投诉 阅读记录

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traordinarypersonsriding。

"Inthecauseofhealth,"Leroyusedtosay,"Ioughttohavethecarriagefumi-

gatedaftereveryrideJudithtakes,forsheisalwaysaccompaniedbysomeonewholooksasifheorsheshouldgointoquarantine。”

Onenight,whenhewaschaffingherinthisway,sheflunghersewingsuddenlyfromherandsprangtoherfeet,asifsheweregoingtogivewaytoaburstofgirlishtemper。Insteadofthat,astreamoftearspouredfromhereyes,andsheheldouthertremblinghandstowardJessica。

"Hedoesnotknow,"shesobbed。"Hecannotunderstand。”

OnememorabledayLeroyhastenedovertouswhilewewerestillatbreakfasttosaythatJudithwasill,——strangelyill。Allnightlongshehadbeenmutteringtoherselfasifinadelirium。Yetsheansweredlucidlyallquestionsthatwereputtoher。

"ShebegsforMissGrant。Shesaysoverandoverthatshe"knows,"whateverthatmaymean。”

WhenJessicacamehomeshetoldmeshedidnotknow。Sheonlyfeltthatatumultofimpatiencewasstirringinherfriend。

"Thereissomethingmajesticabouther,——

somethingepic。Ifeelasifsheweremak-

ingmeliveapartinsomegreatdrama,theendofwhichIcannottell。Sheissuffering,butIcannottellwhyshesuffers。”

Weekswentonwithoutanabatementinthisstrangeillness。Shedidnotkeepherbed。Indeed,sheneglectedfewofherusualoccupations。Butherhandswereburning,andhereyesgrewbrightwiththatwildsortoflustreoneseesintheeyesofthosewhogivethemselvesuptostrangedrugsormanias。Shegrewwhimsical,andformedcapriciousfriendships,onlytodropthem。

Andthenonedaysheclosedherhousetoallacquaintances,andsatalonecontinu-

allyinherroom,withherhandsclaspedinherlap,andhereyesswimmingwiththeemotionsthatneverfoundtheirwaytohertongue。

Brainardcametotheofficetotalkwithmeaboutheroneday。"Iamaverymiser-

ableman,Grant,"hesaid。"IamafraidI

havelostmywife"sregard。Oh,don"ttellmeitispartlymyfault。Iknowitwellenough。

AndIknowyouhaven"thadaverygoodopinionofmelately。ButIamremorsefulenoughnow,Godknows。AndIwouldgivemylifetoseeherasshewaswhenIfoundherfirstamongthemountains。Why,sheusedtoclimbthemlikeastrongman,andshewasforevershoutingandsinging。Andshehadpeopledeveryspotwithstrangemodernmythologicalcreatures。Herfatherisanolddreamer,andshegotthetrickfromhim。Theyhadalittletelescopeonagreatknollinthecentreofthevalley,justwhereitcommandedalongpathofstars,andtheyusedtospendnightsouttherewhenthefrostliterallyfellinflakes。WhenIthinkhowhardyandgayshewas,howfullofcourageandlife,andlookathernow,sofeverishandbroken,IfeelasifIshouldgomad。YouknowInevermeanttodoheranyharm。Tellmethatmuch,Grant。”

"Ithinkyouwereveryegotisticalforawhile,Brainard,andthatisafact。Andyoudidn"tappreciatehowmuchhernaturedemanded。ButIdonotthinkyouarere-

sponsibleforyourwife"spresentcondition。

Ifthereisanycomfortinthatstatement,youarewelcometoit。”

"Butyoudon"tmean——"hegotnofurther。

"Imeanthatyourwifemayhaveherreservations,justasweallhave,andIampayingherhighpraisewhenIsayit。Youarenotsonarrow,Leroy,astosupposeforamomentthattheonlysortofpassionawomaniscapableofisthatwhichsheenter-

tainsforaman。HowdoIknowwhatisgoingoninyourwife"ssoul?Butitisnothingwhichevenanidealistofwomen,suchasIam,oldfellow,needregret。”

HowgladIwasafterwardthatIspokethosewords。Theyexercisedalittlere-

straint,perhaps,onLeroywhenthedayofhisterribletrialcame。Theymadehimwrestlewiththedemonofsuspicionthatstrovetopossesshim。Iwassittinginmyoffice,laggingdispiritedlyovermyworkoneday,whenthedoorburstopenandBrainardstoodbesideme。Brainard,Isay,andyetinnosensethemanIhadknown,——notahintinthispalecreature,whosebreathstruggledthroughchatteringteeth,andwhosehandsworkedinuncontrollablespasms,ofthenonchalantelegantIhadknown。Notaglimpsetobeseeninthoseangryanddeterminedeyesofthegaylyselfishspiritofmyholidayfriend。

