第8章
"Noristhatprobable."
"Thenhemayhavethoughtbetterofit."
"Yes,hemayhavethoughtbetterofit;if,indeed,heisnothereallthetime——somewhereinthehollowbehindtheDevil"sDoor.Letusgoandsee;itwillservehimrighttosurprisehim."
"O,he"snotthere."
"Hemaybelyingveryquietbecauseofyou,"shesaidarchly.
"O,no——notbecauseofme!"
"Come,then.Ideclare,dearest,youlaglikeanunwillingschoolboyto-night,andthere"snoresponsivenessinyou!Youarejealousofthatpoorlad,anditisquiteabsurdofyou."
"I"llcome!I"llcome!Saynomore,Harriet!"Andtheycrossedoverthegreen.
Wonderingwhattheywoulddo,theyoungshepherdleftthehut,anddoubledbehindthebeltoffurze,intendingtostandnearthetrilithonunperceived.But,incrossingthefewyardsofopengroundhewasforamomentexposedtoview.
"Ah,Iseehimatlast!"saidtheDuchess.
"Seehim!"saidtheDuke."Where?"
"BytheDevil"sDoor;don"tyounoticeafigurethere?Ah,mypoorlover-cousin,won"tyoucatchitnow?"Andshelaughedhalf-
pityingly."Butwhat"sthematter?"sheasked,turningtoherhusband.
"Itisnothe!"saidtheDukehoarsely."Itcan"tbehe!"
"No,itisnothe.Itistoosmallforhim.Itisaboy."
"Ah,Ithoughtso!Boy,comehere."
Theyouthfulshepherdadvancedwithapprehension.
"Whatareyoudoinghere?"
"Keepingsheep,yourGrace."
"Ah,youknowme!Doyoukeepsheephereeverynight?"
"Offandon,myLordDuke."
"Andwhathaveyouseenhereto-nightorlastnight?"inquiredtheDuchess."Anypersonwaitingorwalkingabout?"
Theboywassilent.
"Hehasseennothing,"interruptedherhusband,hiseyessoforbiddinglyfixedontheboythattheyseemedtoshinelikepointsoffire."Come,letusgo.Theairistookeentostandinlong."
Whentheyweregonetheboyretreatedtothehutandsheep,lessfearfulnowthanatfirst——familiaritywiththesituationhavinggraduallyoverpoweredhisthoughtsoftheburiedman.Buthewasnottobeleftalonelong.WhenanintervalhadelapsedofaboutsufficientlengthforwalkingtoandfromShakeforestTowers,thereappearedfromthatdirectiontheheavyformoftheDuke.Henowcamealone.
Thenobleman,onhispart,seemedtohaveeyesnolesssharpthantheboy"s,forheinstantlyrecognizedthelatteramongtheewes,andcamestraighttowardshim.
"AreyoutheshepherdladIspoketoashorttimeago?"
"Ibe,myLordDuke."
"Nowlistentome.HerGraceaskedyouwhatyouhadseenthislastnightortwouphere,andyoumadenoreply.Inowaskthesamething,andyouneednotbeafraidtoanswer.Haveyouseenanythingstrangethesenightsyouhavebeenwatchinghere?"
"MyLordDuke,Ibeapoorheedlessboy,andwhatIseeIdon"tbearinmind."
"Iaskyouagain,"saidtheDuke,comingnearer,"haveyouseenanythingstrangethesenightsyouhavebeenwatchinghere?"
"O,myLordDuke!Ibebuttheunder-shepherdboy,andmyfatherhewasbutyourhumbleGrace"shedger,andmymotheronlythecinder-
womanintheback-yard!Ifallasleepwhenleftalone,andIseenothingatall!"
TheDukegraspedtheboybytheshoulder,and,directlyimpendingoverhim,stareddownintohisface,"Didyouseeanythingstrangedoneherelastnight,Isay?"
"O,myLordDuke,havemercy,anddon"tstabme!"criedtheshepherd,fallingonhisknees."Ihaveneverseenyouwalkinghere,orridinghere,orlying-in-waitforaman,ordraggingaheavyload!"
"H"m!"saidhisinterrogator,grimly,relaxinghishold."Itiswelltoknowthatyouhaveneverseenthosethings.Now,whichwouldyourather——SEEMEDOTHOSETHINGSNOW,orkeepasecretallyourlife?"
"Keepasecret,myLordDuke!"
"Sureyouareable?"
"O,yourGrace,tryme!"
"Verywell.Andnow,howdoyoulikesheep-keeping?"
"Notatall."Tislonelyworkforthemthatthinkofspirits,andI"mbadlyused."
"Ibelieveyou.Youaretooyoungforit.Imustdosomethingtomakeyoumorecomfortable.Youshallchangethissmock-frockforarealclothjacket,andyourthickbootsforpolishedshoes.Andyoushallbetaughtwhatyouhaveneveryetheardof;andbeputtoschool,andhavebatsandballsfortheholidays,andbemadeamanof.Butyoumustneversayyouhavebeenashepherdboy,andwatchedonthehillsatnight,forshepherdboysarenotlikedingoodcompany.
"Trustme,myLordDuke."
"Theverymomentyouforgetyourself,andspeakofyourshepherddays——thisyear,nextyear,inschool,outofschool,orridinginyourcarriagetwentyyearshence——atthatmomentmyhelpwillbewithdrawn,andsmashdownyoucometoshepherdingforthwith.Youhaveparents,Ithinkyousay?"
"Awidowedmotheronly,myLordDuke."
"I"llprovideforher,andmakeacomfortablewomanofher,untilyouspeakof——what?"
"Ofmyshepherddays,andwhatIsawhere."
"Good.Ifyoudospeakofit?"
"Smashdownshecomestowidowingforthwith!"
"That"swell——verywell.Butit"snotenough.Comehere."Hetooktheboyacrosstothetrilithon,andmadehimkneeldown.
