyoumuchmorefullyandfranklythanIcouldtohim。"
Ididnotknowjustwhattosaytothis,andhewenton:"Inpointoffact,Idon"tthinkthatIshallspeaktohimatall。"
"Thatisquiteyouraffair,mydearsir,"Isaiddryly。"Itisn"ttobesupposedthatyouwouldseekaninterviewwithhim。"
"Andifheseeksaninterviewwithme,Ishalldeclineit。"Helookedatmedefiantlyandyetinterrogatively。Icouldseethathewasveryangry,andyetuncertain。
"Imustsay,then,Mr。Gage,thatIdon"tthinkyouwouldberight。"
"How,notright?"
"Ishouldsaythatinequityhehadafullandperfectrighttomeetyou,andtotalkthismatteroverwithyou。Hehasdoneyounowrongwhateverinadmiringyourdaughter,andwishingtomarryher。
It"sforyouandhertodecidewhetheryouwilllethim。Butasfarashiswishgoes,andhisexpressionofittoher,heisquitewithinhisrights。Youmustseethatyourself。"
"Iconsider,"heanswered,"thathehasdonemeawronginthatverything。Amanwithoutmeans,oranystatedoccupation,hehadnobusinesstospeaktomydaughterwithoutspeakingtome。Hetookadvantageofthecircumstances。Whatdoeshethink?DoeshesupposeIamMADEofmoney?DoeshesupposeIwanttosupportason-in-law?IcantellyouthatifIwerepossessedofunlimitedmeans,Ishouldnotdoit。"IbegantosuspectthatDeeringwasnearerright,afterall,inhisrepresentationsoftheman"sfinancialability;Ifanciedsomethingoftheanxiety,thetremorofavarice,inhisresentmentofpoorKendricks"spossible,orratherimpossible,designsuponhispocket。"Ifhehadanyprofession,oranykindofbusiness,Ishouldfeeldifferently,andIshouldbewillingtoassisthimtoareasonabledegree;orifhehadabusinesstraining,Imighttakehiminwithme;butasitis,I
shouldhaveahelplessburdenonmyhands,andIcantellyouIamnotgoinginforthatsortofthing。Ishallmakeshortworkofit。
IshalldeclinetomeetMr。Hendricks,orKendricks,andIshallaskyoutosayasmuchtohimfromme。"
"AndIshalldeclinetobethebearerofanysuchmessagefromyou,Mr。Gage,"Ianswered,andIsaw,notwithoutpleasure,thebewildermentthatbegantomixwithhisarrogance。
"Verywell,then,sir,"heanswered,afteramoment;"Ishallsimplytakemydaughterawaywithme,andthatwillendit。"
Theprimlittle,grimlittlemanlookedatmewithhishardeyes,andsethislipssoclosethatthebeardontheloweronestuckoutatmewithasortofadditionalmenaceIfeltthathewastoocapableofdoingwhathesaid,andIlostmyselfinasenseofhissordidness,asensewhichwasalmostwithoutatraceofcompassion。
ItseemedasifIwerealongtimeunderthespellofthis,andthesightofhisrepugnantface;butitcouldreallyhavebeenmerelyamoment,whenIheardastirofdraperyonthegrassnearus,andthesoft,richvoiceofMissGagesaying,"Papa!"
Webothstartedtoourfeet。Idonotknowwhethershehadheardwhathesaidornot。Wehadspokenlow,andintheutmostvehemenceofhisspeechhedidnotlifthisvoice。Inanycase,shedidnotheedwhathesaid。
"Papa,"sherepeated,"IwantyoutocomeupandseeMrs。Marchonthepiazza。And——Mr。Kendricksisthere。"
Ihadawilddesiretolaughatwhatfollowed,andyetitwasnotwithoutitspathos。"I——I——hm!hm!I——cannotseeMr。Kendricksjustatpresent。I——thefactis,Idonotwanttoseehim。Itisbetter——not。Ithinkyouhadbettergetreadytogohomewithmeatonce,daughter。I——hm!——cannotapproveofanyengagementtoMr。
Kendricks,andI——prefernottomeethim。"Hestopped。
MissGagesaidnothing,andIcannotsaythatshelookedanything。
ShesimplyCLOUDEDUP,ifImaysoexpresstheeffectthatcameandremaineduponhercountenance,whichwasnowthecountenanceshehadshownmethefirsteveningIsawher,whenIsawtheDeeringscoweringinitsshadow。Ihadnoneedtolookattheadamantinelittlemanbeforehertoknowthathewassofteningintowax,and,infact,Ifeltasortofindecencyinbeholdinghisinteneration,forIknewthatitcamefromhisheart,andhaditsconsecrationthroughhisloveforher。
ThatiswhyIturnedaway,anddonotknowtothismomentjusthowthechangeshedesiredinhimwasbroughtabout。IwillnotsaythatIdidnotlookbackfromadiscreetdistance,andcontinuelookinguntilIsawthemstartawaytogetherandmoveinthedirectionofthatcornerofthepiazzawhereKendrickswaswaitingwithMrs。March。
Itappeared,fromheraccount,thatMr。Gage,withnouncommonshowofill-will,butwithmerelyanaturaldryness,sufferedKendrickstobepresentedtohim,andentereduponsomepreliminarybanalitieswithhim,suchashehadusedinopeningaconversationwithme。
BeforethesecametoacloseMrs。Marchhadthoughtitwelltoleavethethreetogether。
Afterward,whenweknewtheonlyresultthattheaffaircouldhave,shesaid,"Thegirlhasapowerfulwill。Iwonderwhatthemotherwaslike。"
"Yes;evidentlyshedidn"tgetthatwillfromherfather。Ihavestillasenseofexhaustionfromitinourowncase。WhatdoyouthinkitportendsforpoorKendricks!"
"PoorKendricks!"sherepeatedthoughtfully。"Yes;inthatsenseI
supposeyoumightcallhimpoor。Itisn"tanequalthingasfarasnature,ascharacter,goes。Butisn"titalwaysdreadfultoseetwopeoplewhohavemadeuptheirmindstogetmarried?"
"It"sverycommon,"Isuggested。
"Thatdoesn"tchangethefact,orlessentherisk。Sheisverybeautiful,andnowheisinlovewithherbeautifulgirlhood。Butafterawhilethegirlhoodwillgo。"
"Andthegirlwillremain,"Isaid。