"She"sgone!"hegasped。"Sinceyes-

terday。AndI"mheretoaskyouwhatyouthinknow?Andwhatyouknow。”

Apanoramaofallshamefulpossibilitiesforoneblackmomentfloatedbeforeme。

Irememberthisgaveplacetoawave,coldasdeath,thatsweptfromheadtofoot;

thenBrainard"shandsfellheavilyonmyshoulders。

"ThankGodatleastforthismuch,"hesaid,hoarsely;"Ididn"tknowatfirstbutIhadlostbothfriendandwife。ButIseeyouknownothing。AndindeedinmyheartIknewallthetimethatyoudidnot。

YetIhadtocometoyouwithmyanger。

AndIrememberedhowyoudefendedher。

Whatexplanationcanyouoffernow?"

Igothimtositdownafterawhileandtellmewhatlittletherewastotell。Hehadbeenawayforaday"sshooting,andwhenhereturnedhefoundonlytheper-

plexedservantsathome。Anotewasleftforhim。Heshowedittome。

"Therearetimes,"itran,"whenwemustdoaswemust,notaswewould。Iamgo-

ingtodosomethingIhavebeendriventodosinceIleftmyhome。Idonotleaveanymessageofloveforyou,becauseyouwouldnotcareforitfromawomansoweakasI。ButitissoeasyforyoutobehappythatIhopeinalittlewhileyouwillforgetthewifewhoyieldedtoaninfluencepastresisting。Itmaybemadness,butIamnotgreatenoughtogiveitup。Itriedtomakethesacrifice,butIcouldnot。Itriedtobeasgayasyou,andtoliveyoursortoflife;butIcouldnotdoit。Donotmaketheefforttoforgiveme。Youwillbehap-

pierifyousimplyholdmeinthecontemptIdeserve。”

Ireadtheletteroverandover。IdonotknowthatIbelievethatthespiritofinani-

matethingscanpermeatetotheintelligenceofman。IamsureIalwayslaughedatsuchideas。Yetholdingthatnotewithitsshamefulseemingwords,Ifeltaconscious-

nessthatitwaswritteninpurityandlove。

Andthenbeforemyeyestherecameascenesovividthatforamomenttheofficewithitsfamiliarfurniturewasobliterated。WhatI

sawwasalongfirmroad,greenwithmid-

summerluxuriance。Theleisurelythuddingofmyhorse"sfeetsoundedinmyears。Be-

sidemewasatall,black-robedfigure。I

sawherlookbackwiththatexpressionofdeprivationattheskyline。"It"slikeliv-

ingaftertheworldhasbeguntodie,"saidthepensiveminorvoice。"Itseemsasifpartoftheworldhadbeentakendown。”

"Brainard,"Iyelled,"comehere!I

haveit。Here"syourexplanation。Icanshowyouanewmeaningforeverylineofthisletter。Man,shehasgonetothemoun-

tains。Shehasgonetoworshipherowngods!"

TwoweekslaterIgotaletterfromBrain-

ard,datedfromColorado。

"Oldman,"itsaid,"you"reright。Sheishere。Ifoundmymountainwomanherewherethefourvoicesofhercataractshadbeencallingtoher。Isawherthemomentourmulesroundedtheroadthatcommandsthevalley。Wehadbeenridingallnightandweredrenchedwithcolddew,hungrytodesperation,andmyspiritswereoflead。

Suddenlywegotoutfrombehindthegran-

itewall,andthereshewas,standing,whereI

hadseenhersooften,besidethelittlewater-

fallthatshecallsthehappyone。Shewaslookingstraightupatthebillowingmistthatdippeddownthemountain,mammothsaffronrollsofit,plungingsomadlyfromtheimpetusofthewindthatonemarvelledhowitcouldbenoiseless。Ah,youdonotknowJudith!Thatstrange,unsophisti-

cated,sometimesawkwardwomanyousawborenomoreresemblancetomymountainwomanthanItoHercules。Howstrongandbeautifulshelookedstandingtherewrappedinanecstasy!Itwasmyprimitivewomanbackinherprimevalworld。Howthebloodleapedinme!Allmyoldromance,sodif-

ferentfromthecommonlove-historiesofmostmen,wasthereagainwithinmyreach!