"Now,thiswasonceaholyplace,"resumedtheDuke."Analtarstoodhere,erectedtoavenerablefamilyofgods,whowereknownandtalkedoflongbeforetheGodweknownow.Sothatanoathswornhereisdoublyanoath.Saythisafterme:"Mayallthehostabove——
angelsandarchangels,andprincipalitiesandpowers——punishme;mayIbetormentedwhereverIam——inthehouseorinthegarden,inthefieldsorintheroads,inchurchorinchapel,athomeorabroad,onlandoratsea;mayIbeafflictedineatingandindrinking,ingrowingupandingrowingold,inlivinganddying,inwardlyandoutwardly,andforalways,ifIeverspeakofmylifeasashepherdboy,orofwhatIhaveseendoneonthisMarlburyDown.Sobeit,andsoletitbe.Amenandamen."Nowkissthestone."
Thetremblingboyrepeatedthewords,andkissedthestone,asdesired.
TheDukeledhimoffbythehand.ThatnightthejuniorshepherdsleptinShakeforestTowers,andthenextdayhewassentawayfortuitiontoaremotevillage.Thencehewenttoapreparatoryestablishment,andinduecoursetoapublicschool.
FOURTHNIGHT
Onawintereveningmanyyearssubsequenttotheabove-mentionedoccurrences,theci-devantshepherdsatinawell-furnishedofficeinthenorthwingofShakeforestTowersintheguiseofanordinaryeducatedmanofbusiness.Heappearedatthistimeasapersonofthirty-eightorforty,thoughactuallyhewasseveralyearsyounger.
Awornandrestlessglanceoftheeyenowandthen,whenheliftedhisheadtosearchforsomeletterorpaperwhichhadbeenmislaid,seemedtodenotethathiswasnotamindsothoroughlyateaseashissurroundingsmighthaveledanobservertoexpect.
Hispallor,too,wasremarkableforacountryman.Hewasprofessedlyengagedinwriting,butheshapednotword.Hehadsatthereonlyafewminutes,when,layingdownhispenandpushingbackhischair,herestedahanduneasilyoneachofthechair-armsandlookedonthefloor.
Soonhearoseandlefttheroom.Hiscoursewasalongapassagewhichendedinacentraloctagonalhall;crossingthisheknockedatadoor.Afaint,thoughdeep,voicetoldhimtocomein.Theroomheenteredwasthelibrary,anditwastenantedbyasinglepersononly——hispatrontheDuke.
DuringthislongintervalofyearstheDukehadlostallhisheavinessofbuild.Hewas,indeed,almostaskeleton;hiswhitehairwasthin,andhishandswerenearlytransparent."Oh——Mills?"
hemurmured."Sitdown.Whatisit?"
"Nothingnew,yourGrace.Nobodytospeakofhaswritten,andnobodyhascalled."
"Ah——whatthen?Youlookconcerned."
"Oldtimeshavecometolife,owingtosomethingwakingthem."
"Oldtimesbecursed——whicholdtimesarethey?"
"ThatChristmasweektwenty-twoyearsago,whenthelateDuchess"scousinFrederickimploredhertomeethimonMarlburyDowns.Isawthemeeting——itwasjustsuchanightasthis——andI,asyouknow,sawmore.Shemethimonce,butnotthesecondtime."
"Mills,shallIrecallsomewordstoyou——thewordsofanoathtakenonthathillbyashepherd-boy?"
"Itisunnecessary.Hehasstrenuouslykeptthatoathandpromise.
Sincethatnightnosoundofhisshepherdlifehascrossedhislips——
eventoyourself.Butdoyouwishtohearmore,ordoyounot,yourGrace?"
"Iwishtohearnomore,"saidtheDukesullenly.
"Verywell;letitbeso.Butatimeseemscoming——maybequitenearathand——when,inspiteofmylips,thatepisodewillallowitselftogoundivulgednolonger."
"Iwishtohearnomore!"repeatedtheDuke.
"Youneedbeundernofearoftreacheryfromme,"saidthesteward,somewhatbitterly."Iamamantowhomyouhavebeenkind——nopatroncouldhavebeenkinder.Youhaveclothedandeducatedme;haveinstalledmehere;andIamnotunmindful.Butwhatofit——hasyourGracegainedmuchbymystanchness?Ithinknot.TherewasgreatexcitementaboutCaptainOgbourne"sdisappearance,butIspokenotaword.Andhisbodyhasneverbeenfound.Fortwenty-twoyearsI
havewonderedwhatyoudidwithhim.NowIknow.Acircumstancethatoccurredthisafternoonrecalledthetimetomemostforcibly.
Tomakeitcertaintomyselfthatallwasnotadream,Iwentuptherewithaspade;Isearched,andsawenoughtoknowthatsomethingdecaysthereinaclosedbadger"shole."
"Mills,doyouthinktheDuchessguessed?"
"Sheneverdid,Iamsure,tothedayofherdeath."
"Didyouleaveallasyoufounditonthehill?"
"Idid."
"Whatmadeyouthinkofgoinguptherethisparticularafternoon?"
"WhatyourGracesaysyoudon"twishtobetold."
TheDukewassilent;andthestillnessoftheeveningwassomarkedthattherereachedtheirearsfromtheouterairthesoundofatollingbell.
"Whatisthatbelltollingfor?"askedthenobleman.
"ForwhatIcametotellyouof,yourGrace."
"Youtormentmeitisyourway!"saidtheDukequerulously."Who"sdeadinthevillage?"
"Theoldestman——theoldshepherd."
"Deadatlast——howoldishe?"
"Ninety-four."
"AndIamonlyseventy.Ihavefour-and-twentyyearstothegood!"
"IservedunderthatoldmanwhenIkeptsheeponMarlburyDowns.
Andhewasonthehillthatsecondnight,whenIfirstexchangedwordswithyourGrace.Hewasonthehillallthetime;butIdidnotknowhewasthere——nordidyou."
"Ah!"saidtheDuke,startingup."Goon——Iyieldthepoint——youmaytell!"
"Iheardthisafternoonthathewasatthepointofdeath.Itwasthatwhichsetmethinkingofthatpasttime——andinducedmetosearchonthehillforwhatIhavetoldyou.ComingbackIheardthathewishedtoseetheVicartoconfesstohimasecrethehadkeptformorethantwentyyears——"outofrespecttomyLordtheDuke"——somethingthathehadseencommittedonMarlburyDownswhenreturningtotheflockonaDecembernighttwenty-twoyearsago.I
havethoughtitover.Hehadleftmeinchargethatevening;buthewasinthehabitofcomingbacksuddenly,lestIshouldhavefallenasleep.ThatnightIsawnothingofhim,thoughhehadpromisedtoreturn.Hemusthavereturned,and——foundreasontokeepinhiding.
Itisallplain.ThenextthingisthattheVicarwenttohimtwohoursago.FurtherthanthatIhavenotheard."
"Itisquiteenough.IwillseetheVicaratdaybreakto-morrow."
"Whattodo?"
"Stophistongueforfour-and-twentyyears——tillIamdeadatninety-
four,liketheshepherd."
"YourGrace——whileyouimposesilenceonme,Iwillnotspeak,eventhoughnayneckshouldpaythepenalty.Ipromisedtobeyours,andIamyours.Butisthispersistenceofanyavail?"
"I"llstophistongue,Isay!"criedtheDukewithsomeofhisoldruggedforce."Now,yougohometobed,Mills,andleavemetomanagehim."
Theinterviewended,andthestewardwithdrew.Thenight,ashehadsaid,wasjustsuchanoneasthenightoftwenty-twoyearsbefore,andtheeventsoftheeveningdestroyedinhimallregardfortheseasonasoneofcheerfulnessandgoodwill.Hewentofftohisownhouseonthefurthervergeofthepark,whereheledalonelylife,scarcelycallinganymanfriend.Atelevenhepreparedtoretiretobed——butdidnotretire.Hesatdownandreflected.Twelveo"clockstruck;helookedoutatthecolourlessmoon,and,promptedbyheknewnotwhat,putonhishatandemergedintotheair.HereWilliamMillsstrolledonandon,tillhereachedthetopofMarlburyDowns,aspothehadnotvisitedatthishourofthenightduringthewholescore-and-oddyears.
Heplacedhimself,asnearlyashecouldguess,onthespotwheretheshepherd"shuthadstood.Nolambingwasinprogresstherenow,andtheoldshepherdwhohadusedhimsoroughlyhadceasedfromhislaboursthatveryday.Butthetrilithonstoodupwhiteasever;
and,crossingtheinterveningsward,thestewardfancifullyplacedhismouthagainstthestone.Restlessandself-reproachfulashewas,hecouldnotresistasmileashethoughtoftheterrifyingoathofcompact,sealedbyakissuponthestonesofaPagantemple.Buthehadkepthisword,ratherasapromisethanasaformalvow,withmuchworldlyadvantagetohimself,thoughnotmuchhappiness;tillincreaseofyearshadbredreactionaryfeelingswhichledhimtoreceivethenewsofto-nightwithemotionsakintorelief.
WhileleaningagainsttheDevil"sDoorandthinkingonthesethings,hebecameconsciousthathewasnottheonlyinhabitantofthedown.
Afigureinwhitewasmovingacrosshisfrontwithlong,noiselessstrides.Millsstoodmotionless,andwhentheformdrewquitenearheperceivedittobethatoftheDukehimselfinhisnightshirt——
apparentlywalkinginhissleep.Nottoalarmtheoldman,Millsclungclosetotheshadowofthestone.TheDukewentstraightonintothehollow.Therehekneltdown,andbeganscratchingtheearthwithhishandslikeabadger.Afterafewminuteshearose,sighedheavily,andretracedhisstepsashehadcome.
Fearingthathemightharmhimself,yetunwillingtoarousehim,thestewardfollowednoiselessly.TheDukekeptonhispathunerringly,enteredthepark,andmadeforthehouse,wherehelethimselfinbyawindowthatstoodopen——theoneprobablybywhichhehadcomeout.
Millssoftlyclosedthewindowbehindhispatron,andthenretiredhomewardtoawaittherevelationsofthemorning,deemingitunnecessarytoalarmthehouse.
However,hefeltuneasyduringtheremainderofthenight,nolessonaccountoftheDuke"spersonalconditionthanbecauseofthatwhichwasimminentnextday.EarlyinthemorninghecalledatShakeforestTowers.Theblindsweredown,andtherewassomethingsingularupontheporter"sfacewhenheopenedthedoor.ThestewardinquiredfortheDuke.
Theman"svoicewassubduedashereplied:"Sir,IamsorrytosaythathisGraceisdead!Helefthisroomsometimeinthenight,andwanderedaboutnobodyknowswhere.Onreturningtotheupperfloorhelosthisbalanceandfelldownstairs."
ThestewardtoldthetaleoftheDownbeforetheVicarhadspoken.
MillshadalwaysintendedtodosoafterthedeathoftheDuke.Theconsequencestohimselfheunderwentcheerfully;buthislifewasnotprolonged.Hedied,afarmerattheCape,whenstillsomewhatunderforty-nineyearsofage.
ThesplendidMarlburybreedingflockisasrenownedasever,and,totheeye,seemsthesameineveryparticularthatitwasinearliertimes;buttheanimalswhichcomposeditontheoccasionoftheeventsgatheredfromtheJusticearedividedbymanyovinegenerationsfromitsmembersnow.LambingCornerhaslongsinceceasedtobeusedforlambingpurposes,thoughthenamestilllingersonastheappellationofthespot.Thisabandonmentofsitemaybepartlyowingtotheremovalofthehighfurzebusheswhichlentsuchconvenientshelteratthatdate.Partly,too,itmaybeduetoanothercircumstance.ForitissaidbypresentshepherdsinthatdistrictthatduringthenightsofChristmasweekflittingshapesareseenintheopenspacearoundthetrilithon,togetherwiththegleamofaweapon,andtheshadowofamandraggingaburdenintothehollow.Butofthesethingsthereisnocertaintestimony.