Allthemystery,thepoignanthappinessweremineagain。Donotholdmeincon-

temptbecauseIshowyoumyheart。Yousawmymisery。WhyshouldIgrudgeyouaglimpseofmyhappiness?ShesawmewhenItouchedherhand,notbefore,sowrappedwasshe。Butshedidnotseemsurprised。Onlyinhersplendideyestherecamealargecontent。Shepointedtothedancinglittlewhitefall。"Ithoughtsome-

thingwonderfulwasgoingtohappen,"shewhispered,"forithasbeenlaughingso。"

"IshallnotreturntoNewYork。Iamgoingtostayherewithmymountainwo-

man,andIthinkperhapsIshallfindoutwhatlifemeansheresoonerthanIwouldbacktherewithyou。Ishalllearntoseelargethingslargeandsmallthingssmall。

JudithsaystotellyouandMissGrantthatthefourvoicesarecallingforyoueverydayinthevalley。

"Yoursinfullestfriendship,"LEROYBRAINARD。”

JimLancy"sWaterloo"WEmustgetmarriedbeforetimetoputincrops,"hewrote。"Wemustmakeasuccessofthefarmthefirstyear,forluck。

CouldyoumanagetobereadytocomeoutWestbythelastofFebruary?AfterMarchopenstherewillbenolet-up,andIdonotseehowIcouldgetaway。MakeitFebru-

ary,Anniedear。Afewweeksmoreorlesscanmakenodifferencetoyou,buttheymakeagooddealofdifferencetome。”

Thewomantowhomthiswaswrittenreaditwithsomethinglikeanger。"Idon"tbe-

lievehe"ssoimpatientforme!"shesaidtoherself。"Whathewantsistogetthecropsinontime。”Butshechangedthedateoftheirwedding,andmadeitFebruary。

TheirweddingjourneywasonlyfromtheIllinoisvillagewhereshelivedtotheirNebraskafarm。Theyhadneverbeenmuchtogether,andtheyhadmuchtosaytoeachother。

"Farmingwon"tcomehardtoyou,"Jimassuredher。"Alloneneedstofarmwithisbrains。”

"Whatasuccessyou"llmakeofit!"shecriedsaucily。

"IwishIhadmyfarmclear,"Jimwenton;"butthat"smorethananyonehasaroundme。I"mnoworseoffthantherest。

We"vegottopayoffthemortgage,Annie。”

"Ofcoursewemust。We"lljustdowith-

outtillwegetthemortgagelifted。Hardworkwilldoanything,Iguess。AndI"mnotafraidtowork,Jim,thoughI"veneverhadmuchexperience。”

Jimlookedoutofthewindowalongtime,atthegentleundulationsofthebrownIowaprairie。Hiseyesseemedtopiercebeneaththesod,totheswellingbudsoftheyetinvisiblegrass。Henoticedhowdisdain-

fullytherainsofthenewyearbeatdownthegrassesoftheyearthatwasgone。Itopenedtohismindavisionoftheseason"spossibilities。Foramoment,evenamidthesmokeofthecar,heseemedtoscentclover,andhearthestiffswishingofthecornandthedullburringofthebees。

"Iwishsometimes,"hesaid,leaningfor-

wardtolookathisbride,"thatIhadbeenbornsomethingelsethanafarmer。ButI

cannomorehelpfarming,Annie,thanabirdcanhelpsinging,orabeemakinghoney。Ididn"ttaketofarming。Iwassimplybornwithahoeinmyhand。”

"Idon"tknowablessedthingaboutit,"

Annieconfessed。"ButImadeupmymindthatafarmwithyouwasbetterthanatownwithoutyou。That"sallthereistoit,asfarasIamconcerned。”

JimLancyslidhisarmsoftlyaboutherwaist,unseenbytheotherpassengers。

Annielookedupapprehensively,toseeifanyonewasnoticing。Buttheywereeatingtheirlunches。Itwasacommoncoachonwhichtheywereriding。TherewasaPullmanattachedtothetrain,andAnniehadsecretlythoughtthat,asitwastheirweddingjourney,itmightbemorebecomingtotakeit。ButJimhadmadenosuggestionaboutit。Whathesaidlaterexplainedthereason。

"Iwouldhavelikedtohavebroughtyouafinepresent,"hesaid。"Itseemedshabbytocomewithnothingbutthatlittlering。

ButIputeverythingIhadonourhome,youknow。Andyet,I"msureyou"llthinkitpoorenoughafterwhatyou"vebeenusedto。You"llforgivemeforonlybringingthering,mydear?"

"Butyoubroughtmesomethingbetter,"

Anniewhispered。Shewasafoolishlittlegirl。"Youbroughtmelove,youknow。”

Thentheyrodeinsilenceforalongtime。

Bothofthemwerenewtothephraseologyoflove。Theirsimplecomplimentstoeachotherwerealmostludicrous。Butanyonewhomighthavechancedtooverhearthemwouldhavebeencharmed,fortheybetrayedaninnocenceasbeautifulasanuncloudeddawn。

AnnietriedhardnottobedepressedbythetreelessstretchesoftheNebraskaplains。

"ThisisdifferentfromIllinois,"sheventuredonce,gently;"itisevendifferentfromIowa。”

"Yes,yes,"criedJim,enthusiastically,"itisdifferent!Itisthefinestcountryintheworld!Youneverfeelshutin。Youcanalwaysseeoff。IfeelathomeafterIgetinNebraska。I"dchokebackwhereyoulive,withallthoselittlegulliesandthetreeseverywhere。It"samysterytomehowfarmershavepatiencetoworkthere。”

Annieopenedhereyes。Therewasevi-

dentlymorethanonewayoflookingataquestion。Thefarm-housesseemedverylowandmeantoher,asshelookedatthemfromthewindow。Therewerenofences,exceptingnowandthentheinhospitablebarbedwire。Thedoor-yardswerebleaktohereyes,withouttheornamentalshrubberywhicheveryfarmerinherpartofthecountrywasusedtotending。Thecattlestoodun-

sheddedintheircorrals。Thereapersandbindersstoodrustinginthedulldrizzle。

"Howshiftless!"criedAnnie,indignantly。

"Whatdothesemenmeanbylettingtheirmachinerylieoutthatway?Ishouldthinkonewinteroflyingoutwouldhurtitmorethanthreesummersofusing。”

"Itdoes。Butshedsarenoteasilyhad。

Lumberisdear。”

"ButIshouldthinkitwouldbeeconomyeventhen。”

"Yes,"hesaid,"perhaps。Butwealldothatwayouthere。Ittakessomemoneyforamantobeeconomicalwith。Someofushaven"teventhatmuch。”

Therewasasix-mileridefromthestation。

Thehorseswerewaiting,hitcheduptoaserviceablelightwagon,anddrivenbythe"help。”Hewasathinyoungman,withredhair,andheblushedvicariouslyforJimandAnnie,whowerereallytooentertainedwitheachother,andattheideaofthenewlifeopeningupbeforethem,tothinkany-

thingaboutblushing。Atthestation,anumberofmeninsistedonshakinghandswithJim,andbeingintroducedtohiswife。

Theywereallbearded,asifshavingwereanunnecessarylabor,andtheirtrousersweretuckedindustytop-boots,noneofwhichhadeverseenblacking。Anniehadasenseofthesemenseemingunwashed,orasiftheyhadsleptintheirclothes。Buttheyhadkindvoices,andtheireyeswereveryfriendly。Sosheshookhandswiththemallwithheartiness,andaskedthemtodriveoutandbringtheirwomenkind。

"Iamgoingtomakeupmymindnottobelonesome,"shedeclared;"but,allthesame,Ishallwanttoseesomewomen。”

Anniehadgotsafeonthehighseatofthewagon,andwasbalancingherlittlefeetontheinclinedfoot-rest,whenawomancamerunningacrossthestreet,callingaloud,——

"Mr。Lancy!Mr。Lancy!You"renotgoingtodriveawaywithoutintroducingmetoyourwife!"

Shewasathinlittlewoman,withmove-

mentsasnervousandasgracelessasthoseofagrasshopper。Herdun-coloredgarmentsseemedtohaveallthehuebleachedoutofthemwithwindandweather。Herfacewasbrownandwrinkled,andherbrighteyesflashedrestlessly,deepintheirsockets。Twofrontteethwereconspicuouslymissing;andherfadedhairwasblowninwispsaboutherface。Jimperformedtheintroduction,andAnnieheldoutherhand。Itwasaprettyhand,delicatelyglovedindovecolor。

Thewomantookitinherown,andaftershehadshakenit,helditforasilentmo-

ment,lookingatit。Thenshealmostthrewitfromher。Theeyeswhichsheliftedtoscanthebrightyoungfaceaboveherhadsomethinglikeagonyinthem。Annieblushedunderthisfiercescrutiny,andthewoman,suddenlyconsciousofherdemeanor,forcedasmiletoherlips。

"I"llcomeoutan"seeyeh,"shesaid,incordialtones。"Maybe,asanewhouse-

keeper,you"lllikealittleadvice。You"veaniceplace,an"Iwishyehluck。”

"Thankyou。I"msureI"llneedadvice,"

criedAnnie,astheydroveoff。ThenshesaidtoJim,"Whoisthatoldwoman?"