Christmas1881.
ACOMMITTEE-MANOF"THETERROR"
WehadbeentalkingoftheGeorgiangloriesofourold-fashionedwatering-place,whichnow,withitssubstantialrusset-redanddunbrickbuildingsinthestyleoftheyeareighteenhundred,lookslikeonesideofaSohoorBloomsburyStreettransportedtotheshore,anddrawsasmilefromthemoderntouristwhohasnoeyeforsolidityofbuild.Thewriter,quiteayouth,waspresentmerelyasalistener.
Theconversationproceededfromgeneralsubjectstoparticular,untiloldMrs.H——,whosememorywasasperfectateightyasithadeverbeeninherlife,interestedusallbytheobviousfidelitywithwhichsherepeatedastorymanytimesrelatedtoherbyhermotherwhenouragedfriendwasagirl——adomesticdramamuchaffectingthelifeofanacquaintanceofhersaidparent,oneMademoiselleV——,ateacherofFrench.Theincidentsoccurredinthetownduringtheheydayofitsfortunes,atthetimeofourbriefpeacewithFrancein1802-3.
"Iwroteitdownintheshapeofastorysomeyearsago,justaftermymother"sdeath,"saidMrs.H."Itislockedupinmydesktherenow."
"Readit!"saidwe.
"No,"saidshe;"thelightisbad,andIcanrememberitwellenough,wordforword,flourishesandall."Wecouldnotbechoosersinthecircumstances,andshebegan.
"Therearetwoinit,ofcourse,themanandthewoman,anditwasonaneveninginSeptemberthatshefirstgottoknowhim.TherehadnotbeensuchagrandgatheringontheEsplanadealltheseason.HisMajestyKingGeorgetheThirdwaspresent,withalltheprincessesandroyaldukes,whileupwardsofthreehundredofthegeneralnobilityandotherpersonsofdistinctionwerealsointhetownatthetime.CarriagesandotherconveyanceswerearrivingeveryminutefromLondonandelsewhere;andwhenamongtherestashabbystage-
coachcameinbyaby-routealongthecoastfromHavenpool,anddrewupatasecond-ratetavern,itattractedcomparativelylittlenotice.
"Fromthisdustyvehicleamanalighted,lefthissmallquantityofluggagetemporarilyattheoffice,andwalkedalongthestreetasiftolookforlodgings.
"Hewasaboutforty-five——possiblyfifty——andworealongcoatoffadedsuperfinecloth,withaheavycollar,andahunched-upneckcloth.Heseemedtodesireobscurity.
"Butthedisplayappearedpresentlytostrikehim,andheaskedofarustichemetinthestreetwhatwasgoingon;hisaccentbeingthatofonetowhomEnglishpronunciationwasdifficult.
"Thecountrymanlookedathimwithaslightsurprise,andsaid,"KingJargeishereandhisroyalCwort."
"Thestrangerinquirediftheyweregoingtostaylong.
""Don"tknow,Sir.Sameastheyalwaysdo,Isuppose."
""Howlongisthat?"
""TillsometimeinOctober.They"vecomehereeverysummersinceeighty-nine."
"ThestrangermovedonwarddownSt.ThomasStreet,andapproachedthebridgeovertheharbourbackwater,thatthen,asnow,connectedtheoldtownwiththemoremodernportion.Thespotwassweptwiththeraysofalowsun,whichlituptheharbourlengthwise,andshoneunderthebrimoftheman"shatandintohiseyesashelookedwestward.Againsttheradiancefigureswerecrossingintheoppositedirectiontohisown;amongthemthisladyofmymother"slateracquaintance,MademoiselleV.ShewasthedaughterofagoodoldFrenchfamily,andatthatdateapalewoman,twenty-eightorthirtyyearsofage,tallandelegantinfigure,butplainlydressedandwearingthatevening(shesaid)asmallmuslinshawlcrossedoverthebosominthefashionofthetime,andtiedbehind.
"Atsightofhisface,which,assheusedtotellus,wasunusuallydistinctinthepeeringsunlight,shecouldnothelpgivingalittleshriekofhorror,foraterriblereasonconnectedwithherhistory,andafterwalkingafewstepsfurther,shesankdownagainsttheparapetofthebridgeinafaintingfit.
"Inhispreoccupationtheforeigngentlemanhadhardlynoticedher,butherstrangecollapseimmediatelyattractedhisattention.Hequicklycrossedthecarriageway,pickedherup,andcarriedherintothefirstshopadjoiningthebridge,explainingthatshewasaladywhohadbeentakenilloutside.
"Shesoonrevived;but,clearlymuchpuzzled,herhelperperceivedthatshestillhadadreadofhimwhichwassufficienttohinderhercompleterecoveryofself-command.Shespokeinaquickandnervouswaytotheshopkeeper,askinghimtocallacoach.
"Thistheshopkeeperdid,MademoiselleV——andthestrangerremaininginconstrainedsilencewhilehewasgone.Thecoachcameup,andgivingthemantheaddress,sheentereditanddroveaway.
""Whoisthatlady?"saidthenewlyarrivedgentleman.
""She"sofyournation,asIshouldmakeboldtosuppose,"saidtheshopkeeper.AndhetoldtheotherthatshewasMademoiselleV——,governessatGeneralNewbold"s,inthesametown.
""Youhavemanyforeignershere?"thestrangerinquired.
""Yes,thoughmostlyHanoverians.ButsincethepeacetheyarelearningFrenchagooddealingenteelsociety,andFrenchinstructorsareratherindemand."
""Yes,Iteachit,"saidthevisitor."Iamlookingforatutorshipinanacademy."
"TheinformationgivenbytheburgesstotheFrenchmanseemedtoexplaintothelatternothingofhiscountrywoman"sconduct——which,indeed,wasthecase——andhelefttheshop,takinghiscourseagainoverthebridgeandalongthesouthquaytotheOldRoomsInn,whereheengagedabedchamber.
"Thoughtsofthewomanwhohadbetrayedsuchagitationatsightofhimlingerednaturallyenoughwiththenewcomer.Though,asI
stated,notmuchlessthanthirtyyearsofage,MademoiselleV——,oneofhisownnation,andofhighlyrefinedanddelicateappearance,hadkindledasingularinterestinthemiddle-agedgentleman"sbreast,andherlargedarkeyes,astheyhadopenedandshrunkfromhim,exhibitedapatheticbeautytowhichhardlyanymancouldhavebeeninsensible.
"Thenextday,havingwrittensomeletters,hewentoutandmadeknownattheofficeofthetown"Guide"andofthenewspaper,thatateacherofFrenchandcalligraphyhadarrived,leavingacardatthebookseller"stothesameeffect.Hethenwalkedonaimlessly,butatlengthinquiredthewaytoGeneralNewbold"s.Atthedoor,withoutgivinghisname,heaskedtoseeMademoiselleV——,andwasshownintoalittlebackparlour,whereshecametohimwithagazeofsurprise.
""MyGod!Whydoyouintrudehere,Monsieur?"shegaspedinFrenchassoonasshesawhisface.
""Youweretakenillyesterday.Ihelpedyou.YoumighthavebeenrunoverifIhadnotpickedyouup.Itwasanactofsimplehumanitycertainly;butIthoughtImightcometoaskifyouhadrecovered?"
"Shehadturnedaside,andhadscarcelyheardawordofhisspeech.
"Ihateyou,infamousman!"shesaid."Icannotbearyourhelpingme.Goaway!"
""Butyouareastrangertome."
""Iknowyoutoowell!"
""Youhavetheadvantagethen,Mademoiselle.Iamanewcomerhere.
Ineverhaveseenyoubeforetomyknowledge;andIcertainlydonot,couldnot,hateyou."
""AreyounotMonsieurB——?"
"Heflinched."Iam——inParis,"hesaid."ButhereIamMonsieurG.
"
""Thatistrivial.YouarethemanIsayyouare."
""Howdidyouknowmyrealname,Mademoiselle?"
""Isawyouinyearsgoneby,whenyoudidnotseeme.YouwereformerlyMemberoftheCommitteeofPublicSafety,undertheConvention."
"Iwas."
""Youguillotinedmyfather,mybrother,myuncle——allmyfamily,nearly,andbrokemymother"sheart.Theyhaddonenothingbutkeepsilence.Theirsentimentswereonlyguessed.TheirheadlesscorpseswerethrownindiscriminatelyintotheditchoftheMousseauxCemetery,anddestroyedwithlime."
"Henodded.
""Youleftmewithoutafriend,andhereIamnow,aloneinaforeignland."
""Iamsorryforyou,"saidbe."Sorryfortheconsequence,notfortheintent.WhatIdidwasamatterofconscience,and,fromapointofviewindiscerniblebyyou,Ididright.Iprofitednotafarthing.ButIshallnotarguethis.Youhavethesatisfactionofseeingmehereanexilealso,inpoverty,betrayedbycomrades,asfriendlessasyourself."
""Itisnosatisfactiontome,Monsieur."
""Well,thingsdonecannotbealtered.Nowthequestion:areyouquiterecovered?"
""Notfromdislikeanddreadofyou——otherwise,yes."
""Goodmorning,Mademoiselle."
""Goodmorning."
"Theydidnotmeetagaintilloneeveningatthetheatre(whichmymother"sfriendwaswithgreatdifficultyinducedtofrequent,toperfectherselfinEnglishpronunciation,theideasheentertainedatthattimebeingtobecomeateacherofEnglishinherowncountrylateron).Shefoundhimsittingnexttoher,anditmadeherpaleandrestless.
""Youarestillafraidofme?"
""Iam.Ocannotyouunderstand!"
"Hesignifiedtheaffirmative.
""Ifollowtheplaywithdifficulty,"hesaid,presently.
""SodoI——NOW,"saidshe.
"Heregardedherlong,andshewasconsciousofhislook;andwhileshekepthereyesonthestagetheyfilledwithtears.Stillshewouldnotmove,andthetearsranvisiblydownhercheek,thoughtheplaywasamerryone,beingnootherthanMr.Sheridan"scomedyof"TheRivals,"withMr.S.KembleasCaptainAbsolute.Hesawherdistress,andthathermindwaselsewhere;andabruptlyrisingfromhisseatatcandle-snuffingtimeheleftthetheatre.
"Thoughhelivedintheoldtown,andsheinthenew,theyfrequentlysaweachotheratadistance.Oneoftheseoccasionswaswhenshewasonthenorthsideoftheharbour,bytheferry,waitingfortheboattotakeheracross.HewasstandingbyCoveRow,onthequayopposite.Insteadofenteringtheboatwhenitarrivedshesteppedbackfromthequay;butlookingtoseeifheremainedshebeheldhimpointingwithhisfingertotheferry-boat.
""Enter!"hesaid,inavoiceloudenoughtoreachher.
"MademoiselleV——stoodstill.
""Enter!"hesaid,and,asshedidnotmove,herepeatedthewordathirdtime.
"Shehadreallybeengoingtocross,andnowapproachedandsteppeddownintotheboat.Thoughshedidnotraisehereyessheknewthathewaswatchingherover.Atthelandingstepsshesawfromunderthebrimofherhatahandstretcheddown.Thestepsweresteepandslippery.
""No,Monsieur,"shesaid."Unless,indeed,youbelieveinGod,andrepentofyourevilpast!"
""Iamsorryyouweremadetosuffer.ButIonlybelieveinthegodcalledReason,andIdonotrepent.Iwastheinstrumentofanationalprinciple.Yourfriendswerenotsacrificedforanyendsofmine."