"Oldwoman?Why,sheain"tadayoverthirty,Mis"Dundyain"t。”

Annielookedatherhusbandblankly。

Buthewasalreadytalkingofsomethingelse,andsheaskednomoreaboutthewoman,thoughallthewayalongtheroadthefaceseemedtofollowher。Itmighthavebeenthisthatcausedthetighteningaboutherheart。Forsomewayhervivacityhadgone;andtherestoftheridesheaskednoquestions,butsatlookingstraightbeforeheratthenorthwardstretchingroad,witheyesthatfeltratherthansawthebrown,bareundulations,risingeverynowandthencleantothesky;attheside,littlefamished-

lookinghouses,unacquaintedwithpaint,disorderlyyards,andendlessreachesoffurrowedground,whereinsummerthecornhadwaved。

Thehorsesneedednoindicationofthelinetomakethemturnupasmoothbitofroadthatcurvedawayneatly"midtheraggedgrasses。Attheendofit,inaclumpofpunyscruboaks,stoodasquarelittlehouse,inuncornicedsimplicity,withblank,uncur-

tainedwindowsstaringoutatAnnie,andforamomenthereyes,blurredwiththecold,seemedtoseeinoneofthemthedespairingfaceofthewomanwiththewispsoffadedhairblowingaboutherface。

"Well,whatdoyouthinkofit?"Jimcried,heartily,swingingherdownfromherhighseat,andkissingherashedidso。

"Thisisyourhome,mygirl,andyouareaswelcometoitasyouwouldbetoapalace,ifIcouldgiveittoyou。”

Annieputupherhandstohidethetrem-

blingofherlips;andsheletJimseethereweretearsinhereyesasanapologyfornotreplying。Theyoungmanwiththeredhairtookawaythehorses,andJim,withhisarmaroundhiswife"swaist,rantowardthehouseandthrewopenthedoorforhertoenter。

Theintenseheatoftwogreatstovesstruckintheirfaces;andAnniesawthebigburner,erectedinallitsblackhideousnessinthemiddleofthefrontroom,likeasortofhouseholdhoodoo,tobeconstantlypropi-

tiated,likethegodsofGreece;andinthekitchen,thenewrange,withadistractedtea-kettleleapingonit,asifitwouldliketolooseitsfettersandraceawayovertheprairieafteritscousin,thelocomotive。

Itwasahouseoffourrooms,andaglancerevealedthefactthatithadbeenprovidedwiththenecessaries。

"Ithinkwecanbeverycomfortablehere,"saidJim,ratherdoubtfully。

Anniesawshemustmakesomeresponse。

"Iamsurewecanbemorethancomfort-

able,Jim,"shereplied。"Wecanbehappy。

Showme,ifyouplease,wheremyroomis。ImusthangmycloakupintherightplacesothatIshallfeelasifIweregettingsettled。”

Itwasenough。Jimhadnolongeranydoubts。Hefeltsuretheyweregoingtobehappyeverafterward。

ItwasAnniewhogotthefirstmeal;sheinsistedonit,thoughboththemenwantedhertorest。AndJimhadn"tthehearttotellherthat,asageneralthing,itwouldnotdotoputtwoeggsinthecorn-cake,andthatthebeefsteakwasagreatluxury。

Whenhesawherabouttobreakaneggforthecoffee,however,heinterfered。

"Theshellsoftheonesyouusedforthecakewillsettlethecoffeejustaswell,"hesaid。"Youseewehavetobeverycarefulofeggsouthereatthisseason。”

"Oh!Willtheshellsreallysettleit?

Thisiswhatyoumustcallprairielore。

Isupposeoutherewefindoutwhattherealrelationsofinventionandnecessityare——eh?"