"Shethereuponwithheldherhand,andclamberedupunassisted.Hewenton,ascendingtheLook-outHill,anddisappearingoverthebrow.
Herwaywasinthesamedirection,hererrandbeingtobringhomethetwoyounggirlsunderhercharge,whohadgonetothecliffforanairing.Whenshejoinedthematthetopshesawhissolitaryfigureatthefurtheredge,standingmotionlessagainstthesea.Allthewhilethatsheremainedwithherpupilshestoodwithoutturning,asiflookingatthefrigatesintheroadstead,butmoreprobablyinmeditation,unconsciouswherehewas.Inleavingthespotoneofthechildrenthrewawayhalfasponge-biscuitthatshehadbeeneating.
Passingnearithestooped,pickeditupcarefully,andputitinhispocket.
"MademoiselleV——camehomeward,askingherself,"Canhebestarving?"
"Fromthatdayhewasinvisibleforsolongatimethatshethoughthehadgoneawayaltogether.Butoneeveninganotecametoher,andsheopenedittrembling.
""Iamhereill,"itsaid,"and,asyouknow,alone.ThereareoneortwolittlethingsIwantdone,incasemydeathshouldoccur,——andIshouldprefernottoaskthepeoplehere,ifitcouldbeavoided.
Haveyouenoughofthegiftofcharitytocomeandcarryoutmywishesbeforeitistoolate?"
"Nowsoitwasthat,sinceseeinghimpossesshimselfofthebrokencake,shehadinsensiblybeguntofeelsomethingthatwasmorethancuriosity,thoughperhapslessthananxiety,aboutthisfellow-
countrymanofhers;anditwasnotinhernervousandsensitivehearttoresisthisappeal.Shefoundhislodging(towhichhehadremovedfromtheOldRoomsinnforeconomy)tobearoomoverashop,half-
wayupthesteepandnarrowstreetoftheoldtown,towhichthefashionablevisitorsseldompenetrated.Withsomemisgivingsheenteredthehouse,andwasadmittedtothechamberwherehelay.
""Youaretoogood,toogood,"hemurmured.Andpresently,"Youneednotshutthedoor.Youwillfeelsafer,andtheywillnotunderstandwhatwesay."
""Areyouinwant,Monsieur?CanIgiveyou——"
""No,no.ImerelywantyoutodoatriflingthingortwothatI
havenotstrengthenoughtodomyself.NobodyinthetownbutyouknowswhoIreallyam——unlessyouhavetold?"
""IhavenottoldIthoughtyouMIGHThaveactedfromprincipleinthosesaddays,even——"
""Youarekindtoconcedethatmuch.However,tothepresent.IwasabletodestroymyfewpapersbeforeIbecamesoweakButinthedrawerthereyouwillfindsomepiecesoflinenclothing——onlytwoorthree——markedwithinitialsthatmayberecognized.Willyouripthemoutwithapenknife?"
"Shesearchedasbidden,foundthegarments,cutoutthestitchesofthelettering,andreplacedthelinenasbefore.Apromisetopost,intheeventofhisdeath,aletterheputinherhand,completedallthatherequiredofher.
"Hethankedher."Ithinkyouseemsorryforme,"hemurmured."AndIamsurprised.Youaresorry?"
"Sheevadedthequestion."Doyourepentandbelieve?"sheasked.
""No."
"Contrarytoherexpectationsandhisownherecovered,thoughveryslowly;andhermannergrewmoredistantthenceforward,thoughhisinfluenceuponherwasdeeperthansheknew.Weekspassedaway,andthemonthofMayarrived.Onedayatthistimeshemethimwalkingslowlyalongthebeachtothenorthward.
""Youknowthenews?"hesaid.
""YoumeanoftherupturebetweenFranceandEnglandagain?"
""Yes;andthefeelingofantagonismisstrongerthanitwasinthelastwar,owingtoBonaparte"shigh-handedarrestoftheinnocentEnglishwhoweretravellinginourcountryforpleasure.Ifeelthatthewarwillbelongandbitter;andthatmywishtoliveunknowninEnglandwillbefrustrated.Seehere."
"Hetookfromhispocketapieceofthesinglenewspaperwhichcirculatedinthecountyinthosedays,andsheread-
"ThemagistratesactingundertheAlienActhavebeenrequestedtodirectaveryscrutinizingeyetotheAcademiesinourtownsandotherplaces,inwhichFrenchtutorsareemployed,andtoallofthatnationalitywhoprofesstobeteachersinthiscountry.ManyofthemareknowntobeinveterateEnemiesandTraitorstothenationamongwhosepeopletheyhavefoundalivelihoodandahome."
"Hecontinued:"Ihaveobservedsincethedeclarationofwaramarkeddifferenceintheconductoftherougherclassofpeopleheretowardsme.Ifagreatbattleweretooccur——asitsoonwill,nodoubt——feelingwouldgrowtoapitchthatwouldmakeitimpossibleforme,adisguisedmanofnoknownoccupation,tostayhere.Withyou,whosedutiesandantecedentsareknown,itmaybelessdifficult,butstillunpleasant.NowIproposethis.Youhaveprobablyseenhowmydeepsympathywithyouhasquickenedtoawarmfeeling;andwhatIsayis,willyouagreetogivemeatitletoprotectyoubyhonouringmewithyourhand?Iamolderthanyou,itistrue,butashusbandandwifewecanleaveEnglandtogether,andmakethewholeworldourcountry.ThoughIwouldproposeQuebec,inCanada,astheplacewhichoffersthebestpromiseofahome."
""MyGod!Yousurpriseme!"saidshe.
""Butyouacceptmyproposal?"
""No,no!"
""AndyetIthinkyouwill,Mademoiselle,someday!"
""Ithinknot."
""Iwon"tdistressyoufurthernow."
""MuchthanksIamgladtoseeyoulookingbetter,Monsieur;I
meanyouarelookingbetter."
""Ah,yes.Iamimproving.Iwalkinthesuneveryday."
"Andalmosteverydayshesawhim——sometimesnoddingstifflyonly,sometimesexchangingformalcivilities."Youarenotgoneyet,"shesaidononeoftheseoccasions.
""No.AtpresentIdon"tthinkofgoingwithoutyou."
""Butyoufindituncomfortablehere?"
""Somewhat.Sowhenwillyouhavepityonme?"
"Sheshookherheadandwentonherway.Yetshewasalittlemoved.
"Hediditonprinciple,"shewouldmurmur."Hehadnoanimositytowardsthem,andprofitednothing!"
"Shewonderedhowhelived.Itwasevidentthathecouldnotbesopoorasshehadthought;hispretendedpovertymightbetoescapenotice.Shecouldnottell,butsheknewthatshewasdangerouslyinterestedinhim.
"Andhestillmended,tillhisthin,palefacebecamemorefullandfirm.Ashemendedshehadtomeetthatrequestofhis,advancedwithevenstrongerinsistency.
"ThearrivaloftheKingandCourtfortheseasonasusualbroughtmatterstoaclimaxforthesetwolonelyexilesandfellowcountry-
people.TheKing"sawkwardpreferenceforapartofthecoastinsuchdangerousproximitytoFrancemadeitnecessarythatastrictmilitaryvigilanceshouldbeexercisedtoguardtheroyalresidents.
Half-a-dozenfrigateswereeverynightpostedinalineacrossthebay,andtwolinesofsentinels,oneatthewater"sedgeandanotherbehindtheEsplanade,occupiedthewholesea-frontaftereighteverynight.Thewatering-placewasgrowinganinconvenientresidenceevenforMademoiselleV——herself,herfriendshipforthisstrangeFrenchtutorandwriting-masterwhoneverhadanypupilshavingbeenobservedbymanywhoslightlyknewher.TheGeneral"swife,whosedependentshewas,repeatedlywarnedheragainsttheacquaintance;
whiletheHanoverianandothersoldiersoftheForeignLegion,whohaddiscoveredthenationalityofherfriend,weremoreaggressivethantheEnglishmilitarygallantswhomadeittheirbusinesstonoticeher.
"Inthistensestateofaffairsheranswersbecamemoreagitated."O
Heaven,howcanImarryyou!"shewouldsay.
""Youwill;surelyyouwill!"heansweredagain."Idon"tleavewithoutyou.AndIshallsoonbeinterrogatedbeforethemagistratesifIstayhere;probablyimprisoned.Youwillcome?"
"Shefeltherdefencesbreakingdown.Contrarytoallreasonandsenseoffamilyhonourshewas,bysomeabnormalcraving,incliningtoatendernessforhimthatwasfoundedonitsopposite.Sometimesherwarmsentimentsburntlowerthanatothers,andthentheenormityofherconductshoweditselfinmorestaringhues.
"Shortlyafterthishecamewitharesignedlookonhisface."ItisasIexpected,"hesaid."Ihavereceivedahinttogo.Ingoodsooth,IamnoBonapartist——IamnoenemytoEngland;butthepresenceoftheKingmadeitimpossibleforaforeignerwithnovisibleoccupation,andwhomaybeaspy,toremainatlargeinthetown.Theauthoritiesarecivil,butfirm.Theyarenomorethanreasonable.Good.Imustgo.Youmustcomealso."
"Shedidnotspeak.Butshenoddedassent,hereyesdrooping.
"OnherwaybacktothehouseontheEsplanadeshesaidtoherself,"Iamglad,Iamglad!Icouldnotdootherwise.Itisrenderinggoodforevil!"Butsheknewhowshemockedherselfinthis,andthatthemoralprinciplehadnotoperatedonejotinheracceptanceofhim.Intruthshehadnotrealizedtillnowthefullpresenceoftheemotionwhichhadunconsciouslygrownupinherforthislonelyandsevereman,who,inhertradition,wasvengeanceandirreligionpersonified.Heseemedtoabsorbherwholenature,and,absorbing,tocontrolit.
"AdayortwobeforetheonefixedfortheweddingtherechancedtocometoheraletterfromtheonlyacquaintanceofherownsexandcountryshepossessedinEngland,onetowhomshehadsentintelligenceofherapproachingmarriage,withoutmentioningwithwhom.Thisfriend"smisfortuneshadbeensomewhatsimilartoherown,whichfacthadbeenonecauseoftheirintimacy;herfriend"ssister,anunoftheAbbeyofMontmartre,havingperishedonthescaffoldatthehandsofthesameComitedeSalutPublicwhichhadnumberedMademoiselleV——"saffiancedamongitsmembers.Thewriterhadfeltherpositionmuchagainoflate,sincetherenewalofthewar,shesaid;andtheletterwoundupwithafreshdenunciationoftheauthorsoftheirmutualbereavementandsubsequenttroubles.
"Comingjustthen,itscontentsproduceduponMademoiselleV——theeffectofapailofwateruponasomnambulist.Whathadshebeendoinginbetrothingherselftothisman!Wasshenotmakingherselfaparricideaftertheevent?Atthiscrisisinherfeelingsherlovercalled.Hebeheldhertrembling,and,inreplytohisquestion,shetoldhimofherscrupleswithimpulsivecandour.
"Shehadnotintendedtodothis,buthisattitudeoftendercommandcoercedherintofrankness.Thereuponheexhibitedanagitationneverbeforeapparentinhim.Hesaid,"Butallthatispast.YouarethesymbolofCharity,andwearepledgedtoletbygonesbe."
"Hiswordssoothedherforthemoment,butshewassadlysilent,andhewentaway.