Jimlaugheddisproportionately。Hethoughtherwonderfullywitty。AndheandthehelpatesomuchthatAnnieopenedhereyes。Shehadthoughttherewouldbeenoughleftforsupper。Buttherewasnothingleft。

ForthenexttwoweeksJimwasabletobemuchwithher;andtheyamusedthemselvesbydecoratingthehousewiththebrightcurtainingsthatAnniehadbrought,andputtingupshelvesforafewpiecesofchina。

Shehadtwoorthreepictures,also,whichhadcomefromherroominheroldhome,andsomeofthoseuselessdaintythingswithwhichsomewomenliketolittertheroom。

"Mostfolks,"Jimexplained,"havetobecontentwithonefire,andsitinthekitchen;

butIthought,asthiswasourhoneymoon,wewouldputonsomelugs。”

Anniesaidnothingthen;butadayortwoaftersheventured,——

"Perhapsitwouldbeaswellnow,dear,ifwekeptinthekitchen。I"llkeepitasbrightandpleasantasIcan。And,any-

way,youcanbemoreaboutwithmewhenI"mworkingthen。We"lllayafireinthefront-roomstove,sothatwecanlightitifanybodycomes。Wecanjustaswellsavethatmuch。”

Jimlookedupbrightly。"Allright,"hesaid。"You"reasensiblelittlewoman。

Yousee,everycentmakesadifference。

AndIwanttobeabletopayofffivehundreddollarsofthatmortgagethisyear。”

So,afterthat,theysatinthekitchen;andthefirewaslaidinthefrontroom,againstthecomingofcompany。Butnoonecame,anditremainedunlighted。

Thentheseasonbegantoshowsignsofopening,——bleaksigns,hardlyrecognizabletoAnnie;andafterthatJimwasnotmuchinthehouse。Theweeksworeon,andspringcameatlast,dancingoverthehills。

Theground-birdsbeganbuilding,andatfoureachmorningawokeAnniewiththeirsylvanopera。ThecreekthatranjustatthenorthofthehouseworkeditselfintoafuryandblusteredalongwithmuchnoisetowardthegreatPlattewhich,milesaway,wallowedinitsvastsandybed。Thehillsflushedfrombrowntoyellow,andfrommottledgreentointensestemerald,andinthesuperbairallthewindsofheavenseemedtomeetandfrolicwithlaughterandsong。

Sometimesthemorningsweresobeauti-

fulthat,themenbeingafieldandAnnieallalone,shegaveherselfuptoanecstasyandkneeledbythelittlewoodenbenchoutsidethedoor,tosay,"Father,IthankThee,"

andthenwentaboutherworkwithallthepoemofnaturerhymingitselfoverandoverinherheart。

ItwasonsuchadayasthisthatMrs。

Dundykeptherpromiseandcameovertoseeiftheyounghousekeeperneededanyoftheadviceshehadpromisedher。Shehadwalked,becausenoneofthehorsescouldbespared。Ithadgotsowarmnowthatthefireinthekitchenheatedthewholehousesufficiently,andAnniehadtheroomscleantoexquisiteness。Mrs。Dundylookedaboutwithenviouseyes。

"Howlovely!"shesaid。

"Doyouthinkso?"criedAnnie,insur-

prise。"Ilikeit,ofcourse,becauseitishome,butIdon"tseehowyoucouldcallanythingherelovely。”

"Oh,youdon"tunderstand,"hervisitorwenton。"It"slovelybecauseitlookssohappy。Someofushave——well,kindo"

lostourgrip。”

"It"seasytodothatifyoudon"tfeelwell,"Annieremarkedsympathetically。"I

haven"tfeltaswellasusualmyself,lately。

AndIdogetlonesomeandwonderwhatgooditdoestofixupeverydaywhenthereisnoonetosee。Butthatisallnonsense,andIputitoutofmyhead。”

Shesmoothedoutthecleanlawnapronwithdelicatetouch。Mrs。Dundyfollowedthemovementwithhereyes。

"Oh,mydear,"shecried,"youdon"tknownothin"aboutityet!Butyouwillknow!Youwill!"andthoserestless,hoteyesofhersseemedtogrowmorerestlessandmorehotastheylookedwithinfinitepityattheyoungwomanbeforeher。

Anniethoughtofthesewordsoftenasthesummercameon,andtheheatgrew。Jimwasseldomtobeseennow。Hewasupatfoureachmorning,andthelastchorewasnotcompletedtillnineatnight。Thenhethrewhimselfinbedandlaytherelog-liketilldawn。Hewastoowearytotalkmuch,andAnnie,withherheartachingforhisfatigue,forboretospeaktohim。Shecookedthemoststrengtheningthingsshecould,andtriedalwaystolookfreshandpleasantwhenhecamein。Butsheoftenthoughtherpainswereinvain,forhehardlyrestedhissunburnedeyesonher。Hisskingotsobrownthathisfacewasstrangelychanged,especiallyashenolongerhadtimetoshave,andhadletaroughbeardstraggleoverhischeeksandchin。OnSundaysAnniewouldhavelikedtogotochurch,butthehorsesweretootiredtobetakenout,andshedidnotfeelwellenoughtowalkfar;besides,Jimgotnoparticulargoodoutofwalkingoverthehillsunlesshehadaploughinhishand。

Harvestcameatlength,andthecropwasgood。Therewereanywayfromthreetotwentymenatthehousethen,andAnniecookedforallofthem。Jimhadtriedtogetsomeonetohelpher,buthehadnotsucceeded。Anniestrovetobebrave,re-

memberingthatfarm-womenalloverthecountrywereworkinginsimilarfashion。

Butinspiteofallshecoulddo,thedaysgottoseemlikenightmares,andsleepbe-

tweenwasbutabriefpauseinwhichshewasalwaysdreamingofwater,andthinkingthatshewasstoopingtoputfeveredlipstoarunningbrook。SomeofthesemenwereverydisgustingtoAnnie。Theirmannerswereasbadastheycouldwellbe,andacoarsewordcamenaturallytotheirlips。

"Tobemasterofthesoil,thatisonething,"saidshetoherselfinsicknessofspirit;"buttobetheslaveofitisanother。

Thesemenseemtohavegottheirsoulsallcoveredwithmuck。”Shenoticedthattheyhadnoideaofamusement。Theyhadneverplayedanything。Theydidnotevencareforbase-ball。Theirideaofhappinessappearedtobetodonothing;andtherewasagoodpartoftheyearinwhichtheywerehappy,——forthesewerenotforthemostpartmenowningfarms;theyweremenwhohiredouttohelpthefarmer。Agoodmanyofthemhadbeenfarmersatonetimeandanother,buttheyhadfailed。Theyalltalkedpoliticsagreatdeal,——politicsandrail-

roads。Anniehadnotmuchpatiencewithitall。Shehadgreatconfidenceinthecourseofthings。Shebelievedthatinthiscountryallmenhaveafairchance。Sowhenitcameaboutthatthecornandthewheat,whichhadbeenraisedwithsuchincessanttoil,broughtthemnomoney,butonlyaloss,Anniestoodaghast。

"Isaidtherateswereruinous,"Jimsaidtoheronenight,afteritwasallover,andhehadfoundoutthattheyear"sslavishworkhadbroughthimalossofthreehundreddollars;"it"sbeenaconspiracyfromthefirst。Thepriceofcornisallright。ButbythetimewesetitdowninChicagoweareouteighteencentsabushel。

Itmeansruin。Whatarewegoingtodo?

Herewehadthebestcropwe"vehadforyears——butwhat"stheuseoftalking!

Theyhaveusintheirgrip。”

"Idon"tseehowitis,"Annieprotested。

"Ishouldthinkitwouldbefortheinter-

estoftheroadstohelpthepeopletobeasprosperousaspossible。”

"Oh,wecan"tgetout!Andwe"reboundtostayandraisegrain。Andthey"reboundtocartit。Andthat"sallthereistoit。Theyforceustostandeveryloss,eventotheshortagethatismadeintransportation。

Therailroadcompaniesowntheelevators,andtheyhavethecinchonus。Ourgrainisattheirmercy。GodknowshowI"mgoingtoraisethatinterest。Asforthefivehundredweweregoingtopayonthemort-

gagethisyear,Annie,we"renotinit。”

Autumnwaswellsetinbythistime,andthebrilliantcoldskyhungovertheprairiesasyoungandfreshasiftheworldwerenotoldandtired。Annienolongercouldlookastrimaswhenshefirstcametothelittlehouse。Herprettyweddinggarmentswerebeginningtobewornandtherewasnomoneyformore。Jimwouldnotplaychessnowofevenings。Hewasforeverwritingarticlesfortheweeklypaperintheadjoin-

ingtown。Theytalkedofrunninghimforthestatelegislature,andhewasanxiousforthenomination。

"IthinkImightbeabletostanditifI

couldfight"em!"hedeclared;"buttosithereidle,knowingthatIhavebeencheatedoutofmyyear"swork,justasmuchasifI

hadbeenknockeddownontheroadandthemoneytakenfromme,isenoughtosendmetotheasylumwithastrait-jacketon!"