"Thatnightshesaw(asshefirmlybelievedtotheendofherlife)adivinelysentvision.Aprocessionofherlostrelatives——father,brother,uncle,cousin——seemedtocrossherchamberbetweenherbedandthewindow,andwhensheendeavouredtotracetheirfeaturessheperceivedthemtobeheadless,andthatshehadrecognizedthembytheirfamiliarclothesonly.Inthemorningshecouldnotshakeofftheeffectsofthisappearanceonhernerves.Allthatdayshesawnothingofherwooer,hebeingoccupiedinmakingarrangementsfortheirdeparture.Itgrewtowardsevening——themarriageeve;but,inspiteofhisre-assuringvisit,hersenseoffamilydutywaxedstrongernowthatshewasleftalone.Yet,sheaskedherself,howcouldshe,aloneandunprotected,goatthiseleventhhourandreasserttoanaffiancedhusbandthatshecouldnotandwouldnotmarryhimwhileadmittingatthesametimethatshelovedhim?Thesituationdismayedher.Shehadrelinquishedherpostasgoverness,andwasstayingtemporarilyinaroomnearthecoach-office,wheresheexpectedhimtocallinthemorningtocarryoutthebusinessoftheirunionanddeparture.
"Wiselyorfoolishly,MademoiselleV——cametoaresolution:thatheronlysafetylayinflight.Hiscontiguityinfluencedhertoosensibly;shecouldnotreason.Sopackingupherfewpossessionsandplacingonthetablethesmallsumsheowed,shewentoutprivately,securedalastavailableseatintheLondoncoach,and,almostbeforeshehadfullyweighedheraction,shewasrollingoutofthetownintheduskoftheSeptemberevening.
"Havingtakenthisstartlingstepshebegantoreflectuponherreasons.HehadbeenoneofthattragicCommitteethesoundofwhosenamewasahorrortothecivilizedworld;yethehadbeenonlyoneofseveralmembers,and,itseemed,notthemostactive.Hehadmarkeddownnamesonprinciple,hadfeltnopersonalenmityagainsthisvictims,andhadenrichedhimselfnotasououtoftheofficehehadheld.Nothingcouldchangethepast.Meanwhilehelovedher,andherheartinclinedtoasmuchofhimasshecoulddetachfromthatpast.Whynot,ashehadsuggested,burymemories,andinaugurateanewerabythisunion?Inotherwords,whynotindulgehertenderness,sinceitsnullificationcoulddonogood.
"Thussheheldself-communioninherseatinthecoach,passingthroughCasterbridge,andShottsford,andontotheWhiteHartatMelchester,atwhichplacethewholefabricofherrecentintentionscrumbleddown.Betterbestaunchhavinggotsofar;letthingstaketheircourse,andmarryboldlythemanwhohadsoimpressedher.Howgreathewas;howsmallwasshe!Andshehadpresumedtojudgehim!
Abandoningherplaceinthecoachwiththeprecipitancythathadcharacterizedhertakingit,shewaitedtillthevehiclehaddrivenoff,somethinginthedepartingshapesoftheoutsidepassengersagainstthestarlitskygivingherastart,assheafterwardsremembered.Presentlythedowncoach,"TheMorningHerald,"enteredthecity,andshehastilyobtainedaplaceonthetop.
""I"llbefirm——I"llbehis——ifitcostmemyimmortalsoul!"shesaid.Andwithtroubledbreathingsshejourneyedbackovertheroadshehadjusttraced.
"Shereachedourroyalwatering-placebythetimethedaybroke,andherfirstaimwastogetbacktothehiredroominwhichherlastfewdayshadbeenspent.WhenthelandladyappearedatthedoorinresponsetoMademoiselleV——"snervoussummons,sheexplainedhersuddendepartureandreturnasbestshecould;andnoobjectionbeingofferedtoherre-engagementoftheroomforonedaylongersheascendedtothechamberandsatdownpanting.Shewasbackoncemore,andherwildtergiversationswereasecretfromhimwhomalonetheyconcerned.
"Asealedletterwasonthemantelpiece."Yes,itisdirectedtoyou,Mademoiselle,"saidthewomanwhohadfollowedher."Butwewerewonderingwhattodowithit.Atownmessengerbroughtitafteryouhadgonelastnight."
"Whenthelandladyhadleft,MademoiselleV——openedtheletterandread-
"MYDEARANDHONOUREDFRIEND——Youhavebeenthroughoutouracquaintanceabsolutelycandidconcerningyourmisgivings.ButI
havebeenreservedconcerningmine.Thatisthedifferencebetweenus.Youprobablyhavenotguessedthateveryqualmyouhavefeltonthesubjectofourmarriagehasbeenparalleledinmyhearttothefull.Thusithappenedthatyourinvoluntaryoutburstofremorseyesterday,thoughmechanicallydeprecatedbymeinyourpresence,wasalastiteminmyowndoubtsonthewisdomofourunion,givingthemaforcethatIcouldnolongerwithstand.Icamehome;and,onreflection,muchasIhonourandadoreyou,Idecidetosetyoufree.
"Asonewhoselifehasbeendevoted,andImaysaysacrificed,tothecauseofLiberty,Icannotallowyourjudgment(probablyapermanentone)tobefetteredbeyondreleasebyafeelingwhichmaybetransientonly.
"ItwouldbenolessthanexcruciatingtoboththatIshouldannouncethisdecisiontoyoubywordofmouth.Ihavethereforetakenthelesspainfulcourseofwriting.BeforeyoureceivethisIshallhaveleftthetownbytheeveningcoachforLondon,onreachingwhichcitymymovementswillberevealedtonone.
"Regardme,Mademoiselle,asdead,andacceptmyrenewedassurancesofrespect,remembrance,andaffection."
"Whenshehadrecoveredfromhershockofsurpriseandgrief,sherememberedthatatthestartingofthecoachoutofMelchesterbeforedawn,theshapeofafigureamongtheoutsidepassengersagainstthestarlitskyhadcausedheramomentarystart,fromitsresemblancetothatofherfriend.Knowingnothingofeachother"sintentions,andscreenedfromeachotherbythedarkness,theyhadleftthetownbythesameconveyance."He,thegreater,persevered;I,thesmaller,returned!"shesaid.