Lifegrewtotakeontragicaspects。Annieusedtofindherselfwonderingifanywhereintheworldtherewerepeoplewithlighthearts。Forhertherewasnolongerantici-

pationofjoy,orpresentcompanionship,oranydivertissementinthewholeworld。Jimreadbookswhichshedidnotunderstand,andwithafewofhisfriends,whodroppedinnowandtheneveningsorSundays,talkedaboutthesebooksinanexcitedmanner。

Shewouldgotoherroomtorest,andlyingthereinthedarknessonthebed,wouldhearthemspeakingtogether,some-

timesallatonce,inthosesternlyvindictivetonesmenusewhenthereisrevoltintheirsouls。

"Itisthegovernmentwhichishelpingtoimpoverishus,"shewouldhearJimsaying。"Workismoney。Thatistosay,itistheactiveformofmoney。Thewealthofacountryisestimatedbyitspowerofproduction。Anditspowerofproductionmeanswork。Itmeanstherearesomanymenwithsomuchcapacity。

Nowthegovernmentowesittothesementohavemoneyenoughtopaythemfortheirwork;andifthereisnotenoughmoneyincirculationtopaytoeachmanforhishonestandnecessarywork,thenIsaythatgovernmentisinleaguewithcrime。

Itistryingtomakedefaultersofus。Ithasahundredwaysofcheatingus。WhenI

boughtthisfarmandputthemortgageonit,aday"sworkwouldbringtwicetheresultsitwillnow。Thatistosay,thetotalattheendoftheyearshowedmyprofitstobetwicewhattheywouldbenow,eveniftherailwaydidnotstandinthewaytorobusofmorethanweearn。

Sothatitwilltakejusttwiceasmanydays"worknowtopayoffthismortgageasitwouldhavedoneatthetimeitwascontracted。It"saconspiracy,Itellyou!

ThoseEasterncapitalistsmakeascienceofruiningus。”

Hegotmoreeloquentastimewenton,andAnnie,whohadknownhimfirstasratheracarelesstalker,wasastonishedattheboldnessofhislanguage。Butconver-

sationwasalostartwithhim。Henolongertalked。Heharangued。

IntheearlyspringAnnie"sbabywasborn,——alittlegirlwithanervouscry,whoneversleptlongatatime,andwhoseemedtowailmerelyfromdistasteatliving。ItwasMrs。DundywhocameovertolookafterthehousetillAnniegotabletodoso。

Hereyeshadthatfeverinthem,asever。

Shetalkedbutlittle,buthertouchonAnnie"sheadwasmoreeloquentthanwords。

OnedayAnnieaskedfortheglass,andMrs。Dundygaveittoher。Shelookedinitalongtime。Thecolorwasgonefromhercheeks,andabouthermouththerewasanuglytightening。Buthereyesflashedandshonewiththatsame——no,no,itcouldnotbethatinherfacealsowascomingthelookofhalf-madness!ShemotionedMrs。

Dundytocometoher。

"Youknewitwascoming,"shesaid,brokenly,pointingtothereflectionintheglass。"Thatfirstday,youknewhowitwouldbe。”

Mrs。Dundytooktheglassawaywithagentlehand。

"HowcouldIhelpknowing?"shesaidsimply。Shewentintothenextroom,andwhenshereturnedAnnienoticedthatthehandkerchiefstuckinherbeltwaswet,asifithadbeenwepton。

Awomancannotstaylongawayfromherhomeonafarmatplantingtime,evenifitisacaseoflifeanddeath。Mrs。Dundyhadtogohome,andAnniecreptaboutherworkwiththewailingbabyinherarms。

Thehousewasoftendisorderlynow;butitcouldnotbehelped。Thebabyhadtobecaredfor。ItfrettedsomuchthatJimsleptapartinthemowofthebarn,thathissleepmightnotbedisturbed。Itwasapleasant,dimplace,fullofsweetscents,andhelikedtobetherealone。Thoughhehadalwaysbeenanunusualworker,heworkednowmorelikeamanwhowasfightingofffate,thanameretoilerforbread。

Thecorncameupbeautifully,andfarastheeyecouldreacharoundtheirhomeittosseditsbroadgreenleaveswithanocean-

likeswellingofsibilantsound。Jimloveditwithasortofpassion。Annielovedit,too。Sometimes,atnight,whenherfatiguewasunbearable,andherirritationwearingoutbothbodyandsoul,shetookherlittleoneinherarmsandwalkedamongthecorn,lettingitsrustlingsoothethebabytosleep。

Theheatofthesummerwasterrible。

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